Translations from The Colosian

Translations from The Colosian

During the years when the first starships were crawling out from Earth, I sat one night in an open-air theater under strange constellations, watching a performance of Antigone?

The title was different, of course. And the characters had different names. I didn’t understand the language, the playwright was somebody named Tyr, and Creon had fangs. For that matter, so did Antigone, and the guy sitting immediately to my right. But you can’t miss the stark cadence of that desperate drama. I'd have known it in Swahili. The old passions don’t change: even there, on that far world, where the Milky Way is only a point of light visible on clear nights; even there, reflected on the faces of a species that would have sent those early Hellenic audiences screaming into the woods, I knew them. Inexorably, while Harvey Klein and I watched through the narrow slits of our masks, the tragedy played itself out. And if I’d had any doubts about the nature of the creatures among whom I was spending the evening, they dissipated during the performance. The spectators held their breath in the right places, and gasped and trembled on cue. When it was over, they filed out thoroughly subdued, some surreptitiously wiping their eyes. They had been a damned good audience, and I admired them, fangs, fur, snouts, and all.

I think quite often about that evening, and wonder how something that began so well could have gone so wrong. It’s more than twenty years now: but I remember the theater as though it were only last weekend. Basically, it was a brick platform with wings, balconies, and oil lamps. After the show, we climbed a hill behind it, and stood in the flicker of summer lightning, watching workers draw large squares of canvas over the stage. Klein looked around to be sure we were alone, coughed consumptively, pulled back his hood, and removed the mask. He took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. “Well,” he asked,-“was I right?”

I nodded, and then realized he couldn’t see the gesture. “Yes,” I said, taking off my own headpiece. The horns glinted in the light of an enormous green and yellow disc that arced over the entire eastern horizon. “Yes, it is Sophocles.”

“You’ll be interested in knowing,” said Klein, “that the thing we watched tonight was written over two thousand years ago, our time, during this world’s political and literary golden age.”

“Not possible,” I said. My sandals hurt. The best footwear that Klein had been able to come up with on short notice was Japanese. I was wearing false fur on my insteps, and the thong ran up between my second and third toes, rubbing the furpiece into my flesh.

It was a long ride from Glen Ellyn to that pleasant park, two million light years or so. But I felt at home among its deep glades and flat-bladed ferns that smelled vaguely of mint. The grass was freshly cut, and neatly trimmed hedges bordered gravel walks.

Klein looked puzzled. “You don’t seem surprised, George,” he said. “I would have thought that seeing a Greek play out here would come as something of a shock.”

That was a laugh. A few hours earlier I’d walked with Klein through the windowless, crooked storeroom nailed to the back of his two-story frame house. We’d entered from the kitchen, and we’d come out here.

“Where, precisely, are we?”

“I’m not too sure,” he said. “Somewhere in M32, which is one of the Local Group of galaxies. The inhabitants call the place Melchior.” A cool breeze blew across the brow of the hill. Klein looked unwell in the torpid light of the monster moon. He’d had a long history of high blood pressure and diabetes, and he occasionally mixed his insulin with rum. “How do you account for it?” he asked. “How does it happen that these people are watching Sophoclean drama?”

“One thing at a time,” I said. “How did we get here? What’s the point of having starships that take years to go to places like this if we can simply walk across?”

“Oh,” he smiled, “no starship will ever come here.”

“Why not?”

“We’re much too far.” He pulled his robe up around his knees and lowered himself awkwardly onto the ocher-colored grass. “How much physics do you know?”

“Not much.”

Klein glanced tolerantly toward the dark forest pressing on the far side of the park. “George, it’s all a matter of perception. We live in a queer universe, which is both physical and conceptual. Stone and shadow.” He picked up a dry branch which lay beside him, and examined it. Then he snapped it in two. “The hill we’re sitting on is really here, but our perception holds it in place. Imposes order, as Brooking might say. Or Emerson. That branch is only partly wood. It’s also an idea.

“Space is subject to the same laws. It’s influenced by the observer.”

“How does that connect your back door with this place?”

“Distance is a function of the mind,” he said.

I looked at him, trying to understand, wondering whether he was amusing himself at my expense. “Are you trying to say there’s no such thing as space? That it doesn’t really exist?”

“Of course not, George. What I am saying is that the intelligent observer has a much larger role in ordering things than we ever before realized. We used to think of ourselves as standing outside somewhere inspecting a huge machine. Now we know that we’re part of the machine. No: more than that, we’re part of the fuel.” He glanced at the sky. Most of the stars had begun to fade in the growing light of the rising disc. “It’s distance that is an illusion, a convention, a linear measurement of a quality whose reality we establish. Listen, I know that’s not easy to understand. It’s hard to explain. But it works. You’re here.”

“Yes, I’m here. But where? In a place where they perform classical drama? How the hell does that happen?”

“I don’t know. I wanted you to tell me.”

Well, I damn sure had no idea, and I told him so. Having settled that, I got up to go, but he wasn’t anxious to leave. I realized finally that he was ill, and trying to conceal the fact. Curious: Klein could stroll between the galaxies, but he couldn’t do a thing about his high blood pressure. “Can you go anywhere?” I asked.

“Hell, I can’t even go into Chicago.” He laughed. “It’s true. I have to take the train down to the Institute. I’m jammed in three mornings a week with all those commuters for three-quarters of an hour.” His chin had sunk onto his knees, and he seemed to be losing substance inside the robe. “The truth is, I only seem to be able to come out here. I have access to about a dozen star systems, all in this neighborhood. I don’t know why that should be.”

We sat awhile. Here and there, below us, lights moved through the gloom. He slapped at a flying insect. We were on a long, diamond-shaped island at the confluence of two broad rivers, one of which was obviously too rough for navigation. A half-dozen shallow-draft vessels were anchored in a small wharf-lined harbor. Several barges floated alongside short piers, piled high with casks and crates. Away from the waterfront area, which was commercial in aspect, were numerous clusters of small homes of a distinctly Bavarian flavor. These were interspersed with brightly illuminated shops and wide courtyards. “Maybe,” I said, “the way you get around explains all this. Antigone, I mean.”

“How’s that?”

“Maybe this playwright, what’s his name, Tyr, might have understood about, uh, traveling, whatever. Maybe he took his vacations in Athens. You know, go to the theater, see the Olympics. Would he have had the technology? Do you have to have a store room?”

Klein grinned. “Not a store room, George. Just something to use as a funnel.” He pulled his robe tightly around himself as protection against the gathering chill. “Aulis Tyr,” he continued, “lived in a place called Colosia. It’s halfway round the planet and, if my sources are correct, it’s only ruins now. But it was the seedbed of this world’s ideas about art, ethics, government, and philosophy. They had no real technology in the sense that we understand the term. Oh, some primitive stuff, maybe: they had the harrow, and some timepieces. They understood about pendulums. And they had the printing press. In fact, I don’t think Melchior has much more than that now. But no technology is needed to travel. All that’s necessary is a grasp of the true nature of matter and timespace.” His eyes drifted shut and he shook his head slightly. “But it’s difficult to see how anyone, operating without the insights provided by quantum mechanics, could get behind the misperceptions our senses force on us, and arrive at the true state of affairs. But how else could it have happened? Of course,” he said, doubtfully, “the chances of a traveler from ancient Colosia finding Earth would be remote. To say the least.”

I watched a lamplighter working his way slowly through the waterfront area. “Not necessarily,” I said. “He might have the same sort of limitation you do: you come here; he goes there.” But no: that made no sense either. “If somebody had developed that kind of technique, these people wouldn’t be living in little pre-industrial Revolution villages.”

“Help me up,” said Klein, stretching out a hand. A thin sheen of perspiration dampened his neck, despite the coolness of the night. “How do you lose the secret of the ages?” he asked rhetorically. “The answer is, that anyone smart enough to figure it out knows too much about human nature—or the nature of intelligent creatures—to let them get their hands on it. Or even to let them know it’s there.”

“Why?”

“Why?” His jaw tightened. “Don’t you read anything except poetry?” He held the devil’s mask in one hand and turned it slowly round. “Because,” he said, suddenly grinning, “the bedrooms of the universe would lie open. Have you considered what you and I could do were we not so high-principled? There’d be no defense, anywhere, against any who possessed the knowledge. Or at least there wouldn’t be once we got the damned thing working properly. And while we’re on the subject, has it occurred to you that we may not be the first visitors from Earth? Maybe one of your Greeks figured it all out, showed up here, and left some of his reading material in Colosia when he went home.”

The huge moon had finally disconnected itself from the horizon. Its northern tip was almost directly overhead: the last few stars had winked out.

“What the hell kind of moon is that?” I asked. It was banded, like Jupiter. And a huge, pale blue disc floated just above the equator.

“That’s Encubis,” said Klein. “We’re the moon.” We’d started down the hill, but he looked over his shoulder at the planet. “It’s a gas giant, of course. I don’t know how big it is, but we’re a little too close. This world has the highest tides you’ve ever seen, and the heaviest weather.” He squinted at the thing. “Goddam eyeball in the middle of it is a storm, like the one on Jupiter. Been there as long as people can remember. It’s a wonder everyone here isn’t a religious fanatic.”

Two of the creatures approached along the base of the hill, and passed. Young couple, I thought, judging by the fluidity of their movements, and the proximity they kept. We could smell the river in the night air.

We strolled down toward the trees without saying much, and after a time he looked at me curiously. “What’s so funny?”

I hadn’t realized my feelings showed. “We have an immortal with feet of clay.”

“You’re thinking of Aulis Tyr?”

I nodded. He said nothing further until we were back in the store room. Then he closed the storm door and smiled. “The plagiarist,” he said, “could just as easily be Sophocles.”

Klein provided me with a local copy of the Antigone, which is to say that it was a translation from the ancient Colosian into the language currently spoken in that part of Melchior which we’d visited. It was contained in a collection of eight plays by three major playwrights of the period. He added a dictionary and a grammar, and I set myself to acquiring some degree of facility, and did so within a few weeks.

There were substantial differences between .Tyr’s Antigone and Sophocles’ masterpiece, which, naturally, I was familiar with in the original Greek. Nevertheless, tone and nuance, character and plot, were similar beyond any possibility of coincidence.

Two other plays in the collection were credited to Tyr. They were works of subtle power, both (I felt) on a level comparable with the Antigone. I recognized neither at first; yet I felt I knew the characters.

The hero of one is a young warrior with a besieging army, who falls in love with the daughter of the enemy king. In an effort to stop the war, he allows himself to be lured into a chapel rendezvous during which he is murdered from ambush by the woman’s archer brother.

In the second drama, an old king apparently given to habitual dissembling meets a long-lost son. But neither recognizes the other, and their natural propensity for deceit (the son is not unlike the father) exacerbates the misunderstanding until, ultimately, they meet in combat by the sea. And the son is triumphant:

Death from the sea, and a warrior stricken in a chapel: Odysseus on the beach, and Achilles. Only seven of Sophocles’ plays have survived, of more than a hundred known to have existed. Did I possess two more?

I read through each again and again, absorbed in the thrust,and delicacy of the language. I was at the time working on an analysis of irregular verbs in Middle English, and the contrast between Tyr’s iambs, drenched in sunlight and desire, and my own heavyfooted prose, was painfully evident. It is a terrible thing to have just enough talent to recognize one’s own mediocrity.

I had then, as I have now, a quarter-million word novel packed away in .three stationery boxes pushed onto a back shelf in the walk-in closet in my bedroom. It was tattered, the edges frayed by repeated mailings, the paper brittle and dry. My father lives in those pages, smoldering, silent, alcoholic; and Charlotte Endicott, whose bright green eyes have not yet entirely faded from my nights. And Kip Williams, who played third base with ferocity, rescued two children from a fire, and died in the war.

A quarter-million words, filled with the passions, and braced with the sensibilities, of a young lifetime. I called it The Trees of Avignon. And I knew it was utter trash.

All the years of writing commentary on Byron and Mark Twain, on Virgil and Yeats, had left me with too exquisite a taste not to recognize my own work for what it was. What would I not have given to possess the genius of the creator of Antigone?

And that, I knew, was precisely the temptation to which Aulis Tyr had succumbed. “There’s just no question,” I told Harvey. “It’s a clear case of plagiarism.”

Klein nodded thoughtfully. We were seated before a wide fireplace in his richly-paneled study, sipping daiquiris. Yes: a creature from a world with a taste for literature had seen an opportunity to be Sophocles. And had made it count. “Maybe,” mused Klein. “But I think we should withhold our opinion as to who stole what until all the evidence is in.”

I drained my glass. “Are you suggesting we go back?”

“We have a mystery, George.” The fire was dying, and he stared solemnly into the embers. “Would you like,” he asked, “to meet my contact on Melchior?’

“Your contact? You mean you’ve talked to one of them?”

“Where did you think I get my information? Yes: I know a man runs a bookshop.” He angled his watch to read it. “It's getting dark there now. Sun's down, and it’ll be a little while-before Encubus comes up.”

We put on our robes and masks, strolled out into the store room, past stacks of paneling and trim (he was, at the time, repairing his porch), opened the storm door, and stepped onto a blue shale walkway, lined with white bark trees. (It was not the glade into which we’d emerged the first time. “How the hell,” I asked, “do you do that?” But he only looked amused.) We were in front of a weaver’s shop, a graceful structure of gray stone and glass, illuminated by candles.

Three or four persons (I don’t know what else to call them) were seated on a bench across a garden, under an oil street lamp. They looked at us curiously, but continued their conversation. The night sky was overcast: it would remain gloomy even after the planet rose.

Klein took a moment to get his bearings, and then started off briskly. “Don’t let anyone get a good look at you,” he said. “If they realize you’re wearing a mask, they get nervous. I tried showing my face to an elderly citizen on a bench, and he almost had apoplexy. In the end, I gave up and decided to steal what I needed. Chaser caught me at it.”

“Chaser? Is that the book dealer?” He nodded. “It’s a strange name.”

“Those are the third and fourth syllables.” Klein strode contentedly along the bush-lined street. “I wanted history books, and a couple of general reference works. I saw some likely prospects through the window of his shop, and tried to appropriate them. He caught me.

“It was a bad moment. He grabbed me by the shoulder. I jumped a foot, the mask came off, and Chaser backed into a stand of cheap novels.”

“What happened then?”

“You ever see a fullsize devil, horns, cloven hoofs, and sharp white teeth, fall over a load of books? I started laughing: I couldn’t help myself. I mean, if Old Nick has anything, it’s supposed to be dignity.

“But he was between me and the door. I’d gone down too, and I was looking at his fangs and ruby eyes through a crosshatch of table legs and struts.”

“What did you do?”

”I said hello. And he laughed. It was part snort and part belch, but I know a belly laugh when I hear one.”

We’d veered off the walkway, pushed through some ferns, and entered a cul-de-sac. It was a circular courtyard, overgrown with heavy foliage, and ringed with smoking lamps. The bookstore lay directly opposite the entrance to the courtyard: it was a modest, wood frame building, with volumes stacked against a half-dozen windows on two floors. Outside, more books were bunched on tables, under neat handlettered signs identifying their category. “The bargain basement,” Harvey remarked.

When the shop had emptied, we went inside. I was too nervous to examine the packed shelves, despite my curiosity. We passed into an interior room, and came face to face with the bookseller.

He sat, or crouched, at a desk of polished stone. One horn was broken, his fur was drab, and he wore heavy steel-rimmed glasses. His eyes were not quite as Klein had described them; rather, they were of a red-flecked gray hue, yet not at all menacing. They rested on us momentarily; his lips rolled back slowly to reveal long, white, gently curving teeth. “Klein,” he said, rising, “you shouldn’t go walking about like that. Your mask is inadequate; it will attract attention.”

Harvey laughed. “Chaser thinks it has an idiot expression.”

I removed my own headpiece and looked at it. It would fool nobody in good light, up close. Off the face and away from the eyes, of course, it had no expression at all. “He must mean you, Harvey; not the mask.”

Chaser understood, clapped my shoulder, gave us all another look at his dental work, and disappeared in back. I heard bolts thrown on doors. Then he returned with a decanter and three glasses.

The drink was alcoholic, a warm wine that suggested macadamia nuts. Chaser raised the glass that Klein had filled for him, and studied Klein with (I thought) genuine affection. “I’m glad you came back, Harvey,” he said. He broke the name in half, leaned heavily on the first syllable, and pronounced it with a gurgle.

Klein introduced me. Chaser grunted his pleasure, and clasped my wrist, old-Roman style. “I was unsure whether to believe Harvey,” he said, “when he told me there were others like himself.” To my surprise, he downed his drink in what appeared to be a salute to the species.

“We saw Antigone several weeks ago,” said Klein, giving it its Colosian title. '

“And did you like it?”

“Yes,” I said. “It is a very powerful play.”

“I saw it myself on closing night.” Chaser’s voice was a kind of musical rumble. “The staging was a bit wooden for my taste. They have a director over in Qas Anaba…“

While he talked, I was struck by the familiarity of his gestures, and his opinions. I frowned at Klein: an alien culture is supposed to be alien, different values, incomprehensible logic, and all that. Chaser emphasized points by jabbing the air with his index finger, cupped his chin in one palm while he pondered questions of literary merit, and sighed helplessly in the face of views which he considered irredeemably wrongheaded.

Klein raised an eyebrow, and said, “I have yet to find a thoughtful being who would not have appreciated Antigone, who would not have understood its point.” Chaser nodded. “Maybe,” he continued, “we have fewer options than we think. Things that make sense, probably make sense everywhere.”

“Chaser,” I said, “tell me about Aulis Tyr.”

The bookdealer stared moodily at his drink. “He is the first of playwrights, George. His work has been equaled by one or two, but never surpassed. Even now, after so many centuries, he remains extremely popular. The summer theaters here and at Qas Anaba each do one of his plays every year. People come from quite far away to see the performances.”

“Your theater group,” I said, “is quite accomplished.”

“Thank you.”

“Of course, they would have to be to handle that kind of drama.”

“I agree,” he said. “Tyr is quite demanding of an actor. And a director. But the result, when it is done properly, is quite moving.”

From a shelf in an adjoining room, he produced two large leather volumes. “Unfortunately, we've lost most of his work. Two centuries after his death, the Colosians were overrun by barbarians. The idiots burned everything…” He passed me the books and turned to Klein; “Do you have a dramatist of similar stature?”

Harvey needed no thought for that one. “Shakespeare,” he said, almost offhandedly. That’s what happens when you ask a physicist a significant question.

“Shakespeare.” Chaser tasted the name, and shrugged. “George, you may keep the books.”

“Thank you.”

“And whatever else you can carry.” His eyes narrowed. “But I know you will wish to repay me in kind.”

“How?”

“I would like very much to read your Shakespeare. And I know you would find considerable pleasure in giving so fine a gift.”

“Okay,” I said. “And maybe I'll throw in Neil Simon while I’m at it.”

Chaser’s interest, which was already intense, deepened still more. “Who is Neil Simon? Another Shakespeare?”

“Oh, yes,” said Klein. I couldn’t tell whether he was serious.

“Excellent.” Chaser rubbed his hands; his tongue flicked across his lips. It was forked.

We went through several bottles while Chaser, with our encouragement, talked about the Colosians. We toasted Aulis Tyr and Will Shakespeare and Neil Simon. And, along toward midnight, the bookseller’s eyes misted. “Let us,” he said, “raise a glass to Aalish.”

Solemnly, we drank. “Who,” I asked, “is Aalish?”

Chaser looked at me with barely concealed astonishment. “I wouldn’t have believed, George, that any country could be so remote… But perhaps I’ve drunk too much. It’s not likely that you would know her, if you did not know Tyr. She also was Colosian, a contemporary of his, and, according to tradition, his lover.”

“As good a reason as any to remember the young lady,” muttered Klein, who had become entangled in his robe.

“No,” said Chaser, “you do not understand. Aalish was the first to use prose as an art form. At least, she is the first that we can recall. She was an essayist.”

“It’s hard to believe,” I said, “that prose could develop so early in a culture. We may have to rethink a few things.”

“These are people who love books,” observed Klein. His eyes were closed. “They have a passion for all the literary forms. Maybe it explains why their sciences never got off the ground.”

Chaser sniffed, but otherwise ignored the remark. “That was also the age,” he said, with cool condescension, “of Sesily Endine—” He paused to allow us to respond. When we did not, he added, quietly, “—the first great novelist.”

The two Tyr volumes were expensive editions, bound in tooled leather, with several woodcuts in each. Chaser argued good-naturedly with Klein about the state of Melchior’s science while I paged through them. There was a portrait of the great dramatist himself, in three-quarter profile. He had penetrating eyes, a round, almost hairless, skull, and the unmistakable stamp of genius.

There was also a schema for a Colosian theater, which was more or less in the round, and not at all like the one in the park; some lines of original text; and a broken column with an inscription. Everything was apparently in the ancient Colosian which, of course, I could not read.

“His memorial,” Chaser said, when I asked about the column. “It’s still there, but so are the barbarians. You would need an armed party to visit it.”

“What does the inscription say?”

The bookseller lowered himself stiffly into a worn upholstered chair. “The Colosians,” he said, “were alone in a world of savages: slave empires north and south, fierce mounted tribesmen on their flank. They were under constant military pressure, and had been defending their borders for three generations when, for a time, their enemies finally succeeded in resolving their own quarrels, and combined forces. The barbarians attacked by sea, landing a huge army in the heart of Colosian territory, and struck toward the capital. The defenders fought a series of brilliant delaying actions, and then unexpectedly counterattacked on the beach at Ananai.” Chaser paused for dramatic effect. “For six hours the issue was in doubt. But in the end, the Colosian navy sealed the area off, and the invaders were pushed into the sea. It bought security for almost a century. Tyr was a foot soldier in that battle…”

“Wait,” I said, suddenly chilled. “The inscription: it says nothing of his reputation as a playwright. It says only that he fought at Ananai, with the Colosians.”

Chaser stared at me. “You’ve heard the story before? They felt it was the highest honor they could bestow.”

“Yes,” I said. “I’ve heard the story before.”

When we were back in the store room, Klein asked me to explain. Each of us was somewhat wobbly by then, and I led the way into the kitchen, and pointed to the coffee pot. “Aeschylus’ tomb had the same inscription: ’He fought at Marathon with the Athenians.’ ”

Klein shook his head. “More plagiarism. And we still don’t really know who’s guilty.”

“Yes, we do. On a world full of booklovers, the historians should be fairly accurate. If so, Aeschylus died about the time Tyr was born. So that, I think, pins it down.”

“Well,” said Klein, “I’m glad your faith has been rewarded.”

I said goodnight and hurried home through a light rainfall. But I couldn’t sleep, and ended the evening on my front porch, listening to the wind beat against the windows, and the water rattle through the drains.

Tyr had apparently been a scientist in a society devoted to the arts. I wondered if he’d envied Aalish in the way that I envied Klein. (Living next door to genius can be painful.) Somehow, he’d learned to travel, and had visited Athens, probably during the time of Pericles. He would eventually have been drawn to the theater, although disguise must have been difficult. Maybe he hid in a tree. Hell, if he could walk between galaxies, maybe he could make himself invisible. And one evening he’d seen his first Sophoclean drama.

He must have returned to Colosia with a collection of plays (and an admiration for Aeschylus’ tomb), selected one, and released it as his own. My God, how he must have savored that moment! I wondered which it had been, that first night? Oedipus? Electra? Do you start with a blockbuster? Or work up to it gradually? I tried to imagine how it would feel to sit in the audience as the creator of a timeless masterpiece, watching it play the first time, and knowing, really knowing, the significance of the moment.

I returned to Melchior one more time, to deliver an Oxford Shakespeare, a Webster's Unabridged, and my own translation of Lear into Chaser’s language. The bookdealer could not conceal his joy. He pounded my back, pumped my hand, poured wine, and gave me three of Endine’s novels, some poetry, and a collection of the surviving essays of Aalish. We talked and drank, and at one point during the evening, Klein predicted that rational cultures will turn out to be quite alike in their essence. “There will be trivial differences in the ways that we greet one another,” he said, “or in the manner that we conduct business, or in our views on clothing and entertainment. But in the qualities that define civilization, we will agree. The proprietors of secondhand bookstores,” and his eyes locked with Chaser's, “will be found to be everywhere the same.”

He could not have been more wrong.

Two months later, Klein was dead. He was stricken in the middle of the night, and died in an ambulance. I was, at the time, lecturing on Horace at the University of North Dakota.

When I got home, ten days later, the store room had been taken down. I offered my condolences to his daughter, and inquired, as diplomatically as I could, what care was being taken to preserve his papers. At her father’s direction, she said, they’d been gathered and burnt the day after the funeral. She cried a little, and 1 thought about the bedrooms of the universe, and walked around to the rear of Klein’s house and looked at the pile of lumber, which had not yet been hauled away. After making the discovery of the ages, he’d elected to let the credit slide, and had gone silently to his grave.

And I? I was left with some newly-discovered Sophoclean plays, and some alien masterpieces, none of which I could account for.

I tried to lose myself in my work, but my classes were tedious, and I grew weary of the long struggles with semiliterate undergraduates.

I read extensively from Chaser’s books: Endine’s dark novels were Dostoievskian in scope and character. They left me drained, and depressed me even more.

I was glad to retreat from those bleak tales to Aalish. She must have lived near a coastline: the distant roar of the tide is somehow present throughout her work. One has a sense of the author alone among rocks and breakers and stranded sea creatures, the universe itself reflected on deep water. But her vitality and her laughter (it is difficult to believe that she is not somewhere still alive) reduce the cosmos to a human scale: it is a thing, like an old shell found on the beach, that she turns and examines in her hands.

Her essays maintain everywhere a spirited wit, and an unbending optimism, a sense that, if it all ends in a dark plunge, there is meantime starlight, good wine, good books, good friends.

No wonder Tyr loved her.

And there came, finally, a snowswept evening when I confronted my obligation to share her with the world. But how to do it? What explanation could I possibly give?

I don’t argue that the course I took was the correct one, but I did not know of an alternative, nor can I conceive of one now. I translated one of her more delicate efforts, a treatise on a neglected architectural design, which shaded subtly into an unbearably poignant rumination on the nature of time.

And I put my own name on it.

It appeared in the April issue of Greenstreet's. I felt guilty about it, of course. There was clearly a delicate moral problem involved. But I felt that compromising myself was not too great a sacrifice to give these magnificent essays to the world. There was, of course, little immediate response. But the editors were pleased, and my colleagues offered their congratulations. (I didn’t miss the envy in some of their kudos.)

And I: I knew that George Thorne’s name would one day live alongside those of Montaigne and Lamb and Mark Twain. It was exhilarating.

My second effort was “Sea Star,” which has since become one of the most loved of the entire series. That was also one of the more obvious coastal pieces, and prompted my move to Rockland, Maine, in order to carry off the image.

I rationed the essays carefully, publishing only five or six a year. At one point, I took a two-year hiatus and faked writer’s block. But I’ve pretty well worked my way through Aalish now, and I’d begun wondering whether I didn’t owe the world a few great novels too.

Then the Lenin came back from Lalande 8760, its belly full of photos, artifacts, and tapes, detailed studies of distant worlds, and the history and literature of a nearby (but previously unknown) civilization. Lalande is only about eight light-years from Earth; in the neighborhood, as Klein would have said.

Perhaps I should not have been surprised. But it had not yet occurred to me that Athens might have been only a single stop in Tyr’s itinerary. Or that he might not have traveled alone.

The Lenin brought back three novels that, in translation, I recognized as the work of Sesily Endine. I read them carefully, and concluded reluctantly that, once again, there could be no doubt. At first I was puzzled how such a thing could be. But I think I know: Tyr and Endine traveled together. They went to Athens, and to Lalande, and probably to everywhere else they could reach. And if Tyr yearned to be a playwright, Endine must have wanted to create novels.

Fortunately, the Lalande mission came back before I’d used any of the novels myself. Now I have a good idea why Chaser was so anxious to have the Shakespeare collection. Chaser’s Hamlet: it should play well in the theater in the park, and eventually around his world. And his sonnets should do well too.

But that’s not what concerns me. Sometimes, in the deepest hours of the night, I think about Aalish, and I cannot make myself believe that the two men would not have taken her along.

I wonder who actually wrote the exquisite essays that now bear my name? Four more expeditions are due back over the next three years, and I suspect I will soon have the exact coordinates of the immortal seacoast from which the great essayist stood toe to toe with the universe. And smiled.