ПЕСКИ зимнего моря \ the SANDS of winter\ my WINTER sadness

@AUTHOR @NADIA SV HERMANOVICH ZUEVA SKARYNA

24/02/2023-20/03/2023

ROYAL HARODNA – MOSCOW

…SANDS OF WINTER … WINTER SADNESS…

THE STORY

I met him in LONDON ... that night i stayed at the bar till morning/ i had my cup of tea & ordered honey & lemon/ i felt not well/ i was sure i was running the high temperature/ just a little bit hopeless i was assuring myself/

that adventure started when i signed the rent papers for my flat. the refugees from HARKOFF needed it badly. the KARPENKO were in tears looking for the safe place to live. they lost it all at once/ NO MOTHERLAND! NO HOUSE! NO FLAT! NOHOPE! NO FUTURE!

They came to BELARUS & stayed at ALEX brother. VICTORIA asked the husband for the true comfort. they liked my flat, espessially the panarama view of the city.

my flat was occupied. i found myself in LONDON around 9 p.m. alone, feeling covided much, i was chatting on line when i heard the young men talking loud. i looked up & saw there were three of them, talking to the barman. the one of them, who sat in the middle, was dressed all black. he looked wize & tired. he reminded me of someone from the past. just younger.

they were drinking beer & seemed to be absolutely spare. i spent much time listening to the music & then he asked me suddenly. that man, i liked most. that man in black. he looked straight into my eyes & askedme

- are you spying on us? what are you writing? are you a journalist?

- yes i am

i showed him the documents

we were chatting freely & had supper together that friday night.

- thanks GOD its friday

i whispered

- that means you are free till monday

- right. that means we have time. we gained the time

- is time your main treasure?

- i am rich enought

- ha-ha

we took the taxi home & when i woke up the snow was falling heavilly.

the last day of FEBRUARY brought me the fairy tale i was dreaming of

we spent the weekend together. suprisingly strong & caring he cured my covid & even took me to bed hugging tenderly. i fell deep asleep.

next week the spring came at once. just the MARCH passion, i thought.

- you fell in love with me, - VLAD laughted

- how do you know?

- i see it in your eyes

- right. i feel it in your arms.

the week passed. the week for US...

THE WEEK PASSED. THE WEEK FOR US…SURPRISINGLY THE TWO IN ONE ROOM FLAT CREATING THE NEW WORLD. WE FELT LOST IN THE OCEAN FOUNDED ON THE ISLAND.

THE FIGHT WAS OVER. I WON. THE BEST WEAPON AGAINST THE SYSTEM NIGHTMARE - WAS HIS STRONG SHOULDER. WELL ARMED WE WERE FEARLESS.

ON THURSDAY, I GOT THE INVITATION FOR DINNER. MY SISTER IS MARRIED. THEY HAVE THE CAFÉ & SERVE THE BEST PIZZA IN TOWN.

WHEN SHE CALLED ME UP VLAD WAS CLOSE & COULD HEAR EACH WORD. HE WAS BUISY LOOKING THROUGHT HIS NOTES & PAYED NO ATTENTION TO THE CONVERSATION.

I ANNOUNCED THE MESSAGE.

WE LEFT THE HOUSE TOGETHER. HE KISSED ME & WAITED UNTIL THE TAXI CAME. I HAD THE BUSINESS IN THE CITY. WE PLANNED THE FIRST STAND – UP IN THE KARAOKE BAR.

AT 7 P.M. IN THE CAFÉ ALEXA MET ME ALONE

WE ORDERED FISH & BOTATE. SWEET, FRESH & NOURISHING

ON MY WAY HOME, I DECIDED TO PASSADORABLY IN THE CITY SOHO. THE CITY WAS IN LIGHTS. THE MUSIC SOUNDED …IT PLAYED THE LIBER TANGO…

THE INCOMMING CALL INTERRUPTED MY THOUGHTS. THAT WAS VLAD,

HE SWITCHED OFF.

IT WAS EARLY SPRING NIGHT. THE GRODNO EYE SPARKLED IN THE DARK. IT REMINDED ME OF KIDS TOYS THE FULL COLORED TELESCOPE IN MY HAND.

I OPENED THE DOOR WITH MY KEY. VLAD STOOD UP & CAME CLOSE TO ME. HE TOOK OFF MY OVERCOAT & KISSED ME ON THE LIPS.

CHAPTER 2

I knew we would split up soon. i knew it for sure. that was the plan. not totally his plan but the decision of their company of monsters

i tried to discuss it with VLAD

- please, tell me. are you in love with me? do you love me VLAD ? Please answer me

he would smile in the chesheer cat like manner... then close his eyes & murrmle...

- well... well....well... MY DEAR NADIA ... to tell you the truth ... speaking frankly... i am.... i do love you, my baby... i need to tell you... i am more thn the man... i am the knight... YOUR KNIGHT , HONEY. I AM TO MAKE YOU STRONGER... TO DEFEND YOU... TO PROTECT YOU... TO TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOU MY NADIA. remember, i told you - i am the officer. I AM THE OFFICER OF FAITH

- WELL YES! i know. YO ARE THE DEFENDER OF FAITH HOPE & PASSION ... THAT IMPRESSES ME MUCH

VLAD TOOK MY HAND & COUNTED THE FINGERS ON MY RIGHT HAND.

WE KEPT SILENT FOR A MINUTE

- I took the ticket to MOSCOW

- When are you leaving?

- on monday

- i see the year ahead, honey, no reason to be upset

- i know. i do believe you, VLAD! even more I HAVE FAITH IN BETTER FUTURE. it is for the first time when i do not feel desparate & abondaned ... suprisingly encouraging

- i know. i know much. i know much more than you think...

- hope so. you are strong enought to support me. i was looking for a strong man. STRONG INDEED.

- THE FAITH IS MY STRENGTH

- CREDO.... I KISSED HIM GENTLY & PASSIONATELLY

TIME TO GET UP! HIGH TIME! PRIME TIME!

the alarm rang. i switched it off & went to the kitchen. we had breakfast together & left the flat at 10 a\m sharp.

my future lifeline ran without VLAD. he was on the phone & seemed to be delighted with my progress in RUSSIA. he never called first & always answed my messages short.

i kept him on my mind. i dont know why

MAYBE THAT WAS THE BEST WEEK IN MY LIFE... OR HE WAS THE STRONGEST MAN IN THE CITY.... OR MAYBE HE WAS THE MOST REAL ONE....

NOT THE DREAM ... NOT THE FANTAZY ....NOT THE IMAGE ....BUT

THE REAL MAN IN BLACK

IN MY WINTER SADNESS….

THE END