It was Mr. Thomas Dunn, in the library, with the book. Her best friend, Lori, kept saying. “If it wasn’t for him, you wouldn’t have this stupid bee in your bonnet about this whole BDSM thing!” and she was probably right. It was quiet, polite, balding and bespectacled Mr. Dunn coming into her library looking for “ The Erotic Bondage Handbook ” who had created an itch she couldn’t quite scratch, who had set her, unwittingly, down this very path, a long and winding road that now ended with Katie sobbing uncontrollably, naked, on her knees, and choking on a ball-gag.
Katie learned everything from books-she always had. She supposed most librarians did. So while it started with her own copy of “ The Erotic Bondage Handbook,” it didn’t end there. She moved on to more titillating fare quite quickly, from Anne Rice’s novels, written under a pseudonym, of course-there was always an air of the obscene about the topic, no matter where she turned-to “The Story of O.”
She couldn’t seem to get enough of the commanding Doms, the bright red spankings, the maddening restraints and there was something about the allure of a flogger that promised to sting like bees and fall like rain on the tender, untouched terrain of her pale white flesh that left her breathless and desperate, twisted in her sheets at night, crying out with longing.
And then she started going to the BDSM Internet sites. At first it was just to glean information, and then, she had to admit, to meet people. Maybe there was someone out there, someone local, who might be interested in teaching her? Because more than anything, Katie wanted to learn. She wanted to be the one on her knees in front of her master, following his lead, giving herself over completely to his desires.
Well she’d gotten what she wanted, and as Lori, from whose mouth dripped the most tried and true cliches, had warned before she went to meet Patrick for this first-ever play-date, “You should be careful what you wish for!” Lori was also full of stories about serial killers who posted ads on Craiglist just like Patrick’s, psychos looking for their next eager, willing victim. Lori had been sure that Katie was doing this at her own peril.
And Lori had turned out to be absolutely correct.
Once Katie was naked and shackled and gagged, she’d discovered something she didn’t expect-she was afraid. This man wasn’t a psycho. He’d made her sign an agreement, they’d negotiated a safeword and limits, they’d worked out the scene, just exactly what he would do to and for her. She knew she was taking some risks. She was, after all, in his basement, in a soundproof, padded room-but it was a nice, suburban house with a picket fence for god’s sake! And Lori knew where she was and why she had come. She had safeguards.
So why was she trembling with fear?
As Patrick plucked equipment off the wall-a crop, a flogger, things they’d discussed-she suddenly realized her mistake. She didn’t trust him. For whatever reason, she didn’t trust this man to take her where she needed to go. In fact, she was quite sure that he couldn’t, that this, whatever it was they were playing at, was wrong. After all her anticipation and dreaming about this moment, she knew, as Lori would say, “with every fiber of her being,” that she needed to stop.
She knew her safeword-she’d had it in her head for months and had told Patrick what she wanted to use-but she couldn’t say it because the red ball gag in her mouth made her effectively silent. He’d given her clear instructions though on how to “tap out” if she was gagged-three short taps on the mat and the scene would end. Except her hands were restrained above her head. And she was sure Patrick hadn’t anticipated her wanting to end things before they even really began!
Patrick turned toward her, tall and lanky, a handsome specimen of man in his snakeskin boots and leather pants, his shirtless chest smooth, his belly flat and ridged with muscle. There wasn’t a thing in the world wrong with him. She liked him a great deal, in fact, had since the beginning, or she wouldn’t have agreed to any of this in the first place.
You’re just being stupid. She tried to reason herself out of her fear. It’s butterflies, that’s all.
Except some part of her knew it wasn’t.
She’d read an article on one of those endless BDSM sites she’d perused over the past year written by a submissive waiting for “the one.” It was about the woman’s experiences, going to clubs, doing scenes, all the while feeling unfulfilled, because even if it was pleasurable, even if each Dom took her just where she wanted to go, it all felt empty because she hadn’t found “the one.” And of course, the end to the tale was how she felt when it finally was right, when she found “the one” and they lived happily ever after.
And as much as Katie had tried to convince herself otherwise, she knew that Patrick wasn’t “the one” and anything they did together was going to leave her feeling just the same-hollow and unsated. There had to be a way out of this. Katie tried to speak but the gag did its job quite well, trapping her tongue, making anything but grunting impossible. Besides, Patrick’s gaze was on her body, not her face. She felt the heat of it, the way he looked at her breasts, his eyes dipping to the dark triangle of hair between her thighs.
She tried again, but Patrick was focused on the crop in his hand, trailing it over her shoulder and down to her breast. The “scene” had started and Katie found herself desperate to end it. Now. Right now. Even as the crop flicked over her nipple and her body responded, her pussy clenching with lust-she’d been fantasizing about this for so long, so very long. Yet here she was, and she couldn’t go through with it, in spite of the way her other nipple hardened when the crop found that one too.
Katie tried again, determined now to communicate her wishes, looking at Patrick, desperately seeking eye contact, but he seemed transfixed by the sight of her, bound and gagged on her knees, lost in the path his crop was taking down her belly. She grunted, pulling at the restraints above her head, feeling her body sway from side to side.
“Shhh,” Patrick insisted, flicking the crop lightly but quite soundly against her hip. The sting was incredible and brought tears to her eyes. And once the tears came to the surface, well, that was it. It was over. There was no stopping them. Her chest hitched as she began to cry and she grunted again, trying to say the safeword, over and over, but Patrick’s crop was parting her pussy lips and he was licking his own in anticipation.
She had never felt so vulnerable and exposed, tears streaming down her face, falling from her quivering chin in droplets onto her bare breasts. She could barely catch a breath now let alone try to speak or communicate and, oh god, there was snot running down her face too, just to make her humiliation complete. She hung her head, giving up, giving in, wondering if this was what surrender felt like-hopeless, powerless, helpless. If this was it, she didn’t want any part of it.
“What in the hell are you doing?”
Katie looked up at the booming sound of an unfamiliar voice. The man who appeared was like a bigger-than-life version of Patrick-the same dark hair and eyes, the same broad forehead and full mouth, but he was twice the other man’s size, his body literally filling all available space in the doorway.
Patrick straightened, frowning, taking a step backward from both her and the looming figure. “I’m… wait, what are you doing? Aren’t you supposed to be at work?”
“Did this woman give her consent?” The man stepped into the room, his eyes never leaving Katie. He knelt by her side and the moment his hands reached for her gag, she felt her body relax, the restraints holding her arms up going taut, taking her weight.
“Of course she did!” Patrick’s voice grew angry and Katie looked at him with big eyes. “She signed all the forms!”
“I’m Liam,” the big man said to her, speaking softly as he worked the leather strap on the side of her mouth loose. “You’re safe.”
“What are you doing?” Patrick was mad-practically hopping mad, shifting his weight from foot to foot. “She wants to be here. She-”
“Take another look, little brother.” Liam sneered over his shoulder at Patrick and then turned his attention back to Katie, taking the ball-gag gently from her mouth, glistening with her saliva. “She’s sobbing.”
“Aardvark! Aardvark! Aardvark!” Katie croaked hoarsely, her face full of tears and snot and, she imagined, a great deal of mascara.
“Your safeword?” Liam guessed, using the sleeve of his black turtleneck to gently wipe her cheeks.
She nodded, looking at Patrick, her chin quivering. “I tried to say… I tried…”
“But we hadn’t even started,” Patrick whispered, his expression moving from anger to confusion.
“You need to pay attention!” Liam roared and Katie shrank back from him as he shifted focus to his brother. “Every minute. Every second. Every single fucking breath. ” Liam’s jaw clenched as he turned back to Katie, his massive hands gentle as he loosened her wrist straps, moving more carefully when he saw the fear in her eyes.
“I told you that you weren’t ready for this!” Liam’s words were meant for his brother but she felt them resonate in her belly like a tuning fork.
Patrick stood, blinking, his crop forgotten, falling to the floor. “Rookie mistake?” he whispered, his face pained as he watched his brother take Katie down from the restraints, her body collapsing. Liam cradled her against his chest.
“Not to her,” Liam snapped, his voice growing quiet as he shifted his attention. “What’s your name?”
“K-K-Katie…” she managed. She was shivering now, uncontrollably, although she had no idea why. She tried to speak, to tell him what had happened, that it was just a mistake, she’d made a mistake, but no words would come out, just little hitches in her throat from crying so hard.
“We’re going to get you dressed now, Katie, okay?” Liam stroked her hair as he reached behind her to unfasten her leg restraints one-handed. She clung to him-he was solid as a tree trunk, but far more pliable and warm. He got her other leg undone and pulled her fully into his arms.
“Patrick, hand me that blanket.” There was a black one in the corner, meant for sensory deprivation, Katie guessed-she’d read extensively about the subject. It was soft and Liam wrapped it around her shoulders, pulling her slowly to a standing position, but her legs felt like jelly and wouldn’t hold her, so he scooped her up, his arm under her knees, like she was just a little bit of fluff, carrying her over to the big bed in the corner.
“Patrick, get me a glass of milk,” Liam ordered, sitting on the edge of the bed. Katie couldn’t quite grasp what was happening. Her mind felt as if it was going in slow-motion, not able to catch up.
“Milk?”
“Go!” Liam growled, waving his brother away. Patrick left, looking for all the world like a puppy slinking away with his tail tucked between his legs. Even still in costume, shirtless with his leather pants and snakeskin boots, to Katie, he looked like a little boy playing dress-up in his father’s clothes.
“I’m sorry.” Liam apologized, letting out a pent-up breath and wrapping the blanket more tightly around her. “Your first time?”
Katie nodded against his chest, not wanting to open her eyes and look at him-at anything. She wished she could disappear, or wake up from this crazy dream she was having.
“How did he find you?” His hand smoothed her dark hair down her back, the motion incredibly soothing. Her trembling was beginning to subside.
“I answered an ad, on…on Craigslist,” she admitted with a whisper.
“Sonofabitch.” His jaw tightened again. She could feel it. His arms around her tightened too. “Finally!”
Katie opened her eyes to see Patrick had reappeared holding a glass filled with milk.
“You stay right here.” Liam put her gently on the bed. It was covered in black silk-sheets, duvet cover. Except for the red heart accent pillows. Somehow she found those sweet-and strangely amusing. It made her want to giggle and she did, trying to stifle the sound with her hand.
“What’s the matter with her?” Patrick whispered to his brother as Liam took the glass of milk over to the dresser. There were candles there, unlit, and a decanter filled with amber colored fluid.
“Shock,” Liam said shortly, pouring from the decanter into the milk.
“I don’t understand,” Patrick whispered, looking back over his shoulder at Katie. He was looking at her like she had three heads or something. She hugged the blanket more tightly around her, even pulling her feet up underneath, as if she could make herself completely disappear. “She gave her consent. Everything was fine, and then all of a sudden…”
“It can happen. That fast.” Liam turned to his brother, holding the milk glass in his hand, cloudy with alcohol. “I’ve told you time and again, Patrick-you’re a top. You’re not a dominant. You can’t do what I do.”
Katie blinked up at Liam as he approached, holding the milk out to her. “Drink this.”
She reached for the glass, studying the liquid with a frown. She knew what Lori would say-could hear her friend screeching in her head about being drugged and raped and dismembered-but when she looked into the man’s eyes, she trusted him. Utterly. Completely. She took the milk and began to drink.
“Good girl.” When he smiled, just a brief flash, she thought she might faint. The world actually tilted sideway for a moment, and she clutched her glass like a little girl, her blanket falling away from her shoulders, making her shiver.
“Patrick, hand me her clothes.”
Liam took her half-empty glass and set it aside as he helped her get dressed. She flushed bright pink as he slid her panties-sexy, black lace, bought just for the occasion-up her thighs. He even turned her around so he could hook her bra before helping her pull the soft, brown cashmere sweater she’d worn over her head. Her hair stuck out, full of static, and he smoothed it before sitting her down on the bed, getting her into her jeans, one leg at a time.
“Drink,” Liam instructed, putting the glass back in her hands and sitting beside her on the bed. She did as she was told, watching as he took one of her bare feet into his lap. In spite of the fact that he’d just seen her completely nude and had rectified that situation mostly himself, there was something incredibly intimate about watching him put on her socks for her.
“Shoes?” Liam glared at his brother and Patrick produced a pair of brown clogs. Liam raised an eyebrow, looking at her. “These aren’t exactly made for the weather, are they?”
She flushed, murmuring against the lip of the glass. “They’re fashionable.”
He didn’t say anything as he slipped them on her feet, taking Katie’s offered coat from Patrick.
“Think you can stand now?” Liam asked.
“I’m fine.” She swung her legs over the side of the bed and slid off, setting the milk on the night table beside it. The world tilted again as she stood, but when she wobbled, Liam was right there at her elbow, solid as a rock.
“I’m sorry, Katie…” Patrick said as he watched his brother help her with her coat.
She smiled at him, trying to remind herself who he was. Oh right, he’s the guy from the ad, the one who was supposed to do all those things I wanted… For some reason, she’d almost forgotten he existed at all!
“It wasn’t your fault,” she murmured, Liam’s hands on her shoulders warm and heavy, a delightful weight.
“Oh it was, decidedly, his fault.” Liam’s voice was low and serious as he glared at his brother, retrieving Katie’s purse from the dresser where she’d left it. “How did you get here?”
“I drove.” She took her purse. Yes, she vaguely remembered bringing it with her, setting it on the dresser, looking at Patrick in his leather pants and snakeskin boots. They’d seemed so sexy at the time, but now all she could see was the hulk of a man in front of her, his gaze never leaving her face.
“I’m going to drive you home,” Liam told her, reaching around her to pick up the glass of milk. “Patrick will follow in your car.”
“That’s not necessary.” Sanity was beginning to return-at least, she thought it was. She was embarrassed by her actions. By this whole situation.
“Yes it is,” Liam insisted, holding the glass out. There was only a little bit left. “Drink the rest.”
She did, dutifully, and blushed when Liam used his sleeve-the one he hadn’t used to wipe her face earlier-to dab the milk mustache from her upper lip.
“Feel a little better?”
“Thank you.” She smiled up at him, buttoning her coat, strangely much more steady on her feet now, in spite of the alcohol. “You really don’t have to drive me home.”
“Keys.” Liam shook his head, holding his hand out to take them when she retrieved her key ring from her coat pocket. “I don’t want you driving, not in your condition. Besides, it’s snowing.”
“It is?” she asked as he handed her car keys over to Patrick, Liam guiding her up the stairs. Outside, the world had gone white. There was nothing more thrilling than the first snow of the season and it lifted her spirits, falling around them in heavy, fat flakes.
“What are you doing?” Liam asked, opening the passenger door to a red sports car, waving her inside. Katie laughed, tilting her head back and trying to catch snowflakes, turning in lazy circles.
“Whoa, there!” Liam grabbed her around the waist as a wave of dizziness washed over her. He smiled, bemused. She liked his smile. “Get in. Before you end up face down in the snow.”
Katie let him urge her into the car. “Oh don’t worry, I’m sure my humiliation bucket is quite full for the day.”
He laughed, shutting the door, telling his brother to follow him before getting in beside her.
“What kind of car is this?” she inquired, running a finger over the pristine white, leather interior. The car was a deep, dark red, very low to the ground. The engine purred to life when he turned the key.
“A Maserati.” He glanced over, raising an eyebrow. “Put your seatbelt on.”
“Buckle up for safety.” She giggled, pulling the harness across and searching for the latch. He let her fumble for a moment before reaching over and taking it out of her hand, clicking it seamlessly into place.
“You’re good at that.” Katie felt his breath against her cheek. They were just inches away from each other in the closed space of the vehicle, just close enough that she could focus on the little flecks of gold in his dark eyes. She hadn’t noticed that before.
“Thanks.” He smiled-she really did like his smile-and moved back fully into the driver’s seat, reaching for his own buckle.
“ Click it or Kick it.” She giggled again as he looked sideways at her, that sexy smile playing on his lips.
“I think it’s Click it or Ticket,” he corrected, putting the car into reverse-it was a stick shift, and watching him manipulate the gearshift was… well, it was hot.
“I think I’m a little drunk,” she confessed, watching out the window as Patrick finished clearing her little Honda’s windshield of snow.
“Lightweight, huh?” He chuckled, pulling out of the driveway, checking in the rearview mirror to make sure his brother was ready to follow.
“It’s a convertible?” She fingered one of the buttons, curious.
“Yes.” He took her hand and put it back into her lap.” But I don’t advise letting the top down. Not in this weather.”
“Sorry.” She blinked at him as he stopped at the corner, looking at her expectantly.
“Which way, Katie?”
“Oh…” She giggled. “I get to give you directions? I bet that’s a switch.”
“Yes.” He laughed, turning left when she pointed. “And for the record, I’m all Dom, sweetheart. Not an ounce of Switch in me.”
The roads were slick with snow-it was coming down even heavier now-but Liam took the curves without any hint of hesitation. She glanced back over her shoulder, making sure Patrick was following. She had driven her vehicle long enough to know it couldn’t handle roads like this quite as well as Liam’s sports car.
“Are you cold?” Liam glanced over at her, huddled against the door. “You’re shivering.”
“I am?” She hadn’t noticed but her teeth chattered when she said it. “My feet got wet. Stupid clogs.”
“That’s what you get for trading practicality for fashion.” He turned on the heat.
Katie sighed with relief, leaning in toward the vent. The air was warm against her cheeks, but her lower half was still cold.
“Put your feet on the dash.” Liam pushed another button and she felt warm air near the windshield.
She hesitated, looking sideways at him and then at the spotless, white leather dashboard. It looked soft and supple enough to sleep on. “Are you sure?”
“Take your shoes off,” he instructed. “And put your feet up.”
She did, leaning back in the seat, the warm air beginning to thaw her frozen toes. “Ohhh that’s so yummy.”
Liam guided the car onto the expressway at her direction-it was almost a straight shot to her house now-glancing occasionally in the rearview to check on his brother, and keeping an eye on her in the passenger seat.
“How fast can this car go?” she inquired, watching him shift gears, easing the vehicle faster.
He shifted again, settling at a respectable speed, considering the weather. “About two-hundred miles an hour.”
She gave a low whistle, shaking her head. “I bet no one can keep up with you.”
“You could say that.” He didn’t look at her, but a smile played at the corners of his mouth.
Katie wiggled her toes-they were finally getting warm-and watched him out of the corner of her eye. He was way more handsome than Patrick, she decided. Less boyish and far more broad than his brother, Liam had an air of quiet confidence and experience about him that made her feel immediately at ease. She remembered how quickly he had taken charge of things in the basement, but she didn’t dwell on that thought, her face burning at the memory. What had she been thinking?
“I’m really sorry about what happened back there, Katie.” Liam’s words jerked her out of her own thoughts, and she looked at him, startled, wondering if he could read minds. “Patrick never should have posted that ad.”
“It was my fault. I just…” She sighed, toying with the button on her coat. “At the last minute, I freaked.”
“It happens. Don’t blame yourself.” His enormous hand covered hers, giving it a gentle squeeze before moving back to the gearshift. “It was Patrick’s responsibility to take care of you, and he failed.”
She glanced in the side mirror, seeing the headlights of her Honda-dusk was quickly turning to evening-Patrick following close behind. “Don’t be too hard on him.”
“I’ll be as hard as I need to be.” Liam’s jaw tightened and she didn’t argue. She doubted anyone argued with him much.
“I just…” She shrugged. “I realized at the last minute…” Pausing, she tried to find a way to tell him what she’d felt in that moment, how her sudden realization had made it so urgent for her to stop any forward motion.
“That you’re not submissive?” he offered, that smile back again.
“No!” Her protest came out quite forcefully, surprising her.
His smiled widened. “I didn’t think so.”
“No,” she said again, softer this time, trying to explain. “I just realized that if I went through with it, that I would regret it.”
He cocked his head, curious. “Why?”
“Because…” She looked down, toying with her button-the one on the other side was missing. “Because…”
Because he isn’t the one.
But she couldn’t tell him that. “I guess it just felt wrong… with Patrick.”
“I don’t doubt that.” Liam nodded, glancing over at her. “You should always trust your instincts.”
“What did you mean when you said that Patrick was a top, but not a Dom?” She thought she knew the answer already-she’d read everything she could get her hands on and had memorized all the terms and their definitions.
Liam was quiet for a moment, the only sound the hum of the engine and the wet slush of the tires on the road. “My brother is focused on how much control he has over someone else. That makes him a top, not a Dom.”
His answer surprised her, going far deeper than anything she’d ever read. “So what’s a Dom, then?”
“A Dom…” He looked thoughtful, his lower lip pulled between his teeth, eyes on the road. “A Dom measures how much control he has over himself, not how much control he can exert over a submissive.”
“Oh.” She blinked at his response. For some reason, it made her feel warm all over. In fact, the heater was now making her rather… hot.
“Too complicated?” Liam half-smiled as she took her feet off the dash, her socks dry now, slipping them into her clogs. “I guess what I’m saying is that tops act. Dominants simply… are.”
She turned more toward him, her knee brushing against his hand on the gearshift. “So you’re a Dom?”
“Yes.”
“Do you…” She swallowed, wondering how to approach the subject. What if he said no? “I mean… are you open to new clients?”
“Sorry.” Liam shook his head, giving her jean-clad knee a gentle let-down squeeze. “I’m very particular.”
Her heart lurched in her chest. She couldn’t take no for an answer. She just couldn’t.
“So…? What…? I have to submit an application? Go through an interview process?”
“No.” He shook his head slowly, sadly.
“But-”
His hand moved to the gearshift, leaving her feeling cold again. “I’m afraid it’s invitation only.”
“And I’m not invited?” She turned toward the door, folding her arms across her chest, trying not to take what he said personally and failing, miserably. Patrick had been more than willing to talk to her, to set her at ease, to educate her and offer to set a scene with her.
This man-he was stubborn. Arrogant. And what did he know anyway?
“Why do you want to be a submissive?”
She sniffed. “I don’t.”
“No?” He looked at her, confused.
“I don’t want to be a submissive.” Katie swallowed, turning her face toward the window, feeling tears welling up. Oh god, not again. Hadn’t she’d cried enough in front of this awful man? “I am a submissive.”
They were quiet, the silence stretching as the Maserati covered the snow-covered road like a cat, purring low to the ground. They were getting closer to her home now and she wanted to give him a real answer, something that might change his mind, make him understand how important it was, how desperate she was.
So she told him about Thomas Dunn and “The Erotic Bondage Handbook.” And once she began, she couldn’t stop. She told him about all the other books and the web sites and how she’d found Patrick. And then she told him about losing her father when she was ten, to cancer, watching the strongest man she’d ever known fade away until he finally disappeared. She talked about her mother’s aimless wandering, living in an RV and being homeschooled as a teen, about boys who thought she was too shy to bother, about a chaotic world filled with pain and insanity and constant choices, about never knowing which one was the Lady or the Tiger.
She talked about becoming a librarian, about finding routine and order and, finally, quiet. She talked to him while tears ran down her face and soaked her coat and she didn’t care, she had to make him understand that this thing that she’d only read about in books, this crazy, kinky, twisted thing, had made her feel alive in ways she didn’t understand, but wanted- needed — to experience.
“Shh,” he said finally, reaching over and sliding a hand behind her neck, massaging gently, as if he could cut her racing thoughts off with a gentle squeeze. “It’s enough, Katie.”
She swallowed her tears and pointed at her exit without a word, directing him silently to her house. Liam pulled into the snow-covered driveway, taking her hand as she reached for her purse sitting on the console between them. His was more paw than hand, swallowing hers as he caught her attention with his eyes, holding her with them. She felt awful-looked awful, she knew, red-nosed and red-faced from crying. She wanted to hide, turn away, but he held her with just the heat of his gaze.
“Show me.” It was more whisper than words.
She looked at him, confused, staring at the hand holding hers, and then she did the first thing that came to her head. She took his hand in both of hers-his was big, tanned, well-manicured, a silver ring on his middle finger-and turned it over, palm up. Katie sobbed silently, pressing her lips to the middle of his hand, head bent, tears falling onto his wrist.
She felt his other hand move in her hair, that same slow caress, heard his slow, deep breath, a sigh, and then felt his lips pressing against the top of her head, a soft, firm kiss.
“Go inside, Katie.” Liam let her go and she looked up at him in wonder, unable to speak. Patrick appeared, knocking at the window, and Liam powered it down.
“Your keys.” Patrick handed them over, and Katie noticed he was still wearing his boots and hadn’t bothered with a shirt. His chest was bare above the zipper of his Sherpa coat. He looked at her face and then at his brother’s, frowning, mistaking her tears. “Katie, I’m so sorry. Really…”
“It’s okay,” she choked, letting Patrick open the door and help her out of the car. She wanted to look back, to say something to Liam, to ask him what had just happened, what it meant. Patrick walked her to the door, still apologizing, and she let him, murmuring something as he headed back down the walkway, getting into his brother’s Maserati.
She saw Liam’s face for just one brief moment before they left, when Patrick opened the passenger door, saw Liam looking straight at her. His gaze had never wavered.
And she knew.
He’s the one.
Katie sighed, pulling misfiled books off the shelves for the third time in an hour, and it was her own damned fault. She had sandwiched a stack of fiction from A to Z without regards to alphabet in the “K” section without thinking, just automatically putting books on the shelf one after the other, her mind wandering. She couldn’t help it. It had been wandering all week, back to the moment when Liam burst into the room to rescue her, back to the ride home, her tearful, shameful confession, and mostly to that one incredible moment in his car, her lips pressed to his palm and his lips brushing her hair.
She had fought the urge to call, had struggled with her desire, confessing everything to Lori, whose cliche-machine had been running full blast, telling her that Katie had obviously gotten herself into a “fine kettle of fish now,” and while Lori didn’t want to be the “doubting Thomas,” she was suspect of the whole “smoke and mirrors” act.
So Katie had spent the week in a fog, going to work, coming home, only checking her cell phone a hundred times a day or so, sure one minute he would call, despairing that he never would the next. At least she’d lost three pounds that week, because she could hardly eat anything. She was too distracted.
“Hi there.”
It’s him.
She looked through the stacks to find the source of that voice and saw Liam peering at her between the spines of Koontz and King. Her heart hammered in her chest and immediately her palms felt clammy.
“Hi,” she said faintly, trying to discern if she was actually seeing him, or maybe she was hallucinating?
“I’m looking for a book.” He came around the stacks, his shoulders so broad they almost brushed the shelves on each side.
She straightened, librarian-mode kicking in. “What book?”
“ To Protect and Serve-a Dom’s Guide.”
Katie frowned, already running through the catalog in her head-and she had an extensive personal reading list to draw from as well. “Who’s the author?”
“Liam Quinn”
She stared at him, blinking. “You wrote a book?”
“Oh never mind, here it is.” He flashed an impossibly sexy smile, holding up a hardcover with a woman on the front. She was restrained, hands behind her, nude, back, bottom, and the side of her breast showing.
“That’s not one of ours.” She knew it before she even checked the spine for a call number. The library had strict policies about books with nudity on the cover. She’d had to order most of her BDSM books from Amazon.
“No.” He held it out. “It’s for you.”
It was one she hadn’t read, although she supposed she shouldn’t be surprised. There were hundreds, if not thousands, of books on the subject.
“It’s actually out of print,” he confessed. “That’s one of the few author copies I have left. It’s probably a collector’s item…somewhere.”
“Thank you.” She opened the cover and saw two things-Liam’s picture, arms crossed, on the flap near the bottom, and her name, written in Sharpie, on the cover page, with a message,
For Katie,
In service.
Liam
She looked up at him, confused. “So… is this what you came for? To give me your book?”
“I also wanted to take you to dinner.” It wasn’t phrased as a question, but he waited for an answer, his gaze moving over her face, like he was drinking her in. She touched her hair, piled onto the top of her head, pushing her reading glasses up her nose, knowing she looked like the quintessential librarian in her pencil skirt and v-neck blouse, and wished she’d at least left her hair down today.
“Okay.” She tried to imagine sitting across a table with him, doing something so mundane as eating, and couldn’t fathom it. But she said yes anyway, without a moment’s hesitation. “When?”
“How’s now?”
She didn’t even check her watch. “Let me get my coat.”
“So what do they call you?” Katie was feeling far more relaxed after two margaritas and she giggled when she cracked her crab and red pieces of shell exploded onto the tablecloth.
“Don’t you love it when it comes out like this, instead of all shredded?” she asked. Liam watched her pull the crab meat out of its shell in one, long piece. She eyed it delightedly before dipping it into the butter sauce, not even bothering with a fork.
“They call me Liam.” He answered her question, watching her lick butter from the tips of her fingers.
“Not Master? Or Sir? Or something… you know… cool?”
Liam snorted. “What did Patrick want you to call him?”
“Dom.”
“How original.” He rolled his eyes and she saw his jaw working as he put his fork down on his plate next to what little was left of his salmon. “This isn’t a game, Katie.”
“I know.” She paused, licking butter off her lips, and took a sip of her margarita.
“Patrick’s sin is pride.” He took a drink of his water-he hadn’t ordered wine or alcohol with dinner-catching the waitress’s attention. “Hubris. A Dom is humble. A servant, really.”
She crinkled her nose at him, regrettably finishing the last piece of delicious crab. “But the submissive is the one-”
“Sure.” Liam smiled at the waitress as she stopped at another table on her way to theirs, acknowledging her need to serve them first. “Everyone knows what the submissive is giving up. Your power. Your control.” His gaze moved back to Katie and she felt it immediately, rushing hotly through her, like the blood through her veins. “Your body. Your love.”
“Love?” She swallowed, putting her fork down next to her place. Her hands were trembling and she didn’t trust herself to actually hang onto her utensils.
“But the Dom is always in service to the sub,” he explained, watching as she started to nervously play with the corner of her napkin. “He is offering you his time, his focus, his attention. He has to be completely present with you in every moment.”
She had never wanted anything more in her life than what he was talking about. And the way he said it! His words were fluid, sure. He knew exactly what he was talking about, had experienced it, lived it.
“And the Dom has to be willing to accept the gifts a sub is offering.” Liam went on, his voice soft, and she focused on him, entranced. “It’s a precious thing, when someone is willing to give themselves to you that way. It takes trust beyond measure. It’s one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen.”
She nodded, feeling tears prick her eyes, and she quickly blinked them away, turning to her margarita and hiding behind it as she sipped. She wanted to give herself, wholly, completely, had wanted it for so long-and now… now she knew she’d found the man she wanted to give herself to. It seemed so simple, but her heart ached as she looked at him, fearing his rejection still, feeling as if she was at some sort of “submissive tryout,” trying to say and do the right thing, walking on eggshells.
“But a Dom has to be worthy of such a gift,” he reminded her. “And he has to feel worthy of it.”
Katie’s eyes widened. “That’s really Patrick’s problem.”
“Yes,” Liam agreed. “That, and his damned pride.”
He looked up as the waitress approached. She was the bright, shiny sort of pretty Katie always wished she could be-bubbly and blonde, she smiled easily and flirted with her customers, moving with a natural grace.
“Tiramisu,” Liam ordered.
“Two?” she asked, putting pen to pad.
“Just one.”
Katie opened her mouth to protest-dessert sounded delightful! — but she argued with herself that she’d had more than enough as the waitress continued to flirt with Liam, exchanging some pleasantries about where she was going to school, what she was studying. Katie hadn’t been paying close attention-she’d been too focused on how the girl flipped her hair and flashed her smile, the way her hips swayed under her black skirt when she walked away.
“But you can read all this in the book.” Liam sat back in his chair as the waitress departed, taking his napkin from his lap and putting it over his plate. “Didn’t you say you learn best from books?”
“I like hearing it from you.” Katie watched the waitress stop and take plates from another table, balancing them easily, even in heels.
“You’re jealous.”
“What?” Katie coughed, reaching for her water.
He chuckled. “I can almost hear the voices in your head.”
“I hope not,” she muttered, gulping water. Of course, he was right.
“You don’t need to be.”
She put her glass on the table, not looking at him. Instead she looked out the window where the sun was setting over the city. The view was stunning from this high up, snow falling steadily, melting into the lake far below.
“Do you always flirt with waitresses?” she finally asked.
“You can label it as you like.” He shrugged. “It’s really just an energy exchange.”
“Is that what you call it?”
“All relationship is about energy exchange. I’m sure you’ve read about Total Power Exchange? ”
She nodded. Of course she had-the 24/7 Dom/sub relationship. “Have you ever done that?”
“Once.” He didn’t offer any more information and Katie didn’t ask. “Ah, here we are.”
He sounded pleased and Katie looked longingly at the layered dessert while he thanked the waitress, picking up the spoon as she left. Liam glanced over at her as he slid the spoon through the creamy layers, smiling at her expression.
“You’re distracted.”
She licked her lips. “That looks yummy.”
“You want it.”
“Yes.” Looking between him and the dessert, she wasn’t sure which she wanted more.
Liam smirked. “That’s why I ordered it.”
“For me?” She brightened.
“Close your eyes.”
“Here?” Katie glanced around the restaurant. It was a Friday night-they were packed. When she looked back at Liam, she understood her mistake immediately. He’d given her an order and she had refused to follow. Stupid. She chastised herself, closing her eyes instantly, both to comply and to hide from his dark gaze.
“Open your mouth.”
This time she did as she was told and was rewarded with a delicious bite of tiramisu, incredibly rich and creamy, with that dark hint of mocha and a lovely finish of chocolate.
“Keep your eyes closed.”
He’d anticipated her opening them and Katie only got a brief glimpse of him before she squeezed her eyes shut again, chewing and swallowing the delightful confection.
“How does that taste?”
“Like… mmm…” She licked her lips, already craving more. “Coffee… and chocolate… oh heaven… light and fluffy…”
“No words.” Liam brought the spoon to her lips, urging her to open, and she took another blissful bite. “How does that taste?”
“Mmmmmm.” The ladyfingers in the dessert were moist and sweet against her tongue. They made fantastic dessert here! She’d have to remember this restaurant-although she probably couldn’t afford to come here on her salary, even alone.
“I think you can do better.”
Liam fed her another bite, smaller this time. Katie was far too aware of the sounds of the restaurant around her, the clinking of glasses, the scrape of utensils on plates, the sounds of laughter and conversation reverberating in her head. She didn’t want to make so much noise she called attention to herself, but that was clearly what Liam was encouraging!
“Ohhhhhh.” She took his next offered bite with more enthusiasm and he gave her an even larger one. “Nnnnnnngggg!”
“More?”
She leaned forward, mouth open like a baby bird, eyes still firmly closed. “Mmm mmm mmm!”
Liam continued to feed her, encouraging her noises, and Katie soon forgot where she was. The chocolate and coffee and cream melted in her mouth, the taste so delicious she couldn’t get enough. And it was sexy, she had to admit, Liam feeding her dessert, watching her pleasure-and she knew that was exactly what he was doing. Her belly protested, but her tongue wanted more, more, until she was making noises she knew would rival Meg Ryan’s orgasm in When Harry Met Sally, with Liam rewarding her, bite after bite.
“That was the last one.”
Katie made a little disappointed noise, her throat constricting. That was it? No warning? Nothing? She almost opened her eyes in protest but then remembered he hadn’t told her to.
“Did you enjoy it, Kitten?” Liam dabbed her mouth with the corner of his napkin. “Did you really experience the perfection of that last bite?”
She sighed. “Well if I’d known it was going to be the last one…”
“But we never know, do we?” His words were profound and opened her heart immediately, moving her nearly to tears. Over dessert, for pete’s sake! She chided herself for her overreaction, but she couldn’t help the emotion welling up.
“Open your eyes.”
Katie did, meeting his, trying to discern what he was thinking, feeling. Then she became aware of the noise around her, far diminished. Had everyone gone? Glancing around, she found herself sinking lower in her chair. It was as if the entire restaurant had stopped eating and drinking and talking just so they could turn and watch them. She’d never felt so on display in her life.
Liam stood, tossing his napkin on the table, and leaned in to whisper one word into her ear.
“Worthy.”
Katie looked at the remains of the tiramisu-he hadn’t fed her all of it, there was about a quarter of the dessert left on the plate. She realized, looking up at him, that he’d actually stopped when he felt she was full. How?
“Come with me,” Liam said.
“But…where are we going?”
He cocked his head at her. “If you come with me, you’ll probably find out.”
“Don’t we have to pay the bill?” she inquired, looking around for the waitress.
“I have an account here.” He sighed. “Come with me, Katie. I won’t say it again.”
She practically jumped out of her chair to follow him.
“Do you ever wear appropriate footwear for the weather?”
Katie shivered, hugging her coat around her, eyes closed as directed. They’d been closed the whole way in the car, and now that they were out of it, she found it even harder to keep Liam’s surprise a real surprise. She wanted to peek!
“I didn’t know I was going to be walking in the snow.”
He sighed. “Never mind.”
She squealed when he picked her up, just like he had in the basement, carrying her easily.
“Keep your eyes closed.”
How did he know she wanted to peek? She wrapped her arms around his neck, burying her nose against the soft wool of his coat, smelling cologne and soap and something else, something utterly male. She could hear Liam’s footfalls on the pavement and tried to discern where they were going by the sounds. The evening air was bitter, the sun now below the horizon, her cheeks pinking from the wind. She turned her head toward their destination, eyes still closed, hearing a strange gurgling sound as Liam opened some kind of door or gate and stepped through.
“Are you going to throw me into a witch’s cauldron?” she inquired, frowning.
He laughed. “Okay, you can open your eyes”
“Where are we?” Katie blinked, not quite understanding. They were still outside, the stars coming out over their heads, and in front of them, surrounded by piles of snow, was a bubbling hot tub.
“The local health club where I work.” Liam set her down on her feet. They were standing in an alcove with tables and chairs all around.
“You work here?” She blinked at the hot tub. It was huge-it could probably fit thirty people-the lights below the surface giving the frothy water a soft glow, with a very tall privacy fence surrounding it.“But I thought you were a Dom.”
“I am.” He smiled, taking off his coat and tossing it over a chair. “But I also do this.”
She frowned, watching him loosen his tie. “Are you a personal trainer?”
“Something like that.” Liam’s tie and suit coat joined his other one on the chair. “Take off your clothes, Katie.”
She blinked at him in disbelief, but she found herself unbuttoning her coat, putting it over the chair beside his. The wind whipped under her skirt, making her squeal. She was already shivering.
“I’m not sure this is such a good idea.” She looked doubtfully from Liam, who was now taking off his shirt, to the hot tub.
“The trick is to undress as fast as possible.” He tossed his shirt on the chair, working on his belt, and now Katie was transfixed by the sight of his thickly muscled chest and abdomen. No wonder, she thought. A personal trainer. I should have guessed. When he looked at her and smiled knowingly, she cleared her throat and looked back at the hot tub, trying to make it seem as if she wasn’t staring, but she was very well aware that he was stripping down to nothing beside her.
Then she felt his hands on her shoulders, moving under the collar of her shirt, massaging over her collarbone, making her shiver again, this time not with cold.
“Get undressed, Katie,” he whispered against her ear, his fingers tracing the top lace edge of her bra under her blouse. “Or I’m going to spank you for disobeying me.”
She closed her eyes at his words, savoring them. They were far more delicious to her than tiramisu. Unbuttoning her blouse with shaky hands, she watched Liam walk toward the water, completely nude. And she’d thought he was good-looking with his clothes on? She’d never seen a finer specimen of a man in her life.
Turning her back, she shrugged off her blouse, wincing at the cold, her nipples so hard they hurt. Teeth chattering, she unzipped her skirt, pulling it and her pantyhose off, stepping out of her heels, whimpering as her toes touched the hard, frozen concrete. Now it was just her bra and panties, and she could go into the hot tub. She unclasped her front-hook bra, wondering if Liam was watching, but too afraid to turn around and look. He’s already seen you naked, she reminded herself, but still… she couldn’t do it.
Katie hooked her bra again, turning around to see Liam in the corner of the hot tub, arms stretched out along the sides, relaxing. He was watching her. She left her bra and panties-just plain white cotton-decidedly on. She was undressed enough for hot-tubbing, she reasoned, hurrying around the pool through the snow toward the steps, squealing the whole way, her feet numb with cold. She sighed in relief as her toes hit the water, but the sudden temperature change made it feel so hot her skin burned.
She glanced at Liam as she waded into the effervescent froth. He was still just watching, not saying anything, as she sank deeper, still shivering, the water searing her flesh, steam rising all around them in a fog. There were seats along the edge and she made her way around, closer to him, wondering what he was thinking-what he was planning. That thought made her feel far hotter than any Jacuzzi.
“I don’t like playing games.”
She bit her lip, frowning. “What do you mean?”
“I told you to get undressed.”
“Oh.” Katie shrugged and then smiled, a little slyly. “Well, you didn’t say fully undressed.”
“That’s what I mean by playing games.” Liam didn’t return her smile. His face was deadly serious. “What you are is a brat. Do you know what a brat is?”
“Yes.” She blushed. By definition, it was a submissive who caused trouble or acted up to get her Dom’s attention.
“You’ll find that I say what I mean and I mean what I say. Now stand up.”
“But it’s so cold!” Katie hesitated and then saw the look on his face. She rose up out of the water, the bitter wind biting at her skin, making her yelp in surprise.
“Your underwear is see-through when it’s wet.” Liam’s gaze moved over her.
When she stood, the water lapped and frothed around her thighs, just below the crotch of her panties. She glanced down, realizing he was right. The dark triangle between her legs was clearly visible and the cold made her nipples so hard they practically poked through her bra. Her areolas were dark stains under the material, framing the jut of her coffee-colored nipples.
“And I’ve seen it all before.”
She blushed at his reminder. That day in the basement, how gentle and kind he’d been, how he’d taken charge of the situation. And then the drive home. She’d never felt closer to anyone. How was it possible? Just being with him with her clothes on left her feeling raw and vulnerable. How much more exposed could she get?
He was slow and lazy, like a cat, and like a predator, she had the sense that he could pounce at any moment. “Put your arms at your sides.”
She hadn’t realized she was hugging herself for warmth-or maybe trying to cover herself. She dropped them, shivering, teeth chattering.
“Bend over.” He was moving towards her and she found herself instinctively moving away, looking for an escape. She knew what was coming. He said what he meant and he meant what he said.
“But-”
Liam shook his head and sighed. “Stand on the ledge.”
He pointed to the seat that ran across the inside edge of the pool. It was submerged in the water, but much higher than the bottom of the hot tub. She didn’t protest this time, although now almost all of her body was out, the water gurgling at about mid-shin level.
“Grab the edge,” he instructed, moving closer. She gripped the blue-rimmed edge of the hot tub, which forced her to bend over, her bottom in the air, the wind merciless. She wouldn’t be surprised if her panties were frozen to her skin!
“When I tell you to do something, I mean exactly what I say.” Liam’s big hand moved lightly over her behind and Katie gasped, looking back to see him behind her. He rose out of the water like a god, water sheeting off his tanned skin. “Do you understand?”
“Yes,” she whispered, squeezing her eyes closed and facing front, anticipating what was coming.
He grabbed her panties in his fist and pulled them up-hard-tugging them between her pussy lips and ass cheeks.
“Oh!” She bit her lip, thankful she was holding onto the side of the pool to keep her steady. And then his hand came down against her bare ass, the sting unbearable, far worse than the cold. “Oh god!”
He spanked her. As often as she’d read about it, nothing could have prepared her for the reality of being spanked, how humiliating, how painful-how exciting. Her ass stung, but her pussy began to swell and grow slick as Liam worked her ass, his skill apparent, moving around, finding just the right next-spot where she hadn’t been spanked yet.
And then it was over and they were both breathing hard, the sound of the whirlpool humming around them as Liam grabbed her by the waist, pulling her back into the water. She turned, clinging, arms around his thick neck, unmindful of the tears on her cheeks. This man had already seen her cry more times than she wanted to count.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered, burying her face against his shoulder, the hot water cooling the burning sting of her ass.
“Good.” His lips brushed the top of her head. “Now, get undressed.”
Katie had to let him go, and she didn’t want to, but she stood in spite of the cold, letting him see her, all of her, unhooking her bra in the front and sliding it off her shoulders. Her breasts weren’t big, and her areolas and nipples took up half of them, fat and puffy. She tossed her bra to the side of the hot tub and then worked down her panties. Her pussy was neatly trimmed but not shaved, and she saw Liam looking as her panties joined her bra at the side of the pool.
“Come here.” He pulled her, naked now, into his arms, and she reveled in it, wrapping her legs around his waist-it was like straddling a tree trunk-as he sank further below the surface, taking her with him. They were submerged in the warmth to their shoulders and Liam’s hands moved over her body, exploring, shoulders and waist, ass and thighs.
“Liam,” she whispered, realizing it was the first time she’d said his name out loud. She loved the feel of it in her mouth and it made her want to repeat it, over and over, so she did, whispering it into his ear. “Liam, Liam, Liam…”
“Yes, Kitten?”
She liked this new nickname.
“I want you.” She nuzzled his ear, kissing the line where his dark hair curled at the nape of his neck. “I want you so much I can’t think about anything else.”
She felt him, rising up like a steel beam, trapped between his belly and hers. She knew he wanted her too and she couldn’t help moving, grinding, whimpering with longing.
“Eager kitty.” He chuckled, but his hands moved to grab her ass, pulling her in tighter, making them both sigh with pleasure. “Tight-laced, buttoned up little librarian by day… hot little sex kitten underneath.”
“Yes,” she agreed, rocking, rolling, wishing he was inside of her.
“You really want to learn to let go?” He caught her hands in his, twisting them behind her back. She gasped as he secured her wrists with one of his enormous hands. “To give yourself completely? No holding back?”
She nodded, but she felt fear at his words, her body folding in on itself.
“You have to trust, Katie.” His words were urgent, thrilling and frightening her at the same time. “Do you trust me?”
“I do,” she whispered, and it was the truth. It was insane, but it was true.
“Come with me.”
“Uh…again?”
He stood, raising his eyebrows at her questioning him, especially given their conversation, but she found herself transfixed by the sight of his cock. He was gloriously hard and he stood there, unashamed, letting her look. He literally made her mouth water. She was at the perfect suckable level, but when she moved in, hungry to take him into her mouth, he collapsed back into the water, heading toward the stairs.
Katie sighed, grabbing her wet bra and panties and following, knowing they were about to leave the warmth of the hot tub for much colder fare. She shivered her way over to the alcove, where Liam had collected their clothing, and she watched as he retrieved a key from his trouser pocket and opened a door to the building.
“Does the health club give all their employees keys to the building?” Katie inquired as she followed him inside down a tiled hallway.
“I own it.” Liam unlocked another door, pushing it open, and Katie followed. The door told her where they were going-the women’s locker room.
“So you’re not a personal trainer?”
“I used to be.” Liam put their clothes on a bench, except for Katie’s wet panties and bra. Those he tossed into the dryer they used for towels, turning it on before heading for the showers. She followed him there too, neither of them speaking as they stepped under the water.
The steam of the showers was a welcome relief from the cold and Katie let the stinging spray needle her skin. Liam used the body-wash dispenser on the wall, soaping his hands, and then turning to her. Katie watched in amazement as he paid close attention to every inch of her body, scrubbing her hair and rinsing it thoroughly before moving down to her shoulders and back, forcing her to turn and put her hands flat against the wall. He didn’t speak-his body and hands told her what to do, moving her this way and that with a shift of his hip, a gentle tug of his soapy hands.
He spent time washing her ass, still red from his spanking. She wondered if she’d have handprints. She hoped so. Then he turned her around and she watched in wonder as he dropped to his knees, something she never would have imagined him doing-weren’t Doms the ones who were supposed to force submissives to their knees? — his hands roaming her front in the same way they had over her back.
“Liam,” she whispered, fingers moving in his thick, wet hair. She still loved feeling his name in her mouth. He kissed her navel, tongue dipping in provocatively, his eyes on hers as his slick, soapy hands moved over the gentle hills of her breasts. She moaned when he thumbed her nipples. They’d been hard for so long they almost hurt.
“You’re beautiful,” he murmured against her hipbone, his tongue tracing the curve downward. She wanted to believe him, and by the time his mouth reached her pubic hair, she did. He looked at her body as if it was a place to worship, and when he reached her pussy, he drank her in like wine, burying his face there and shifting her legs over his shoulders so he could slide her body up the tile. Katie cried out with pleasure, lost in sensation, his mouth fastened on her mound, hands holding her in place, cupped over her breasts, her nipples hard under his fingers.
“Give yourself to me.” His words made her open her eyes and look at him. I am, she thought, but was she? Her body was tense, her mind racing. He shook his head slowly, reading her eyes, her mind. She bit her lip, trying to keep it in, all the feeling, all the fear, the desire, but she couldn’t contain it. A little sob escaped her throat, and she shook her head, as if to clear it, but it was no use. It overwhelmed her in an instant, and she was awash with feeling, drowning in it, unable to stand in the tide.
“That’s my girl.” He turned to kiss her thigh, rubbing his cheek there, stubbly and rough. “Let it go. Let me have you. All of you.”
“Please, I…” She didn’t know what to say. There weren’t words. And she found she didn’t need them. All she needed to do was surrender, to let herself go in his arms, not just her body but her mind, oh god, the whole of her, every part and essence of who she was, laid bare and quivering before him. It wasn’t possible. He wouldn’t want her. He couldn’t possibly see her completely open and vulnerable and not turn away.
But her fears were unfounded.
He devoured her as if he couldn’t get enough, a cloud of steam rising around them, the water from the shower splashing off his broad, strong back and shoulders. Katie hung on, going along for the ride, letting him take her wherever he wanted her to go. She couldn’t help the soft mews of pleasure escaping her throat as she writhed against the tile, her cries growing louder, echoing off the bathroom walls the closer she got to her destination.
Her climax rocked them both, Katie’s back arching, shoving her pussy fully against his eager mouth, and he moved to grab her hips, steadying her as she came and came, flooding him with her juices. When Liam slowly lifted her legs off his shoulders, letting her slide down the wall to join him on her knees in the shower, she was still so dizzy, she wasn’t quite sure where she was until she looked into his eyes.
“Pretty kitty.” He chuckled, touching her nose with the tip of his finger. She looked at him in wonder and disbelief. Kitty? He looked like the cat that ate the canary, full and satisfied. He honestly looked like he’d enjoyed that as much as she did. Maybe more. Was that possible?
She put her arms around his neck, pressing her body fully to his, seeing his eyes light up and then begin to smolder. She nuzzled his shoulder, licking his collarbone, feeling his cock pressed against her hip. He was harder than granite.
“I want you,” she confessed, turning her face up to his, showing him with her hips, a slow grind. “Please, please.” He was so hard she could barely stand it. “Oh Liam, please!”
“God, I like hearing you beg,” he said, and then stood, taking her with him, still in his arms. He kissed the top of her head. “But not tonight, Kitten. Go get dressed. I need to wash up.”
He smacked her bottom to get her to move, and finally she did, following his order and making her way out to the dressing area, finding clean towels on a cart near the lockers. After she retrieved her bra and panties, which were thankfully dry, she got dressed slowly. She searched her purse for a comb, glancing in the mirror, sure she would find herself a crazy mess, and for a moment she didn’t recognize the woman she saw.
Her face was flushed, eyes bright, her hair a wet tangled mass of dark curls over her shoulders. Was this the same woman who had been shelving books at five o’clock earlier today? She wasn’t sure. And then Liam appeared beside her, dressed, their coats over his arm, the only indication of their evening his still-wet hair. She met his eyes in the mirror, wondering what he was thinking. She knew he wasn’t wondering about her, because he looked like he knew exactly what she was feeling.
Liam helped her on with her coat and she let him lead her again, this time through the front door. They said goodbye standing between her Honda and his Maserati in the empty library parking lot, snow starting to fall again.
“Drive carefully.” He pulled her coat closer around her neck. Her hair was still damp and she was shivery.
“Liam, are we… are you…?” She didn’t know how to ask the question, wasn’t even sure what she wanted to ask.
“Shh.” He gathered her up and kissed her-their first kiss, after everything that had happened since they met just a week ago, with Katie naked and shackled on her knees in his basement. She couldn’t believe this was their first real kiss, but it was, and she was thinking about that when he slipped his arms around her waist, his mouth slanting across hers, tongue soft and exploring.
She stood on her tiptoes in her heels, arms around his broad neck, giving as good as she got, wanting more, trying to tell him so with her body, and when they parted, both of them breathless, she thought he’d gotten her message.
“I’ve got a busy week.” Liam closed his eyes, touching his forehead to hers. “I’ll call you on Friday.”
A week! A whole week? Her body protested, pressing into his, and Liam groaned as she kissed him again, all greedy, hungry mouth, sliding her slim thigh between his thickly muscled ones.
“Easy,” he murmured, and she wasn’t sure if he was talking to her or himself. “Take a week. Read the book. We’ll talk.”
The book. She’d almost forgotten. But she was tired of reading about it-she wanted to do it!
“Goodnight, Katie.”
He waited for her to get into her Honda, making sure she was buckled, before he got into his little red sports car. She gave him a wave as she started the engine, putting the car into “drive” and wondering how in the hell she was supposed to get through the next week.
Lori said she wouldn’t make to Monday, but she was wrong. Katie made it to Wednesday, sitting at her desk, wasting time and playing on Facebook in between check-outs. She flipped through all the “Hump Day” references, which only made it worse. She couldn’t think of anything but Liam. She’d devoured his book, reading until four in the morning that first night, finishing it the next day, unshowered and still in her pajamas, the following afternoon.
Now she understood. She understood everything, why Patrick was a top and Liam was a dominant, why she was a submissive-at least on paper.
At lunch time, she grabbed her brown-bag lunch and sat in her little office in the back. Two more days. Just two more days. She flipped through a magazine, not seeing the half-starved models and actresses pretending they were happy in fancy dresses or half-naked on beaches. None of it made sense anyway. Since Liam had left her in the parking lot, her world had turned from color back to black and white.
Katie opened her lunch, looking at her turkey sandwich on whole wheat and thought she’d never seen anything more boring in her life. Then she remembered the crab, the tiramisu. She took a bite and it tasted like cardboard. No, this wouldn’t do. This wouldn’t do at all. Flipping the page, she sighed, and then saw a tear-out card in the middle, the name on it catching her attention.
She got up, tossing her lunch into the trash, grabbing her purse and coat.
She wasn’t hungry after all. At least not for food.
“Chris, I’m going home.” Katie spoke to her co-worker at the desk as she shrugged on her coat. “I’m not feeling right.”
That was true enough.
“Sick?” He looked up at her, frowning. Dependable Katie didn’t take days off. She’d even come to work once with the flu.
Lovesick, she thought, but just nodded. “I’ll see you tomorrow?”
“Feel better!” he called.
It was crazy but there was only one thing that was going to cure whatever was ailing her. It only took her half an hour to go home and change. When she pulled her car into the health club parking lot and cut the engine, she was muttering to herself about crazy stalker women, but she grabbed her bag and purse and went in anyway.
A librarian’s salary was enough for her to live on with only a few luxuries like Netflix and DVR for her cable. It certainly wasn’t enough for a gym membership. But the little tear-out card offered her a one-day free pass, and she was going to take advantage of that. More than most, she hoped, looking around the busy lobby. The place was packed with people dressed just as she was, in yoga pants and tank-tees and trainers, carrying water bottles and hand towels.
“Can I help you?” A blonde at the counter smiled and waved her over and Katie gave her the free membership pass, which turned into a sales pitch the likes of she hadn’t heard since a Kirby salesman had shown up at her door wanting to sell her a fifteen-hundred dollar vacuum. She didn’t buy that and she wasn’t going to buy this either-but she didn’t tell Jenna that.
Jenna was very bright and bubbly and knowledgeable about things like Kettle Bells and core training and aqua-aerobics. She took her on a tour of the facility and Katie smiled and nodded as they went through the women’s locker room. It was already quite familiar to her-although she didn’t tell Jenna so as she put her purse and bag in the locker, pinning the key to the waistband of her yoga pants.
Finally, Katie couldn’t stand it anymore. “So, is Mr. Quinn around?”
“He’s upstairs.” Jenna pointed upward and Katie saw a row of mirrored glass all around the gym. “That’s where the offices are. Do you… do you know him?”
“Oh, sort of.” Katie shrugged, trying to keep the heat from her cheeks, but she couldn’t help wondering if he could see her right now, staring up at him. “So what were you saying about yoga classes?”
Finding her place in her sales pitch, Jenna went on, showing Katie their large, open classroom. It was right under the mirrored glass windows and Katie imagined Liam would have quite a view from up there. Smirking, Katie suddenly had an idea.
Turning to Jenna, she said, “I think I want to stay and do yoga. Is that okay?”
“Sure!” Jenna smiled that dazzling smile. “Just come talk to me when it’s over, okay?”
Katie took a mat and spread it out, starting to stretch. Others were doing the same. According to Jenna, the class didn’t start for another five or ten minutes. Katie made sure her oh-so-casual stretches were done in a very slow, sexy sort of way, bending over quite a lot-especially with her back to the mirror. The truth was, she didn’t know if he was watching-but it was fun to imagine that he was-and she didn’t really expect to see him today. She just felt strangely comforted by the idea that she was in the same place, at the same time.
Yep, you’re a stalker, this confirms it.
The class started, the instructor a very flexible redhead who made the poses look easy, while Katie, who hadn’t done yoga in ten years, struggled to maintain her balance. So much for looking sexy, she thought, but she didn’t have much time to think about Liam or the titillating fact that he might be watching from somewhere. She had to concentrate on not falling down.
She was right in the middle of a Downward Dog pose-although she couldn’t see any resemblance between her butt-in-the-air posture to any dog she’d ever known-when Jenna appeared at her side, breaking her concentration and making Katie fall straight down to the mat in a sweaty heap.
“Um, you’re Katie Nelson, right?” Jenna inquired. She looked a little scared and it made Katie alarmed.
“Yes?”
“Mr. Quinn wants to see you.”
Katie blinked at her. “He does?”
She smiled all the way up the back stairs, down a long hallway until it came to a dead-end. Jenna knocked, smiling at Katie, but it wasn’t that dazzling salesgirl smile anymore, it was the polite, uncomfortable sort.
“Come in.” Liam was at his desk in a tall leather chair, a phone to his ear, feet up, his view exactly as Katie had pictured it, of the yoga class below.
“Sir, this is-”
“Thank you, Jenna.” He dismissed her, not unkindly, and Jenna shut the door behind her, leaving Katie and Liam alone.
“I’ll call you back.” He hung up the phone, shaking his head and looking up at her. “Brat.”
“Who me?” She hid a smirk and only half-succeeded. “I just found one of those free membership trials in a magazine…”
“Let’s not play games, Katie.” Liam stood and she felt her knees weaken. His physical presence did that to her. “I told you I was busy this week.”
“I know,” she agreed, toying with the key pinned to her waistband. “I didn’t intend to bother you.”
He snorted, incredulous. “You spreading your legs and bending over on the yoga mats down there in my gym is bothering me.”
“Is it?” She knew she sounded a little too hopeful.
“You know it is.” He took a step toward her and she felt her heart stop for a moment as he reached past and pushed a button on the door, locking it. “Now undress.”
She gaped at him, eyes wide.
“I won’t say it again, Katie.” He strode back to his desk, already pulling at his tie. “I’m not going to play games with you. I’m going to give you exactly what you came here for.”
Promises, promises.
She started with her tank, pulling it over her head, and she heard his intake of breath when it left her nude from the waist up-she wasn’t wearing a bra. Tossing it on the leather sofa, she turned her back to him, inching her yoga pants down, taking her panties along with them. Her trainers and socks were still downstairs next to her mat-she’d come upstairs barefoot.
“Now come here.” His voice was low, soft, a little hoarse, and she turned to find his suit coat off, along with his trousers and shoes, his white dress-shirt unbuttoned down the front. He was wearing a pair of navy blue boxers, and they were tented quite nicely. It made her mouth water.
Completely nude, she went to where he was leaning back against the edge of his desk. Any man in his boxers, wearing just a shirt and a pair of black socks, should have looked ridiculous, but he didn’t. He looked sexy as hell, even with the bulge in his boxers. Maybe especially because of it.
His gaze dipped downward, and then back up, his eyes meeting hers. “I have an important meeting in about twenty minutes. Before that, you’re going to do everything I tell you to do. Do you understand?
She nodded, a thrill going through her as he reached inside his boxers, freeing his cock for her view. He had big hands, but his cock made his fist look small as he began to slowly pump it, his eyes never leaving hers.
“Get on your knees.”
She sank before him, knowing just how he’d felt in the showers when he was on his knees before her, ready to worship him. A smile played at the corners of his mouth and he brought a hand to her hair, pulled back into a workout ponytail, yanking the elastic out and letting it spill all around her shoulders.
“Suck it.”
She did, finally, gladly, taking the offering of his cock into her mouth like a gift. He fed it to her, slow and easy, rubbing the head of it against the inside of her cheeks, along her eager tongue, over her wet lips.
“You like sucking cock.” It wasn’t a question but she responded by taking him deeper into her throat, eyes on his, as deep as she could go. Liam groaned when his entire length had disappeared into her mouth, pressing his hips forward, making her gag.
Katie dribbled saliva down her chin, over her breasts, his cock so filling her mouth and throat she could barely breathe, but she didn’t care. He grabbed a handful of her hair, easing back out, and she licked at his length the whole way, using her tongue along the underside of his shaft, flicking the tip when it appeared at her lips, thick with her saliva.
“Please,” she begged hoarsely from her knees. “Oh Liam, please…”
“Stand up.”
She rose slowly, dizzy, oxygen-deprived, but she knew he would hang onto her, and he did, grabbing her around the waist and lifting her to him. She wrapped her legs around him, wiggling in his arms, her pussy so hungry for his cock it was seeking it all on its own, Katie’s hips grinding uncontrollably.
He grabbed a fistful of her hair again, pulling her head back so he could graze his teeth down her neck, over her collarbone, walking forward with her toward the closed office door. Katie’s pussy was so wet she felt her juices dripping down her ass and she locked her arms around Liam’s neck as they reached the wall, pressed hard up against it.
“I’m going to fuck you,” he growled into her ear and she whimpered in response, feeling the weight of him as he pressed her hard to the wall, his cock trapped between them. “And I’m going to come really fucking hard into your hot little cunt.”
Oh god. She dug her heels into his back as if she could force him into her, but the thought was ridiculous. She couldn’t force him to do anything, and she knew it.
“I’m going to come fast and I’m going to come hard,” he whispered, leaning back a little so he could look down and see her breasts, cupping and kneading them, her nipples so eager for attention they hardened immediately under his hands. Katie couldn’t take her eyes off his cock, pulsing between them, still slick from her mouth.
“Look at me,” Liam insisted and she dragged her gaze upward, over the ridged surface of his belly, the broad expanse of his chest, meeting his eyes. They were dark with lust, so dark it almost frightened her. “I’m not going to stop fucking you, Katie. Do you hear me? Even after I come, I’m going to keep fucking you.”
She stared at him in wonder, but didn’t have time to respond because he shifted his hips and drove into her, his aim perfect, sinking deep into the soft, waiting flesh of her pussy. Having Liam inside of her made her want to scream and she bit his shoulder to keep from crying out, knowing that while the door was locked, there were people right on the other side of it.
“Oh fuck.” Liam stopped, buried inside of her, his full weight pressing her to the wall. She couldn’t breathe at all, but she didn’t want to. Instead, she tried to take him in deeper, squeezing the muscles of her pussy around his length.
“Ohhh. Brat!” He groaned, his hands moving down to grip her ass, giving him more leverage. His cock was steel heat and he impaled her, hips driving forward and up, shoving her against the wall. Katie cried out, taking his length, taking his weight, his cock splitting her open again and again. Liam’s breath was hot in her ear, his words even hotter, telling her how good she felt, how beautiful she was, how much he loved her hot, wet, sweet little cunt.
“Ohhh fuck, Kitten, ohhhh your fucking pussy! I’m gonna come so hard!” He growled, his hips pumping faster, harder, driving in deeper than she thought was possible, slamming her so hard against the wall she felt as if the whole building was going to fall down around them.
“Ahhhhh Katie, ohhhhh!” He went up on his toes, thrusting her up the wall as he came, and she felt every hot swell of his cock as he plunged into her tight hole, filling her with fiery hot blasts of cum, so deep in made her belly burn. She clung to him, whimpering against his shoulder, feeling his whole body shuddering with his climax.
She slowly relaxed, nuzzling his neck, kissing his collarbone, his jaw. They both looked up when someone knocked at the door.
“Mr. Quinn?” It was Jenna.
Katie bit her lip, hissing, “Hurry! Put me down!”
“No,” he whispered, her earlobe between his teeth. “I told you I wasn’t going to stop fucking you.”
“The people from Fitness Craze are waiting downstairs for you, sir.”
“Let them wait,” he called, dismissing her.
“Oh Liam,” she whispered, amazed to feel his cock swelling again inside of her. It wasn’t possible-was it? But he was hard again, and he was fucking her, panting and grinding and making her pussy sing with pleasure.
She gasped when he grabbed her ass and swung her around in his arms, carrying her, still fucking her, oh god, lifting her up and down on his length, over toward the window. It was double pane glass-the same glass he’d watched her doing yoga through-and she could see the class still going on, winding up now, everyone relaxing in child’s pose.
“Liam!” she cried but he had her turned around again, fucking her with her back pressed to the window this time instead of the wall. “Will it hold us?”
“I don’t fucking care,” he panted, punishing her pussy with his cock, so hard again it hurt, and she begged him for more, gasping his name. She was so close to coming it was maddening, but she couldn’t quite get there, not like this. Her clit throbbed, needing more direct stimulation, and she shifted her hips, looking for something, anything, to rub up against.
Then Liam had her in his lap, collapsing into the big leather office chair behind him, taking her with him and nestling her into the saddle of his hips, still buried in her flesh. She looked down at him in surprise, but he leaned back, forcing his cock deeper, looking up at her as she straddled him. His hands went to her hips, guiding her on his cock, not up and down but back and forth, a sensation that made her pussy purr.
“Touch yourself,” he told her, hands manipulating her, back and forth, back and forth, pelvis’s grinding. It was easy to reach her clit from this angle and she found it with her fingers, sighing and rubbing, her eyes half-closed with bliss. Liam rocked his hips back, forcing her forward, and captured one of her breasts in his mouth, not just the nipple but the areola too, sucking deeply.
“Oh yes!” she moaned, forgetting about the people on the other side of the door, the people waiting downstairs, the yoga class rolling up their mats and chatting down below. She could see them, but they couldn’t see her. There was no one in the world but Liam, only Liam, and she was his.
“I want you to come.” He licked her nipple, lashing it with his tongue, still grinding her into his lap, rubbing the head of his cock so deep, round and round. “Come all over me, Kitten.”
She cried out, unable to resist his direction, her fingers working furiously between her thighs, her other nipple lost in the hot, wet suck of his mouth. Her orgasm wasn’t a wave or even a tsunami, it was the whole fucking ocean folding in on itself, drowning both of them. She felt it take her, straightening her spine and curling her toes, and even the members down on the floor gathering for Pilates had to have heard her screaming with pleasure, the hot clamp of her pussy on Liam’s cock forcing his own climax.
“Katie!” He groaned and thrust up, his head going back in the chair, and they probably would have tipped over if the desk hadn’t been behind them. He lifted her up with his hips, his cock exploding again like a white hot geyser, the continual, persist tug of her pussy like the moon pulling the tide, unstoppable. “Oh fuck! Fuck! Baby!”
“Yes!” She urged, keeping up the motion all on her own, back and forth, her clit still throbbing as she rocked on top of him, wanting more, more-she couldn’t get enough. Liam groaned, collapsing into the chair, grabbing an armful of hair this time and pulling her face to his, kissing her deeply, his tongue pulling her in.
“Oh sweet, sweet Kitten,” he murmured, fingertips running down her sweaty back. “Now that’s what I call a workout.”
She giggled “Way better than yoga.”
The phone rang and he sighed, reaching over and picking it up. “Quinn.”
Katie slowly disengaged herself from his lap and he listened, retrieving her clothes and pulling them quickly on. Behind her, Liam was dressing, the phone crooked between his shoulder and his ear.
“Good girl, Jenna,” he said finally, grinning at the way Katie glared at his term of endearment. “Excellent way to stall them. I’ll be right down.”
“Big business deal?” Katie asked, perched on the arm of the leather sofa, watching him pull on his suit coat.
Liam quickly tied his tie. “Fitness Craze wants to merge with us. It will make us the largest health club chain in the country.”
“And what do you have to do with it?” she wondered out loud
“I own the company.”
She gaped at him. “All of them? The whole chain?”
Well, that explains the brand new Maserati.
“I thought you were interested in my skills as a Dom, not in my money.” Liam came out from behind the desk, catching her around the waist and pulling her in close, using his other hand to restrain her wrists behind her back. Just that made her stomach do flips.
“I am,” she insisted, looking up at him, hopeful. “Does this mean… are we… can we…?”
He smiled at her hesitation, but didn’t help her out.
“Are you going to train me?” she whispered.
“What do you think I’ve been doing?” He laughed, shaking his head. “You don’t need the fancy joint and all the equipment you know. As a personal trainer, I could train anyone, anywhere, using anything. I can do the same as a Dom.”
“Well don’t tell that to Fitness Craze.” She smiled, nuzzling her cheek against his chest, her heart soaring, but then she thought of something that hadn’t occurred to her before. “But… what about… do you have any other… you know… clients?”
He frowned, lifting her chin so he could look into her eyes. “You’re not a client, Katie.”
“No?”
“No, you’re my…” He hesitated and she watched him struggle, waiting. “You’re my kitten.” He seemed satisfied with that, and so was she, and he embraced her tightly. “I guess this means my basement is all for you now. Starting tonight.”
“Tonight?” Her eyes widened.
“Oh yes.” Liam nodded, his smile grim. “You’re going to be punished for interrupting me at work when I told you to wait.”
“Ohh…” Her ass clenched at the thought. She looked at him, considering. “You’re really going to do this… only with me? Are you sure?”
“Yes.” He pressed his lips to her forehead and she felt his breath, warm and sweet. “Life doesn’t throw naked, crying submissives at my feet every day, you know.”
She flushed. “So you knew from the beginning?”
“I knew when I asked you to show me, that night in the car, and you did.” He caressed her cheek and she took his hand in hers, turning it over and kissing his palm, just like she had then.
The knock on the door made them both jump.
“Damnit.” He kissed her again, quickly this time, but hard. “My place. Tonight. The basement.”
“But… I don’t know how much of a deterrent punishments are, really, to being a brat, when so far, the punishments have been so…” She sighed happily.
He chuckled. “You’ll learn.”
Liam let her go, striding to answer the door and as Katie watched him, she knew he was absolutely right.
She’d always been a quick study.