Belladonna at Belstone

Chapter Twenty-Six

Simon vaulted over a fallen trunk, ducked beneath a low branch, running along the line of the wall and staring between the trees until he saw the movement of a robe. Turning away from the wall, he soon came to the canon.

Elias was standing with his arms around Constance, and at her side, blearily glancing from Simon to Elias, was a befuddled-looking Denise.

Simon was so relieved, he almost sank to his knees in thanksgiving. Nodding to Elias, he said, “Is she all right?” There was no need for Elias to answer. Simon smiled. “You take her back. I’ll bring Denise.”

Elias and Constance needed no second prompting. They walked back to the convent, he with his arm around her shoulders while she gripped his other hand in both her own. Although her eyes were cast demurely downwards, Simon was sure he saw a tear fall down beneath her veil.

“Come on, Denise.”

“Why? What’s going on?” she demanded petulantly. “I wanted to come out for a walk with Constance, and now you want us to return. What right do you have to order me around, eh?“ She was drunk, very drunk, from the look of her, and couldn’t help but slur her words a little, even when she spoke with care, enunciating slowly.

“It’s no good, Denise,” he said. “We know the truth. Why did the girls have to die?”

“How should I know?”

“Where were you last night when Elias ran through the frater?”

“I told you: out in the buttery. I heard him running, but I only caught a glimpse of him. I was filling my jug.”

“Why should Katerine and Agnes have died, Denise?”

“Katerine was a nasty little wench who sought power over others. She even tried to blackmail me, you know. Said I was drunk before a service, the sow! Asked me for money to keep hush. And Agnes… well, she never hid the fact that she liked men. Especially,” she gave a soft belch, “that fair-haired, fair-skinned, fair-featured…” she looked about her blankly for a moment, seeking inspiration, then apparently gave up. “Priest! Nasty little man.”

“If all that were true, it was no reason to kill them!” Simon said heavily.

“I never said it was,” Denise agreed.

“So why did they die, then?”

“You’ll need to ask the killer,” she said unperturbably.

Before Simon could speak further, he saw Hugh ahead, waiting at the gate. “What are you doing here?” the bailiff asked.

“Well, we heard you shout and thought you might need help.”

“No, no. That was just because Elias had found Constance and Denise. Did you leave someone with Baldwin?”

“Joan’s there.”

Joan stood over Cecily, tut-tutting in sympathy. The girl’s features were drawn and appeared almost waxen, as if she would melt in direct sunlight or close to a warm fire.

It was strange to look down at her and see that abbreviated, mutilated stump where her arm should have been, and Joan crossed herself, thinking how curious it was that the one woman in the priory who was committed to helping the ill and bringing them back to full health had been the agent of God’s will in destroying Cecily. It was not the outcome Joan had anticipated when Cecily had gone sprawling over her leg in the laundry.

Not that it was truly intentional. It wasn’t from malice that Joan had made Cecily fall. It was God’s will; He had made her grab Cecily’s foot in that way so that He could punish Cecily for her foul language.

Joan shook her head slowly. God was kind. Perhaps He had decided to allow Cecily to survive, even though she would always carry this wound marring her looks and potential – but maybe He would let a new arm grow from the stump! That, Joan thought, would be a miracle to rank with the best.

She left the lay sister’s side and went over to Baldwin. Sitting at Hugh’s stool, she beamed kindly at him. “How is your head, Sir Knight?”

“It has been better,” he admitted.

“I am truly sorry it has given you such pain.”

Baldwin was half-asleep, groggy and feeble, and he only listened with a part of his attention, but he managed a smile. “It was hardly your fault, Sister.”

“No. It was God’s will,” she agreed seriously. “And when He decides to act, there is little ordinary people can do.”

Baldwin said. “It wasn’t God Who attacked me.”

“Anyone is only a source of good, acting as He tells us, or bad, ignoring His instructions,” she explained gently.

“Whoever dropped the slate on me was not acting for God,” Baldwin said, closing his eyes. “That person murdered a young novice, which was a blasphemy.”

“No, for God had ordained it. And she was of little importance, anyway. Just another of the young sluts that populate the world now. She would never have made a nun.”

“Of course she was important,” Baldwin said. “She was only a youngster, a girl.”

“You can’t understand, Sir Baldwin. I think God chose to protect the convent in the only way left to Him. He couldn’t help but retaliate when these girls misbehaved so obviously.”

Baldwin looked at her, puzzled.

Joan went on carefully, as if trying to help him comprehend something terribly important: “You see, Lady Elizabeth has ruined the place, and that goes against the Rule created to save souls. It’s far too important for a philandering woman like her. She has disgraced her cloth.”

“Who should be in charge?”

“That’s down to God, but Margherita’s a good nun, and would make an excellent prioress. She is reliable and pious. I’ve known her all her life. Ever since poor Bridget gave birth to her.”

Baldwin frowned. His head hurt abominably, but he knew it was crucial to keep concentrating. “That was the nun who ran away?”

“She did.” Joan gave a thin smile. “And came back with a child – Margherita.”

“But she ran away again, didn’t she?”

“No, she didn’t. You see, God was angry that she had disgraced her cloth. He told me to punish her.”

Baldwin suddenly felt calm. He was sure Joan was mad, and he listened carefully as she spoke.

“It was because of her affair with Sir Rodney. He was a very good-looking man, you know. He fell from his horse not far from here and was brought in to be nursed. Bridget was the infirmarer in those days, and she took care of him. When I realised what she was about, I remonstrated with her, but she wouldn’t listen, and then she ran away. The bishop himself was involved in fetching her back. The shame she brought upon the convent! God demanded that she be punished, and put a hammer in my hand. I walked with her to a shed near the main gate one night, and inside it I struck her down. Then I buried her beneath the floor and burned it down. God told me to.”

Her features radiated calmness and reverence. Baldwin found it hard to keep his voice steady as he absorbed her story. “So you would prefer to see Margherita in place?”

“Yes. I have looked after her since poor Bridget had to die, and God believes she would be the best woman for the convent. She would steer us out of the dreadful state we have got into.”

“Why did the novices have to die?”

“Those girls?” For an instant her face altered. An angry frown marred her serenity. “Moll was nasty. I heard her speaking most sharply to Margherita, very disrespectful. And she spread rumours.”

“How?”

“She came to me and told me that Margherita was stealing from the priory. Silly. God didn’t want her to tell lies. He had to silence her.”

“You killed her?”

“No. God did – to protect Margherita. Katerine was no better: a nasty child, I am afraid, keen to use information about other people to bend them to her will. She had heard about Constance and was going to tell the world about her with her man. Terrible! Think how that would reflect upon the convent.”

Baldwin nodded seriously. “And Agnes?”

“Ah, yes. Agnes,” Joan said primly. “Well, she was a demon in human guise. She seduced that poor priest and bedded him many times. In the convent’s precinct here, if you would credit it! Within the cloisters, often in that room where she died. Denise saw her only yesterday, out in the garden copulating like a wild beast! Disgusting!”

“And me?”

“I am sorry about the tile, but it was intended to kill you, not to cause a painful injury. I thought you saw me on the roof – and now God wouldn’t want you to continue with your investigations. News would spread and if you finished your enquiry, the convent might be closed. And that would be displeasing to Him.”

“So it is best that I should be silenced?” Baldwin asked. He gave a small smile when she nodded. “And then the bailiff? And after him the bishop?”

“Oh no. It’s only the secular folk whose mouths must be stilled. I only have to dispose of your friend the bailiff and his servant.” She stopped, her head on one side as if listening. “Oh yes, and Rose, of course. The prioress’s bastard, the whore from the vill. She must die for her sins.”

“What of the prioress herself? She gave birth to Rose, after all.”

“She confessed and was given absolution,” Joan pointed out in a surprised tone. “She has been pardoned by God.”

“Ah, I see.”

“I’m very sorry,” she repeated. As she spoke she reached into her robe and pulled forth a pair of small bottles. “Dwale from Constance’s stores,” she said, holding up one. “And a bottle of pure hemlock juice. Her dwale contains some, you know, but there is enough in here to kill.”

She emptied the dwale into his cup, and held it out to him.

Baldwin shook his head slowly. “I fear I cannot drink it, Sister. I choose not to submit to my murder.”

Joan sighed and set the pot back down on the table. Then, faster than Baldwin would have expected, she leaped on to him, straddling his chest. Picking up the cup again, she held it beneath his nose so that he could inhale the rich aroma of spiced wine. “Come along, Sir Baldwin. If you drink this, you’ll know nothing about the hemlock, I promise you. There’s enough poppy syrup in this to make you forget everything and sleep. Otherwise I’ll have to force you to drink the hemlock neat, and that wouldn’t be pleasant.”

Baldwin was surprised at his defencelessness. Joan could only weigh a few stones, and yet he was suddenly aware that with her seated on his chest, her knees pressing on his upper arms, in his weakened state he was almost incapable of protecting himself. She pressed the rim of the cup to his lips, trying to force him to open his mouth, pushing harder and harder, until he became anxious that she might break his teeth. He opened his mouth and took a long draught, but as she smiled down at him, he spat it full in her face.

While she gasped with disgust, wiping her cheek ineffectually with her sleeve, he lifted his legs and rolled to one side, using the leverage of his whole body. She was tipped a little off-balance, enough for him to be able to free an arm, and he shoved at her hard. With a short squawk she fell.

Quickly he stood, but almost immediately reeled. Rising after the burst of energy disorientated him, and he toppled backwards, raising a hand to his head. It felt as though someone had slammed a sledgehammer at the back of his skull, and he retched with a sudden sickness that seemed to come up from the soles of his feet while the room span about him.

He became aware that Joan was up again. She glowered at him as she might at a recalcitrant novice, one who was resolutely incompetent at repeating the dies irae. Muttering under her breath, she retrieved her little bottle, and approached again. “I’m sorry about this, it’s bitter, but the dwale has gone so you’ll have to take the hemlock neat.”

“I think I prefer not to,” Baldwin said. He was suddenly struck with the impression that this was a weird dream. It must surely end soon.

“It’s God’s will,” she said relentlessly. “Do you want to oppose Him?”

Baldwin retreated. He had no wish to fight with her; she had a wiry strength in her body, and in his present enfeebled state he wasn’t sure he could protect himself. “I only oppose you, Sister Joan. I think you have mistaken His will.”

He saw her shake her head in irritation, and then her eyes lit upon the table. On it was Godfrey’s toolbag. His blood-stained saw and razor lay near. Baldwin was about to try to jump forward and knock them from her when she pounced and snatched up the razor. Turning to him, she held it out. “See? God puts everything in my hands.”

Baldwin could think of nothing to say. His head was swimming, his legs felt like putty, and his vision was slipping out of focus even as the pain in his head appeared to grow. He tried to move back further, but stumbled, and felt himself going over backwards. He was close to the wall, and although he flung an arm behind him to break his fall, his head caught the wall before his hand touched the floor, and agony thundered in his head – a sickening, throbbing spasm that made his belly clench and vomit up all its contents.

Baldwin could make out Joan’s feet approaching him even as he felt himself slide away from consciousness and into a deep sleep.

“Joan?” Simon repeated. “You left him in her care?”

“She’s all right, isn’t she?”

“If I’d been wrong and someone else was the murderer, Joan’d hardly be strong enough to protect Baldwin, would she?” Simon pointed out.

“Have you caught the murderer, then?” Denise asked innocently.

“You,” Hugh said sternly. “We know you did it.”

Denise stopped dead in her tracks, her face a picture of shocked denial. “Me!“ she squeaked.

Simon said, “You were all alone on the night Moll died…”

“So were others!”

“And no one saw you when Katerine was killed.”

“I was in the frater.”

“And when Agnes was murdered, you were alone again.”

“I was in the buttery getting a drink!”

Simon looked her up and down, sceptically. “Conveniently alone yet again.”

“So was Margherita, and the prioress, and Joan…”

“Certainly,” said Simon grimly.

Hugh frowned. “You say you saw Joan last night?”

“Yes.”

“Where?”

“In the cloisters. I saw her walking about in the moonlight before I went to the frater. She’s often there while the others sleep.”

Simon made his way at full speed to the gate, then along the wall, back to the cloisters. All the way he cursed his stupidity, his inane foolishness at following his gut feelings instead of staying with his friend.

He got to the garth and skidded on the flags, almost falling, but managed to recover his balance and pelted off along the corridor towards the door to the dorter, and all the way he recalled the happiness on Baldwin’s face when he was married only a few weeks before. Jeanne, too, had been radiant on her wedding day.

Simon reached the door and pressed the latch, panting a moment, then lurched up the stairs. Jeanne would never forgive him if anything had happened to her husband.

Simon would never forgive himself.

Lady Elizabeth stood in horror, automatically stroking Princess.

Joan’s words carried clearly out here to the prioress’s chamber, and yet Lady Elizabeth was so stunned at what she had heard that she was almost convinced she had misheard the whole story.

Carefully she set the dog on the bed and walked to the door. Her duty was clear: she must protect Sir Baldwin, the invalid who had relied on her infirmary for his protection and recovery. As her hand touched the door, she heard the loud crash as Joan fell from Baldwin to the floor, and the sound made the Prioress think again. She went to her chest, threw open the lid, and withdrew a large dagger. Pulling it from its sheath, she went to her door.

She heard the clattering of feet on the bare boards, and Joan’s exultant cry, “See? God puts everything in my hands.”

The prioress thrust the door open. Baldwin lay on his side, a pool of vomit on the floor by his mouth. Joan was standing before him, a razor in her hand. She lifted it as the prioress came in and, with a snarl, launched herself at the startled Lady Elizabeth. The prioress thrust out her arm defensively – the dagger in her hand. Joan sprang forward and ran straight on to the blade, impaling herself. Lady Elizabeth felt it jerk and thrash as Joan screeched, slashing wildly in a futile attempt to cut Lady Elizabeth’s face or stab her throat. As she watched in horror, Joan’s shrieking subsided, and a curious confused expression came into her eyes. Then Lady Elizabeth’s arm was dragged down as the older nun gradually slumped, her body unable to muster the energy to continue. Beneath her robe, the thick blood pooled on the infirmary floor.

When Lady Elizabeth looked down at her, Joan was still alive. She stared up at the prioress with a fierce loathing. Only then did Lady Elizabeth realise that her own arm had been slashed, that the whole upper part was criss-crossed with thin cuts. And only then was she grateful for the length of her arms, and the fact that Joan’s were shorter.