Masquerading The Marquess

Chapter 17

A few hours later, Calliope huddled on one side of the sofa drinking tea. James sat behind the desk and Stephen was relaxed on the other side of the sofa. Stephen was already looking remarkably better. The doctor had checked them all over and advised plenty of rest and laudanum after he had tried to bleed Calliope and nearly been torn apart by both men. James had been tight-lipped, but she had discovered his mother had been bled for days before succumbing to a lung disease.

They had filled Stephen in on everything that had happened while he was missing. Everything that he needed to know, at least. Stephen had sent for Deirdre and Robert and they were seated across from the sofa alternating between mothering and chastising her.

"I can’t believe you didn’t tell us Stephen was missing."

"We could have helped, if you had just let us know."

"Do you know how worried we’ve been?"

"What were you thinking of, taking off with Angelford-no offense to you, my lord-and not informing us of what was going on?"

"Mother is going to flay me alive, and you too, when she finds out."

"You could have told us of your relationship with Angelford. We’ve been worried sick that you had developed a tendre-no offense, my lord-and were going to end up quite hurt from it all." Calliope silently acknowledged the truth of Robert’s statement.

Deirdre shoved a scone into Calliope’s hands and unsteadily poured more tea into her cup.

"Well, you are coming home with me, and that’s that. How long will it take you to pack?"

"Really, Dee, everything is fine. Stephen said-"

"No, I insist. I will bring reinforcements if you don’t comply."

"Deirdre, Calliope can stay here. I don’t think-"

"Stephen, you can’t be serious. There are bloodstains on the carpet. Bloodstains from dead bodies!" Deirdre was almost shrieking.

"She doesn’t have to stay in that room. She can have any room she desires. It’s her decision, Deirdre. She hasn’t said she wants to end our arrangement."

"I have to agree with Deirdre, Stephen," Robert said. "Your relationship and this arrangement can be sorted out later." He cast a quick look at James. Calliope hadn’t had the chance to tell Robert or Deirdre that James knew about the caricatures.

Calliope tried to rectify the slip. "Oh, by the way, he already-"

"You are in no shape to argue anything. Kidnappings, chases, fires, murders. Whatever is this world coming to?" Robert rolled right over Calliope’s statement, intent on winning the battle with Stephen.

Calliope went back to sipping her tea and listening to them argue. It didn’t matter if the whole tale came out now or later.

From his chair across the room, James watched the four of them clustered together arguing. Like a family, relaxed, friendly and comforting, kindred spirits bickering at each other and then smoothing ruffled feathers. He felt like an outsider. He didn’t belong.

Stephen had said she could have any of the rooms she desired. Any included his. She hadn’t said no.

The room was suddenly oppressive. He needed air. No, he needed a smoke. He rooted through the desk for the cheroot he had seen when searching earlier in the week. He seized it and racked his brain for the last time he had smoked one.

The Killroys’ ball.

James stood abruptly. The movement interrupted their squabbling. Four pairs of eyes stared at him.

"I’m going out for a second."

He left the room quickly and headed out the front door.

He lit the cheroot and leaned against the stone. Fresh air. Well, fresh London air, at least. He inhaled and the smooth smoke caressed his throat.

The door opened and Stephen poked his head out.

"You all right?"

"Yes, go back inside with the others. I’ll be in soon."

Stephen frowned but didn’t argue and the door was shut once more.

James couldn’t sort his emotions or think straight. Being outside didn’t help. Smoking didn’t help. Maybe a scotch would help.

It was time for him to leave.

He started down the walk and then stopped. His coat was inside the foyer. He could grab it and leave without anyone being the wiser.

James didn’t like the sudden creeping thought that said he was being a coward. He just didn’t want to interrupt their reunion. That was all.

He opened the door and stepped inside. His coat was on the table. The staff was still in an uproar and things were scattered to and fro.

James snatched his coat. He wasn’t going to look in the study.

The door was partially opened.

He looked.

"Oh, Stephen, thank you. I can’t tell you how much this means to me."

Calliope was hugging Stephen hard. James could see tears running down her face.

Something broke in his chest.

He didn’t belong here.

James blindly found his way out of the townhouse and into his carriage. He needed a scotch-a big glass of it.

"Oh, Stephen, thank you. I can’t tell you how much this means to me." Love and sadness coursed inside her. The first paragraph of the first letter was all she had needed to turn into a watering pot.

"Well, you can thank Robert too. It was a joint effort. Poor boy braved the stews of London to get these for you."

"Can’t say it was a pleasant experience," Robert said.

Calliope looked at him quizzically. "Why did you have to go to the stews for my father’s letters?"

"Our plans went awry when everything else went awry. " Stephen shook his head. "Poor Robert was convinced Pamela, Lady Salisbury, was a fire-breathing dragon with a forked tail. And I was gone. He believed you when you said I’d left. I have always been one to up and disappear."

Robert snorted. "We’ll see next time."

Stephen smiled and ignored him. "And as it turns out, Pamela volunteered the letters."

A carriage clicked familiarly down the street. James had left. He hadn’t said goodbye. Calliope’s heart constricted and she looked at Robert. "I’m not sure there will be a next time. I have some thinking to do."

The three of them looked at her as one.

"Oh, don’t look at me like that. I’m fine. It’s just I’m not sure my heart is in the caricature business any longer."

"Never say that, my dear, you are too talented. Perhaps you just need a different subject." Robert cast her a knowing glance. Calliope just shook her head, unable to respond.

Deirdre jumped up. "I think we should be going. I’ll be back to help you pack in a few hours."

Deirdre had always been able to read Calliope’s moods. She had probably heard the carriage leaving and correctly assessed the situation.

.

"Thanks, Dee. Tell everyone I’m fine and I’ll see them tonight."

Deirdre gave her a big hug. "Come, Robert, let’s be off."

Robert sent Calliope a concerned look, but she waved him off and he followed Deirdre out the door Calliope turned to Stephen. "What’s going to happen to Lady Flanders? She was the one we overheard in the Pettigrews’ rose garden, arguing with Curdle."

Stephen brushed a hand through his hair.

"Roth is taking care of her. We don’t know how deep a hand she had in the whole affair. Depending on the outcome, prison, maybe being shipped across the Atlantic. She may have targeted only you, or she may have been aware of all of Flanders ’s schemes. Roth will find out."

"Stephen, I have to ask. Why didn’t you tell me you knew my father?"

Stephen hesitated. "I thought I had plenty of time to broach the subject. Robert told me you believed your father abandoned you."

"Yes.".

"Robert approached me with your masquerade plans. He was privy to just enough information to know I’d been involved with your father. When he presented the idea of helping you out, I immediately accepted." Stephen smiled. "Had I known earlier that you were alive, I would have figured some way to approach you before."

Calliope squeezed his hand.

"After learning that you thought Salisbury had abandoned you, I convinced Robert you were mistaken. We devised a plan to share some of his letters with you. Something to convince you of his love."

"Why didn’t you just tell me?"

"You had spent years convincing yourself otherwise. Again, I thought I had time. Time to make it easier for you." Stephen shook his head. "As to the other, the only way to get his letters was to approach his mother. We had to tiptoe around Lady Salisbury, so as to not give away our plans. Pamela isn’t a bad person, but she was always too protective and possessive when it came to her only child. She was frightened of you and your mother, and your relationship with her son."

Calliope nodded. "I finally figured that out."

Stephen looked at her cautiously. "She gave the letters freely. And she wrote one of her own. I don’t know what it says, but it’s at the bottom of the pile."

"What a mess."

Stephen looked cheerful. "Yes, relationships often are."

"How would you know?"

Stephen squeezed her hand. "So I’ve heard." He paused. "By the way, do you know who brought me here?"

"No. The footmen were unable to question her. She slipped away too quickly."

"Hmmmm."

"You were lucky she found you."

"And I’d like to thank her. But first I have to find her."

"What are you going to do?"

"I suppose I can take the footmen around London and see if they spot her, but that doesn’t seem very efficient."

Calliope patted his hand. "I’m sure you will figure it out. I could try to put a sketch together from their descriptions."

He nodded. "Speaking of drawings, what are you going to do about James?"

Calliope looked down at her feet. They were swinging guiltily. "I don’t know what you mean."

"Sure you do."

"I don’t know. "

Stephen shook his head in a mocking fashion. "Such indecisiveness from the girl who always has a battle plan."

"Leave me be, Stephen."

He nudged her in the side. "You’re perfect for each other. You need each other to chase the shadows away. "

She didn’t answer and he finally gave in. "I will take my leave too. It strikes me that there are a few things I need to do."

The look of anticipation on Stephen’s face didn’t bode well. "I’ll see you tonight," he said. He gave her one last squeeze and left.

What would she do? Calliope had no idea.

She stared at the pile of letters. She picked the pile up and went to the desk.

Calliope sifted through the letters and then smoothed the one from Lady Salisbury.

It was short but to the point.

Miss Minton,

Please understand that I tried to do all I could for my son. In hindsight I probably smothered him. But then, I was never what you would call a good mother. I wanted him all to myself The night I turned you away has haunted me. My son mourned your death, and died without knowing his daughter was still alive. It is the worst thing I have ever done.

I have followed your progress for these long years since my son’s death. Watching you, wondering if I should approach you. Maybe someday I shall discover the nerve.

Until then, I give you my most sincere apologies, for whatever they are worth. Please accept these letters with my blessing.

Sincerely,

Pamela Salisbury

Calliope had forgiven her father and Lady Salisbury. She had forgiven them before she had been presented with proof of her father’s love and her grandmother’s remorse. She felt light-hearted for the first time in a very long while.

Calliope stared at the pile of unread letters. Later, when she was alone, she would read each of them and cry for what might have been. Right now she just wanted to savor the precious feeling of being loved.

She opened her writing desk and carefully placed the letters inside.

Years ago she had thought she had plenty of time to speak with her father. And Stephen had thought he had plenty of time to speak with her about her father. Time wasn’t something to trifle with.

An eagerness to see James coursed through her. She wanted to share her good news; she wanted to share her feelings and to explain her drawings.

Stephen was right. She needed to decide what to do about James and take action. She couldn’t wait, she couldn’t count on time..

Some of her unfinished sketches and practice papers were lying in the drawer. Stuffed there out of James’s sight during their searches.

Calliope picked up the top one and smiled.

She would take over some of her sketches. Call a truce between Thomas Landes and the marquess. Maybe get him to understand why she had acted the way she had. It was very important to make him understand.

Calliope bundled the papers and grabbed her pelisse.

James stared broodingly at the fireplace.

Damn, he should have known better than to become emotionally involved.

He had only himself to blame. He had witnessed his father consumed by love, despair and finally death. James just hadn’t been wise enough to keep his own heart out of the fire.

And now that fire would blaze on someone else’s hearth.

"Hullo, James. Thought I’d let myself in."

"And you can let yourself back out, Stephen," James growled.

"What has you so crotchety?"

"None of your concern."

"I came to talk about Calliope."

"What about her?"

"What happened between the two of you?"

James looked at him. "Why, do you want to marry her?"

Stephen frowned and raised his voice. "No, James, what are you-"

James narrowed his eyes and raised his voice as well. "That makes sense. Why would anyone have to marry her? You don’t have to worry about her state anymore. She is happily broken in. She can even become your real mistress now."

Something fell in the hallway, but James barely heard it.

Stephen moved so quickly and unexpectedly that James found himself pinned against the wall. "I swear, James, if I didn’t feel sympathy for your situation, I would beat the living hell out of you."

Stephen gave him another shove. James didn’t fight back and Stephen released him. "All you have to do is look at her caricatures."

"Yes, they are quite flattering of me. It seems you both want your pound of flesh."

Stephen narrowed his eyes. "I’d like to feed your words to you right now, but I’m sure you will be eating them soon enough."

Stephen headed for the door. It was already slightly ajar. He turned around as he reached it.

"You’ll find they taste like crow."

"Good evening, Templeton."

"Good evening, miss. May I say, you’re looking well this evening."

Calliope knew she still looked frightful, but she gave him a warm smile. Templeton took her coat and moved toward James’s study.

"Oh, I think I will just come with you, Templeton. Now that I’m here, I’m in a bit of a hurry to state my business."

A dash of a smile may have flitted across the butler’s impassive face, but she couldn’t be sure.

"I don’t think he’d mind, miss. However, Mr. Chalmers is with him now, so I need to announce you first."

Calliope nodded and followed him, clutching the sketches to her chest. Having Stephen there might bolster her courage. Yes, his presence would be to her advantage.

Light streamed from the room. Someone had forgotten to shut the door. Loud voices issued from inside.

"Why would anyone have to marry her? You don’t have to worry about her state anymore. She is happily broken in. She can even become your real mistress now."

Calliope froze.

Templeton had just reached the door, and he stopped as well.

He turned to her, horror and sympathy etched on his face.

She was speechless.

How could she have followed in her mother’s footsteps? How had she let this happen?

The sketches slipped from her fingers.

"I-I-"

Calliope turned and ran. Her screeching demons chasing behind.

James reached for the decanter. If he was going to be like his father, he might as well act the part. His mission was to get foxed.

A knock interrupted his progress.

"What is it?"

Templeton entered and cleared his throat. There was an unusually disapproving look upon his face.

"Miss Minton was here while you were speaking with Mr. Chalmers."

"What did she want?"

"I believe she wanted to speak to you."

"Then why didn’t you announce her?"

"Well, my lord, I suppose I felt I owed her dignity that much."

James frowned. "Speak English, Templeton."

"It was unfortunate that she overheard part of your conversation."

James stilled. "Which part?"

"Something about 'breaking in' and marriage."

James swore violently.

Templeton approached and handed him a pile of papers. " She left these and her coat behind."

"Thank you, Templeton."

Templeton let himself out at the dismissal.

Gideon stretched out his paws as James sat down next to him in front of the fireplace. James set the papers down and eyed his glass. He ignored it and reluctantly picked up the first drawing.

Stephen looked silly in a picture at the opera. The next one featured Stephen walking in the park with an overly exaggerated grin and carefree air. The sketches of Stephen had been done with an inordinate amount of fondness. There were drawings of Robert and Deirdre and of the four of them plotting and cooking up schemes, literally. All were done with affection and fraternal love.

James tightened his lips, unwilling to see anything unusual in the emotions brushing the pages. He lifted the next one. It was one of the drawings Calliope had done of him. He was splayed across a garden bench staring at the sky, watching Hercules fight the Hydra. Hercules looked to be losing.

James studied the sketch for a long time. Passion burst from the image. Not with the familial love of the previous sketches, but with a flurry of jumbled feelings. A thoughtful expression adorned his face in the sketch, as if he were learning something from the battle. Jagged wounds cut across both Hercules and the Hydra, and one fallen head from the Hydra lay on the ground, carelessly tossed there by Hercules.

His mind had known what his heart had refused to believe. Her drawings of him had always been personal.

When she had been lying in his arms outside the burning house, he had felt as if his world were complete. She had stroked his cheek. She had promised him with her eyes. Her beautiful scent had enveloped him through the smoke. How had he felt? Powerful.

Now? Now he felt defeated. Alone. Weak. Yes, he felt weak. Why had he ever thought love made one weak?

Love was powerful, and he had allowed his father’s problems to interfere with the only woman he had ever cherished.

His head fell onto the back of the sofa. "Calliope, I’m so sorry."