Wash This Blood Clean from My Hand

XXVIII

HIS HEADACHE HAD LIFTED BY THE MORNING, AND ADAMSBERG ARRIVED punctually at the RCMP base, parking his car under the same maple tree and greeting the usual squirrel, finding a kind of penitential comfort in reconnecting with his briefly-established Quebec routine. All his colleagues asked how he was, but no one made any ironic references to drink. Warmth and discretion. Ginette said approvingly that the swelling on his forehead had gone down and gave him some more of the sticky ointment.

Everyone was in fact so discreet that he realised, with astonishment, that Laliberté could not have thought it necessary to tell the French group about the episode in L’Ecluse. The superintendent had stuck to the sober version of events: an accident caused by bumping into a tree branch in the dark. Adamsberg appreciated this considerate omission, since most people enjoy a good story about their superiors hitting the bottle. Danglard would have taken advantage of his drunken fall, and Noël would have made some meaningful jokes. And since one joke led to another, if news of the incident had reached the ears of Brézillon’s circle, he would have felt the consequences of it in relation to the Favre affair. Ginette was the only person who knew the full story, so that she could bring him medical help, and she too had not breathed a word to anyone else. This tact and restraint must mean that the Chat Room in Ottawa was of minute proportions, whereas in Paris, it tended to overflow the walls of the building and spill out over the pavement terrace of the Brasserie des Philosophes.

Danglard was the only one who did not enquire about his state of health. The imminence of their take-off that evening had once more plunged him into a state of debilitating panic, which he was doing his best to conceal from their Canadian colleagues.

Adamsberg passed the final day as a conscientious student under the tuition of Alphonse Philippe-Auguste, who was as unassuming as his surname was grandiose. At three in the afternoon, the superintendent called a halt to the session and brought the sixteen participants in the course together for a summing-up conference and a farewell drink.

The discreet Sanscartier came up to Adamsberg.

‘You had a few too many, the other night, I guess?’ he asked.

‘Er, you think?’ said Adamsberg prudently.

‘You’re not going to tell me a guy like you just walked into a tree. You’ve got a feel for nature and you knew the path like the back of your hand by then.’

‘So?’

‘So in my book, you had an attack of the blues, because of your problem back home, or something. You downed a few drinks, and that’s why you walked into that branch.’

Sanscartier was a hands-on policeman, who knew his stuff.

‘Does it really matter why I bumped into the branch?’ asked Adamsberg.

‘Yeah, it does. Because when you’ve got the blues, that’s exactly when you start bumping into branches. And if you’re still chasing that devil, you need to keep out of their way. You shouldn’t wait for hell to freeze over to get to the other side, if you dig my meaning. Put out more sail, hang on in there, and go for it.’

Adamsberg smiled at him.

‘You won’t forget me, will you?’ said Sanscartier, as they shook hands. ‘You promised you’re going to let me know when you catch your devil. And could you please send me some almond-scented soap?’

‘What was that?’

‘I knew this French guy, he had some. I liked the smell.’

‘Right, Sanscartier. I’ll send you some.’

Happiness is a bar of almond-scented soap. For a few seconds, Adamsberg envied the sergeant his simple desires. Almond-scented soap suited him down to the ground. It could have been invented for him.

In the check-in hall of the airport, Ginette inspected the wound on Adamsberg’s forehead one last time, while he looked anxiously around for Noëlla. The moment of their departure was approaching and there was no sign of her so far. He began to breathe more easily.

‘If it hurts in the plane because of the pressure, take some of these,’ said Ginette, giving him some pills. She put the ointment tube in his bag, and told him to go on applying it for a week.

‘Don’t forget, now,’ she said, distrustingly.

Adamsberg kissed her goodbye, then went over to the superintendent.

‘Thanks for everything, Aurèle, and thanks especially for not letting on to the colleagues.’

‘Christ, Jean-Baptiste, everyone has too much to drink once in a while. Not a good idea to shout it from the rooftops though, otherwise you won’t hear the end of it.’

The sound of the jet engines produced the same disastrous result on Danglard as on the way out. This time, Adamsberg avoided sitting next to him, but he posted Retancourt behind him, with orders to carry out her mission. Which she did twice during the flight, so that when the plane landed next morning at Roissy-Charles-de-Gaulle, everyone was exhausted, except Danglard, who was as fresh as a daisy. Finding himself alive and well and back on Parisian soil opened up new horizons for him, making him feel both indulgent and optimistic. So before getting on the bus, he came over to Adamsberg.

‘I’m really sorry about the other night,’ he said. ‘I apologise sincerely. It wasn’t what I meant to say.’

Adamsberg gave a vague nod, then all the members of the Brigade dispersed. It was to be a day of rest and recuperation.

And of getting used to their old existence once more. Compared to the vast expanses of Canada, Paris seemed pinched to Adamsberg, the trees were spindly, the streets crowded with people, and the squirrels like pigeons. Unless, that is, it was he who had shrunk while he had been away. He needed to think, to separate the samples into segments and bands, as he remembered.

As soon as he was home, he made himself some real coffee, sat down at the kitchen table and attempted something unusual for him, organising his thoughts. A cardboard file card, a pencil, a set of test tubes, and samples of the clouds in his head. The results weren’t really worthy of the laser sequencer. After an hour of effort, he had managed to make only a few notes.

The dead judge, the trident. Raphaël. Bears’ claws on trees, Pink Lake, devil in holy water. Fossil fish. Vivaldi’s warning. New father, 2 labradors.

Danglard: ‘In my book, you’re a stupid bastard.’ Sanscartier the Good: ‘Look for your damn demon and until you collar him, lie low.’

Drunk. Two and a half hours on the trail.

Noëlla. Seems to be out of the way.

And that was it. All mixed up, what was more. Only one positive thing came out of all this: he was rid of that crazy girl, which was a satisfying point to end on.

While unpacking, he found the ointment left him by Ginette Saint-Preux. Not the best souvenir from a trip abroad, although in the tube there seemed to him to be concentrated all the goodwill of his Québécois colleagues. They were bloody good chums. He must absolutely not forget to send the soap to Sanscartier. That suddenly reminded him that he had brought nothing back for Clémentine, not even a bottle of maple syrup.