On September 9, 1957, Cliff Simak wrote in his journal that he was “Beginning to get interested in Baby Sitter plot,” but thereafter, he apparently had trouble with it. On September 27, he wrote, “Unable for some reason to finish Sitters. Came out wrong. May have to recast ending.” But then, on October 6, he wrote “Gold called, needed story”—so Cliff finished typing it and sent it off the next day; and it appeared in the April 1958 issue of Galaxy Science Fiction.
In later years, Cliff would describe the story as one that pleased him; but I keep wondering if it isn’t a sort of horror story.
The first week of school was finished. Johnson Dean, superintendent of Millville High, sat at his desk, enjoying the quiet and the satisfaction of late Friday afternoon.
The quiet was massacred by Coach Jerry Higgins. He clomped into the office and threw his muscular blond frame heavily in a chair.
“Well, you can call off football for the year,” he said angrily. “We can drop out of the conference.”
Dean pushed away the papers on which he had been working and leaned back in his chair. The sunlight from the western windows turned his silver thatch into a seeming halo. His pale, blue-veined, wrinkled hands smoothed out, painstakingly, the fading crease in his fading trousers.
“What has happened now?” he asked.
“It’s King and Martin, Mr. Dean. They aren’t coming out this year.”
Dean clucked sympathetically, but somewhat hollowly, as if his heart was not quite in it. “Let me see,” he said. “If I remember rightly, those two were very good last year. King was in the line and Martin quarterback.”
Higgins exploded in righteous indignation. “Who ever heard of a quarterback deciding he wouldn’t play no more? And not just an ordinary boy, but one of the very best. He made all-conference last year.”
“You’ve talked to them, of course?”
“I got down on my knees to them,” said the coach. “I asked them did they want that I should lose my job. I asked is there anything you got against me. I told them they were letting down the school. I told them we wouldn’t have a team without them. They didn’t laugh at me, but—”
“They wouldn’t laugh at you,” said Dean. “Those boys are gentlemen. In fact, all the youngsters in school—”
“They’re a pack of sissies!” stormed the coach.
Dean said gently, “That is a matter of opinion. There have been moments when I also wasn’t able to attach as much importance to football as it seemed to me I should.”
“But that’s different,” argued the coach. “When a man grows up, naturally he will lose some interest. But these are kids. This just isn’t healthy. These young fellows should be out there pawing up the earth. All kids should have a strong sense of competition. And even if they don’t, there’s the financial angle. Any outstanding football man has a chance, when he goes to college—”
“Our kids don’t need athletic subsidies,” said Dean, a little sharply. “They’re getting more than their share of scholastic scholarships.”
“If we had a lot more material,” moaned Higgins, “King and Martin wouldn’t mean so much. We wouldn’t win too often, but we still would have a team. But as it is—do you realize, Mr. Dean, that there have been fewer coming out each year? Right now, I haven’t more than enough—”
“You’ve talked to King and Martin. You’re sure they won’t reconsider?”
“You know what they told me? They said football interfered with studies!”
The way Higgins said it, it was rank heresy.
“I guess, then,” Dean said cheerfully, “that we’ll just have to face it.”
“But it isn’t normal,” the coach protested. “There aren’t any kids who think more of studies than they do of football. There aren’t any kids so wrapped up in books—”
“There are,” said Dean. “There are a lot, right here at Millville. You should take a look at the grade averages over the past ten years, if you don’t believe it.”
“What gets me is that they don’t act like kids. They act like a bunch of adults.” The coach shook his head, as if to say it was all beyond him. “It’s a dirty shame. If only some of those big bruisers would turn out, we’d have the makings of a team.”
“Here, also,” Dean reminded him, “we have the makings of men and women that Millville in the future may very well be proud of.”
The coach got up angrily. “We won’t win a game,” he warned. “Even Bagley will beat us.”
“That is something,” Dean observed philosophically, “that shan’t worry me too much.”
He sat quietly at his desk and listened to the hollow ringing of the coach’s footsteps going down the corridor, dimming out with distance.
And he heard the swish and rumble of a janitorial servo-mechanism wiping down the stairs. He wondered where Stuffy was. Fiddling around somewhere, no doubt. With all the scrubbers and the washers and wipers and other mechanical contraptions, there wasn’t too much to take up Stuffy’s time. Although Stuffy, in his day, had done a lot of work—he’d been on the go from dark to dark, a top-notch janitor.
If it weren’t for the labor shortage, Stuffy would have been retired several years ago. But they didn’t retire men any more the way they had at one time. With Man going to the stars, there now was more than the human race could do. If they had been retiring men, Dean thought, he himself would be without a job.
And there was nothing he would have hated more than that. For Millville High was his. He had made it his. For more than fifty years, he’d lived for Millville High, first as a young and eager teacher, then as principal, and now, the last fifteen years or so, as its superintendent.
He had given everything he had. And it had given back. It had been wife and child and family, a beginning and an end. And he was satisfied, he told himself—satisfied on this Friday of a new school year, with Stuffy puttering somewhere in the building and no football team--or, at least, next to none.
He rose from the desk and stood looking out the window. A student, late in going home, was walking across the lawn. Dean thought he knew her, although of late his eyes had not been so good for distance.
He squinted at her harder, almost certain it was Judy Charleson. He’d known her grandfather back in the early days and the girl, he thought, had old Henry Charleson’s gait. He chuckled, thinking back. Old Charleson, he recalled, had been a slippery one in a business deal. There had been that time he had gotten tangled up in the deal for tube-liners to be used by a starship outfit …
He jerked his mind away, tried to wipe out his thinking of the old days. It was a sign of advancing age, the dawn of second childhood.
But however that might be, old Henry Charleson was the only man in Millville who had ever had a thing to do with starships—except Lamont Stiles.
Dean grinned a little, remembering Lamont Stiles and the grimness in him and how he’d amounted to something after many years, to the horrified exasperation of many people who had confidently prophesied he’d come to no good end.
And there was no one now, of course, who knew, or perhaps would ever know, what kind of end Lamont Stiles had finally come to. Or if, in fact, he’d come to an end as yet.
Lamont Stiles, Dean thought, might this very moment be striding down the street of some fantastic city on some distant world.
And if that were so, and if he came home again, what would he bring this time?
The last time he’d come home—the only time he ever had come home—he had brought the Sitters, and they were a funny lot.
Dean turned from the window and walked back to the desk. He sat down and pulled the papers back in front of him. But he couldn’t get down to work. That was the way it often was. He’d start thinking of the old days, when there were many friends and many things to do, and get so involved in thinking that he couldn’t settle down to work.
He heard the shuffle coming along the hall and shoved the papers to one side. He could tell that it was Stuffy, from the familiar shuffle, coming by to pass the time of day.
Dean wondered at the quiet anticipation he felt within himself. Although it was not so strange, once one considered it. There weren’t many left like Stuffy, not many he could talk with.
It was odd with the old, he thought. Age dissolved or loosened the ties of other days. The old died or moved away or were bound by infirmities. Or they drew within themselves, into a world of their own, where they sought a comfort they could find no longer in the outer world.
Stuffy shuffled to the doorway, stopped and leaned against the jamb. He wiped his drooping yellow mustaches with a greasy hand.
“What’s ailing the coach?” he asked. “He went busting out of here like he was turpentined.”
“He has no football team,” said Dean. “Or he tells me that he hasn’t any.”
“He cries early every season,” Stuffy said. “It’s just an act.”
“I’m not so sure this time. King and Martin aren’t coming out.”
Stuffy shuffled a few more paces into the room and dropped into a chair.
“It’s them Sitters,” Stuffy declared. “They’re the cause of it.”
Dean sat upright. “What is that you said!”
“I been watching it for years. You can spot the kids that the Sitters sat with or that went to their nursery school. They done something to them kids.”
“Fairy tale,” said Dean.
“It ain’t a fairy tale,” Stuffy declared stubbornly. “You know I don’t take no stock in superstition. Just because them Sitters are from some other planet … Say, did you ever find out what planet they were from?”
Dean shook his head. “I don’t know that Lamont ever said. He might have, but I never heard it.”
“They’re weird critters,” said Stuffy, stroking his mustaches slowly to lend an air of deliberation to his words, “but I never held their strangeness against them. After all, they ain’t the only aliens on the Earth. The only ones we have in Millville, of course, but there are thousands of other critters from the stars scattered round the Earth.”
Dean nodded in agreement, scarcely knowing what he was agreeing with. He said nothing, however, for there was no need of that. Once Stuffy got off to a running start, he’d go on and on.
“They seem right honest beings,” Stuffy said. “They never played on no one’s sympathy. They just settled in, after Lamont went away and left them, and never asked no one to intercede for them. They made an honest living all these years and that is all one could expect of them.”
“And yet,” said Dean, “you think they’ve done something to the kids.”
“They changed them. Ain’t you noticed it?”
Dean shook his head. “I never thought to notice. I’ve known these youngsters for years. I knew their folks before them. How do you think they were changed?”
“They grew them up too fast,” Stuffy said.
“Talk sense,” snapped Dean. “Who grew what too fast?”
“The Sitters grew the kids too fast. That’s what’s wrong with them. Here they are in high school and they’re already grown up.”
From somewhere on one of the floors below came the dismal hooting of a servo-mechanism in distress.
Stuffy sprang to his feet. “That’s the mopper-upper. I’ll bet you it got caught in a door again.”
He swung around and galloped off at a rapid shuffle.
“Stupid machine!” he yelped as he went out the door.
Dean pulled the papers back in front of him again and picked up a pencil. It was getting late and he had to finish.
But he didn’t see the papers. He saw many little faces staring up at him from where the papers lay—solemn, big-eyed little faces with an elusive look about them.
And he knew that elusive look—the look of dawning adulthood staring out of childish faces.
They grew them up too fast!
“No,” said Dean to himself. “No, it couldn’t be!”
And yet there was corroborative evidence: The high averages, the unusual number of scholarships, the disdain for athletics. And, as well, the general attitude. And the lack of juvenile delinquency—for years, Millville had been proud that its juvenile delinquency had been a minor problem. He remembered that several years ago he had been asked to write an article about it for a parent-teacher magazine.
He tried to remember what he had written in that article and slowly bits of it came back to him—the realization of parents that their children were a part of the family and not mere appendages; the role played by the churches of the town; the emphasis placed on the social sciences by the schools.
“And was I wrong?” he asked himself. “Was it none of these, but something else entirely—someone else entirely?”
He tried to work and couldn’t. He was too upset. He could not erase the smiling little faces that were staring up at him.
Finally he shoved the papers in a drawer and got up from the desk. He put on his worn topcoat and sat the battered old black felt hat atop his silver head.
On the ground floor, he found Stuffy herding the last of the servo-mechanisms into their cubby for the night. Stuffy was infuriated.
“It got itself caught in a heating grill,” he raged. “If I hadn’t gotten there in the nick of time, it would have wrecked the works.” He shook his head dolefully. “Them machines are fine when everything goes well. But just let something happen and they panic. It was best the old way, John.”
Stuffy slammed the door on the last of the waddling machines and locked it savagely.
“Stuffy, how well did you know Lamont Stiles?” asked Dean.
Stuffy rubbed his mustaches in fine deliberation. “Knew him well. Lamont and me, we were kids together. You were a little older. You were in the crowd ahead.”
Dean nodded his head slowly. “Yes, I remember, Stuffy. Odd that you and I stayed on in the old home town. So many of the others left.”
“Lamont ran away when he was seventeen. There wasn’t much to stay for. His old lady was dead and his old man was drinking himself to death and Lamont had been in a scrape or two. Everyone was agreed Lamont never would amount to nothing.”
“It’s hard for a boy when a whole town turns against him.”
“That’s a fact,” said the janitor. “There was no one on his side. He told me when he left that someday he’d come back and show them. But I just thought he was talking big. Like a kid will do, you know, to bolster up himself.”
“You were wrong,” said Dean.
“Never wronger, John.”
For Lamont Stiles had come back, more than thirty years after he had run away, back to the old weather-beaten house on Maple Street that had waited empty for him all the lonely years; had come back, an old man when he still was scarcely fifty, big and tough despite the snow-white hair and the skin turned cordovan with the burn of many alien suns; back from far wandering among the distant stars.
But he was a stranger. The town remembered him; he had forgotten it. Years in alien lands had taken the town and twisted it in his brain, and what he remembered of it was more fantasy than truth—the fantasy spawned by years of thinking back and of yearning and of hate.
“I must go,” Dean said. “Carrie will have supper ready. She doesn’t like to have it getting cold.”
“Good night, John,” said the janitor.
The sun was almost down when Dean came out the door and started down the walk. It was later than he’d thought. Carrie would be sore at him and she would bawl him out.
Dean chuckled to himself. There was no one quite like Carrie.
Not wife, for he’d never had a wife. Not mother or sister, for both of those were dead. But housekeeper, faithful all the years—and a bit of wife and sister, and sometimes even mother.
A man’s loyalties are queer, he thought. They blind him and they bind him and they shape the man he is. And, through them, he serves and achieves a kind of greatness, although at times the greatness may be gray and pallid and very, very quiet.
Not like the swaggering and the bitter greatness of Lamont Stiles, who came striding from the stars, bringing with him those three queer creatures who became the Sitters. Bringing them and installing them in his house on Maple Street and then, in a year or two, going off to the stars again and leaving them in Millville.
Queer, Dean thought, that so provincial a town as this should accept so quietly these exotic beings. Queerer still that the mothers of the town, in time, should entrust their children to the aliens’ care.
As Dean turned the corner into Lincoln Street, he met a woman walking with a knee-high boy.
It was Mildred Anderson, he saw—or had been Mildred Anderson, but she was married now and for the life of him he could not recall the name. Funny, he thought, how fast the young ones grew up. Not more than a couple of years ago, it seemed, that Mildred was in school—although he knew he must be wrong on that; it would be more like ten.
He tipped his hat, “Good evening, Mildred. My, how the boy is growing.”
“I doe to cool,” the child lisped.
His mother interpreted. “He means he goes to school. He is so proud of it.”
“Nursery school, of course.”
“Yes, Mr. Dean. The Sitters. They are such lovely things. And so good with children. And there’s the cost. Or, rather, the lack of it. You just give them a bouquet of flowers or a little bottle of perfume or a pretty picture and they are satisfied. They positively refuse to take any money. I can’t understand that. Can you, Mr. Dean?”
“No,” said Dean. “I can’t.”
He’d forgotten what a talker Mildred was. There had been a period in school, he recalled, when she had been appropriately nicknamed Gabby.
“I sometimes think,” she said, hurrying on so she’d miss no time for talk, “that we people here on Earth attach too much importance to money. The Sitters don’t seem to know what money is, or if they do, they pay no attention to it. As if it were something that was not important. But I understand there are other races like that. It makes one think, doesn’t it, Mr. Dean?”
And he remembered now another infuriating trait of Mildred’s—how she inevitably ended any string of sentences with a dangling question.
He didn’t try to answer. He knew an answer was not expected of him.
“I must be getting on,” he said. “I am late already.”
“It was nice to see you, Mr. Dean,” said Mildred. “I so often think of my days in school and sometimes it seems like just positively ages and there are other times when it seems no more than just yesterday and …”
“Very nice, indeed,” said Dean, lifting his hat to her, then almost scurrying off.
It was undignified, he grumbled to himself, being routed in broad daylight on a public street by a talkative woman.
As he went up the walk to the house, he heard Carrie bustling angrily about.
“Johnson Dean,” she cried the instant he came in the door, “you sit right down and eat. Your food’s already cold. And it’s my circle night. Don’t you even stop to wash.”
Dean calmly hung up his hat and coat.
“For that matter,” he said, “I guess I don’t need to wash. My kind of job, a man doesn’t get too dirty.”
She was bustling about in the dining area, pouring his cup of coffee and straightening up the bouquet of mums that served for the centerpiece.
“Since it’s my circle night,” she said, laying deliberate stress upon the words to shame him for being late, “I won’t stay to wash the dishes. You just leave them on the table. I will do them later.”
He sat down meekly to eat.
Somehow, for some reason he could not understand, fulfilling a need of which he was not aware, he suddenly felt safe. Safe and secure against a nagging worry and a half-formed fear that had been building up within him without his knowing it.
Carrie came through the living room, settling a determined hat upon her determined head. She had the very air of a woman who was late for her circle meeting through no fault of her own. She halted at the door.
“You got everything you need?” she asked, her eyes making a swift inventory of the table.
“Everything.” He chuckled. “Have a good time at the circle. Pick up a lot of gossip.”
It was his favorite quip and he knew it irked her—and it was childish, too. But he could not resist it.
She flounced out of the door and he heard her putting down her heels with unnecessary firmness as she went down the walk.
With her going, a hard silence gripped the house and the deeper dusk moved in as he sat at the table eating.
Safe, he thought—old Johnson Dean, school man, safe inside the house his grandfather had built—how many years ago? Old-fashioned now, with its split-level floor plan and its high-bricked fireplace, with its double, attached garage and the planter out in front.
Safe and lonely.
And safe against what threat, against what creeping disturbance, so subtle that it failed of recognition?
He shook his head at that.
But lonely—that was different. That could be explained. The middle-young, he thought, and the very old are lonely. The middle-young because full communication had not been established, and the very old because communication had broken down.
Society was stratified, he told himself, stratified and sectored and partitioned off by many different factors—by age, by occupation, by education, by financial status. And the list did not end there. One could go on and on. It would be interesting, if a man could only find the time, to chart the stratification of humanity. Finished, if it ever could be finished, that chart would be a weird affair.
He finished the meal and wiped his mouth carefully with the napkin. He pushed back from the table and prowled the darkening living area.
He knew that he should at least pick up the dishes and tidy up the table. By rights, he should even wash them. He had caused Carrie a lot of fuss because he had been late. But he couldn’t bring himself to do it. He couldn’t settle down. Safe, he still was not at peace.
There was no use in putting this business off any longer, he realized, no use to duck the fear that was nagging at him. He knew what it was he faced, if he only would admit it.
Stuffy was crazy, of course. He could not possibly be right. He’d been thinking too much—imagining, rather.
The kids were no different now than they’d ever been.
Except that the grade averages had improved noticeably in the last ten years or so.
Except that there were, as one might expect of such grade averages, an increase in scholarships.
Except that the glitter of competitive sports was beginning to wear off.
Except that there was, in Millville, almost no delinquency.
And those solemn childish faces, with the big, bright eyes, staring up at him from the papers on his desk.
He paced slowly up and down the carpeting before the big brick fireplace, and the dead, black maw beneath the chimney throat, with the bitter smell of old wood ashes in it, seemed to be a mouth making sport of him.
He cracked one feebly clenched old fist into a shaky palm.
“It can’t be right,” he said fiercely to himself.
And yet, on the face of all evidence, it was.
The children in Millville were maturing faster; they were growing up, intellectually, much faster than they should.
And perhaps even more than that.
Growing in a new dimension, he wondered. Receding farther from the savage that still lingered in humanity. For sports, organized sports on whatever basis, still remained a refined product of the cave—some antagonism that Man had carried forward under many different guises and which broke forth at least partially in the open in the field of sports.
If he could only talk with the students, he thought, if he could somehow find out what they thought, then there might be a chance of running this thing to the ground.
But that was impossible. The barriers were too high and intricate, the lines of communication much too cluttered. For he was old and they were young; he was authority and they were the regimented. Once again the stratifications would keep them apart. There was no way in which he could approach them.
It was all right to say there was something happening, ridiculous as it might sound. But the important matter, if such should be the case, was to discover the cause and to plot the trend.
And Stuffy must be wrong. For it was fantastic to suggest the Sitters were engineering it.
Peculiarly enough, the Sitters, alien as they were, had established themselves as solid citizens of Millville. They would, he was sure, do nothing to jeopardize the position they had won—the position of being accepted and generally let alone and little talked about.
They would do nothing to attract attention to themselves. Through the years, too many other aliens had gotten into trouble through attempts to meddle and by exhibitionism. Although, come to think of it, what might have seemed to be exhibitionism, from the human viewpoint, possibly had been no more than normal alien conduct.
It had been the good fortune of the Sitters that their natural mother-disposition had enabled them to fit into the human pattern. They had proven ideal baby-sitters and in this they had an economic value and were the more readily accepted.
For many years, they had taken care of the MillvilIe babies and they were everything that a sitter ought to be. And now they ran a nursery school, although, he remembered, there had been some ruckus over that, since they quite understandably did not hold formal education credits.
He turned on a light and went to the shelves to find something he could read. But there was nothing there that held any interest for him. He ran a finger along the backs of the rows of volumes and his eyes flicked down the titles, but he found absolutely nothing.
He left the shelves and paced over to the large front window and stared out at the street. The street lamps had not come on yet, but there were lights here and there in windows and occasionally a bubble-shaped car moved silently down the pavement, the fanning headlights catching a scurrying bunch of leaves or a crouching cat.
It was one of the older streets in town; at one time, he had known everyone who had lived upon it. He could call out without hesitation the names of the one-time owners—Wilson, Becket, Johnson, Random—but none of them lived here any longer. The names had changed and the faces were faces that he did not know; the stratification had shifted and he knew almost no one on the street.
The middle-young and the very old, he thought, they are the lonely ones.
He went back to the chair beside the lamp he’d lighted and sat down rather stiffly in it. He fidgeted, drumming his fingers on the arms. He wanted to get up, but there was nothing to get up for, unless it was to wash the dishes, and he didn’t want to wash them.
He could take a walk, he told himself. That might be a good idea. There was a lot of comfort in an evening walk.
He got his coat and hat and went out the door and down the walk and turned west at the gate.
He was more than halfway there, skirting the business section, before he admitted to himself that he was heading for the Stiles house and the Sitters—that he had, in fact, never intended doing otherwise.
What he might do there, what he might learn there, he had no idea. There was no actual purpose in his mind. It was almost as if he were on an unknown mission, as if he were being pushed by some unseen force into a situation of no-choice.
He came to the Stiles house and stood on the walk outside, looking at it.
It was an old house, surrounded by shade trees that had been planted many years before, and the front yard was a wilderness of shrubs. Every once in a while, someone would come and cut the lawn and maybe trim the hedges and fix up the flower beds to pay the Sitters for all the baby-minding they had done, since the Sitters took no money.
And that was a funny thing, Dean thought, their not taking any money—just as if they didn’t need it, as if they might not know what to do with it even if they had any. Perhaps they didn’t need it, for they bought no food and still they kept on living and never had been sick enough for anyone to know about it. There must have been times when they were cold, although no one ever mentioned it, but they bought no fuel, and Lamont Stiles had left a fund to pay the taxes—so maybe it was true that they had no need of money.
There had been a time, Dean recalled, when there had been a lot of speculation in the town about their not eating—or at least not buying any food. But after a time the speculation dwindled down and all anyone would say was that you could never figure a lot of things about alien people and there was no use in trying.
And that was right, of course.
The Stiles house, Dean realized with something of a start, was even older than his house. It was a rambler and they had been popular many years before the split-level had come in.
Heavy drapes were drawn at the windows, but there was light behind the drapes and he knew the Sitters were at home. They were usually home, of course. Except on baby-sitting jobs, they never left the house, and in recent years they had gone out but little, for people had gotten in the habit of dropping off the kids at the Sitters’ house. The kids never made a fuss, not even the tiny ones. They all liked going to the Sitters.
He went up the walk and climbed the stoop to ring the bell.
He waited and heard movement in the house.
The door came open and one of the Sitters stood there, with the light behind it, and he had forgotten—it had been many years since he’d seen one of the Sitters.
Shortly after Lamont Stiles had come home, Dean remembered, he had met all three of them, and in the years between, he had seen one of them from time to time at a distance on the street. But the memory and the wonder had faded from his mind and now it struck him once again with all the olden force—the faery grace, the sense of suddenly standing face to face with a gentle flower.
The face, if it might be called a face, was sweet—too sweet, so sweet that it had no character and hardly an individuality. A baffling skin arrangement, like the petals of a flower, rose above the face, and the body of the Sitter was slender beyond all belief and yet so full of grace and poise that one forgot the slimness. And about the entire creature hung an air of such sweet simplicity and such a scent of innocence that it blotted out all else.
No wonder, Dean found himself thinking, that the children liked them so.
“Mr. Dean,” the Sitter said, “won’t you please come in? We are very honored.”
“Thank you,” he said, taking off his hat.
He stepped inside and heard the closing of the door and then the Sitter was at his side again.
“This chair right here,” it said. “We reserve this one for our special visitors.”
And it was all very sweet and friendly, and yet there was an alien, frightening touch.
Somewhere there were children laughing in the house. He twisted his head around to find where the laughter came from.
“They’re in the nursery,” said the Sitter. “I will close the door.”
Dean sank into the chair and perched his battered old soft hat on one bony knee, fondling it with his bony fingers.
The Sitter came back and sat down on the floor in front of him, sat down with a single, effortless motion and he had the distinct impression of the swirl of flaring skirts, although the Sitter wore none.
“Now,” the Sitter said by way of announcing that Dean commanded its entire attention.
But he did not speak, for the laughter still was in the room. Even with the door to the nursery shut, there still was childish laughter. It came from everywhere all about the room and it was an utterly happy laughter, the gay and abandoned, the unthinking, the spontaneous laughter of children hard at play.
Nor was that all.
Childish sparkle glittered in the air and there was the long forgotten sense of timelessness—of the day that never ended, that was never meant to end. A breeze was blowing out of some never-never land and it carried with it the scent of brook water bearing on its tide flotillas of fallen autumn leaves, and there was, as well, the hint of clover and of marigolds and the smell of fuzzy, new-washed blankets such as are used in cribs.
“Mr. Dean,” the Sitter said.
He roused himself guiltily.
“I’m sorry,” he told the Sitter. “I was listening to the children.”
“But the door is closed.”
“The children in this room,” he said.
“There are no children in this room.”
“Quite right,” he said. “Quite right.”
But there were. He could hear their laughter and the patter of their feet.
There were children, or at least the sense of them, and there was also the sense of many flowers, long since died and shriveled in actuality, but with the feel of them still caged inside the room. And the sense of beauty—the beauty of many different things, of flowers and gee-gaw jewelry and little painted pictures and of gaily colored scarves, of all the things that through the years had been given to the Sitters in lieu of money.
“This room,” he said haltingly, half-confused. “It is such a pleasant room. I’d just like to sit here.”
He felt himself sink into the room, into the youngness and the gayety. If he let go, he thought, if he only could let go, he might join the running and be the same as they.
“Mr. Dean,” the Sitter said, “you are very sensitive.”
“I am very old,” said Dean. “Maybe that’s the reason.”
The room was both ancient and antique. It was a cry across almost two centuries, with its small brick fireplace paneled in white wood, its arched doorways and the windows that stretched from floor to ceiling, covered by heavy drapes of black and green, etched with golden thread. And it had a solid comfort and a deep security that the present architecture of aluminum and glass never could achieve. It was dusty and moldy and cluttered and perhaps unsanitary, but it had the feel of home.
“I am old-fashioned,” said Dean, “and, I suspect, very close to senile, and I am afraid that the time has come again to believe in fairy tales and magic.”
“It is not magic,” the Sitter replied. “It is the way we live, the only way we can live. You will agree that even Sitters must somehow stay alive.”
“Yes, I agree,” said Dean.
He lifted the battered hat from off his knee and rose slowly to his feet.
The laughter seemed to be fainter now and the patter not so loud. But the sense of youth—of youngness, of vitality and of happiness—still lay within the room. It lent a sheen to the ancient shabbiness and it made his heart begin to ache with a sudden gladness.
The Sitter still sat upon the floor. “There was something you wanted, Mr. Dean?”
Dean fumbled with his hat. “Not any more. I think I’ve found my answer.”
And even as he said it, he knew it was unbelievable, that once he stood outside the door, he’d know with certainty there could be no truth in what he’d found.
The Sitter rose. “You will come again? We would love to have you.”
“Perhaps,” said Dean, and turned toward the door.
Suddenly there was a top spinning on the floor, a golden top with flashing jewels set in it that caught the light and scattered it in a million flashing colors, and as it spun, it played a whistling tune—the kind of music that got inside and melted down one’s soul.
Dean felt himself let go—as, sitting in the chair, he had thought it was impossible for him to do. And the laughter came again and the world outside withdrew and the room suddenly was filled with the marvelous light of Christmas.
He took a quick step forward and he dropped his hat. He didn’t know his name, nor where he was, nor how he might have come there, and he didn’t care. He felt a gurgling happiness welling up in him and he stooped to reach out for the top.
He missed it by an inch or two and he shuffled forward, stooping, reaching, and his toe caught in a hole in the ancient carpeting and he crashed down on his knees.
The top was gone and the Christmas light snapped out and the world rushed in upon him. The gurgling happiness had gone and he was an old man in a beauty-haunted house, struggling from his knees to face an alien creature.
“I am sorry,” said the Sitter. “You almost had it. Perhaps some other time.”
He shook his head. “No! Not another time!”
The Sitter answered kindly, “It’s the best we have to offer.”
Dean fumbled his hat back on his head and turned shakily to the door. The Sitter opened it and he staggered out.
“Come again,” the Sitter said, most sweetly. “Any time you wish.”
On the street outside, Dean stopped and leaned against a tree. He took off his hat and mopped his brow.
Now, where he had felt only shock before, the horror began creeping in—the horror of a kind of life that did not eat as human beings ate, but in another way, who sucked their nourishment from beauty and from youth, who drained a bouquet dry and who nibbled from the happy hours of a laughing child, and even munched the laughter.
It was no wonder that the children of this village matured beyond their years. For they had their childishness stripped from them by a hungry form of life that looked on them as fodder. There might be, he thought, only so much of happy running and of childish laughter dealt out to any human. And while some might not use their quota, there still might be a limit on it, and once one had used it all, then it was gone and a person became an adult without too much of wonder or of laughter left within him.
The Sitters took no money. There was no reason that they should, for they had no need of it. Their house was filled with all the provender they had stowed away for years.
And in all those years, he was the first to know, the first to sense the nature of those aliens brought home by Lamont Stiles. It was a sobering thought--that he should be the first to find it out. He had said that he was old and that might be the reason. But that had been no more than words, rising to his lips almost automatically as a part of his professional self-pity. Yet there might be something in it even so.
Could it be possible that, for the old, there might be certain compensations for the loss of other faculties? As the body slowed and the mind began to dim, might some magical ability, a sort of psychic bloodhound sense, rise out of the embers of a life that was nearly spent?
He was always pothering around about how old he was, he told himself, as if the mere fact of getting old might be a virtue. He was forgetful of the present and his preoccupation with the past was growing to the danger point. He was close to second childhood and he was the one who knew it—and might that be the answer? Might that be why he’d seen the top and known the Christmas lights?
He wondered what might have happened if he could have grabbed the top.
He put his hat back on and stepped out from the tree and went slowly up the walk, heading back for home.
What could he do about it, he wondered, now that he’d unearthed the Sitters’ secret? He could run and tattle, surely, but there’d be no one to believe him. They would listen to him and they would be polite so as not to hurt his feelings, yet there was no one in the village but would take it for an old man’s imaginings, and there’d be nothing that he could do about it. For beyond his own sure knowledge, he had not a shred of proof.
He might call attention to the maturity of the young people, as Stuffy had called his attention to it this very afternoon. But even there he would find no proof, for in the final reckoning, all the villagers would retreat to rationalization. Parental pride, if nothing else, might require they should. Not a single one of them would find much cause for wonder in the fact that a boy or girl of theirs was singularly well-mannered and above the average in intelligence.
One might say that the parents should have noticed, that they should have known that an entire village full of children could not possibly be so well-behaved or so level-headed or so anything else as were these Millville children. And yet they had not noticed. It had crept along so slowly, had insinuated itself so smoothly, that the change was not apparent.
For that matter, he himself had not noticed it, he who most of his life had been intimately associated with these very children in which he found so much wonder now. And if he had not noticed, then why expect that someone else should? It had remained for a gossipy old busybody like the janitor to put a finger on it.
His throat was dry and his belly weak and sick and what he needed most of all, Dean told himself, was a cup of coffee.
He turned off on a street that would take him to the downtown section and he plodded along with his head bent against the dark.
What would be the end of it, he asked himself. What would be the gain for this lost childhood? For this pilfering of children? What the value that growing boys and girls should cease to play a little sooner, that they take up the attitude of adults before the chosen time?
There was some gain already seen. The children of Millville were obedient and polite; they were constructive in their play; they’d ceased to be little savages or snobs.
The trouble was, now that one thought of it, they’d almost ceased being children, too.
And in the days to come? Would Millville supply Earth with great statesmen, with canny diplomats, with topnotch educators and able scientists? Perhaps, but that was not the point at all. The question of robbing childhood of its heritage to achieve these qualities was the basic question.
Dean came into the business district, not quite three blocks long, and walked slowly down the street, heading for the only drugstore in the town.
There were only a few people in the store and he walked over to the lunch counter and sat down. He perched on the stool forlornly, with the battered hat pulled down above his eyes, and he gripped the counter’s edge to keep his hands from shaking.
“Coffee,” he said to the girl who came to take his order, and she brought it to him.
He sipped at it, for it was too hot to drink. He was sorry he had come.
He felt all alone and strange, with all the bright light and the chrome, as if he were something that had shuffled from the past into a place reserved for the present.
He almost never came downtown any more and that must be the reason for the way he felt. Especially he almost never came down in the evening, although there had been a time he had.
He smiled, remembering how the old crowd used to get together and talk around in circles, about inconsequential things, their talk not getting anywhere and never meaning to.
But that was all ended now. The crowd had disappeared. Some of them were dead and some had moved away and the few of them still left seldom ventured out.
He sat there, thinking, knowing he was maudlin and not caring if he was, too tired and shaken to flinch away from it.
A hand fell on his shoulder and he swung around, surprised.
Young Bob Martin stood there, and although he smiled, he still had the look of someone who had done a thing that he was unsure of.
“Sir, there are some of us down here at a table,” said young Martin, gulping a little at his own boldness.
Dean nodded. “That’s very nice,” he mumbled.
“We wondered if maybe—that is, Mr. Dean, we’d be pleased if you would care to join us.”
“Well, that is very nice of you, indeed.”
“We didn’t mean, sir—that is—”
“Why, certainly,” said Dean. “I’d be very glad to.”
“Here, sir, let me take your coffee. I won’t spill a drop of it.”
“I’ll trust you, Bob,” said Dean, getting to his feet. “You almost never fumble.”
“I can explain that, Mr. Dean. It’s not that I don’t want to play. It’s just that …”
Dean tapped him on the shoulder lightly. “I understand. There is no need to explain.”
He paused a second, trying to decide if it were wise to say what was in his mind.
He decided to: “If you don’t tell the coach, I might even say I agree with you. There comes a time in life when football begins to seem a little silly.”
Martin grinned, relieved. “You’ve hit it on the head. Exactly.”
He led the way to the table.
There were four of them—Ronald King, George Woods, Judy Charleson, and Donna Thompson. All good kids, thought Dean, every one of them. He saw they had been dawdling away at sodas, making them stretch out as long as possible.
They all looked up at him and smiled, and George Woods pulled back a chair in invitation. Dean sat down carefully and placed his hat on the floor beside him. Bob set down the coffee.
“It was good of you to think of me,” said Dean and wondered why he found himself embarrassed. After all, these were his kids—the kids he saw every day in school, the ones he pushed and coddled into an education, the kids he’d never had himself.
“You’re just the man we need,” said Ronald King. “We’ve been talking about Lamont Stiles. He is the only Millville man who ever went to space and …”
“You must have known him, Mr. Dean,” said Judy.
“Yes,” Dean said slowly, “I did know him, but not as well as Stuffy did. Stuffy and he were kids together. I was a little older.”
“What kind of man is he?” asked Donna.
Dean chuckled. “Lamont Stiles? He was the town’s delinquent. He was poor in school and he had no home life and he just mostly ran wild. If there was trouble, you could bet your life that Lamont had had a hand in it. Everyone said that Lamont never would amount to anything and when it had been said often enough and long enough, Lamont must have taken it to heart …”
He talked on and on, and they asked him questions, and Ronald King went to the counter and came back with another cup of coffee for him.
The talk switched from Stiles to football. King and Martin told him what they had told the coach. Then the talk went on to problems in student government and from that to the new theories in ionic drive, announced just recently.
Dean did not do all the talking; he did a lot of listening, too, and he asked questions of his own and time flowed on unnoticed.
Suddenly the lights blinked and Dean looked up, startled.
Judy laughed at him. “That means the place is closing. It’s the signal that we have to leave.”
“I see,” said Dean. “Do you folks do this often—staying until closing time, I mean?”
“Not often,” Bob Martin told him. “On weekdays, there is too much studying.”
“I remember many years ago—” Dean began, then left the words hanging in the air.
Yes, indeed, he thought, many years ago. And again tonight!
He looked at them, the five faces around the table. Courtesy, he thought, and kindness and respect. But something more than that.
Talking with them, he had forgotten he was old. They had accepted him as another human being, not as an aged human being, not as a symbol of authority. They had moved over for him and made him one of them and themselves one of him; they had broken down the barrier not only of pupil and teacher, but of age and youth as well.
“I have my car,” Bob Martin said. “Can I drive you home?”
Dean picked his hat from off the floor and rose slowly to his feet.
“No, thanks,” he said. “I think I’d like to walk. I have an idea or two I’d like to mull a bit. Walking helps one think.”
“Come again,” said Judy Charleson. “Some other Friday night, perhaps.”
“Why, thanks,” said Dean. “I do believe I will.”
Great kids, he told himself with a certain pride. Full of a kindness and a courtesy beyond even normal adult courtesy and kindness. Not brash, not condescending, not like kids at all, and yet with the shine of youthfulness and the idealism and ambition that walked hand in hand with youth.
Premature adults, lacking cynicism. And that was an important thing, the lack of cynicism.
Surely there could be nothing wrong in a humanity like that. Perhaps this was the very coin in which the Sitters paid for the childhood they had stolen.
If they had stolen it. For they might not have stolen it; they might merely have captured it and stored it.
And in such a case, then they had given free this new maturity and this new equality. And they had taken something which would have been lost in any event—something for which the human race had no use at all, but which was the stuff of life for the Sitter people.
They had taken youth and beauty and they had stored it in the house; they had preserved something that a human could not preserve except in memory. They had caught a fleeting thing and held it and it was there—the harvest of many years; the house was bulging with it.
Lamont Stiles, he wondered, talking in his mind to that man so long ago, so far away, how much did you know? What purpose was in your mind?
Perhaps a rebuke to the smugness of the town that had driven him to greatness. Perhaps a hope, maybe a certainty, that no one in Millville could ever say again, as they had said of Lamont Stiles, that this or that boy or girl would amount to nothing.
That much, perhaps, but surely not any more than that.
Donna had put her hand upon his arm, was tugging at his sleeve.
“Come on, Mr. Dean,” she urged. “You can’t stay standing here.”
They walked with him to the door and said good night and he went up the street at a little faster gait, it seemed to him, than he ordinarily traveled.
But that, he told himself quite seriously, was because now he was just slightly younger than he had been a couple of hours before.
Dean went on even faster and he didn’t hobble and he wasn’t tired at all, but he wouldn’t admit it to himself—for it was a dream, a hope, a seeking after that one never must admit. Until one said it aloud, there was no commitment to the hope, but once the word was spoken, then bitter disappointment lurked behind a tree.
He was walking in the wrong direction. He should be heading back for home. It was getting late and he should be in bed.
And he mustn’t speak the word. He must not breathe the thought.
He went up the walk, past the shrub-choked lawn, and he saw that the light still filtered through the drawn drapes.
He stopped on the stoop and the thought flashed through his mind: There are Stuffy and myself and old Abe Hawkins. There are a lot of us …
The door came open and the Sitter stood there, poised and beautiful and not the least surprised. It was, he thought, almost as if it had been expecting him.
And the other two of them, he saw, were sitting by the fireplace.
“Won’t you please come in?” the Sitter said. “We are so glad you decided to come back. The children all are gone. We can have a cozy chat.”
He came in and sat down in the chair again and perched the hat carefully on one knee.
Once again the children were running in the room and there was the sense of timelessness and the sound of laughter.
He sat and nodded, thinking, while the Sitters waited.
It was hard, he thought. Hard to make the words come right.
He felt again as he had felt many years ago, when the teacher had called upon him to recite in the second grade.
They were waiting, but they were patient; they would give him time.
He had to say it right. He must make them understand. He couldn’t blurt it out. It must be made to sound natural, and logical as well.
And how, he asked himself, could he make it logical?
There was nothing logical at all in men as old as he and Stuffy needing baby-sitters.