A Tradition of Victory

11. So Little Time

“MAKE SIX copies and bring them to me for signature.” Bolitho looked over Yovell’s shoulder and marvelled that so large a man could write with such a neat, round hand.

Herrick sat by the stern windows and watched the smoke from his long pipe as it curled out and over the placid water of the bay. It was still only afternoon, and it had been bustle, bustle, bustle from the moment the anchor had hit the bottom.

He said, “When the Admiralty receive your despatches they’ll know you’re alive and well, sir.” He chuckled softly. “Your intended action against the Frogs will make a few sore heads in Whitehall, I’ll wager.”

Bolitho moved restlessly about the cabin and tried to discover if he had forgotten anything. Captain Inch would have already sailed his repaired Odin around from the Nore to join Veriker’s Indomitable at Plymouth, and Keen’s ship lay at anchor here, less than a cable distant. We happy few. They were getting fewer.

The fast packet which had anchored during the forenoon with despatches for Sir John Studdart had also carried further orders for Herrick, as he had suspected. He was to return to Plymouth with Nicator and the frigate Ganymede in company, where he would take overall charge of the squadron until further instructions.

Fast packets, like the hard-worked courier brigs, had little time to themselves. This one, the Thrush,would sail in the morning, and his despatches had to be on board.

Their lordships would get a shock when they found that not only was he alive, but had been rescued by his own flagship.

He watched the clerk gather up his papers and stride heavily from the cabin. He had no need to ask him to hurry. Yovell would have everything ready to sign with time to spare.

Bolitho thought of the one sour note in Herrick’s orders. He was to make contact with the blockading force off Belle Ile and notify Captain Emes that he would stand before a court-martial once Phalarope was relieved from her station.

He thought it wrong and unfair, even though the instigators of the orders had no idea that the squadron’s rear-admiral was alive and free from captivity.

Herrick, on the other hand, had been adamant in his contempt for Emes’s actions.

“Of course he was wrong, sir. Leave Styx to fend for herself and disobey your orders to close with the enemy? If I’d been there I’d have run him up to Benbow’s main-yard and save the expense of a court martial!”

A boat pulled slowly below the stern, some seamen singing and skylarking as they made their way back to their ship. Bolitho watched them. To the Thrush. He had already discovered that no other such vessel was leaving for England for a week.

Belinda would have to be put aboard for, although he had learned that the people with whom she was staying were friends she had known in India, Gibraltar was no place for her to remain. The squadron would put to sea without delay. If fate turned against him after raising his hopes so high, she would need to be in England, in Falmouth where she would be cared for and loved.

He gestured to Ozzard to fetch some wine from his cooler and said, “Now, Thomas, there is a matter I wish to discuss.”

Herrick emptied his pipe and proceeded to refill it with slow, deliberate stabs of his finger.

He did not look up but said, “You have already done so, sir, and my answer is the same. I was appointed acting-commodore because the squadron was divided. You still command the full force as described in the orders.” He looked up, his blue eyes hidden in shadow. “Do you want me to be like Emes and run when I’m needed?”

Bolitho took two goblets from Ozzard and carried them to his friend.

“You know that is rubbish, Thomas. It is not the risk of battle which worries me, but the threat to your future. I can send you with another force to watch over Lorient. That would keep your broad-pendant where it belongs, at the masthead. Damn it, man, you deserve it and much more beside! If you had obeyed the rules and left Ganymede to cut and run from the French, I would still be a prisoner. D’you imagine I’m not grateful for that? But if the price for my safety is your loss of promotion, then I’m not so sure of the bargain.”

Herrick did not flinch. “I didn’t wait for the arrival of my new flag-captain when I quit Plymouth. I never expected to command a ship of the line such as Benbow. So a captain I’ll probably remain until they kick me on to the beach for good.” He grinned. “I know one dear lady who would not be too worried by that.”

Bolitho dropped on to the bench and studied him gravely. “And if I order you, Thomas?”

Herrick held a taper to his pipe and puffed placidly for several seconds.

“Ah, well, sir. We’d have to see. But, of course, if you send me out of the main squadron before you commit it to an attack, which in all probability will be cancelled anyway, their lordships will see your act as a lack of confidence.” He eyed him stubbornly. “So if I am to face ruin either way, I’d rather remain here as your second-in-command.”

Bolitho smiled. “God, man, you’re like Allday!”

“Good.” Herrick reached for his goblet. “He is the only man I know who makes you listen to sense.” He grinned. “No disrespect, sir.”

Bolitho laughed. “None taken.”

He stood up and walked to the sword rack. “I wonder what has happened to the old sword, Thomas?” He shook himself as if to drive away the past. “In truth, I have nothing left. They took my watch, everything.”

Herrick nodded. “A new start. Perhaps that too was as intended.”

“Maybe.”

Herrick added, “Let’s get to sea and finish this damnable waiting.” When Bolitho remained silent he said, “For once you are not so keen to leave, sir. And I’m sure I don’t blame you.”

Bolitho took down the bright presentation sword and examined it while he tortured himself with his doubts.

Herrick said, “A lot of good folk put their faith into that sword, sir. Because they trusted you, because you are one of their own sons. So don’t you fret on it now. Whatever happens they’ll stand by you.” He stood up abruptly and added, “And so will I.” He lurched unsteadily against the seat and grinned. “Ship’s a bit lively, sir.”

Bolitho watched him, moved as always by his sincerity.

“It’s like a mill-pond, Thomas. Too much wine, that’s your trouble.”

Herrick gathered up his dignity and walked towards the door. “And why not, sir? I’m celebrating.”

Bolitho watched him leave and murmured, “And God bless you for that, Thomas.”

Browne must have been waiting in the lobby, and as he entered Bolitho said, “Visit the Thrush’s master, Oliver, and arrange passage for-” he turned and faced him “-your admiral’s lady. Make certain she is well cared for. You, better than anybody I know, can manage that.”

Browne watched him impassively. “They sail tomorrow, sir. Early.”

“I know.”

All this way she had come to find him, directed by some uncanny faith in his survival. Now he was putting her aboard another ship. And yet somehow he knew he was right, that she would understand.

He said suddenly, “I’m going ashore. Have them pipe for my barge crew.” He was speaking quickly in case he should discover an argument against his own actions. “If anything happens, I shall be…” He hesitated.

Browne handed him his hat and the regulation pattern sword which Herrick had given him.

“I understand, sir. Leave everything to me.”

Bolitho clapped him on the shoulder. “How did I ever manage without you?”

Browne followed him on deck, and while the calls shrilled to muster the barge crew he said, “It is mutual, sir.”

As the barge pulled rapidly clear of Benbow’s shadow, Bolitho looked up at her maze of spars and rigging and at the haughty figurehead of Admiral Sir John Benbow. He had died of wounds after being betrayed by certain of his captains.

Bolitho thought of Herrick and Keen, Inch and Neale who had perished for his loyalty.

If Admiral Benbow had been as lucky as he was, it would have been a very different story.

Allday looked down at Bolitho’s squared shoulders, the black queue above the gold-laced collar. Admiral or Jack, it made no difference, he thought. Not when it came to a woman.

The room was small but comfortably furnished, with only the thickness of the outer wall giving any hint that it was part of Gibraltar ’s fortifications. There were a few portraits and ornaments to mark the comings and goings of various company agents who had lodged briefly amongst the garrison and the naval presence.

Bolitho said quietly, “I thought they would never leave us.”

He had known the Barclays for only a few moments but already thought of them as a single entity rather than individuals.

She smiled and held out her hands to grasp his. “They are kindly people, Richard. But for them…”

He slipped his arm around her waist and together they walked to the window. The sun had already moved over the Rock, and against the deep blue water the precisely anchored men-of-war looked like models. Only the occasional tail of white spray marked the movements of oared boats, the fleet’s busy messengers.

She leaned her head against his shoulder and murmured, “The Thrush seems so tiny from up here.” She looked at the Benbow anchored at the head of the other vessels. “To think that you command all those men and ships. You are like two people.”

Bolitho moved behind her and allowed her hair to touch his mouth. They were alone. On this overcrowded, unnatural outpost they had found a place to be together. It was like looking down on another world, upon himself at a distance.

She was right. Down there he was a commander, a man who could save or destroy life by a single hoist of flags. Here he was just himself.

She leant against him and said, “But if you are leaving here, then so am I. It is all arranged. I believe that even Polly, my new maid, is eager to go, for I think she hopes to see Allday again. She is much taken with him.”

“I have so much to tell you, Belinda. I have seen you for so short a while, and now…”

“Soon we are to be separated again. I know. But I am trying not to think about that. Not for a few more hours.”

Bolitho felt her tense as she asked, “Is it so very dangerous? It’s all right, you can tell me. I think you know that now.”

Bolitho looked over her head at the ships swinging to their cables.

“There will be a fight.” It was a strange feeling. He had never discussed it like this before. “You wait and you wait, you try to see things through the eyes of the enemy, and when it eventually happens it is all suddenly different. Many people at home believe their sailors fight for King and country, to protect their loved ones, and so they do. But when the guns begin to thunder, and the enemy is right there alongside rising above the smoke like the devil’s fury, it is John who calls for Bill, one messmate seeking another, as the bonds of sailormen are stronger than symbols beyond their ship.”

He felt her sob or catch her breath and said quickly, “I am sorry, that was unforgivable!”

Her hair moved against his mouth as she shook her head in protest.

“No. I am proud to share your thoughts, your hopes. I feel a part of you.”

He moved his hands up from her waist and felt her stiffen as he touched her breasts.

“I want you to love me, Belinda. I have been so long in the ways of ships and sailors I am frightened of turning you away.”

For a moment she did not speak, but he could feel her heart beating to match his own as he clasped her body to his.

When she spoke he had to bend his head to hear.

“I told you before. I should be ashamed of the way I feel.” She twisted round in his arms and looked up at him. “But I am not ashamed.”

Bolitho kissed her neck and her throat, knowing he must stop, but unable to contain his emotions.

She stroked his hair and moaned softly as his mouth brushed against her breast.

“I want you, Richard. After today neither of us knows what may happen.” When he made to protest she said calmly, “Do you think I want to remember only the embraces of my dead husband, when it is you I want? We have both loved and been loved, but that is in the past.”

He said, “It is past.”

She nodded very slowly. “There is so little time, my dearest.”

She held out her hand, her eyes averted as if she were suddenly aware of his nearness. Then with the toss of her head which Bolitho had come to love, she walked to the curtained-off compartment at the end of the room, tugging at his hand like a wanton child.

Bolitho pulled back the curtain from around the bed and watched her as she unfastened her gown, her hands almost tearing at it until with a gasp she stood and faced him, her hair hanging over her naked shoulders in a last attempt at modesty.

Bolitho put his hands around her throat and thrust her hair back and over her spine. Then with infinite care he laid her on the bed, almost afraid to blink in case he missed a second of her beauty and his need for her.

Moments later he lay beside her, their bodies touching, their eyes searching each other for some new discovery.

Bolitho’s shadow moved over her and he saw her eyes following him, while at her sides her fists were clenched as if it was the only way she could withstand the torture of waiting.

Across the floor the blue gown and pale undergarments lay entangled amongst the dress coat with the bright epaulettes, like the ships below the window, discarded and forgotten.

They lost all sense of time and were conscious only of each other. They discovered a love which was both tender and demanding, passionate and gentle.

Darkness fell over the anchorage, but Gibraltar could have been split in halves and they would not have known.

In the first uncertain glow of dawn Bolitho moved carefully from the bed and walked to the window.

A few lights bobbed around the ships, and his returning instinct told him that life had restarted there. The hands had been called, the decks would be holystoned as the yawning watchkeepers waited for the bells to chime, the half-hour glasses to be turned to greet another day.

He heard her move and turned back to the bed where she lay like a fallen statue, one arm outstretched towards him.

He sat down beside her and touched her skin, feeling his resolve crumble, the desire returning to match hers.

Somewhere, a million miles away, a trumpet blared raucously and soldiers blinked away their sleep.

He said softly, “I have to go, Belinda. Your friends will be coming soon to prepare you for the passage to England.”

She nodded. “The Barclays.”

She was trying to smile, but when he touched her body she seized his hand and squeezed it hard around her breast.

“I am not so strong as I believed. The sooner you leave, the quicker will be our reunion, I know that!”

Bolitho looked down at her. “I am so lucky.” He turned away. “If-”

She gripped his hand more tightly. “No, my darling, not if, when! ”

He smiled and slowly released himself from her grip.

“When.” He looked at the crumpled uniform on the floor. “It has a good ring to it.”

Then he pulled on his clothes, not daring to look at her until he had clipped on the sword and was ready to leave.

Then he sat down again, and in an instant she threw her arms around his neck, her naked body pressed against his coat as she kissed him with something like desperation while she breathed words into his skin.

He felt the salt tears against his lips, his or hers, he did not know.

She made no attempt to follow him, but sat on the bed, her knees drawn up to her chin, as she watched him move towards the door.

Then she said huskily, “Now you are the admiral again, and you belong down there with your world. But last night you belonged to me, dear Richard.”

He hesitated, his hand on the door. “I shall always belong to you.”

The next instant he was outside in the passageway, as if it were all a broken dream.

Two servants were in a yard below the walls chopping sticks for a fire, and a garrison cat strolled along the rough stones as if undecided how to begin the day.

Bolitho strode down the slope towards the landing-stage, looking neither right nor left until he reached the jetty.

Then, and only then, did he look back, but the Rock’s shadow had swallowed the house completely.

The guard-boat was idling past the jetty, a lieutenant dozing in the sternsheets while his men continued their monotonous sweep around the squadron. The lieutenant was soon wide awake when he saw Bolitho’s epaulettes in the first sunlight.

As he directed his boat to steer for the squadron’s flagship, the lieutenant’s mind was awhirl with speculation. The admiral had been to a secret meeting with the military governor. He had received instructions on a move to parley with the enemy on a new peace mission.

Bolitho was unaware of the lieutenant’s interest and of everything else but the night which had gone by in minutes, or so it seemed now.

And he had thought of himself as a man of honour! He waited for the shame and the dismay to come, but instead he felt only happiness, as if a great weight had been lifted from him.

“Boat ahoy!”

Bolitho looked up, startled to see Benbow towering high above the boat. He could see the marine sentry with his fixed bayonet moving above the beakhead on his little platform where he watched for unlawful visitors and would-be deserters alike.

The boat’s coxswain cupped his hands and bellowed, “Flag! Benbow! ”

Bolitho straightened his shoulders and gave a rueful smile. Now they would all know. Their rear-admiral was back in command.

But he could not let go so easily. Belinda.

“Sir?” The lieutenant stooped attentively by his side.

Bolitho shook his head. “Nothing.” He must have spoken her name aloud.

What had Sir John Studdart said of him? Like a junior lieutenant.

He certainly felt like one.

Herrick walked from beneath the poop and nodded to the master and his men by the wheel before he continued on to the quarterdeck. Without even being aware of it his eyes recorded that everything was as it should be on what promised to be another scorching day.

The ratlines and yards were alive with scurrying figures, and he heard the petty officers’ hoarse cries as they urged the topmen to greater haste.

Herrick paused by the rail and glanced along his command. The barge was hoisted inboard, as were the other boats. There was the usual air of excitement and expectancy which even discipline and routine could not completely disguise.

Wolfe strode across the deck, his arms and great feet moving like pistons.

He touched his hat and reported, “Ship ready to sail, sir.” He glanced across at their consort and added, “I think we have an edge on Nicator this time.”

Herrick grunted. “I should hope so, dammit.”

Below on the gun-deck more men surged about in response to the shouted commands, raising fists as names were checked against a watch-bill or duty list.

Benbow was preparing to weigh. At any other time it was rare indeed to see so many of her people disgorged on to the upper decks. Seamen and marines, idlers and ships’ boys, the highest to the most junior. The ship was leaving harbour again. Where bound and to what purpose was not their concern.

Wolfe, like every first lieutenant worth his salt, was going through his own list for the day. At sea or in port, the work had to continue, and his captain must be kept informed.

“Two hands for punishment this forenoon, sir. Page, two dozen lashes for drunkenness and quarrelling.” He paused and glanced from his list to Herrick’s features. “Belcher, twelve lashes for insolence.” He folded his list, satisfied. “All hands aboard, none deserted.”

“Very well. Man the capstan. Get the ship under way.”

Herrick beckoned to a midshipman for his telescope and then trained it on the eighty-gun Dorsetshire. No last minute argument from Sir John Studdart. He was probably keeping well out of it. Bolitho had the bit between his teeth, and anyone seen to agree with him or encourage further action against the enemy’s invasion fleet might be painted with the same brush. He smiled grimly. As if anyone could or would stop Bolitho now. He glanced up at the flag at the mizzen masthead. Lifting quite well in a rising breeze. It would have to do. He tried not to think of what Dulcie would say when he lost his broad-pendant.

Wolfe said, “I was about early this morning, sir. I saw the rear-admiral come off shore.”

The blue eyes regarded him mildly. “And?”

Wolfe shrugged. “Nothing, sir.” He swallowed hard. “Capstan’s manned. That damn fiddler is scraping like a blind man’s spoon. I’d best go forrard.”

Herrick hid a smile. He knew about Bolitho’s return at first light. The whole ship probably knew or guessed the reason. It was always like that. Good or bad, you shared it.

Clank… clank… clank… The capstan was turning slowly, the men straining over the bars, sweating and breathing hard, while the fiddler kept them going to a well-known shanty.

The great forecourse, loosely brailed, stirred at its yard, and far above the decks the fleet-footed topmen raced each other in readiness to set the upper sails in obedience to Wolfe’s speaking trumpet.

Across the glittering water Herrick could see similar activity aboard Nicator. It would be good to draw the squadron together again. For the last time? Even to think of peace after all the years of fighting was a mockery, he decided.

He heard feet on deck and saw Bolitho, with Browne marching in his shadow, crossing the quarterdeck to join him.

They greeted each other formally as Herrick said, “No instructions from the flagship, sir. The anchor’s hove short, and it looks like being a fine day.” As an afterthought he added, “Ganymede sailed at eight bells as you instructed, sir. She will keep company with the packet Thrush until they are clear of these waters.” He watched Bolitho, waiting for a sign.

Bolitho nodded. “Good. I saw them go. Ganymede will contact the rest of our ships long before we reach the rendezvous.”

Herrick said, “I’d give a lot to see young Pascoe’s face when he learns that you are alive, sir. I know how I felt!”

Bolitho turned and looked at the other seventy-four. As he had said, he had watched the little Thrush clearing the approaches and setting her tan-coloured sails within minutes of catting her anchor. Belinda had probably been watching Benbow from her temporary quarters. Like him, unable to share the moment under the eyes of the squadron.

The signals midshipman called, “Nicator’s cable is hove short, sir!”

“Very well, Mr Stirling. Acknowledge.”

Browne took a sudden interest in a seaman who was busily flaking down a line beside him.

He heard Herrick ask politely, “Was everything satisfactory, sir?”

Bolitho eyed him impassively. “It was, Captain Herrick.”

Then like conspirators they both smiled broadly at each other and Herrick said, “I wish you both every happiness, sir. My God, when-”

“Ready, sir!”

Wolfe’s harsh voice made Herrick hurry to the rail.

“Loose heads’ls!” He gestured above his head. “Loose tops’ls!”

“Anchor’s aweigh, sir!”

With her canvas rippling and banging in disorder Benbow paid off to the wind, her fat hull brushing the water as she dipped to the pressure.

“Braces there! Heave, lads! ”

Round and still further round, with the foreshore and the misty hills pivoting beyond the hurrying seamen and flapping topsails, until the master took control with his helm and compass.

Nicator was already setting more sail as she tilted to the freshening breeze, her scarlet ensign and masthead pendant streaming almost abeam as she took station her flagship.

“The Dons saw us arrive. Now they’ll know we are at sea again.” Bolitho looked at the land but saw only that quiet room, her pale arms open to receive him.

He walked up to the weather side and listened to the shouted orders, the squeak of tackles and blocks as miles of running rigging took the strain.

Up forward, the anchor had been secured to the cathead, and he heard Drodge, the gunner, bellowing instructions to his mates as they checked the lashings on every weapon.

A boatswain’s mate was supervising the rigging of a grating at the gangway in readiness for awarding punishment. One of the sailmaker’s crew sorted through some scraps of canvas with the same lack of emotion. Routine and discipline. It held the ship together no less securely than copper and tar.

He saw Allday carrying his new cutlass towards an open hatch. To sharpen it himself exactly as he wanted it. Who now owned Allday’s old cutlass, Bolitho wondered? The one he had driven into the French beach with such disgust when they had been taken prisoner.

Allday seemed to feel his gaze and turned to peer up at the quarterdeck. He touched his forehead and gave a small smile which only Bolitho or Herrick would recognize.

Some midshipmen were lined up for instruction at one of the upper battery’s eighteen-pounders, and a youthful lieutenant was pointing out the various positions where its crew could change round if a man fell wounded in battle, so that the speed of loading and firing would not be lost.

He spoke with crisp authority, very aware of Bolitho’s tall figure just above him. Bolitho smiled. The lieutenant was about a year older than some of his pupils.

From the galley he saw a puff of smoke as the cook made the most of whatever fresh food he had been able to snatch during their brief stay at Gibraltar, and as he watched the market-place activity of the crowded upper deck he recalled the vice-admiral’s advice to stay aloof and not to involve himself in the affairs of subordinates.

A boatswain’s mate hurried along the deck, his call twittering above the sounds of canvas and spray.

“All hands! Hands lay aft to witness punishment!”

Herrick stood by the rail, his chin sunk in his neckcloth, the Articles of War tucked beneath one arm, as seamen and marines surged aft in a human tide.

Bolitho turned towards the poop. I am involved. It is how I am made.

Into the shadows and past the stiff sentry beneath the spiralling lantern.

Browne followed him into the great cabin and shut the door.

“Can I do anything, sir?”

Bolitho handed his coat to Ozzard and loosened his shirt and neckcloth.

“Yes, Oliver. Close the skylight.”

It might be necessary, but he still hated the sound of the cat across a man’s naked back. He sat on the stern bench and stared out at Nicator’s tall shape following obediently on a new tack.

Browne said warily, “Your clerk is here, sir, with some more papers which seem to require your signature.” He faltered. “Shall I tell him to go away, sir?”

Bolitho sighed. “No, ask Yovell to come in. I think I need to lose myself.”

Overhead in the bright sunlight the lash rose and fell on the first man to be seized up for punishment. Most of the assembled company watched with empty eyes, and only the victim’s close friends looked away, ashamed for him and perhaps themselves.

The grating was unrigged and the hands piped to the midday meal, with a pint of Black Strap to wash it down.

The two men who had been flogged were taken below to the sickbay to have their backs attended to and their confidence restored by a liberal dose of rum from the surgeon’s special cask.

Alone at last in the cabin, Bolitho sat at his table, a sheet of paper before him. She would probably never read the letter, it might not even be sent. But it would help to keep her with him as the breadth of ocean tried to force them apart.

He touched his cheek where she had kissed him, and then without hesitation began to write.

My dearest Belinda, It is only a few hours since I left you…

On deck, as dusk closed in once more and painted the horizon with dull copper, Herrick discussed the reefing arrangements and emergency signals for the night watches. The land had already vanished in shadows, here any strange sail might be an enemy.

And Benbow was a King’s ship, with no time to spare for the frailties of the men who served her.