Agent Counter-Agent

Five

A feeling of euphoria was coming over me. Then I began to get numb. My breathing slowed down markedly, and I felt perspiration dripping from my forehead and upper lip. I didn't even care that I'd been drugged, and the awful feeling of panic had disappeared. I could still remember everything they'd said to me, and I knew they were going to use me in some horrible experiment in terror, but I was no longer concerned about it. I knew I should be, but I simply didn't care about anything. For a few minutes I fought the feeling, trying to rekindle the rage I'd felt inside me, but there was none left. Whatever they did, whatever they said, was all right with me. It was silly to fight it, to worry about it. I was in their power, and their power was enormous. I would submit to it, and maybe somehow I would survive. After all, that was what really counted in the long run.

Their faces warped in front of me — Tanya's and Kalinin's — and they were staring at me as they would stare at a guinea pig in a cage, but I didn't mind. They had their job to do, and I'd let them do it.

Kalinin reached toward my face and lifted my eyelids. He nodded to Tanya and then he left us. Tanya brought a straight chair up and faced me. She sat very close. I stared into her brilliant blue eyes and found a dimension I'd missed before.

"Now you are feeling very relaxed, very much at ease," she said to me in a soft, sensual voice. The voice, the inflection, increased my feeling of well-being.

"Yes," I said, gazing into the deep blue pools of her eyes.

"As you look into my eyes, your own eyes are becoming tired. Your eyelids are becoming very heavy, and you want to close them."

My eyelids fluttered.

"It is a struggle to keep your eyes open now. When I count to five, you will close your eyes because you want to. You will feel greatly relieved when you close your eyes. After you close them, you will slowly slip into a deep trance. One. You are very sleepy. Two. Your eyelids are very heavy. Three. You are deeply relaxed and submissive. Four. When your eyes close, you will let my voice guide you in your responses and actions. Five."

My eyes seemed to close of their own volition. I knew that I couldn't keep them from closing, but I didn't even want to try.

"You are now in a hypnotic trance, and you will respond to my voice."

She was speaking in a soft, quiet monotone that was somehow extremely persuasive. I found that I felt tremendous affection for the lovely sound of her voice — that sensual, cajoling voice — and I wanted to do whatever it asked of me.

"Do you understand?" she asked.

"Yes, I understand."

"Good. Now we are going to place this ring device onto your head and attach the electrodes." I felt someone moving the piece of equipment onto my head. It fit like a headband, and I remembered the maze of wires that had run from it.

"As I speak to you, Nick, you will receive audio-visual data from the machine. The things you see and hear will be pleasant and will assist you in reaching the deepest state of trance." I heard a button click somewhere, and then a swirl of beautiful colors assailed the blackness Tanya had created. Along with the colors came a soft swell of music, beautiful music I'd never heard before. And Tanya's voice accompanied the lovely sights and sounds.

"All the muscles of your body are gently relaxing, easily relaxing, and a great sense of euphoria is engulfing you. You are on an escalator that is moving downward. With each foot you move slowly downward, and you are becoming even more relaxed."

The machine created the escalator for me, and in a smooth-riding glide I was carried down through the maze of colors toward a soft darkness.

"You are nearing the bottom of the escalator now, and you are going in a very, very deep trance. You are completely receptive to my voice." I reached the bottom, and I was in a magnificent, free-floating blackness I never wanted to leave.

"I will now ask you to count to five, but you will skip the numeral three. You will not be able to speak the number three. Now count to five."

My lips moved. "One, two, four, five." My mouth and brain would have nothing to do with the number three.

"Very good," Tanya said. "Now tell me your name and who you are."

Something deep inside me balked, but there was that all-powerful voice asking me, so I answered, "I am Nick Carter. I am employed by AXE, where I have the code name N…" I couldn't remember the number, and a rating of Killmaster." I went on to give more details of identification.

"All right. Now listen to me carefully. You are going to forget everything you have just told me and everything else connected with your past. You are at this very moment developing complete and total amnesia."

A strange thing happened. An exotic tremor passed through me, and when it was gone, I felt very lightheaded. When the physical effects passed, I felt different. It was a subtle difference, but it was as if the whole world around me had disappeared. There was nothing left in the universe except my floating body and Tanya's voice.

"Who are you?"

I thought for a minute. Nothing came. I tried harder, but I still couldn't answer. I had no identity. I was an entity floating in a vast blackness, waiting to be named, classified, and categorized.

"I don't know," I said.

"Where do you live?"

"In this blackness," I responded.

"Where have you come from?"

"I don't know."

"All right. I will refresh your memory. You will now see the image of a man before you." The machine hummed, and I did see a man. He was tall, with dark hair and gray eyes. "The man is you," she continued. "You are Rafael Chávez."

"Rafael Chávez," I said.

"You are a Venezuelan who spent a few years in the United States. You were born in Margarita and educated in Caracas. You have been engaged in several lines of work, but now you are an active revolutionary."

"Yes," I said.

"You live in an apartment at Avenida Bolivar, 36, here in Caracas."

"Avenida Bolivar, 36."

She went on to tell me that I had no family or friends and that the people I associated with were the few in this building, who were comrades in the revolution.

"You will learn more about yourself later," she finally said. "For the time being, you must rest. I will count backward from five. During the count, you will rise slowly from your trance and float back up into awareness. Five. You are moving back up the escalator. Four. You are completely rested, but you are becoming more aware. Three. When your eyes open on the count of one, you will remember nothing prior to closing your eyes, nothing at all. Two. When your eyes open, you will remember only what I have told you about your identity as Rafael Chávez. You will remember nothing prior to the onset of complete amnesia. One."

I opened my eyes. A girl was sitting there, and I knew I had seen the face before, but I had no idea under what circumstances. It must have been just before I closed my eyes. I noted immediately that she was not Venezuelan, and that lessened my interest in the pretty face. I spoke to her in fluent Spanish.

"Qué pasó?" I asked.

"You have been under a light sedation, señor Chávez. You were in an accident and received a blow on the head, and we are taking care of you for a couple of days. You do recognize your revolutionary comrades-in-arms, don't you?"

I looked around the room. A technician unfastened the bonds that held me to the chair and took something off of my head. "Why… yes," I said. The fact was, I remembered almost nothing.

"This is Dr. Kalinin, and I am Tanya Savitch, your Russian friends in the revolutionary movement. These other fellows are Menéndez and Salgado. They have been with you in the movement for some time. We have brought you here to this private clinic to treat you. After all, the conference is not far off."

"The conference?" I asked.

Tanya smiled. "Do not try to remember it all at once. You must go to your room and rest now."

"Yes," I said numbly. "Rest. I feel very tired."

It was pleasantly quiet in the room they took me to. There was just a cot to lie on, but under the circumstances I couldn't expect a hospital bed. After all, I was a man wanted by the law, wasn't I? Frankly, I couldn't remember very much. I wished I had asked the girl how the accident had happened, because I had no memory of it. One thing was clear — I needed these comrades who were nursing me back to health. I needed them very much. They had no idea how bad my amnesia was. Well, it would clear up in a few hours. A good sleep would fix me up fine. But it bothered me that I couldn't remember the important conference the girl had mentioned. My brain whirled with trying to remember, but finally I went to sleep.

I woke up suddenly in the middle of the night. Was I hallucinating, or had it just been a strange dream? It must have been a dream. I was in some foreign country, a desert country. I was running down a dark, cobblestone street, and I was chasing a man. I held a long, black gun in my hand, a German make, probably a Luger. I was shooting at the man and trying to kill him. He turned and fired back at me, and I felt a searing pain in my side. The gun in my hand suddenly turned into a short-handled axe. Then I woke up.

It was an odd dream. I had no memory of being in any country except Venezuela and America. And I had never shot at a man in my life. Or had I? None of it made any sense to me.

When morning came, they brought me a tray of food, and I ate ravenously. After I'd finished, I examined my face in a mirror. At least it was familiar. But it did not seem to be a face that went with Rafael Chávez. I took a look at the clothing they brought in for me, but I didn't recognize it. The pockets were empty, and there was no identification. About an hour later Menéndez came and took me back to the room with the wired chair and other equipment.

"Good morning, señor Chávez," the girl who called herself Tanya greeted me. "Are you ready for another treatment?"

"Yes, I suppose so," I said, eying the machinery. "But is all this necessary? I'd like to know what kind of treatment I'm getting."

"Please," Tanya said, showing me to the big chair. "You must trust us, señor Chávez. We are your friends."

I sat down in the chair, but I felt uneasy. I wanted to get out of this building, to roam the streets of Caracas, to return to my apartment on Avenida Bolivar. I was sure those familiar sights would bring back my memory and make me well. I promised myself that if this session didn't bring results, I'd go straight home.

"Now, just relax," the man called Kalinin told me. "I am going to give you a mild sedative." He stuck a hypodermic into my forearm.

A name flashed through my mind. Nambulin. Where had I heard that before? Before I could think any more about it, I began to feel a deep euphoria coming over me, and I lost interest in the word and everything else.

Someone adjusted a headpiece on me. I didn't mind. A minute later I heard Tanya's voice.

"You want to close your eyes. You will close them on the count of five." She counted, and my eyes closed. There was a sudden burst of color in the blackness, and I heard some odd music that somehow seemed familiar. The voice ceased, but the colors and music kept on, pulling me down and down. I felt as if I were on an escalator. Then another voice came from inside my head. The voice was telling me all about myself. Every small detail, from the date of my birth to my recent activities in the leftist movement to free Venezuela from the tyrannical imperialism of the United States. There were images of specific scenes. When it was over, I had a detailed picture of my past. My amnesia was cured.

I was a member of a political group called the Vigilantes, whose aim was to overthrow the Venezuelan government and to set up a leftist regime with the help of the Russians. I had been recruited several months back and had been injured a couple of days ago in a demonstration at the American Embassy.

Tanya began to speak again. "Your leader has asked us to inform you that the ranks of the Vigilantes are thinning because of cowardly desertion in the face of brutal police tactics. Therefore, action is required now. You have been chosen to carry out the action.

"Venezuela has become much too dependent on the United States," she continued. "The United States buys about 40 percent of Venezuela's petroleum exports, which gives the Americans an economic death grip on Venezuela. The President of Venezuela and his capitalistic government must be destroyed before they turn the entire country over to the Americans. A plan has been devised involving the forthcoming Caracas Conference.

"The conference will be a meeting between the President of Venezuela and the Vice-President of the United States. It will afford a unique opportunity to strike out against both these enemies of the people. You will be advised later as to the nature of the plan and the details of how it is to be accomplished. Do you understand?"

"Yes, I understand."

"Good. When you awake, you will remember in detail all I have told you and all you have heard and seen while in the deep trance. If questions arise in your mind about details, your subconscious will provide the answers and fill in any gaps that may bother you. You will not question your identity as Rafael Chávez, nor will you doubt the validity of his political philosophies."

A few minutes later my eyes opened naturally, and I remembered Tanya counting backward from five to one. I also remembered everything about my past life. Whatever they'd done to me, it had worked. I had completely recovered from my amnesia.

"How do you feel, comrade?" Tanya smiled.

"Quite well," I answered. "The drug made me remember. I'm to take part in a mission against the Caracas Conference, I remember it now. Will I be ready?"

"You will be ready," she said.

Kalinin turned away and went over to a technician at the far end of the room, leaving Tanya and me alone. "Have you and I… do we know each other better than I remember?" I asked. I had a fleeting image of Tanya lying nude on a sofa.

There was something in her eyes, then her face broke into a small smile. "I hoped you would remember. We had an evening together. Don t you remember it?"

"Not really," I said. "But the glimpse I got makes me wish I could remember more."

She laughed softly. "Perhaps we will have a few moments together again before you must leave the clinic."

"That's something to look forward to," I said.

Even though I felt completely well, they insisted I stay in my room and rest. I thought about Tanya for a while. Strange. My mission was the most important thing in my life, yet I couldn't stop thinking about this extraordinary girl.

When I wasn't thinking of Tanya, I was trying to reconstruct the past I had almost lost because of the accident. And as I tried to remember, a small incident came back to me. I was running barefoot into a mud house on the outskirts of Margarita. Then I remembered the house was my home, and the pretty, black-haired woman named Maria was my mother. She and my father had both died when I was nine. Not long after that I had come to Caracas, where I'd lived with relatives and studied to become a civil servant.

There was still something strange about it all. I could remember things about my past, but those things seemed unreal, the mental pictures faded and misty. And when I stopped thinking about them consciously, they just disappeared into oblivion and didn't seem a real part of me. Surprisingly, my most vivid memories were of the few years I'd spent in America, working on a loading dock.

I spent the entire day in my room. That night Tanya came to see me. She came in quietly and closed the door behind her. I got up from the edge of the cot, where I'd been reading a newspaper about the Caracas Conference. She was wearing a stethoscope and had a clipboard in her hand.

"May I take your pulse?" she asked.

"Of course."

She held my wrist in her small, soft hand. Our eyes met, and she looked away quickly. She made a notation on her chart, then stuck the stethoscope on my chest and listened for a minute.

"Do you feel any nausea?"

"No."

"Any sweating during sleep?"

"Not that I remember."

My eyes moved from her full lips over the sensuous curves of her body. Again the tantalizing image flashed through my mind — Tanya lying nude on a sofa. Her next question seemed psychic.

"You said you recalled an… intimacy between us, Rafael."

"Yes, I did."

"Would you mind telling me what you remembered?"

I smiled. "No. It was you. On a sofa."

Her lovely blue eyes avoided my look. I took the clipboard and stethoscope from her and dropped them on the floor. Then I pulled her to me gently. I kissed her, and she responded.

"You did sleep with me, didn't you?" I asked quietly.

She tried to pull away, but I held her. "Rafael, you're not a lover," she protested. "You're a revolutionary. You haven't had time for women."

"I must have found time at least once," I reminded her.

Her eyes found mine. "Yes, at least once." She seemed to be remembering. "Just before the demonstration at the American Embassy. I brought a message to your apartment, and you asked me to stay."

"And we kissed, and I held you close like this," I said, running my hands slowly over the entire length of her body.

"Rafael, please…" she protested weakly.

I unbuttoned her uniform to the waist and slipped my hand inside, holding her tight against me. I caressed her breasts and felt her nipples harden at my touch.

"Rafael…"

We were kissing again. She stopped resisting and returned my lass with a sudden, tremendous passion, her body straining urgently against me as my mouth explored hers. When the kiss was over, we were both breathless and hungry for more.

"Oh, God, Rafael," she breathed.

She slipped out of her uniform and let it drop to the floor. I watched as she pulled her panties down over her long, smooth thighs. She went to the cot and stretched out, her body trembling with excitement. I undressed quickly and lay down beside her. My fingers and lips moved over every inch of her hot, quivering flesh.

Suddenly she tried to pull away, but I held her tight. "What am I doing to you?" she cried. I smothered her words, probing deep into her mouth with my tongue. She began to respond again.

I didn't know what she meant, and I didn't care. All I could think about was her ripe, warm body. She moaned with desire as I rolled over on top of her. Her thighs opened for me, and I could feel her fingernails raking my back. I thrust brutally into her, and she cried out with pleasure. Then everything was darkness and urgency and mounting, uncontainable passion.