Air Bridge

CHAPTER TEN

I dropped out near some bushes and slid into their shadow. Overhead the stars still shone, bright and cold, but to the west the sky was black with cloud. The wind seemed warmer now. I pulled my coat round me and slid along the wall of the house, ran past the gate to the farmyard and crouched in the shadow of the barn. I stood there, quite still, the barrel of the gun cold on the palm of my left hand, listening to the sounds of the night. One by one I identified them — the wind tapping the branch of a tree against the wooden side of the barn, a cow moving in its stall, the grunt of a pig, the tinkle of ice knocked from some guttering by the flutter of an owl. And over all these sounds the solid thumping of my heart.

I tried to tell myself that I was a fool to be standing out there, scared of every shadow that seemed to move, waiting with a gun in my hand. But every time I nearly convinced myself that I was being a fool, the memory of Tubby’s face came to remind me that Saeton was now a killer. For a long time I stood quite still with my back against the wood of the barn, hoping that somewhere in the darkness round me I should hear a sound, see a movement that would prove he was really there. I longed to know, to end the suspense of waiting. But nothing stirred.

It was out of the question for me to stand there doing nothing till dawn. Kurt was waiting down on the road and he would not wait much longer. The thing to do was to go down there and get the truck up. If he left without us … The memory of that other journey into Berlin spurred me to action.

Moving warily I slid along the wall of the barn, past a piled-up heap of manure, through a litter of decaying farm machinery. A twig snapped under my feet. I stepped in a rut where the water was all frozen and the ice crunched under my weight. They were only little noises, but they sounded loud, and once away to the left, I thought I heard an answering movement. But when I stopped there was nothing but the sounds I had already identified.

I circled the farm without seeing any sign of Saeton. Then I started down the track to the road. I kept well clear of the ruts, moving slowly along the grass verge, brambles tearing at my trousers.

And then suddenly, out of the darkness ahead, the beam of a torch stabbed the night. As the dazzle of it touched my eyes I flung myself sideways. But I wasn’t quick enough. There was a spurt of flame and the bullet thudded into my body, knocking me off my feet and sending me sprawling into the brambles that bor dered the track. Boots crunched in the frozen ruts as the beam of the torch probed my shelter. I lifted the shotgun and fired at the torch. The kick of the gun wrenched me with pain, but the torch went out and above the sound of the shot I heard a cry. I fought my way through the thicket, the thorns tearing at my face and hands, all the right side of my body racked with pain. Behind the screen of brambles I crouched down and very gently ejected the spent shell and reloaded. My right hand had no strength in it. The fingers were stiff and clumsy and the cartridges sticky with blood. The click of the catch as I closed the breech seemed unnaturally loud in the stillness that had descended on the lane.

My eyes had been momentarily dazzled by the torch, but as they became accustomed to the darkness again I saw the line of the brambles bordering the track, and on either side of me and behind me the slope of the ground was visible against the stars. I was in a slight hollow. If he tried to circle me I should see him against the stars. The danger lay to my immediate front. The strange thing was that now I knew he was there and was at grips with him I was no longer afraid.

Away to my left on the main road the engine of a truck broke the silence, headlights cut a swathe through the night and began to move. Frightened by the shots Kurt was pulling out, leaving us to find our own way back to Berlin. I cursed under my breath as I listened to the sound of the engine dying away. Soon all that remained was a faint glow in the darkness to the south. Then that, too, was gone. The wind rustled in the brambles. A night bird cried its call. There was no other sound.

Then something moved in the bushes to my left. It moved again, nearer this time. I raised the gun to my shoulder. There was the sound of earth being dislodged and the rattle of dry bramble branches almost at my side. I fired at the sound. From behind me, echoing the sound of my own shot, the revolver smacked a bullet into the ground at my feet. I swung round, realising how he’d fooled me by throwing earth into the undergrowth. I saw his figure crouched against the stars and let off my second barrel at it. There was a grunt and a curse as something thudded to the ground. Desperately I broke my gun and fumbled in my pocket for the cartridges.

When the gun was loaded I started forward. I knew I had to finish it off now. If I didn’t I should lose my nerve. I sensed that in the trembling of my hands. I had to finish it one way or the other. Crouched low I could see his body close to the ground as he waited for me. Whatever happened now I was close enough for the shotgun to be effective. I steeled myself to the jolt of a bullet hitting. I’d let him have both barrels. Wherever he got me I’d still have time to fire.

But I didn’t have to. Even when I was so close I could have blown the top of his head off he did not move. He was crouched in an unnatural position, his head bent almost to the ground, his fingers dug deeply into the hard earth. Beside him his torch glimmered faintly in the starlight. The chromium was all wet and sticky as I picked it up and when I flicked it on I saw the metal was badly dented and filmed with blood. I turned him over on to his back and as I did so his service revolver slipped from between his fingers. His left arm was all bloody, the hand horribly pitted by the shot. There was a livid bruise above his left temple and the skin had split. But apart from this he didn’t seem badly hurt and his breathing was quite natural. I think what had happened was that the main weight of my shot had struck the torch and flung it against the side of his head. There was no doubt that he’d been knocked clean out.

I picked up the revolver and slipped it into my pocket. I turned then and went back into the lane through a gap in the bramble hedge. It was fortunate that the torch hadn’t been put out of action, because I was feeling dizzy and very faint as I staggered up the track and without its light I’m not at all sure I should have been able to find my way back to the farm.

I was pretty Well all in by the time I reached the side door. I remember slumping against it, beating on it with my hands. But they had no strength and all I achieved was a faint scrabbling as I slid to the ground. Probably Else was listening for me. At any rate I never sang a bar of the Meistersingers, but when I came round I was in a chair by the kitchen fire and Else was cutting the blood-soaked clothes away from the wound in my shoulder. As she saw my eyes open her hand reached up and she pushed her fingers through my hair. ‘You are always in the wars, Neil.’ She smiled softly. ‘I think you need someone to look after you.’

‘Where’s Kleffmann?’ I asked her.

‘Hier.’ His big figure bent over me. ‘What is it?’

I gave him the revolver and told him to go down the lane and get Saeton. ‘If he’s still there I don’t think he’ll give you much trouble,’ I said.

‘What happened?’ Else asked.

As I told her Frau Kleffmann came in with a bowl of hot water. Else began to bathe the wound and the warmth of the water took some of the numbness out of it. ‘I think the bullet is still there,’ Else said after peering at the torn flesh with the aid of a torch.

‘Well, patch me up the best you can,’ I said. ‘I’ve got to fly.’

‘To fly?’

‘Yes. The truck is gone. Kurt cleared off as soon as he heard our shots. Our only way out now is Saeton’s plane.’

‘But the airfield is more than a mile from here,’ Else pointed out. ‘I do not think you will be able to walk so far.’

‘Perhaps not. We’ll borrow a horse and cart from the Kleffmanns. I’ve no doubt they’ll be only too glad to speed the parting guests.’ I tried to smile at my little joke, but I didn’t seem able to make the effort. I felt sick and tired. As soon as Else had finished dressing my wound I got her and Frau Kleffmann to harness one of the farm horses. They had got Tubby’s body on to the cart and I was sitting in it by the time Kleffmann returned with Saeton. It was lucky that the farmer was a big man, for Saeton was still unconscious. He carried him slung over his shoulders in a fireman’s lift and when he reached the cart he dumped the body into the muck of the farmyard like a sack of potatoes.

‘Ready?’ he asked me.

‘Yes, I’m ready,’ I said. I was anxious to be off. The plane was my only hope of getting back to Berlin. I knew the Kleffmanns wouldn’t shelter us after what had happened, and every minute the plane stood out there in the airfield it ran the risk of being spotted by a Red Army patrol.

Else helped Kleffmann load Saeton’s body on to the cart. Then he climbed up and clicked his tongue at the horse. Frau Kleffmann opened the gate for us. She spoke quickly and urgently to her husband. He nodded and the cart jolted over the frozen ruts into the lane. I called goodbye to her, but she did not answer. She just stood there, a frozen expression on her face, glad to see us go.

Kleffmann had returned the revolver to me and I kept my left hand on the butt as it lay in the pocket of my coat. My eyes were on Saeton’s unconscious body as we jolted towards the woods. Rain clouds were spreading across the night sky and when we entered the woods it was as dark as pitch. Nobody spoke and the only sound was the creaking of the cart and an occasional snort from the horse. I kept my foot against Saeton’s body. The cart jolted in the ruts and each jolt was like a knife stabbing at the blade of my shoulder. Else had seated herself so that I could lean against her and she seemed conscious of my pain, for when it was very bad she would slip her hand over my left arm.

We must have been about half-way through the woods when Saeton stirred. He lay groaning for a moment and then he sat up. I could see his face, a pale oval in the darkness. My hand tightened automatically on the gun in my pocket. ‘Don’t move,’ I told him. ‘I’ve got a gun. If you move I’ll shoot.’

There was a long silence. Then he said, ‘That’s you is it, Neil?’

‘Yes,’ I told him.

He was sitting up now and he gave a little cry of pain as he shifted his position. ‘What happened?’

I didn’t say anything. He could think it out for himself. The silence became heavy as the memory of Tubby’s death came to all of us. ‘Where’s Tubby?’ he asked at length. ‘Did you — bury him?’

‘No. His body is beside you in the cart.’

He said, ‘My God! Why couldn’t you leave him there?’ And then silence descended on us again. I tried not to think of what Tubby looked like there under the blanket. The pain helped. It wrenched at my mind and made it difficult to think. I clung to the gun. If he made any move I’d use it. Maybe he sensed that, for he stayed quite still all the way through the woods.

At last we were out of the trees and dragging slowly across the flat expanse of the airfield. It was very dark. Isolated drops of rain began to fall. ‘Where did you leave the plane?’ I asked Saeton.

He didn’t answer. Maybe he thought if he said nothing we might fail to find it. I peered anxiously into the darkness ahead. The cart jolted endlessly in the black void. Maybe the horse could see when we couldn’t. At any rate the plane was suddenly there right in front of us, a shadowy, insubstantial shape. Kleffmann reined in the horse and turned to me. ‘I think it is better if one of us goes and has a look round there.’

‘I will go,’ Else said. She eased herself gently away from me and dropped to the ground. In a moment the darkness had swallowed her. I waited, my nerves tense for the challenge of a Russian sentry. But no sound broke the stillness, only the soft whisper of the rain falling. Then Else was back. ‘It is okay,’ she whispered and we started forward again. Else was at the horse’s head and she backed the cart against the door of the fuselage.

It was queer to think that that plane was the bridge between us and Berlin. Standing there, it was just an inert piece of metal. And yet with a pilot’s direction it would set us down at Gatow. It seemed to me symbolic of the whole airlift, symbolic of the ingenuity of man to do the impossible, to jump in a few minutes from alien to friendly ground. But it required the direction of a pilot and my body cringed at the thought that it was I who had got to bridge that gap — in a night of black darkness, without a navigator and with a bullet wound in my shoulder. At least it was a Dakota. I don’t think I could have handled a four-engined job.

Else helped Kleffmann to get Tubby’s body into the fuselage. Saeton and I were alone in the cart. I saw him shift his position. ‘Keep still!’ I ordered him.

‘What are you going to do?’ he asked.

‘Fly your plane back to Gatow.’

‘What a bout me?’

‘You’re coming, too.’

There was a pause and then he said, ‘You’re wounded, aren’t you?’

‘Yes,’ I said. ‘But don’t worry. I’ll make it.’

‘And if you don’t?’

‘If I don’t you’ll be able to take over and fly where you like.’ It wasn’t subtlety on my part that made me say that. But looking back on it I think that was why he didn’t make a break for it there on Hollmind airfield. Maybe he was too weak. He had been out for a hell of a long time. But if he’d jumped from the cart right then he’d have had a chance.

Else and Kleffmann appeared at the fuselage door again. ‘Get in!’ I told Saeton. I had the gun in my hand now. ‘And don’t try anything,’ I said. ‘I’m quite willing to fire.’

He got up without a word. His movements were slow, but that was the only indication he gave that he had been hurt. I followed him, feeling sick and a little giddy as I moved my cramped limbs. Kleffmann dropped into the cart and picked up the reins, clicking his tongue to the horse. I called my thanks to him from the door of the fuselage, but he didn’t answer. Where horse and cart had, been there was nothing but the blackness of the airfield and only the faint creaking of the cart told me that a moment before it had stood there beside the plane.

‘Herr Kleffmann is glad to go, I think,’ Else said in a strained voice.

I couldn’t blame him, but I wished I could have done something to compensate him for what had hap pened. He and his wife had been very good to Tubby. ‘All right, get the door closed,’ I said. I switched the lights on and for the first time I saw Saeton’s face. It was streaked with mud and blood and the skin was quite white. His left arm hung limp at his side and blood trickled from his shot-pitted hand. ‘Sit down,’ I said.

He began to move towards the long line of seats that flanked the fuselage. Then he stopped and faced me again. ‘Neil. Can’t we come to an arrangement?’

‘No,’ I said. ‘You know damn well we can’t.’

‘Because of Tubby?’

‘Yes.’

He grunted and pushed his hand across his face, smearing the blood. ‘It was necessary,’ he said heavily. ‘You made it necessary.’

‘It was cold-blooded murder,’ I said.

He shrugged his shoulders. ‘You left me no alternative. It’s a pity you can’t see the wider issues. What’s one man’s life against what we planned?’

‘The man was your friend,’ I said.

‘Do you think I enjoyed doing what I had to?’ he said with a trace of anger. And then, almost to himself: ‘He took rime to die and he knew what I was going to do as I pulled the pillow from under his head. I hated doing it. And I hated you for making me do it.’ My hand clenched round the butt of the revolver at his sudden violence. ‘Now it’s done,’ he added, ‘why not leave it at that? Why make his death pointless?’

It was the same argument that he’d used before when he had been trying to stop me making that report. The man could see things only from the standpoint of his own ambition. ‘Sit down!’ I said again and turned to Else. ‘You’ll have to watch him. Do you know how to use one of these?’

She took the gun from me and examined it. ‘Is the safety catch on now or is it off?’

‘It’s off,’ I told her.

She nodded. ‘That is all I have to know. I understand how to use it.’

Saeton had sat down now. ‘Sit over there,’ I told her. ‘And keep well away from him. If he moves from that seat, you’re to shoot. You understand? Are you capable of firing just because a man moves?’

She glanced at Saeton. ‘You do not have to worry. I know how to shoot.’ Her hand had closed over the gun and she had the muzzle of it pointing towards Saeton. Her eyes were steady and her hand did not tremble. I knew she would fire if Saeton moved and I started forward towards the cockpit. But she put out her hand. ‘Are you all right, Neil? Do you need some help?’

‘I’ll be all right,’ I said.

She smiled and pressed my sound arm. ‘Good luck!’ she whispered.

But I wasn’t so sure I would be all right. When I had struggled into the pilot’s seat a wave of dizziness came over me and I had to fight it off. The engines started without difficulty and I left them running to warm up whilst I went back to the navigator’s table and worked out my course. It would be easy enough getting back to Berlin once I had got the plane into the air. What worried me was the airlift. I could go in above the lift-stream, but when I was over Berlin I should have to come down to the line of flight of the other planes. Somehow I’d have to fit myself into the pattern and with the weather closing in I might have to do this in cloud. There would be a big risk of collision then.

For a moment I sat there, fighting a growing weakness and the frightened emptiness of my belly. I needn’t go in to Berlin. I could make for one of the base airfields — Wunstorf, or Celle, which was nearer — or I could fly north to Lubeck, which was nearer still. But I had no navigator and I was very conscious of the fact that I was in no fit state to pilot a plane. Lubeck was the better part of 150 miles away, nearly an hour’s flying, whereas I could be in Gatow in twenty minutes.

I reached up to the throttle levers and revved the engines. It would have to be Gatow. I switched on the twin spotlights, released the brakes and taxied out to the runway end. As I swung the plane into position for take-off I called to Else: ‘All set? Have you fixed your safety belt?’

‘Yes,’ she called back. ‘I am okay.’

‘Fine,’ I shouted and reached up to the throttle levers. Reaching up to control the engines stretched the muscles of my back and I bit my lip with the pain of my shoulder. My right hand was useless. To adjust the engines I had to let go of the control column. Again I was conscious of that feeling of emptiness in my stomach. I was a fool to try and fly in the state I was in. But there was no alternative. We had to get out of the Russian Zone.

The plane rocked and juddered as the engines revved. My eyes ran over the dials of the control panel. Everything was okay. I peered through the windshield. It was sheeting with rain now. The spotlights showed a few yards of weed-grown concrete streaming with water and then lost themselves in the steel curtain of the rain.

For a moment I hesitated, unwilling to commit myself to the take-off. Then, quickly, before reason could support my instinctive fear, I released the brakes and the plane began to move forward into the steel rods of the rain. The concrete came at me out of the murk and streamed beneath me, faster and faster. I braced my knees against the control column, steadying it as I adjusted the engines. Then the tail lifted and a moment later my hand was on the control column, pulling it back, pulling the plane up off the ground. Something slid away beneath us — it may have been a tree or the top of one of the ruined airfield buildings. After that I was alone in the lighted cockpit, riding smoothly through the inky blackness of the night, seeing nothing in the windshield but the water washing down it and the image of my own face, white in the glass.

I trimmed the engines and banked slowly on to my course, climbing all the time. At 7,000 feet I levelled out clear of the rain clouds in bright starlight and relaxed in my seat. I checked oil pressure and engine revs. Everything was okay. I felt drained of all energy. My eyelids closed for a second, and then I forced them open. It would be so easy to slip into unconsciousness. I fought off the faintness, holding myself against it as one does when one is tight and refusing to go under. I glanced at my watch. It was a quarter to five. By five o’clock I should be approaching Gatow. I was shivering with cold.

Once Else came through into the cockpit to see if I was all right. She looked tired and her eyes seemed very large in the pallor of her face. She held the gun firmly in her hand and her gaze was concentrated on the door to the fuselage as she spoke to me. ‘Is Saeton all right?’ I asked her.

‘Yes.’

‘Has he tried to move?’

‘No. He do not try anything. I think he is dazed by what has happened. Also, he has lost much blood. He is very weak I think.’ She put her hand on my arm. ‘Can you land all right, do you think?’

‘Yes,’ I said. ‘Better get back to your seat. And strap yourself in tight. I’ll be going down in a few minutes.’

She nodded. ‘Good luck, Neil!’

I didn’t say anything and she went back into the fuselage. Below me I could just see the grey fluffy sea that marked the topside of the rain clouds. It was one thing piloting the plane up here in the clear, starlit night. But I had got to go down through that stuff. Somewhere, only a few minutes ahead of me, I had got to go down and contact a single square mile of ground through the impenetrable murk of the rain. The thought of it made me feel sick and I wished now that I had gone north to Lubeck. Maybe the weather would have been better at Lubeck. But I was committed now. It was no good turning back.

As I sat there in the cockpit, I was conscious of a growing sense of panic. To go on and on — that was all I wanted — to go on into infinity, into unconsciousness. Automatically I kept glancing at my watch. Just as automatically I pressed forward on the control column, as my watch came up to five, pushing the nose of the plane down. It was only years of operational training that enabled me to do that, for it was against all reason, against all the instinctive desire of mind and body. It meant action.

The clouds came up to meet me. From a flat sea of grey they became a tenuous, insubstantial drift of mist. Then the stars were blotted out and nothing was visible beyond the pulsating interior of the cockpit. I watched the altimeter dial — 6,000 — 5,500 — 5,000. Through my earphones I was picking up instructions from Gatow Airways to planes reporting over Frohnau: Okay York 315. Channel A-able and call Controller. And then another York was in my headphones reporting number and cargo at twenty miles. York 270. Clear to Beacon. I pressed my A button for automatic radio tuning to Gatow Tower. York 315. Clear to QSY. Channel D-dog and call Gatow director. Channel D-dog. That was Ground Control Approach! Things were bad down there. It meant ceiling zero and driving rain. It meant that I should have to do a controlled approach landing. I’d never done one before. I’d never been talked down in my life. We hadn’t had those sort of aids when I had been flying on Ops. I cleared my throat and pressed my B button.

‘Hallo, Gatow Airways!’ I called. ‘Hallo, Gatow Airways!’

Faint through the earphones came the answering voice from Gatow. ‘Gatow Airways answering. Give your number and position please. Give your number and position please. Over.’ ‘Hallo, Gatow. I have no number. This is Saeton’s Dakota returning from Hollmind. Fraser piloting. I am now levelling out at Angels Five and will give you my position from Frohnau beacon. Can you direct me in please? Over.’

‘Gatow Airways answering. You cannot land at Gatow. I repeat, you cannot land at Gatow. Overshoot and proceed to Wunstorf. Proceed to Wunstorf. Acknowledge please. Over.’ A wave of dizziness caught me and for a moment I thought I was going to black out. Then it had passed. ‘Fraser answering. I must land at Gatow. I am injured. I must land at Gatow.’ I started to tell them what had happened to Tubby and how Saeton was wounded, but they cut me short. ‘Overshoot and proceed to Wunstorf. I repeat: Overshoot and proceed to Wunstorf.’ ‘I cannot fly any farther,’ I cried desperately. ‘Am coming down. Repeat I am coming down.’

There was a pause. Then: ‘Okay, Fraser. Give your position, please.’ I looked quickly down at the instrument panel. The plane was fitted with a Sperry automatic pilot. ‘I am going back now to get M/F bearings on Frohnau and Gatow. Off.’

I switched over to the automatic pilot and went back to the navigator’s desk. I got the M/F bearings and found that my position was almost directly over Spandau. I moved back to the cockpit and in sliding into the pilot’s seat wrenched my arm so that I had to bite back the scream of pain that came to my throat. Half-collapsed over the control column I called Gatow again: ‘Hallo, Gatow. Fraser calling. Am flying Angels Five directly above Spandau. Please direct me. Please direct me. Course now 085 degrees. Please direct me. Over.’

‘Hallo, Fraser. Keep flying your present height and course. I will direct you in a few minutes. Give speed and acknowledge. Over.’ ‘Speed 135,’ I answered. ‘I await your directions. Over.’

I wiped the sweat from my forehead and disconnected the automatic pilot. Waves of nausea swept over me. My mind seemed a blank, unable to concentrate. Through the earphones came the sound of Gatow calling other planes. From the fuselage behind me I heard Saeton’s voice call out, ‘Fraser! Are you in trouble?’

‘No,’ I said. ‘No, I’m all right.’

‘If you want any help…’

But I didn’t trust him. ‘I’m all right,’ I called back. ‘Don’t flap.’ My throat felt dry. My tongue was like a piece of coarse flannel. I wanted to vomit.

‘Hallo, Fraser. Gatow Airways calling Fraser. Can you hear me? Over.’ ‘Fraser answering. I hear you.’ My voice sounded weak and hoarse. Oh God! I breathed. Let’s get this over. ‘GCA think they have located you. Channel D-dog and call Director.’ ‘Roger, Gatow.’ I pressed my D button, my hand trembling and damp with sweat. ‘Hallo, Gatow Director. Fraser calling Gatow Director.’

A new voice, much clearer, sounded in my earphones. ‘Turn 180 degrees, Fraser. Turn 180 degrees.’ ‘Roger, Director.’ I braced myself for the effort and shifted the control column, giving right rudder at the same time. The movement brought the sweat cold on my forehead again. I should never make it. I felt I just couldn’t make it. The control column was heavy as lead. To work the rudder brought my shoulder in contact with the back of the seat. Pain seared through my neck and up into my head as I completed the turn and straightened out. God! This was going to be hell.

‘Thank you, Fraser,’ came the voice of the Director of Controlled Approach. ‘7 have now identified you. New course. Left on to 245 degrees and reduce height to 3,000. Acknowledge.’ ‘Roger.’ I turned the plane on to its new course, my senses strained to catch the director’s voice. I felt sick with the strain. If only I had done one of these landings before! A sheet of water lashed against the windshield. The plane bucketed violently, wrenching at my shoulder as I moved to maintain course, the control column thrust forward, my eyes fixed on the altimeter dial and the luminous circle of the compass where the needle hovered at 245.

Else touched my arm. ‘Are you all right, Neil? Can I do anything?’

‘No,’ I said. ‘I’m all right. Just watch Saeton, that’s all.’

She wiped the sweat from my forehead with her handkerchief. ‘If you want me…’

‘I’m all right,’ I almost screamed at her. ‘Strap yourself in. Go on. Fix your safety belt. We’ll be going down in a minute.’

She hesitated. Her hand touched mine — a caress, a wish that she could help — and then she was gone and I was alone with the voice of GCA saying, ‘Right on to 250 degrees now, Fraser. Right on to 250. Speed should be 120 now. You’re doing fine. You’ll be into the glide path soon. How are you feeling?’ ‘I’m feeling all right,’ I answered. I wasn’t, but there was no point in telling him that my eyes found it difficult to focus on the instruments. The concentration was causing dizziness. Hallo, York 270. Climb to 3,000 and return to base. Climb to 3,000 and return to base. Emergency landing ahead of you. Acknowledge. Over. It was the voice of Gatow Director, clearing the way for me, and almost immediately 270 acknowledged. Then GCA was calling me again: ‘Right on to 252 degrees now, Fraser.’ I shifted the rudder slightly and slid on to the new course. ‘That’s fine, Fraser. You’re on the glide path now. Reduce speed to 100. Lower flaps and undercarriage. Two miles to touch-down. You’re doing fine. Can you hear me? Over.’ ‘Yes, I can hear you,’ I answered.

A new voice came in: ‘This is talk down. Don’t acknowledge from now on. Check flaps and undercarriage. Reduce height by 500 feet per minute. Fine. Right two degrees. You’re one and a half miles from touch-down now. You re fifty feet above the glide path. You’re doing fine. Right on the glide path now. One mile to go….’

I could see nothing through the windshield — just my reflection, that was all. I stared at the instrument panel. The dials were blurred. I seemed conscious of nothing but the voice in my earphones. My whole body was tense, reacting to the GCA Director’s instructions. The pain was blinding. My body seemed one screaming hell of pain. It shot along my nerves and jangled in my head like a burglar alarm. I could feel the nerves of my brain stretched taut. And I prayed — God, don’t let me black out now. ‘.. Half a mile to go now. You’re coming in a little too steeply..You’re below the glide path. Keep up, Fraser! Keep up!’ I jerked at the control column, cursing blindly to keep myself from screaming. ‘That’s fine. You’re bang on now. Left one degree. You’re coming in to touch-down now. Start to level out. You should be able to see the runway lights now. Level out! Level out! Look ahead and land visual.’ I jerked at the control column, peering through the streaming windshield. A light showed — a row of lights. They were blurred and unreal. I felt the plane sag. I had pulled it up too hard. It sagged right down on to the lights, dropping on its belly, heavily, uncontrollably. The wheels hit and I screamed as the seat slashed up into my shoulder. For a second we were airborne and instinctively I applied left rudder and altered the position of the control column. We hit the deck again. But this time we stayed there. I sagged over the control column in a blinding sheet of pain and then I reached for the brakes and applied them. The plane swung — right rudder — but the wing dipped and suddenly we were pivoting to a stop and I blacked out.

I couldn’t have been out long, for when I came round, Else was just coming through into the cockpit. ‘Are you all right, Neil?’

I sat up slowly, feeling the stillness of the plane, the lack of motion. Thank God! We were on the ground. I wiped the cold sweat out of my eyes with the back of my hand. I was on the floor and outside the plane I heard voices and the sound of cars and then the roar of a plane landing close by. ‘Yes,’ I said weakly. ‘I’m all right. What about you?’

‘I had my safety belt fixed.’ She had knelt down beside me and was loosening my collar. ‘You were wonderful, Neil. Saeton said you were crazy to try it. He do not think you will do it. I do not think he want you to do it. And when you have done it he ask me …’ She turned her head at a sound from the open door of the fuselage. ‘They are coming now. You will soon be in hospital and then you will be able to rest.’

Figures appeared in the cockpit doorway. The faces were blurred and I pushed my hand across my eyes. ‘What’s all this about, Fraser?’ It was the Wing Co. Flying. ‘Because of you two planes have had to over shoot and return to base. You were told to proceed to Wunstorf ‘Please,’ Else interrupted him. ‘He is hurt.’

‘It’s his own fault,’ the wing commander snapped. ‘If he’d done as he was told-’

‘He is hurt with a bullet,’ Else cut in. ‘How can he go on to Wunstorf? Now please let the doctor see him. He is very bad I think.’

I caught hold of Else’s arm with my left hand. ‘Help me to my feet,’ I said. She put her hands under my armpits and levered me up. I braced myself against the navigator’s table, my eyes closed, fighting to maintain consciousness. The station commander appeared in the doorway. From very far away it seemed I heard him call for a medical orderly. Then he turned back to me. ‘Before you go off in the ambulance, Eraser, perhaps you’ll explain the extraordinary message you gave Airways.’

‘What was that?’ I asked uncertainly.

‘Something about Carter having been murdered.’

I pushed the sweat out of my eyes again. God! I felt weak. ‘He was murdered,’ I said. ‘Saeton killed him because he knew I would try to get him back from the Russian Zone. If I brought Carter back, then you would have to believe what I put in my report.’ My vision had cleared slightly and behind the station commander I saw the figure of Squadron Leader Pierce. ‘Do you believe me now?’ I asked Pierce.

‘Where’s Saeton?’ he asked. ‘I thought you said you’d brought him back?’

‘Why are you piloting the plane I let Saeton borrow?’ the wing commander asked.

And then Pierce again: ‘What have you done with Saeton?’

Questions, questions, questions — why the devil couldn’t they leave me alone? ‘You don’t believe what I told.you.’ My voice was shrill. ‘You don’t believe me, do you? All right then.’ I pushed them out of the way, staggering blindly as I stumbled into the body of the plane. Tierce,’ I called, standing over the blanketed figure of Tubby still strapped along the seats. ‘Take a look at that.’

Pierce pulled back the blanket. There was a gasp and a short heavy silence. ‘So Carter was at your farmhouse at Hollmind.’ He slowly put back the blanket. Then he turned to me and gripped my left arm. ‘I’m sorry, Fraser. I’ve been rather dense. Now. Where’s Saeton?’

I looked round. I couldn’t see him and I glanced at Else. ‘You were in charge of him. Where is he?’ I asked.

She shrugged her shoulders. ‘I do not know. After you land I come straight to the cockpit. I do not trouble myself with him any more.’

Pierce strode to the door. ‘Sergeant! You were the first here. Did anybody leave the plane?’

‘Yes, sir,’ came the answer. ‘A big, powerful-looking man.’ There was a hurried exchange of words and then the sergeant added, ‘He commandeered one of the jeeps. Said he had something urgent to report. He was injured, I think, sir. Leastways, there was a lot of blood on ‘im.’

Pierce glanced at me. ‘Did Saeton do that?’ He nodded to the figure huddled under the blanket.

‘Yes,’ I said.

‘Right. Sergeant! Take my jeep — find the man and arrest him. His name is Saeton.’ Pierce turned and pushed his way up the fuselage. A moment later I heard him on the R/T to Emergency, ordering them to signal R.A.F Police to close all exit gates and patrol the standings where aircraft were parked.

Another plane thundered in down the runway. The station commander took my arm. ‘I’m sorry, Fraser. It seems we’ve all made a mistake. Now we’ll get you to the M.O.’ He piloted me to the door. An ambulance was waiting. ‘Ah, there you are, Gentry. Fraser’s hurt. Better get him across to the sick bay right away.’

Else and the station commander helped me out of the fuselage. The rain drove in sheets across the runway lights. We were just moving across to the back of the ambulance when Pierce flung out of the plane shouting for a car. ‘What is it, Pierce?’ the station commander called.

‘Saeton,’ he shouted. ‘Control have just come through on the R/T. Plane 481 — that’s Saeton’s Tudor — has just passed the tower, taxiing towards the runway. They’ve ordered him to stop, but he doesn’t answer. They’re calling an R.A.F. Regiment patrol car now.’

We halted and our eyes were turned eastwards towards the purple lights of the perimeter track. Faintly through the driving rain the lights of an aircraft showed, swinging on the last turn, moving forward to line up at the runway end. The driving squalls of rain periodically wiped it out, but a moment later we caught the roar of its engines and twin spotlights came hurtling through the murk towards us, went roaring past us and swept up and on into the night, a single white light that dwindled and was lost almost instantly. In the moment of its hissing, thundering passage past us I had recognised Saeton’s Tudor — my Tudor — the cause of Tubby’s death.

I felt suddenly sick at heart at the thought of Saeton getting away with it. There were the engines, too. They were Tubby’s work as much as his. ‘You must stop him,’ I said to the station commander. ‘Stop him!’

‘Don’t you worry,’ was the reply. ‘We’ll get him. We’ll send fighters up and force him down.’

I felt sorry then. I had asked for a man-hunt and it seemed I was going to get it. I shivered violently and the M.O. hustled me into the ambulance. All the way to the sick bay I was thinking about Saeton, alone up there in the cockpit of his plane. He was injured, like I had been. But there was no comforting goal for him, nothing for him to try for. He would eventually black out and then….

‘It is best he go like this,’ Else said quietly.

I “nodded. Perhaps it was best. But I couldn’t help thinking about it. Where would he try to make for — Russia? One of the satellite countries? He could sell those engines to the Russians. He would be safe behind the Iron Curtain.

Again as though she had read my thoughts, Else said, ‘You do not have to worry about Saeton. He is gone behind the Iron Curtain. Now I must work to reproduce the engines that we of the West have lost. And you must help, Neil. You are the only person now who know what those engines are like.’

I didn’t say anything. I was only remembering that Saeton had fought in two wars for his country. He had murdered a man so that those engines would be produced in British factories. Surely he wouldn’t barter them with the Russians for his life?

The M.O. wanted to put me straight to bed. But as soon as he had dressed my shoulder I insisted on being taken down to the Operations Room. He tried to make me remain in the sick bay, but somehow I couldn’t face the thought of lying there, waiting for news. In the end he agreed to let me go, but before I left he gave me a dry overcoat and a blanket to wrap round me.

The Operations Room seemed crowded. There was the station commander and Pierce, the Wing Co. Flying and the I.O. Somebody tried to stop Else from coming in with me. I told him to go to hell, and then Harry Culyer was coming towards me. ‘I just been down to the mortuary with Di,’ he said. ‘She asked me to tell you how much she appreciated…’ His voice trailed off. ‘She was pretty cut up, poor kid.’

‘What’s the news of Saeton?’ I asked.

‘They’ve got fighter squadrons up searching for him.’

The station commander turned at the sound of my voice. ‘We’ll get him,’ he said. The weather’s clearing to the west.’

To the west?’

He nodded.

‘He’s flying westward?’ I asked.

‘Yes. One of our mobile radar outfits located him a few minutes back just south of Hanover.’

‘Then he did not go to Russia?’ Else exclaimed.

‘Of course not,’ I said.

‘But why does he not go to the Soviet Zone? Is he so stupid he does not know he will be safe there? I do not understand.’

It was impossible for me to explain to the satisfaction of her logical German mind why Saeton had turned his back on the East, so I let it go. I found a chair and slumped into it. Reports were coming in all the time on an R/T loudspeaker, but I didn’t listen. It was squadron-to-base stuff — the fighters reporting back. I didn’t want to listen. It was horrible to think of Saeton up there being hounded by a pack of fighters. And he could so easily have turned eastwards.

The minutes dragged slowly by. Five-thirty … six … six-thirty. Dawn was breaking over the airfield. And then suddenly there was a whoop and somebody’s voice was crackling over the radio: ‘I’ve got him now. Flying at 10,000 feet, course slightly north of west. He is now over the Scheldt estuary. Making for England, home and beauty, I should say. What do I do now? Over.’ ‘Tell that boy to start heading him off, back into Germany,’ the station commander ordered. ‘And get the rest of the squadron up with him.’

We followed it all in the RTF messages. In a moment the whole pack of them were buzzing round Saeton, beating him up, diving past his nose, flying just above him, trying to force him down and away from the coast. And I sat there and thought of Saeton alone there in the cockpit of the Tudor, his hand undressed and bleeding, and the fighters hurtling across the perspex so close that he could almost touch them. I could almost feel him wincing at each roar of a machine scraping at the paint of the aircraft. I remembered the pain I had suffered at each movement of the control column. God! It was horrible.

Intermittently the voice of a radio operator kept calling Saeton, ordering him to return to base, to return to Wunstorf. I sat rigid in my seat, expecting all the time to hear Saeton’s voice come in. But he didn’t answer. And as the minutes dragged by, the Operations Room, with its constant stream of instructions to planes coming in and the group of officers waiting, became unreal. In my mind I was there in the cockpit of the Tudor with Saeton. He has turned north now. He has turned north. We are diving right across his nose, hut we are making no impression. He won’t turn back. The bastard won’t alter course. What are your instructions please? We cannot fly any closer. Over. The voice of the leader of the fighter squadron, excited, tensed up with the danger of the thing he was doing.

I didn’t hear the reply. I was with Saeton, seeing him hunched over the control column, his face grey, the blood oozing between his fingers and sticky on the wheel. I could see him in my mind so clearly — solid and square, as immovable from his purpose as a bull who has seen the red of the matador’s cloak. What was his purpose? What did he plan to do?

And as if in answer to my question the leader of the squadron came back on the air. He’s putting his nose down now. We’re over the North Sea. And then more excited. He’s going into a power dive. He’s trying to shake us off. He’s going straight down now. My God! No, it’s all right. F for Freddie swept right across his nose, but he’s clear now. Thought they’d tangle that time. I’m right on his tail now. He’s diving on full power. Air speed 320. I’m keeping right on his tail. He’s going straight down. We’re at 5,000 now. Four — three — two. My God! Isn’t he ever going to pull out? I don’t think he can pull out. He can’t possibly pull out. There was a pause then. The fighter was pulling out of his dive. I knew the rest of it before the squadron leader came back on the air. I’ve just pulled out and am banking. The Tudor drove straight into the sea. There’s a great column of water. It’s settling now. Can’t see anything of the plane. There’s just some slick on the surface of the sea. That’s all. He went straight in. Never pulled out of that dive. Went slap in. Am returning to base now. Am returning the squadron to base. There was a heavy silence in the Operations Room, broken only by the squadron leader’s voice calling his aircraft into formation. In that silence I had a strange feeling of loss. One shouldn’t have any sympathy for a man like Saeton — his ambition had outrun the bounds of our social code, he had killed a man. And yet… There had been something approaching greatness in him. He was a man who had seen a vision.

I shifted stiffly in my chair and found that Else’s hand was gripping mine. Culyer was the first to speak. ‘Poor devil! He must have blacked out.’

But I knew he hadn’t blacked out. Else knew it, too, for she said, ‘He choose the best way.’ There was a note of admiration in her voice.

‘I’m sorry it had to end like that,’ the station commander murmured. I think he was regretting his order to send fighters up.

I closed my eyes. I was feeling very tired.

‘Fraser.’

I looked up. Culyer was standing over me.

‘You worked on those engines with Saeton, didn’t you?’

I nodded. I was too tired to speak.

‘You know we were arranging for Miss Meyer here to get to work for us and the Rauch Motoren? Well, that’s going to take time. Suppose we do a deal with the British? Suppose the two of you work on the project together?’

Still the engines! I wanted to say, ‘Damn the bloody engines.’ I wanted to tell him that they’d already cost the lives of two men. And then I looked up and saw Else watching me. There was excitement — a sort of longing — in her eyes. And then I knew what the future was.

‘All right,’ I said. ‘We’ll work on it together.’

Somehow that seemed to make sense — if we reproduced those engines for the West, then perhaps Saeton and Tubby would not have died for nothing. As soon as I had made the decision the tenseness inside me seemed to ease and I was relaxed for the first time in days. Else was smiling. She was happy. And despite the pain of my shoulder I think I was happy too.