Arsonist

CHAPTER 3

Nehor Stark stepped out of the McKay State Hospital in San Diego and stood on the pavement of the parking lot. He looked up to the sun and then shielded his eyes. Though they allowed time outside in the yard, the hospital had minimized his exposure to sunlight and it surprised him how painful sunlight could be when you hadn’t seen it in a long time.

He looked around the parking lot. No car, no waiting family, no children or friends or lovers. There was only him, the clothes that he wore, and the two hundred dollars he had in his pocket.

The hospital had called a cab for him and he waited at the curb. He’d been an avid fan of television while inside but actually seeing the newer model of cars, particularly the shining sports cars that whizzed past him on the street, filled him with a sense of wonder and he smiled. It was like he had stepped out of a time machine in the future. There were going to be so many things to experience and enjoy. So much fun to be had.

The cab came to a stop in front of him and he climbed in to the back. He took out a scrap of toilet paper he had in his pocket that had an address scribbled on it. He handed it to the cabbie and then turned and stared out the window.

“Who you got up there?” the cabbie said.

Nehor looked to him. “What?” The sound of his voice surprised him. It was metallic from disuse. During the past years, he hadn’t used it much. In therapy he would usually sit quietly and stare at the floor. The doctors typically assumed his medication had made him inert and let him be.

“At the cemetery, who you got up there?”

Nehor bit into his cheeks, a habit he had developed through boredom. “Your wife.”

“What?”

He chuckled. “Just drive.”

The cabbie mumbled something about assholes in his cab. Nehor watched him. He was growing more upset as he sat and stewed. His emotions so controlled him that even a slight insult dug itself deep inside him, like a worm.

“You know what, asshole,” the cabbie finally said as he pulled to the curb, “get out.”

“Why?”

“Fuck you why. I don’t have to drive nobody I don’t want ta. Get the fuck out.”

Nehor thought a moment about how to respond. What would somebody say in this situation? “I’m sorry,” he said.

“You’re sorry?”

“Yes. I’m sorry. Please just drive.”

“Nah, fuck you, pal. You made your bed. Out.”

Nehor took a deep breath and stepped out of the cab. Tucked into his sleeve was the knife he had taken out of the cafeteria nearly six years ago and had kept under his pillow. He slammed the tip into one of the tires and it went nearly to the hilt. As he pulled it out, the air exploded out of the slit and the cab instantly tilted to the side.

“Motherfucking cocksucker!” the cabbie screamed, stepping out of the cab.

Nehor was walking away when he felt a hand on his shoulder. In one clean motion he spun around with the knife, slicing off all four fingers at the knuckle. The cabbie sat in stunned silence. Nehor glanced down at the severed flesh that sat on the pavement.

“You better pick them up before a cat takes them.” He leaned in close to the man’s face and whispered, “Here, kitty kitty.” He kissed the man on the cheek before walking away.

The man was still in shock but it began to dim as quickly as it had overtaken him. He was now yelling and then screaming. Nehor turned around once to see him on his knees picking up his fingers. He smiled to himself and continued walking.

Nehor entered Mount Nadia Memorial Park through the main gates. It was a cemetery up on a hill with a view of San Diego below it. Though residential property was zoned around it, there were few homes as the cemetery routinely brought odd night visitors performing rituals or junkies looking for a quiet place to shoot up. The turnover rate for surrounding residents was near fifty percent.

He stopped at a grave that had a batch of fresh flowers on it. He picked them up and carried them with him. Many graves were simple headstones without much décor and he would step over them. He had read a myth somewhere that if you stepped over a grave, the inhabitant could see you and would want revenge.

The sunlight began to fade as gray clouds wafted in and a slight drizzle began. The rain was warm and it trickled down through his hair, which he decided he would soon want to shave, and over his face, soaking his clothes and the flowers he held in his hand.

By the time he found the grave, he was drenched from head to foot. He sat down on the wet grass cross-legged and placed the flowers on the grave. It was a modest headstone, dark gray with a few simple lines: ESTELL ROSE STARK — BELOVED MOTHER.

Nehor took a few deep breaths through his nose and pulled the hair out of his eyes, slicking it back on his head. He ran his hand along the headstone and over the lettering that had been engraved.

In a sudden, violent motion he bashed the headstone with his foot. He kicked it again and again and again. He took the flowers and hit them over the headstone until they disintegrated and then began to dig into the grass, removing dirt and sod with his bare fingers. He dug with both hands, grunting and spitting and swearing, until he had thoroughly exhausted himself.

Nehor felt warm sweat mix with the rain on his forehead as he fell back, out of breath. Despite his effort, the hole wasn’t deeper than half a foot. He lay looking up at the sky, feeling the rain on his face, for a long time. When he had caught his breath, he stood up and saw a small shack on the property. He walked down to it and found that the door was unlocked. Inside were a lot of tools: a wheelbarrow, a desk with several documents on it, and a mug of coffee. He tasted the coffee. It was cold and he spit it out over the wall.

He took a shovel, and headed back to the grave. He dug around the headstone as deep as he could until the little bit of granite was mobile and he was able to kick it over. He lifted it and found that it was far heavier than the size would lead him to believe. But he still managed to bring it over to the pavement of the road just up the hill. He lifted it over his head, and threw it down. It shattered into three pieces. He lifted and threw the pieces several times, unable to break them into smaller chunks.

Nehor stood there, watching the bits of headstone. The homes sat silent around him and he realized he didn’t have a place to stay.

As he made his way down the hill, exhausted but with a wiry energy that gave him a second wind, he could see the outline of the city. He grinned to himself; how much fun he was about to have.