Benediction

7

WHEN LYLE heard something and looked up they were standing in the doorway watching him. He was seated at his desk in his office at the rear of the church with the shelves of books behind him and the framed print of Sallman’s Head of Christ hung on the wall together with the picture of Christ knocking at the door wearing the crown of thorns, lifting aloft a lantern. They were a young couple, the boy maybe twenty-one or twenty-two; the woman looked to be older. He was a big strong tall boy wearing new jeans and brown boots and a suede vest over his white shirt and holding a good Stetson hat in his hand, and the girl, the young woman, was dressed in a short white sleeveless dress with a silver belt and she had on white high-heeled shoes. Can I help you? said Lyle.

Are you the preacher here? he said.

That’s right.

We were looking to get married.

Would you care to come in?

They stepped into the office. They did not appear to be nervous or uncertain. The boy looked around.

Would you care to sit down? Lyle said.

He removed some books from the couch next to the wall and wheeled up his office chair from behind his desk and sat near them. The woman was not tall and the short skirt of her white dress rose up on her thighs when she sat down. She took the boy’s hand on her lap.

This is Laurie Wheeler and I’m Ronald Dean Walker, he said.

It’s good to meet you.

You too.

When were you thinking of having the wedding? Lyle said.

Today, the boy said. He looked at the woman. Now. If that’s possible.

Yes. That’s possible. May I know something about you first?

What do you want to know?

Well, I wonder where you come from. How you met each other.

He comes from over by Phillips, the woman said. He grew up there. Didn’t you, Ronnie.

I was born there. I’ve been other places but I come back.

He works in a feedlot over there, riding pens. But he can do a lot of things.

I’ve done a fair number of things so far, he said.

He can fix anything you want fixed.

And yourself, Lyle said. What about you?

I came from South Dakota. But I’ve been in Colorado for about seven years.

I see. And what do you do?

I run a café in Phillips. That’s how we met. He came in for supper one night and didn’t have his billfold.

I forgot it out at the trailer. And I didn’t have no money on me to pay with. No checkbook neither. She thought I might be pulling something.

I didn’t really think that, she said. But you don’t know. You get all kinds in a public café. So we got to talking and then the next day he brought me back the money. And then he said, When do you close up shop, ma’am, if I may be so bold.

I was trying to kid her a little.

He’s got a good sense of humor.

And that was the beginning, Lyle said.

That was the beginning, the boy said. That’s how we got started. He looked at the woman and then at Lyle seated in the chair beside them. Can you marry us this morning like you said?

Yes. But you’re aware you need a license.

The boy reached inside his vest and unsnapped the pocket of his white shirt and took out a marriage license that had been duly prepared and stamped and handed it to Lyle. It had been folded and unfolded and was frayed at the creases. Lyle inspected it. Yes. This looks fine, he said. It looks legal and official.

They said we could get married if we was over eighteen and we are. Both of us.

I’m older than he is, the woman said. You probably noticed.

That don’t matter to me, the boy said. It’s only five years. She knows a whole lot more than I do.

Isn’t he nice, she said.

He seems like it, Lyle said.

He is.

But you know in Colorado you could marry yourselves, Lyle said. You don’t need me or someone like me or a judge even. Just the license and saying to each other we’re married and then afterward you return the license to the county clerk.

We know, she said. They told us that. But we wanted a preacher in a church. And in some other town than Phillips.

It’ll be a pleasure, Lyle said. You do seem to love each other.

We do.

Could you tell me why you love each other?

You want us to tell you why we come to love one another.

If you don’t mind. I’d like to hear it.

You go on first, the boy said.

All right, the woman said. She spoke very seriously. I love him because he’s such a nice man as I said before. He treats me gentle and careful. Not all men are like that you know.

No.

He’s reliable and he’s a hard worker. He’s not afraid of work.

I’ve held down a job ever since I was ten years old, the boy said.

He pays attention to things, she said. He pays attention to me. She looked at Lyle. All those reasons are why I love him.

I can see that. And why do you love Laurie?

The boy turned to look at her. They looked solemnly at each other. They were still holding hands on her lap and he was holding the hat on his knee with his other hand.

My life is altogether different ever since I met her. My life is every way changed. The way I look at things. He stopped, then went on. I want to say this girl has altered just about everything in the world for me. To the good, I mean. He stopped again. This girl here is the best person I know on earth. I don’t ever hope to meet no one any better.

She smiled and there were tears in her eyes now and she leaned toward him and kissed him on the mouth.

She’s awful good-looking too, the boy said and grinned.

They turned forward on the sofa and looked at Lyle.

I think that’ll do, he said. That’ll do just fine. You know about love, I can see that. But let me just add my own thoughts. Love is the most important part of life, isn’t it. If you have love you can live in this world in a true way and if you love each other you can see past everything and accept what you don’t understand and forgive what you don’t know or don’t like. Love is all. Love is patient and boundless and right-hearted and long-suffering. I hope you may love each other all your days of life together. And I hope you may have a great many years of those days.

They sat looking at him talk. Yes sir, we will, the boy said. He glanced at the woman. Can you perform the service now?

We’d like it in the church if you could, the woman said.

Of course. It requires a big room, doesn’t it. Something more than a small ordinary place like this. Come in here.

He rose and they followed him into the sanctuary.

Afterward, after Lyle had said the words out of the old book, holding it open in his hand, and after the boy and woman had repeated what he’d said and they had kissed each other for a good long time and were still standing in front of the altar with the sun streaming through the stained-glass windows, the boy took out his wallet from the rear pocket of his jeans and presented a fifty-dollar bill to Lyle.

I never forgot my wallet this time, he said. Will that be enough?

It’s more than enough, Lyle said. It’s too much.

No sir. It’s worth every dime to me to have this wedding here. To have Laurie and myself be connected together.

Then thank you, Lyle said. I’ll find something good to do with it.

The boy shook his hand briskly and turned and picked up his hat from the pew behind them and he and the woman twined their arms together and walked up the aisle, and outside the boy set his hat firmly on his head and they stepped down the shining concrete steps to the freshly washed pickup parked at the curb and drove off.

That evening, over the dinner table, Lyle told his wife and his son about the wedding and about the way the boy and the woman talked and conducted themselves. That was love, he said.

His wife and son didn’t say anything.

That was an example of love for anyone to see.

He took out from his shirt pocket the fifty-dollar bill and set it on the table.

I’m going to put this money in the World Mission Fund. I think it’s important to use this particular bill and not some other or some check but this one specifically. I won’t use his name. Let it be anonymous. It represents a half, better than half a day’s work for that boy. Maybe even a whole day. Something good should come of it. Nobody but the three of us will ever know. An anonymous gift. To somebody somewhere else in the world who needs it without the giver even knowing he’s made the gift.

Later in the evening while Lyle was out of the house making calls at the hospital, John Wesley went into his parents’ bedroom at the top of the stairs. His mother, a pretty dark-eyed woman, lay in bed reading, the bedside lamp shone onto her face and shoulders. She had on a summer nightgown and her shoulders were bare. She pulled the sheet up and put down her book. The boy stood at the foot of the bed.

Why does he have to talk like that? It makes me sick.

Don’t talk about him that way.

He’s not preaching here. At the table to us. But he still sounds like he’s preaching or pointing up some moral.

He means well, you know that. He was trying to tell us about something that was important to him.

He’s full of shit, Mom.

Don’t talk like that. It’s not true.

It is. I can’t stand it when he sounds like that.

Be patient, you’ll be gone to college before long.

Two years from now. I want to go back to Denver.

We’re living here now.

These kids are all going to be hicks. You know they are.

You’ll find someone to like. You didn’t like everybody in Denver either, don’t forget.

I liked some of them. I still have friends there. I’m never going to have any friends here.

Yes you will. Somebody’ll come along.

You don’t have anybody here yourself.

We just got here. I have your father and you.

The boy looked at her and looked at himself in the bureau mirror. You don’t have him very much.

Don’t say that.

I haven’t forgotten what happened in Denver.

I know and I wish it had never happened. Go to bed. You’ll feel different tomorrow.