Between the lines

Delilah

WHAT IS TAKING HIM SO LONG?

I’ve been waiting for an hour and a half, and still, zip. Nada. Nothing.

I could open the book.

I told him I wouldn’t open the book.

The minute I do, of course, any headway he’s made with Rapscullio will be erased, and they’ll all be performing the story again.

“Oliver,” I say out loud, “this is ridiculous.”

“My thoughts exactly.”

I nearly jump a foot when I hear my mother’s voice. She is standing in the doorway, looking worried.

“Delilah, it’s after midnight. And you’ve been talking to yourself the whole night-don’t try to argue with me, I’ve been listening through the door-”

“You’ve been eavesdropping on me?”

“Honey,” my mother says, sitting down on the bed, “I think maybe you need someone to talk to.” She hesitates. “Someone real, I mean.”

“I am talking to someone-”

“Delilah, I know what depression looks like-and I know what it feels like. When your father walked out, I had to drag myself out of bed every day just to get you to school, and to pretend for you that everything was okay. But you don’t have to pretend for my sake.”

“Mom, I’m not depressed-”

“You spend all your time alone in your room. You say that you hate swimming, that you hate school. And your only friend looks like a vampire-”

“You’re the one who told me not to judge a book by its cover,” I argue, immediately thinking of Oliver. “I’m fine. Honestly. I kind of want to be alone right now.”

From my mother’s face, I can tell this was exactly not the right thing to say. “On Monday, I’m going to see whether we can get you an appointment with Dr. Ducharme-”

“But I’m not sick!”

“Dr. Ducharme’s a psychiatrist,” my mother says gently.

I open my mouth to argue, but before I can speak, I notice something shimmering beside my mother’s left shoulder.

It’s a hand.

A disembodied, floating, translucent hand.

I blink, and rub my eyes. I have got to get my mother out of this room now.

“Okay,” I say. “Whatever you want.”

Her jaw drops. “You mean, you’re not going to fight me on this?”

“No. Dr. DuWhatever. Monday. Got it.” I pull her to her feet and walk her to the threshold. “Gosh, I didn’t realize I was so tired! Good night!”

I slam the door and turn around, certain that the hand will have disappeared-but there it is, and now there’s an arm attached too.

Except the arm is flat and two-dimensional. Like a cartoon arm. Which is exactly what I was afraid would happen if Oliver were to come into this world.

I’d rather have him stay the way he is than change. I just wish other people-like my mom-felt that way about me.

I grab the book and rip it open to page 43. Oliver stands at the bottom of the rock cliff. As I watch, the blue paint spattering his tunic vanishes, until he looks the same way he always does on page 43. “What are you doing?” he yells.

“Saving your life!”

“It was working!”

“Oliver, you started to show up in my room. But you started to show up flat as a pancake. Did you really want to live in my world that way?”

“Maybe I just looked like that because I wasn’t finished yet,” he says. “Maybe I’d puff up like a pastry at the very end.”

“Even so-how would you be able to finish painting yourself out of the story? At the very least, your arm or fingers or hand would have to stay behind to put those last brushstrokes on the canvas.”

He sinks down to the ground. “I hadn’t thought of that.”

“I know,” I say sadly. “I’m really sorry.”

Oliver is sitting with his knees drawn, his head bent. I wish I could tell him everything will work out in the end, but that’s only true in fairy tales-the very place he’s trying to escape.

“Maybe we should call it a night,” I whisper. I set the book, still open to page 43, on my nightstand and crawl into bed.

“Delilah?” Oliver’s voice drifts to me. “Do me a favor?”

I sit up again. “Anything.”

“Can you close the book, please?” He looks away. “I kind of want to be alone right now.”

These are the very words I just said to my mother. The same ones she insisted were signs of depression. I wish I knew how to help Oliver. I wonder if my mother feels this way about me.

But instead, I just nod and, as gently as I can, do what he’s asked.