Big Book of Smut 2

I Need More

I’ve been staring at the clock on the wall, wishing the phone would ring. I’m in bed alone, and you’re back in your wife’s bed. I wish you would stay.

It’s killing me to be attached to a married man. I told myself it was a bad idea, and yet I let my guard down, letting you charm my pants right off. My friends told me it I should stay away from you. There’s too much pain sharing someone you love.

You share your life with her, but you run to my bed when you want passionate sex. It doesn’t have to be this way. You could come here, stay with me, and we could be happy together. I know you say it’s messy, but I’ve been hanging on for too long, and I just don’t know what to do anymore.

I’m so glad you’re finally back here with me. I wish you wouldn’t rush off and leave like that. We need to talk. I look into your eyes, and I want to get lost in them forever. Your kisses are deep and real, and I wonder if you share those same kisses with her. You tell me you don’t have feelings for her that way any more. I don’t know what the truth is or how many lies you’re feeding me anymore. I lie to myself, believing you’ll eventually leave her and spend your life with me.

You’ve told me that it’s over. You’re only there for the kids, and you’re going to do it — finally make the break. You’re just waiting for the right time. It’s never the right time. I’m teetering dangerously between holding on and getting ready to free fall and just let go once and for all. I almost made it last time and you begged me to come back to you. You promised me you were going to do it. You didn’t. I’m a fool for staying, it’s just nobody else makes me feel like you do. I hate you and love you all at the same time.

I hate that you pull me along, making promises I know in my heart you won’t keep. I hate that I let you lie to me. I hate that I need you so much, and that I am not strong enough to walk away. I hate that your sweet whispers melt me within seconds, making me hungry for your touch. Fuck you, I hate you. I hate you for not respecting me enough to let me go. I hate that I love you.

My heart is being held hostage, and the price we have to pay is too high. Maybe it’s time for me to finally do it. I have to. I always wonder if we split up, will you just find another to replace me, or will you work it out with her. Why does it have to be me? What do you see in me that holds your heart hostage? Or is it your dick I’m holding hostage?

I have a secret though, and I think you should know. I’m sleeping with your wife too. She doesn’t know that we are together; she thinks she’s the only one. I don’t love her; I just need to know where I stand and what’s going on with your family. Did you know your wife was cheating on you? Did you know it was me she was sleeping with? Did your heart just break or does it turn you on?

You can’t tell her you know, or I’ll tell her about us. You can’t watch, even though your dick is hard at the thought of us fucking without you. You’ve always wanted to be with two women, and now the two women you’re screwing are doing each other. Well, technically, you’re screwing me; you’re just screwing her over. What happens if I fall in love with her? Where will that leave you?

I don’t think I can watch your kids anymore. This is all getting too messy. We’ve all known each other too long now, and the risk of getting caught is going to destroy everyone.

Did you know your wife likes to put on a strap-on and fuck me hard? She’s got a lot of aggression to get out I think. You can be a real dick. She likes to stick her tongue up my ass too. Does she do that for you? No, I didn’t think so…she doesn’t love you anymore. She’s only there for the kids.

How long have I been sleeping with her? That’s my secret to keep. Secrets suck, don’t they?

Listen, I need you to know. If you don’t make a final decision by the end of the month, I’m breaking it off. I need to get on with my life. I’ve wasted too much time on this back and forth stuff.

What? You want me to what? Fuck…why are you doing do this to me? Yes, I’m crying — fuck you. Yes, I love you. Really, do you mean it? Can I trust you this time? I love you so much — come here.

Mmm, I love when you run your hands over my ass. Baby, please fill me up with your big juicy cock. I want to feel you in both of my holes tonight. Mmm, yeah, fuck my pussy hard and then slide it deep into my asshole. I love when you fuck my ass. Does she let you do that to her? No; not anymore? That’s a shame. She likes anal, apparently just not with you. Yep, I fucked her in the ass with a dildo last week…ooh, does that get you hard?

Aww, don’t get mad that she won’t let you anymore; you have been a jerk to her lately from what she says. Of course she has no idea that I’m fucking you. She laughs about it, and thinks we’re best buddies. She’s wrong; I’m in love with you. I’m just fucking her. I’ll have to end it with her if you leave her. I’ll feel badly, but only for a few days. You know it’s you, it’s always been you.

Even when I was younger, I was smitten. I know I was too young, it was just a crush. Who knew we’d end up like this all these years later? Aren’t you glad I didn’t go away to college? Yeah, about 2 more years until I graduate with my degree…are you going to fuck me or are we going to talk?

Oh baby, spread my ass cheeks and do it. Fuck yeah, that feels so good. I can feel your cock sliding deep into my tight ass. Slowly, mmm, yeah, just like that. I don’t want to cum too fast. Oh shit, I can feel your balls tapping at my pussy, it feels amazing. Honey, spank my ass, will you? Oooh, harder, yeah like that. Mmmm, nice and steady, in and out, ooh, that’s nice…ahhh, ahhh, fuck…yeah, come on baby, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, that felt amazing.

Do my parents know? Nah, I know better than to say something. My dad would kick your ass. I won’t tell them until you’ve officially left your wife. He’d get mad at me for sleeping with a married man, and he’d be pissed you were touching his girl. Yep, he’s overprotective. I used to hate brining guys home. He does find it odd that I don’t bring home many guys these days. I just tell him I’m focused on studying and working to pay off my student loans. Yeah, I think he believes me…and I can’t tell him otherwise.

Yeah, I appreciate the extra cash — thanks. Don’t think that’s why I’m here. I can easily find other men willing to give me gifts and money. Guys are like that when they’re getting laid a lot. It will be nice to not have a lot of debt when I graduate. Mmmm, we have been working hard, haven’t we? It’s funny, guys shower you in money and gifts, and your wife just fucks me. She doesn’t feel the need to throw cash at me, women aren’t like that. We’re all about the emotions. I don’t mind though, you guys can’t afford to both be so generous. You’ll have to put twins through college one day.

Go rinse off love, I want to suck on your balls. What? She always ignores your balls? Sex is straight and boring if she even lets you touch her? She’s not horny, because she’s doing me. Sorry mate, she’s getting her fill with my pussy. Shame we can’t all share together, but I don’t think either of us would go for it.

Funny…right, like you would actually ask her. You’re full of shit. I know…you don’t have a poker face, but nice try.

Lay back hon, I want to climb between your legs and nurse on your balls for awhile. I love how you smell all up in there. It turns me on so much. Yeah, I could suck on them all day, but your penis is always fighting for my attention too.

That was yummy. Sucking on your balls was awesome, let me sit on top of your stiff cock, I have some more fuck left in me. Think you can handle some backwards cowgirl?

Gosh I love when you pull my ass cheeks up and apart so you can see better. Yeah, you like that too? What? Yes, I am wet. I can feel my pussy juices dripping down your cock. I hope you’ll let me lick it off when we finish. You know how much I love to taste myself on your dick. Mmmm, I’m glad I turn you on. I wish we could spend the entire night together.

Shit, it’s your stupid cell phone. Don’t answer it, not now. Let’s finish first, okay? You can call them back later.

Fine! You’re a dick. Go run home to her and don’t bother coming back. I hate you… yes, I’m fucking crying, what do you expect? Your cock is buried in my pussy, but I don’t get to sleep with you tonight. You go when she calls; when the hell do I get to be the priority? Yeah, whatever — fuck you. I’m getting tired of waiting. I don’t need this bullshit…there are other men who wouldn’t do this to me.

Yeah, you love me, you love me, you want me, but out the door you’re going to go. Please just stay, I’m begging you, please, just this once. Don’t go. I’m tired of being lonely. Just tonight, please. You’re an ass; just go. Get the hell out, but don’t bother coming back. I can’t do this anymore.

You can’t give me what I need. You need to go. No, I mean it this time. I’m tired of waiting and hurting. Get out. Please leave. We’re finished. I mean it this time. I do…

I’ve been staring at the clock on the wall again, wishing you would call. I’m in bed alone, and you’re back in your wife’s bed. I wish you had stayed. I’m hungry for your touch, as much as I hate you right now. I just want to hold you, to be with you. I want to feel your cock buried in my pussy. I hate that I love you. I need to figure out how to walk away. This is never going to change.