Blind Pursuit

36

A surge of air-conditioned coolness greeted Annie when she opened the flower shop door.

“You turned on the A.C.,” she said to Harold Gund, cutting foam at the workstation behind the counter. “Good move. It’s hot as Hades out there.”

He nodded in a distracted way, then looked up, remembering the reason for her trip downtown. “What happened with the police?”

“I don’t want to talk about it.” The words came out harsh, and she bit her lip. “Sorry. Let’s just say I won’t be getting any more help from the authorities. Hey, what’s the story with your van? I just noticed it’s all banged up.”

A shrug. “Fender-bender.”

“I’d say a lot more got bent than just a fender.”

“Yeah, well… I’ll have it fixed.”

“Your insurance cover it?”

“Sure.”

“That’s something anyhow.”

He nodded without real acknowledgment.

Funny. Harold got this way at times-oddly detached, as if he weren’t entirely present. His reliability and competence were undiminished, but the spark of personality seemed temporarily extinguished. She wondered if there was any connection between his mood and the damage to the van.

Then she shook her head, dismissing the issue. Whatever was the matter, Harold would have to deal with it.

She had enough problems of her own.

Throughout the day the feelings had been growing.

Snipping the stems of roses with a pair of florist’s scissors, scraping off the lower leaves and thorns with a steel knife, he found that his fingers were tingling.

Opening the walk-in cooler, feeling the chilled and humidified air kiss his face, he noticed that the back of his neck was hot.

He knew why. It had aroused him-what he’d done with Erin last night. Carrying her into the arroyo, pounding the stakes into the ground, seeing her writhe and twitch… He had been unsettled ever since.

Twice during the night he’d woken from a restless sleep to contemplate returning to the ranch and finishing the job.

So far he had fought off those impulses. Erin was his lifeline to health and freedom, his last chance. She could not die until their work was done.

The day dragged on. A UPS truck delivered a shipment from a florist supplier in Phoenix, and Gund unpacked the cartons. A vendor from Nogales dropped by, hawking Mexican paper flowers. Customers came and went. Several of Annie’s friends called or visited, making anxious inquiries about Erin.

Gund paid scant attention to any of it. Outwardly composed, he was struggling inside to clamp down on the feelings and hold them in check.

If he were to relax control, he knew what would happen. He would click off.

That was how he thought of it. To click off was to relinquish control, to let his conscious mind retreat to an insignificant corner of himself while his compulsion rose to the surface and took over.

What he would do then would be shocking, horrible, yet the rational part of him would watch it without influence or authority.

He had come near to clicking off several times already. Only an iron effort of will had allowed him to maintain a degree of precarious self-mastery.

If he lost control now, alone with Annie in the shop… he didn’t want to know what he might do.

And even if he held on until work was over, how could he possibly make it through the night?

Somehow he must. Erin could not die yet. There was much more work for her to do. Much more progress to be made.

Progress. Yes. Already he had shown progress. Perhaps he could use what he had learned to maintain control. If so, he and Erin could continue to explore his illness together until they found a cure.

At least he need not worry about any further escape attempts on her part. After a night and day staked out on the sand, she would be properly chastened and submissive, her spirit broken.

She would give him no trouble. He was certain of that. No trouble ever again.

Of course, he could never let her go.

He’d decided as much last night. She had seen his face… and the ranch.

He would keep her alive until his treatment was complete. Then… kill her. Not out of compulsion, and not by fire. He should be rid of those impulses by that time.

A bullet in the brain. That was how he would do it. Neat and quick.

The killing would afford him no pleasure. It would be a simple matter of practical necessity. She’d brought it on herself, after all. If the little bitch had just been more cooperative “You going to lunch?”

Annie’s voice.

He looked up from the lily of the valley in his hands, its slender stem wound in rose wire and stem-wrap tape. “Huh?”

“It’s one o’clock.”

“Oh. Yes.”

So late already. He’d been completely unaware of the time.

Though he wasn’t hungry, he had better eat. Best not to disrupt his daily routine. Normally he went next door for a deli sandwich at this hour, and Annie did likewise upon his return at one-thirty.

“See you in a bit,” he said automatically as he stepped out from behind the counter.

She nodded without answer. She, too, was distracted by thoughts of Erin, he knew, but they were thoughts of a very different kind from his own.

He left the shop, emerging into the afternoon glare.

Instantly a blanket of heat smothered him.

It was like summer out here. An Arizona summer, which was a dress rehearsal for hell.

Behind him, the shop door swung shut with a rattle and bang.

He barely heard it. He was thinking of Erin. Erin, staked out in the wash under the sun.

Had it been this hot all day?

He remembered turning on the air-conditioning at nine. The duct fans rarely had stopped whirring, and the compressor’s motor throbbed steadily like a pumping heart. Consumed by his inner struggle, he hadn’t noticed, hadn’t even thought about it.

Yet the UPS man had been sweating hard when he lugged in those cartons at ten. And customers had kept making comments to Annie about the weather, hadn’t they? And the paper-flower vendor from Nogalesmucho calo r, he’d said. Hot day.

Damn it, he should have been more alert.

Blinking sweat out of his eyes, he gazed across the shopping plaza at the clock tower of a bank. Below the clock a digital board displayed the temperature: 101 degrees.

Twenty degrees hotter than yesterday’s high. Well above normal for this time of year. And at lower elevations the temperature would be three to five degrees higher than in the foothills. At the ranch, the mercury must be brushing 105 on the scale.

Desert soil, absorbing the sun’s heat, became hotter than the air. Erin might be roasting in temperatures of 115 degrees or more.

“My God,” Gund whispered, drawing a stare from a woman bustling past with a child in tow.

He must get to Erin. Take her inside and apply first aid for heat exhaustion or heatstroke.

If it wasn’t already too late.

The trip to the ranch and back would require at least an hour, twice the length of his usual lunch break. He needed an excuse.

With a glance at his van, he had one.

Annie was surprised to see him reenter the shop only a minute after leaving. “Forget something?”

“No. Well, yes. What I forgot was my van. I mean, I need to take it to a body shop, get an estimate for insurance purposes. You know.”

Ordinarily he was a cool and practiced liar, but now the words kept jamming up in his mouth. It was too much to handle all at once-the compulsion rising in him, Erin cooking in the sun, the need for urgency balanced with the charade of calm.

“Okay,” Annie said, puzzlement in her eyes.

“It may take a while. An hour or longer. I’m sorry.”

“Use all the time you need.” She gifted him with a warm smile. “How could I possibly object after you’ve been such a help?”

He did not smile in answer. He never smiled.

“Thanks, Annie,” he said simply, turning to go.

Her voice stopped him. “Harold? You didn’t hurt yourself in that accident, did you?”

“Of course not. What makes you ask?”

“You seem… tense.”

“It’s the weather.”

That much, at least, was true.

Starting the van’s engine, he looked at the bank tower again. As he watched, the last digit of the Fahrenheit reading flickered, and the display changed from 101 to 102 degrees.

The day was continuing to heat up. By the time he arrived at the ranch, thirty minutes from now, what would the temperature be?

Gund reversed away from the curb and pulled onto Craycroft Road, speeding south.