Blue Diablo

The Devil Makes a Deal

“You’re going to help me, aren’t you?” Chance, vulnerable—that was something I’d seen only a handful of times in the three years we were together. This time, it might actually be genuine, and to cover my uncertainty, I took a sip of my Coke.

“I thought I just did.” I felt surprised I could sound so cold, particularly where his mother was concerned.

My burned palm tingled in anticipation of what he would ultimately ask me to do. Sure, he’d hem and haw, try to charm his way around asking outright, but the fact of the matter was, he intended to use me to follow her trail. I’m not a human bloodhound, so it’s stupid and awkward, but we’ve done it successfully four times before, including the salvation of that little girl, and the need had never been this personal.

“Not what I meant.” He tried on the old smile with a cock of his head, and I found it no longer rendered me witless.

“I know.” My answering smile felt touched with melancholy as I moved from behind the counter to flip the sign on the door to CERRADO. I surprised a mustachioed man on his way in, and Señor Alvarez offered an apologetic look, clutching a red plastic bag. He was a slight man of indeterminate age, always clad in tan pants and a white undershirt.

His murmured accent sounded strange, the singsong Spanish native to Monterrey. The peddler hadn’t been in Mexico City much longer than me, and he glanced at Chance curiously from heterochromatic eyes. “Lo siento, Señorita Solomon. Usted está generalmente abierta a esta hora.”

Chance probably wouldn’t know Alvarez was just observing that I’m usually open at this hour. I knew a flicker of satisfaction while I conducted business in functional Spanish. I’ll never be a poet in this language, but I was capable of making an offer for whatever Señor Alvarez had in the sack. It’d be good too. In the eleven months he’d been bringing odds and ends to my shop, I’d noticed he had a knack for finding things I wanted.

Today he’d brought me a pair of gorgeous silver candlesticks crafted in Taxco. When I recognized the artisan’s mark, I knew they’d fetch two thousand pesos in an antiques auction, not that they’d ever see such a thing. Unless I was grievously wrong, they’d wind up gracing the dining room of an elderly lady from New Hampshire, who would reckon them a steal next week at a thousand pesos and rightly so.

We haggled a little because he had some idea of their worth, but in the end, he took four hundred and an ice-cold Coke. “Thank you for your time and again, I am sorry for the interruption,” Señor Alvarez said in his schoolmaster’s Spanish, letting himself out.

I followed, turning the bolt behind him as a precaution. The peddler was already too curious about Chance, who stood quiet during the negotiations, but I could tell he didn’t like being out of the loop. Without speaking, I snagged my drink and passed through an arch that led to my private staircase at the back of the building.

I have a small apartment that occupies the second and third stories above my shop. Sometimes it looks as if my junk is overflowing from downstairs because I don’t respect the fire safety code and I store stuff in the stair—well, line the walls with opened crates and stacked paintings. Some of it I’ve acquired on my own and some I inherited from the old woman who sold me the Casa de Empeño for less than it was worth. Mostly she just wanted to join her sister in Barra de Navidad and get out of the capital before the election. Since the protesters closed down Reforma Avenue this summer, I couldn’t blame her.

Chance followed me, touching this and that with feigned curiosity. He wasn’t interested in the oddments of the new life I’d built from the wreckage of the old. I’m sure it looked shabby to him, the crumbling white plaster, steps covered in a black vinyl runner. The second story housed my living room, a dining alcove, a half bath, my kitchen, and a small balcony complete with flower box. When I first saw it, I thought it charming, like the boudoir of a working girl in some old Western. Like the store, the bi-level apartment was cool and dim, the windows barred with black iron.

On the third floor, I had a surprisingly luxurious bathroom with an old-fashioned claw foot tub and two bedrooms, the second of which I used as an office. It had a single bed, but right then it was buried beneath a shipment of good pottery, as I hadn’t decided what I’d sell and what to give the woman next door for her Tuesday market stall.

I decorated the place in handmade rugs and wall hangings in bright colors and Aztec patterns, although the traditional shrine and painting of the holy mother was conspicuously absent. The only holy mother I acknowledge gave her life for me when I was twelve; her name was Cherie Solomon. You might say I’ve been at war with God ever since.

It’s funny. While she was alive, I never acknowledged that we were different. I don’t reckon I knew.

Other kids in my school had daddies that went missing; it wasn’t that rare. But other families in Kilmer didn’t observe Beltane by jumping a bonfire or putting out food for the dead on All Hallows’ Eve. Other girls didn’t read the ABC Book of Shadows while their mamas made candles that could bring back an old love.

From the beginning, she made sure I knew there were bad things out there, scary things, things that shouldn’t exist. She cautioned me. Warned me. But I never questioned that Mama weighed in on the light side. Maybe she had some inkling of what was to come; I don’t know.

And I never will. At this point I wouldn’t believe it if somebody told me they’d gotten a hold of her, or that she had a message for me from beyond the grave. Because I suspect she gave everything she had, everything she was, in her final working. I think Mama meant to imbue me with all her magick, but somehow it only ever manifests in one way: the Touch. Maybe that’s all my limited mind can manage.

But I’ll never know whether that’s right either.

“Great place,” Chance said finally.

I dropped down into the fancifully carved armchair, serpents and feathered gods at my feet. Done in turquoise and crimson, its upholstery didn’t match anything else in the room, but that was sort of the point. He struck the only somber note, a dark scar against the otherwise cheerfully raucous decor.

And hadn’t that always been the case? We’d always been the raven and the peacock, possibly with all inherent mythological connotations. He sat as he did everything, carefully, not disarranging the satiny profusion of couch cushions I’d thrown in a fit of artistic glee.

In this light, he looked weary. He probably was if he’d come straight from Monterrey, a ten-hour haul for me, nine if you drove like Chance. I didn’t like the tug that made me want to push back the crow-wing hair that tumbled over his forehead.

I ignored his comment about my apartment. That was mere filler, as he waited for me to cut through the bullshit. That too was typical.

“I know what you want from me.” I sat forward, elbows on my knees. “The question is, what can you offer me in return?”

“You can’t be so cold,” he bit out. “This is my mother we’re talking about. She loved... loves you.”

“True. But you’re asking me to return to a life that was killing me,” I told him as gently as I could manage. “Maybe this is hard to grasp, but I’m happy, Chance. Sweeten the pot—make me an offer I can’t refuse.”

Maybe it made me a coward, but in all honesty, I didn’t want him to. I wanted a reason to send him away; his problems weren’t mine anymore. I didn’t want to be the solution. I’d wanted out eighteen months ago, bad enough to sneak away in the dark.

His eyes turned hard as amber with something old frozen in their depths. “Who the hell are you? You’re not the woman I loved.”

I smiled then. “Back in the day, I half killed myself trying to please you—and nearly did, that last time. And all you cared about was the next payday. You never once suggested I stop, that it was hurting me—”

“If I didn’t love you,” he said tightly, “I wouldn’t have let you go. I was awake when you kissed me good-bye, Corine. So don’t tell me what I felt or why I did the things I did.” He broke off, his jaw set.

That rocked me. The past rearranged itself in my mind’s eye like a jigsaw puzzle I’d put together wrong. Remembering the intensity, which I ascribed to the rush of completing a job, I realized he’d known it was the last time. I saw our bodies straining, our skin like rayed satin. Saw his back arch, his mouth coming down to mine. He’d kissed me as he rarely did during sex, hot and open, like he wanted to suck all the taste from my mouth.

Afterward, I saw him lying in the rumpled bed, arm draped over his forehead. Feigning sleep so I could go. He lay there, silent, hearing the sounds that meant I was leaving him forever. He lay there, quiet, accepting my Judas kiss.

Did I hurt him? For the first time, I wondered, marveling I might have the power. I’d decided that to him, I was nothing more than the goose that laid the golden egg—with benefits. Or maybe this was just more of his bullshit, wrapped around the fact that he was awake when I left. I tried to steel myself, but I’d already convinced him I was iron.

“Fine,” he said. “Revenge is what I offer. You want the people who did your mother. You know why I refused to look before.” His smile flashed, bright and unwelcome as a paparazzi camera. “But if I turn my luck to it, we’ll find them. And then you can make them pay however you choose.”

Chance had always insisted bad things would come if he turned his luck down dark ways. The years we were together, he never gambled for the same reasons I didn’t work on commission. But with him, you never knew what was real, what was smoke and mirrors.

This was an old crime, more than fifteen years gone. The mob that converged in Kilmer had long since changed jobs, wed, divorced, and begat children, but he could help me find the answers I craved. Maybe I should have let it go long before now, forgotten the sounds and smells, but letting things go wasn’t part of my makeup. I still wanted justice. They should pay for what they’d done.

It wasn’t right they’d gotten away with murder and changed me from a nice, normal girl who wanted nothing more than to ride her pony.

My mouth suddenly felt dry. “You can deliver that? You’ll turn your luck to it?”