Chernevog

11

Pyetr put water on to boil—tea, Sasha asked for this morning, late as they had waked, tea, for the god’s sake, in this damnable vicinity, a delay hard to bear, considering the vodyanoi missing from his den, and Eveshka on the river—

In spite of which considerations he himself had slept like a stone last night, suspiciously like someone’s intervention, while Sasha complained of unrestful dreams and wrote furiously. But if one dealt with wizards, patience was a necessity, and if the lad wanted tea while he did some quick scribbling in his book, lea Sasha got: it was at least something for a man to do who had no choice but to wait.

So Pyetr delayed the questions that were churning in him this misty morning. He made the requested tea, and set a cup by Sasha’s foot and a lump of honeyed grain on Sasha’s knee.

Without a glance, Sasha reached after the grain-and-honey, stuffed the whole into his mouth and drank with the left hand-alternate with holding the inkpot, god hope he did not confound the two. An elbow braced the pages open, the quill-tip waggled more furiously than it had on the goose. Clearly Sasha was hurrying as fast as he could and an ordinary man could only hope he was coming to useful conclusions.

Pyetr washed his own breakfast down—asked, eventually, in case spells required it, “Are you going to need the fire?” and Sasha answering with what he thought was no, Pyetr drowned the embers with river-water and packed as far as he could, except Sasha’s book and the ink-pot.

He thought, while he was doing all of this: ’Veshka’s not a fool, either. Sasha’s right: she at least thinks she knows what she’s doing. If she only bothered to tell a body what she’s up to—

Or why in hell that tree’s alive again—

It had upset him last night. It worried him this morning and occasioned glances down the bank to where it stood, lithe limbs blowing in the wind. He did not understand why it should matter that an apparently dead tree had returned to life, or what obscure connection there should be to that tree and Eveshka’s disappearance—except he most emphatically recalled it dying, shedding its leaves out onto the water while Eveshka became alive again. And certainly it had looked dead for all the three years he had sailed back and forth past this place replanting the forest upriver.

Eveshka cared about the woods. She bespelled her seedlings with fervent wishes for their growth. She talked about this tree and that tree as if it was a person. This willow had held her soul once, whatever that meant; and it had survived the whole forest dying, died at the moment she lived, and come back to life suddenly after all this time, and she had never, ever, with her magic, noticed that curious fact?

Or noticing it—happened to mention that trivial matter?

God, he had never even imagined she might come here in her flights into the woods.

Surely not.

Sasha closed the book.

“Are we going now?” Pyetr asked.

“We’re going.” Sasha put book and ink-pot into his bag. “You ride. Your turn.”

“What are we going to do?”

“We’re going to go up there,” Sasha said, “and find out.”

“Good. Finally something makes sense. —Move, Babi.” swung up onto Volkhi’s back as Babi, perched there, vanished out of his way. He set his cap on as Volkhi ambled over to Sasha in a very unnatural attraction for a horse, and he reached down to take Sasha’s pack up. “Do we know anything? Have we learned anything in all this reading and writing?”

One hoped. One did hope.

Sasha dashed that notion with a worried shake of his head. “I only think somebody wants us here. Don’t ask me who.”

“I am asking. Or is it that name we’re not saying?”

“I don’t know,” Sasha said, and shook his head again, starting Volkhi walking without laying a hand on him.

“Well, what?”

“I don’t know what.”

“Sasha—”

“I’m afraid he’s waking. I don’t know how, I don’t know why, I don’t know if it’s something he wished a long time ago or it’s just one of those accidents that happens with wishes. Maybe something made the leshys’ attention slip. It doesn’t matter why. I don’t think it matters, at least.”

“Don’t say Don’t know. God, I’m tired of Don’t know, Not sure, Don’t know why. Just for the god’s sake let’s make up our minds how we want things and dig our heels in, isn’t that the way it works?”

“It works best,” Sasha said, “if what you wish is of no possible use to your enemy.”

They traded off from time to time, from time to time let Volkhi carry the baggage alone to rest from both of them—in a pathless region, Sasha thanked the god, both higher and drier than the boggy ground south of the den, and further from the river now, but not often out of hearing of it. Sasha slogged along during his turns afoot as fast as he could, catching a stitch in his side he wished away, stealing only so much as kept them moving and wishing the while for some wisp of a thought from Eveshka, some break in the silence that went around them—most of all for some sign that the leshys were even aware of their difficulty. But there was no answer from any source, except that fore-boding which had been with him in his nightmare, that they were running out of time and running out of luck, that Eveshka when she had taken the boat had effectively stranded them so far behind there was no hope of catching her on the way, not so long as the wind blew from the south—and blow it did, against all his wishes.

Pyetr in his own turns afoot spared little breath for conversation, made no demands, offered no recriminations for his shortcomings or his bluntness of last night.

Only once: “Damn mess,” Pyetr said, when they lost time wading a substantial stream, and once again, when, immediately after, Pyetr slipped and took a ducking—”I know you’ve got other worries just now,” Pyetr said, standing up dripping wet, “but could we have a little attention here?”

“I’m sorry,” Sasha said in all contrition. It was his fault. But Pyetr frowned up at him on the horse, put his hand on his knee and shook at him. “Sense of humor, boy. Sense of humor. Remember?”

That was the way Pyetr got through things, no matter hr. friend was a fool. He realized then Pyetr was trying to cheer him up and make him quit a very dangerous brooding and wool gathering.

“I’m sorry,” he said, and only by Pyetr’s face realized it was still another damnable Sorry. He tried to joke too, and winced. “Sorry.”

“Lend me a canvas.”

“Why don’t you ride?” Sasha said, though he had only just gotten up, because Volkhi’s bare back afforded some warmth to a man in wet clothing. But Pyetr refused and only asked for the canvas, saying walking kept him warm, and that Volkhi had no need for another soaking.

Within the hour it thundered.

They kept traveling in rain and dusk, lightning flashing while above the trees—a miserable night, Pyetr said to himself, but they had their shelter canvases to wrap about them as they walked—soaked as he had been when it started, it still kept him warm; and at least since that ducking they had better ground underfoot—wide spaces between dead trees and new saplings, more new fern than thorn brakes, which let them keep traveling well past sundown.

But for some reason about sunset Sasha had taken to looking over his shoulder as they went—and once Pyetr realized it, he began to have a prickly feeling at his nape, and began to his own anxious glances at their back trail.

“What are we looking for?” he asked. “That spook of a bannik?”

“I don’t know,” Sasha said. “I just have this feeling.”

Came a sudden crash over the woods, white glare lighting up the puddles, glancing off wet branches and leaves and bracken. Sasha looked white as a ghost himself: it might perhaps be the chill.

But the light was failing them fast by then; and they put up their canvas in the near-dark with ropes between two trees, got a fire going at the edge of their shelter in spite of the rain, and had a fair supper, themselves and Volkhi and Babi.

Comfort, as far as it went.

Only now that they had stopped there was time to think, and Pyetr stared into the fire wondering if Eveshka might know he was thinking of her right now, and asking himself for the thousandth time—he could not help it—whether if he had done better for Eveshka she might just once have trusted him when it counted.

“Don’t give up,” Sasha said, perhaps eavesdropping, he had no idea. He began to think he had no shame left, or privacy, and sighed.

“I’m not,” he said, chin on forearm. “I only wish I knew what she thinks she’s doing. Or what we keep looking for, or why in hell—” Sasha always chided him about swearing, never mind that master Uulamets had never stuck at it. And it helped the knot in his throat. “—why we can’t reach her.”

“I don’t know,” Sasha said, “I honestly don’t know.”

“Are you trying?”

“Pyetr, I swear to you—constantly.”

He ran a hand through his hair, an excuse to look elsewhere, because his eyes stung. He had no wish to distress the boy. So he said, tight-jawed, the only hopeful thing he could think of: “I trust you.” And again, after a sigh, because he felt a little better for that, and it crossed his mind that Sasha might find some things easier to explain without words, “I really don’t mind you wishing at me.” It was different from just living in the house, he told himself, there were things he needed to know in a hurry, the god help them, even if it made him crazy for the rest of his life—even if Eveshka had scared hell out of him doing II

Sasha winced visibly, looked embarrassed, and he was sure Sasha had overheard him. Finally Sasha said, faintly, “Wish me to mind my own business when I do that.”

“It upset Eveshka,” Pyetr said, and after recalling what he had not told Sasha, once upon a time: “That was one of those times she ran out of the house.”

Sasha looked upset. Finally Sasha said, “She never said. Pyetr, she makes mistakes, I make mistakes—”

“She said she’d had a hundred years to learn bad habits. She said once—” He did not like to remember it. He knew ’Veshka would kill him for telling it to Sasha. But he thought too, now, if there was one person who ought to know… “She said she thought sometimes she ought to be dead again, she said sometimes she almost wished she was—”

Sasha’s face grew grim and worried.

Pyetr asked, because for three years he had wanted to ask someone: “Can she do that? Wish herself to die?”

“She doesn’t mean it,” Sasha said. “Or she would die. That’s not what she wants, that’s absolutely sure.”

“What, then?” His wife talked about suicide—and he had to ask an eighteen-year-old boy what she meant. “Dammit, what can I do for her?”

“Make her happy.”

“I’m not doing that very well.” The knot was back in his throat. He picked up the vodka jug, pulled the stopper.

Sasha said, “Better than anyone could.”

He thought about a drink. He decided that was a coward’s way. He looked at the fire instead, wishing Sasha would drop the whole thread of conversation, talk about something else now. He had found out all he wanted.

“It’s hard to grow up,” Sasha said. “It’s terribly hard. I killed my own parents.”

“Oh, hell—” He knew it: he did not want Sasha going off into those thoughts.

“It doesn’t matter whose fault it was. It’s just hard to grow up if your wishes work. She hates her father. But her father had to keep her from burning the house down or wishing him dead or something, and he was strong enough to stop her. Mine wasn’t. What ’Veshka wanted that made her run away—that’s why wizards can’t live with each other. That’s why bad wizards can somehow grow up in town. But Uulamets’ father just took his son into the woods and left him on a wizard’s doorstep.”

“Malenkova.” He had heard this story, too.

“Uulamets said most really powerful wizards just go crazy— and most of the rest just wish not to be able to wish—and that’s the cure, if you can really want that. But ’Veshka doesn’t really want that either, or she would. Malenkova’s dead, Draga’s dead, Uulamets is dead, Chernevog—the god only knows about Chernevog; and as far as I know ’Veshka and I are the only really strong wizards alive. It’s—”

For a long few breaths there was only the sound of the fire burning, the wind whispering in the leaves.

“—very difficult sometimes,” Sasha said. There might be a shimmer in Sasha’s eyes. Sasha’s knuckles were white, his arms locked around his knees. “Scary. But when you’ve been able to do anything you want—and you learn to use that—it’s scarier to think of being helpless. So you don’t do anything. When you do move, you try to be right.”

Pyetr did not know what to say. Finally he said, “You’re better than Uulamets.”

“I hope so,” Sasha said, and put another stick on the fire, clenching his jaw. Something happened. Pyetr felt his aches suddenly stop.

Another theft, he supposed. A man got used to these interferences.

“You think she’s scared,” he asked, “she might do what you’re doing and not stop?”

“I think she’s terribly scared of that.” A second stick. “She had terrible fights with her father. Not just shouting. Wizard fights, wishing at each other—back and forth. He stopped her. He was always strong enough to stop her—until she ran away that day. I don’t think she understands yet how scared he was of her.”

“Why? She can’t have outfought him.”

“Because a wizard’s never more powerful than when he’s a child. Only thank the god no child wants very much. He can want his mother. She has to listen. Has to.” Another of those pauses, Sasha’s eyes downcast in the firelight. “Which might not make her love him much. And if she doesn’t love him he’s going to want her to. He’s going to want her to do what he wants till, the god only knows, either the baby burns the house down or wishes something really dangerously stupid or someday a mama runs or if or his papa picks him up and takes him to a wizard who can deal with him. ’Veshka’s mother was a wizard, her father was, she got her gift from both sides. If there was ever somebody who was born like her, I don’t know, and Uulamets didn’t hear of anybody like her either.”

“What are you saying?” He honestly had no idea, except that it seemed nothing good.

“I’m saying I wonder now if Chernevog was even thinking about revenge on Uulamets. It’s possible he killed her because he was that afraid of her.”

He had no idea how to put that together, whether it was good or bad. Eveshka going up there alone—suddenly might have a completely different interpretation. “You think she can deal with him?”

“I don’t know. I don’t think ’Veshka herself knows.”

“What does that mean? Dammit—either she can or she can’t.”

“She doesn’t like to talk about it, but I think—I think she’s learned a bit about herself since she came back. I think she’s gotten a better idea why certain things happened, and maybe she knows now why she and her father came to odds—even if she does hate him. I think she’s afraid he could have been right. And then this business up north—if this has been coming on, and she felt it—she was linked to him once…”

“That’s wonderful. That’s damned wonderful. So he’s calling her up there. You think she’s got any chance whatever against him? He killed her, for the god’s sake! How much more can you lose than your life?”

Sasha gave him a strange, troubled look. Pyetr suddenly wished he had not asked that question.

Sasha said, stirring sparks from the fire, “She might beat him. The one thing she has to do is know exactly what she wants.”

“God,” Pyetr said before he thought, and having said it, shook his head and added, his honest thought: “Then we’re in trouble, aren’t we?”

The forest lay still under the stars, not a breeze stirring.

An owl swooped, talons struck; a hare squealed sharply into silence.

Sasha waked with a jerk in the huddle of blankets, caught his breath and, to shake himself free of the dream, sat up to feed another stick into the embers.

Pyetr stirred and mumbled, “Need help?”

“Go to sleep,” he said, wishing the dawn would come. The stick took light, a line of small bright flames in the coals. “It’s all right.”

Pyetr leaned on his elbow, looking at him with concern.

An owl called, somewhere near. Sasha fed a second stick in and tucked down again, not wishing to discuss it.

“The rain’s stopped,” Pyetr said.

It had. There were only the droplets the wind shook loose from the trees. Thunder walked far to the north.

Near him, Sasha could not help thinking tonight. Near Chernevog.

God, Eveshka, listen to me…

He felt vulnerable tonight. Perhaps it was the dream. He thought of the hare—the swiftness of the strike…

He had never thought overmuch about carrying weapons, he had never even thought of wanting a sword for himself: a wizard with his art was more than armed. A wizard wishing to kill…

Could.

Pyetr trusted him to do the wise thing, the right thing to save them; he was terribly afraid that he had been making wrong choices all along, and he wondered if it was so much virtue or wisdom had made him hesitate at killing Chernevog as it was his fear of uncertainties.

Or the force of Chernevog’s own wishes.

He shivered, listening to Pyetr settling back into his blankets. He thought, I haven’t Pyetr’s courage. I’m scared of consequences I can’t even think of, so scared I can’t think straight. Like a damned rabbit—of some shadow in the sky.

If the leshys let him wake—and if Eveshka’s gotten herself into something I can’t get her out of, god, Pyetr believes I know what I’m doing, and who am I, for the god’s sake, to deal with a sorcerer in the first place? Uulamets was scared of him, Uulamets couldn’t beat him, except with magic…

He thought, then, clear and cold, God, what am I doing? Magic against Chernevog?

Dmitri Venedikov’s dice…

Fool, fool, Alexander Vasilyevitch!

He came free of his trance, scrambled up, looking for his pack.

“What’s wrong?” Pyetr sat up and grabbed at his arm. “Sasha?”

“It’s all right, it’s all right, Pyetr, I just for the god’s sake woke up.” He dragged his bag into reach and set out pot after pot of herbs. “I haven’t been reading what I’m writing all these years, that’s what. Words. Words and words. They don’t mean anything unless you listen.”

“What do you mean, reading what you’re writing? —What are you looking for?”

“Mullein, golden-seal, and violet.”

“Violet?”

“I like violet.”

He found the jars he wanted, he unsealed them and flung a pinch of each into the fire, added moss. The fire leaped up. “More wood,” he said.

“Sasha?—” Pyetr seemed to think better of questions then, and got up and fed in three more sizable sticks.

“I don’t promise,” Sasha murmured, trying to keep his thoughts together, examining that Don’t-promise for hidden doubt. He amended it, absently: “But it’s a mistake to go at this with magic.”

“Can you talk to ’Veshka? Can you find her?”

“Maybe. I don’t know.” He added more violet, breathed the smoke, tried to shut Pyetr’s questions out of his mind and keep his thoughts joined, like holding so many skittish horses at once. “Magic doesn’t belong in nature. Nature’s shutting us out, the harder I try to use it. That’s what’s going on. Nothing against nature.”

“What for the god’s sake are you talking about?”

“Dmitri’s dice. Magic and nature. They don’t like each other. Leshys are something special. Magical as Babi. Natural as the trees. Like wizards, more than anything else, part this, party that—but they don’t know us: even if they like us they can’t tell us apart except they smell us over. They never do know us one from the other by our faces. Us, him, no difference, no difference at all to them, if it’s wizardry they don’t want happening in the woods—”

“God. You think the leshys are doing this?”

“I don’t know. I honestly don’t know. It’s a question of moving pebbles.”

“Pebbles?”

“The little things. Hush, please, Pyetr, hush!” He put his hands over his ears, in danger of losing his thought—the exact way Misighi felt when he was speaking, the things Misighi loved and noticed by choice…

Misighi and birch trees. Misighi leaning close to smell and touch. Misighi, who heard the least twig break in his woods— his woods, long before it ever belonged in any wise to wizards… He leaned close into the smoke, under the drizzle from the trees, held his hands to the warmth, filled his eyes with the leaping flames, unblinking.

Wood and fire. Natural as the forest. Natural as the fall of rain that snuffed it, the seeds that sprouted after it. —Natural as the fall of a single pine cone somewhere unseen—and the wish that Misighi hear it.

“Misighi,” he whispered, “Misighi, ’Veshka’s out on the river and we can’t find her—can you talk to us, Misighi?”

He expected that the answer would be faint when it came. He rested there in the warmth of the smoke, he rested his eyes against the heels of his hands till he saw lights, he thought with guilt of the borrowing he had done against the woods, not trusting wizardry, not thinking of Misighi as Misighi truly was—

And maybe, in that thought, Misighi was chiding him for his mistakes: he did feel the woods again, distant and trying to escape him.

But he clung to that elusive sense of presence: he remembered birch trees, he made all his thought simply of birch trees. “Misighi,” he whispered, and somewhere far away dropped another pine cone.

One had to look ever so carefully to see a leshy when it wished otherwise. One could so easily mistake them. One had to listen ever so carefully to know a leshy’s voice—and one might never, ever hear it, if one had one’s mind already set only on what one expected to hear…

It was truly amazing how long the boy could sit still: Pyetr tucked back in the narrow shelter, wrapped up in his damp coat and his blanket. The magical smoke had no effect on him but to make his nose run—but he saw the concentration in Sasha’s attitude, and he was sure something was going on: if it took building fires in the middle of the night and if the boy suddenly said he understood something, then, god, if belief could put some force behind the boy’s efforts, then he did believe, damn, he did, he would believe in old friends before he believed in anything.

Misighi, he thought on his own, if you’re listening—we need help. ’Veshka does. Maybe you do. We’re trying to get to you. Listen to the boy, he knows how to say things…

Babi screeched of a sudden and bounded out of the shelter: Pyetr’s heart jumped. Babi took refuge on Volkhi’s back, eyes glowing gold in the dark above the fire. But Sasha never flinched.

Is it going all right? Pyetr wondered. Am I fouling things up?

Then he heard something saying… he had no idea. It sounded like the sighing of leaves. It felt like a clean wind. It smelled like spring.

It passed, slowly.

That was Misighi, Pyetr thought, with no sane reason in the world to say he had heard a thing. He wiped his nose furiously, stifled a sneeze, found the arm he was leaning on trembling violently and the fist that had been in his chest let go.

Sasha said, a whisper, “He’s listening. He knows we’re here.”

“I heard.”

Sasha sat there a long time on his heels, elbows on knees, firelight shining on scarcely blinking eyes. Pyetr held himself on the shaking arm, dared not move, hardly dared breathe, thinking, eventually,

God, is he all right? Ought I to wake him up? What use am I, except to keep some bear from eating him?

Sasha murmured, finally, scarcely a movement of his lips, “The quiet is the leshys’ doing. They want us up there, fast as we can.”

“They damn near got me killed!” Pyetr whispered. “Don’t they know that? They’ve gotten ’Veshka off alone, the god only knows where she is— If they want us up there, why didn’t they damn well say so?”

Sasha said, in the same hushed tone, “They’re preventing things, that’s all. All magic. They’re allowing only what agrees with them. I think they’re in some kind of trouble.”

“Fine. Fine. We know what kind. Is Misighi hearing from ’Veshka? Did you ask him?”

“I asked him. He said—he just said hurry.”

God, he did not like the sound of that.

“We’ve got to go,” Sasha said. “Now.”

In the dark. Of course. Now. Immediately.

Pyetr grabbed up mats and blankets and started packing.

Fast.

Daylight found a wholesome woods, wide-spaced growth. A fox crossed a hillside, stopped and wondered at them.

They were out of the vodyanoi’s woods, Sasha said; and in small truth, whether they had suddenly passed within the leshys’ healthy influence or whether it was the sheer relief of knowing Misighi was at least aware and answering, Pyetr felt as if they had some real hope: he kept moving as fast as he could possibly walk, despite the occasional stitch in his side, keeping Volkhi’s pace and insisting Sasha ride more than he did—”It’s all right,” he said to Sasha. “My legs are longer.”

Ride and walk and walk and rest—the latter only by short stretches: time to splash water in one’s face and wash the dust into some spring. Walking warmed wet clothes, wet boots wore blisters, and the whole day became one long confusion of leaf-strewn hills and bracken patches.

But the change in the woods itself was heartening. Leshys’ work, for sure, Pyetr told himself: there was hardly a fallen branch in their path, no reason not to go on after dusk and into dark; and when the dark got too deep, they simply unrolled their blankets, tucked down and rested without a fire, with the branches sighing over them.

“It feels safer here,” Pyetr murmured dizzily, on the edge of sleep: “It feels healthier. Thank the god.”

“You’ve got to ride tomorrow,” Sasha said.

“Faster otherwise.”

Sasha said nothing to that. Pyetr had second thoughts then that maybe it was only that his walking felt faster, the god knew Sasha pushed himself as hard as he could—

“Besides,” he amended it, “you don’t think when you’re busy watching your own feet, and my thinking doesn’t help us: yours does.”

Further silence. Then, a shaky: “I am trying, Pyetr.”

“I know you are. Did I ever say not?”

“When I was little,” Sasha said on a sigh, “when I’d burn myself or smash a finger—I’d want it to stop hurting—and it would. And that would scare me. So I’d want it to hurt again. And then I’d want it to stop, because it hurt. I feel like that sometimes.”

He thought about that. It was more like Eveshka than he wanted to think about at the moment. He said, “I can understand that.”

“Can you?”

“Nobody knows what they really want. Everybody has doubts. That’s the point, isn’t it?”

“I think it’s the point.”

“You should have dumped that skinflint uncle of yours in the horse trough, you know that? You put up with too much.”

“I was scared.”

“You were too damn polite, you truly were. You always have been.”

“That’s what I mean! I’m not—not like you.”

“Thank the god. What do you want? The boyars after you for a hanging?”

“I’m not as brave as you are. In a lot of ways.”

“God, what does that mean? —Because I said I walked faster?”

“You take chances. Chances don’t scare you.”

Walking a balcony railing. Irina’s upstairs window. An icy porch and a prodigious icicle. “They scared hell out of me! I was a gambler, I knew the odds. I wasn’t brave. I was broke.”

“But you did it. You always knew what you were doing.”

“I guessed.”

“I wouldn’t have had the nerve.”

“You’re a wizard. You wouldn’t have to.”

“No. I could cheat.”

“Ridiculous. Fedya Misurov was the cheat. And you wouldn’t even dump him in the horse trough.”

“I was afraid of him.”

“No.” Pyetr lifted his head off his arms and looked at Sasha, who lay with Babi sleeping on his chest. “You were afraid of yourself, friend. You were afraid when you did dump him, it wouldn’t be a horse trough.”

A sigh. “You’re right about that.”

“Better damn well do something, hadn’t you? You can’t do worse than nothing.”

“But that’s it, Pyetr, that’s exactly it—if somebody’s wishing me into mistakes.”

Pyetr leaned on his elbow. “Maybe doing nothing’s a mistake. You think of that?”

Sasha turned his head and looked at him. “If you were a wizard,” he said, “I think you’d be a good one.”

“God, no, I wouldn’t.” The thought appalled him. “Not me.”

“What would you do? “

“I’d wish him dead! I’d wish the woods safe and ’Veshka back home. That first.”

Sasha scratched Babi’s head. “How?”

“What do you mean, how?”

“That’s too general. How are we going to make that happen?”

“You tell me.”

“I’m asking you. —I’m serious, Pyetr, you’ve a good head for right wishes. You think of things. Think of getting around what somebody else might have wished—think of something he won’t have thought of. You always were good at that.”

That was a hard one. Pyetr rolled onto his back and looked up at the dark branches.

“I wish—I wish ’Veshka to make right decisions, for a start.”

“Not bad, but too general. Specific things win out.”

“What, then?”

“I’m asking you. You’re good at getting around things.”

“Tavern keepers. Creditors.”

“Are wizards smarter? —What would you wish?”

“I want ’Veshka safe! Can’t you wish that, with no equivocation?”

“Safe could mean—”

One lived with wizards, one learned such simple truths. “God,” Pyetr sighed and put both arms over his eyes. “Get some sleep, boy, just for the god’s sake, get some sleep.” He thought a moment more. The idea would not turn him loose.

The fact was, what he truly wished was embarrassing—but he thought it might help if Sasha threw it in. “I wish her still to love me.”

“Is that fair?”

“To protect her—absolutely it’s her!”

Sasha said nothing to that. Pyetr thought about it, and worried over it, and Eveshka’s damnable independence, and said, finally, thinking that by morning he was going to be embarrassed about this: “Then wish me to be someone she’d rely on.”

‘ “That’s already true,” Sasha said.

“Wish it anyway. I do. —And while you’re about it, wish us smarter than our enemies.”

“I don’t think you can do that. You either are or you aren’t. That’s how you win and lose. You have to be specific.”

“Then—” He thought of Vojvoda’s upstairs windows, of balconies, latches and shutters. “Wish us not to forget the little things. Wish us—” He thought about the years of his boyhood, that he had gambled his way up from tavern cellars to the fellowship of young gentlemen—and deluded himself about their loyalties. “—to see through our most cherished self-deceptions.”

“That’s good,” Sasha said. “What else? What about Chernevog?”

Pyetr shook his head slowly. “I don’t know.” God, he found himself don’t-knowing, the same as Sasha. But there was so damned much to keep track of.”Wish a snake to bite him. Wish a bear to eat him.”

“Awake or asleep? Now or later? You can’t put much complication in a wish. There might not be a bear in the neighborhood.”

“Well, find one! God, what can you predict? What use is the damn bannik, if it doesn’t give you that? —Get some sleep, for the god’s sake. We’re crazed, we’re getting nowhere closer, talking all night.”

“Uulamets used to say, Never ill-wish.”

“Well, it never damn well stopped Uulamets. Did it?”

“No,” Sasha admitted, and then said, on another sigh, “A bear isn’t really such a bad idea.”