Dead Matter

11

As I ran to Connor’s apartment farther west and two blocks down, I tried his number, but his phone went straight to voice mail. Given how close I was, I didn’t bother to leave a message.

By the time I reached his apartment, I had calmed myself a little. The fact that Jane had been able to send me messages meant she was still alive, and that gave me hope.

At Connor’s building, someone was just leaving as I arrived, and I grabbed the door before it could close behind him to let myself in. Outside Connor’s apartment upstairs, the sound of his movie sound system poured straight through the thickness of his wooden door. I hammered on it for several minutes, and when he didn’t answer I feared that maybe Jane and I had made a bad call leaving him to sleep it off the other night. Maybe whoever or whatever had scaled his wall had returned and taken care of him. I pounded harder.

The door flew open and a wild-eyed Connor stood there wearing the same clothes I had found him in at the graveyard. He looked ready to fight. Despite his crazed appearance, it was nice to see that the swelling had gone down around his eyes. When he saw it was me, he relaxed a little.

“Wow,” Connor said. He wandered away from the door back into his apartment. I caught it before it swung shut. “Two social calls in one week,” he said. “I’m touched.”

“I wouldn’t exactly call this social,” I said, walking in. Not much had changed in the apartment since yesterday, except up on his projection wall Fisherman Quint was being devoured by the powerful jaws of a giant great white shark. Other than that, there was maybe a fresh pizza box on top of one of the many stacks of pizza boxes… possibly a new odor or two.

“I see you’ve been working on your funk some more since we dropped you off,” I said, stopping in my tracks. “Do I detect a hint of something that died?”

“So glad you could drop by, kid,” Connor said. He plopped himself down in one of the movie-watching chairs. He went back to watching Jaws, but not before flipping up the top on one of the pizza boxes and pulling out a cold slice that I hoped was relatively new.

“Like I said, this isn’t really a social call,” I said, pulling the plug on his projection system. The room went dead silent. I thought he was going to kill me so before he could say anything, I blurted it all out. I spent the next few minutes telling Connor about everything that had happened since last night-from discovering that he hadn’t dreaming about having a lurker all this time, chasing the intruder back to the Gibson-Case Center-everything up to Jane’s disappearance.

“And then…” I said, hearing the catch in my own voice, but controlling it, “she just vanished into one of the information kiosks there, like she was being sucked into the Matrix.”

Connor sat in his movie-watching chair in quiet contemplation. “So about the first part of your story… You didn’t think this would be worth bringing up to me, say, last night after you chased whoever away?”

“After seeing the way you looked after we found you knocked down at Trinity Church? No.”

“Why the hell not?” Although his words were sharp, there was more desperation than anger in his voice.

“No offense, Connor, but you don’t really seem on your ‘A’ game right now,” I said.

He laughed, but it was a dark sound. “And you thought now might be a good time to tell me?”

“I don’t know, honestly. I don’t think there’s any good time to tell someone something as messed up as all this, but I guess you should know that you’re not having crazy dreams. Whatever is happening to you, it’s real.”

“Maybe it is, and maybe it isn’t,” he said, giving an unhinged laugh and standing up. He walked over to me and poked me in the chest. “How do I know that you’re really here and really telling me all this?”

“I could kick your ass, if it would help you think I’m real,” I said.

“If you won, then I’d know this was all a hallucination,” he said. He shook his head, still crazy-eyed. “In case you haven’t noticed, Mr. Figment of my Imagination, I’m still off the company clock. I’m not running on Departmental time and…”

“Excuse me?” I said. “Listen, Connor, trust me… This is going to override your precious vacation time. Help me find Jane.”

“I don’t think so,” he said. Connor already looked distracted and headed back to the comfort of his chair again. “I’ve got to think about this visitor of mine…”

Something in me let go and I lunged for him. Connor had more fighting experience than I did, but with his mind off in its own little world, I grappled him around the shoulders with ease. Up close, the stink coming off of him was the kind you found only on the homeless in New York, but I was too pissed to back off.

“Let go of me, kid,” Connor said, struggling. “Don’t make me write you up for insubordination.”

“Oh, but you’re not on Departmental time, remember?” I said, tightening my grip. “You’re off the company clock.” I clamped down around Connor’s shoulders, slipping my arms up around his neck in a modified sleeper hold. “So technically I’m not strangling my work partner; I’m just strangling a friend.”

“Some friend,” Connor choked out and pushed the two of us across the room until I hit his sofa and sat down hard. Connor used the momentum and leveraged himself into a standing position, but I didn’t let go and stood up with him.

“Jane’s missing because we were trying to help you,” I said, trying to reason with him.

“I didn’t ask you for that,” Connor said, all accusatory. “I didn’t ask anyone to put themselves at risk for me.” Connor shrugged, despite my grip on him. “If Jane had been following Departmental protocol, she wouldn’t be in this situation.”

“What the hell has gotten into you?” I said. My arms were burning from keeping up the pressure on him. I didn’t know how much longer I could hold on. “There are things out there more important than our day job!”

“Like family?” Connor said, his teeth grinding.

“Look, I’m sorry we never found your brother,” I said, pushing him away from me. I fell back on the couch and Connor rolled across the floor until he hit the back of one of his movie chairs. I stood up. “But Jane is practically my family. She’s all I have, the only truly good thing to come out of having this ‘gift’ of mine. Aidan’s in the past, the long past. We can’t do anything about him now, but we can help Jane. I’m not asking you as your partner in Other Division; I’m asking you as a friend.”

Connor stood, taking his time to rise. I hated beating on him in this condition, but nothing else seemed to be getting through to him. He rolled his shoulders back, giving off an audible popping sound.

“Jesus, kid, I take a little time off and you go and grow a pair…” He rubbed his jaw, pausing his hand as if he really felt the scruff of his beard for the first time. Favoring his right leg and limping with his left, Connor crossed to a mirror hanging on the wall and stared into it for a good long time as if he didn’t recognize the man looking back at him. When he finally turned away from it, he lowered his eyes and said, “All right. Let’s go.”

He turned and headed for his front door.

“Dude,” I said, stopping him with a single word.

Connor looked back at me. “What?”

“You can’t go out like that,” I said. “You stink. You’re covered in bits of grass and mud from the graveyard, and there’s still dried blood caked in your hair and beard. I think you might want to clean yourself up a bit before we attempt to infiltrate the Gibson-Case Center.”

Connor went back to the mirror and looked again. “Heh,” he said. “You know, I was so surprised to see the beard I didn’t really notice anything else.”

“Feel free to take a quick shower,” I said. “I don’t want us getting kicked out because they think you’re there begging for change.”

Connor nodded and headed off to his bathroom in a slow shuffle. I hated seeing him this disheveled. I needed him as sheveled as possible.

While he showered, I fought the urge to pace nervously by busying myself cleaning up his apartment a little. I was glad I had my gloves on, not to keep my powers from triggering but to keep whatever new life-forms that were growing in here from harming me. Most of the pizza boxes had odds and ends of pizza left in them, some of which I dubbed former pizza, as it seemed to have developed into a new phase of life. The contents of just that filled two giant trash bags and I left them tied off by Connor’s front door, next to one singular floor-to-ceiling tower of now-empty pizza boxes. After a nose-centric hunt around the theater area, I discovered several bowls of milk that looked well on their way to being cottage cheese and brought them into his kitchen. I gave them a quick rinse as I breathed through my sleeve in an attempt not to gag, and then loaded them into the dishwasher.

I was throwing two of his windows open to air the place out when he came back down his hall. I turned to him. Connor looked much better than he had. For one thing, his sandy blond hair was neat, his beard gone, and he was dressed.

“You look almost human,” I said, “and you shaved.”

Connor rubbed his chin again. “Feels weird now,” he said, “but I have to say, I feel strangely liberated.”

“You look good. With your face shaved and no more blood in your hair, there’s only the slight swelling around the eyes that make you look a little Stay Puft.”

Connor spied his trench coat where I had hung it neatly over the back of one of the chairs. His eyes looked up from it and took in the rest of the room. He whistled.

“Jesus, kid. I feel like I should tip you or something.”

“Yeah, well, I left my biohazard suit at home or I would have done more,” I said, motioning toward the front door. Connor headed for it, much more prepared for the outside world than before. “You want to give me a real tip? Help me figure out what happened to Jane.”

Connor nodded. “I’ve got a few things I’d like to figure out as well.”