Dead of Winter

Chapter 16

Carmichael watched Ebony drive away down the lane. He watched the red dot of her car follow the undulations of the land until it disappeared from sight. Then he took out his phone and looked at the screen as he waited for it to respond.

Ebony pulled over to reset her sat nav to get back to the station. As she did so her phone lit up in her bag. Carmichael looked at his screen. It was asking him for an instruction. Did he want to test the program? Yes he did. Did he want to turn on the microphone? Yes he did. He put the phone to his ear and listened. He heard Ebony talk to herself as she read out the instructions for getting to the airport and keyed them into the sat nav.

Carmichael pressed ‘finish’ on the screen and he turned away from watching the lane. He took a deep breath of the cold fresh air and briefly closed his eyes to the low winter sun. Then he headed up over the gate to the paddock and walked up towards the top of the hill, from where he could see for miles. Rosie followed him up there. He sat on the trunk of a fallen tree that he planned to clear away in the spring and Rosie jumped up beside him. This was his favourite place on the farm. From here he could see across the magnificent Dales. Here he could lift his face to the sky and know that there was nothing between him and the clouds above. On the starry summer nights, when the heat and the memories would not let him sleep, he’d sat out there alone on his hilltop many times. Thirteen summers, thirteen springs, and now, on this winter’s day, he knew what it had all been for. He knew where he belonged. He said farewell to his farm.

He walked back inside his house, through to the sitting room and his gun cupboard. He took out his Steyr Scout rifle, laid everything on the kitchen table and took out his cleaning kit. Spreading the lubricating oil on a cloth, he worked it into the metal. He cleaned the barrel with rod and cloth. Afterwards he went upstairs to his bedroom and pulled down the gun bag from the top of his wardrobe. Inside it was a fleecy moisture-proof lining. He brought it back down to the kitchen and packed the rifle inside along with his hunting knife and some basic medical supplies. When he’d finished he went into the sitting room and sat at his writing desk, took out the key from its hiding place in the false bottom on the tankard and unlocked the drawer. Inside was a journal: a woman’s diary. ‘Louise Carmichael’ was written on the front. He didn’t open it. He knew what was written in it. He kept is as a reminder that he had betrayed her. It was still splattered with her blood.