Death in Summer

9

Four days go by, during which Maidment is unaware that his eavesdropper’s role is shared. Nor does Zenobia know that she is regularly observed lingering in the sunshine after gathering herbs. Thaddeus is ignorant of a passion that will not be stilled. Mrs. Iveson knows nothing of her detestation. Her death in midday sunshine, her death in the dark of night, coming to her in sleep, her death most suddenly in the hall, on the landing, on the stairs, catching her naked in her bath, touching a half-spoken word, arresting the movement of an arm: she does not know this has been real, before it shrivelled away to nothing. She does not know a greater reality remains, a single chance that gathers strength with time.

Over lunch on the fifth of the days that pass — consomme, oatcakes, cheese, coffee — the conversation in the dining-room, usually conducted along similar meal-time lines, includes a variation.

‘I’m glad I came,’ Mrs. Iveson confesses, seeking to convey more than the words imply, yet not too much.

‘And I am that you did.’

‘Are you, Thaddeus?’

He smiles and reassures her. Listening, she wonders if her daughter knew him better than she does now. Or was there always, for Letitia too, a reticence that is the shell of his protection? Mystery in a person is attractive: more often than not it is its presence that inspires the helpless, tumbling descent into love. When Thaddeus was a stranger to her, as he was before this summer, it was always incomprehensible that Letitia appeared to sense something of the mysterious in him: it is less so now. Mrs. Iveson cannot tell her son-in-law that she likes him better, although he knows, of course, that once she did not like him at all. To say what she has said already is as far as she can go today, and probably ever.

‘We haven’t quarrelled.’ Thaddeus smiles away the word that doesn’t belong, for it is ludicrous that they should quarrel, neither by nature being the kind to. He wonders if she knows that, for his part, he nurtures no animosity towards her and never has, although aware of her misgivings as regards himself. ‘I doubt we ever shall,’ he adds, preferring to say that than to touch upon his feelings.

‘When I first suggested a nanny for Georgina, and later when I suggested our present arrangement, I felt you could not at all have managed. Perhaps, though, you could have.’

‘It’s better for Georgina to have someone as a mother.’

‘If it’s a strain, you must say.’

‘And of course so must you.’

‘All this is much more than something for me to do. It is everything, but that should not come into it.’

‘It does come into it, because you are who you are, because Georgina is your child too.’

They hover, like uncertain birds. They skirt emotion, steer clear of words that might drag it out of hiding. Thaddeus’s hands are occupied, slicing cheese, his concentration guiding the slow movement of the knife. Her eyes unwavering, fixed now on the sliver cut from the Etorki, Mrs. Iveson does not speak. Then, suddenly, she says:

‘You made Letitia happy.’

‘Don’t people in marriages try for that?’

‘People in marriages are often wretched.’

Cautious again, they do not say more. On the table in the hall the telephone rings and Maidment, passing with the coffee, settles the tray on the table’s edge, one hand still holding it. As he lifts the receiver he wonders if- as several times recently and still a puzzle — there will be no response when he speaks. But a woman’s voice says at once:

‘Mr. Davenant?’

When Thaddeus comes the same voice tells him that Mrs. Dorothy Ferry has asked if he might be contacted and informed of her admission.

‘Admission?’

The name of a hospital is given. ‘Mrs. Ferry’s comfortable, Mr. Davenant, but there is cause for some concern. I rang at once.’

‘That was very good of you. Thank you.’

‘I’ll give you our address, sir.’

‘Yes. Please do.’

He listens and is told, informed that in the circumstances he may come at any time. Directions are given, should he care to do so. ‘This afternoon would not be inconvenient for us, Mr. Davenant.’

‘There is some urgency?’

‘We would not advise delay, sir.’

In the dining-room, when the conversation as it was is not resumed, Thaddeus says he’ll be out for a bit, explaining that someone has been taken into hospital, not giving details.

‘I’m sorry.’

‘Yes, so am I.’ And he wonders as he speaks if once he would have so promptly agreed to make this journey. Reflecting further, he knows he would not; and knows that making it now is another response to the influence of death and the sentiment it trails.

Twenty minutes later, hanging clothes on the line in the yard, Zenobia sees the blue Saab backed out of the garage. Through glass and vine leaves, drawing on his after-lunch cigarette behind the conservatory, Maidment observes it halt for a moment on the tarmac sweep, the passenger door pushed open. On her way from the dining-room, Mrs. Iveson hears Rosie called.

The hum of the engine fades and then can not be heard. Pettie listens for the sound of the car returning — something forgotten or some sudden change of plan. But nothing disturbs this dead time of the afternoon.

‘My dear!’ Mrs. Ferry greets her visitor from bright white pillows, her effort at jauntiness collapsing before it has a chance. ‘My dear, I didn’t think you’d come.’

Her voice is weak, a croak that is a whisper also. She tries to smile. She pushes out a hand.

‘It’s homey here,’ she says. ‘A little place is.’

‘Yes, I noticed.’

‘Can’t stand the big ones.’

‘I’m sorry you’re not well, Dot.’

‘Dear, I haven’t been, you know.’

‘You said.’

‘You didn’t go along with it.’

‘Of course I did.’

‘I couldn’t blame you, dear.’

Again there is the effort at a smile, but something collapses in Mrs. Ferry’s face and from beneath closed eyelids tears run on cheeks that are innocent of make-up, the first time Thaddeus has ever seen them so.

‘You rest now, Dot. Don’t try to talk.’

‘A pity we didn’t tie our loose ends together. A pity we didn’t get round to it.’

Her voice fades, is hardly audible when it returns, solitary words rising out of a jumble to hang there meaninglessly, the names of men, items on the menu at the Beech Trees, childhood words. In the small hospital they have given her a room to herself, to which a nurse now brings two cups of tea. She takes one away, realizing at once that her patient cannot manage it. When Thaddeus has drunk some of his he says:

‘I think you’d like to have a sleep.’

‘You pour us a drink, dear? He has to see the tax man. He won’t be back.’

Children are playing somewhere, a distant sound, muffled by double-glazing.

‘Come back to bed, Thad.’

A sister bustles in, brisk and jolly, her manner filling the little room. She takes Mrs. Ferry’s pulse. ‘Lovely,’ she says, then motions Thaddeus to the door. ‘Your mother’s quite poorly,’ she says more quietly.

‘Actually she’s not my mother.’

‘Oh, I thought they said — a friend, are you?’

‘Yes.’

‘She’s not too bright. There’s been sedation, of course.’

‘I understand.’

‘She’ll know more about herself when she’s had a sleep. She lives on her own, we’re to understand?’

‘Yes, she’s on her own.’

‘You can always tell. I’m sorry about that little error.’

‘I’ll go in a moment.’

The sister nods and goes herself. Mrs. Ferry’s murmuring continues when Thaddeus returns to her bedside. It ceases when she opens her eyes. Slowly a smile begins, then wearily languishes.

‘Your wife,’ she says. ‘I often think about that kindness.’

‘I’m a widower, Dot. I wanted to tell you that.’

‘A what?’

‘A widower.’

‘Never, dear. He married a Lytham lady. Still clonking along, the pair of them.’

‘No, Dot, it’s -’

‘June eighty-eight, the registry in Lytham. Funny, how some people make a go of it.’

She closes her eyes, then with an effort opens them again.

‘The pancreas. They say — it’s not so good.’

‘It’ll be all right, Dot.’

‘You’ll take me to your lovely home, will you? Will you, Thad? I always wanted that.’

‘Of course.’

‘Butter side up, Thad. I always knew you’d settle butter side up. I used to say to Oscar, I said to Chef. “Good-looking boy,” Chef said. Well, you know what Chef got up to.’

Thaddeus doesn’t, but nods all the same.

‘It’s final, you know,’ Mrs. Ferry murmurs. ‘You know that, Thad? This lovely summer and it’s final.’

‘Of course it isn’t.’

‘I liked it best at Blackpool. I never thought I’d like a place like Blackpool, but I did. Time we were naughties there, you and I.’

He does not deny the claim, only wondering if for the moment he is someone else for her, or if the confusion’s in her memory.

‘I wanted you, Thad. Oh, my dear, I wanted you so.’

‘You had me.’

‘Not ever. A boy you were. To this day, Thad. Pour us a drink, dear.’

‘In a moment. Just rest a while.’

‘You think he knows? You think they told him? The day he married me he said he was the luckiest man on earth and all I did was lead him a dance. You tell him that from me? You tell him I’m sorry, Thad?’

‘Of course.’

‘Like yesterday, Blackpool seems. But then again it isn’t, is it?’

‘Not quite.’

‘Well, there you go, as they say.’

‘You rest now, Dot.’

‘Your lovely house, your lovely wife. I’m happy for you, Thad.’

Her head drops back, a dribble runs from one corner of her mouth. Alarmed, Thaddeus presses the bell that hangs near the pillow.

‘She’s sleeping now,’ the nurse who comes says.

Rosie noses about the hospital car park. Leaning against the side of the car, he lets her for a while. Butter side up, and of course that’s true. Why could he never have been less elusive, less private with a woman who so longed for him to be forthcoming? As she lay there now he could not even say that his garden is suffering from the drought, nor that his mother-in-law has come to his house, that he and she — old enemies — are determined to create a family of a kind and that, for both of them, there is the beginning of recovery after the shock of death. He is ashamed he could confess today to being a widower when he could not before.

The guilt that shadows a relationship accompanies him on the drive home, still hanging about his thoughts when he leaves the traffic behind. Not far from Quincunx a rabbit scuttles from one thorn hedge to the other and he slows down to avoid it, even though rabbits are a nuisance in the garden.