© 1998 by Janice Law
Janice Law is the author of nine mystery novels, most involving her series character Anna Peters, one of the earliest of modem women detectives. The first Peters novel received an Edgar Award nomination in 1996 — in 1997, reviewing her novel Cross-check, Booklist said, “Peters remains one of the most fully drawn female leads in crime fiction.” This new story is not a series work, but the characters here too are fully drawn.
Nothing would have been managed without the road, but fortune favors the prepared, as well as the brave, and I’d been preparing for years. Ever since the afternoon Eva “disappeared,” I’ve lived for two things, work and revenge.
I’m an archaeologist, not a famous one, but I think I can say I’m well respected. Solid and tenured, with the requisite two books under my belt, I’ve reached a pleasant academic plateau. My specialty is the burial customs in the Late Riverine Archaic, and while the eastern woodland tribes are not really a glamour area in Native American studies, I have found my researches deeply satisfying — and useful, too, as you will see.
“Useful” is, perhaps, the proper word for me. I’ve been a useful teacher, a useful researcher; Jane, my wife, might say I was a useful husband, but a life of pure utility robs the soul. That was where Eva came in; Eva was social danger, emotional extravagance, pure poetry. I adored her from our first meeting, when I walked into the Feingolds’ living room prepared for the usual round of academic gossip and one-upmanship, and saw her sitting by the fireplace. She was fair and plump, a woman bewitching in that peachy mode the old Flemish painters loved so much. When she saw us approaching, she smiled a big, open-mouthed smile and devoured my heart.
“Come meet Eva, Eva and Andrew Donaldson,” said Chloe Feingold, who knows everyone’s rank, tenure status, dissertation subject, and grant prospects. “Andrew’s just gotten the Renaissance appointment in the English department.” She beamed with unfeigned delight at a thin, focused-looking chap with lank brown hair and wind-burned skin, a poor specimen next to his blooming wife. “And,” Chloe added, as if announcing a special treat for us, “he’s a Renaissance man himself, running a marathon next week.”
Fool, I thought, as I shook his hand, what are marathons, what is the Renaissance, that you should neglect this treasure? But he did neglect Eva, though they were just moving in, though the old Burdine farmhouse was a wreck, though the lawn was too long for their little suburban mower. Fortune, as I said, favors the prepared. I brought over our riding mower — my wife, Jane, insisted — and while I circled the yard, leaving swaths of hay on the lawn, Eva raked up the cuttings and smiled as I went past. I was as happy that afternoon as if I had been orbiting the outskirts of paradise.
Five years. If you know the nosey, gossipy ways of academe, you won’t believe me, but Eva and I had five good years. I even came to love the marathon, particularly the requisite training runs, which provided us with hours of happiness. I remember those afternoons in the pasture back of the old farm: summer heat, wild berries, the Glassian repetition of locusts and cicadas, my darling’s faintly downy cheeks, the dimples on her knees, a certain blessed avidity. Then fall, the smell of wild grapes and leaf mulch; and spring, spring! after the logistical difficulties of the winter, spring with woodcocks mating, thrushes singing, skunk cabbage and marsh marigolds bursting from the swamp. Each spring, I understood why captives of the old Iroquois and Algonquins were reluctant to return to the stiff Colonial world of floors and chairs, of stays and ruffs and high leather boots.
I would push off in my canoe, paddle along the rim of the large pond, thread my way through the marsh on the little streamlets I came to know so well, and land at the foot of the old Burdine, now the Donaldsons’, pasture. Simplicity itself, when you think about it. I always had excuses: prospecting for fish weirs, looking for campsites, immersing myself in the habitat of the archaic woodsmen. Believe me, I understood them much better after I went hunting for joy in my own canoe, stealing along the pale of settlement to pounce on my own fair darling Eva.
If my wife Jane knew, she was indifferent; wisely so, I think. We had two children, both in college at the time, and our marriage, if no longer inspiring, has its own fidelities and foundations. We understand each other; that’s an important point, and Jane has her own interests, the writing of romance novels chief among them. I’m told that her last three are quite the best she’s ever done. I’ve wondered if suspicions of my affair inspired her, but Jane keeps her own counsel.
Andrew was a different sort, possessive but neglectful, the very worst matrimonial combination, and he cast the tolerant, sophisticated spirit of my wife in a very handsome light. Andrew didn’t deserve Eva. While he thought his wife was faithful, he ignored her; as soon as he suspected she had a lover, he transferred some of his compulsions from distance running and obscure textualities to interfering with the happiness of others.
I’d have enjoyed having it out with him; physical violence, scandal, statements libelous and actionable sometimes have a deep visceral appeal. But, besides the fact that I had fifteen years on him — fifteen years at least! — there was my family to think about, and, as a very ancient anthropologist once said, the price of a good, or at least a tolerable wife is beyond rubies. So Eva and I were careful. It is my nature to be cautious, to prepare my ground — you’ll see proof of that — but Eva revealed a sly discretion that, considering her spontaneous and uninhibited appetites, was as surprising as it was delightful. For a couple of years, Andrew quite unfairly suspected Gerry DeSentis, a rising young theorist in the English department, and contrived, I’m told, to keep him from tenure.
In certain moods it almost annoys me that I was never a suspect. “Old Bones and Feathers,” with his gimpy knee and gray hair, wasn’t thought to be up to such pranks, but maybe that was just the chauvinism of literary people. I did worry a little when The Last of the Mohicans became such a hit; that amazing poster of Daniel Day Lewis rushing bare-chested through the forest — didn’t that hint at the delights of a wilder, more mysterious, now vanished life? And who should know about such things if not I, with my head full of rituals and artifacts, of customs and myths, gliding toward my beloved over the black water of the swamp?
Oh yes, we were happy, very, very happy, until one fatal afternoon in mid April. We’d had a long, wet winter, one of those inconclusive and unsatisfactory seasons too mild for skiing, too wet for walks. Her children were quite small then, and arrangements were difficult. Her husband’s graduate students, if good babysitters, were eagle-eyed and loose-tongued, so Eva and I fell back on the Westbrook Mall, where the huge parking lots and food courts allow an anonymous rendezvous. We planned to meet that day in the south lot and take my van for a quick run to the state forest, a mixed deciduous woodland almost deserted in the dreary weather. We would have returned to the mall later, to meet, as if by chance, in the food court, where we could talk back and forth between the little tables like casual acquaintances.
This was a scenario we’d used before with complete success, for neither of us liked to lie. “Where did you go today?” Jane might ask. “I bought some socks at Penney’s,” I’d say honestly, or, “Stopped by the bookstore in the mall. Not a damn thing there but bestsellers and weight-loss books.” And if she mentioned that Chloe Feingold or Pat Meyer had seen me at the mall, I’d say, “Half the university was out today; I ran into Eva Donaldson in the food court.”
When Eva did not show up that afternoon, I was disappointed but not worried. She had, on occasion, to cancel at the last moment: the failure of a sitter, the illness of a child, the odd sprain or strain that brought Andrew home prematurely from his interminable training. If anything, this occasional disappointment and uncertainty added a piquant note to our relationship. I’m a great believer in regularity in marriage, but in affairs of the heart a certain suspense, a certain irregularity in what is, after all, an irregularity itself, opens the way for serendipity.
I hung around the magazine racks for a while, then went home with a handful of novels for Jane. I had supper, read two chapters of the dissertation I was supervising, and went to bed. I had no idea that my life had been drastically altered until the next evening when Gus Phillips called with the news that Eva Donaldson, my Eva! was missing. I only understood snatches of what he was saying, “car abandoned at the mall,” “sitter worried,” “Andrew frantic,” “police.”
“Police,” I said, uncomprehending. It’s odd how, at certain moments, you’re unable to fit together the pieces of the universe.
“Of course, he called the police,” said Gus, the half-horrified, halfdelighted bearer of news. “She’s been gone over twenty-four hours. Everyone’s alarmed.”
Only when I got the whole story again from Chloe Feingold, whose narration had an amplitude missing from Gus’s account, did I start to believe that Eva’s old Volvo had been found abandoned in the north mall parking lot. “Next to Filene’s,” said Chloe. “They’re having their big white sale at the moment.”
I believe she told me some details of the sale, but I had only one idea in mind: that Eva had been harmed. “At the mall,” I said. “The north lot.”
Chloe confirmed this, and with every word my heart sank. We never parked in the north lot, because it was near the academic’s consumer triangle of Computer City, the whole-foods shop, and the bookstore. We favored the south lot near Home Depot and Sears.
After I had hung up the phone and poured a gin and tonic with very little tonic, I thought about what I’d just been told. I was sure that Eva would not have parked her car in the north lot, and, with a heavy sense of fatality, I wondered if she had driven her car there at all. The mall was barely five miles from her house. Five miles. What’s five miles for a marathon runner? And just as if I were an old shaman dancing before the fire in the long house with my drum and rattles and wolf jaw, I saw Andrew getting out of the Volvo and locking it and slipping down the row of cars; out to the highway verge, over the fence to the bike path, then galloping for home with his elbows flying and his skinny, muscular legs pounding out the yardage. Five miles was nothing: I was sure he’d done it.
And where was Eva? The next afternoon I got in my canoe, not really believing in her disappearance. I thought I could glide across the pond, slip up the little branch of the river, and see her waving to me from the pasture. Instead, the field was empty, and I saw something else that had not registered before, the new meadow along the dirt road.
Eva had told me about their plans. A narrow, bumpy track ran beside their yard from the state road back into the Websters’ property, which includes part of the swamp and a good spread of grazing land between the Donaldsons’ property and ours. The plan was to have the strip of scrub, weeds, and hay along this old road plowed up and re-seeded with wildflowers. “Easier than a regular flower garden,” Eva had said, “and wonderful for butterflies.”
Kneeling in my canoe, I could hear her saying, “wonderful for butterflies,” and, with that memory of her sunny, open face, of her delight, I burst into tears. I knew she was dead. The place of our happiness was suddenly unbearable, and I was about to paddle away into the swamp when I looked at the bare plot of earth. It had been harrowed since I visited last, harrowed and, no doubt, seeded with the daisies and coreopsis, goldenrods and black-eyed Susans, wild geranium, Indian Paintbrush, blue-eyed grass, and clovers that have been blooming so successfully these last few years. I looked at the newly harrowed field, and I’d have bet my life that my darling Eva was lying hidden under those neat rows.
There followed the most excruciating period of my life. I was caught by the discretion which had deprived Andrew of any obvious motive. Oh, the police looked at him all right; it tells you something about marriage that the husband is always a prime suspect, but he seemed grief-stricken and, more important, he had an alibi: that same damn field. Old Webster, who’s been senile as long as I’ve known him, swore up and down that Andrew was working on the wildflower meadow the whole afternoon. He heard the tractor. The whole afternoon.
That left the morning. The children were in nursery school in the morning, but they had a sitter for the afternoon because Eva was going to the mall and Andrew planned to do the meadow. He claimed she left just before the sitter arrived, but there was no proof of that. He could have killed Eva, buried her, driven the Volvo to the mall, run back, hopped on his tractor, and harrowed the plowed field and the new grave into oblivion. That’s what I thought he’d done; I was sure of it.
I think the police may have had thoughts along those lines, too.
Andrew was at the state police station three, four, five times. But nothing came of it. There was no evidence, no motive. By the time they searched the house there wasn’t a clue. He’d had a couple more floors refinished by then — they’d been doing the rooms a few at a time to spare the children the fumes, and the little wildflower meadow was a foot tall and growing lush. Chloe Feingold told me that Andrew showed the troopers around with tears in his eyes. When nothing turned up, he posted a $10,000 reward for information about his wife’s disappearance, which suggested that his last book, a reader for undergraduates, was doing better than any of us had expected.
Still, he was a suspect, really the only one. The problem was that the police couldn’t give him a motive. I was the only person who could provide that — unless Jane had seen more than I’d thought — and I was in a bind. To get at Andrew, I’d have to ruin my marriage and my comfortable relationships with our children — and Eva would still be gone forever.
Perhaps you’ll decide I wasn’t worthy of Eva either, and that cowardice kept me silent. Cowardice and convenience. Perhaps I did have a time of cowardice and confusion, but this is to record the fact that ultimately I stirred myself to be worthy of my love and seek revenge.
Just how I was to achieve that satisfaction was not so easily determined. I can’t tell you how many spring and summer days I paddled over to the edge of the pasture and tortured myself with memories. I stared at the meadow, flourishing undisturbed, but its soft green and yellow tints gave me no inspiration, no solutions.
I watched Andrew, too. I studied him in the faculty senate, followed his moves at parties, lurked in the swamp while he was mowing the pastures. I took to calling him up, standing nervous at pay phones in the mall, listening to the ring, ring down the line. Sometimes I thought his voice sounded anxious and sometimes tired. Once or twice, late at night, he got angry. I listened without saying anything, waiting, always waiting for the admission, the confession — as if, after all his cares and plans, he was likely to blurt out the truth to a mysterious and silent caller. You will appreciate that I was not myself then.
I actually stooped to a poison-pen letter. I’m not proud of that. My only excuse was my desperation: I felt I had to frighten Andrew out of his complacency. I was at the computer lab one night, the big one, not the little departmental lab, and before I knew what I was doing, I’d typed, “You killed her,” and printed it out.
I put the message in an envelope and mailed it, then spent the next few days half sick with hope and anxiety. Nothing happened, except that Chloe Feingold told me Andrew was taking everything very hard and invited Jane and me around to have dinner with him. As a result of that excruciating evening, I began to think about my own specialty and how my knowledge might be put to use.
My first attempts were abortive. I made an intensive study of eastern woodland bows and learned to shoot one. I spent some enlightening afternoons with an elderly member of the Narragansetts, and I got so that I could flake a point pretty well. I did not get to where I could see myself skewering Andrew with a brilliant shot to the heart.
I considered Native American botanicals next and worked more hours than I care to remember in the pharmacy lab and in the crumbling shed where Mrs. Margaret Laughing Bear stores dried plants and her musty-smelling packets of traditional medicines. I published a couple of papers that were well received, but Mrs. Laughing Bear was dexterous in fending off all inquiries about poisons. Besides, as I began to get ahold of myself, I could see the difficulties of slipping tincture of nightshade into Andrew’s cocktail or of feeding him a Death Angel mushroom.
I do think that these fantasies, and others even more embarrassing and puerile, kept me sane. They gave me hope; they kept me from doing something obvious, unforgivable, irretrievable. And then came the road and, all of a sudden, everything fell into place. All my futile efforts, my midnight walks, my sad canoe trips, even those cruel phone calls, had been so much priming of the pump. When the road came, I recognized my chance. All that remained was to proceed in a timely and orderly fashion.
What had happened was that Eh Webster, the senile fool who had given Andrew his alibi in the first place, finally went into a home. The grandchildren wasted no time subdividing the old farm and contracting with a particularly fast and profit-hungry developer to transform sixty prime acres into something to be called Webster Estates, with a projected forty houses. Few of us in town were pleased about that and a good old-fashioned zoning and development fight ensued.
I pitched in to testify about the archaeological value of the fish weirs and the campsite on the property, and I helped Sue LeBonte assemble some of the environmental data on the impact such a big project would have on the watershed. The neighbors were pretty much all against the development, but I found it significant that Andrew didn’t get really involved until the business of the road came up.
Access for the new Webster Estates was going to have to be that dirt road along the Donaldsons’ little wildflower meadow. Nothing could be done, no construction, certainly no heavy truck traffic, until that lane was widened and upgraded. At this point, Andrew went ballistic. I felt I had him for sure.
Like so many other things in small towns, the Webster Estates finally came to a compromise: bigger lots, fewer houses, an environmental tract set aside. We were to have ten houses, which was more than enough, and over Andrew Donaldson’s strenuous objections, the town agreed to widening and paving the road. I was at the council meeting the night the agreement passed, and I went right from there to the university. My book bag was in the car. I took out my texts and my grade book, locked them in the trunk, and went into the building with my empty knapsack.
This was not unusual behavior. I’m nocturnal by choice; I often work late and I make midnight rambles to the museum for books or records or to check some item in the archives. I remember stopping that night at the museum and looking in at my favorite exhibit: the bark house my students built several years ago as part of our Eastern Woodlands display. In the light from the hall, the support pillars cast long treelike shadows over the little bark house, a miniature of the noble halls of the Iroquois.
I had an impulse to go inside, and I did, crouching for a few moments in the cramped space that smells of cedar and bark, mingled with the institutional odors of floor polish and air conditioning. I knew from Mrs. Laughing Bear’s shed that it should also smell like dried plants and dirt floors and the residue of fires and cooking fat. I’m not sure what I’d have told the custodian if he’d come by. Certainly not the truth, which was that I was paying homage to people who understood blood vengeance and who were about to help me get it.
After a few moments in the half-darkness, I crawled out and relocked the door before descending to Archives and Research, a pleasantly old-fashioned room. Below the horizontal windows set high in the walls are banks of good mahogany cabinets where we store our specimens. Most of the collection is pottery shards, but we also have a lot of arrow and spear points, some clothing, a couple of pieces of first-rate embroidery and beadwork, and some bones.
In the last couple of years, we’ve returned a number of complete skeletons to the Mohican and Pequot tribal authorities, and we’re negotiating with the Pequots over some other artifacts. They’re building a collection, and I’ve been trying to interest them in some scholarly activities. I see an endowed chair eventually, perhaps other ventures; with their casino revenue, they’ve certainly got the money.
By rights, some of the skulls in case #14 should be returned as well. They came from federal land and fall under NAGPRA (the Native American Graves Protection and Repatriation Act), but that’s a future project. My own favorite, #2456, is from my personal collection and belonged to a woman of the Adena, the mound-building people of the central Ohio Valley. I’ve had her carbon dated. She lived around 1000 B.C., and I’ve had her skull ever since I stole it from the excavation I was working on the year I received my doctorate.
There’s a certain symmetry, isn’t there, to my only two cases of professional malfeasance? Beauty must be my excuse: #2456 was a lovely skull, darkened to an elegant biscuit color by the soil where it had lain for so many centuries. As I examined it that night in the strong halogen lamp over the case, I saw that her head would have been round, her face broad, perhaps plump like Eva’s. I hoped her short life had been happy, as I believe Eva’s was. The eye sockets were large; #2456’s eyes would probably have been black or very dark brown, instead of Eva’s gray-blue, and her hair would have been dark. I think that she was a pretty woman.
Fortuitously, I had put a paper label on her skull instead of numbering the surface of the bone, and, after making sure that there were no extraneous marks, I peeled the tag off and cleaned the little sticky patch that remained with alcohol. Then I wrapped #2456 in a piece of old newspaper and put it in my knapsack.
I had only to wait until the road crew arrived, a matter of considerable vigilance. I went the long way to the university every day in order to be sure the town hadn’t yet begun work, and every afternoon in decent weather, I was in the swamp, listening for the sound of graders and bulldozers — or for the softer, fainter sound of a man digging through tough meadow grass.
At last the contract went out, and one May morning just as we were finishing exams, I found the road crew had arrived. That evening, as late as I dared make it, I told Jane I was going to take a paddle around the swamp.
“Perhaps I’ll go with you one night,” she said. “It’s been lovely weather.”
I had the horrible feeling that she was going to suggest coming with me right then. “Mosquitoes,” I said, ashamed of the reluctance in my voice and aware that I was neglecting Jane. “Let me buy some more spray. I’ll get that tomorrow. And a paddle. You’ll want a paddle, too.”
“It’s not worth the fuss,” said Jane.
“Tomorrow,” I said, kissing her cheek. “And I’ll do all the paddling.”
She laughed and, now reprieved, I made a joke of near disaster. I transferred my knapsack from the car to the canoe and put on my moccasins for luck. I’d been extraordinarily tempted by a pair of embroidered moosehide slippers that night in the museum archives and had needed all my will power and professional pride to leave them in their protective packet.
By the time I got to the Donaldsons’, the light was fading. I tied the canoe to some scrub and walked quietly toward the meadow with my knapsack slung over my shoulder. I can’t describe to you my state of alertness that night. I seemed to hear every insect, every bird, the breaking of every twig, the bending of every blade of grass. Up at the top of the hill, the Donaldsons’ house was lit up against the lacy darkness of the partially leafed-out trees and the radiant pink and lavender sky. It’s really a very nice location, but after Eva’s death, Andrew had not kept the place up as well. The gaps between the trees along the road were gradually being filled in with a hedge of saplings, shrubs, and vines. I was screened by this growth as I approached the work site where the lane was scraped down a good foot or more and piles of earth were heaped along the sides. They had roughly doubled the track, ripping out some of the young trees and cutting several feet into the meadow. I had just about reached this open area when I heard footsteps.
I practically fell into the only shelter available, a little cluster of maple saplings, poison ivy, and bittersweet. A man was walking along the meadow on the other side of the scrub and I was sure it was Andrew. I lowered myself into the vines and grass and waited. He seemed to be checking the work that had been done, tapping the ground here and there with a shovel, but I didn’t dare raise my head for confirmation.
What if he saw me? What to say? Perhaps I should have been tempted by the museum’s polished Algonquin war club instead of those moccasins, but actual physical violence, however satisfactory in the abstract, was out of my plan, perhaps beyond my capacity. Instead, I crouched silently for interminable, mosquito-filled minutes until his footsteps faded.
Once he was gone, I moved quickly in the semidarkness. Weeks before, I had picked out a cluster of large trees. As I approached them, I selected the most substantial heap of bulldozed earth on the meadow side. Taking #2456 from my knapsack, I packed the cranium with soil, then gently fitted it into the raw earth. This delicate operation was probably hampered as much as helped by my professional expertise. It was ten minutes by my watch before I felt it looked right, the skull noticeable but half buried in the sand, clay, and rocks, and another five before I had erased the softly rounded prints of my moccasins.
When I got home, I offered to run to the convenience store for some of Jane’s favorite ice cream. The pint of pistachio was cold against my arm as I dialed Andrew’s number and listened to it ring. “Who is it?” he cried. For the first time, I responded. I laughed out loud and set down the receiver.
The discovery was in the local paper the next night. I’d half expected to be called at work. It wouldn’t have been the first time, for with the density of artifacts in our area, I’ve run programs for construction companies on the importance of reporting bones and relics. In turn, we try not to hold up work too long while we recover artifacts and map the site. However, the grader operator was a crime buff, not an archaeology buff. She saw the skull, remembered the Donaldson investigation, and called the police.
“It’s just a tragedy,” Chloe Feingold told me that evening. For once, I was hanging on her every word. “Of course, poor Andrew is nearly hysterical.” For some reason, he was always one of her favorites.
“Surely they don’t think he had anything to do with it!” I said.
“Well, of course not!” Chloe said. “But he hasn’t helped himself. He keeps saying, ‘It can’t be Eva,’ ‘It isn’t Eva,’ putting the idea in their heads, you know. But you can’t imagine his state of mind!”
Actually, I could.
“We’ve recommended our lawyer. You know Hugh Boyd, don’t you? He wants that skull examined right away.”
“Surely the coroner...” I began.
“Hugh says it looks old, and I’m just sure it is. Why Andrew had to mention Eva at all is totally beyond me,” Chloe said.
“She must always be in his mind,” I said.
“Of course,” Chloe said impatiently, “but it can’t be Eva, it just can’t be, and the sooner they get you to date the remains, the better. It’s important that we all rally behind Andrew.”
The dean said something similar to me when he learned that I’d been asked to examine the skull. That was after the police had dug around the road without success; after Andrew, behaving badly, had retreated into shock and mental anguish, and after Hugh Boyd had told all and sundry that his client was being subjected to duress. Though I let Andrew stew as long as possible, I eventually had to give my opinion.
We assembled in a small conference room in the county jail, Hugh Boyd, Andrew, me, and the investigating officers. As the seating worked out, Andrew and I were across from each other at the institutional gray metal conference table, an optimal arrangement. This was the sort of single combat I’d envisioned, and I was pleased to see that Andrew had lost his tanned aura of fitness. He looked like the gaunt acolyte of some obscure and fanatical religion, and though he greeted me warmly, I sensed that his nerve was failing. Mine, as you’ll see, was in perfect condition.
I laid the carefully repackaged skull on the table and opened my briefcase for my notes. I moved very slowly and deliberately; I had waited in secret for this moment for nearly three years. I think the secrecy is worth emphasizing, for how much of achievement is anticipation, and how much of anticipation is the pleasure of sharing our hopes with others?
Andrew winced at the sight of the skull, and I felt myself smile involuntarily before I cleared my throat and began reading. In essence, I said that the skull was very old and its presence, somewhat anomalous. I speculated briefly about trade routes and the diffusion of Archaic civilization. My lectures are considered first-rate and my introductory classes are always filled early.
“The key thing,” said Hugh Boyd, ignoring Eva’s disappearance, Andrew’s guilt, and my revenge, “is that, as we’ve maintained all along, the bones could not possibly be those of Eva Donaldson. That being the case, there is absolutely no reason to continue questioning my client.”
When the investigating officer had reservations about this, I raised my professional concerns: the possibility of more bones, even artifacts. I suggested a modest excavation trench. “If we concentrate on the meadow, we won’t need to hold up the road work at all,” I said.
“No,” said Andrew, very loudly and angrily.
I feigned the greatest surprise. “Surely, it would be the best possible thing for you, as well as for certain lucky selected graduate students.”
“No,” Andrew said. “I won’t have the meadow disturbed any further. It was Eva’s meadow; she wanted it in flowers.” For a moment, I thought he might attempt tears. “I don’t know why you even raised the subject. All you were asked to do was to estimate the age of the—” he flapped his hand toward the packet “—the remains.”
Hugh Boyd made soothing noises, but the lieutenant was clearly interested.
“Of course,” I said, “my apologies for even suggesting it, but I’m sure Eva would have wanted this cleared up.”
“How do you know what Eva would have wanted?” Andrew demanded. I think right then that he began belatedly to suspect me.
“I know the dean is concerned,” I continued, “and with your tenure reviews coming up...” I left this phrase dangling. “Suspicion,” I added, “suspicion can have such a negative effect. You can hardly imagine,” I told Boyd and the lieutenant.
“I think everyone will understand my situation has been perfectly terrible,” Andrew said. I’m sure I was not the only one to notice that with the notion of tenure, his emotions were suddenly completely convincing.
“The committee, the dean, everyone...”
I laughed, a miscalculation, but I couldn’t help it. There’s a kind of willful naivete I find irresistibly comic.
Andrew started as if he’d been struck. “This whole business was your doing!” he cried. He actually stood up at the table. He was right, of course, but I can’t say I rate him highly in quickness of perception.
“Control yourself, Andrew. I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
The words poured out. “That skull,” “your laugh,” “Eva!” But I’ll spare you the full and unabridged text. I remained calm, courteous; I really was extraordinarily calm and courteous that day. I ignored the personal aspersions and said, “There’s no reason for you to panic about the meadow, Andrew. For the price of a few aerial photographs we can set everyone’s mind at rest. I just thought the process of trial and error would be good for the students.”
Hugh Boyd began sputtering, but the lieutenant — I think that was his rank, trooper ranks are different from city police, you know — asked, “Aerial photography?”
“You hadn’t thought of that? Archaeological trade secret, I guess.” I was well into my explanation of how ruins, foundation trenches, and graves can be spotted from the air, when Andrew lunged across the table and — there’s no other appropriate word here — attacked me.
I still haven’t decided whether that was deliberate or not, I mean, a deliberate ploy to suggest unsoundness of mind or just a total failure of self-control. In any case, Andrew Donaldson was held for psychiatric assessment, and three days later I had the painful satisfaction of pointing out a small oblong, visible in a properly enhanced aerial photograph of the meadow. When excavated, this telltale depression proved to contain my Eva’s body.
After the trial, I asked for custody of the old skull, although this was a somewhat delicate matter, the state troopers having some suspicions about the source of the original find. Then one of my graduate students became intrigued with the resemblances to known Adena skulls; she wanted to examine both the site and the skull more thoroughly. It was with difficulty that I dissuaded her; in professional conscience, I could not let her build her thesis on a hoax. Finally, as expected, the Pequots got involved. I had some delicate negotiations with their heavyweight lawyer before they settled for three other bona fide eastern-woodlands relics from the historic period.
When interest dies down, I will quietly relabel #2456 and return her to my collection. Or perhaps I will take her home and rebury her somewhere in the Ohio valley. Perhaps I will do that; I think I will.
Her people believed in an afterlife and provisioned themselves well for it, tempting grave robbers and that better class of thief, the archaeologist. But after the great favor she’s done me, I don’t feel I can leave #2456 to dream away her eternity in my mahogany cabinet. She can even have some grave goods; I have extra specimens that will never be missed. And even if they were, I feel a sense of obligation, for I understand now that even the bones of one’s beloved are sacred. I understand that every time I slip into the old cemetery to lay some of Eva’s wild-flowers on her grave.