26 February 2005

Eddie never got a reply from Tracker Tore. He felt utterly overlooked. He was obviously not important enough, nor was his father, so he would have to do it himself.

One day, his mother asked him to give Shiba a bit of TLC. To cut her nails and put some cream on her paw pads. He sat on the kitchen floor with the dog between his legs — she didn’t have the energy to protest — and while he was doing this, he thought intensely about his dead father. When he was finished and the dog had lain down again, he went over to the computer because he was sure he could find the answer if he just kept looking. The National Registry, he thought all of a sudden, I can try there. Because his father would be registered and he had some years and dates now. But he soon discovered that the information he was looking for was subject to data protection, and when he tried the Danish National Registry, he got the same answer. He sat and thought for a while. Maybe his father was registered in the church records — a lot of people found their ancestors there — but that idea didn’t lead anywhere. Instead he clicked onto the population census website and felt a glimmer of optimism. It turned out you could search using several different criteria: first name, surname, sex, civil status, profession, date of birth, place of birth, and domicile. He filled out the search fields with his heart in his throat and then pressed go. To his great disappointment, there were no hits. He couldn’t understand it. His father had lived in this world, he was registered and he had worked, and everyone was tracing their ancestry these days. I’ve done something wrong, he thought, but what? He went to get a Cherry Coke from the fridge and wondered whether he could call the National Archives to ask for help. I demand to be heard, he thought. This is important.

Full of renewed determination, he got the telephone number from directory assistance and picked up the phone and dialed the six numbers. Only to be bitterly disappointed again. Died in 1992? Then the information is subject to data protection for the next sixty years.

Eddie was on the verge of giving up his important project. But an iron will burned inside him. It filled his body and made his head warm. He turned and studied his mother, who was pottering around in the living room with a duster. Maybe, just maybe, she hasn’t thrown away the letter from Inga in Copenhagen, he thought.

Later, when they sat down for supper, he helped himself to four meatballs and a big portion of his mother’s homemade peas.

“I have to talk to you about something important,” he said and looked at her across the table.

“Not so much salt, Eddie,” she chided. “It’s not good for you.”

“Something important,” he repeated. “Inga.”

His mother looked down. He saw her mouth tighten in that all too familiar way.

“Yes, what about Inga?”

“I need to know her surname.”

“I’ve told you, I’ve forgotten it,” she said impatiently. “And I don’t know why you’re so interested in her — she stole your father from you.”

“But she knows where Dad is buried. I’m sure you could remember if you just tried. Sometimes I think you’re hiding things from me on purpose.”

Mass pushed her plate aside and looked him in the eye in an attempt to be strict. But she feared it was a lost battle.

“Maybe I have good reason for that,” she said. “I have to look after you. And there are also some very good reasons why you’re still living at home. You need to be protected.”

He thought about this for a while. Then suddenly he was filled with rage at all the obstructions and he flared up. He hit the table with his fist, which made all the crockery jump.

“Her surname!” he shouted. “Now!”

Mass looked at him in dismay because the outburst had scared her. A kind of reality finally dawned on her: she didn’t have the right to stop him in his efforts.

“Nilsen,” she said quietly. “Inga Margrethe Nilsen.”

The air seemed to go out of Eddie, but the information brought color to his cheeks. He leaned forward and asked for the address.

“I threw away the envelope, I promise. And I shredded the letter and threw it on the fire. I had already lost him.”

Eddie was eager to continue his research. Inga Margrethe Nilsen in Copenhagen, he was sure he could find her. He shoveled down the rest of his food at great speed. Then he went over and picked up the phone and asked for international directory assistance.

His heart was hammering as he gave the name.

“How does she spell Nilsen?” the operator asked.

Eddie didn’t understand her question. Surely he didn’t need to spell Nilsen.

“In Denmark, they often write Nilsen with an extra ‘e,’ ” she explained.

That hadn’t occurred to Eddie. “Look for that one,” he instructed her. “You’re probably right.”

It only took her a few seconds, and then she told him that there was no Inga Margrethe Nielsen in Copenhagen. Eddie was holding the receiver so hard to his ear that it hurt. Was there no end to the obstructions to his search?

“She might have moved,” the woman suggested, wanting to be helpful. “I could do a search of the whole of Denmark. It’s such a small country.”

“Yes,” Eddie replied. “I need to find her. It’s very important.”

He drummed his fingers on the desk as the seconds dragged out. Where could Inga have gone?

The woman only found five hits in the whole of Denmark. In Silkeborg, Holstebro, Kolding, Aarhus, and Odense. Eddie wrote the numbers down; now all he had to do was try. One of these five women must have been married to his father, he was sure of it. Before he dialed the first number, he prepared what he was going to say. He wanted to introduce himself in a polite manner and explain why he was calling. But he didn’t get an answer in Silkeborg; he let it ring for what felt like an eternity but had to give up in the end and try the next number, in Holstebro. A child answered the phone there. Eddie had problems understanding his Danish, so spoke as clearly as he could and asked to speak to an adult. “Mom,” he heard and then some footsteps across the floor.

Finally the mother came to the phone, and Eddie said what he’d prepared. He asked if she had lived in Copenhagen and if she had even been married to Anders Kristoffer Malthe from Norway.

“No, I haven’t,” she said. “I think you’ve got the wrong number.”

He put down the phone without saying goodbye and immediately dialed the third number, in Kolding, but he got the same response. As he dialed the number of Inga Nielsen in Aarhus, he looked out of the window; the white light on the bare trees made him uneasy. When he mentioned his father’s name, there was silence at the other end. For some time.

“Yes,” she said. “That’s right. But he died in ’92.”

“I know,” Eddie said, his breathing shallow. “I am his son, Eddie Malthe.”

Another deadly silence. Eddie waited.

“He talked about you. Is there something you want to know?”

For a moment, Eddie considered sending praise to God, even though he wasn’t a believer. He turned in triumph to his mother, who was sitting on the sofa. She looked very pensive.

“Yes,” Eddie said eagerly. “I want to know the exact date that he died. And I want to know where he’s buried.”

He had paper and pen at the ready.

“He died on October first, 1992,” she told him. “He’s buried at Vor Frelsers Cemetery in Copenhagen. It’s in Amagerbrogade.”

Eddie nodded to himself. He recognized the name from the long list he had found on the Internet. Before ending the call, he exchanged a few words with Inga Margrethe, and any bitterness that he had felt toward her evaporated. She was nice. And his father had often talked about him, but the fact was that Thomasine had been difficult after the split, as she put it.

“Dad is buried in Amagerbrogade,” he said and turned to face his mother. “And I have a brother. His name is Mads and he’s studying in New York.”


Eddie started to search again. He immediately found Vor Frelsers Church, but to his surprise he discovered that the address for the church was different from that of the cemetery. The church was on Sankt Annæ Gade in Christianhavn. He called international directory assistance again and asked for the number, because now he had the full address. The operator told him that there were several numbers and asked which one he wanted.

“Who deals with the graves?” he asked.

“Presumably the sexton,” she replied. “It says here that his name is Povel Koch.”

Eddie said goodbye and then dialed the number right away, 004532546883. After four rings, he had the sexton on the line.

“I want to visit a grave,” Eddie explained. “In Vor Frelsers Cemetery. But I don’t know where it is, and I don’t want to just wander around the graveyard looking for it.”

“If you have the date of birth and date of death, then I can help you,” Povel Koch told him. “We’ve got an electronic map.”

Eddie almost wept with joy. He had a brother named Mads in New York and he would find his father’s grave. But he also had to face up to some painful truths. His father had left him and started another family, and all he had was the photograph of his father on his bedroom wall. He had practically no memories and absolutely no love in the years that followed. And Mass had been difficult. There was a lot to think about. Eventually he turned the computer off and sat down on the sofa; he had to order all the thoughts that were tumbling around in his head.

His mother had nothing to say. She got up and went to the bathroom, filled the bathtub, got undressed, and lowered her body into the warm water. She had always known that she wouldn’t get away with it, and now it was about to happen. Eddie had found the man who had betrayed them. She grabbed the sponge and started to wash her body. She noticed a large bruise on the inside of her thigh. She thought it odd because she couldn’t remember bumping into anything. When she put her thumb on it and pressed gently, there was no pain. Then she saw another one, farther down toward the knee. They were so dark they were almost black. But she quickly forgot them when her thoughts returned to her son.

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