I, Ripper

CHAPTER FORTY-SIX Jeb’s Memoir

“You are dead,” I gasped.

“It’ll take more than a locomotive to kill this old buzzard. I still have a cat’s reflexes. I went flat, and the beast lumbered over me. I crawled to safety.”

“Then, sir, you are Jack the Ripper.”

“I am no more Jack the Ripper than you are Queen Victoria. What madness has Dare infected you with, you bottlehead? Convince me you’re his dupe and not his partner, and maybe I won’t plug you before I plug him.” He rammed the hard barrel of the revolver deeper into my flesh.

My mind, as it so often does when confronted with naked aggression, simply collapsed into shards. I was worthless.

“Bunny brain! Cat ate your tongue, the whole thing? Now, you walk with me over to Russell Square all nice and happy-like, and we’ll sit under a tree and have a little chitchat. Move to get away, and I’ll finish you here.”

The gun — and the limp — disappeared under his cape; he straightened and pushed me gently across the street. I could see the vaulted arches of the elms ahead. We entered the park and found a quiet bench. The cheek on the fellow. He held me at gunpoint in the middle of the most civilized square in the world, and all about me, ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls of the British empire, wandered to and fro, oblivious to the mortal drama in which we were locked.

We arranged ourselves, though I could make out the shape of the big revolver under his topcoat, easily at hand. He could draw and shoot in a second.

“What is Dare to you?”

“We have been looking into the Ripper. Our investigations have indicated that he is you and that you are mad. You have Annie Chapman’s rings, I saw them in your hand in the opium parlor. You confessed to killing her. ‘The blood,’ you said, ‘her guts were pulled out.’ More, you share a spelling impediment with him in the form of the rogue vowel U you dropped into the Goulston graffito.”

“You are a buffoon,” he said, “a tweedy twit with aspirations of grandeur and the sense of a frog in a hot pan. The rings were brought to me by my betrothed, Emily Standwick, God bless her gentle soul, who was murdered and butchered by Sepoy on the road to Lucknow on the first night of the Great Mutiny of 1857, thirty-one years ago. I have carried them with me ever since, as I have carried the image of what was done to her. Yes, I smoke a pipe, because sometimes the memories are too savage and I long to end them with a large piece of lead from the revolver.”

“A convenient story.”

“Easily verified.”

“Dare is—”

“A madman.”

“Sir, he has a profound moral vision of the world, which he hides behind witty cynicism. But he believes in the possibility of world peace and the equal sharing of material goods. He believes that differences in language keep us apart.”

“I’ve read his book,” he said.

“He believes in universal language, universal culture, no national disciplines, no reason for war or poverty, no hate, no jealousy. It’s utopian, I admit, but it shows a profound moral sense.”

“Ask the girl chained in his cellar how profound his moral sense is.”

I let this ominous declaration hang in the air a bit. No need to prompt him. The pause was theatrical, and when, with his superb sense of timing, he’d milked all the drama out of it, he proceeded. “Allow me to tell you a thing or two about the moral Professor Dare. About five years ago he was done with the theorizing. He decided on an experiment. The idea was to take an unfortunate off the streets who swallowed her H’s, washed when she could, and perhaps even once in a while said yes to a thruppence offered by a fine English gentleman for a lean-to in a dark alley.”

I said nothing.

“So he finds a cockney waif. And he works on her. And I do mean works. It wasn’t easy. It wasn’t just a few voice lessons. He had to tear her down and build her up again new. It was a battle almost to the death: screams, threats, hysterics, sleepless nights, even those chains in that cellar.”

As he spoke, I could see it. Behind Dare’s languor and sarcasm, a crazed zealot could have existed. The sarcasm, the wit, the grace — maybe that was all camouflage for the elemental Thomas Dare.

“Where is this going?”

“After six months of grinding, he reintroduced her to H. ‘In Hertford, Hereford, and Hampshire, hurricanes hardly ever happen,’ over and over again, night after night, until the poor child was in hysterics. He brought her to the miracle of the vowel A. ‘The rain in Spain stays mainly in the plain.’ Over, over, over yet again. Mad to begin with, he made her half mad, the poor child, with no defenses, no place to run, no inner strength. And yes, he did it. I must say, near-on destroying her, he beat her until she spoke like a true lady of means. Not only that, cleaned up, put in fashionable gowns, she turned out to be, God in heaven, beautiful. He squired her about town for a bit, showing her off, showing off his triumph. Was he using her for immoral purposes? You’re a man. You tell me.”

I let this sit where it was. I had no comment. It disappointed me how right it felt, as ascribed to Thomas Dare.

“I hope you’re not waiting for the happy ending,” said the colonel.

“Please continue.”

“It seems another man was involved.”

“She met someone?”

“Someone was living with Dare. Nobody got a good look at him, but he was gone every day, then up every night late, writing in his attic room. Anyhow, it seems that even as Dare fell in love with his creation—”

“Pygmalion,” I said.

“This isn’t literature, you bloody fool. This is what’s real and dark in the world. This is what bites. The core of the situation is that Dare’s in love with this girl, but in the end the other man cannot stand what Dare’s doing to her. Maybe she reminded him of someone he knew and loved thirty-one years earlier. So one night, the other man gives her a pile of money and urges her to run away, to get away from Dare because she is too much Dare’s toy; he will crush her to nothingness. Dare wants a statue, not a wife. She knew that, she saw that in him. So just before Dare is about to announce his betrothal to Miss Elizabeth Little, she disappears.”

I tried to justify it. If true, it meant merely that Dare was a bastard, but he had tendencies toward being a bastard anyhow, as that is so often the penalty of greatness. “I’m trying to think how this fits in. It speaks to character, not action.”

“Character is action,” said the colonel.

It was here that it finally occurred to the idiot inside my head to ask about the mysterious “roommate” who seemed to be the servomechanism for all the turmoil.

“I say, even for having spent so much time reading, you are thick,” said the colonel. “I was the other fellow.”

I must have gulped or swallowed or blinked, for I could not have encountered this without an appalled reaction. The colonel, however, kept his disinterested duty face square to me, betraying nothing.

“If you”—I struggled—“if he, if…” and then I was out of ifs and left with only one. “If he knew you, the profile preceded the murders,” I blurted. “He knew it all, your skills, your career, your spelling deficiency, your strong vision, your courage. He knew of your rings, your memories of a young woman butchered. The murders were informed, shaped, sculpted to fit the profile. Then… who committed the murders?”

There could be but one answer.

CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN Jeb’s Memoir

Three days later, I invited Professor Dare to meet me at Dutfield’s Yard, the murder site of Elizabeth Stride. I chose four P.M. It was a brisk December afternoon, though I was impevious to a lot of treacly Christmas nonsense.

The professor seemed chipper enough. He was the jovial ghost of murders past, I supposed, and I made an effort to match his easy glee. He was in tweed, as usual, with a warm slouch hat of wool keeping his magnificent head of blond hair warm. He smoked a jaunty pipe, his cheeks were pink, and he radiated happiness and satisfaction. I don’t believe I’d ever seen him so at peace and content with the world.

“Yes, Jeb. Please tell me what you need. I am at your disposal.”

“Sir,” I said, feeling the chill as we stood next to the wooden slats of the door in the gate that led into the yard where poor Liz had been killed what seemed so long ago, “I was not here that night, so I need some guidance if I’m to put this one together in a story. It’s my weakest account.”

“Yes, yes,” he said. “But do recall, I have not been here, either. Perhaps the two of us can work it out.”

With that, we opened the gate and confronted Liz’s falling place, which was now bare and prosaic, a simple joinery of brick wall to the pavement of the yard. Looking inward, we saw not much space, hardly justifying the name “yard,” hardly bigger than Miller’s Court, just an opening between the crazed and unplanned construction that marked the East End where the bricklayers designed the city on the fly. We could see a couple of small shops and, deeper in, a stairway running to the balcony of a small cottage. Nothing at all remarkable.

“I make it here,” I said, pointing to the spot where it seemed certain Liz had been discovered, just beyond the rotational arc of the open right-hand door.

“So it is.”

“Jack has killed but not desecrated. He is caught by an interloper who has just opened the gate. He freezes. The driver of the cart, sensing his pony’s sudden reluctance, jumps off his wagon and strikes a match. He sees the body in the cone of light. He goes racing off to alert colleagues, and Jack slides out in the narrow gap between the pony cart and the gateway.”

“That, I believe, is how the papers had it,” he said. “Do you have another idea?”

“Hmm,” I said. “I’m just astounded how he was not spotted as witnesses and coppers arrived. The driver did not hold on his alert. He returned with three colleagues from the club almost immediately”—I pointed to the two-story building that formed the northern boundry of Dutfield’s Yard beyond the gateway, and its doorway just twenty feet beyond where we stood—“by way of its main entrance, which fronts on Berner. It was quite full, as some sort of anarchistic meeting was taking place, and in under a minute more of those men poured into Berner Street and were very soon swarming thickly on the area. Meanwhile, the coppers were quick to arrive — street constables, that is — plus many people from Berner, and farther up, from the well-traveled Commercial. It was hardly an obscure spot.”

“I cannot answer for what the newspapers say. Perhaps you should discuss this with your friend Harry Dam, when he is not busy constructing an auto-da-fé for the Jews. But what you are describing does not seem to me impossible. Remember, he’s slight, and thus the pony won’t shy at him, thinking him a child and fearing no whip from him. He’s slight enough to squeeze between the cart and the gateway and be gone quickly.”

“I suppose,” I said, “but the pony is already alerted, already skittish, by smell. It seems just as likely that the sudden appearance of a figure from the dark, child-sized or not, would have caused the nervous beast to create a disturbance.”

“Who knows the minds of ponies?” said the professor.

“Fair enough,” I said. “But does it not strike you odd, Professor, that we are hard upon the single building in London that is regularly trafficked by revolutionaries, secret policemen, spies, the whole monkey house of Mittleuropean battle between autocratic governments and the men who would overthrow them. This building would be, would it not, full of intrigue, plot, plan, various stratagems and deceits, to say nothing of talents for escape and evasion?”

“Have you been talking with someone?” he asked. “That does not seem like your sort of intuition.”

“Not at all,” I said. “It just came to me in the writing.”

“Ah. In any event, what difference does it make, ultimately? They’re all politicals. Such men would have no interest in a fellow cutting up whores, because it advances no revolutionary cause. They are a hard breed.”

“Indeed. However, all those men, no matter of what faction, have one thing in common, which I would term ‘fear of raid.’ They are haunted by raids, have memory of raids, have themselves escaped raids. The raid spells their apprehension, execution, imprisonment, or exile. It means that all they stand for is destroyed. Theirs is a dangerous universe and a fragile one. So does it not stand that they would have an escape from such a place? They are not the sort to be caught like rats in a trap. Come, let’s examine.”

We walked into the unlocked building, entering by way of that side door onto Dutfield’s Yard, finding ourselves in a dingy corridor, which in one direction, back, seemed to lead to a printing shop from the mechanistic sounds, and in other direction, toward the street, where a kind of foyer must have offered a stairway that presumably led to the large meeting hall upstairs. There the workers were bellowing out a hymn to worker solidarity much sung in radical nests across Europe. It was so loud its vibrations seemed to be banging hard off walls and wood. Instead of joining the chorus of heroes, I took Dare to a door just a bit down the corridor toward the foyer. It, too, was unlocked, after the anarchists’ happy assumption that property is theft and no hindrance should be placed in the way of those in need. I was certainly in need. This in turn took us down a few steps into a cellar, which contained what cellars contain: crates, rusted tools, refuse, scrap, rat holes, spiderwebs, dust, the smell of dankness.

“Hardly a highlight of one’s London tour,” said the professor.

“Let’s see, however, if it contains treasure, which may be found in the most unlikely of spots.”

We poked about, undisturbed. It was rather dark, so the going was somewhat difficult as we bumped and bumbled about until I said, “Hello, what’s this?”

I pointed to the cement floor, where squibs of candlewax had accumulated, as if much illumination had been required on this one spot.

“Very Sherlock Holmes of you, sir,” he said. In a second I pushed aside the nearest crate and found it easy enough going. It slid three feet to the right and, when moved, revealed a ragged but ample hole chopped into the cement, though all its excavation debris had been carefully swept away. The two nubs of a ladder stuck beyond the edge of the hole.

“I would say tunnel. Isn’t this interesting? Built, I’m sure, to save the anarchists from goons hired by the tsarist secret police or foreign agents being hunted by our own Special Branch. Wouldn’t you think that a brilliant tactical mind like the colonel’s would have understood the high theoretical possibility of such a structure existing and looked for it? Perhaps that is why he chose this spot, knowing a secret escape was possible.”

“Capital thinking,” said the professor. “It existed theoretically, now it exists actually. By God, this is a wonderful discovery.”

“Shall we see where it leads?”

“We have a moral obligation to do so.”

I went first. It was not a long descent, perhaps ten feet, and it led to no vast underground chamber but into what appeared to be a kind of abandoned sewage containment, though of ample height and width for a man to nearly stand. One would expect a lantern at the base of the ladder to assist the escapees, and there it was, a primitive candle-powered implement whose contribution to illumination would be more helpful to morale than practicality. As the professor eased his way down, I found matches carefully wrapped against moisture, unwrapped them, ignited one, wincing at the flare, set the wick aflame, then closed the glass front of the piece, which magnified its vividness somewhat. Lifting it in my left hand, I exposed the gap in the ancient terra cotta through which the anarchists had battered their way to gain access; sweeping the lantern about, we saw that the length of space ran about ninety feet or so. At the same time, the miasma of abomination rose to our noses, for at one time this was a privy, to Romans, to medieval Londoners, who knew? Perhaps it contained Samuel Pepys’s shit or Messrs. Johnson and Boswell’s. It was said London was undergirded by abandoned tunnels and chambers; the anarchists had simply encountered one and put it to use against emergency. We were not alone, however, for then we heard the skittering or chittering or scrabbling or whatever word may be used to describe the sound of large numbers of rats. We had entered their kingdom, though the firelight drove them away from us, not from fear, I’m guessing, for what would five hundred such creatures fear from us, but because the blaze of light disturbed their delicate darkness-adjusted eyes.

I pointed to the end of the vault. “It’s a big crapper,” I said. “Romans and Normans must have shat here. I’m guessing that comes out in some abandoned building in Fairclough Street.”

“Yes, yes,” said the Professor, who had fully entered the place. “The colonel dips in the side door while the pony cart driver runs for aid on the street, and first a few, then a lot of, anarchists spill from the main door. He’s vanished in seconds, makes his way to the exit, and is out unseen very quickly. From here it’s but a ten-minute walk to Mitre Square, where he has ample time to track and do his horrors to Kate Eddowes. Yes, this is a brilliant discovery, Jeb, and it will do well to enhance the accuracy and drama of your piece.”

“Yes,” I said, “but here is my problem. This is the only secret passage in any of the murder sites. I have examined them exhaustively. Neither Buck’s Row nor Hanbury Street, certainly not Mitre Square with its several passageways out, and nothing in Miller’s Court could be construed as a secret passage. Only here. What is interesting is that, as you and I have just proved, there is no limiting provision for size in achieving passage. Full-grown men fit quite nicely. So the most elementary and the only empirical point of your profile — Jack’s slightness — is thereby disproved. That, furthermore, is the only empirical index to his identity. All the rest are cognitive, based upon inference of what he knew, what he learned, what his skills would be. But the whole theorem rests upon the conviction that his size was essential to the commission of the crimes. Yes, he was slight, but it had nothing to do with anything. A man my size or even yours could have escaped after killing all five without difficulty.”

“Possibly, then, I was wrong. I seem to have been right in all other interpretations, if I recall correctly.”

“Indeed. It comes to nothing, does it? Oh, unless one knew that the colonel was slight, and inserted that condition into the profile as a means of specifying him among the others.”

“I must say, this seems an odd direction.”

“I have learned some things since last we spoke, which will perhaps explain the oddness of my tangent. I have learned, for example, that under your commanding personality and capability to light up a room, you are an angry man. You have been exiled from the polite society of academics and intellectuals on account of unsavory rumors concerning your behavior. They now shun you and pay you no attention.”

“I bear them no animosity, I assure you. Our ideas diverged. They’re too reformist, and they find me too cynical. It was always an uneasy fit.”

“Not as I hear it. The precipitating event of your exile was a bizarre ‘experiment’ that you undertook several years back, rumor of which left many uneasy. You invited a London street girl — a whore, certainly, like Annie and Long Liz and the others — into your home. You and a colleague labored with her night and day for well over six months, and it was desperately hard work for both you and the girl, a Miss Elizabeth Little, I believe. It brought you to the point of madness and violent anger. Assumptions include beatings, sexual improprieties, various profligacies. As for your colleague, you attacked him at one point. That, too, frightened off all your friends. They abhor physical violence. He now seems to have vanished.”

“So he has,” said the professor.

“So, too, has the girl. Did she flee to the country, go to America, commit suicide? No one knows, but it seems like the old Greek tale of Pygmalion, where the sculptor fell in love with his sculpture. Except in your version, you had much congress with the poor child.”

“This is beginning to disturb me. Are you making accusations?”

“Another question might well be: Who was your colleague? I believe it was Colonel Woodruff, who had come to you upon mustering out from mutual fascination with the mechanisms of language. He lived with you while you were working with Elizabeth. When he saw how you were abusing Elizabeth, he objected, and under his advice — and I’m betting with his money — she fled.”

“I loved them both. They betrayed me. That is all. Not much of a tale.”

“It never occurred to you that she might fear you rather than love you. It never occurred to you that Colonel Woodruff would — selflessly, as was his style — send her away because he feared what you might do to her. That is why you attacked him at the university.”

“So dear Jeb isn’t as simple as I thought. Not simple but slow, too slow.”

“You see how it follows. You devise a ‘profile’ for the crimes that indicates no one but Woodruff, down as far as the two rings he carried with him since 1857. So detailed were your plans that you approached me even before you had unleashed the J-U-W-E-S clue, which you used to snag me. And how snaggable I was. But in order for the proof to hold, there must be murders. What good is the profile without the murders? It follows that the murders were informed by the profile, not the other way around. That being the case, there can be only one killer.”

He said nothing.

“Dr. Ripper, I presume,” I said.

“At your service,” he said.

“Your madness and your brilliance are in perfect syncopation. Your madness kills to express your rage at her betrayal, and your brilliance finds use for it by constructing a ‘Ripper’ who terrifies the city and whom you track and vanquish. You get everything. You take everything from the weakest of all women on earth, the most powerless and degraded. You have your revenge on the colonel, who besides being murdered is then to be eternally damned in history. You want credit as the man who discovered and killed the Ripper, and it is my job to hand it to you. You get everything in return and make yourself in a society that has exiled you.”

“It’s too bad you’re so late to understanding,” said the professor. “Elizabeth was, too. She never quite apprehended me. My score isn’t five, it’s six. She was the first. She will not step out of the shadows to reveal my friendship with Colonel Woodruff. Nor will you. A few others got in the way. The colonel, of course, a bully here, a bartender there. All done in a good cause, I assure you.”

I saw his hand disappear under his coat and reappear with a butcher knife.

“I will find another newspaper fool,” he said rather calmly, as with the weapon he was controlling the action. “I will get what I deserve, as I have paid back those who betrayed me.”

“You, sir, are despicable.”

“Who are you to judge me, you tiny man? You offer the world nothing. I offer everything, from my genius to my higher morality to my designs of utopia. But to employ them I must rise, and rise I will and rise I have.”

I beheld him then: creature of nightmare, avatar of destruction, murderer from the dark hole of the Beneath, radiant in self-love and madness. Jack flagrante, Jack in excelsis, Jack gloria mundi, Jack rampant, Jack fortissimo. He was all that and more. It was Jack the Ripper, fully bloomed and unleashed, the butcher knife in his right fist, held high as he meant to step forward and drive it deep into me, knowing his strength was so much greater than mine, knowing how and where to place the blade, knowing that he had the physical skill to make the thrust and cut a hundred times out of a hundred.

“Look on me, you fool. Know who I am. It is worth your life to enjoy the privilege of a meeting with Jack. You are nothing before him. I, Ripper, now take your meaningless life and go on and on and on. Jack is forever.”

He had never been Sherlock Holmes. He had always been Mr. Hyde.

He stepped toward me, cocking his arm for the killing blow.

The bullet struck him in the shoulder, exploding a mist of wool fiber and atomized flesh, destroying it. He spun, dropping the knife as his beautiful tweed sleeve went limp, began to pulse and leak as it absorbed a tide of crimson, while the echo bounced and died along the bricks, dust fell from vibration and the rats, their tiny eardrums dashed by the sound, began to chitter and frisk.

The colonel stepped from the darkness, his Webley smoking in his hand. “You are arrested, sir,” he said.

Jack the Ripper looked upon us, the blood running through the fingers that tried to stanch its flow. “A trap, then,” he said. “Artfully done, between writer and soldier who engineered another miraculous escape. My compliments, Huw, but then you always were the hero. And I loved you, Huw, as I loved her, but the two of you hurt me and thwarted me to the full extent of that love.”

“Thomas, I loved you as well, but your genius turned to madness and evil. I could not save you. Now, sir, you must pay.”

“Not at your hand. I believe the dark prince already sends his minions to fetch me.”

He was right. The skittering turned to a scrabbling and then a clamor as five hundred clawed sets of feet advanced in their regiments and battalions, engorged by the smell of fresh blood. The vermin army hit him hard and began to scale his legs.

Squriming, seething, raging, Jack-mad in their own bloodlust, the vermin surrounded him and began to mount his legs, to crawl up his coat, to slip under his jacket and into his shirt. They crawled upon each other’s backs in their greed of flesh, becoming a new beast, featureless like a surge of animate pelt heaped at his legs, alive with squirm and slither and scrabble and squeak and chitter. It was as if he were being swallowed in the maw of some inchoate predator, in ravenous action so malleable and supple that its form was liquid. And though he beat at them, his blows were useless against the blood-mad truth of nature, raw, cruel, indifferent. The rats swarmed to and overwhelmed his face and began to eat it. He screamed, and such a cry it was, containing encyclopedias, whole languages, of pain and horror.

Colonel Woodruff shot him in the head and down he went, still.

I blew out the candle and we made straightaway to the ladder and in seconds were back to the surface of the known world, where December had declared its early darkness. We exited the club, where the chorus of song had drowned out what traces of gunshot might have made surface, went from Dutfield’s gates, and made our way toward Commercial, where, among the bright lights of the costers’ stalls of apples and cheeses and bright cloth, the hubbub of the beer shops, the jostle of the ladies and their suitors, made even more vivid by Christmas excitations, we reentered what was called civilization.

“All right, then,” said Colonel Woodruff, “it is done and you have your story.”

“I am not sure I will write it,” I said.

“It’s a free country, sir. Write or not, as you choose. But let me push an argument against you. It’s one thing if Jack is a foreign monster, a mad Russian or Jew, one of the them we seek to educate and civilize, charging only everything they’ve got. It is quite another when he’s one of us, of fine family, produced by our best universities, born on high and lived on high in a fine house on a fine street, published, respected, influential. For that man to have been raving evil might provoke some to sense corruption in the system. And I am wise enough, it may surprise you, to understand the system is indeed corrupt. But it is also necessary, at least for now, while our species is in its infancy. So if a smart lad like you and an old buzzard like me know it, no harm is done. If the ignorant, thus far obedient, but ever volatile masses know it, mischief is loosed. And who knows where mischief leads?”

“I will consider,” I said.

Twenty-four years have passed, and I have finally made up my mind.

I got to the professor’s house well after midnight. I had no keys, for who would have checked what was left of him? But the door gave to my shove, and I paused in the foyer, listening. If his Scots housekeeper were there, she was sleeping. Gingerly, I climbed the steps and turned in to his study.

I did not dare light a candle or turn up the gas jet. In time, however, my eyes adjusted to the dark, and what I did not see in detail, I saw in memory. I recalled all the gizmos he’d designed to help overcome his fellow man’s speech pathologies, whether a terrible accent that anchored one forever to the bottom of society, or a stutter that made a man gobble like a turkey in getting a simple declarative statement into the ether. Such a noble calling, so perversely betrayed.

I made my way to his desk. All the drawers slid open save one, and with a screwdriver picked up for that reason, I pried and poked, felt wood splinter, and it popped open. Inside was nothing but a single volume.

I picked it up, made my way to the window, and by the wan light of gas lamp from Wimpole outside, made out that it was a journal, perhaps a diary, with dates setting off each entry. It took no genius to comprehend that the dates aligned with the murders.

“When I cut the woman’s throat, her eyes betrayed not pain, not fear, not but utter confusion. Truly, no creature can understand its own obliteration.”

That was how it began.

I paged through, seeing accounts of them all, Polly, Annie, Long Liz, Kate, and finally and most horribly Mary Jane. Even a poem! Four letters were folded into its pages; they seemed to be from some poor girl to her mum. Later I would learn who she was.

I rolled them up, slid them into my jacket, and quickly exited.

The night was fresh and clear. I didn’t look for a hansom but walked the mile and a half to my mother’s house, considering what to do next. I had the world at my fingers with the diary. I could reveal and publish and become rich, famous, powerful, godlike, whatever.

Yet the colonel’s words weighed heavily on my mind. Thus my decision: I leave the volume to my estate, and if it sees the light of day, it is on my descendants.

On the other hand, I give myself this gift. Having wrung it out in my own mind, I have decided I will proceed with my project. Art is made from life or it is no good, and all this happened to me, so it’s mine to use, even if I must force it into comedy to escape its darker implications. I will use the characters, the root situation, and avoid the slaughter: Distilled toward purity, it will be a tale of ambition, intellectual vanity, even relentless will, but also courage, the dignity of unfortunates, the wisdom of soldiers. It will end long before the murders begin, and to me at least, it will explain how such a thing could have happened. No one else will so understand. I will call it Pygmalion.

As for Dare, he lies undisturbed in the tunnel, if the tunnel lies undisturbed under the Anarchists’ Club and hasn’t been ruptured by the constant reconstruction of London. That I do not know. The fuss over his disappearance ended swiftly, and it seems he is forgotten, even if Jack, his creation, will never die. But that is a fraud, cake for the masses, so what difference does it make?

Indeed, only in one quarter does the memory of Thomas Dare persist, and it is not he that is remembered but the flavor of his flesh. For he can be commemorated only by his brethren, the other creatures of the dark Londontown Beneath, the black rats.