Killer Pancake

“Julian’s crying,” Arch announced without looking at me.

“Did he talk to you? Is he still in bed?”

“Still in bed. Under the covers. Didn’t want me to stay.” Scout curled his paws and stretched to his maximum length to prolong Arch’s ministrations. “He said for you not to bring him any food. He wants to be left alone today, and he’ll do all the cooking for the Chamber of Commerce brunch tomorrow morning.”

Well, that was just great. But not unexpected. “How about you, kiddo? Want some breakfast?”

He looked around the kitchen, but nothing caught his fancy. “No, thanks. Who are you cooking for?”

“The food fair and the Braithwaites.”

Arch pulled a long face. “Mrs. Barf-mate! That cow.”

“Nice talk about a rich client, Arch.”

“With Mrs. Barf-mate’s driving, you’re lucky I’m still alive.”

Arch had been in the back seat when the accident occurred, and he was not about to let anyone forget it. He maintained to this day that Julian had put on his turn signal and slowed properly, even though Claire was giggling and cavorting around in the front seat and Julian couldn’t remember what he’d been doing. But it was Mrs. Braithwaite, Arch claimed, who was the bad driver. My son had insisted he had whiplash and post-traumatic stress syndrome, and we should sue Mrs. Braithwaite for bad driving. Unfortunately, the police had sided with Mrs. B.

“Well,” said Arch in a resigned tone, “I guess Julian and I aren’t going to the Aspen Meadow Animal Hospital today. He promised, but he probably forgot. They let you hold the rats there,” he added brightly. “Big black and white rats.”

“I’m sorry, Arch. I’d take you, but I have a ton of cooking to do, and I need to go see Marla.”

Arch lifted the towel from the rising bread, peered in, and poked the dough with his finger. “How is she?”

“Don’t know yet.”

He sighed. “Maybe Todd’s dad could take us to the animal hospital. Their rats don’t bite there, they’ve trained them—”

“Arch, please.”

“I didn’t say I wanted to have a rat, I just want to hold one.”

“Give Julian a little slack, hon. And me too, while you’re at it.”

“I am, I am, but can’t we get another pet? If you don’t like rats, can we talk about ferrets? Tom likes them,” he said with a hopeful smile.

I punched down the bread dough, divided it, and reshaped it in ring pans. “We have a cat. Please don’t bring Tom into this.”

Arch frowned and reconsidered his strategy. “I guess I better go check on Julian. Should I take him some coffee? That doesn’t really count as food, does it?”

“Sure, take him some. If he doesn’t want it, come on back.” I fixed a latte the way Julian liked it, with lots of cream and sugar. Arch disappeared just as Alicia knocked on my door. While she lugged in boxes of Portobello mushrooms and fresh herbs, I called the Coronary Care Unit of Southwest Hospital. Someone at the nurses’ station crisply informed me that Marla Korman had not yet been taken for her angiogram, and that the patient could not come to the phone. Marvelous. By the time Alicia had finished unloading the supplies, Arch had returned, dressed for the day in his tie-dyed shirt and torn jeans.

“Julian’s drinking the coffee and says thanks. I’m going to Todd’s. There’s nothing to do around here.”

“Does Julian want—”

Arch pulled his mouth to one side and nudged his glasses up his nose. “He says he’ll come down when he wants to be with people.” Seeing my disappointed face, Arch patted my shoulder. “He’ll be okay. You know Julian. He’s had a hard life, but he always manages to come through. All right, I’m leaving. It’s been real, Mom.” And with that, Arch strode out the front door clutching a bag of audiocassettes.

Feeling helpless, I started on the fudge cookies. As I sifted dark brown cocoa powder over a white mountain of flour, I kept running the previous twenty-four hours through my mind. If only I had not accepted the assignment for the banquet. Would that have helped? Why had Claire even recommended me to her employers? I beat egg whites with canola oil and measured aromatic Mexican vanilla into the batter. Julian’s had a hard life. No kidding. His adoptive parents were far away, and now the young woman he’d fallen head-over-heels for was dead.

The bread loaves came out of the oven golden-brown, studded with cranberries and nuts, and filling the kitchen with their rich scent. I placed the loaves on racks to cool and called the hospital again. Marla still hadn’t gone for her angiogram and could not come to the phone. I banged the receiver down and wondered how many people had heart attacks waiting in hospitals to be treated.

I spooned even half-spheres of the cookie batter onto tin sheets and popped them into the oven. Ten minutes later, the fudge cookies emerged as perfect dark brown discs that smelled divine. I inhaled the life-giving smell of chocolate and quickly transferred the cookies to racks. While they were cooling, I got started washing the pile of dirtied bowls and pans. I was thinking black thoughts about Southwest Hospital, when Arch returned.

I said, “Now what?” and immediately regretted it. Arch’s face was crestfallen.

“I just … wasn’t in the mood for playing with Todd. I think I should go down to the hospital with you to see Marla.”

I gathered him in for a hug, which, being thirteen, he didn’t return. “It’s okay, hon. I don’t know what’s going on with Marla, and I don’t know who they’ll let see her. If you stay here with Julian, that would be the best thing. Why don’t you try to take him some warm cookies and cold milk?”

“He’s not five years old, Mom. And he said no food.”

“Well then, take him another cup of coffee.” Not five years old. This was true. So at the last minute I poured an ounce of Tom’s VSOP cognac into Julian’s second latte. Julian was nineteen, in fact, but he wasn’t going to be driving anywhere today, and it was my—our—house, and I thought the kid needed a drink.

Arch steadied the cup, took a whiff, said “Blech,” and left the kitchen. Five minutes later he returned, just as I was mixing skim milk into powdered sugar to make a vanilla glaze for the fudge cookies. “Okay. Julian took the coffee and he’s out of bed. He’s just kind of staring out the window and saying, ‘She was so beautiful, she was so perfect,’ and junky stuff like that.” He shrugged. “He didn’t want me to stay, though.”

“Want to help me cook?”

“Sure.” He washed his hands, watched what I was doing, then meticulously began to spread thin layers of white icing over the dark cookies. As I sat beside him icing my own pile of cookies, I knew better than to ask what he was thinking, and why he had decided to come home from Todd’s.

“So,” Arch said at length, “d’you think Julian liked Claire so much because she was beautiful or because she was, you know, a good person?”

I considered the icing on one cookie. “I have no idea. Probably both.”

“I don’t think anyone will ever love me because of my looks.”

I iced my last cookie and put down my spatula. “Arch, you are good-looking.”

He rolled his eyes, then bent his wrist to ease his glasses back up his nose so he wouldn’t have to let go of his spatula. “You’re my mom. You’re supposed to say that.”

Without looking at him, I started to sprinkle cocoa powder over the first row of iced cookies. The dark chocolate cookies with their pale icing and cocoa dusting looked beautiful. My son, the most precious person to me in the world, thought he was ugly. What’s wrong with this picture?

“Arch, I don’t care what anyone says, you are attractive.”

“Uh-huh. Remember the Valentine’s Day dance I went to at Elk Park Prep this year? My first and last dance at that school?”

“But I told you, when you’re older you should try again—”

He waved his spatula for me to be quiet. “There was an artist there. The school hired him for, like, entertainment. An artist who makes people look like cartoon characters, you know? What’s that called?”

I sighed. “A caricaturist?”

“Yeah. He drew caricatures of all the kids. Instead of dancing, we stood around watching him work. He gave each person’s … caricature … titles like Class Hero, Class Brains, Class Beauty. He would exaggerate each kid’s appearance, so that they would be flattered, you know?”

I nodded, unsure of where this was going.

“So then he did me. He exaggerated how thick my glasses are, how dark my freckles are, the way my chin goes in and my hair sticks out. He wrote in big letters at the bottom Class Nerd. Everybody laughed. So please don’t tell me I’m good-looking, when you know and I know and everybody else knows that I’m not.”

“Oh, for heaven’s sake, sometimes the people at that school just make my flesh crawl—”

“Don’t worry, Mom, the guy, the artist, apologized when the dance was over. Everybody was gone by then, but he did say he was sorry. The dance would have been awful without that happening anyway.” He waved his spatula dismissively. “Looks like all the cookies are done.”

I took his spatula and mine and placed them in the sink. Embarrassed by his revelation, Arch stood up to leave.

“Wait, hon, please. Sit down. I want to tell you something.”

The air outside was heating up, and with all the cooking, the kitchen was even hotter. Arch threw himself into one of the kitchen chairs while I poured us both some lemonade.

“You know I lived in New Jersey during most of my growing-up years.”

“Mom, so what? What does that have to do with anything?”

“Have you ever seen the famous Miss America pageant? It’s held in New Jersey. In Atlantic City. When I was growing up, we used to watch it on television. The neighborhood kids, I mean. It seemed like it was our pageant because it was held in our state.”

Arch sipped lemonade. “I think that pageant is stupid. Todd and I always watch horror movies when it’s on.”

“Listen. When I was fourteen, I was the oldest girl in our group of neighborhood kids. That year, I remember, we all watched the pageant and ate lemon Popsicles. At one point the announcer said this and that about the contestants, what they had to do to enter, blah, blah, and that young women had to be eighteen. So one of the kids in our little group piped up, ‘Gosh, Goldy, you’ve just got four years to go!’”

Arch furrowed his brow. “So is that supposed to make me feel better about being called a nerd? That your friends wanted you to enter the Miss America contest?”

I reached out for his hand, but he pulled it away. “You don’t understand. All the eyes of my friends turned to me. Expectantly. I wasn’t long-legged and skinny and I never would be. But that’s the problem. Whoever said girls should be expected to be in beauty contests? Why should anyone expect it? And that’s what I’m trying to say. They called you a nerd. Whether or not you believed it, you accepted it. What I realized at age fourteen is that everybody was counting on me to want to be in a beauty contest. But it was a contest that I had no intention of ever, ever entering.” I took a deep breath. “The problem is, if you’re a woman, and maybe if you’re a man too, when you get to be a teenager, it seems as if your whole life is going to be absorbed by a long series of stupid beauty contests, and I’m not just talking about Miss America. I’m talking about the way people judge you when you walk down the street. Or walk into a class. Or go to the gym. And the only solution is to say, ‘I’m not going to play this game! I quit the beauty contest! Now and forever!’”

Arch waited to see if I had finished what I was going to say. He took a careful sip of his lemonade. Then he said, “May I go check on Julian now?”

I exhaled, suddenly exhausted. “Sure. I’m going to see Marla.”

“Okay. I’ll let you know if Julian comes out of the bedroom.” He paused, then said, “I don’t think he’s crying because Claire was so beautiful. I think he’s just feeling really empty.”

“Yes, Arch. I’m sure you’re right.”

Feeling disoriented and exhausted by my diatribe, I gathered up my purse and keys. That was when Arch did something that surprised me. He walked over and gave me a hug.

At the hospital, a new receptionist referred me to the CCU nurses’ station.

“We don’t know when your sister will be back, Miss Korman,” a nurse informed me. “They just wheeled her down to the cath lab.”

“Will the angiogram take more than an hour?” I asked.

“It shouldn’t, but you never know.”

The thought of waiting in that hospital for an indeterminate amount of time seemed unbearable. I looked at the clock: three-thirty. Courage, I said to myself. She’s your best friend, and you’re going to be there for her.

“Thank you. I’ll be back in an hour.”

I still had to get my check from Prince & Grogan, so I drove over to the mall. A larger group of demonstrators was massed at the outside entrance to the department store than had been the previous day. Because of the accident, I doubted the police would let them back into the garage that day to wave their signs at the other entrance. Afraid that Shaman Krill might catch sight of me, I parked the van at the edge of a nearby bank parking lot. As soon as I got out of the car, I could hear the hoots and chants of the activists. Most of them were wearing white sweatsuits. As I came closer, I could see the chanting white-clad group wore blindfolds.Hip, hop! I can’t see!

Hip, hop! Wha’ja do to me?

Scores of hand-held placards denouncing Mignon Cosmetics’ animal-testing practices bounced up and down above the crowd. I looked around helplessly for a way to get into the store that did not involve trying to slip past crowd-restraining sawhorses. A thin stream of shoppers was headed for a nearby pasta place. I followed.

Once inside the mall, I ran up a chrome and polished granite staircase and entered Prince & Grogan on the second level. Bright lights and mellow piano music—coming not from speakers but from a real piano player in the center of the store—took me off guard. After a moment of attempting to get oriented, I saw a far-off neon sign, OFFICES. Someone there, presumably, would have my check.

I negotiated a labyrinth of sparkling crystal and china displays, blaring audio equipment, whirring small appliances, and large, blank-faced mirrors. These were not like Tom’s quasi-antique mirrors with their charming, wavy glass. These were oversize, glaring department store looking-glasses, the kind the ad maven surely had in mind when he said, Make a woman insecure enough and you can sell her anything. I closed my eyes. I didn’t want to see myself in my denim skirt, white T-shirt, and sneakers; I just wanted to find the department store office.

Eventually, I was successful. The Prince & Grogan personnel, security, billing, credit, and customer service departments were grouped together in a section of the second floor that was still being renovated. After several misdirections I finally ended up sitting in a tiny office across from a straight-haired woman named Lisa, who claimed she handled accounts payable. Lisa shuffled through papers and files with no luck, however, and went off mumbling about finding someone from security.

While she was gone I looked around her office, which was in desperate need of the upcoming paint job. The interior walls of the old Montgomery Ward had been covered with a mind-numbing aquamarine pigment. On the far wall of the office, paler squares indicated spots where framed recognition of merit awards, maybe even family photos, had once hung. Next to them, also painted aquamarine, was what looked like a medicine cabinet or key box. On the floor, computer print-outs were neatly stacked two feet high. Then by the wall closest to me was a gray set of file cabinets. My fingers itched to open the cabinet and look up Satterfield, Claire. But with my luck, not only would the drawer be locked, but Lisa of accounts payable would sashay back in while my hand was still on the handle.

Lisa did indeed sashay back in, and luckily my hands were placed innocently in my lap.

“The head of security has your check, and his office is locked. Nick’s out dealing with some insurance investigators today, and was wondering if you could come back tomorrow.”

I wanted to growl something unappreciative, such as Why doesn’t the bonehead just mail it to me? but I was coming back to the mall the next morning for the food fair. Besides, after a few years of running my small business, I was becoming somewhat cynical. Promises of checks coming in the mail all too frequently meant We might mail this when we get to it. Then again, we might not.

I checked my watch again: three forty-five. I still felt repulsed by the idea of going back to the hospital to wait, so I made the instantaneous decision to go down to the Mignon counter. Just briefly, just to see if Dusty and Harriet and maybe even Tom were there. I had Julian grieving at home. Perhaps if I returned with something to tell him …

Before I knew it I was on the down escalator. As I descended I could see both Harriet and Dusty on the floor below. Harriet was talking to a hunchbacked woman whose white hair was piled elaborately on her head. One of Harriet’s hands held a bottle, the other tapped the bottle’s shiny gold top.

“And what’s that one called?” I heard the older woman ask as I neared them.

“Tangerine Tide,” confided Harriet smugly. “It’s coordinated with Raspberry Dunes and Apricot Sunset—”

I imagined a beach full of fruit.

“—and it’s exactly the hue the designers are using for the fashion colors of late summer. We sell so much of it, we can’t keep it in stock!”

“Well, then!” said the white-haired woman decisively. “I’ll take some!”

Dusty was lifting the long, heavy pages of what looked like a ledger. A handsome, balding customer had approached the counter and was picking up bottle after bottle and appraising each one. Dusty, shaking her head over the pages, seemed not to see him. She did catch a glimpse of me, however, and came scuttling over. Her forest-green uniform barely swathed her ample tummy. Her orange-gold hair was somewhat wilder than usual, and her eyes were bloodshot.

“Goldy, did you hear about Claire?” Her voice was raw. I figured she’d been crying for quite some time.

“I did. I’m sorry. You all must be devastated.”

She took a shuddery breath. “We are. How’s Julian doing?”

“Not well. I’m trying to convince him to take some time off.”

She said, “We have to work. Do you believe that? So, the cameras are watching. Are you interested in something? What kind of problems are you experiencing with your face?” she asked brightly.

“What cameras? Can I look around? Will you show me?”

“I can’t now,” she replied softly. She brought out a slender white tube with a gold top. “This is Timeless Skin.” She squinted at me. “This will do wonders for those dark circles under your eyes. Why don’t you let me do a free makeover?”

“Er, thanks, but not now. I was thinking that sleep would do wonders for my dark circles.”

“Well,” Dusty said, scrutinizing my face, “how about some Ageless Beauty/Endless Appeal night cream for when you’re getting an that extra sleep? What kind of skin regimen are you using for your face?”

“No regimen.” I gestured at the stacks of glistening bottles arrayed on the glass countertop. “Nothing, really. I don’t want to buy anything, Dusty. I just wanted to check on you. Because of Claire.”

She shook her head. “We have a new line of—” she began.

The man at the counter cleared his throat loudly; Dusty glanced nervously at him.

“Go help him,” I pleaded. “I’m really just looking.”

“Okay,” Dusty said with a hasty look back at the ledger book. “But I doubt he’s going to buy anything.”

I moved away from the blushes and scanned a pyramid of Carefree Color lipsticks. Cherryblossom Cheesecake. Fudge Soufflé. Rose-hips Revolution. The person who named Mignon lipsticks must have been a dessert caterer.

Dusty greeted the balding customer and nodded knowingly. She became animated, or pretended to be animated, when he started to talk. Tall, mid-fortyish, good-looking, he was the kind of fellow I saw at high-society catered events all the time. I squinted: Maybe I’d even seen this guy at some catered event in the Aspen Meadow Country Club area. He picked up bottle after bottle and examined it, asking questions the whole time, as if the shape of the container were more important than what was in it. Then he put down the bottle, leaned in to Dusty, and said something. She reared back and replied. Their conversation appeared to be veering toward an argument.

“Don’t act ignorant, Reggie,” Dusty said loudly to her customer. “We saw you. You are going to get into so much trouble!”

I touched the tops of the lipstick tubes. Trouble? What kind of trouble? Who saw him? Saw him doing what? I peered at a display of blushes near Reggie, and then moved toward it as if I’d finally discovered what I’d come for.

Reggie, whoever he was, waved off Dusty’s concern and pointed to a large white bottle. “So what are your sales projections on the new moisturizer?” he asked. Farther down the counter, Harriet Wells gave Dusty and her inquisitive customer a disapproving glance.

I picked up one blush after another—Sensuosity, Valentine Kiss, Lustful Gaze. No thanks. I peeked sideways: Dusty and Reggie were standing with several trays of mascara between them. Yes, I was eavesdropping, I could imagine myself admitting later to Tom. I wanted to hear what Dusty had to say to Reggie, the guy who was going to get into trouble.

“I noticed they changed the packaging for the compacts,” Reggie was observing.

“Yuppies don’t want white,” Dusty informed him airily. “White reminds them of old ladies. So Mignon changed it to navy-blue and gold and we’ve sold a zillion of them.”

“Don’t use the word zillion, Dusty, it’s not specific. And I can’t imagine that you were selling lots of them. You said you were behind the last couple of months.”

“Don’t be a prick, Reggie, or I’ll tell the world the truth.”

“You wouldn’t do that. Now, listen,” he went on, “just tell me if they’ve set their sales goals for this new line they introduced yesterday, before all hell broke loose.”

“Yes, of course they have, you know they always set goals. Twenty-three hundred a week for the full-time people.”

Reggie considered this, “What did they send you to advertise them?”

Harriet had finished with the white-haired woman and was heading back toward the center of the counter. For the first time, I realized that although she was short, the way she held herself revealed she was either a former model or dancer. Instead of coming to me, however, Harriet walked straight up to Dusty and her male customer, Reggie-the-troublemaker.

“Mr. Hotchkiss,” Harriet said with a tiny, wicked smile, “are you actually going to buy something today?”

“Buzz off, Harriet,” Reggie Hotchkiss said loudly. “Look.” He gestured in my direction. “You’ve got a customer. You can’t keep up those hefty sales numbers if you ignore a customer, now, can you?”

Harriet lifted her chin and walked past him to me. Like Dusty, her face sagged with fatigue, but she did not look quite as disheveled. “Ah, Goldy. The caterer. You heard, I suppose …?”

I nodded.

“So tragic. That girl had a future in cosmetics, she was a natural. We’re all going to miss—” Her voice broke, and she stopped to reassert control. Her large blue eyes appealed to me. “Is your boy all right? It must have been a terrible shock for him.”

My watch said 4:05. “Yes, thanks. Julian is my helper and he’s fine. But I have a friend in the hospital, and she’s quite ill. I’ll … see you tomorrow.”

“Then why are you—”

But I waved and hightailed it out of the store, past the demonstrators, through all the cars, and to my van. Revving my vehicle over to the hospital, I was obsessed with wondering who Reggie was and why he was going to get into trouble for being seen. Reggie Hotchkiss, Reggie Hotchkiss.

Oh yes, how could I forget? He did indeed live in Aspen Meadow. His family owned a prosperous Denver-based company: Hotchkiss Skin and Hair.

When the orderlies finally wheeled Marla back up from having her angiogram, she looked completely transformed. Her complexion was wan, and her usual animation had disintegrated into grogginess. I waited while the nurse hooked her back up to her monitors. By the time I came into the cubicle, Marla, a large, raucously funny person whom I always thought of as being in full bloom, appeared completely deflated.

She caught sight of me and groaned. “I feel gross. I look gross. My back’s killing me. You gotta get me out of here, Goldy.”

“I’m trying, believe me—”

Dr. Lyle Gordon walked into the cubicle and checked Marla’s IV. He was wearing a white lab coat over his scrubs. His gray fluff of hair stood up straight on his head. “Ah, the patient’s sister. Did she tell you?”

I said, “Tell me what?”

His eyebrows pinched inward. “We had an emergency operation this morning and had to delay her procedure. Your sister’s angiogram showed blockage at the mid-right coronary. So we’re going ahead with the atherectomy.” He turned to Marla. “But it’s too late today, unfortunately. We’ll need to wait until tomorrow.”

“Oh my God,” groaned Marla. She eyed her cardiologist with as much fierceness as she could muster. “You mean, I’m going to have to go all night with this … this thing sticking into my groin—”

“It’s called a catheter,” said Lyle Gordon patiently, patting the sheet. “Ms. Korman. We’re going to get through this—”

“Oh yeah?” Marla interrupted. “Who’s we, white man?”

“Ms. Korman—”

Marla snapped, “Shut up!”

Dr. Lyle Gordon clenched his teeth and straightened his shoulders. Then he addressed me, enunciating each phrase: “I need. A surgeon. On standby. Tomorrow. I can’t get a surgeon to be on standby until tomorrow. And we need the surgeon in case something goes wrong. Worst case, we’ll have a surgical suite ready if the catheter perforates the heart or tears the artery or she has another heart attack—”

“As God. Is my Witness.” Marla growled from her bed, “I am never giving this hospital another—”

“Help me out here, would you please?” Dr. Lyle Gordon begged me.

I said, “Sure,” and he abruptly left the cubicle. “Marla, look,” I said lightly, pointing to a potted coral begonia on her nightstand, “someone’s sent you flowers.”

She skewed her glance sideways at the perky blossoms, then turned away. “I don’t care.”

I opened the card and could not hide my astonishment. “They’re from the general. ‘Hoping for a speedy recovery.’ I thought your brother-in-law was in jail for possessing explosives.”

“He is in jail, but Bo has friends everywhere.” Marla closed her eyes.

I put my hand on her shoulder. “They’re going to kick me out of here any minute. Please tell me what I can do for you.”

“I’ll give you a hundred thousand dollars to help me escape.”

“Marla—”

“You’d have to cater birdwatchers’ picnics for three years to make that kind of dough.”

“And your second choice is …”

She sighed such a deep, depressed sigh that I briefly considered trying to break her out. “Okay, Goldy.” She seemed suddenly tired, as if she’d given up. “Get somebody to bring me some lingerie and my mail. Some folks have been calling, and I guess Tony’s coming in tomorrow.” Tony was her on-again, off-again boyfriend. “I don’t know what the hell the hospital’s done with my stuff. The spare house key is in a key box under my dryer vent.”

“Okay. Anything else?”

“My life is over. I’ll never eat another éclair. They’ll put me in a wheelchair to go around Aspen Meadow Lake….”

“Your life, sister, is just beginning. Buck up, now, I’m going to learn how to cook lowfat, and we’ll walk around the lake together—”

Before we could pursue this healthy vision further, Marla drifted off to sleep. I kept my hand on her shoulder until the ten minutes were over.

Then I zipped out to a pay phone, put a call in to Tom, and reached his voice mail. I told him about Reggie Hotchkiss, proprietor of what could be a rival company to Mignon, and about Reggie’s conversation with Dusty Routt. I told Tom that I missed him and hoped we’d see him tonight.

At home I fixed grilled cheese sandwiches for Arch and me, at his request. When he asked about Marla, I put my gooey sandwich down and decided against finishing it. I took a salad and bowl of soup upstairs, but Julian said through his door that he didn’t want anything, thanks. Finally, Arch and I sat in the backyard and watched rippled pink clouds slowly change color as the sun drifted toward the mountains.

“Did you talk to Tom on the phone, Mom? Has he found out anything yet?”

“Haven’t talked to him. He’ll be home late.”

“Seems as if he’s always working when, you most want to talk to him,” Arch observed. “During an investigation, I mean.”

“I know.” I’d been thinking the same thing myself.

A gentle breeze bowed the stems on the nearby columbines. Close by in the neighborhood, someone was cooking steak on a grill. The succulent smell filled the air and reminded me I had the food fair to start in the morning.

“Todd and I are going out tomorrow afternoon to look for 33 rpm records,” Arch announced. “Unless Julian needs me. Do you think he will?”

“Hard to tell.”

The doorbell rang. It was Todd, wanting to see if Arch could walk into town for ice cream. After I gave my permission, however, Arch hesitated. “Are you okay, Mom? You seem … sad. Is it because of Marla?” When I nodded, he said, “I know she’s your best friend.”

“Thanks for asking. As soon as she’s out of the hospital, I’ll feel a lot better.”

“How about if I bring you back a pint of mint chocolate chip?”

“You’re sweet, but no. I just want to work in the kitchen, get my mind off things.”

And work in the kitchen I did. The second batch of ribs needed to be precooked and cooled, then chilled overnight before being reheated at the fair the next morning. I lifted the thick, meaty slabs and arranged them on racks in the oven. Soon the rich scent of roasting pork wafted through the house, and I went upstairs and opened the windows for air. Poor little Colin Routt started wailing when a motorcycle roared by. Within moments, though, someone started playing the jazz saxophone, and the baby quieted. I wished we could all have our jangled nerves calmed so easily.

I glanced up and down the street, looking for the pickup truck that had been blocking our driveway the evening before. The pickups along the curb all looked alike. I found this to be true even when they were zooming past me down the highway. In Colorado, the only difference I could distinguish between moving pickup trucks was how many dogs were trying to keep their balance in the back of each one.

Arch trudged home at nine and headed straight for bed. At one A.M. I set the alarm for six and fell between the sheets. Poor Tom, I thought as I drifted off. Such a long workday. A sudden blast of noise brought me to full consciousness. I sprang out of bed and irrationally checked the closet. Tom’s bulletproof vest was still there. I crossed to the window. A flash of lightning and rumble of thunder heralded another nighttime storm. That would account for the noise. I fell back into bed and wondered how long it would take to get used to being married to a policeman.

I listened to rain pelt the roof and wished I could fall asleep. Tom came in later, finally, and nestled comfortably beside me. The nights are too short, I was foggily aware of thinking as sleep finally claimed me. And the days are too long.

I awoke in a sudden sweat. The bedroom was flooded with light. The radio alarm had not blared some forgettably peppy tune, because the doggone power was out again. This time Tom had departed without my realizing it. His terse note on the mirror read: No news on investigation. We’re checking Hotchkiss. I called SW hospital. Glad Marla’s recovering. T. I wondered if he’d had a nice chat with Dr. Lyle Gordon.

I buttoned myself into my chef’s jacket, zipped up a black skirt, and checked on a still-sleeping Arch. After a frantic search I located my watch and dully realized that I had less than forty minutes to put together the ribs and other goodies for the food fair. If I was not set up down at the mall by nine-forty, I would miss the county health inspector’s visit to my booth and risk being expelled from the whole event And then what would I do with three hundred individual portions of ribs, salad, bread, and cookies? Not something I wanted to think about.

On so little sleep, facing such hurried preparation without the ability to brew a caffeinated drink was truly the punishment of the damned. When I scurried into the kitchen, Julian was chopping fervently for the Chamber of Commerce brunch. Neat piles of raisins, grated gingerroot, and plump slices of nectarine indicated he was starting with the chutney. His hair was wet from his shower and he was wearing pristine black pants, a white shirt, and a freshly bleached and ironed apron. But his happy expression of two mornings before was gone. Grieving took different forms, and I trusted Julian to tell us if he needed help. On the other hand, the kid could be as stubborn as a mountain goat.

“I don’t know how I’m supposed to cook without power,” he announced ferociously as he whacked the spice cabinet open. “I called Public Service, and they said it would be at least an hour before electricity was restored. What is the matter with these people?”

His anger dissolved my resolution not to pry. “Tell me how you’re doing,” I said.

He faced me, clenching two glass spice jars. His skin was gray, his eyes bloodshot. He had cut himself shaving and a corner of tissue stuck to his cheekbone. “How do you think I’m doing?”

I said nothing.

He turned away. “I’m sorry. I know you care. I just … don’t want to talk about what happened day before yesterday.” He measured out cinnamon and added in a low voice, “I’m not ready.”

“Look, Julian, I don’t know if it’s such a good idea for you to be doing this brunch today. Why don’t you let me call somebody in to help? Maybe one of your classmates from Elk Park Prep could come over. It’s just not that big a deal to get a temporary server.”

“No, no,” he said angrily as he measured ground cloves. “I’ve got the whole day mapped out. All I need is some fucking electricity.”

“It’ll come back on just when I’m leaving,” I told him as I opened the refrigerator. “It’s called Murphy’s Law of Food Preparation.”

“Huh?”

“Oh, nothing.” I got out the covered containers of ribs, salad, bread, and cookies. The walk-in refrigerator would stay cold for several hours if the door was not opened too often. Lucky for me the organizers of the fair were providing butane burners and grills for heating food. I couldn’t imagine serving—much less eating—cold barbecued ribs at ten o’clock in the morning.

Julian set aside the spices and began to dice the onion. “Coronary Care Unit visiting hours are the first ten minutes of every hour,” he continued in a clipped, controlled tone. “I’m going down when I finish the chamber shindig. Is the hospital staff going to give me a hard time? Should I tell them she’s my aunt Marla? That sounds kind of funny, I’ve never called her that before. I mean, really, I’ve been on my own for quite a while.”

“As long as you’re there the first ten minutes, you’ll be fine. I was there yesterday, and the receptionist guarding the doors to the CCU was like a female Doberman. But Marla’s doctor’s pretty nice, although she treats him terribly.” Julian shook his head morosely. I continued. “The doc wants her to have as much emotional support from visitors as she can get. Why don’t you come get me at the mall? My time at the food fair will be up by then, and we can go see her together.”

He set aside the onion and washed his hands. “Okay. I have the chamber brunch, then cleanup, then drive down and pick you up at the food fair, then go see Marla. Does that sound okay? I wanted to take Arch with me, but he said he promised Todd they could go to a record swap this afternoon. The thunder woke us up last night, so we talked about his plans.” His words were still coming out fast, much faster than usual. “Arch wanted to help me today too. But I said no. I asked him if I could help him find some sixties albums.” Julian took a breath and poured sugar into a measuring cup. It cascaded over the top and he cursed softly. “I mean, I’ve been promising him all summer that I’d help him with his new hobby and I haven’t done any of it. Plus I was going to take him to some veterinarian’s office yesterday.” He reached for the cider vinegar and measured it carefully. “Now I’ll have lots of time. I guess. We can go to the animal hospital. I don’t know much about sixties music, though, like Jimi Hendrix—” He broke off, slammed the bottle of vinegar on the counter, and clasped his arms around his shivering body.

“Julian, don’t—” I put my arms around him. I couldn’t bear to see someone so young in such pain. I murmured to him how sorry I was, that the whole situation was awful, to go ahead and cry all he wanted, that he should forget the damn chamber brunch. I’d order everything in from the Chinese place.

“If I just knew why,” he sobbed into my shoulder. “If I just knew who would do this! God! What is the matter with the world?”

“I know. It’s screwed up.”

“I feel as if—” He choked on his words, then said, “Life is so stupid. It is just dumb, that’s all. When something like this can happen and people just go on … Oh, what’s the point?”

Again I replied that I didn’t know. My heart felt painfully heavy. Would he please take a day off, I begged. But Julian merely shook his head, and said he was doing the brunch. Just could I stop talking about it, he asked me. He looked disconsolately around the kitchen and then began to arrange frozen rolls on a rack to thaw.

The phone rang. A woman from the church was volunteering to contact an excellent private nurse for Marla. I thanked her and said that would be wonderful. Would I be at the early service this Sunday to tell the parish how Marla was doing, she asked. I replied that I would.

When I hung up, I touched Julian’s arm. “Will you call Tom today and check in occasionally? Please? I won’t be near a phone, and I’m going to be a wreck worrying about you—”

“Sure, of course.” He managed a mirthless smile. “When we were talking during the storm, Arch told me—real serious, you know how he is—that he was going to stick to me like epoxy all morning while I was cooking. He swore he’d call an ambulance if I went into shock.” Julian chuckled morbidly. I sighed. “So I told him to concentrate on the Mothers of Invention and I’d worry about the fathers of commerce. Tell you what, Goldy. I didn’t want to mention that even if he finds some of those old LPs, he’s never going to get hold of a system that’ll play them.”

“Who’s fighting?” demanded a sleepy Arch. He stood in the doorway of the kitchen. “I heard you guys.”

“Nobody,” I assured him. This morning, my son was wearing an oversize black T-shirt that said GO PANTHERS! on it. Looking for memorabilia from the civil rights movement, Arch had been overjoyed to find the tattered thing at the Aspen Meadow secondhand store. I hadn’t had the heart to tell him it was the booster uniform from the Idaho Springs High School football team.

He pushed his glasses up his nose. His straw-brown hair stuck out in all directions, like a game of pick-up sticks. “Don’t you need to leave, Mom?”

“Yes, yes.” But I didn’t move.

Arch turned to Julian and frowned. “Okay, here I am. Why don’t you give me something to chop for the brunch you’re doing?”

Julian said, “Why don’t you sit down and have breakfast, Eldridge, and then I will.”

Arch plopped into a kitchen chair, caught my eye, and gave me a nodding scowl: Everything’s going to be okay here, his look said. Sometimes our clan felt like a pride of lions, everyone protective of everyone else. I scooped up the first chafing dish and walked outside.

With all their more harmful consequences, at least the storms had brought a welcome break in the weather. A breeze ruffled my chef’s jacket. I hustled past Tom’s garden. Cabbage butterflies and iridescent hummingbirds flitted from red dianthus to purple Corsican violet. Aspen leaves that had stirred so languidly on their pale branches two days before now quivered, as if in anticipation of a change in season. In Aspen Meadow, fall usually begins in the middle of August, which was just six weeks away. In the distance, patches of brilliant sunlight on breeze-rippled Aspen Meadow Lake quilted the water with sparkles.

When I came back in, Arch was eating one of the cranberry-orange muffins Julian had made on Wednesday. I packed the food and the second chafer into the van. Julian insisted on hauling out the dry ice and the speed cart, where the cups of salad would stay cold. At the last moment I remembered the bleach water. The vat of bleach water is a necessary hygiene element for utensils when no running water is available. I packed the closed chlorine-smelling vat in last. With a coffee-deprivation headache percolating, I fervently hoped that one of the food fair booths would offer espresso, and plenty of it.

The van choked, coughed, and wheezed before moving unenthusiastically out of the driveway. An inch-thick spew of stones and gravel covered our road and Main Street. When I exited Interstate 70 and moved into the heavy stream of summer-in-the-suburbs traffic, my temperature gauge flickered upward ominously. The first surge of Denver’s hot air filled the van, and I thought of Julian, with us for a year, part of the family. After his outburst in the kitchen, he had warned me brusquely to have something to eat before I started working. He’d said, You don’t want to faint in that heat. I took a bite of one of the muffins he had placed on a napkin in the passenger seat. The tart cranberries and Grand Marnier combined for a heady taste. I remembered how energetically Julian had banged the tin into the oven before Claire arrived. And then his agonized questions from this morning echoed in my ear: Who would do this? Why …

I put on the turn signal to go back to Aspen Meadow. Turned it off. Turned it back on. Leave him alone, my inner voice warned. If you do the chamber brunch, you’ll only be saying you think he’s incompetent. Reluctantly, I turned off the ticker and resolved to stick with the day’s plan. After all, the mall opened at eight for special sales in all the stores, and folks were going to come up to the food fair famished from shopping. At least, that was my hope.

“Hey, lady! Make up your mind! The light’s gonna change!” came a shout from a convertible behind me.

When the light turned, I gritted my teeth and urged the van forward. I decided to concentrate on the morning ahead. But I had never done a food fair before, and the idea filled me with unhappy anticipation.

Booths at A Taste of Furman County were much sought after, although it was hard to figure out why. Great publicity, I guessed. The big beneficiary of the event was Playhouse Southwest. For the hundreds of servings the playhouse auxiliary told the food folks to provide each day, none of us was compensated. Visitors to the fair, though, paid forty bucks a pop to obtain the official bracelets that allowed them into the tent-festooned roof of the mall garage. The open air was necessary for ventilation, and the roof provided views of Denver’s suburban sprawl to the east and the Front Range of the Rockies to the west Once inside the roped-off area, tasters were promised that horror of horrors, all you can eat, which to food people translates as until we run out. There had been so much demand for booths from local restaurateurs, chef’s, and caterers who wanted to offer their wares, the organizers had even split up the serving times into two-hour shifts. I did not know whether potential clients would be likely to shop or eat during my daily slot from ten to noon. I certainly hoped that they’d stop by my booth, be enthralled and enchanted, and whip out their calendars—and checkbooks—to sign me up for all kinds of profitable new bookings. Otherwise, I was going to be very upset. Not to mention out about a thousand bucks’ worth of supplies.

My van sputtered and slowed behind a line of traffic crawling toward the mall garage entrance. After a moment I saw what was once again causing the slowdown. At the side of the parking lot, by the elegant marble entrance to Prince & Grogan, a crowd of animal rights’ demonstrators waved placards that read MIGNON COSMETICS BRING DEATH—DEATH TO MIGNON COSMETICS! Shaman Krill, arms outstretched, hair wild, was leading the crowd in a chant that I couldn’t quite make out. The row of cars stopped. I reached across and gingerly rolled down the passenger-side window.

“Death on your hands! Death on your face!”

A uniformed officer was directing traffic. The van crept forward. As I neared the shouting demonstrators, my hands became clammy on the steering wheel. Three parked sheriff’s department vehicles seemed to indicate that the police weren’t just there to head cars up the ramps.

“Death isn’t pretty! Death’s pretty gritty!”

Maybe there were other cops I couldn’t see who were keeping an eye on the activists. Or perhaps the officers were there as part of the continuing investigation into Claire’s murder. From the small crowd of people pushing through the nearby door to Foley’s department store, it looked as if shoppers were avoiding the protest. This, undoubtedly, was the deterrent the demonstrators wanted, since Mignon was carried exclusively by Prince & Grogan.

“Food fair or shopping?” the policeman asked when my van was finally first in line.

“Food fair.”

He pointed to the far right side of the ramp, where a food service truck was lumbering up to the top level. When I slowly accelerated away from the cop, there was a thud on the side of the van, and then another. Frantically scanning the mirrors, I thought I must have been hit by a car backing up, when Shaman Krill’s face leered at the partly open passenger-side window.

“Hey! Caterer! Going to throw any more food around today? What’re you serving, slaughtered cow?”

I leaned on the horn with one hand and rolled down the driver-side window with the other.

“Help!” I yelled. “Help, help!”

The policeman hustled over. By the time I could tell him one of the demonstrators had harassed me, Shaman Krill had disappeared. Even when I stopped the van and hopped out to look where he’d gone, I couldn’t see the activist’s dark, bobbing head in the crowd. The policeman asked if I wanted to file a report. I said no. I quickly told him that Investigator Tom Schulz was my husband, and that I’d tell him all about it, but that at the moment I was late to set up for the food fair. The officer reluctantly let me go, with the admonition to be careful.

I climbed back in the driver’s seat and pressed firmly on the accelerator. The van whizzed up the ramp of the parking garage. Yellow police ribbons around the place where Claire died came into view. I averted my eyes.

I pulled into a parking space, pinned on my official Food-Fair Server badge, and glanced at my watch. Eight-thirty. A little over an hour remained to get everything set up on the roof before the inspector showed up with his trusty little thermometer to see if my hot food was hot enough and my cold food sufficiently chilly. The diagram of food fair booths showed my booth was next to the stairway up from the second-floor garage entrance to Prince & Grogan. A stream of weight-wielding walkers impeded my schlepping the first load of boxes to the elevator, but I finally made it. Within thirty minutes I had wheeled, carted, and hauled my stuff into place. I put out my ads with sample menus and price lists, fired up the butane burner, and waited for the grills to heat. And then, oh, then, I thanked the patron saints of cappuccino that right across from the spot allocated to Goldilocks’ Catering was a booth with the sign PETE’S ESPRESSO BAR.

I slapped the first batch of ribs on the grill and dashed across the makeshift aisle to the deliciously appetizing smell. With more success than I would have thought possible, Pete had been running a coffee place at Westside Mall since the shopping center had been refurbished. He’d taken it upon himself to run a wonderfully inventive promotional campaign, including taking nighttime orders for hot coffee drinks delivered first thing in the morning to nearby businesses. He called it Federal Espresso. Today, Pete, a thirtyish, dark-haired fellow who had managed both to transport and get a power source for an enormous steam-driven Rancilio machine, was wearing a T-shirt that said NEED COFFEE DELIVERED? USE ESPRESSO MALE. He instantly recognized the symptoms of latte-deprivation and fixed me a tall one with three shots. I sipped it gratefully while looking eastward off the garage roof. A beautiful old neighborhood called Aqua Bella was not half a mile away, and the rooftops of the large, older homes were just visible—the turrets of a pale Victorian, the chimneys of an Edwardian. It wasn’t as good as looking at the lake and the mountains with my morning coffee, but it was okay.

“Gorgeous, isn’t it?” said a dreamy voice. “Wouldn’t you just love to live over there?” Dusty Routt sighed gustily. “Someday. When I get out of this place,” she added bitterly.

“I like Aspen Meadow, actually,” I replied. Dusty looked better than the day before—calmer, more in control. For which I was grateful. “Denver’s too crowded,” I added. “How are you doing? Better?”

“Well, I … how’s Julian?”

“Not so hot.”

She sighed again. “I guess I’m doing better. I’m just getting some coffee before I go work,” she said apologetically, and turned to Pete. She shook the food fair bracelet past the cuff of her dark green Mignon uniform to show him. “I’ll take two chocolate-dipped biscotti to go with the latte.” She picked up one of the pamphlets Pete was offering, The History and Science of Coffee. “Better make that three biscotti,” she said. She wrinkled her nose and gave me the pamphlet when Pete handed across her drink and pile of cookies. While Pete tried to sell her some Sumatra Blend, I read that according to legend, coffee provided mental alertness, a cure for catarrh, an antidote for hemlock, and a lessening of the symptoms of narcolepsy. I could have used some narcolepsy last night. I tossed the pamphlet into a trash can. Dusty politely refused Pete’s offer for a discount on the Sumatra, picked up her breakfast, and said in a confidential tone, “You know, Goldy, I really shouldn’t be doing this food fair. I mean, forty bucks, and the mall workers don’t even get a discount! But the bracelet’s good all day … maybe I’ll have something nutritious during my break. I just need to get a little sugar in my system before I go out there and sell, sell, sell.”

I sipped Pete’s marvelous latte and glanced at the ribs. They were now sending up savory swirls of smoke. “That’s okay. Julian already told me about what cosmetics folks eat.”

A look of worry crossed Dusty’s pretty, chubby face. “But … did he come with you? Is he okay? They called all the reps last night to tell us about the police investigation….” She faltered. This morning, Dusty’s short, orange-blond hair was coiffed in a spill of stiff waves framing her cherub-cheeked face. Although I knew she was only eighteen, her heavy matte makeup, dark-lined eyes, too-rosy streaks of blush, and prominent blue eyeshadow made her look much older. Lack of sleep and worry lines didn’t help. Not to mention dealing with the news that one of your colleagues had been killed.

“What did they say to the reps?” I asked.

“I have to get back,” she said abruptly. “Come with me? I’d like to talk to you, since we didn’t really have a chance yesterday. And it seems as if we never get to when we’re in the neighborhood. You’re always cooking or going off somewhere, and I have Colin to take care of, since Mom never feels very well….”

I glanced at my watch again: nine-twenty. There was still no sign of the goateed health inspector, and I did want to get the second half of my banquet payment from Mignon before things got too busy…. Nodding to Dusty, I quickly removed the juicy ribs from the grill and drafted a food fair volunteer to guard my supplies for twenty minutes. Then I picked up my coffee and walked with Dusty to Prince & Grogan.

“How is your mother, Dusty? I haven’t seen her for a while.”

Dusty snorted. “Heartbroken.”

“Heartbroken?” I repeated. “Why?”

“Well,” said Dusty as she finished her first cookie. “First she fell in love with my dad, had me, and then he left. They never got married, and of course I never knew him. So good old Mom worked hard as a secretary to raise me, and then, not too long ago, she got a chance to have a house, finally, through Habitat for Humanity. And what did she do? Fell in love with the plumber. The plumber working on the Habitat house! She was thirty-eight, he was twenty-five, but never mind! That woman, my dear mother, is gorgeous, she’s passionate, she has no idea of the meaning of birth control. So the plumber got her pregnant with Colin, and it’s bye-bye Aspen Meadow Plumbing Service! I heard from somebody that he drove his little pipe-filled pickup truck to the Western Slope, where he could start all over, donating his services to charity.” Through a bite of biscotti, she mumbled, “At a discount.”

“I’m sorry.” Actually, I knew the details of this particular story from Marla. Strikingly stunning Sally Routt, Dusty’s mother, a single mother with an aging father and a teenage daughter, had become involved with the young, plain-looking town plumber. Had Sally hoped he would marry her when she became pregnant? Who knew? I never saw Sally Routt when she was expecting, because she’d gone into seclusion, and then reportedly suffered through a difficult, premature childbirth. The plumber, with his sad round face and round eyes behind glass-rimmed spectacles, had departed Aspen Meadow at night, leaving behind accounts receivable and one emotional debt unpaid.

“Don’t tell the people at your church, okay?” Dusty pleaded, suddenly conscience-stricken. “Heartbroken or not, Mom’s living in fear that she’ll lose the house on, like, moral grounds.”

It was all I could do not to laugh. For Dusty to think that her mother’s sad tale had not flowed through our parish with the speed of water through broken pipes was painfully naive. On the other hand, nobody in town seemed to know why Dusty had been expelled from Elk Park Prep, so maybe you could keep some secrets in Aspen Meadow. But at least the Routts were managing to keep a part of their bad news under wraps. “Well,” I said, “are you recovering from hearing about Claire’s death? How did you finally hear about what happened, anyway?”

“Recovering? How can you recover from that? Nick Gentileschi, head of security, called everybody Wednesday night to tell us the bad news.” She shuddered, then daintily bit into another cookie. “You might have seen Nick day before yesterday? He was outside in the garage with the guys from Mignon, when they were watching for those stupid demonstrators. He was, like, crying and all on the phone,” she went on. “Nick really thought a lot of Claire. Everybody did, actually. You could talk to her, and she was so enthusiastic about the products…. Anyway, he said it was a hit-and-run and they were going to step up the security police patrols of the parking garage, to look for careless drivers. I’m thinking, like, it’s a little late for that. You know?”

I thought of Julian sobbing in my arms. Maybe Nick Gentileschi and I could have a little chat. After I got my check, of course.

“Dusty?” I said suddenly. “Do you want to have lunch?”

To my dismay, she became embarrassed. We were standing awkwardly in the mall hallway outside the Prince & Grogan entrance. “You want to have lunch with me? Why? You mean as part of the food fair?”

“Sure. I have a friend in the hospital across the street—” This wasn’t coming out right. And I need to pass the time before visiting hours? And I want to know what’s really going on at that cosmetics counter? What kind of problems does the department store have, exactly? No, those explanations wouldn’t wash. “I have a friend in the hospital across the street, and she loves fattening food but can’t have any.” I stopped to think. How much cash did I have? For all my worry about money, I carried little beyond a single credit card and an emergency hundred-dollar bill. Dusty was looking at me with raised, perfectly plucked eyebrows. Her eyeshadow this morning gleamed like the hummingbirds in Tom’s garden.

“You’re going to eat for your friend?” she asked. “That is radical, I’ve never heard of being sympathetic like that, I’m like, totally blown away—”

“No, that’s not exactly it.” We walked inside. “Here’s what I was thinking,” I said. “You could sell me something that I can take to my friend. Hand cream, lipstick, makeup, I don’t care. Then we can go around and sample the food fair. Twelve-fifteen? I’ll pick you up?”

“Actually,” she said in a low, hesitant voice, “no, I can’t do it. If that’s okay. I’m behind on my sales for the last two months, so I’ve been asking to work through the noon hour. That’s when most of the women shop. You know, they’re on their lunch hours. Or businessmen visit us then, for their wives’ birthdays, and they want to buy perfume or something…. Why don’t you come in and get your stuff when you finish at the fair?” She swallowed the last bit of cookie and attempted a cheerful grin. “But I need to go now.”

We had arrived at the long, brightly lit Mignon counter. It faced the store entrance, prime shopping space that Mignon used to good advantage with sparkling mirrors, gilt decorations, and several video screens. I promised Dusty I’d see her later, then stood transfixed in front of the video screens. In my hurry yesterday, I had not stopped to watch the short films. The first showed impossibly thin twenty-year-old women frolicking beside a fountain. Gaping at them were what looked like well-built Italian movie stars posing as construction workers. Another video showed people clapping wildly as skinny models sashayed down runways wearing dresses that dripped long strands of beads. They were not the kind of outfits I could wear to the grocery store. But it was the third film that made me groan aloud. A lovely young woman knelt by the flat tire on her car just as an impossibly gorgeous guy drove up in his white convertible. Within five seconds she was driving off in the convertible with the fellow. With Mignon makeup, the video implied, you can even save on Triple-A dues!

Harriet Wells appeared and gave me a huge smile. The head sales associate wore her green smock and diamond-cluster earrings, and as usual her spun-gold hair was done up in an impeccable twist. “The caterer again!” she exclaimed. “Nick Gentileschi was looking for you, something about your check. Want me to see if he’s in his office?”

I nodded. “That would be great, thanks.”

She drew out a foil-wrapped package from underneath the counter. “My spice muffins. Why don’t you try one and tell me what you think is in it?” She treated me to another sparkling grin. “Free perfume sample if you guess correctly. I’ll be right back.” And with that, she turned on her high heels and moved to the phone by the cash register.

The foil crinkled in my hand. I didn’t really care about perfume samples, but I was a sucker for a bet on my tasting abilities. The muffins were tiny and golden, and flecked with something brown. I took a bite and then another: crunchy, with zucchini and cinnamon. Delicious. As I calculated what it would take to reproduce them—honey for the sweetener, large, ripe, extra-juicy zucchini, filberts chopped fine … I had the uncomfortable feeling that I was being watched.

I glanced around to the shoe department. A tall man with wild, white-blond hair had been looking at sale espadrilles. Now he was staring at me with his mouth open. Maybe it was against the rules to eat muffins inside the store. I swallowed the last bite, straightened up, and pretended to be studying the face cream display that cried: You deserve to be retextured! There was a tipped mirror a little farther down the counter. I moseyed over and acted preoccupied with my reflection.

Harriet’s smile was icy when she returned to me. “The head of security is occupied and can’t look for your check at the moment. He wanted to know if you could come back later?”

Occupied doing what, I wondered. Clearly Harriet was also upset that the head of security was unavailable.

I said that was fine, thanked Harriet, and told her her muffin was made with zucchini, filberts, and cinnamon. She laughed her high tinkling laugh and rewarded me with two perfume samples: One was called Foreplay and the other was Lies. I never wanted the samples, I just wanted the muffin. Oh, well.

Back at the food fair, I tossed the samples into the same trash can where I’d thrown Pete’s pamphlet and hustled back to my booth. The volunteer was happy to be relieved. I put the first batch of ribs back on the grill, readied the second batch, and lit the Sterno for the chafers. As promised, another of the fair volunteers brought hot water for the bain-marie, the water bath for the chafing dish. This was so that as soon as the first batch of ribs was done, I could move the meat into a heated serving area. And none too soon, as the health inspector showed up just slightly later than scheduled. He impassively surveyed the spread and plunked his trusty thermometer first into the pile of cooked ribs, then the salad being kept cold in the speed cart. He wiped, the thermometer meticulously each time, giving a little nod. He asked to see the bleach water and I showed it to him. Then he nodded approvingly, refused a cookie, and moved on to the next booth.

Within moments the first batch of visitors shaking their little food fair bracelets appeared on our line of booths. The mall walkers, who had clustered, giggling, around Pete’s coffee machine, descended on my booth as if they hadn’t eaten in a month. The ribs bubbled invitingly in the barbecue sauce, and I transferred two at a time from the chafer to small paper plates next to the cups of strawberry-sugar snap pea salad, slices of cranberry bread, and piles of frosted fudge cookies. Cries of “Oh, no, I’m supposed to buy a bathing suit today” did not remotely allay appetites. Thank goodness. Hunger makes the best sauce, my two-hundred-fifty-pound fourth-grade teacher had once said, and it seemed she was right.

For the next two hours I was so busy filling plates, cooking ribs, and chatting with shoppers about how Goldilocks’ Catering could turn their next party into an event that I barely noticed anything outside my own food space. At eleven fifty-five, however, the two co-owners of Upcountry Barbecue showed up to claim my booth, and I was forced to take stock.

“Aw, no, Roger,” exclaimed one, “she’s got barbecue too! This is gonna ruin us!”

“I don’t see any Rocky Mountain oysters,” replied Roger with a smirk. “You gal-cooks just don’t have the guts to serve real western food. Ain’t that right?”

I grinned at Roger and his partner. “I know the women who frequent this mall will love the sliced reproductive organ of buffalo. Especially if you roast ’em, put ’em on croissants, and tell the gals exactly what you’re serving. Ain’t that right, boys?”

Roger and partner exchanged a rueful glance. They’d forgotten the damn croissants.

My food was gone. A hundred fifty portions in two morning hours wasn’t bad, I figured, and I’d given out over a hundred menus and price lists. The grills and speed cart would be cleaned by the food fair staff and stay locked in place, so I had only one box of supplies to take down to the van. Once the box was stashed, I leaned against the closed van doors. Sudden inactivity made me realize just how hot and exhausted I was. I’d get my check, chat with Dusty, reconnoiter with Julian, visit Marla, then go home and crash. At least that was what I planned as I hauled myself up and walked down toward the entrance to Prince & Grogan. Before I could get there, however, I stopped and shuddered.

Maybe I have too active an imagination. Maybe I watch too many movie reruns with Arch. But seeing people—or even those boys in the film version of Lord of the Flies—wearing war paint just sends fear ripping through my bloodstream. People can hide their basest selves behind a veneer of fierce black and white stripes. Transformed, they can claim not to be responsible for what they do. I didn’t know whether I was willing to be the victim of irresponsible aggression as I now stood facing at least sixty war-painted demonstrators jostling each other and their signs in back of police sawhorses by the Prince & Grogan entrance.

“When you buy, rabbits die!” they shouted at the few customers brave enough to scuttle timidly past the saw-horses and into the store.

Worse, there wasn’t a policeman in sight. But then a woman strode confidently to the store entrance. Oh, Lord. The woman entering through the highly polished doors thirty paces in front of me was Frances Markasian.

She had told me on the phone she was coming to see me at the mall food fair. She hadn’t shown up. And yet here she was, going into Prince & Grogan.

My check could wait. I swallowed hard and decided to follow Frances. When I came to the sawhorses, the demonstrators surged forward and screeched.

“Are you dying for mascara?”

“Do you care that innocent animals are tortured for your makeup?”

One waved a sign directly in front of my face: DIE FOR BEAUTY it proclaimed, with a photograph of a pile of dead rabbits. I felt my face turning red, but I concentrated on getting through the doors on the track of the Mountain Journal’s premier investigative reporter.

Someone’s elbow jostled me and my ears rang from the shouted insults, but moments later, I was safely inside. I scanned the opulent store interior. Frances Markasian had made a detour into accessories and was fingering the various leathers of expensive handbags. Once again she was, as my parents would say, all dolled up. This time she sported a scarlet dress with a flared skirt, scarlet heels, and scarlet scarf twisted in some remarkably woven way through her mass of black hair. I quickly paralleled her step as she minced past a table display of wallets and headed for the far side of the Mignon counter. I slithered into the shoe department that faced that side of the cosmetics counter. Frances had spied on me so many times that I felt no compunction about seeing what she was up to this time. It had even become something of a game between us. Whatever today’s game was, the fact that it required two disguises in three days made it extremely interesting.

“I’m here because I need help with my face,” I heard Frances inform Harriet Wells. Dusty was waiting on a man I vaguely recognized—the tall blond fellow I’d seen in the shoe department that morning. Maybe he was an undercover cop.

Harriet looked at Frances and frowned. “What would you say is the skin problem you’d like to correct the most?” she asked politely.

Out in the aisle between the cosmetics counter and the shoe department, a five-tiered display of plastic boxes filled with a navy-blue and gold display of Mignon lipsticks, soaps, toners, and creams offered a hiding place. I ducked behind it.

Within moments, Harriet’s voice rose slightly. She was trying to sell Frances some concealer, and Frances was making such uncharacteristically enthusiastic responses that I ducked around the plastic box holding the Fudge Mousse lipstick and Nectarine Desire blush for a better view. From there, I could watch Harriet without her seeing me, since all her attention was focused on Frances, who was whining, “But I just want to look younger.” Uh-huh.

“This is Rejuvenation, the newest product to come out of Mignon’s European labs.” Harriet delicately gripped the pale, ribbed cylindrical bottle. “It has biochromes in it, and just look at what it’s done for my skin.” She lifted her free palm like a fan toward her superbly painted face. “I’m sixty-two,” she declared with a sunny smile. “Rejuvenation will take two decades off your face.”

“Sixty-two?” Frances echoed with loud incredulity as she shifted uncomfortably in the red spike heels. “I would have sworn you weren’t a day over fifty-five!”

A tiny frown appeared between Harriet’s eyebrows, then swiftly disappeared. I myself wouldn’t have put Harriet’s age over fifty.

“The biochromes penetrate to the deepest layer of the skin. They actually stop the aging process,” Harriet announced proudly.

“Is that right? How much for a big bottle of that?” Frances asked brightly.

“Well,” mused Harriet, “you need all the preparations to do the complete job. It’s like the four basic food groups. First we start with the pre-cleanser….” Here she frowned at Frances and shook her head. “Here, you hold the Rejuvenation while I look for the right cleanser for your skin.” She handed the bottle to Frances, who turned it, held it out at arm’s length, and grimaced. Harriet groped beneath the counter. When she reemerged, she gave Frances’s face a swift, shrewd assessment. “It really does look as if you have quite a bit of damage to your skin. Did your dermatologist send you?” When Frances shook her head, Harriet asserted, “You could certainly benefit from one of our rejuvenating cleansers …” and then she chided and explained and piled creams and cosmetics on the counter until Frances’s tab was, by my reckoning, well over four hundred dollars.

I leaned in closer to Harriet and Frances, but was stunned to be interrupted in my eavesdropping by a stocky fellow who edged in beside me and asked: “What are they saying?” He smiled at me as if this were some kind of joke only the two of us were in on. He had dark brown hair and short, stubby fingers that he drummed on his knees as he crouched next to me.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I replied huffily, and straightened up.

“Is that your boyfriend?” he asked as if he hadn’t heard my answer. His accent was flat and midwestern. His arms seemed too short for his body when he gestured knowingly in the direction of the tall blond man with Dusty.

“He is not my boyfriend. Would you please go away?”

He opened his eyes wide, as if I’d refused to laugh at his joke. Then he touched the badge on my white jacket. “Are you really a chef? I mean, you’re wearing one of those coats. Is your restaurant here in the mall?”

“As a matter of fact, it is. Two of my coworkers are right nearby.” Maybe I could frighten this guy away with the threat of numbers.

“Really?” He looked around. “They won’t mind if I talk to their boss, will they? How long have you been here?”

“Look, mister, please, please, please go away—”

But the guy raised a thick brown eyebrow and didn’t move. Emboldened by my ability to be convincingly dishonest at the hospital, I improvised wildly. “Actually, I work for the department store. You might have read about the accident we had in the mall garage day before yesterday?” He pursed his lips and nodded sympathetically. “That blond fellow over there is an undercover cop who’s questioning a suspect, and I’m supposed to pay attention … so can you please leave so I can do my job?”

He ran his hands over one of the plastic boxes stacked in front of us. “This is so much more interesting than shopping for my niece’s birthday.”

“Are you listening to me? At the moment I’m doing something extremely important and confidential,” I said desperately. When he looked skeptical, I hissed: “Look buster, what I’m trying to tell you is I——work——for——store——security.”

“No kidding?”

“No kidding.”

He took me gently by the arm and said, “We need to have a talk.”

“Get your fingers off me,” I said fiercely, unwilling to give up my hiding spot without a protest. “Let go, or I will pull so hard that I’ll drag you right out of the store with me! And the whole time I’ll be yelling so loud, the security SWAT team will come running!”

The guy grinned. His grip on my arm tightened almost imperceptibly. “We need to have a talk real bad.”

That did it. “Security!” I shrieked, and began to wriggle. I had a brief glimpse of Frances, Harriet, Dusty, and the blond guy gaping as I twisted and flailed and tried to shake the man’s arm off me. In my thrashing, I fell against the piled boxes. The clear containers with all their lipsticks, creams, toners, and soaps tumbled. My tormentor braced his legs and continued to imprison me in a viselike grip.

“Security!” I screamed. I thrashed and felt my hose rip. “Help!” I called again. Why wasn’t anyone helping me? “Somebody from security come now!”

The man leaned down. “Lady, I’m here,” he said.

I’ve had humiliating escalator rides in my day. The afternoon of a banquet for Brunswick sales reps, I lost control of an oversize box of bowling-ball-size handmade chocolates. I shrieked in futile warning as chocolate globes pelted the escalator steps and ten fur-coated women went sprawling: a strike. Another time, two-year-old Arch threw up all over me and several nearby teenage boys. The boys were extremely unsympathetic. This in spite of the fact that at Arch’s age they had probably also overindulged in hot dogs and milk shakes.

Unquestionably, though, this was the most humiliating escalator ride of my life. This stocky, brown-haired guy—this lackey who mumbled that his name was Stan White—was presumably taking me to Nick Gentileschi, head of security at Prince & Grogan. Once we were on the escalator, Stan released my arm and quickly stepped behind my back. It was obviously a practiced maneuver, the kind a policeman or a security guy makes when he thinks his perp might bolt. I can’t say I wasn’t considering it.

I tried to ignore all the staring people. They were below us, they were above us, they were pointing from the descending escalator paralleling ours. The usual high, excited hum of shoppers chatting about what they had bought or what they needed to buy ceased as the onlookers swiftly took in our little twosome—the cowering woman in the chef’s jacket with a rent-a-cop parked right behind her. It was a particular challenge to ignore a gaping Frances Markasian. You could see the mental wheels whirring to compose a headline: Caught Caterer Cringes! Wife of Homicide Investigator Apprehended after Struggle by Fudge Mousse Lip Gloss.

“You are making a huge mistake—” I began to say.

Stan White shook his head regretfully. “Lady, if I had a nickel for every time I’ve heard that line….”

Well, this was just great. The steps moved inexorably upward, past the top of the Mignon counter with its display of shiny white bags stuffed with pink tissue paper, past the elephantine Chinese-style planters sprouting fake palm trees. Just don’t let any clients see me, I prayed fervently.

No such luck. A large woman was leaning over the railing next to the escalator at the second floor landing, just above the cosmetics counter. When she straightened up, my heart sank to new depths. The last person I wanted to see at this moment was Babs Meredith Braithwaite. Even so, I might have avoided her if she hadn’t inched over so that the security guy and I collided with her on our rough arrival at the second floor. We stared at each other. Babs’s rust-colored suit trimmed with white was somewhat rumpled; her white blouse was hanging out. Her rust skirt slanted crookedly above her brown and white spectator pumps, as if the skirt were unzipped. Nor was her hair as meticulously poufed as it had been two days before. Today it looked like a windblown bird’s nest. She was clutching her purse, which was open, as if it had been hastily snatched up. She was panting. She looked as if she had just shoplifted a diamond brooch, when all she’d been doing was spying on the Mignon counter, or so I assumed. The nefarious possibility that I could sic Stan the Security Man on her occurred to me.

“There’s somebody back there,” Babs whispered in a trembly voice to Stan and me. Her hand rose toward the racks of gaily colored bathing suits. She added urgently, “Please help me.” She looked the security guy up and down. “Do you work for the store?”

“Yes,” said Stan curtly. “I’m with security.”

“There’s somebody back there!” Her cheeks were aflame, and it wasn’t blush giving the color. I tried to look around Babs’s wide body. Somebody back where?

Stan White touched my upper arm gently to guide me away from Babs and oncoming traffic spilling from the escalator. When I didn’t move, he put his hands on his hips and set his mouth in a stern frown.

Babs whimpered, “Aren’t you going to help me?”

Stan cleared his throat and pointed at me. “Are you with this woman?” he asked Babs. Confused, she shook her head. Stan concluded, firmly, “Then you’ll have to find a salesperson. I can’t help it if there’s nobody back there.”

“But,” Babs said frantically, grabbing his arm, “there’s somebody back there in the dressing room. You’ve got to come and help me.”

Stan White perked up. This interested him. “Is it a man?” he asked. “In the women’s dressing room?”

“It’s somebody behind the mirror,” insisted Babs. “I heard him cough.” Reluctantly, she released Stan’s arm.

“Lady, please.” The security fellow shook his head, “We haven’t done that kind of surveillance for years. It’s against the law.”

Babs clutched her purse. Her vivid cheeks shook with rage. “But, I’m trying to tell you …! Somebody must have broken in behind the mirrors! Aren’t you going to do anything? What kind of security guard are you anyway?”

Stan bristled. “Okay, look. I have to do something else first. Then I’ll check the dressing room, all right? Please, we need to go.”

“Go where?” she demanded shrilly. “What are you doing with this woman?”

“What we’re doing doesn’t fall under the Freedom of Information Act, lady.”

Babs Braithwaite pressed her lips together. “This …” She looked at me. What was I, exactly? “This … woman is going to be catering an important function for us this weekend. She’s also operating a booth at our Playhouse Southwest benefit, and we can’t have her—”

“When’s your party?” the security fellow asked amiably as he made a no-nonsense gesture to me to walk forward in the direction of the department store offices.

“Why, why—” babbled Babs as she hustled along beside us, past the Japanese china decorated to look like English bone, “—tomorrow,” she finished breathlessly. She slapped her purse down imperiously on a table displaying Waterford crystal. An extremely large and undoubtedly expensive vase teetered, then, miraculously, straightened.

“It’s Friday,” Stan said wearily, without giving Babs so much as a glance. “I promise not to detain her more than twenty-four hours.”

“But … this department store! What is going on—” Babs wailed, while I thought, Twenty-four hours? I don’t think so.

Stan White nudged me through a door that said SECURITY and slammed it with a satisfactory thwack on Babs Braithwaite’s indignant face. A large, imposing man sat behind a large, imposing desk. I felt like the bad kid brought before the principal. Or, since the man who stared at me with such authoritative disdain seemed to be enthroned, make that a disobedient subject tossed in front of the king. From the scowl of the seated man, it was clear he was the one who decided whether the subject was thrown to the lions or was released to work again in the fields of the sovereign.

Stan White discreetly disappeared through a side door. I sat down and eyed the plaque on the desk: NICHOLAS R. GENTILESCHI, DIRECTOR OF SECURITY. Then I took in the man himself. Fiftyish, Nick Gentileschi had a face whose extraordinary pallor was set off by flat jet-black eyes. His dark, receding hair was slicked to one side, except for an errant strand that flopped rakishly over his high-domed forehead. If his suit cost more than fifty dollars, he’d been cheated.

“Sit,” he commanded, gesturing to a wooden chair. Without protest, I obeyed. When Gentileschi said nothing further, I glanced around his windowless office. Like the other still-to-be-refurbished Prince & Grogan offices, the paint on these walls was a disintegrating aquamarine. The department store seemed to care about its appearance everywhere but in its offices, as if prospective employees and would-be criminals weren’t worth the trouble of a lovely décor. On one wall someone had mounted a white-framed painting with a plaque underneath: PRINCE & GROGAN, ALBUQUERQUE. The style of the flagship store was Southwestern via Wonderland. The picture showed a multistoried pink stucco building complete with soaring columns, multistoried glass, and a bulging, gilded entrance. A Pueblo Indian wouldn’t have recognized it as indigenous architecture, that was for sure.

“I didn’t take anything, as you can see,” I said defensively. “I was just looking around.” I rubbed my arm. “Please call the police,” I told Nick Gentileschi firmly. I wasn’t really hurt. Nevertheless, I wanted to act miffed. I knew security people feared lawsuits like the plague. Maybe I should tell him Babs’s story too, about somebody lurking behind the mirror in the women’s dressing room. Then again, maybe not. I didn’t want to confuse him. With an optimism I was far from feeling, I said, “I’m hoping we can get this all straightened out.”

Nick Gentileschi raised his thin eyebrows and tapped a pencil on top of a camera on his desk. Vaguely I wondered if a hidden video camera had somehow monitored my not-so-surreptitious surveillance of the cosmetics counter. “The police?” Gentileschi’s voice grated like sandpaper. He dropped the pencil and began to jingle the keyring hanging from his belt. Then he turned his boxy, pale face sorrowfully toward the picture of the Albuquerque store. “She wants me to call the police.” He grinned, revealing oversize, horselike teeth. “Now, that’s one I haven’t heard. You haven’t stolen anything yet? You want to be cleared before things get worse? Or you have a friend at the sheriff’s department?”

“Please, Mr. Gentileschi.” Acting patient and sweet sometimes worked. I’d give it a whirl. “I know who you are, and Claire Satterfield was a friend of mine—”

The thin eyebrows lifted. “Is that right? A friend of yours? You ever go to her apartment for a party? Where did she live exactly …?”

I sighed. “I didn’t go to any parties, and I don’t know where she lived, somewhere in Denver—” The heck with this. I wondered if I could remember my lawyer’s phone number off the top of my head.

“Now, that’s an interesting friendship when you don’t know where someone lives. Claire was a party girl. Didja know that? Or didn’t you discuss that either in your … friendship?” He sneered the last word. My skin prickled.

“Who do you think you are, the FBI?” I said angrily. “Are you going to make a call or not?”

He opened a desk drawer, got out a form, and then carefully selected a pen. His gleaming black eyes regarded me greedily. “What’s your name and occupation?”

I told him, and he took notes. Then he shifted his weight, smoothed his Grecian-Formula-16 hair with the palm of his hand, and said, “Now, you listen to me, Goldy Schulz, the supposed good friend of Claire Satterfield. We have our ways of knowing what’s going on in this store. I know what you were trying to do. I just need to know the reasons. If your answers aren’t satisfactory, I’ll call the cops myself.”

“I can assure you my reasons won’t be satisfactory, since I don’t even know what they were.”

He blinked impassively and, pen poised over his form, waited for me to say more. When I did not, he sighed, put down the pen, picked up the telephone, and raised one eyebrow, as if he were calling my bluff. “Who should I call at the sheriff’s department? Another friend?”

“Homicide Investigator Tom Schulz.”

“I know Schulz. Do you know Schulz? I suppose you’re going to tell me you’re his sister or something.”

I chose not to answer. He wouldn’t believe me anyway.

But to my relief he dialed the sheriff’s department. After a few preliminary murmurings, he managed, thank heaven, to get through to Tom. I watched with no small amount of satisfaction as the security chief’s features quickly registered first smugness (“Caught her acting suspicious by the cosmetics counter”), then discomfort (“No, she didn’t touch any of the goods”), and finally embarrassment (“No, she didn’t hurt anybody or take anything”). But the moment of discomfort passed just as quickly, and Gentileschi confirmed an appointment to meet with Tom later that afternoon. Then he thrust the phone across the desk at me. “He wants to talk to you,” he said glumly.

When I took the receiver, I could hear Tom humming a dirgelike tune.

I said, “The great intellect—”

He was not amused. “Look, I said not like hitting the demonstrator. That means not like being picked up for suspicious activity by department store security.”

“This is not my fault,” I said in a low voice. After all, I was just trying to learn something to help Julian. No matter what the security people said about my presence, I had not caused trouble in the store. “I wasn’t doing anything.”

“Goldy, please remember, we’re trying to work with this guy.”

“I wish you the very best of luck in that particular enterprise,” I said crisply. “Listen, Tom, did you check out that other person I asked you about?” When Gentileschi leaned over just slightly to catch what I was saying, I turned in the wooden chair.

“Double oh seven, what would I do without you? Okay, Miss G. We’re already looking into Hotchkiss. He has a record and he runs a cosmetics place. But I will definitely tell the guys to ream his behind; And don’t worry about Nick, he’s an old friend of ours. Watch out though, he’s got a reputation with women.”

I turned back to look at the polyester-clad, dyed-haired man across the desk from me. “Must say, Tom, I find that extremely hard to believe.”

He chuckled. “Okay, look. I don’t know when I’m going to have another chance to talk to you while you’re down there. And I’ve been hard to reach—”

“No kidding.”

“But there is something you can do. Somebody I need you to talk to, a friend of yours. You think Dusty Routt is the one who might have hinted to Frances Markasian this Krill character was one of Claire’s old boyfriends? He swore to us he didn’t know Claire. Maybe Markasian was baiting you with an idea of hers, see if you’d bite.”

“I’m seeing Dusty at lunchtime, once I get out of prison.” I tried to give Nick Gentileschi a prim look. He smirked.

“Well, the organization called People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals hasn’t heard of Shaman Krill. And neither has the National Anti-Vivisection Society. Hell, even the SPCA swears they don’t have a member named Krill. I don’t know how long he’s been an animal rights activist, but he hasn’t been one long enough to earn him any kind of reputation. Our guys went to bring him in for more questioning, but he’d taken off from his demonstration buddies, and he wasn’t at his apartment. And by the way, none of the demonstrators belong to any of those organizations. The legitimate organizations think Spare the Hares is some kind of wacko splinter group. Anyway. If you think Frances got the idea Krill was Claire’s boyfriend from this Mignon sales associate named Dusty Routt, I’d sure like to hear about it.”

“Why don’t your guys just ask her?”

“We’ve already talked to Dusty Routt. At length. She swears she’s never heard of Shaman Krill. So either she’s lying or your friend Markasian got the info from somebody else, or got it wrong about who the boyfriend was. And speaking of your friend Markasian—”

“You know that person in question is never going to tell me a thing. She’ll protect her sources to the grave.”

“Frances Markasian? Not tell a thing to my Goldy? Never.” Tom chuckled again. “Feed her some doughnuts or something. You know, the way they loosen folks’ tongues by slipping ’em a few drinks? How about a little sodium Pentothal in your chocolate truffle cheesecake?”

I told him I’d do my best and hung up. Truth Serum tiramisu was not in my repertoire, but never mind.

“Well, Mrs. Schulz,” said Nick Gentileschi with that equine grin that made my skin crawl. “Whadya know? Seems you were just the person I was looking for.” Then, without a hint of apology for the fiasco of my in-store “bust” and “interrogation,” he shuffled through an untidy stack of papers next to the camera and retrieved a check. After scanning it, he handed it over: the balance due Goldilocks’ Catering on the Mignon banquet. I stuffed it in my skirt pocket. Gentileschi went on with, “Sorry we didn’t get it to you sooner. Personnel gave it to me when we heard your assistant went to the hospital. As you know, we’re in the middle of a major crime investigation here. An unexplained death doesn’t help the accounts get paid.”

I fingered the check in my pocket. There was something slimy, something Uriah Heepish, about Nick Gentileschi that made me increasingly uneasy. He’d gone straight from badgering and prejudging me to acting as if we were pals. Still, it would be better to have the man on my side than not. And Tom said I should cooperate. “I wasn’t lying when I came up here,” I confessed. “I don’t know why I was listening to what was going on at the counter, except that my assistant, the fellow who went to the hospital, is practically a member of our family. He is—was—Claire’s boyfriend. He’s devastated by her death, and I’m trying to help.”

Nick Gentileschi crossed his arms and wriggled in his chair. “We all cared about Claire, you can count on that. She was a good girl. We’ve stepped up security in the parking lot. Since it looks like foul play, we’re going to help the police in any way we can.”

I said innocently, “Yes, my husband referred to that. I certainly hope you are doing everything to help the case.” I rubbed my arm again. “Everything relevant, that is.”

He glanced at the picture of the home office again, clearly trying to decide what to tell me. He didn’t know how to balance secrecy with my irritation over being falsely arrested. There was an ego thing involved too. He was dying to show me what a big shot he was. I guess Albuquerque sent back good vibes, because he said, “Know what our biggest problem is, Mrs. Schulz?”

I shook my head sympathetically.

“Lawsuits.” Bingo. He exhaled and moved around in his chair, making it squeak. “If Claire Satterfield’s parents decide to sue because they think we have lax security in our parking lot, this store and this mall could go down the tubes all over again.” He raised his chin and added proudly, “I’ve been in this place a long time. Served as security chief when it was Ward’s. And believe me, being unemployed for four years was not something I want to repeat.”

I hadn’t been a psych major for nothing. In good Carl Rogers fashion, I said, “Not something you want to repeat.”

Abruptly, Nick Gentileschi stood up and braced himself against his desk. He looked at me for a moment and I squirmed. Then he announced, “We’re analyzing all the films of her sales, seeing if anyone suspicious turns up too often. But you figure”—he held out his large hands too close to my face and ticked off his points on his fingers—“someone had to know when she was going to be in the parking garage, that she was going to be there at all….”

Uncomfortable with his stare and his sudden closeness, I stood up too, and inched backward. “Figuring out Claire’s whereabouts wouldn’t have been too hard. Especially given that the banquet attracted so many high-rolling customers. Not to mention a few demonstrators.”

“Let me tell you what the problem is,” he said suddenly.

Another problem. I took up refuge against one of the smudged aquamarine walls. “Go ahead.”

“We’re not careful enough in this store,” he said matter-of-factly. “Yeah, we have security. But we’re not warning employees about people who come in with an ulterior motive. Take that guy you were talking to Schulz about.”

I raised my eyebrows innocently, and he grinned. He said, “The one with the record and his own cosmetics place? His name’s Reggie Hotchkiss. He’s around us all the time. I mean, why? What’s the big deal with our cosmetics counter? Guy went to jail in seventy for burning his draft card, destroying federal property. Convicted of trying to break into the CIA. He’s into makeup now because his mommy founded a cosmetics company. Now that he’s in his forties, Mr. Hotchkiss is suddenly interested in making money. Uh-huh. The guy’s spying on us, I say. That’s what I told Schulz. Could be more there, that’s what we’re going to discuss later,” he concluded grimly, “after I escort you out of the store.” He strode to the door and opened it.

“But … I don’t want to leave the store just now. What do you mean by ‘more there’?”

He wagged a finger at me. “Remember Martha Mitchell? Maybe you’re too young. She wanted to get too involved in her husband’s business too. A guy can’t be Attorney General and tend to a wife who’s always meddling.”

“A guy can’t be Attorney General if he’s intent on breaking the law,” I said sweetly.

Gentileschi’s features hardened. “Mrs. Schulz, let’s go.”

As we walked back through the china department, I took a new tack. “I hope you told my husband the details of Hotchkiss’s record, if he didn’t know already.”

“You bet.”

“So tell me,” I continued, “how are you going to analyze these films you were talking about? I mean, where are your cameras?”

He gave me a look that told me I’d lost any tactical advantage I’d had. He wagged a finger at me and said, “I don’t think so.”

“Oh, come on.” We started our descent on the escalator. “I’m just wondering how you saw me. I mean, technology must have changed the way you do things over the years.”

Nick Gentileschi puffed out his chest. “Things haven’t changed that much, I can tell you that.” He raised one of those eyebrows. “And we’re talking some years.” He gestured to a protruding area that framed the entrance to the store just inside the doors. The three-sided frame, which looked like a walled-in deck that had been painted the same color as the store walls, was about six feet wide and deep all the way around—up one side of the entrance, spanning the top of the door, and coming down the other side of the entrance. It faced the Mignon counter. About five feet up the horizontal section of the frame, a large vent extended the length of the front. “I can’t tell you how the cameras work, but I can tell you how we used to do most of our security. See that boxed-in area across from the Mignon counter? They decided not to get rid of it when they renovated the store.” I nodded and studied the large, protruding structure as we descended the escalator. I had never even noticed it before. “It’s called a blind,” Gentileschi went on. “We used to sit up there.”

“A blind?” I repeated.

“Yeah, we’d sit in the blind. Like a duck blind, you know? The place where the hunters sit to watch for the ducks. You can see out, but whoever is hunted can’t see in. Anyway, we’d look out through those vents to see what was going on in the store. We’d watch people. Say a woman picks something up, maybe a bottle of perfume. She wants to steal it but she isn’t sure. She hawks all around….” He slitted his eyes and looked from side to side in imitation. “That’s hawking. She could spend ten minutes trying to make up her mind whether she’s gonna swipe it.” He chuckled. “So say she finally doesn’t lift it. That would really piss us off. So we’d squirt her with Windex. Right through that vent on the blind!”

“Why, Nick,” I said demurely, “I never imagined a security guy could get away with that kind of behavior.”

We had reached the first floor. His warm, moist hand shook mine briefly. “You’d be surprised,” he said. He winked roguishly.

And on that happy note, he headed off for men’s suits.

“Gosh, what happened to you?” exclaimed Dusty when I returned to the Mignon counter. She was picking up the last of the plastic boxes and arranging them on a cart. “What were you doing?”

Harriet Wells, who was waiting on a black woman, tilted her head and smiled to acknowledge my return. Dusty and Harriet must have known I wasn’t stealing anything. Why didn’t they speak up in my defense when they saw Stan White leading me away? Maybe they were taught not to trust anyone. Given what had been happening around this mall lately, perhaps they were spooked by anyone acting odd in their domain.

“I wasn’t doing anything,” I told Dusty, “except trying to see if you were free. But you were talking to some guy.” I gave her a naive, questioning look. “A tall blond guy? I mean, you looked as if you were very involved with him.”

She laughed and waved this away. “Harriet did put me down to work through lunch. So if you come over and let me do your face, you can buy something for your sick friend and we can talk, all at the same time. Then if another customer comes along, if you don’t mind, I can wait on him or her, and then get right back to you.”

I was hungry but said that was fine, helped her stack the last of the plastic boxes on the cart, then asked if I could use the phone by the counter. She told me to go ahead, she’d be right back. Then she wheeled the cart away. I called Southwest Hospital and asked if Marla Korman had had her atherectomy yet. Someone at the nurses’ station reported that Marla had not gone yet, and they did not know when she would be going. Typical.

I meandered over to the counter and listened to Harriet tell her customer that, believe it or not, she, Harriet Wells, had just had her sixty-fifth birthday, and just look at what Rejuvenation cream had done for her skin. The black woman put a ninety-dollar bottle of the stuff on her credit card.

“Here we are,” said Dusty brightly. She nipped behind the counter, flipped through a file box, and retrieved a card.

As she was writing my name at the top, I slid onto one of the high stools on my side of the counter and said, “Tell me where the cameras are.”

Startled, she looked up at me and giggled. Her cheeks colored. She gestured toward a silver half-globe protruding from the ceiling above the shoe department. “That’s like, a one-way mirror. The camera sees out but you can’t see in. It has pan, it has zoom, and it’s watching us all the time. See, check this out.” She ducked behind the counter and came up with a Prince & Grogan hag in one hand and three miniature jars of pink stuff in the other. “These are free samples of Rejuvenation, the new cream Mignon is pushing. I’m allowed to give three samples to each person, which includes me. And of course, it includes you. Anything more than that is considered employee stealing and I’ll be out on my behind. Now, you can bet they’re zooming in on me.” She nodded at the silver half-globe and held up the three jars before putting them in the bag. “Okay,” she said with a laugh, “now you’ve got your free stuff that ordinarily costs ninety bucks a bottle. Let’s take a look at your face. Would you describe your skin as oily?”

Actually, I told her I wouldn’t describe my skin as anything besides normal, because I just didn’t pay that much attention to it. She frowned, and I remembered that when I was a doctor’s wife, I’d worried about my complexion endlessly, and bought all kinds of stuff. I guess it was some kind of sublimation for worry about what was going on in the rest of my life. Your skin is under relentless attack, the ads screamed, and you have to fight back. No kidding. Needless to say, the gumption I’d eventually developed hadn’t come from a bottle. In the money-scrimping years that followed my divorce, the only thing I used on my face was sunscreen. As far as makeup went, I hadn’t missed a thing. And certainly the last thing I wanted to go back to was my endless trips to the counters of La Prairie, Lancôme, and Estée Lauder, seeking the best concealer to cover my black eyes and bruised cheeks, looking for someone who hadn’t waited on me before, hadn’t seen the damage the Jerk liked to inflict.

“Goldy? Hello? You in there? What kind of cleanser are you using now?”

Pulled back to reality, I replied that I used soap.

“Soap?” echoed Dusty incredulously. “Real soap? Soap-soap?” When I nodded, she persisted, “What brand of soap-soap?”

“Whatever’s on sale at the grocery store.”

Dusty couldn’t help it, she put her hand on her chest and began to giggle. “That must be how you got to be friends with Frances Markasian! You know, that reporter you introduced me to?”

“The woman in red who was here earlier, right? The one I introduced you to yesterday?”

“Yeah, spending lots of money, I couldn’t believe it. She sure has changed her tune. Maybe she has a new boyfriend. Did you see that article she wrote on cosmetics for the Mountain Journal! I went home and looked it up, to see if it was the same person. I swear, she must be the queen of the skinflints. She wrote that people should just use Cetaphil, witch hazel, and drugstore moisturizer. Can you imagine?”

“I must have missed that issue. When was it?”

Before she could reply, Harriet, who had been writing in the large ledger, closed it with a firm slap and came over.

“I remember one time,” she said in her honeylike voice, certainly not a voice I would associate with someone in her late sixties, “when we had a widow come in. She was fairly young, and all she’d ever used was drugstore makeup.” She shook her head at me beneficently, as if to say, You see, being a soap-user isn’t the stupidest thing we’ve ever seen here. “That poor woman … it just brings tears to my eyes to remember.” I looked at Harriet’s eyes. They were wet, all right. “Of course, her skin was a mess—too dry in one place, too oily in another. Her foundation didn’t match her skin tone, she wore bright green eyeshadow, and her cheeks were so caked with blush, she looked like she had scarlet fever. I sold her our complete line. She had the insurance money, you see, and she could do whatever she wanted. A thousand dollars’ worth of cosmetics I sold to that woman, and she was so happy! In less than an hour.” She reached for a tissue and dabbed at her eyes.

“I’ll bet you just loved that, Harriet,” Dusty commented.

Harriet ignored this. “Oh, it was wonderful,” she said to me. “Really touching, what I did for that woman. She looked beautiful when she walked out of here. She looked perfect.”

Down the counter, a woman began to try out the perfume testers. She was wearing what looked to be some kind of designer sundress with big black squiggles on a white background. Below her elaborately streaked and curled hair, gold necklaces dripped around her neck and a gold bracelet with bells tinkled when she shook her wrist with each new perfume sample. Dusty put down her pen and moved toward her. Catapulted out of a post-green-eyeshadow reverie, Harriet took two quick steps in Dusty’s direction, put a hand on her shoulder, and snapped a loud “Excuse me!” before pushing past her to be the first one to stand in front of the Woman with Bucks.

“Whoa,” I said when Dusty returned, crestfallen. “What was that all about?”

“Don’t worry,” said Dusty bitterly. “I have Harriet’s pump prints all up my back. And I’m the one who has to worry about the sales figures.” She gestured to the big blue volume in which Harriet had been writing. “Every time I look at the ledger book, I break out in a sweat.”

“Does she walk over everybody that way?”

“If you’re in her way,” murmured Dusty as she held up a bottle of foundation to my cheek to see if it matched my skin tone. Shaking her head, she clinked the bottle back into its drawer and picked out another. “You know this Rejuvenation we’re selling?” I nodded. She continued, “Our sales goal on it is twenty-three hundred dollars a month per sales associate.” She pointed to the ledger. “Today’s the third of July and Harriet has already sold two thousand dollars of the stuff this month. That’s what, eighteen total hours of sales time? Incredible. Of course, she says the most awful things to customers.” Dusty’s smile was wicked. “Claire and I figured Harriet must be at least eighty by the end of the day, since she gets older each minute when she’s trying to sell anti-aging cream.”

I unscrewed the lid on a jar of thick cream, then used the little plastic applicator to spread a dollop of the viscous, sweet-smelling stuff on the back of my hand. I said mildly, “Was Harriet jealous of Claire?”

The wicked smile on Dusty’s lips traveled to her eyes. “Claire had one client, a man who’s a weird-genius kind of guy, who spent a lot of money. You mentioned him, he was here before—a thin, tall blond man? Anyway, never mind that it was his wife’s money, this guy spent it like crazy, buying stuff for his wife, I guess, but always only from Claire. He wouldn’t even buy a tube of lipstick from one of the rest of us. He’d hang around here like a loyal dog, waiting until her shift. And you know how Claire was. She’d flirt and bat her eyes and just have the best old time. Or maybe you never saw her do that…. Hold still, I’m going to use this cleanser on you.”

I sat motionless while Dusty used two cotton balls to spread luscious-smelling cream over my cheeks. It felt divine. If my stomach hadn’t been growling, I would have been certain I was in heaven.

“Anyway,” she went on, “Claire would just make this guy feel like a million dollars. ‘You’re not really goin’ to buy that too! Y’goin’ t’be broke!’” Dusty’s imitation of Claire’s Australian accent was dead-on. “So. Pretty soon the wife, who spends a lot of money here herself, comes in with her husband to see why her husband’s developed such an enthusiastic interest in cosmetics all of a sudden.”

“When was all this going on?” I asked, trying to keep still as Dusty smeared lime-scented toner over my face. I slid my glance sideways to see if Harriet was having any luck with Mrs. Got-Rocks in the black and white dress.

“Watch out!” Dusty cried sharply.

Startled, I fell off the stool where I was perched. “Huh? I was just looking to see how Harriet was doing.”

“I don’t want to get this stuff in your eye! You don’t know what could happen!”

Dusty had become so suddenly flustered that I sat back slowly on the stool and opened my eyes wide. “I’m fine. Look. I love the feel of this stuff you put on me—”

Dusty took a deep breath and began to write on my ticket, or whatever it was. When I asked her what she was doing, she informed me that this was my client card. She’d record everything she sold me so that next time she could just look it up when I came in and needed new blush or whatever.

“I have to tell you honestly, Dusty, I don’t think there’s much chance that I’ll be spending a lot of time or money here….”

“Okay, close your eyes and keep them closed. I’m going to do your moisturizer.” She didn’t seem to hear me.

I obeyed. “So what happened with this man and his wife and Claire?”

Dusty finished with the moisturizer and began to dab on something else. From the position of her fingers, I guessed it was concealer. I didn’t dare open my eyes though, for fear of another eruption.

“I think Claire and the man had an affair. He was, like, smitten. I mean, the guy seemed crazed. Obsessed. I do know they broke up later, because she told me. But he still came around—you know, hanging back where he figured we wouldn’t see him. He would skulk through Shoes, watching her. I mean, who could miss him? He’s so tall, and that blondish-white hair makes him look kind of young and real cute. Okay, now I’m doing your foundation.” More scented stuff was liberally spread over my face. Pat, pat, pat. “Never tug or pull on your face,” Dusty warned sternly. “That’s what causes premature loosening of the skin around the eyes.”

Noted. Keeping my eyes closed, I inquired, “So what happened to the skulking guy? Why was he here this morning?”

“Well, I don’t know about this morning, because he was just asking a bunch of disgusting questions, like what had happened to Claire’s body and stuff like that. Okay, I’m doing your eyes. Hold still.”

While Dusty worked on my eyelids, I was reminded of those X-ray technicians who tell you to hold still and not breathe. Then they go behind a foot-thick wall and zap you. What happens if you breathe? Do you go radioactive, or do you just screw up the X ray?

“All right,” said Dusty. “Now blush.”

It took me a second to realize that wasn’t a command. “Can I move? What happened to the guy?”

“Don’t talk or I won’t get this on straight. Well. As far as the affair goes, a while back the guy’s wife started coming in just to ask if her husband had been here. I mean, you talk about screwed up. You can look in the mirror now.”

I did as ordered. I looked different, that was for sure. No more smudges under my eyes from lack of sleep; lots of radiant cheek tone that made me look either acutely embarrassed or much more physically active than would be justified by a short daily regimen of yoga. Most prominent and startling were the black eyeliner and brown eyeshadow. I no longer looked like a caterer; I resembled an Egyptian queen. Make that a promiscuous Egyptian queen.

“Wow, Dusty,” I gushed. “You’re amazing! This guy who was watching Claire … What was his name, do you remember?”

Dusty batted her eyes at me and then held them open wide. I had the uncomfortable feeling that she was vamping me. But the eye movements were apparently some kind of universal signal of what she wanted me to do. She needed to apply my mascara. When I obeyed, she continued. “His name was Charles Braithwaite. Don’t you know the Braithwaites? Our bio class went over to his lab once on a field trip. Look up now, and hold still.”

“Yes, I know them,” I said carefully. “Babs Braithwaite invaded my life a few weeks ago, and it hasn’t been pleasant.” In fact, I thought with a shiver, Babs was making me feel distinctly uneasy, the way she kept interjecting her presence into Julian’s and my life.

Dusty said, “The Braithwaites are, like, mega-rich. I mean, they live in this huge place in the country club. But I guess Charles Braithwaite fell in love with Claire. Like the bumper sticker, you know? Scientists do it unexpectedly. Okay, look out, I’m going to do your lipstick.” She giggled. “Nectarine Climax. How do you like having that on your lips?”

“Sounds … intriguing. You went on a field trip to Braithwaite’s lab? What did he do in the lab?” My head was spinning.

Dusty dotted my lips with a Q-Tip loaded with what resembled cooked pumpkin. She spread it all around, then ordered me to blot. Only when she’d put the cap back on Nectarine Climax did she answer, “Oh, you know, he has that big greenhouse. Haven’t you seen it? I never wrote up my report on the trip because I … left the school. But anyway. Last I heard, Charles was working on roses or something.”

I looked in the mirror. Nefertiti blinked back. My eyes, dark-lined and shadowed the color of burnt toast, had a hard time concealing astonishment. Roses or something. Experimenting. The way you experiment to produce a blue rose, like the one I’d found on the garage floor near where Claire was hit? I furrowed my newly powdered brow, squinted at the smorgasbord of brightly packaged products lined up on the shiny counter, and asked Dusty to sell me some hand cream for my friend in the hospital. While I dug through my wallet looking for the emergency hundred-dollar bill, she picked out a jar for eighty bucks. Twenty dollars wasn’t going to get me too far in an emergency.

“Please, Dusty,” I begged, “don’t you have something less expensive?”

She shrugged, as if I were about to make the biggest mistake of my life. “The smallest jar is sixty.”

“I’ll take it.” While she rummaged below the counter for the sixty-dollar size, I asked nonchalantly, “What about a guy named Shaman Krill? Did Claire go out with anybody by that name, before or after her fling with Charles B.?”

Dusty plunked a shiny box down on the counter. “Shaman Krill? Never heard of him. What does he look like?”

I handed her the hundred-dollar bill. “He’s an animal rights’ activist with a dark ponytail, gold earring, short stature, and big attitude. Sound familiar?”

She wrinkled her nose. “Are you kidding? He sounds disgusting. I never saw anybody like that. And Claire would never have gone out with some weirdo.” She pressed buttons on the cash-register terminal to ring up my purchase, lifted the jar and the receipt—for the cameras, I guessed—and gave me the bag.

“Thanks, Dusty.”

She tilted her head and gave me a sweet smile. “Come back soon. It’s fun to have somebody to talk to.”

Time to leave the store, time to find Julian, time to go see Marla. Time to see if I could get my friend-who’d-just-had-a-heart-attack to smile at my freshly minted face. And yet something was holding me back. I couldn’t go just yet, and besides, Julian was still doing the chamber brunch. The paper bag crackled in my hand as I surveyed the store, the store that twinkled with bright lights and glittering décor and mirrors I hated to look in. Mirrors. I looked up to the second story. Not an hour ago I had seen Babs Braithwaite leaning half-dressed over the escalator and claiming somebody was back there, Nick had talked about surveillance from the blinds-that-were-like-duck-blinds. Claire had been helping Nick; Claire thought she was being watched. Now Babs thought she was being watched. I dashed up the moving steps. Back where? Behind the dressing room mirrors? Was there somebody back there?

On the second floor, I knew better than to look up to locate the camera or glance back and forth to check on the presence of security people, called “hawking” by Nick Gentileschi. That would alert them to my attentions, and I certainly didn’t want to have them watching me again. Even a paranoid has real enemies, Henry Kissinger was reputed to have said. I lifted a hanger with a hot-pink and yellow bikini and headed confidently in the direction of the dressing room.

In the recessed entry, a short hallway to the right led to the mirrored rooms. I walked along the row of dressing rooms. One was occupied by a woman trying on a suit while attempting to calm her recalcitrant toddler. The rest were empty. Was this just more evidence of Babs acting hysterical? She’d seemed so convinced that someone was watching her. And not just a camera either. But where could you watch someone from?

At the end of the hallway of dressing rooms was one of those expensive imitation rubber plants and a rack of bathing suits apparently waiting to be returned to the sales floor. Behind the rack and almost invisible because it was painted the same color as the walls was a door. Without hesitation I dropped the suit, pulled the rack out of the way, and tried the door handle: locked. Now, where would Nick Gentileschi, that cliché of a dime-store cop, put the spare key, if there was such a thing?

I thought back to my visit to his office. He had been wearing a keyring. But there had to be more than one key. Where would the department store keep a key to an area behind the ladies’ dressing room?

Wait. I had seen something the day before, when I was trying to find the right person with my check. There had been a key box on the aquamarine office wall belonging to Lisa, the lady perplexed by the notion of accounts payable. I veered off toward the offices. What would Tom say if he knew I intended to filch a key? Well, I would see if I could get the key and find out what Babs was talking about with somebody back there. Then I would worry about Tom.

The store offices were virtually deserted, probably because of the food fair. To the one young woman in accounts receivable, I asked knowledgeably, “Is Lisa here? I talked to her yesterday about accounts payable.” I touched my Food Fair badge, as if that made me official. “She told me to come back today.”

The young woman shrugged. “You can check her office.”

Well, now, I would just do that. I knocked and walked into Lisa’s office. She was gone. Hallelujah. I stuck my head out and announced to the young woman, “She’s not here. I’m just going to leave her a note.”

The woman shrugged. Instead of writing a note, of course, I stepped over the pile of computer print-outs, crossed to the key box, and pulled on it. It wasn’t locked, but one corner was painted closed. I needed something like a blade to cut through the aquamarine muck. Lisa’s desk yielded a nail file and I levered it in. My next tug brought the cabinet open and I stared at what must have been forty keys, of which only about half were labeled with ancient, corroded masking tape. I scanned them. In barely visible ball-point pen, one scrap of tape said, SECOND FLOOR—LADIES’ DRESSING ROOM. My fingers closed around the key and I slipped it into my shirt pocket. Thanks, Lisa.

Not wanting to attract the attention of the cameras, I walked calmly back to the dressing room. I moved the plant out of the way, fumbled with the lock, and then pushed into the blackness of the space beyond the door. The odors of dust, concrete, and cardboard containers were almost overwhelming. I slipped the key back into my pocket and groped along the wall for a light. There was no way I was going into this area, whatever it was, and risk breaking my neck tripping over a box of lingerie. Eureka. My hand closed on a switch. When dim fluorescent light flooded the room, I saw that I stood in a huge, tall rectangle. Stripped of all the cameras, concealed piping, lighting, and other electrical wiring of the main store, this ceiling went up what looked like two full stories, past enormous steel shelves and a metal ladder going up to the roof. There was a door on the left. It couldn’t lead to the dressing rooms. I turned. The dressing rooms should be located on the right beyond the back wall where I stood.

Boxes, plastic bags full of merchandise, and carts impeded my progress as I advanced parallel to the wall. My feet scraped across the concrete. My uniform was getting filthy from all the dust I was kicking up. But I was rewarded. Two boxes had been moved haphazardly—and hastily, it appeared—to make a narrow pathway to a door in the wall. I wiggled through and tried the door: it was open. On the other side was a very dimly lit passageway that appeared to be horseshoe-shaped. I tiptoed along and gasped. I was behind one-way mirrors. In front of me, a thin woman was trying on a pink bikini. I felt myself blush. I held my breath, averted my eyes from the mirrors, and walked quickly around the U-shape. Along both rows of mirrors, there were chairs, a half-empty paper coffee cup, and several crumpled fast-food wrappers. If there had been someone here earlier, he or she was gone now.

A plump woman appeared behind the revealing mirrors, her arms loaded with swim suits. In the dressing room beside her, the thin woman, now clad in the pink bikini, swiveled her hips and frowningly scrutinized her cleavage. I beat a hasty retreat. Pushing past the clutter of the storage space, I closed the door behind me. Then I hightailed it out of the store grasping my bag with its jar of cream for Marla. Tom would, no doubt, be extremely interested to know that the security/peeping-tom area was accessible. He’d also be intrigued by what Dusty had told me of Claire, the infatuated Charles Braithwaite, and Braithwaite’s horticultural experimentation. But frustration ruled as I rushed along the mall looking for an available pay phone. The kiosks were full. Waiting lines for every pay phone snaked in front of the boutiques. I cursed under my breath; my stomach growled in response. Half past one with no lunch and two small muffins for breakfast—typical meal schedule for a caterer. I decided to zip up to the food fair for my share of the free samples, then find Julian and hurry over to the Coronary Care Unit to see Marla. I’d call Tom from the hospital.

Out on the roof, a refreshing breeze stirred the air. A nearby bank thermometer announced a digital neon temperature that blinked from eighty-one to eighty-two and back again. I scanned the rows of booths, trying to decide where to indulge my hunger. Despite the maze of roads, fast-food spots, and housing developments spreading as far as the foot of the mountains, here on the roof the food tents, flowers, streamers, and music had transformed the expanse of concrete into a completely credible fair. Marvelous scents mingled and wafted through the air. So did laughter, happy voices, and a band playing jazz. As I stood underneath the flapping Playhouse Southwest banner, I smiled and took a deep breath of the delectable aromas: pizza, barbecue, coffee … and something else.

Cigarette smoke? No. I looked around. Yes.

Perched on a small raised platform on a roof adjoining the parking structure, and utterly heedless of the dirty looks she was attracting, Frances Markasian, eyes closed, face set in bliss, was relaxing and indulging in her nicotine habit. Her chin tilted skyward while her mouth opened and closed like a guppy’s. Unlike a fish, however, Frances was blowing perfect smoke rings. Her dark mass of curly hair lay wild and undone over her shoulders. Her red heels and bags of cosmetic purchases lay scattered in disarray on the concrete. To cool off, or maybe just to catch a few rays, she had pulled the flouncy red skirt up to reveal knobby knees and calf-high stockings. I wondered where she’d stashed the smokes this time.

I skirted the garage wall, hopped onto the adjoining roof, and walked up to Frances. I was quite sure being where we were was illegal, but that had never stopped Frances before. I cleared my throat She opened one eye, then both. “Don’t tell me. Bathsheba as a chef.”

“Don’t tell me,” I replied evenly. “Bob Woodward as Elizabeth Taylor. In a Marlboro ad. No, wait. Doing the roof scene from Mary Poppins. Except you don’t look like Julie Andrews, either.”

She blew a smoke ring and gestured for me to have a seat. The two-foot-square platform contained litter that could only be hers: an M&M bag, a Snickers wrapper, an empty can of Jolt cola. Of course, Frances was too much of a skinflint to spring for a ticket to the food fair. Which made her enthusiastic cream/rouge/lipstick/concealer/foundation/mascara shopping spree this morning all the more intriguing. I brushed her wrapper-debris into a small pile on the asphalt roof and sat.

She took another greedy drag on her cigarette, then blew a thin stream of smoke upward, “So where’s your escort? He was kind of cute for a rent-a-thug. What’d he catch you doing anyway?”

When I opened my mouth to reply, my stomach howled in protest. I ignored it and said, “Nothing. Security’s just suspicious, that’s all.”

She lifted one eyebrow. “Suspicious of a caterer?”

“Maybe they were suspicious of the wrong person,” I countered. “Look, Frances, I’ve seen your duct-taped sneakers and secondhand clothes. I know you’re a tightwad and proud of it. I even heard you wrote an article on what a ripoff all makeup is. For someone with your thrifty bent, you sure bought a lot of cosmetics today.” I watched for her reaction, but behind the unaccustomed makeup, she was stone-faced. “Isn’t it about time you told me what you’re doing with Mignon?” I pressed. I was getting lightheaded from hunger, but I was weary of Frances’s evasions. “Why the sudden interest in cosmetics at a Denver department store, when your beat is Aspen Meadow, forty miles away?”

She smiled, leaned over, and picked up one of the red shoes to crush out her butt. “You keep asking me that,” she said, then smiled slyly.

If I didn’t eat soon, I was going to pass out. I tried to think. Frances didn’t care about Claire as a person, and she certainly couldn’t be convinced to have any sympathy for a grieving Julian. I needed another angle.

“Okay, Frances, here’s the deal,” I announced grittily. Caterers could be just as tough as small-town reporters. “To you, this whole thing is a story. What kind, I don’t know. But my assistant, Julian Teller, wants to know what happened to his girlfriend. He needs to know what happened to his girlfriend. And I need to know, because Julian Teller is like family, not to mention that he’s running my catering business right now. The guy is having a very hard time. He’s simply not going to be able to function until we get this cleared up.” If then, I added mentally. Over at the food fair, a group of teenagers in T-shirts, ragged shorts, and scruffy high-top shoes shuffled along devouring pizza. They stopped by the open tent where the jazz band was finishing up its set I took a deep breath, which was unwise: The aroma of the pizza sauce, garlic, and melted cheese made me dizzy with hunger. “So. If you don’t tell me what you’re up to, I’m going to march right into the Prince & Grogan offices and tell them who you are and where you’re from. Then, in case there’s no action, I’m going to get on the phone with every Mignon executive in Albuquerque—”

“Tell me, Goldy,” Frances interrupted blithely, “do you ever listen to jazz?”

“Jazz? Of course I do. So what?”

“Y’ever heard of Ray Charles?”

“Frances, what on earth is the matter with you?”

“Ask a simple question, you get a simple answer.”

Frances was losing her grip. Perhaps it was the lethal combination of Marlboros and M&Ms. Then again, maybe she was trying to be clever by pulling her usual routine. She invariably changed the subject to get away from whatever they didn’t want to discuss.

“Tell me what you’re doing with Mignon,” I demanded fiercely.

“Investigative reporting. That’s it, I swear.”

“I don’t think an atheist can swear,” I snapped. “It doesn’t mean anything.” When she chuckled, I insisted, “What kind of investigative reporting?”

She sighed and readied for the Prince & Grogan bags at her feet “Your husband isn’t the only one with medical training. I did a year of med school before turning to journalism—”

“Excuse me, but that’s the ex-husband.”

“Sorry.” Her mournful look was accentuated by the heavy makeup Harriet Wells had applied around her eyes. Here we were, I reflected, two normally unadorned women who’d been outwardly transformed to look like a couple of hookers—and just so we could get information. “By the way, Goldy, I was wondering something.” Frances lit another cigarette. “Did you hear that your ex-husband beat up his new girlfriend last night? She called the cops and we picked it up at the Journal, on the police band. Seems she slid his Jeep into a ditch during the storm, where it stuck in the mud. The doc got really pissed. She’s across the street in the hospital with broken ribs and bruised arms.”

An image of this poor, pained woman, a new girlfriend I wasn’t aware of, floated up in my mind. The Jerk had always been able to find fresh female companionship. When a current girlfriend didn’t work out, or ended up in a problematic place like the hospital, he would quickly find a replacement, I thought about Arch. Although he knew why I’d divorced his father, Arch had never witnessed the violence that had destroyed my marriage. If his classmates at Elk Park Prep heard about this incident from a tabloid-type article by Frances in the Mountain Journal, which I wouldn’t put past her …

I demanded, “Are you going to run a story about it in the paper?”

Frances took a deep drag. “Nah. The publisher’s wife is pregnant and John Richard is her doctor. The wife wants the publisher to hold off on running any story until she delivers.”

A headache nagged behind my eyes. “Look, Frances, John Richard’s not my problem anymore. What’s the deal with the department store? I have to go get something to eat, and then I need to go visit a friend in the hospital.”

She pretended to look puzzled. “Not the girlfriend—”

“Frances! What are you up to?”

She set her face in steely anger and tossed her butt in an arc across the roof. “I’m investigating the false claims of Mignon Cosmetics to make women look younger. Period.”

I was incredulous, partly at Frances’s own naiveté. “You’re kidding. That’s it?” She frowned and nodded. “Was Claire Satterfield helping you?” I asked.

“I didn’t even know who Claire Satterfield was before the accident,” Frances replied. Her tone indicated that she sure wished she had known Claire. Just think of all the information a Mignon sales associate could have provided….

“But why did you bother to find out she’d had other boyfriends? Why do you think she was deliberately run down?”

“Background, Goldy, background. The claims are what’s news.”

“But for heaven’s sake, those claims are not news. This so-called story has been in books, newspapers, magazines, on radio and television. Haven’t you read any Naomi Wolf? Get real.”

“What are you talking about?” she said bitterly. She blew smoke out her nostrils. “I beg to differ.”

“Look, Frances,” I said. “In their hearts, women know all this outrageously expensive goop doesn’t make them look younger. But the cosmetics people try to guilt-trip every female in the country into feeling they have to do something to take care of themselves. Otherwise, these companies want women to believe, they’ll grow old and ugly. They’ll never have money, a husband, a white picket fence, a lover, a fur coat, a station wagon, and somebody to drive away with when you get a flat tire. That’s the name of the cosmetics game.”

She glared at me and held the cigarette aloft. “Foucault-Reiser is the parent company of Mignon. F-R has been experimenting with cosmetics for thirty years. And experimenting in ways you would not believe,” she added darkly.

In my mind’s eye, I saw heaps of rabbit carcasses. Hard to take on an empty stomach. “Well, I guess I sort of would—”

Heedless, Frances went on: “Foucault-Reiser launched the hideously expensive Mignon line five years ago, with all kinds of wild claims, fancy packaging, and questionable products. Control the destiny of your face. Like hell. Large pink plastic jars of cream didn’t sell, so Mignon switched to dark green glass jars with gold lids, the kinds of containers you imagine once held royal jewels and medieval potions. The message was: This is magic stuff. Sales took off.”

I nodded and remembered eons ago, when Arch asked if he could have one of my empty perfume jars for a Dungeons and Dragons prop.

Frances reached into her bag and pulled out a bottle of makeup. “Nobody wants a jar of mud—otherwise known as foundation—with a little white plastic top.” She wrenched the shiny cover off the lid, revealing—sure enough—a white plastic top. “But they put a tall gold top over the white plastic so that consumers will think they’re getting something of infinite value. And then there’s perfume …”

I groaned, ready to admit she had a story. But she was on a roll.

Frances made a face. “‘I need something really sexy,’ I told that woman with the French twist. She sold me Ardor.” Frances brandished a heart-shaped bottle of perfume. “Funny, she sold Ardor to my neighbor for her eighty-year-old mother, whose sexiest social engagement is when her garden club plants bulbs. And the same sales associate, Harriet, told the daughter of the head of the Journal advertising department that Ardor was just the right perfume for a girl to start wearing to school. She’s twelve, Goldy. Sales of Ardor, as you might imagine, have taken off. And speaking of sales, if their associates don’t keep up their quotas, they’re fired. Kaput. So these same sales associates, of which your Claire S. was one, make claims to customers that get more and more bizarre. More and more outlandish. No one has challenged Mignon, and I’m going to be the one who does it.”

“Oh yeah? And just how’re you going to do that?”

She rustled around in one of her bags and held up a small rectangular box. It was covered with navy-blue satiny paper crossed with thin gold and silver stripes. “Mignon Gentle Deep-cleansing Soap with Natural Grains. Twenty bucks. It’s soap, period, with about a dime’s worth of ingredients, including”—she peered at the label—“ah-ha, oatmeal! But it’ll chap your skin if you use too much of it. Did you hear what that Harriet Wells said to me?” She glared at me indignantly. “‘Cleans deeply but gently into the pores. Restores the original state of your skin!’” Frances grunted. “Crap. Soap robs the skin of lipids. Use it as much as old Harriet says to, and you’ll have a nice red face.”

“Don’t you think people know—?”

“No, I don’t think people know anything, I think people believe what they’re told.” She reached into the bag again, then held up a tall rectangular box covered with the same elaborate decoration. “Magic Pore-closing Toner? Forty-five bucks? To do what? They swear it tones the pores. As if your skin cells were muscles, ha. You want an astringent, try witch hazel. If you need anything at all. Oh, and did you happen to notice this fall they’re going to be adding Mediterranean Sea Kelp to their Magic Pore-closing Toner? Link any cosmetic with something European, and it’s a sure sell. And this!” She thrust a squat jar of cream at me. “Did you hear all the baloney that Harriet-woman was feeding me about how she was sixty-two and this moisturizer stuff stopped her aging process? This junk doesn’t even have sunscreen in it! Hate to tell maybe-early-fifties Harriet, but that’s the only thing that’ll prevent wrinkles, and folks need to start using it when they’re young or they’re sunk. Biochromes, my ass. What the hell is a biochrome, I ask you?” Her black-striped eyes opened wide. “It was never mentioned in any biology class I ever took. Or in chemistry. Or physiology. Or dermatology, for that matter.”

I clapped. “Yeah, yeah. They’re going to run all this in the Mountain Journal. And the wife of your publisher is never going to wear makeup again. Is the Journal bankrolling you in this undercover operation?” I gestured to the red shoes, the bags of cosmetics, and her dress.

Before she could answer, however, I got that strange feeling I’d been having the last two days, the kind I used to get when the Jerk was following me in his Jeep after we were separated. I’d been having the feeling a lot lately: on the highway coming to the banquet when I’d veered in front of a pickup, just after the helicopter passed over; during the storm night before last, when I thought I saw the light go on in the pickup at the end of our driveway, even at the Mignon counter this morning. As I sat next to Frances, the feeling began again as a kind of prickling along the back of my neck. I looked up for the pizza-eating teenagers, but saw only a sudden movement toward one of the tents, the kind of thing you catch out of the corner of your eye.

“What is it?” Frances demanded, her senses ever acute to some emotional change in the person to whom she was talking. “Goldy, what’s the matter?”

I looked around and saw absolutely nothing suspicious. This was what happened when you didn’t get enough sleep, I told myself. Or enough food. You had hallucinations. A teenager with long, stringy brown hair hopped onto the store roof where we sat and approached us.

He said, “Uh, who’s the caterer?”

I identified myself and the fellow said, “Somebody said to tell you there’s a message for you over at your booth.”

“From whom?” I demanded.

But he had turned his back. When I called out to him again, he shrugged without turning and loped back off into the food fair crowd.

“I’ll go,” Frances said firmly as she gathered up her glossily wrapped parcels. “It might be the rent-a-thug. I could vouch that you’ve been sitting here berating me for the last fifteen minutes. Besides, you need to eat your lunch.”

I smiled at Frances’s ill-disguised nosiness, at her sudden insincere concern about my need for nourishment. “Nah,” I told her lightly, “it’s probably the food fair people. Or maybe it’s a new client. I’ll be right back.” But she ignored me.

We walked across the roof and maneuvered back onto the top of the parking garage. I told the money-takers that Frances was helping me, and didn’t need a bracelet because she didn’t eat normal food. They waved her through. The jazz band had gone on break. Their audience had dispersed and turned their ravenous attention back to the booths.

“Okay,” I said, as if granting Frances permission for what she was going to do anyway. “Let me get just a quick bite to eat first, and then we’ll see what the message is.”

The crowd buoyed me along to the booth of a vegetarian Mexican restaurant. I chose a burrito stuffed with roasted peppers, tomatoes, and onions. It dripped with guacamole and melted cheddar, and sour cream oozed out of both sides when I took a bite. The American Heart Association definitely wouldn’t approve. My mouth full, I thought of Marla and resolved to get really serious about lowfat cooking. Tomorrow.

“Enjoy,” said Frances with a laugh. “Isn’t this where your booth was?”

The booth had been abandoned early by the barbecue people. I guess “all you can eat” had been more than they could handle. They’d even pulled down the flaps on the tent, as if to say nobody was home.

Frances pulled up the flap and peered into the dark interior. I stepped up beside her and felt the hot, stuffy air inside. There was a plastic bag taped to the near table.

“There it is,” said Frances as she stepped confidently forward. “Wait,” I said. “Frances,” I said again sharply, “wait.” But I couldn’t restrain her; one of my hands held the burrito, the other the tent flap.

There was a sudden movement. I heard the intake of breath that accompanies effort.

“Frances!” I shouted.

“Help!” she cried.

Stale air swished against my face. Something was coming at us. Because of my years with the Jerk, I had learned how to protect myself from a potential assault. The air—or maybe it was liquid, I realized—whooshed. I dropped the burrito and buckled forward.

“Duck!” I shouted to Frances.

A loud sloosh traveled through air. It was coming toward Frances and me. The smell was familiar … acrid.

It was a bucket of bleach water.

“Close your eyes!” I screamed to Frances. I shut mine tight, held my breath, and covered my face with my hands. The water cascaded over my doubled-over body in a hard, heavy slap. Cold liquid saturated my chef’s jacket.

Someone pushed past me. One of the canvas tent flaps brushed my legs and I heard footsteps. But with the possibility of bleach anywhere nearby, I knew better than to open my eyes.

“Frances! Are you there? Keep your eyes shut, it’s chlorine bleach!”

A stream of loud, inventive curses came from about a yard away. Yep—Frances was there.

“Back out of the tent,” I ordered, ignoring her angry protests. “Follow my voice. Go slow.” Still doubled-over, my hands covering my face, I treaded backward slowly. Soon, cooler air indicated I was outside the tent. I felt metal. Moving metal. A baby stroller.

“Help!” I cried. “I have bleach on me! Don’t let any get on the baby!”

A woman screamed and the metal veered away. I started to lose my balance. Voices erupted all around and within a few seconds I felt a large, gentle hand on my shoulder. An adult? A teenager? Whoever had assaulted us? The hand guided me sideways.

“Come on,” a man’s calm voice urged. “Let me get you a towel.”

“I have a friend with me. She needs help too.”

“The red dress?” asked the voice. “I’m holding her arm.

More colorful curses indicated this was true. I sighed.

Over the acrid stink of the bleach, the welcome aroma of coffee came close. The masculine voice attached to the hand on my shoulder asked someone for a couple of towels. A piece of cloth with the consistency of a dish towel was placed over my head and tucked around my ears. My sodden hair was being expertly wrapped, turban-style.

“Please,” I said, “I need some plain water to rinse my face—”

“All right, stand back, everybody,” came another male voice, a familiar one. It was Pete, the espresso man. “Goldy, I’m going to toss a pitcher of plain water in your face,” he warned, up close. “It’s not cold, not hot. Well, maybe a little cool. Just relax. Then I’m going to do the same for your friend.”

A splash of liquid hit my face and neck. Another towel was thrust in my face and I vigorously scrubbed my cheeks, forehead, and eyes free of bleach and eye makeup. Frances yelped when the water gushed on her, but then she fell silent, no doubt engaged in the same drying activity.

I straightened and felt the cool bleach water trickle down inside my clothes. I opened my eyes, sure that my makeup had run together into one unholy mess. A sea of curious faces surrounded me. The one recognizable face was Pete’s. The person guiding me had brought me to the front of Pete’s espresso booth. Instead of wondering just what had happened in the tent, my first ridiculous thought was: How in the world did Pete get a booth for the whole four-hour time period, when I had to share mine with the barbecue folks?

“Goldy?” Pete’s grin was benevolent. “Do you and your friend want some coffee with a couple of shots of brandy? How about a couple of dry sets of clothes? On the house.”

Half the folks in the crowd laughed, as if the whole incident were some kind of stunt arranged by the fair people for the band’s break. As I accepted Pete’s offer of coffee, I searched faces for anyone familiar—malevolent or otherwise. But whoever had done this appeared to be long gone. At my side, Frances was brusquely demanding to know what was going on, had anyone seen anything? Anyone seen someone rush out of the tent? Ignoring her, I waved at the person approaching us. It was Julian. The crowd, sensing that the entertainment was over, dispersed. Only a couple of stragglers remained. Maybe they were hoping the bleach bath would belatedly eat through our clothes or skin.

“Listen,” said a deep voice from behind me. The first thing I noticed, looking up, was that his long-sleeved shirt was wet. My eyes traveled upward to the delicate features of his face, to the mop of frizzed, Warhol-type white-blond hair. I had seen this tall man that morning, that day, in Prince & Grogan.

It was Charles Braithwaite.

“I … I helped you,” he faltered. The skin at the side of his earnest blue eyes crinkled with concern. He was in his thirties, maybe early forties, but because of his height and his extreme thinness, his age was difficult to determine. “I … I wrapped those towels around the two of you. But you need to rinse that stuff out of your hair, ladies. Either that or you’re both going to look like skunks. Dark on both sides and a white stripe down the middle.” His palm pressed his long, pale hair over to the side in a practiced gesture.

I groaned. “Oh, that’s just great.” I took the cup of spiked coffee that Pete offered and wondered what Charles Braithwaite was doing first at Mignon, then at the food fair. Tom’s words echoed in my ears: Someone who’s too helpful … someone who’s always around …

Frances demanded if Pete had seen anything. When he said no, she took a large swallow of her drink and said it was too hot. Did he have a phone, she wanted to know, she had to call her boss. Pete laughed. No phone. He handed us T-shirts and sweat pants that listed his location and all the curative powers of coffee. The man was an advertising genius. I turned back to my tall, blond savior. If that was what he was.

“Did you see what happened to us?” I asked. “Did you see anyone else come out of the tent?”

He shook his head. “I heard you,” he replied. “Then the two of you stumbled out of the tent. I smelled the bleach, and then I came over….”

“Yes, thanks,” I said lamely. He nodded. His light blue wrinkled rayon shirt, now streaked with liquid, fell un-fashionably from his thin shoulders. He was wearing dark slacks and old-fashioned tie-up saddle shoes. His canoelike feet were at least a size fourteen.

Frances blew noisily on her coffee, then turned her attentions to the tall man. “What are you doing here?” she demanded abruptly.

Charles Braithwaite blushed to the roots of his filament-like hair. The saddle shoes began to inch away. “Well, as I was telling your friend … I was here because … well, let’s see … I heard the two of you yelling—”

“What in the hell—” Julian began as he rushed up, puffing. He was still wearing his serving clothes from the morning. “Goldy? And you?” He looked quizzically at Frances. “From the newspaper? Why are you all wet? Why is your hair all wrapped—? Dr. Braithwaite! What’s going on … why are you here?”

I looked curiously at our tall, gangly rescuer, who again mumbled something along the lines that he had to go.

“Goldy, what happened to you?” Julian demanded. “Did you all fall into some water, or what?”

“We’ll be at your place tomorrow, on the Fourth,” I said to an increasingly uncomfortable Charles Braithwaite. “Maybe you could show me your greenhouse—”

“No. I can’t show anyone,” mumbled Dr. Charles Braithwaite, embarrassed. He brushed a shock of white hair out of his eyes. “You need to get some dry …” His long fingers gestured awkwardly in my direction.

Irritated, Julian hovered over me. “What happened to you?” he asked again.

“Somebody threw a bucket of bleach water on us,” I answered with resignation. “Whoever it was said there was a message at my booth. Frances was trying to help—”

Frances narrowed her eyes at Charles Braithwaite. Alarmed by the predatory assessment in them, the doctor began to sidle away. Unabashed, Frances caught him by his wet sleeve to halt his retreat. “Doctor Charles Braithwaite,” she said in an accusing, parental tone. “Thanks for helping us, indeed. You were at the Mignon Cosmetics counter this morning. Now you’re here. Just what kind of interest does a world-famous microbiologist have in a cosmetics company? Eh, Charlie-baby?” Holding Charles’s sleeve with one hand and the wet turban on her head with the other, Frances glared ominously at her prey.

Being wet and disoriented can put one at a disadvantage. Not so Frances, whose crimson dress was already drying with a large orange stripe down its center. Over in the heart of the food fair, the jazz band returned from their break and began a blues riff. Charles Braithwaite glanced fearfully at me, then stared longingly in the direction of the jazz band, as if the soothing music could bail him out.

Julian, meanwhile, had followed our wet trail to the tent that had been my booth that morning and our attacker’s hiding place this afternoon. He angrily whipped back the tent flaps and then quickly strode around the entire tent. At each corner he threw the flaps up, as if daring an intruder to be concealed there. At the back of the tent he stopped short. I shivered inside my cold, wet clothes and tried to ignore the fact that Frances was fiercely interrogating Charles Braithwaite concerning his interest in the mall and the food fair. Here at the mall for no reason? I wanted to say to him. Looking for your blue rose, maybe? It’s at the sheriff’s department. Julian came around the side of the tent holding a clear plastic bag with tape on it. He’d removed it from the table. Inside the plastic bag was a single sheet of paper. Julian ripped into the bag and offered me the contents.

It was one of those cryptic messages we used to send in school, where the words and letters are cut out of magazines or newspapers. This note said: GOLDILOCKS GO HOME. AND STAY THERE.

Well, I better, ah … I need to be going,” said Charles Braithwaite in a meek voice. He had somehow tugged free of Frances and was backing away. His wild, pale hair shone like a corona in the sunlight. “Glad to have been able to help. I have to meet somebody,” he babbled as Frances made a step to follow him.

“I want to thank you again in person,” I called after him. “Maybe tomorrow, at your place! Your Fourth of July party, you know? Remember?” He didn’t respond, not even to wave, as he slunk swiftly away. I turned back to Julian, who was puzzling over the note. “Okay, kiddo,” I said, “did you go with Dusty on some field trip to his place?”

“Oh, yeah. Don’t you remember? It’s awesome. But he’s got a real hangup about security. He got all our names printed out on a list before we came in. Then he wanted to check our driver’s licenses to make sure we were who we said we were, only not everybody had a license. And even though I think he believed we were who we said we were, Dr. Braithwaite still had covered some of his current experiments with tarpaulin before we came trooping through. It was a kick. Real secretive. You know, like he was the CIA or something.”

“Did you see any roses? Experimental roses?”

“Oh, Goldy, he was doing all kinds of experiments. We just saw his equipment.”

I said, “Hmm.” Tom could take care of Charles Braithwaite and his experiments. I didn’t know what to do about the note. My clothes were damp. My heart was still beating hard. If the mall security force was as distasteful as Prince & Grogan’s, they wouldn’t be much help. Call Tom asap, my inner voice warned. If you don’t let him know you’ve been attacked, he’s going to be mightily upset. “Listen, Julian, could you put the flaps down anti let me go into the tent and change? I still need to see Marla today.”

He obeyed in silence. Frances, hands on the hips of her wet dress, squinted thoughtfully at the departing Charles Braithwaite. Then she gathered up the clothes Pete had given her and slipped into the tent next to me. The flap thumped down into place.

“What do you suppose is going on?” she hissed as I removed my sticky chef’s jacket.

“I have no idea.” I peeled off my skirt and decided to keep my underwear on. It was only slightly damp. But my skirt surely resembled one of Arch’s tie-dying projects. My fingers grasped the dressing-room storage key, I slipped it into my splotched bra. I didn’t even want to picture what bleach would do to my hair. My thoughts were on Charles Braithwaite. Why had he been up on the roof? Maybe there’d been a breach in his security. Had the blue rose been stolen from him? Why? And what possible connection could it—and Braithwaite—have with Claire’s murder? I struggled into the clothes from Pete and rubbed my arms.

“I’ll call you later,” Frances said abruptly, “I need to go talk to our helper.” She quickly gathered up her wet belongings and ducked out of the tent. I felt a surge of pity for Charles Braithwaite. But I envied Frances, too, as I was also desperate to know more about what the reclusive scientist was up to.

When I emerged from the tent wearing my new duds and shaking my damp hair, Julian was sitting on the concrete, looking depleted. Fairgoers gave him occasional curious glances. But most rushed around and past him, like stream water flowing around a rock.

“What is it?” I asked him. “Feeling sick?”

He didn’t respond right away. Finally he looked at me. His face was patchy and covered with the familiar sheen of sweat produced by the exertion of cooking and serving. His eyes glittered with a wetness he wasn’t about to acknowledge. “God, I don’t know. I’m just so tired.”

“I told you not to do that damn chamber brunch.” I helped him up. “How’d it go, anyway?”

His voice was weary. “Fine. And that’s not it.” He brushed himself off and rubbed his knuckles, raw from too much washing, on his white caterer’s shirt. “I called Tom, the way you said. He said that when they get here, Claire’s parents are taking her body back to Australia. They’re not even going to have a memorial service in Colorado.”

“Julian, I’m sorry.”

“It doesn’t matter.” His toneless voice wrenched my heart. “Something else. After the chamber brunch, Marla’s nurse at the hospital called. She said they’re moving Marla into a private room, and she was asking for her nightgowns and her mail, and would someone from her sister’s family go get her stuff?” I cursed at myself for forgetting. “Anyway,” Julian went on, “I said I was the nephew and I would. Marla told the nurse where the spare key was and so now everything is in my car. I thought I should bring it down. Since I was planning to come anyway.”

Bless Julian. We picked up Marla’s belongings from the Rover and I drove us to the hospital in the van. I checked the lobby’s pay phones to call Tom. They were both in use. After some confusion at the reception desk, we found the right elevator and made our way to Marla’s new private room. I clutched the jar of hand cream I’d bought at Prince & Grogan. Julian, his mouth pressed in a tight line, held a grocery sack full of bedclothes and mail. When we were on the right floor, I asked at the nurses’ station when Marla was expected to be discharged. The on-duty nurse smiled and said probably tomorrow, and they certainly were going to miss her! I grinned back. Sure.

“Oh, I swear, finally!” Marla said when we entered the room. She was lying in bed, looking even more uncomfortable and depressed than the day before. Tony Royce, a thick-mustached equities analyst who was Marla’s current boyfriend, sat on a ventilation unit next to a window. In a corner of the room sat a nurse, one I recognized from the Coronary Care Unit.

The nurse announced softly: “Two visitors, Miss Korman.”

Marla said, “Tony, I need to see my family. Okay?”

Tony Royce appraised Julian and me the way you would cattle, then snorted. “They’re not your family!” But he propelled himself off the ventilation unit anyway and sauntered toward the door. Because my income did not allow me to invest heavily in equities, Tony viewed me as being from a lower rung on the evolutionary ladder. I didn’t much like him, either, but I kept that to myself. Usually, like now, I ignored him.

“How are you? “I asked Marla gently. “Did the atherectomy go okay?”

Marla raised a warning finger and whispered, “I guess so. It’s over, that’s the best part. Notice the private room and nurse?” I nodded. For the first time in three days, I saw a tiny, brief smile cross Marla’s face. I guessed she’d finally convinced someone to look up her record of contributions to the hospital. I smiled too, but then noticed Tony Royce standing by the door. Since Tony had not been to the hospital since Marla had her attack, he was probably feeling as bereft as I had the first day. On the other hand, his relationship with Marla rested largely on the fact that she was one of his best clients. Maybe he was just being difficult.

“I’m sorry,” the nurse said with more insistence, “the patient can’t have more than two visitors.”

I glanced at Julian. His eyes pleaded with mine. I relented. “Okay,” I said. “Stay here and I’ll walk out with Tony.”

“Oh, thanks a lot,” Tony said jokingly as I took him by the arm and propelled him out the door and into the hall.

“Come on, you’ve been with her today and we haven’t,” I told him. “Besides, I need to ask you a financial question.”

“You? A financial question?” He looked at my borrowed outfit. “What, coffee futures? You’re talking about a lot of money.”

“What do you know about a company run by someone called Reggie Hotchkiss?”

“You mean Hotchkiss Skin & Hair?” When I nodded, he massaged his mustache with his index finger. “Not much. Why, Goldy? You interested in the stock? I’m not sure they’re publicly owned.”

“I’m interested in the company. Can’t you just find out how they’re doing? I’ll pay you in cookies.”

He snorted again and said he’d see what he could do. He gave another you’ve-got-to-be-kidding assessment of my damp hair and sweatsuit proclaiming the virtues of Pete’s coffee.

Back in the private room, the drabber-than-yesterday’s hospital gown and absence of her usual twinkling barrettes and jewelry made Marla’s depressed visage seem even more washed out than during either of my previous visits.

“Do you … want me to stay?” Julian asked Marla when I returned. He hesitated, perched beside a turquoise chair of molded plastic. “I know you probably need to be with Goldy. I just … wanted to bring you your stuff. And see how you were doing.”

The juxtaposition of needing to see one person and perhaps wanting to see another was not lost on Marla. “Stay,” she said weakly. “I need as many friends as I can get, at this point. And the nurse says I can have longer visits now, anyway.”

“Thirty minutes,” came the calm admonition from the corner.

Marla held out her hand to Julian. “Here I am thinking of myself, and I understand you’ve had the worst news. I’m so sorry about Claire.”

Julian took her hand and looked at it. His shoulders slumped.

“Thanks, Marla. I’m sorry too.”

Eventually he let go of her hand and flopped into the chair. I asked her how she felt now that she’d survived the atherectomy. She told me to lean in close, then whispered that her groin and back were still killing her. Then she told us she’d talked to the private nurse arranged to start when she came home. The nurse would double as a driver, and this seemed to relieve her. I sat in Tony’s place by the window. The ventilation unit blew chilled air out onto my calves. Outside the window, people of all ages in athletic gear walked and jogged around a paved track. They weren’t patients, I wagered, but doctors, nurses, and administrators. In any event, it wasn’t exactly the view I’d want if I’d just had a heart attack while running. I thought I could see Dr. Lyle Gordon lumbering through his laps. If Marla could have seen him, she would have made a joke about it. That was her way. But she was still flat in the bed, and every few minutes her mood seemed to sink a little lower. The three of us sat for a while, saying nothing.

“How’s Arch?” Marla asked finally.

Julian and I fell over each other saying how great Arch was, wearing his Panthers shirt and doing tie-dying, and looking for old Beatles and Herman’s Hermits records.

“I think I have some Eugene McCarthy buttons in my attic,” Marla said feebly.

We all fell silent again, the brief spark in our conversation like a fire gone cold.

“Well, show me what you brought,” Marla tried again.

Julian picked up the bag and delicately unloaded the articles and mail onto the foot of the bed. I picked up the bedclothes and folded them into reasonable clumps before stacking them on the bedstand within Marla’s reach. Marla took the pile of mail from Julian and sorted through it without interest.

“Oh, boy, the doctor’s not going to like this,” she said, holding up a postcard. She read, “From my mother, postmarked Lucerne. ‘Have found a perfectly wonderful couple to hang around with and will be going to their chateau for a month! I’ll write again when I have their address.’” She tossed the postcard on the floor. “So much for Mom coming in to lend a hand.”

“Jeez,” said Julian, “can’t you write to her General Delivery or something?”

“It’s one thing if it’s Bluff, Utah, Big J.,” Marla told him affectionately. “It’s another if it’s the entire country of Switzerland. This couple probably latches on to Americans and brings them to their rented chateau to give them a big pitch and swindle them out of millions of dollars on some stock deal in Mexico. Wouldn’t be the first time for dear Mom. I actually think she enjoys it.”

She stared at another postcard. “I already told good old Lyle Gordon all he needs to know about our family history. I got the ‘you are-going-to-die-if-you-don’t-change-your-ways’ speech.” She gave me a mournful look. “No more goodies from Goldy’s kitchen.” She sighed again and turned her face toward the window. “God, I’m better off dead.”

“Don’t worry,” I said, too quickly. “I’m going to cook all lowfat food for you. And it’ll be so delicious you won’t be able to tell it’s good for you.”

She closed her eyes. “You hate cooking diet stuff.”

“I’m going to learn to like it.”

“Oh, to be thin!” Marla said with a hoarse laugh. “I may get there after all. The hard way.”

“Don’t,” I said. Then my eyes fell on a FedEx package on the white hospital bedspread. “What’s this? Want me to open it?” She nodded. I ripped it open and handed it to her.

After a moment, she grunted. “It’s from Hotchkiss Skin & Hair. They always want to impress their customers with how they’re getting you all the latest things. You know Reggie Hotchkiss, Goldy. Don’t you? He was a big radical with the S.D.S. and got his picture in Life magazine ages ago. He went to jail for destroying federal property and dodging the draft and all that.”

“Destroying federal property? What kind?”

“Oh, I don’t know. Let me think.” She took a deep breath. “Oh, yeah. After he burned his draft card and failed to break into the CIA, he tried to drive his mother’s Bentley up the steps of the Lincoln Memorial, and hit a lamppost en route. That was the picture that was in Life,” she added. “Someone said it was all propaganda from the British car maker. You must have seen him around town, he goes to everything.”

“The only time I saw Reggie Hotchkiss up close and personal, I was trying to eavesdrop on a conversation he was having with Dusty Routt about Mignon products. She said he was going to get into trouble.”

Marla sputtered, “The guy’s a genuine yuppie, Goldy. The last thing he would do is get into trouble when he’s trying to take over his mother’s cosmetics business.” She frowned at me. “Haven’t you ever had a facial at his place?”

I laughed. “No, can’t say that I have. Haven’t had the time, money, or inclination. Especially since I’ve been knee-deep in nonfat dips and chocolate tortes.”

“And ducking bleach water,” Julian interjected.

Marla ignored him and handed me a yellow piece of paper. “Well, here’s a free coupon for the facial. You have to buy fifty bucks’ worth of cosmetics from their fall line, though, so you might not want to use it. God knows I won’t be able to.”

I glanced at the coupon, then flipped through the slick pamphlet from Hotchkiss. The glossy photographs were of boxes, bottles, and jars of soap, cream, toners, makeups of various shapes, sizes, colors. What confused me was how the printing underneath each photograph was imperfectly aligned with the products. It was as if the photos had been taken long before, and the descriptions added hastily, just before the pamphlet went out….

Wait a minute. Fall into Color with Hotchkiss Skin & Hair! Hadn’t I just had those very words printed at the top of a banquet menu? Hotchkiss Magic Pore-closing Toner with Mediterranean Sea Kelp—tones skin as it closes pores! Hotchkiss Patented Extra Rich Nighttime Replacement Moisturizer with Goat Placenta—slows down the aging process scientifically! Ultra Gentle Eye Cream Smoother with Swiss Herbs—firms eye area with secret European formula! Hot Date Blush. Chocolate Mousse Lipstick. Unbelievable. The words and descriptions were virtually the same. I thought again of Reggie Hotchkiss, the man with the persistent questions at the Mignon counter. But this mailer had gone out yesterday morning. My bet was that it had been hastily printed and FedEx’d the day after the Mignon banquet, when Mignon’s latest products were unveiled.

He was there. He had been. What had Dusty said? We saw you. Maybe Claire had seen him too. Maybe she wasn’t supposed to.

I tucked the coupon into the loaned sweatpants. I had to talk to Tom, the sooner the better. I scanned Marla’s face, and saw that fatigue was finally triumphing over her desire—her need—to be with family. Julian and I made noises about leaving.

Eyes half-closed, she protested weakly. “Tony told me a friend of his played golf three days after he had a heart attack.”

“Golf sucks,” Julian observed.

The weak smile widened. Marla shifted her bulky body around under the sheets, trying to get comfortable. “Tony thinks I should go to this dinner party with him tomorrow in the club. Since I’m pressuring Gordon to bust me out tomorrow, it’s a possibility. I can’t imagine anything more depressing than being at home alone when all the fireworks go off, anyway.”

“A party?” I said, confused. “A golf party?”

“Golf parties suck,” Julian contributed.

Now Marla seemed to be having trouble breathing. But she inhaled and struggled onward anyway. The nurse in the corner looked up from her notes. The EKG machine did not seem to be registering any distress, however, so she stayed put. Marla went on. “No, no, at the Braithwaites’ big estate, do you know them? She’s quite the socialite and he’s a—”

“Scientist,” I said. “I know. Please don’t talk about it Marla, do you need the nurse to come over here?”

She pressed her dry lips together and shook her head. “Do you know the people having the party?”

“Yes, of course I know them. But I thought you knew them. I’m catering the dinner, for goodness’ sake. And Babs Braithwaite said you recommended me.” I thought back to Babs’s chatter about Marla. I said, almost to myself, “So how did she hear about me if you didn’t—”

“Oh, Goldy, for heaven’s sake!” interjected Julian in a harsh whisper. “You’ve got ads. You’re in the Yellow Pages! You’re doing the food fair. Why does it matter how she heard about you?”

Marla had fallen asleep. Her chest rose and fell regularly. Julian and I tiptoed out of the hospital room and stopped in the hall.

I faced Julian suddenly. “I’ll tell you why it matters. Babs Braithwaite lied.”

He gave me a patronizing look. “This is the Braithwaites we’re talking about? The scientist who’s married to the woman who slammed into the Rover”—he demonstrated by whacking his hands together—“when she said I didn’t put on my turn signal? Which I did.”

“The very same.”

“Goldy, she’s a cow. She’d lie about anything.”

“That rich cow called me before she hit you, and said she’d heard so much about me from Marla. Why lie about that?”

“I don’t know,” he said, resigned. “Look, here’s a pay phone. If you’re going to call Tom, you’d better do it.”

I got Tom’s voice mail at the sheriff’s department. Where was he? I asked the tape. I added he might want to keep checking into Hotchkiss Skin & Hair, that they seemed to be involved in some very obvious industrial espionage with Mignon, courtesy of Reggie Hotchkiss. Dusty Routt, I said, claimed there was no relationship between Claire and Shaman Krill. I also told Tom there was an observation area behind the mirrors in the ladies’ dressing room on the Prince & Grogan second floor, and that he might want to check out the Braithwaites. And Charles Braithwaite, I said finally, was deeply involved with roses. Blue ones, maybe? Suddenly, I decided not to tell Tom about the bleach water or the threatening note. I knew he would get extremely upset. Julian gave me a curious glance, so I hung up and we took off for the mall garage to get the Range Rover.

But retrieving the Rover was not that easy. Neither of us could remember where he’d left his car. As we drove up and down and back again, Julian became increasingly agitated. It had been stolen, he insisted. We’ll find it, I assured him. The garage was just very confusing. I began another circle of the levels of the packed parking structure. No Rover. Finally we decided to hunt on foot. I parked in the first available free spot. The parking space was by the shoe store’s entrance where, unfortunately, the Spare the Hares! people were back in force.

The war-painted crowd was larger and louder. They surged forward each time, someone started toward the doors. They were chanting another slogan that buzzed in my ears.

“Just walk quickly by them,” I said under my breath to Julian, who had drawn in his chin and was staring at the chanting demonstrators. I absolutely hated walking by them. Every time I did, it seemed, something bad happened.

“What are they saying?” he asked.

“Hey, hey, Mignon Cosmetics! Get your hands off helpless rabbits!”

Julian said, “Far out, man,” and kept on walking. Kept on walking, that is, until Shaman Krill popped out from between two parked cars. The demonstrator was holding something long, furry, and stiff in one hand. I didn’t want to look at it. When I tried to move away, Shaman Krill shadowed me. When I tried to duck around him, he followed.

“Oh, no,” I moaned. I wanted to look around for the police, but was afraid to take my eyes off Krill.

“What’s going on here?” Julian demanded. Krill did not heed him. He fastened his wild-eyed, Charles Manson gaze on me and leered. His small, pointed teeth gleamed eerily. Something shifted in the dark eyes of the angry, taut man in front of me. He was gleeful. He knew he was in control. I, of course, had seen that look many times before, in the eyes of the Jerk.

“Hey!” shouted Krill in an exaggerated mockery of recognizing an old friend. “Food-fight lady! Look what I got! And this time your pig won’t save you!” He yanked the rabbit carcass upward; I recoiled. “You’re history!” he screeched as he tossed the carcass at me. I ducked for the second time that day. The carcass bounced off my back. “That oughta even things up a little!” Shaman laughed hysterically. “No luck from that rabbit’s foot!”

“You’re sick!” I shouted. I stood up, my fists clenched. “You’re crazy!”

“You’re arrested,” said Tom Schulz happily as he grabbed Shaman’s arms. “For assault.”

Another policeman, a fellow named Boyd whom I knew well, snapped on the handcuffs. The dead rabbit, I noticed, lay by the front left Cadillac tire. I wondered if they would have to take it as evidence.

“Wow,” said Julian, brightening. “That was cool. Talk about just in the nick of time, man, I’m impressed.”

“So this is where you’ve been.” I walked quickly over to Tom. “Why didn’t you tell me you were staking out the garage to look for Krill?”

“Because we haven’t been here that long—”

“Tom, I really need to talk to you. You wouldn’t believe the things that have happened today—”

“Life-endangering things?” he queried, holding tight to a struggling Shaman Krill.

“You pig!” shouted Krill. “You idiot!”

“Well, not exactly—” I said.

“Look, Miss G., we just got a tip”—he aimed his remark at Krill—“from a real member of People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals that this guy was here. They call you the volunteer cheerleader,” he told Krill. He turned back to me. “Goldy, where’d you get those clothes?”

“Oh, it’s a long story.”

“It always is with you.” He eyed Julian. “Is he okay?”

“Who can tell? Check your voice mail when you’re finished with this guy.”

“I’ll finish you!” Krill yelled, but no one was listening.

Officer Boyd picked up the rabbit carcass with gloved hands and put it into a paper evidence bag, and then the three of them took off in a sheriff’s department vehicle. Who, I wondered, was Shaman Krill really working for?

Two levels down, Julian and I finally found the Rover. Julian drove me back to my van and we arrived home in tandem around six o’clock. When we came through the door, the melancholy rhythm of “Sgt Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band” reverberated down the stairs from Arch’s room. When I called to him, he replied that he was testing a strobe light and would be there in a minute.

Trying to focus on things domestic in general and on dinner in particular, I opened the walk-in. Wrapped triangles of creamy Port Salut, tangy Brie, and crumbly Gorgonzola cheeses beckoned. Tom had made a sign that said Ours! with an arrow pointing to the shelf below, to distinguish the extravagant purchases of foodstuffs he made for our newly formed family. I could always count on that shelf to bulge with the choicest berries and other produce, the ripest cheeses, the most expensive seafoods. I was trying to decide from the Ours! shelf when Arch arrived in the kitchen, still wearing the Panthers shirt. He’d found a pair of round-framed sunglasses and strap-up-the-legs sandals to go with the shirt. He looked like a beachcomber.

“I’m hungry,” he announced unceremoniously. “In fact, I’m going to faint if I don’t have some food.” He lifted up the sunglasses and glanced at my outfit, then at my face and hair. “Gosh, Mom, you look weird. I know you like coffee, but don’t you want to advertise your business instead of Pete’s?”

“Arch, please …”

“All right, all right. Just … when are we going to eat? I mean, I don’t want to be rude, but it’s been a hundred hours since lunchtime.”

“Well, I was kind of thinking of taking a shower first,” I said hopefully.

Arch moved the sunglasses down his nose, clutched his stomach, and made his eyeballs bulge.

“Oh, stop,” I grumbled. So much for the shower. Marla was coming home the next day, in any event, and if I was going to follow through on my promise to do some lowfat cooking for her, now was the time. “Dinner in forty-five minutes?” I asked brightly.

Arch looked around the empty kitchen. No food was started. The table was covered with advertisements for the fair. “What are you fixing?” he asked dubiously.

“Why don’t you let me—” Julian began.

“Absolutely not,” I broke in, “you’re taking a break. I’m fixing pasta,” I said noncommittally to Arch. Pasta was always a safe bet. What did I have on hand? Hard to remember, since Tom had taken it upon himself to buy so many goodies for us.

“What kind?” my son wanted to know.

“Arch—”

“Maybe you’d just better let me order in from the Chinese place.”

“Hey, kiddo! What are you, the plumber’s son who can’t get his leaky sink fixed for a year? I’m going to cook dinner! I may be in professional food service, but I always fix the meals around here, don’t I?”

“Well, not always—” he began, but when he saw my glowering expression, he fell silent.

Julian came to my rescue. “Come on, Arch, let’s go listen to rock groups for a while.” Julian tousled Arch’s brown hair that stuck out at various angles. Since it was summertime, I never told him to comb it. Worrying about the prep school’s dress and appearance code didn’t start until fall.

Arch pulled away. “You don’t need to take care of me, Julian. I’m okay.”

“I’m not trying to take care of you. I really want to listen to some tunes.”

“But I can’t on an empty stomach!” He narrowed his eyes at me, not to be dissuaded. “What kind of pasta? Fettuccine?”

“Fettuccine Alfredo,” I pledged. It was his favorite. If I promised it, maybe he’d quit hassling me and allow me to cook. On the other hand, how I would make a lowfat Alfredo—a dish that ordinarily required a stick of melted butter, two cups of heavy whipping cream, and loads of Parmesan cheese—was beyond my reckoning.

“I don’t believe it,” Arch replied stubbornly.

“That’s what they said when Eugene McCarthy won the New Hampshire primary,” Julian interjected.

Arch gaped at Julian in awe. “How’d you know that?”

“You’d be surprised at what you can pick up,” Julian said mysteriously. “Take the Vietnam protest, which had as one of its favorite slogans Johnson Withdraw! Like Your Father Should Have!”

I yelled, “Julian!”

Arch shrieked with laughter and scampered up the stairs.

“Gosh, Goldy,” Julian said in his get-a-life tone of voice. “Don’t you think Arch knows about sex? Sometimes I wonder about you.”

Well, I thought as I desperately scanned my freezer for cholesterol-free fettuccine, sometimes I wondered about me too. Miraculously, I found a package of the right pasta. I started water to heat in the pasta pentola. The boys had turned off Sgt. Pepper, perhaps to discuss … well, I didn’t want to think about it.

I opened the kitchen window. A late afternoon breeze floated in along with trilling notes from the saxophone at the Routts’ place. I smiled. Here we were in rural Colorado, and yet it felt as if our house sat across the alley from a New York jazz club. I chopped some red onion, then washed and sliced slender, brilliant-green asparagus that I had found in a tight bundle on the Ours! shelf. When I’d drizzled a bit of olive oil over a head of garlic and set it to bake in the oven, I thought back on the events of the day. Applying logic, or trying to.

I’d gone into Prince & Grogan trying to find Claire’s murderer. Tom had said it was all right to do some digging, as long as I didn’t get into trouble. And I had gotten into trouble, or at least been busted by store security, doused with bleach water, and told to go home. But these weren’t my fault, I rationalized.

Besides, I thought as I got out Wondra flour, I was determined to help Julian recover from Claire’s death. If I just knew why this happened, he had cried so helplessly here in the kitchen. Claire’s life had revolved around Mignon. So it seemed logical to look at what she herself had called “that cutthroat cosmetics counter.”

And, I also rationalized as I measured, since I was a woman, like it or not I was more able to get gossipy-type information than Tom and his deputies at the sheriff’s department ever would. The Mignon counter at Prince & Grogan, Westside Mall, was a place of high energy, high profit, high emotional stakes. I mean, where else could you go and be promised beauty and endless youth with such enthusiasm, conviction, and pain to your wallet? Where else did you have to watch for shoplifters, pretend to be decades older than your actual age, worry about spies from rival firms, and fend off wealthy pick-up artists in the form of weird scientists?

I poked wildly through one of my drawers until I found a grater. I’d been able to help Tom before in his investigations. Of course, he’d never particularly welcomed my involvement until it was all over. And no matter how much I maintained Julian needed my help in figuring out what happened, my protestations would fall on deaf ears.

Still. I’d heard Dusty say to Reggie Hotchkiss, We saw you. You are going to get into so much trouble. I’d been in that garage. I hadn’t seen anybody except a crazy demonstrator. But I’d found a blue rose close to Claire’s body. And that rose had perhaps been developed by Charles Braithwaite—the same Charles Braithwaite who, according to Dusty, had been infatuated by, and later broken up with, Claire Satterfield. And then there had been Babs Braithwaite, who had run into me at the top of the escalator, claiming that somebody was hiding in the women’s dressing room. Only I hadn’t found anybody in the dressing room. Except I’d unexpectedly encountered her husband again. This time Dr. Charlie had magically turned up on the roof. On the roof, that is, after Frances Markasian and I had been hit with an unhealthy dose of bleach water. I wondered if Charles Braithwaite would have had the courage to do that. He didn’t strike me as the courageous type.

LOWFAT FETTUCCINE

ALFREDO WITH

ASPARAGUS

2 tablespoons finely chopped red onion

2½ cups diagonally sliced asparagus with tight tips (tough ends of stalks removed)

1 teaspoon (about 2 cloves) mashed and chopped baked garlic (see note)

⅓ cup nonfat dry milk

1½ cups skim milk or more as needed

1½ tablespoons Wondra instant-blending flour

2 tablespoons light process cream cheese product (not nonfat)

⅔ cup grated parmesan cheese 9 ounces cholesterol-free fettuccine

½ cup chopped arugulaHeat a medium-size nonstick sauté pan. Remove from the heat and spray with vegetable oil spray. Add the onion and sauté over medium heat until limp, about 5 or 10 minutes. Add the asparagus and the garlic, cover the pan, and turn off the heat. (The steam from the onion will cook the asparagus.)In a large skillet, combine the dry milk and skim milk and whisk until blended. Add the flour, stir, and cook over medium-high heat until thickened. In a small bowl, add 2 tablespoons of the hot sauce to the cream cheese and stir until smooth. Return this mixture to the hot sauce. Add the Parmesan and stir until melted. Keep hot. If the mixture becomes too thick, thin it out with small amounts of skim milk. The consistency should be like cream, not gravy.Cook the fettuccine in boiling water according to the package directions until it is al dente; drain. Add the hot pasta and the garlic and the vegetables to the sauce in the skillet. Stir and cook over medium-low heat until heated through. Serve garnished with chopped arugula.Serves 4Note: To bake the garlic, preheat the oven to 350°. Place a whole head of garlic in a small baking pan. Drizzle one teaspoon of olive oil over the head of garlic; add ¼ cup water to the pan. Bake the garlic, loosely covered with aluminum foil, for 45 to 60 minutes or until the cloves are soft. The cloves will slip right out of their skins to be mashed, chopped, or served whole. The whole garlic cloves can be served as a side dish with any roast meat; the mashed garlic cloves are also delicious mixed with hot homemade mashed potatoes.

It was the bleach water, and the warning to go home, that made me realize I had to figure out what was going on with the murder of Claire Satterfield, no matter what Tom said. Instead of Frances Markasian being at my side when the chlorine came sailing through the air, it could have been Julian.

It could have been Arch.

Whoever had tried to warn me off would stop at nothing, it seemed. So I was in this thing until the bitter end.

With that decided, I grated the pungent Parmesan cheese into golden strands. Then I rummaged through my cabinets for something that would be like cream and decided on mixing nonfat dry milk into skim milk. It didn’t sound as good as whipping cream, it certainly didn’t look as good as whipping cream, and I wasn’t sure if it would taste anything like, that favorite—and marvelously fattening—ingredient of food service people. But the mixture didn’t have any fat in it, so it was definitely worth a shot. For Marla. I also retrieved a package of lowfat cream cheese from my refrigerator—one of the remnants of the Mignon banquet vegetable dip saga—and decided to blend some of that into the sauce, for richness. Or simulated richness, I thought dutifully, as I slowly poured the dry milk mixture over the flour and began to whisk vigorously.

As I stirred I tried to reflect. What could I deduce from my latest visit to the mall? I was becoming quite an expert on that place: the location of the covered catwalk around the entrance, called a “blind” by the security people who liked to lurk there, the intricacies of hidden cameras trained and focused on customer transactions, the not-so-obsolete one-way mirrors. I glanced out my window. The pale leaves of the aspen trees in my backyard shuddered in the wind. The saxophone music lilting through the open windows made me think of Dusty—poor, eager, friendly Dusty, expelled from Elk Park Prep, losing a potential boyfriend in the form of Julian, losing another friend in the form of Claire, stepped on by ambitious fellow sales associate Harriet. And living in a house built by Habitat for Humanity, which was certainly a long way from the Aqua Bella mansion she’d yearned for aloud when we were sipping coffee on the mall’s garage roof. But looking back on her exchange with Reggie Hotchkiss, it seemed to me that she’d been radiant, teasing, even flirtatious, before they’d argued. If it really was an argument, and not just more of a tease. In that relationship, Dusty was the sought-after one. Dusty was the one with information. Or so, perhaps, Reggie Hotchkiss had made it appear.

And then I thought of Harriet, perfectly coiffed, ambitious, keeping her distance from the inquisitive Reggie, even attempting to prevent Dusty from talking to him. Harriet had been working at that Mignon counter a lot longer than Dusty had, why didn’t Reggie Hotchkiss ask her questions? Perhaps he had, or he’d tried to, yet she was loyal to the company. She certainly wouldn’t want to jeopardize her commissions by telling secrets to the rival Hotchkiss Skin & Hair. Or would she?

And what about the Braithwaites? Charlie was obsessed by more than science, that much was clear. Had he dropped the improbably hued rose near Claire’s body? Why was Babs hanging out—literally—above the cosmetics counter, when I was hauled away by Stan White, Nick Gentileschi’s henchman? Did Babs know what was going on between Charlie and Claire, if anything?

I scooped out some of the thickened cream sauce into the dollops of cream cheese, whisked them together, then stirred the mixture back into the sauce. While this was heating I sautéed the red onion and then added the smashed cloves of baked garlic and the asparagus, covered the pan, and put it aside. The water was boiling. I dropped in the ribbons of pasta, decided to serve it with a salad of fresh raspberries and lightly steamed baby peas, and turned my attention to dessert.

If we were going to have pasta with vegetables, then we could handle a dark, rich dessert. I decided on the fudge soufflé that I’d stumbled upon in my attempt to make Nonfat Chocolate Torte. When chocolate chips and skim milk were heating in the top of a double boiler, I beat egg whites with sugar, salt, and vanilla until they were fluffed and opaque. Then I swirled the chocolate and egg white mixtures together and put the resulting dark cloud of chocolate back in the double boiler to cook while we ate dinner. Next I stirred the shredded Parmesan into the fettuccine, vegetables, and sauce, heated this until the luscious-looking concoction was just bubbling, and called the boys. I looked at my watch: six forty-five. Amazing. Not that Arch would appreciate my culinary speed and skill, however.

I put a call in to Tom and again got his voice mail. I told him we were eating the most delectable goodies for dinner that he could possibly imagine, and the later he got home, the less likely it was that he would get some. Mean, I knew, but tactics were tactics.

And delectable the meal was. The cheesy, thickened cream sauce coated every delicate strand of fettuccine and crunchy bite of asparagus. The salad was light and refreshingly tart. Arch ate hungrily. Julian consumed nearly nothing. When I asked if they wanted fudge soufflé for dessert, he merely shrugged. As I began to clear the dishes, I again suggested to Julian that he go to bed instead of trying to help dean up or work on the Braithwaites’ party. He wouldn’t be much help on the Fourth if he was too exhausted to do anything. To my surprise, he assented and trudged up to his bunk. Arch, ecstatic that he’d get a double portion of dessert, gleefully sneaked away with it to the television room.