Killer Takes All

CHAPTER 58

Sunday, March 20, 2005

3:12 a.m.

“We have to stop meeting like this.”

Stacy lifted her head and looked at Spencer, standing in the doorway to the kitchen. He wore soft-looking blue jeans, a House of Blues T-shirt and the windbreaker from the night at the library. She wondered if he had a Snickers bar tucked into the pocket.

“Are you okay?” he asked.

“Define okay.”

He crossed to her, bent and dropped a kiss on the top of her head. The gesture brought tears to her eyes. She fought them.

She hadn’t cried earlier. She wouldn’t now.

He pulled a chair out, turned it to face her and sat. “Can you talk about it?”

She nodded and ran a trembling hand through her hair, still damp from the shower. After the officers stationed out front had found her and helped her get out from under Danson’s dead weight, she’d run to the bathroom to wash-to try to cleanse herself of the experience.

She explained about waking, about Danson confronting her with her own gun.

“He hated Leo. Blamed him for everything that had gone wrong with his life. He admitted his affair with Kay. Claimed he was poisoning Alice’s mind against her parents. Getting sick kicks out of it.”

She looked away, then back. “He wasn’t the White Rabbit.”

“Come again?”

“He claimed Leo was. That Leo had created an elaborate plan to get rid of Kay. For financial gain. He claimed Kay was afraid of Leo. That she believed he might hurt her, because of their financial agreement.”

“As I’m sure you’re aware, there’s a big problem with that theory.”

“No joke. He realized it, too, when he learned Leo was dead.” She pressed her point. “He didn’t know Leo was dead. When I told him…he got this look. He knew he was screwed. That he was going to jail. So he blew his brains out.”

He frowned. “I don’t know, Stacy. Maybe you should sleep on this.”

“You still think Danson’s our guy?”

“Sorry.”

She supposed she didn’t blame him-he hadn’t been there, he hadn’t seen Danson’s face when he learned about Leo.

Stacy stood, shocked to realize her legs shook. More shocked to realize she had no idea what to do. Of her next move. She felt numb and uncertain.

Numbness she was familiar with. Cops turned off their emotions a lot, some with alcohol or drugs. It was one of the reasons the divorce rate for cops far outpaced that of the civilian population.

Uncertainty was another matter. She’d always been a woman prone to action, even when that action proved rash.

To not know what move to make next, terrified her.

He crossed to her, took her hands in his. “They’re cold.”

“I’m cold.”

He folded her in his arms and rubbed her back. “Better?”

“Yes.” He made a move, as if to ease away from her, and she tightened her arms. “Don’t go. Hold me.”

He complied and gradually his body warmed hers. She stepped regretfully away from him. The broken contact brought a sense of loss. A thread of panic. “It’s really late, isn’t it?”

“Yes. You should sleep.”

“Lovely thought. Problem is, when I close my eyes-” She pressed her trembling lips together, hating the show of weakness.

“I could stay?”

She met his direct gaze, held out a hand.

He took it. And led her to the guest bedroom.

Fully dressed, they slid under the covers and lay facing each other.

He had known, without asking, without having to be told, that wanting him to stay had been about comfort. And company. Not sex or sexual desire.

“Warmer now?”

“Much.” She curled her fingers into his soft T-shirt. “Would you believe that once upon a time, I was in control of my life? I hardly ever made mistakes. Now…I’m a total screwup.”

He laughed softly and trailed his fingers through her hair, brushing it away from her face. “You, Stacy Killian, are the antithesis of a screwup.”

“Antithesis is a mighty big word.”

“I learned that one just to impress you. Did it work?”

She’d already been impressed. She smiled weakly. “Absolutely.”

“Glad to hear that. I’ll learn another one for tomorrow.” He rested his forehead on hers. “It’s true, you know. You are the most capable, self-assured, kick-ass woman I’ve ever known. Excluding my aunt Patti, of course.”

“Your aunt Patti?”

“My mother’s sister. My godmother. And my direct superior at ISD.”

“She a captain?”

“Yup. Captain Patti O’Shay. One of only three female captains in the NOPD.”

“Bet she didn’t flunk out of grad school. Or have everyone she was supposed to be protecting get whacked, practically right under her nose?”

“If you want to go and talk about screwup, I’m your man. The one who only worked enough to get by. Who never considered the consequences. The one who thought it was all one big drunken frat party.”

“You? That’s not the man I know.”

“You’ve brought out the best in me, Stacy Killian. Made me see what I wanted to be. The kind of cop I wanted to be.”

“I’m not a cop anymore.”

“We both know you’re a cop in every way but one.”

She opened her mouth to argue; he stopped her. “You want to know the humiliating truth?” he asked softly. “I’m not ISD. I didn’t earn it. It was given to me.”

“For being such a screwup?”

“I’m baring my soul here, Killian. This is serious.”

Stacy fought a smile. “Sorry.”

“It was payola,” he continued. “To keep me from suing the department.”

She caught his hand, curved her fingers around his in silent support.

“I’d finally made detective. Way behind my brothers. And in all truth, partly because of them. My DIU superior set me up. Lifted a kitty of snitch money and made me the fall guy. Everybody bought into it because of my reputation.”

“Not everybody, I’ll bet. Not Tony. Not your family.”

“No, not them.” A smile touched his mouth. “Thank God.”

“What happened then?”

“Because of the few who stood behind me and wouldn’t give up, Lieutenant Moran was caught. I was reinstated. And given ISD so I wouldn’t make trouble for the department. I jumped at it.”

She was quiet for a long moment, thinking of the man he described himself as being and the one she had come to know. “Are you sorry?”

“That I was given ISD?”

“That it happened? If you could make it all go away, go back to who and what you were before, would you?”

He stared at her a moment, expression a curious combination of surprise and introspection. Then a slow smile curved his lips. “You know, I don’t believe I would.”

“Good.” She returned his smile. “Because I’m liking the man I’m looking at right now.”

He moved to kiss her, then stopped and swore. “I’m buzzing.” He drew away, unclipped the device and brought it to his ear. “Malone here. It’d better be good.

“Gone? When?” His expression tightened. “Dammit, Tony, how the hell did you-”

Concerned, Stacy sat up. Spencer held up a hand to hold off her questions. He paused to listen; when he spoke again, Stacy knew she hadn’t been mistaken about what she’d heard.

“This is worse news than you know, Pasta Man. Dunbar’s dead. And he may not have been the one.”

A moment later, he hung up. Stacy was already out of bed, straightening her clothes. “Alice is missing, isn’t she?”

“Yes.”

“How did that happen? What, did she just walk out?”

“Basically.” He climbed out of bed. “Earlier in the evening, Betty thought she heard Alice’s phone ring and the girl answer. She didn’t think anything about it. A while later, she decided to take a peek at the girl, make certain she was okay. She wasn’t there.”

“How long ago was this? She couldn’t have gotten far on foot.”

“A couple hours.”

“Damn. This is bad.”

Spencer frowned. “By the way, where do you think you’re going?”

“To find Alice.”

“I don’t think so.”

“The hell I’m no-”

“The game could still be in play. I want you to stay put. Understand?”

“But Alice-”

“Tony and I will find her. You stay. She may come here looking for you.”

Stacy opened her mouth to argue; he stopped her with a kiss. After a moment, he drew away. “I don’t want anything to happen to you. Promise me you won’t do anything stupid?”

She did, though as he left her apartment she acknowledged that her promise depended on his definition of stupid.