Kiss The Cook

Chapter 14

Melanie prepared herself during the ride back to her house. As soon as Chris parked the car, she'd recite her breezy "Thanks, it's been great, have a nice life" speech, then skip into the house. Easy as pie.

It was the heartache she knew lurked around the corner that scared her silly.

Chris parked the Mercedes in her driveway. Before she could speak, he asked, "What's troubling you, Mel Gibson? You're awfully quiet."

Clasping her clammy hands together, Melanie drew a resolute breath. "Chris, we need to talk."

He frowned and nodded. "Yes, I guess we do."

His serious tone sent a shiver down Melanie's spine. Women everywhere knew that tone. It was the it's – been – fun – but – now – it's – over tone. The I'll – call – you – but – he – doesn't voice.

So he would end it. She should have been thrilled. It saved her the awkwardness of doing the deed. Yippee.

Her heart felt like she'd ripped it out with a rusty pitchfork. Damn it! This love crap really stunk.

Chris reached out and touched her hand. "Our… relationship hasn't really gone the way I expected it to."

Pasting what she hoped was a devil-may-care expression on her face, Melanie nodded. Refusing to show the slightest sign of hurt, she braced herself for his next words. The words that would break her heart.

"I love you, Melanie."

Melanie actually felt the blood drain from her face. Every red cell she owned gushed downward until there was nothing left in her head except the echo of his words.

I love you, Melanie. I love you.

She had no idea how long she stared at him, speechless, but she figured it must have been a while, because his expression turned to concern.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

What the hell kind of question was that? Okay? No! How dare he say something like that to her! She loved him, but she didn't want to!

And she certainly didn't want him to fall in love with her. She knew where love led, and she was never walking down that rocky path again. This was supposed to be an affair. Nothing more. He couldn't possibly love her. It was just his overworked hormones talking.

"Chris-"

Once again he forestalled her words by placing a finger over her lips. "You don't have to say anything," he said in a quiet voice. "I didn't tell you so you'd feel obligated to say it back. I only told you because I have to fly to LA tomorrow morning and I didn't want to go away for three days and not have you know how I felt." He kissed her hand. "So don't panic, okay?"

Panic set in. Ohmigod. That didn't sound like hormones talking. Full-fledged, stark-raving, cold-sweat, heart-pounding panic gripped her and wouldn't let go.

"I have to go," she said, pulling her hands loose. "Look. There's Nana at the door. She's probably wondering what the heck we're doing out here."

"You spent the weekend at my house. I think she knows what we're doing."

"Still, it's time for me to leave." She grabbed her purse and opened the car door.

"I'll walk you in."

"No!" She took a deep breath and tried to remain calm. "You should go."

"Okay. I'll call you tomorrow from LA." When he leaned over to kiss her, Melanie brushed his cheek with her lips. Quick.

"Good. Gotta run. 'Bye." She hopped out of the car and sprinted across the lawn as if the devil himself pursued her. Pausing on the porch, she waved and smiled, then went into the house. She slammed the door, then leaned back against it and tried to catch her breath.

"Where's the hunk?" Nana asked.

"Gone."

"He must be some kisser. You're flushed and all out of breath."

Melanie opened her eyes and wiped the back of her hand across her overheated forehead. "I ran into the house."

"Seems to me you've got to be nuts to run away from a man like that." She peered at Melanie over the tops of her bifocals. "You want to talk about it?"

Hot tears filled Melanie's eyes. "No."

"He do something to upset you? 'Cause if he did, even though I like him and he's a hunk and all, I'll pound that sucker into the ground."

Tears dribbled down Melanie's cheeks. "He said he loves me."

Nana rolled her eyes. "Good night nurse! I guess I'd better get my rifle and shoot him dead, that no-good scoundrel. What nerve."

"I'm serious, Nana. He said he loves me."

"Then it seems to me you should be tap dancing on the roof, not standing there with big tears rolling down your face."

"But I don't want him to love me!" Melanie wailed.

"Horse feathers. Of course you do. What woman in her right mind wouldn't want a man like that? If I were a couple years younger, I'd wrestle you for him."

A sob escaped Melanie.

Nana immediately sobered. "Good grief, honey," she said, taking Melanie's hand. "I guess this is serious. You come on into the kitchen and I'll make you a nice cup of tea."

Melanie allowed herself to be led. She composed herself while Nana brewed chamomile tea. After taking a few sips, Melanie felt a little better.

"Now, what's got you so tied up in knots?" Nana demanded, settling in the chair opposite Melanie.

"I don't know where to begin," Melanie said with a sigh.

"How about at the beginning."

"The beginning? Okay. I knew that man was trouble the moment I laid eyes on him," Melanie stated with an emphatic nod.

"Trouble like he just got out of jail and we should hide the family silver?"

"No. Trouble like the silver's safe, but my heart isn't."

Nana stirred sugar into her tea. "And that's bad because…?"

"Because I've clearly lost my mind." Melanie stood and paced around the kitchen, ticking reasons off on her fingers. "I had no intention of getting involved. I don't have time for him. I've been in love. Love stinks. It hurts. I don't like it."

"Melanie. Are you in love with Chris?"

Melanie stopped pacing and plunged her fingers through her hair. "Yes. But I don't want to be. How can I make it go away, Nana?"

Her grandmother laughed. "It's love, honey, not the flu."

"Feels just as bad," Melanie grumbled, flopping back into her chair.

"Now let me see if I understand this," Nana said. "You love Chris, and Chris loves you-"

"He says he loves me," Melanie broke in.

Nana raised her eyebrows. "You don't believe him?"

That brought Melanie up short. "Yes. No. I… I don't know. Todd said he loved me, and look what happened."

"You listen to me, young lady," Nana said, her eyes snapping. "That Todd was nothing but a horse's ass. From all I've seen, Chris is a fine, decent, honest young man. He doesn't strike me as the sort of fella who would tell a girl he loved her if he didn't mean it.

"But," she continued, her voice firm, "even if he was a crumb-bum, he wouldn't deserve to be compared to that imbecile Todd who was the flotsam below pond scum."

"But we barely know each other," Melanie said, shaking her head.

"You've spent the last two weekends with him," Nana observed archly. "Seems to me you should know each other pretty well."

Heat flooded Melanie's face. "Not well enough to be in love."

"Honey, how long do you think it takes to fall in love? A month? A year? Three years?"

"I don't know. I don't trust myself. I thought I was in love before. I can't make that mistake again."

Nana reached across the table and squeezed her hand. "I'll tell you how long it takes to fall in love. It only takes a moment." A faraway look came into her eyes. "I took one look at your Grandpa Will and knew he was the man for me. Luckily, he felt the same way. We'd only known each other three weeks when we got hitched." Her expression cleared. "The only time there's a problem is when you love someone who doesn't love you back. That doesn't appear to be the case."

Hope dawned in Melanie's chest. "You mean, you think he might really love me?"

"If he's half as smart as I think he is, I'm sure he does. He said so, didn't he?"

"And you don't think it's too soon?"

"How long did it take you to fall for him?"

A slow smile tilted Melanie's lips. "Only a moment."

"So don't you think the same thing could happen to him?"

"But he told me that he'd waited a long time to lead a bachelor life."

"Honey, a man who's determined to remain a bachelor doesn't tell a woman he loves her. It appears he's changed his mind. The question is, what are you going to do about it?" Nana regarded her steadily from wise eyes. "If you're really set on not being involved, you need to tell him. It wouldn't be fair to lead him on.

"But," she added, patting Melanie's hand, "if you decide to come out of your self-imposed exile and give love another chance-this time with a real man instead of a lying scuzzbucket-then you need to stop your cryin' and start celebrating. You've found yourself one helluva guy."

"I'm scared, Nana," Melanie whispered, wishing she wasn't.

"’Course you are. You should be. But don't throw love away just because it came calling and you weren't ready. Love is ornery. It likes to wait until you least expect it, then it jumps up and bites you right on your unsuspecting ass. I always thought love was like childbirth. It hurts like hell, but in the end it's worth it."

Melanie took a deep breath and pressed a hand to her stomach. She was in love. And it was okay. In fact, it was wonderful! Chris was kind, honest, and loving. He would never betray her the way Todd had. Hadn't she already realized that she trusted Chris completely? Love didn't mean she had to give up anything. Only share. And sharing with Chris was something to look forward to, not dread.

She cringed, recalling how she'd panicked and practically run away from him. He must have thought she was loony. She wanted to call him and tell him she loved him, but she didn't want to tell him over the phone. She glanced at the clock. It was almost midnight. Too late to drive over. And he was going out of town tomorrow.

Darn it, she'd have to wait until Wednesday night to tell him.

But that was okay.

What could possibly go wrong between now and then?

Chris drove back to his condo, his thoughts in a whirl. For the first time in his life, he'd told a woman he loved her, and what happened? She'd looked like she swallowed a bug.

Damn it, he hadn't expected her to fall at his feet and declare undying devotion, but it would have been nice, or at least encouraging, if she hadn't bolted like a frightened deer. He'd been debating whether or not to tell her about the information he'd given Glenn, but her hasty departure had prevented him from broaching the subject.

According to Glenn, the bank wouldn't make its decision before Thursday, and Chris was scheduled to arrive back in Atlanta Wednesday evening. He certainly didn't want to tell Melanie over the phone.

I'm worrying needlessly. The bank will approve her loan. When I get back from LA, I'll tell her everything and we'll laugh about it. Besides, if the bank said it wouldn't make its decision before Thursday, that no doubt meant they'd decide sometime next week, or the week after.

Considerably cheered, Chris pulled into his parking space. What could possibly go wrong between now and Wednesday?