Labyrinth

CHAPTER 29

As they hurried back through the town, it was clear that already the exodus had begun.

Jews and Saracens were moving toward the main gates, some on foot, some with carts laden down with belongings, books, maps, furniture; financiers with horses saddled and carrying baskets, chests and scales for weighing, rolls of parchment. Alais noticed a few Christian families in the crowd too.

The courtyard of the suzerain’s palace was bleached white in the morning sun. As they passed through the gates, Alais saw the look of relief on her father’s face as he realized the Council was not yet concluded.

“Does anyone else know you are here?”

Alais stopped dead in her tracks, horrified to realize she’d not thought of Guilhem at all. “No. I came straight to find you.”

She was irritated by the look of pleasure that flashed across her father’s face.

He nodded. “Wait here. I will inform Viscount Trencavel of your presence and ask his permission for you to ride with us. Your husband, also, should be told.”

Alais watched as he disappeared into the shadows of the house. Dismissed, she turned and looked around. Animals stretched out in the shade, their fur flattened against the cool, pale walls, unconcerned by the affairs of men. Despite her experiences and the stories Amiel de Coursan had told her, here, in the tranquility of the palace, Alais found it hard to believe the threat was as imminent as they claimed.

Behind her, the doors were flung open and a tide of men flooded down the steps and across the courtyard. Alais pressed herself against a pillar to avoid being caught up in the rush.

The courtyard erupted with the sound of shouting, commands, orders issued and obeyed, ecuyers running to fetch their masters’ horses. In a heartbeat the palace was transformed from the seat of administration to the heart of the garrison.

Through the commotion, Alai’s heard someone calling her name. Guilhem. Her heart leaped into her mouth. She turned, straining to see where his voice was coming from.

“Alais,” he cried in disbelief. “How? What are you doing here?”

Now she could see him, striding through the crowds, clearing a path, until he was lifting her into his arms, squeezing her so hard that she thought every last breath would be driven out of her body. For an instant, the sight of him, the smell of him, drove everything from her mind. All was forgotten, all was forgiven. She felt shy almost, captivated by his obvious pleasure and delight to see her. Alai’s closed her eyes and imagined them alone, returned miraculously to the Chateau Comtal, as if the tribulations of the past few days were but the stuff of bad dreams.

“How I’ve missed you,” said Guilhem, kissing her neck, her throat, her hands. Alai’s winced.

“Mon cor, what is it?”

“Nothing,” she said quickly.

Guilhem lifted her cloak and saw the angry purple bruising across her shoulder. “Nothing, by Sant-Foy. How in the name of-”

“I fell,” she said. “My shoulder took the worst of it. It is worse than it looks. Please, do not concern yourself.”

Now Guilhem looked uncertain, caught between concern and doubt. “Is this how you fill your hours when I am away?” he said, suspicion forming in his eyes. He took a step back. “Why are you here, Alai’s?”

She faltered. “To bring a message to my father.”

The moment the words were out of her mouth, Alai’s realized she had said the wrong thing. Her intense pleasure immediately turned to anxiety. His brow darkened.

“What message?”

Her mind went blank. What might her father have said? What possible excuse could she give?

“I-”

“What message, Alai’s?”

She caught her breath. More than anything, she wanted there to be lightness between them, but she had given her word to her father.

“Messire, forgive me, but I cannot say. It was a matter for his ears alone.”

“Cannot or will not?”

“Cannot, Guilhem,” she said with regret. “I would that it were otherwise.”

“Did he send for you?” he said furiously. “Did he send for you without asking my permission?”

“No, no one sent for me,” she cried. “I came of my own accord.”

“But yet you will not tell me why.”

“I beseech you, Guilhem. Do not ask me to break my word to my father. Please. Try to understand.”

He grabbed hold of her arms and shook her. “You will not tell me? No?” He gave a sharp, bitter laugh. “And to think I believed I had first claim on you. What a fool to think so!”

Alais tried to stop him leaving, but he was already striding away from her through the crowds. “Guilhem! Wait.”

“What’s the matter?”

She spun round to see that her father had come up behind her.

“My husband is offended by my unwillingness to confide in him.”

“Did you tell him I forbid you to speak of it?”

“I tried, but he was not minded to listen.”

Pelletier scowled. “He has no right to ask you to break your word.”

Alais held her ground, feeling anger well up inside her.

“With respect, Paire, he has every right. He is my husband. He deserves my obedience and my loyalty.”

“You are not being disloyal,” Pelletier said impatiently. “His anger will pass. This is not the time nor the place.”

“He feels things deeply. Insults go deep with him.”

“As do we all,” he replied. “Each of us feels deeply. However, the rest of us do not let our emotions govern our common sense. Come, Alais. Put it from your mind. Guilhem is here to serve his seigneur not fret over his wife. As soon as we are back in Carcassona, I’m sure all will be quickly resolved between you.” He placed a kiss on the top of her head. “Let it lie. Now, fetch Tatou. You must get ready to leave.”

Slowly, she turned and followed him to the stables. “You will speak with Oriane about her part in this. I feel sure she knows something of what happened to me.”

Pelletier waved his hand. “I’m sure you misjudge your sister. For too long there has been discord between you, which I have allowed to run unchecked, believing it would pass.”

“Forgive me, Paire, but I do not think you see her true character.”

Pelletier ignored her comment. “You are inclined to judge Oriane too harshly, Alais. I am certain she undertook your care for the best of motives. Did you even ask her?” Alais flushed. “Exactly. I see from your face you did not.” He paused again. “She is your sister, Alais. You owe her better.”

The unfairness of the rebuke ignited the anger simmering inside her chest.

“It is not I-”

“If I have the chance, I will talk to Oriane,” he said firmly, making it clear the subject was closed.

Alais flushed, but held her tongue. She had always known she was her father’s favorite and therefore she understood that it was his lack of affection for Oriane that pricked at his conscience and made him blind to her faults. Of her, he had higher expectations.

Frustrated, Alais fell into step beside him. “Will you try to seek out those who took the merel?” Have you-“

“Enough, Alais. No more can be accomplished until we return to Carcassona. Now, may God grant us speed and good fortune to carry us swiftly home.” Pelletier stopped and looked around. “And pray that Besiers has the strength to hold them here.”