Listen

32

Kay turned up the heat in the SUV. Exhaust filled the space behind the bumper. Even with the heater running, it still felt frigid. Her windows were fogging over too.

Normally she would let Hunter walk home but not today. Not after Damien’s phone call.

The parking lot looked fairly empty, and only a few cars had pulled to the curb. Hunter wouldn’t be happy seeing his mom’s SUV idling out front, but she didn’t care at this point. She just wanted him home safely.

She’d texted Jenna earlier and tried not to sound frightened. Instead she said, Checking in. Doing okay?

Jenna’s response: Doing fine.

That was all she needed to hear.

Now she just needed to see her son walking out the front doors of the school.

She swiped her hand across the windshield and checked her watch. She knew she was on time. He’d been staying late for a few weeks working on his science fair project.

She got out of her SUV and stood on the curb, glancing back and forth to make sure she hadn’t accidentally missed him.

A few kids straggled out. She didn’t recognize them, though admittedly, she didn’t know many of Hunter’s friends. She’d been so consumed with the whole cheerleading scene she had let those kinds of details slip lately. But Hunter had never had trouble making friends, and usually they were the good kids.

She blew into her gloved hands and wiggled around in her coat, trying to keep herself warm.

Where was he?

A nervous chill managed to snake its way up her spine, colder than what this wind was causing.

She couldn’t have missed him. The kids always came out the front door to walk home. The back of the school was fenced in and there was no other way to go.

She took out her cell phone and called Reverend Caldwell. His voice mail picked up. “Hi, this is Kay Underwood. Our family is going through a lot right now, and I wanted to say thank you for your kindness. I’m so glad Gabby is okay. If you could just say a prayer for us. Thank you.” Kay shut her phone and thought that perhaps she could say a prayer herself. She hadn’t prayed in years besides the occasional blessing at the table on a religious holiday.

She wanted to pray, but she couldn’t get her mind off Hunter.

He was going to kill her, but at this point she was willing to take the risk, since she felt like she was going to die from a combination of fear and hypothermia.

“Don’t panic,” she said as she started toward the school. She realized she’d forgotten to turn off her SUV and take the keys out. Her purse was on the floorboard. She paused but couldn’t get herself to turn back. With brisk strides she swung open the heavy glass door of the school.

The halls were empty and dark. Her heels echoed dully against the laminate. A janitor swung his mop back and forth a few feet ahead. “Excuse me,” Kay said. “I’m looking for Mrs. Patterson’s room.”

“Straight that way, at the end. Room 110.”

“Thanks.”

Kay hustled forward, nearly in a run. She found the room and grabbed the handle, but it was locked. She peered through the small window on the door. Heavy shadows, long against the floor, clung to the last bits of light filtering through the outside window.

Kay turned, her back against the door, each breath hard to take. She hurried to the center of the building, where the office was and hopefully the teachers’ lounge.

She heard a few voices and followed them into a long room with tables, a sink, and a coffeemaker. She couldn’t even remember what Mrs. Patterson looked like.

A few teachers looked up as she cleared her throat. “Sorry to bother you. I’m looking for Mrs. Patterson?”

“Yes, that’s me,” said a slender woman with long, straight hair. She didn’t really fit the profile of a science teacher. “What can I do for you?” she asked, walking toward Kay.

Kay lowered her voice and tried a pleasant, calm smile. “I’m sorry. I’m just looking for my son, Hunter Underwood.”

“I haven’t seen him since school today.”

“He was staying late after school for that project.”

“What project?”

“For the big science project he’s been working on.”

Mrs. Patterson shook her head. “I don’t know what you mean.”

“He said there was some science project he was doing. He’s been staying late after school. Today he was working on the essay.”

“I’m sorry. You must be mistaken. I have assigned nothing like that, and nobody from the class has been staying afterward.”

Damien peeled into the driveway, punching his garage door opener. He sped into the garage and got out. The metal garage door rumbled closed. He unlocked the door that led into the laundry room, irritated it was locked although he’d been the one to suggest the extra precaution.

The house was dark and empty. Somewhere he thought he smelled a candle recently burned. Was it lavender? Damien stopped in the kitchen, trying to catch his breath. He had to get a grip. He had to try to think clearly, not panic, no matter what the outcome was.

He slipped off his coat and stuffed his gloves into the pockets, then threw his cell phone on the counter.

His legs felt as if he were walking on unstable ground, as if at any moment his feet might sink into an unseen hole. Both hands were flat against his chest as he made his way to the dining room.

There it was, still sitting on the table, closed up and ready for another family game night. He turned on the chandelier. Its sparkling light caressed the room, but there was nothing to calm Damien’s dread.

He pulled out a chair and sat down, then moved the box toward him, staring at it for a long time. It took several tugs, but he finally removed the box top. Inside, the game was put back nice and tidy, with all the money lined up in neat stacks. Kay must’ve done it.

He removed the game board, the pieces, and the money. He took a deep breath as he lifted out the pad of paper he’d doodled on the night before. He flipped it over to where he’d jotted down a line from the op-ed piece he’d been working on for the newspaper.

Listen to all that is said from everyone you know. Listen hard and you will have understanding beyond the words.

These sentences had been recorded in the conversation and posted on the Web site. Except Damien had written them down, not spoken them.

He had not spoken them.

Whoever recorded the conversation had to have been in the room, close enough to read it.

At the table.

Damien sat there, unable to react to the sobering realization of what was before him. His fingertips traced the letters of each word he’d written. His heart broke. He now had understanding beyond the words.

His fingers pressed against his lips to keep them from trembling, but he knew what he had to do. Shoving himself away from the table, he stood and walked to the stairway. He used the rail and took his time with each step. It didn’t seem real. It seemed impossibly unreal.

At the top he hesitated. What he might find could change his whole world in an instant and would prove everything wrong that he’d believed. It almost seemed as if he’d just been given news that he would die, and he had a few minutes to ponder it. There was nothing to do in a few minutes except to briefly reflect on what could have been.

He walked toward Hunter’s room. The door was shut. He turned the knob and opened it, almost expecting the young man to be diving toward or away from something.

But the room was quiet and peaceful. Neat, even. But odorous in a way only a teenager can manage. It felt awkward to be in here without Hunter. He couldn’t even remember the last time he’d been in his son’s room alone. It felt like trespassing.

There was no use just standing around and thinking about it. He first went through his desk, searching through a bunch of unorganized papers, spirals, and folders. Nothing.

Next he went to the closet, where he scooted clothing across the bar, digging behind boxes and junk, trying not to think of the implications of what would happen if he found what he was looking for.

He walked out of the closet empty-handed and glanced around the room. There wasn’t a great deal of hiding space in the room. He walked over to the bed and dropped to his knees. The floor was cold even with the rug.

He lay flat on his stomach and reached through the shadows, a little afraid of what might jump out and grab him. He groped around. A few papers. A couple of old toys.

Then his fingers touched something cold, firm, folderlike. Walking his fingers across it, he tried to scoot it across the rug. When it didn’t budge, he nudged his thumb underneath it and pulled.

Out slid a bright red folder. Damien pushed himself to his knees. His hands shook so badly he could barely open it, but when he managed to, his heart sank with grief. There in the folder sat the original letter that had been sent to him from the person responsible for the Web site.

His son.

Damien fell with his face to the floor, crying against the folder… against the evidence.

Damien was unsure how long he’d lain on the carpet when he heard a loud knock downstairs at his front door. He couldn’t move and didn’t want to. But the banging continued, and now he heard a strong male voice. “Damien! We know you’re in there!”

He looked at the folder, unsure what to do with it. So he carried it downstairs with him. Through the thin curtains of the side windows, he saw three men. He set the folder down and opened the door.

Captain Grayson stood in full uniform. Next to him an officer Damien didn’t recognize. And Detective Murray.

“You’re under arrest, Damien, for violations of state privacy laws.” Grayson took out handcuffs. Damien went numb as he offered his wrists. “You have the right to remain silent…”

But Damien didn’t care anything about his own rights at the moment. He wondered what he should do, whether he should turn over the evidence against his son. He stared blankly past the officers, past his front yard, into some unknown future that looked bleak.

“Damien?”

“What?”

“I’ll tell you up front that we have linked your credit card to the Web site. That’s the evidence we needed to make the arrest.”

Damien nodded.

Grayson then handed him over to be taken to the patrol car. Damien’s elderly neighbor across the street stood in his coat, watching the entire scene.

In an instant Damien could show them all he had, turn Hunter in. The folder lay right inside. But as they pushed him into the patrol car and as the officer reached across him to buckle him in, Damien didn’t say a word.

Kay, her skin now numb to the cold, returned to her SUV and turned it off, pulling the keys from the ignition. She closed the door and punched the remote lock.

Where was her son? The path that Hunter took home could not be followed in a vehicle. He always cut through the park and then through a heavily populated neighborhood that did not have fences.

She hurried toward the park, cursing as she thought about him not having his stupid cell phone. What if he was in trouble? Why did she have to ground him from that, when he might need it the most?

Then wind stung her eyes, blurring her vision. “Hunter! Baby! Hunter!” Tears blew from her face. “Hunter!”

She wasn’t exactly certain of the path, but she knew she was close. She continued to call his name over and over. The walk home was a little less than a mile, and she’d run the entire thing in less than ten minutes, calling his name all along the way. She even stopped some people to see if they had seen him.

But nobody had seen her precious boy. She came within a block of their house. She could see the driveway. The house looked empty. All the lights were out, except the dining room light, which she must’ve left on. If Hunter was there, every light in the house would’ve been glowing. He had a bad habit of leaving lights on everywhere.

She turned and started the long run back to her SUV.