Lost Girls

chapter 41

The next day is passed by explanations of DNA identification technology delivered by the goggle-eyed lab rat the Crown has brought up from Toronto. I feel for the poor bastard, though, trying to teach a remedial science lesson to the jury, who look back at him as though auditioning for the chorus in Deliverance: The Musical. It gives me a chance to doze off for five-second hits of sleep. A tricky business that involves holding your head up with one hand and positioning it so that your closed eyes will be hidden from the bench. This part is essential. Judges are universally intolerant of sleeping lawyers, mostly because their own seating arrangement prevents them from indulging in the same pleasure themselves.

And each time my eyelids spring back open it's with the terrible image of Bert Gederov and Graham Lyle having kittens all over the boardroom floor two hundred miles to the south because I haven't yet returned their calls. The reason is simple: despite my best efforts I haven't come up with a reasonable explanation for my remarks to the press of the other day. But by the time court is adjourned in the afternoon (the DNA dweeb having just finished his ''introductory remarks''), I know it can no longer be avoided. If I don't call back tonight they're liable to pop up for a visit themselves, and neither of them would arrive in good spirits. Bert because it would mean a day not spent in court (hating this more than anything else in his broad taxonomy of hates) and Graham because of the hives, watery eyes, and swollen glands he suffers from the moment he travels outside Toronto's city limits.

''Well, well. It's a good thing I caught you! Phone here at the desk's been ringing off the hook!'' the concierge calls out from the shadows the moment I walk in the Empire's doors.

''I know about that phone.''

''Beg pardon?''

''You've got some messages for me?''

''Some? A bundle as thick as my--''

''Thumb?''

''My thumb, yeah. One of the fellas that's been callin' is as foul mouthed a sort as I ever spoke to. A Mr. Buggeroff or Getyerrocksoff or something.''

I move forward toward the stairs, keeping my eyes away from the glowing head.

''Here you go,'' he says, sticking the messages into my waving hand. ''And good luck with that Buggeroff character.''

Good afternoon, Lyle, Gederov & Associate. Can I direct your call?''

''Hi, Doris. It's Barth.''

''Bartholomew,'' the receptionist whispers. ''They've been on the warpath looking for you. Is your cellular not working?''

''I guess I just haven't turned it on for a while. Are they around?''

''Both in the boardroom right now, actually.''

''Good, I guess. Time to meet my makers. Hook me up.''

There's a moment of Muzak while I'm put on hold (''The Girl from Ipanema'') and then the click of the boardroom speakerphone being switched on, the background hum of fluorescent lights and air-conditioning.

''Bartholomew! You're alive!'' Graham sings at a considerably lower register than usual.

''Nominally. How are you?''

''Concerned, frankly. Bert is here with me and I think I can speak for him when I say that he's concerned as well. Why have you refused to return our messages? Can we start there, Barth?''

I've never heard Graham quite like this before. Clipped, a viciousness barely concealed by a thin skin of businesslike civility. It's far more unsettling than the raging abuse I've come to expect from Bert.

''I guess it's because I knew what you were calling about,'' I say.

''And?''

''And I didn't much feel like explaining a public relations mistake when I had a trial to concentrate on.''

''Public relations mistake? Are you fucking kidding? You stand there and talk straight into the cameras about what it's like to be a mercenary who doesn't give a fuck and you call it a public relations mistake? You blew it! I told you to keep your mouth shut and then you go and sing like a birdie at the first question they ask. Do you realize how this makes us look? Or are you too fucking stupid?''

This is Bert.

''I recognize that this makes you look bad. But I didn't intend to--''

''Hey, Barth. Can I ask you something? Are you some kind of fucking idiot?''

''Some kind.''

''Prick!''

''Gentlemen! Gentlemen!''

Graham's on his feet, judging from the distant sound of his voice. It's his habit to stand whenever Bert gets rolling, as though in preparation to make a run for the door if things get entirely out of hand.

''Now, Barth. Can we get back to the motive for your comments of the other day? Why did you say those things?''

''It just happened. That's a poor excuse, I know, but one minute I'm standing there trying to find a way through them to the door and the next minute all these things are coming out of my mouth.''

''Barth, are you having problems?''

''No. Problems? Yeah, I guess I've been having some problems.''

Bert lights a cigarette, scoffs, and brings up a load of phlegm from his throat in a swift sequence.

''What sort of problems?'' Graham continues.

''Nothing specific, really. I mean, Tripp is being totally unhelpful. And then there's other things, too, I don't know. I haven't been sleeping much, I guess.''

''Awwww! Poor baby! Not getting enough sleepy bye-byes?'' Bert coos, then follows it with a punctuating snort.

''What's most troubling of all,'' Graham goes on, ''is the matter of your confidence in your client. Do you remember that part? When asked directly as to whether you yourself believed in your client's guilt, you walked away. Walked away! Infinitely worse than screaming, 'He did it! He did it!' from the rooftops! Bartholomew, really, what in heaven's name were you thinking?''

''I didn't say I thought he was guilty. I didn't say I thought he wasn't.''

''Well, why couldn't you have said something?''

''Because he's as good a pick as any. I couldn't say I have every confidence in my client's innocence when I don't.''

''Why the fuck not? Why not say what you're supposed to say, for God's sake! You know what I don't get about all this shit? How come you're the Goody Two-shoes Boy Scout all of a sudden? 'Oh, no! I couldn't possibly tell a lie!' Jesus Christ, Barth, what's happened to you up there?''

The line goes quiet as they wait for me to respond. But I can't say any of the things they want to hear. Don't worry, it won't happen again. I was just joking around. My comments were taken out of context. It's too late.

''I'm sorry. I guess I'm just having a bit of a rough time up here. A lot of things have been going on that I'm having trouble putting together, you know? No, you wouldn't know.''

''Sure, sure,'' Graham says uncertainly. ''We understand the pressures of a trial of this kind. We just need to know if you're telling us you're not able to continue. The truth, now. Can you get this job done on your own or do you need to be bailed?''

''Yeah. No problem. I'm going to finish it. I need--it's important that I finish it.''

''Are you sure?''

''I'm aces.''

''That's the spirit! Now, we'd ask you to stay in touch a little more, okay, Barth? And answer your phone when it rings.''

''Sure.''

''And, Barth?'' Bert craning his head back to blow smoke directly into the air above him.

''Yeah?''

''Get some sleep, all right? And if the bogeyman keeps you up in the nighty-nights, give me a call and I'll send my mother up there to hold your hand. She's got nothing better to do these days.''

''Thanks, Bert.''

''Right, then! Good luck with it and do stay in touch!''

Graham's false briskness has returned, calling the conversation to a close. I should be relieved. But instead there's a bubble of sudden panic rising in my chest.

''There's something--'' I start, but the line's already dead.