Moggerhanger

Chapter Three

“My only option is to light off for a week or two,” I said to Frances, after informing her of my jobless position. I’d hoped she was too weary at the end of her long day to care what I did, though there was no other time I could have told her.

I tried to make my departure more acceptable by calling at Marks and Spencer’s for a bag of ready-made eatables and a bottle of wine, so that she wouldn’t need to think about feeding us both, which at least made her smile as I put things in the oven and set the timers. I gave her a glass of red, and began a spiel about how my work at the agency had become intolerable, leaving nothing out and throwing in a few adversities from my imagination. “So all I want, before applying for another job”—like hell I would — “is to motor around awhile and consider what will be best for me to do. There’s no other way if I’m to stay sane.”

On our second glass, and halfway through a tray of tasteful pickies, she managed another smile, and tapped the bun of her shining golden hair as if to stop it collapsing, though I’d never seen it happen. “I suppose if you must, you must.”

Perhaps she didn’t see my going as so outlandish because of her past admiration of the performance poet Ronald Delphick, and his free and easy way of spending much of his time travelling the country. Or she looked forward to me amusing her with details of my adventures on getting back from a world unlike the donkey circle of healing she was locked in.

I recalled Blaskin saying that the more you made a woman realise you knew her thoughts better than she did herself, whether true or not, the more she would love you. Thinking Frances might be half consciously longing to break free in the same way I was about to do, I said: “So why don’t you come with me? We’ll be sure to have a good time.”

She actually laughed. “Michael, you’re incorrigible, not to say irredeemable. You know I can’t,” which silenced me for a while. Then she reached for my hand, and for the rest of the evening we didn’t talk about my going anywhere.

After I had gone she might contact Delphick, go to one of the scumbag’s gigs, if he was in London. His advantage over me was that he stank rotten, always needed a shave, and was dead scruffy. Not that he couldn’t pay for a decent suit, and lay out a quid on a squirt of deodorant, but he relied on groupies and acolytes to slip a few fivers into his pockets, and tell him he was a genius as they did so.

His dropout aspect had once attracted Frances, but she hadn’t seen him for three years, and I hoped she never would again, though even if she did there was nothing I could do about it. No marriage could endure if you hinted to your wife that you didn’t trust her, whether or not she was trustworthy, though I knew Frances had no time for hanky panky, and too much dignity as a doctor to indulge in affairs.

Reminding her of this at breakfast, she responded with an unpleasant analysis of my character, which I would rather not repeat because, accurate or not, everything about me will be revealed soon enough. When the woman you live with starts telling you unpleasant facts about yourself, that you were already too well aware of in any case — and she knowing that you were — it’s time to sling your hook. I was mindlessly eager to go, while knowing that if I stayed a few more days we would get back to our usual state of love.

So, like a fool, I went, not even slamming the front door in anger so that she could blame me for going and not herself, knowing as I flicked on the ignition that the anger I felt could be for no one but myself. I only knew that if I had made the choice between freedom or death I must be careful from then on in case both possibilities turned up, a reflection which will explain itself later.

After Northway Circus my smart little blood-red Picaro Estate sniffed the expanse of high sky ahead, and took me at seventy up the outside lane to the last roundabout before Bedfordshire. Any misery I felt at leaving home and Frances had melted, and with a lit cigar comfortably smouldering I flogged young Picaro as if Eskimoing through snowfields, galloping over desert, or flying the sky, the north-going road as familiar as the back of my hand.

After the last exit to Baldock came the perilous dual carriageway of the Great North Road, and I muttered the highway’s name on belting along. In spite of a good forecast, or maybe even because of it, grey clouds crowded in for the inevitable rain, though the countryside like a green plate told me it didn’t matter whether or not I went to Nottingham, provided I put as much distance as possible between myself and London. Not certain where I was heading had never been any bother, going at the moment like an arrow.

Near St. Neot’s I was tempted to fork northeast to my railway house at Upper Mayhem. Once in the fortress of warmth and plenty it would close around and never let go. Dismal my favourite and only dog was there, as was Clegg the elderly handyman who kept the place going. The freezer was stacked with food, the outside shed packed with fuel, and a made up bed was waiting for me to sink into with no will to get out. I scoffed the notion away, heaven being no life for a grown man.

I switched off the jungle music from Radio Deadhead, and a glance at fields and coppices to either side — a sleeve of spring green, and splashes of blossoming Queen Anne’s lace — set me longing to be out of the car and walking among the perfume of mangel wurzels or early potatoes, fainting with pleasure at sprouting wheat and upstart refreshing hedges, sniffing bay rose and white daisies.

The reality was I would get stung by nettles, clawed at by brambles, drenched by rain (which was just beginning, but it had rained yesterday), my soles so jacked up with mud on crossing a field that after walking fifty yards I’d be on stilts. I was better off in the car.

Distances signposted up the Great North Road were laid out in penny packets of ten or twenty miles, as if the fact that it led to Edinburgh (or even Doncaster) was a state secret which foreigners weren’t to know about. Whoever arranged them was afraid again of a German invasion, or wanted tourists sleeping their nights to Scotland in rathole hotels that charged twice as much as at far better places in France or Spain. It made me laugh that on coming the other way London would be signposted four hundred miles off, as if the policy was to get rid of tourists who by now had been robbed of their last penny. Dover might even be indicated from Inverness, though I’ve never been that far to find out.

A plastic bag flapped by the roadside like a crow in its final agony. Speed cut the scene short. A mile-long line of lorries on the inner lane set me charging to get clear, nowhere to go when a car behind flashed me to move in, but I let him overtake soonest possible, his face as enraged as one of Conrad’s duellists in the film. I’d read the story, and much else, under the guidance of Frances, more than in my life before, which was supposed to make me a better person, she said, though whether it did I’ll never know.

The mad driver was one of Moggerhanger’s footpads, Kenny Dukes, and I wondered where he was going at such a spate, as I overtook a tinker’s short arsed pick-up with smoking exhaust, loaded with old bathtubs and gas stoves. A big sleek rat jumped off it onto the green verge, as if sensing the vehicle would drop to bits in the next five minutes. I took it easy, and lost Kenny who was doing a ton in the distance. Having driven enough miles in my life to get to the moon and back I wanted to stay alive.

Moonshine Cross was a convenient place to stop for a piss, petrol, and another cigar. In spite of Frances’s tearful demolition of my character she had packed a plastic bag of fruit and sandwiches, and filled two flasks with coffee. She may have come to dislike me — but only for the time being, I hoped — but didn’t want me to die of stomach cramps at some arterial lane eatery.

In the toilets an old chap of over seventy in a thorn cloth three-piece suit and knitted tie, shining brown boots, and watchchain, was pumping packets of condoms out of a machine, his demented expression daring it to run out, in which case he would come back from his car with a cold chisel and give it what-for.

He was long jawed, had on a nicky brown hat with a darker brown band around the rim, and heavy spectacles. His teeth were obviously false, as he opened his mouth and fixed another pound in the slot. “I can’t wait all day till the place is empty and there’s nobody to see me, can I?” He saw my gaze of wonder, if not admiration. “I want my supplies, don’t I, son? I can’t afford to be embarrassed at my age, can I?”

“You could go to a chemist’s and get them without all this effort.” I was horrified at another rubber tree in Malaya getting sucked white. “It would be more discreet.”

He stuffed the supplies into his pocket. “It’s all very well for you to say so, but there’s only one chemist in our little town, and my wife goes into it for all her medicines. She might see me. Or there might be talk, if one of the neighbours did. I wasn’t born yesterday, was I?”

I didn’t want to speculate on how many yesterdays ago he had been born, yet I was taken by his brash confidence as I stood at the urinal for a splash at Shanks’s adamant. “Isn’t your girlfriend on the pill?”

Two other men came in, so he said: “Let’s go outside, and I’ll tell you. We stood outside and he gripped me by the elbow. “I’m glad you enquired. She did go on it for a while, but she didn’t like the side effects, though going in raw was a treat for me, just like when I was a lad.”

Over the fence was a field of placid Friesian cows, a sight making me want to start loving old England again. I didn’t like the thought of the poor beasts flying around the grassland in terror should my companion of the road run among them with a trail of cheese and onion condoms spraying out of his pockets. A lizard tongue went over his lips, as if he followed my thoughts. “She’s a vegetarian as well, though that doesn’t bother me.”

“Is she young?”

“She’s nineteen, if you call that young, these days. Her name’s Betty.”

It’s no use denying my interest in his naive revelations. “I still can’t see why you’ll need all those rubbers.”

“Can’t you?” He scanned the parking lot, as if he had forgotten in which row he’d left his car, or was fearful that someone had hotwired it and driven away. “It’s better to have too many than too few, that’s all I know. I haven’t seen her for a couple of months.”

“Why not sooner?”

“Her husband isn’t away all the time.”

“She’s married, at nineteen?”

“I appreciate that you’re very inquisitive, because I am as well. The inquisitive shall inherit the earth, eh?” He sent a sharp elbow at my ribs, and I was afraid to give him one back in case he turned out to be nothing more than brown paper and sawdust. “She got married at sixteen, then had another child to prove the first was no accident. So she got a council house. Her mother lives with her, and looks after the kids. They take it in turns doing it, because I have a go at the mother as well whenever I can. She’s not much above thirty, after all. Putting you in the picture, am I?”

Too right he was. A man of his age, and he had a nineteen-year-old married woman with two kids hot for him, and access to her mother. What was the country coming to? It was enough to make me sweat, not to say envious.

I can’t think why, but people often confided their foibles to me, and told stories with little if any encouragement, which was good when it entertained me, and bad when it bored me. And they still do it, perhaps deceived by the honest face I’m forced to wear so as to hide the seething villainy within. Or I catch them at the point when, if they don’t talk about what’s worrying them, they’ll either burst into flames or go out and do a murder. Maybe so many people opened their mouths to me as if I were a ghost, assuming that what information they spilled would not be passed on. If they had known of my relationship to the novelist Gilbert Blaskin they would have held back. Or they would have been even more forthcoming.

Maybe in spite of this old man’s lambent intentions he somehow sensed he had only half an hour to live, and I would see his burnt-out car a few miles up the road. I hoped not. “You’re looking a bit worried,” he said.

“I am. What if the husband catches you?” I put out my hand, which he shook vigorously, and introduced myself.

“Horace Hawksley, me. But what I say, Michael, is this: what’s life all about if you’re not prepared to take a risk? Life can be very monotonous after you’re retired, and being seventy-five what do I have to lose?”

“I can see you’re too old to die young,” I said, “but what if, Horace, for instance”—recalling Blaskin’s misadventure — “what if, say, Betty’s husband went to the airport, and found the plane wouldn’t take off for five hours; or he went to the station and saw that the rails had so many leaves on them that trains wouldn’t be running to London for another week? In view of such a delay he would come home and catch you in bed with his wife. He’d be so devastated he’d choose a chopper from the coalhouse and split your head from top to bottom.”

His face turned all shades from healthy pink to graveyard white. Then he smiled so widely I hoped his teeth wouldn’t fall out. “Michael, if I looked at it that way I’d never get anywhere, would I? Even though I expect to live forever, life’s too short to think like that.”

“But your life could be cruelly cut short if you don’t use caution.”

Anger sparked behind his glasses. “I’m not a bloody fool, am I?” The maniacal smile his girlfriend found such a come-on lit his clock. “I must be going. Never be late is my golden rule.” He winked, and gave another stab at my ribs. “Next stop Grantham! Wish me luck!”

I did, and as I relished the ambrosial inhalations of another cigar, I watched him peering at the number plate of almost every car before coming to his own, certain that Alzheimer’s would get him before priapic decline, and then where would he be? I’d scour the tabloids for news of his trial. Then I spat tacks at not asking him what he took to keep himself banging away, which I might need in the not far distant future.

I let him get well ahead, from an encounter which had touched my nerves unduly, felt myself sickening for either a cold or the flu. Frances never caught either, so many gunged up people in her pokey surgery that she was immune to all they could sneeze at her. Yet she frequently carried one home which I caught, and hid on going to work, in order to ravage the advertising agency. By the time I admitted to a cold all the others had it, and I claimed to have got it from them.

I’d heard it said that you shouldn’t drive with a cold, but I was safer than otherwise, in knowing I had to be dead careful. It’s when I’m feeling the fittest man in the world that I splinter the tailgate against the only concrete post in sight in an almost empty car park.

Driving along, I craved an alcoholic drink. A full leatherbound flask of prime malt lay in the glovebox, but I didn’t take it while at the wheel, in spite of knowing that if I supped a drop or two I wouldn’t be any less safe.

The sky turned glum, as it tends to on going north. I thought of wheeling south but told myself not to be a coward. Raindrops at the windscreen made me want to piss again, so I swerved into a lay-by to let go, careful to avoid stinging my knob on tall fresh nettles. Fancying closer contact with the fields, and to get away from pools of diesel, old tyres, and things worse that went squish underfoot, I leapt over a ditch and ran up a bank into an open stretch of green ending at an enormous creosote-painted barn that seemed about to fall in the next feeble breeze.

Why my legs carried me that way I’ll never know. Actions which alter the peace and quiet of life are never realised at such a time. My turn-ups were soaked after bending double to get between strands of barbed wire without snagging my jacket. I picked open a slit of the barn with my faithful Leatherhead toolknife and looked inside, at some kind of furniture assembly depot. Workmen were scraping, polishing, buffing up, sawing and hammering industriously at various specimens of antique pieces, their trannies jingling the same tune from each corner while they worked, everyone busy and contented, though I wouldn’t have been happy with most of them smoking among shavings, sawdust and glue.

At the front of the barn two pantechnicons were parked on the black cindered earth. A couple of subsidiary sheds were used as toilets, and a burly bloke who came from the nearest buttoning his dungarees ran towards me with both fists up. “You fucking snooper. I’ll blind you.”

His curses I give were troy weight compared to the amount that came filthily out but, as Blaskin said, when dealing with obscenities which a character expletes you must never reproduce the full measure, because a careful rationing on paper gives sufficient indication of what is used to satisfy any reader.

It was my advantage to recognise him first, and I stood with fists so ready that his halt gave time to say: “You touch me, Kenny Dukes, and I’ll drag you inside that barn and push your head into a bandsaw, even though you’d look a lot prettier with it off.”

He drew back the longest arms of any man, which I’d once trapped in my car window when he was in Moggerhanger’s Rolls Royce driving parallel and trying to fire his gun at my brains. He must have remembered the incident, because his smile showed cracked teeth, such a ripple at the mouth that a scar on the upper lip began to redden. He rubbed it with a clean handkerchief. “Oh, it’s you, Michael Cullen. I thought you was a nark looking around. If it had been I’d have split all his works and sent him back to his mother in a black plastic bin liner. That’s what we usually do to ’em.” He took my arm, and led me towards the main door. “Did Lord Moggerhanger send you?”

“I haven’t had any contact with him for a while.”

A fragment of suspicion flickered at his eyes. “You found the place, though, didn’t you?”

“Only by accident.”

I knew him as a greedy reader of Sidney Blood novels, some pseudonymously penned by Blaskin, though even Bill Straw had done one, as I had as well. Kenny read them over and over, as much as three times, without knowing he’d read them before, wallowing in the violence, gore, bestial fuckery, and the quick running crazy plots. I offered a cigar. “I’m doing research for the next Sidney Blood novel.”

He drooled. “What’s it going to be called?”

“‘The Bandsaw Men’.” We lit up, and I blew smoke into his face, hoping to hide the worst of his features. South London born and bred, a remand home had been his prep school. He’d done ‘A’ Levels in Borstal, gone on to university at the Scrubs, then entered a lifetime of postgraduate work in Moggerhanger’s employ, though what use such a strong-armed dimwit could be had always puzzled me. He squeezed my elbow so affectionately at the unsolicited information about Sidney Blood that I waited for it to crumble. “You once said you’d introduce me to Sidney, but you never did, did you? Well, you haven’t yet. I remember your promise, though, whenever I pick up one of his books.”

“It’s Mister Blood to you,” I said sternly. “He told me only yesterday how he took a chiv to a poor chap who called him by his first name without being invited to do so. He left him bleeding by Tower Bridge like a stuck pig.”

I detected admiration, and a lick of fear. “He didn’t?”

“He did. Sidney doesn’t lie. And he likes respect. All writers do, only he’s worse. But I promise I’ll let you meet him as soon as I can. He sent me out this morning to get background material for another book he’s got on the stocks called The Body Bank.”

His eyes turned into Hallogen lamps. “Fucking hell! Sounds like a good ’un. Can’t wait to get my French fries on it. Tell me more.”

“I won’t. Sidney would cut my throat if I did, and if you were there to see it you might come all over the place.” Such twitting went over his head, and he opened the barn door. “I only like you because you know Mr Blood.”

I took a look inside. “You seem to have a nice little business going. Those commodes and cupboards must be worth a few hundred apiece.”

“More than that,” he said. “It’s all fucking Chipperdale.”

“Looks like chipboard to me.” The same old rogues of Moggerhanger’s long acquaintance were busily occupied. I spotted Toffee Bottle of stumpy figure and large bald head, and Cottapilly and Pindary the tall thin inseparables, wearing overcoats down to their shoes even in the hottest weather, as they did now, carrying a load of boards to the bandsaw. Matthew Coppice who used to run an old folks’ home and put their bodies in the deep freeze so that he could continue collecting their old age pensions, wearing the same Fair Isle pullover, schoolboy tie and tweed jacket, now having a stand-off with poofy Eric Alport over a bag of nuts and bolts. Moggerhanger had opened a trade fair for ex-jailbirds, and thank God I wasn’t among them, because I would never work for him again.

Kenny slopped the cigar around his lips till it was unsmokable. “The lads are clever at making antique furniture from bits and bobs. It all goes to the Continent. English antiques are at a premium there. The good stuff was burned by the Germans in the war, to boil their coffee. After it’s delivered our chaps bring furniture back to be repaired, and every piece is worth about a million dollars, because they’re full of powders that make your head go bang in the night. If a wardrobe fell off the back of a lorry going over the Alps in summer you’d think the snow had come early.”

What an ingenious way of smuggling drugs. “Good to know the old firm is prospering.”

“It always is, you should know that. Lord Moggerhanger hasn’t got no secrets from you.”

If he had any left I didn’t know if he could keep them. The less I knew, the better. “I must be off. I’m going to call on my mother in Nottingham. Then I’ll pop down to Upper Mayhem and see how my caretaker is looking after the place. I’ll be sure and remember you to Sidney Blood, though, when I see him. He likes to know he’s got fans.”

He trod the remains of his cigar into the cinders as if the prettiest toad in the world was underfoot. “Don’t forget your promise to let me meet him. I’d love to shake his hand that writes the books.” He grinned. “I’d cut my mauler off then, and have it framed, wouldn’t I? Give it to my mother for a birthday present. She loves Sidney Bloods as well.”

“I’ll fix it up. He’ll like your sense of humour at least.”

“Yeh, I’ll make him laugh. But come back here any time. If you’re a good lad Lord Moggerhanger might ask you to drive some furniture to Italy. Me and Toffee Bottle took a load last month. Toffee fell in a vat of wine at a truckstop, and he couldn’t swim, so I had to drag him out. We felt rotten all the way home.”

Back on the dual carriageway I thought how lucky I had been bumping into Kenny Dukes instead of getting bludgeoned by someone else for my curiosity. The Picaro Estate shot me onto the outer lane, overtaking cars fast in case Moggerhanger’s thugs decided on second thoughts to come after me and do me in.

I was soon enough out of their range, and beyond the Stamford roundabout stopped for a hitchhiker. If Moggerhanger’s lads did tail me they might think it was another car, with two in it.

“Get in, mate.” Tall and slim, with a wispy beard and unstable blue eyes, he wasn’t much above twenty. “Been waiting long?”

He threw in a small rucksack. “Long enough.” He may have been right, his forlorn face raw and windblown from sitting too close and long by a fire. “I’ve been sweating blood in the fields for a Lincolnshire carrot farmer, the meanest bastard on earth. He paid me a pittance, and now I’m off to Leeds.”

“You’re a student, then?”

Fed up with getting wet in the fields, he was on his way home for some dry socks and a cup of tea.

“How did you know?”

“Experience.”

“Were you ever a student?”

I put on speed. “All my life. Still am. Can’t afford not to be. Of people mostly. If I stop studying them, I’m dead.”

“It’s like that, is it?”

“You mean you’ve heard it all before?”

“A million times, mostly from people who’ve never had the brains to study.”

I introduced myself, to put him more at ease. “I’m Michael Cullen.”

He shook his own hand. “And I’m George Delphick. I’m reading sociology at York, if you want to know.”

I didn’t, particularly, but I’d heard that in the Kremlin there was the biggest bell in the world, and it gonged now at the name of Delphick. “Sociology,” I said, “what’s that?”

“How should I know? I’ve only done a year.” He glanced at the instrument panel. “You’re doing a ton.”

I threaded the needle of half a dozen hundred-foot juggernauts. “I like to keep up with the traffic. The faster you go the longer you live.”

“That’s a new one on me,” the opinionated bleeder said, thinking I was serious.

“It seems I’ve heard the name Delphick before. Are you any relation to the poet?”

“I didn’t expect you to ask that, because how can somebody like you know about them? On the other hand I’m glad you did. I used to deny it, but why should I? He’s my cousin, and a lot older than me. When I was twelve he borrowed the money I was saving for an electronic calculator. They’d not long come out and were expensive, but he talked me into parting with my cash. When I met him three years later he denied I’d lent it, and threatened to hit me if I didn’t stop whining.”

“The same old Delphick,” I laughed. “For an introduction to the world of grown-ups it must have been a bargain at the price.”

“When I saw him after that I walked right by, but one of these days I’ll smash him in the face, so’s I can forget what he did to me as a kid.”

“He’s a poet,” I said. “He’s a national monument, so what can you expect? He’s incorrigible and irredeemable, and therefore best left alone. He’d end up having the clothes off your back. I didn’t think you were related.”

His laugh was painfully cynical for one so young, as he took a piece of paper from his bomber jacket. “Just listen to this. I ripped it from the Yellow Pages. He’s a right fucking con man.”

“Read it to me.”

“I will. It says: ‘Poetry and prose for all occasions. Why not have fifty glorious lines for a wedding, or a few stanzas of sombre comment for a bereavement? Satisfaction guaranteed. Rates to be negotiated, though reasonable. Ronald Delphick is your man. Enquiries to: Doggerel Bank, Stye-on-the-Ouse, Yorkshire.’ There’s a poem on the other side, and it’s real crap. I’ll read you that, as well.

“At least he’s enterprising.” I knew little poetry beyond what good ones Frances had read to me. “He doesn’t sponge all the time, though he’s robbed so many that nobody will put up with him anymore. There’s one born every minute, if not two, these days, so I don’t suppose he’ll ever starve.”

Having lived most of my life as a confidence man I could hardly condemn another member of the fraternity. He hadn’t latched onto any big-time scams like me, but instead had committed too many small meannesses, tricking people who couldn’t always afford to be bilked. When I once caught him out his bare-faced response was to say that whoever he had cadged, filched, blackmailed or stolen from should feel privileged to know they had been of assistance to England’s greatest poet, for which statement alone he should have been punched into crippledom, but I’d never had the heart to do it. If he’d robbed the rich that might have been all right, but the rich are too sensible to let the likes of him get close.

“If I ever pass him on the street,” George said, “and he’s at death’s door, I’ll kick him in.”

Even I’d never do that. Luckily, we were bypassing Grantham. “I’m going to put you off here, because I take the A52 for Nottingham.”

“Oh, thank you very much,” he said, too snottily for my liking. “That’s kind of you. Can’t you get me as far as Newark at least?”

I set the hazard lights going on the slip road. “I’d like to, but I’m in too much of a hurry.” I sensed what was coming, though his pockets must have been full of tin, if it was true he’d been working for a farmer in the Fens. “Can you spare a couple of quid?” he said, “so’s I can have a coffee and bun at the next service station?”

Maybe he wasn’t a student, just bumming around the country in the traditional Delphick fashion. I all but pushed him onto the asphalt. “You’ve already had a free ride.”

“Twenty measly miles. I expect that’ll make you feel like a Good Samaritan for a week, but if you give me a few quid you can feel chuffed for a fortnight and get written up in the Bible.”

“Fuck off.” All the Delphicks had a good patter. “Next time I see you on the road I’ll run you over.”

His curses didn’t bear thinking about. Should I give Blaskin a rundown on the trip he could sort them out. “I hope three of your tyres drop off at the same time,” was the most polite of his sallies.

I drove up the ramp and onto the A52, the smell of Nottingham already in the air, not so much black puddings and Woodbine smoke as drifts of curry shot through with whiffs of hard drugs. I decided not to pick up any more autostoppers, especially after searching the so-called glove compartment for a cigar and noticing that the small box of Belgian chocolates for my mother had gone missing. It was hard not to spin round and collar that prime specimen of the Delphick breed, and throw him under the wheels of an oncoming lorry loaded with a hundred tons of gravel, but it was no use trying to reverse bad luck, or worse judgement. The thieving bastard would go to hell in his own way, though I hoped I’d meet him again one day and kick him into the fires.

The dual carriageway coming up was a death trap created by malicious road planners who went everywhere by pushbike and made it their life’s work to kill or maim motorists, because it was only a couple of hundred yards long. I wanted to get by a lorry going at thirty miles an hour and belting out diesel smoke, expecting my sporty little Picaro to make it easily.

For some reason the car lost power, and I thought my time had come. I almost crushed the accelerator through the floor, but there was no boost, so I got back into the inner lane because a shit-coloured banger was right behind me. Even then I could hardly keep up in the dual carriageway stakes, managing thirty for a while, the clutch responding less and less to my prayers, till it flopped so loose it wouldn’t work at all, no doubt knackered by congested London traffic. The car had recently come back from a full service, so I should have known something would go wrong, as I peddled it into a lay-by just before it expired.

Only two years old, at least it had saved me from death. I sat for a moment to reflect, lit a cigar to calm myself, feeling as if in a boat on a salty river without oars or engine, going nowhere, the familiar bereft situation when a car packed up on you.

I upended the bonnet, though didn’t need a mechanic to know that the clutch had gone. Lorries and cars went inches by, causing such shudders that I feared my fragile tin vehicle would be blown over the hedge, or pulled along in the slipstream to be played with by a couple of white vans along the dotted white line. My mother expected me soon after lunch, though a little lateness wouldn’t trouble her. All I had to do was call the AA and get back on the road. The bonnet up was a flag calling for assistance, but the traffic flow continued, no one giving a toss for me. I had visions of camping for a month in the hedge bottom and living on slices of fried turnip poached from the fields. I’d sleep in the dilapidated car till the battery no longer worked my shaver, till I ran out of cigars and matches, till my clothes needed washing and my hair was too long — then I would walk away.

A Silver Cloud glided from the opposite direction, barely missing a black van on its way over, winkers flashing like lighthouse beacons. When snout to snout with my Picaro pal a tall thin-as-a-beanpole man in his fifties with a somewhat kippered face, wearing a yellow pullover, cloth cap, and smoking a large curved Peterson, got out and looked at my engine: “In trouble?”

His throat spoke more than his lips, but I thanked him for the enquiry. “My clutch has gone bang, so I’ll have to call the AA. There’s a farm up the road, and I was about to go and ask for the use of their phone.”

“Edward, why have we stopped?” a woman called from his car.

He poked his head inside. “Chap in distress, that’s why.”

“Oh, bollocks!” I was glad she came out because it gave me the chance to look at a pouting mouth I so wanted to kiss that it brought me back to life and hope, red cardigan over a thin black sweater moulding lively little breasts I longed to get my hands over. She wore a red skirt it was all I could do not to lift, and black stockings I yearned to roll down, at least as far as her ankles. Black hair brushed back from a high forehead was tied by a ribbon, and I wondered how much of her nakedness it would cover if allowed to flow like Lady Godiva’s. “We’ll never get to Stamford if we stop for every deadbeat whose car’s on the blink.”

His laugh showed stained teeth as he pull off his leather gloves. “Ignore her. It’s my car, and I’m the driver.”

Her long nails were painted red, all death and love, and I thought she was going to vandalise his car — then mine — by scratching the paintwork. “I want to get to a hotel so’s we can fuck some more.”

“All in good time, my dear.” He turned to me. “I’ll call the AA on my radio telephone. Won’t take more than a shake,” which, after I’d flipped my card out and given the number, it didn’t, me spelling details through the window, while his girlfriend stepped up and down the lay-by careful not to go up to her ankles in sludge. “They’ll be here in about forty minutes,” he said.

I offered a cigar, and told him my name. “I’ll never forget your kindness. I’m off to see my aged and widowed mother in Nottingham. Who do I have the privilege of being eternally grateful to?”

“John Dropshort,” he said in his upper class drawl. “Lord Dropshort, actually, of Dropshort Manor.”

I used to pass the place on bike rides up the Trent as a youth, sometimes climbing over a wall into one of the orchards, to be chased off by a gardener, though once I got close enough to see the big house covered in ivy, and people playing croquet on the lawn. “I know it. A fine old pile.”

“What sort of thing do you do?” He pulled his cap straight, though it wasn’t askew. “You know, to earn a living?”

“I write novels.” He deserved to know I was more interesting than a superannuated advertising copywriter. “Under the pseudonym of Sidney Blood.”

He stood up into even more than a ramrod. “Oh, but he’s awfully good. I have a few titles in my library — on a back shelf, of course.”

“Thank you.” A touch of modesty in the right place always impressed. “I’m only sorry I don’t have a copy in the car, but when I’m back at my country cottage I’ll send you one, signed personally.”

“Alice,” he called, “come and meet Sidney Blood.”

“Who’s he when he’s at home?” the mardy cow shouted above all the traffic noise.

“She’s illiterate, really.” Dropshort leaned close. “She came through her education in the sixties with flying colours, hardly able to read or write. Her teachers were very pleased at their accomplishment. However, she can do the one thing good that matters, and because of that I saved her from getting half killed this morning.”

I could think of no better way to pass the time waiting for the AA man than to ask: “How was that?”

He guffawed — he really did. “When we came out of the hotel lift in Nottingham my wife Joan was waiting in the lobby, and went for Alice with her walking stick. Quite vindictive. Can’t think why.”

“The fucking bitch.” Alice became more friendly at overhearing her adventure retailed to a stranger, as if it gave her some importance in the world.

“My wife hit the woman next to her by mistake,” Dropshort said. “Alice was very adept at getting out from under.” He gave a dry ruthless laugh. “She’s a quick little trollop, thank the Lord. I pulled the stick off Joan, and broke it.”

“Sounds a real killpig.” I was sure Alice recognised the word, and if she didn’t she had no right to be where she was.

“Killpig?” His eyebrows, or what he had of them, went up.

“It’s a Sidney Blood expression. Means mayhem, a fracas, a real set-to, a fight to end fights, a hard bloody time in unforeseen circumstances.”

“I’m not waiting here all day.” Alice turned to me. “He’s the biggest fucking liar I’ve ever known. It was him as set his wife onto me. He’d told her where we’d be. He does things like that just to wind me up. ‘Life’s too boring, otherwise.’” She imitated him perfectly, and I wondered why she didn’t use that accent all the time, to hide every trace of the slum-dump she came from. “But I’ll show him whether it is or not. He hasn’t seen me when I really get going.”

“She’s an utter slut.” He spoke as if sorry I had to witness them together. “The roughest bit of rough I’ve ever had, but I love her, and I’m not letting her go. She keeps me fit, don’t you, darling?”

“You shut your fucking mouth. He’s such a posh fucker,” she said to me, “he thinks he can get away with everything. But not much longer with me he wont, the fucking long link of shit.”

“See what I mean?” He put his gloves back on, as if he might give her the pasting she deserved. But no: “Doesn’t she have a wonderful vocabulary? It’s perfect. What more could I want? She never puts a word wrong.”

“If you don’t get back in the car this minute I’ll start walking to Stamford,” she said, a wicked glint, “then some lorry driver will pick me up and rape me. He’ll chop me to bits in a wood, and it’ll be all your fault.”

He may have been a member of the aristocracy in his yearning for a woman like that, but there was no doubt at my belonging to the same club in wanting to sink my mutton dagger into her. In spite of her foul mouth she had the sort of lively dead common come-on I had been familiar with all through my youth. It would have felt like being seventeen again pulling her under a bush. A woman like her wouldn’t have lasted five minutes in Blaskin’s presence either. She got her hands at one of his wing mirrors, as if to try twisting it off, which jerked him to life. “If you do that you’ll get the biggest thrashing of your life.”

“Just you fucking try.” The twist of her ruby lips suggested a Pyrrhic victory if he did, and she laughed in his face when he didn’t. “Come on, I’m getting snatched in this wind. I want to get to that nice warm hotel at Stamford you told me about, and throw back a few whiskies.”

“Afraid I have to go.” He offered his hand for a goodbye touch. “Your AA chap should be along any minute. Alice,” he shouted brutally, “come and say goodbye to Mr Blood.”

She poked her head out of the window. “I’m Alice Newbold, and I live in Radford. See you in the Plough sometime, Sid. They’ve got good ale there. Tar-rar!”

He wagged his head. “It’s impossible to civilise her.”

I don’t think he tried very hard, since that wasn’t what he wanted her for. All I could do was wish him luck, as he crossed the traffic lane, missing a lorry by inches, as if the road was empty and he owned it anyway, then drifted towards the A1 at Grantham.

Ten minutes later the AA man came in a breakdown truck, and agreed with my diagnosis of a knackered clutch. “Needs replacing. I’ll load you up and take you to a depot near Nottingham that deals with this sort of car.”