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One morning not long after the shoe incident I was enjoying a quiet meditation in my usual lookout position by the front-room window. Autumn was in the air outside. Leaves were falling onto the street’s front lawns and the sky was a leaden grey.

There was not normally much passing traffic in the cul-de-sac, so naturally I noticed when a large lorry turned into the street. As it approached I saw the logo on its side – ‘Expert Removals’ – and I felt my whiskers vibrate from the rumble of its engine. It drew up slowly in front of Margery’s house, then began to reverse into her driveway. Three men jumped out of the cab and started to open up the doors at the rear of the lorry, pulling at straps and sliding heavy bolts, before pressing a button that lowered a platform onto the drive.

I had never seen a removal lorry before, but knew that the uncertainty regarding what was happening to us was about to come to an end. I turned back to look at my surroundings. The sofa where I had spent the night was pushed up against the living-room wall, stripped of its cushions, tartan blanket and lacy armrest covers. The sideboard, armchair and other large items had been placed together in the middle of the floor, with wooden packing crates filling every available space.

I heard the familiar sounds of Margery moving around her bedroom upstairs. I could picture her carefully combing the waves of her hair into position and powdering her nose, before spraying lavender water behind her ears. In spite of the many things about everyday life that she struggled to remember, her morning grooming routine seemed to have survived intact. Although it pained me to think this might be the last time she ever did it in her own home, I also drew some comfort from it: it reassured me that not everything from our life together had been lost.

Soon I heard David’s voice outside the front door and the sound of his key in the lock. He was barking instructions to the removal men as he came in, sounding even more impatient and harassed than usual. Instantly the contemplative mood of the front room was shattered, as the men flung open the door and began to manoeuvre the larger items out of the house and into the lorry.

At first I stayed in my spot on the windowsill. I felt a responsibility to Margery to keep an eye on proceedings and make sure her possessions were treated with due care. But watching my favourite pieces of furniture disappear into the cavernous lorry brought a lump to my throat, and before long I could watch no longer. I arched my back in a stretch, before flexing out to my full length along the windowsill. Then I jumped down and made my way through the living room, being careful to avoid the booted feet all around me.

I considered going outside to get away from the dismantling of my life that was going on inside the house, but it had started to rain, and somehow it felt disloyal to Margery to leave her to face this alone.

Passing the cat carrier sitting ominously in the hallway, I made my way upstairs and found Margery sitting on her bed. She was wearing her blue woollen jacket and a felt hat with a crocheted flower on the rim. It was an outfit that I knew she saved ‘for best’, and I thought she looked beautiful in it. But when I padded around to her side of the bed, I could see that tears were silently falling into her lap. She made no attempt to stop them, but just sat gazing out of the window.

I chirruped at her, trying to sound cheerful. She looked surprised at first, then looked down at me and smiled. ‘Oh, hello, you.’

I wasn’t sure whether or not she remembered my name, but at that moment it was enough that she recognized me. I hopped up onto the bed and nestled beside her. Her hand automatically came to stroke me, tickling me behind the ears and under the chin in my favourite way. I purred my loudest purr, doing my best to drown out the noise of the removal men’s voices and the lifting and lowering of the lorry’s platform.

We remained upstairs on the bed for what felt like a lifetime, while all around us we could hear the men stomping through the house, being chided intermittently by David. Part of me wanted to stay like this forever, but another part just wanted it to be over, for the axe to fall and put us both out of our misery. I will never know whether Margery suspected this would be our last cuddle together, but I felt certain of it. She continued to stroke me and I continued to purr; perhaps we were both trying to reassure ourselves that we would be okay.

‘Mum, where are you?’

David’s abrasive voice made us jump. He pushed open the bedroom door roughly and I felt the hackles on my back rise. The sight of his mother and me together made him pause for a moment, before he walked round the side of the bed towards us.

‘Mum, come on now, it’s time to go,’ he said. I could tell he was making an effort to sound less impatient, but his insincerity didn’t fool me. I was still curled up beside Margery and instinctively began to emit a growl deep in my throat as he approached.

Margery looked at him blankly, and I wondered whether she even remembered who he was or why he was there. For a fleeting moment I envied her, and wondered whether losing my home would hurt less if I did not understand what was happening. Perhaps that would be preferable to the pain I was feeling.

‘Yes, yes, of course,’ Margery whispered, looking around for her handbag and her scarf. She stood up slowly, and David took her elbow in a show of concern, which I knew belied his desire to hurry her up. I was still growling, in an involuntary expression of distrust.

‘That’s enough from you, cat,’ David said, batting me off the bare mattress as he guided Margery round the corner of the bed. I sat angrily on the landing, listening as he led Margery down the stairs and out through the front door. A few minutes later the car doors slammed and I heard him drive away. The removal men bustled past me into Margery’s bedroom and began to take apart her bed.

‘Are we meant to be taking the cat or what?’ one of them asked.

‘Nah, David’s coming back for it later, so he said,’ the other replied.

I sometimes wonder how my life might have played out differently if I had taken fate into my own paws and escaped through the cat flap before David returned. I cannot honestly tell you why I didn’t do so; why I decided instead to go back into Margery’s bedroom, press myself up against the cold radiator and wait for whatever fate had in store for me. Maybe part of me still hoped that I would be taken to live with Margery in her new home. Or, if I’m being truthful, maybe I was just too frightened to go out into the world and fend for myself. I had enjoyed a life of comfortable privilege; let’s face it, I was a pampered lap-cat. Courage and self-reliance were not qualities that I had ever been called upon to find within me. At least not yet.

Eventually the men had packed the bed and the last few boxes into the lorry and left. The house was silent once more, but it did not feel peaceful to me. It was an eerie kind of quiet, which set my teeth on edge. I meditated myself into a light doze on the bedroom floor, but even in sleep I could not rest. I dozed fitfully, dreaming that I could hear Margery calling my name, followed by a falling sensation, which jerked me back to consciousness as panic coursed through my body.

I heard a car pull up to the house. It was starting to get dark outside and the bedroom was chilly. The front door slammed, and I heard David sigh. He picked up the cat carrier in the hall and started to check the downstairs rooms, looking for me.

‘Come on, you bloody cat. Where are you?’ David called out, not bothering to hide the malice in his voice.

Even though I knew it was hopeless, my feline self-preservation instinct made me drop to my haunches and prowl around. I was looking for somewhere to hide, but with all the rooms empty, there was no shelter to be found.

As David got to the top of the stairs he saw me running back into Margery’s bedroom and by the time he entered the room I was sitting on the windowsill, determined to meet him with my chin up and defiance in my eyes.

‘All right, you, it’s time to go,’ he said, fiddling with the door of the cat carrier to unlock it. I began to growl again and, as he approached, I flattened my ears and pulled my top lip back in a hiss. He paused, wondering how best to handle me without getting his hands lacerated, and I was gratified to see a flicker of fear cross his face. I increased the volume and intensity of my hissing, making the most of having some power over him.

He moved the cat carrier into his left hand and, while I was distracted, grabbed the scruff of my neck with his right hand. He shoved me roughly inside, swinging the door shut behind me.

I slipped on the plastic floor of the carrier, trying to find my footing as he swung me round and turned to leave the room. Still growling, I peered through the bars of the carrier door for one final look at my home. The rooms were all empty, devoid of furniture and packing boxes. I was surprised by how cold the house looked, how lifeless without Margery’s possessions and the warmth of her presence. The only sign that she had ever lived there were marks on the carpet, where her furniture had stood, and nails in the walls where her pictures had hung. I tried not to think about the happy times we had had in the house, the meals we had eaten together and our leisurely cuddles on the sofa.

In a matter of seconds we were outside. I heard the front door slam behind me and the key turn in the lock. The cat carrier bumped against David’s leg as he walked across the drive to his car. I was spun around once more and briefly blinded by the light from a lamp post. Then the carrier was plonked unceremoniously into the boot of the car, the door was pushed shut and all was dark and silent.

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