Murder in the Wings

12

For a long time we heard nothing. Just our breathing in the closeness of the closet.

Then a chair scraped downstairs; doors were jerked open, banged shut. Above us rain hammered the roof. I could smell strawberry jam on Donna’s breath; her stomach gurgled symphonically several times (she’s got the only stomach I know that can do arias). Then more chairs scraping, more doors being jerked open and banging shut.

The stairway creaked. The Stewarts were on their way up.

Donna’s nails bit into my wrist. She whispered, “What if they find us in here?”

I whispered back. “If we keep whispering, they damn well will.”

She took great offense. “Oh. Sorry.” Her nails withdrew. “I don’t suppose I’m behaving like a professional detective, am I?”

She scooched away from me, as far to the other side of the closet as possible.

Wonderful.

At the top of the stairs, Anne Stewart said, “I suppose we should split up and start checking rooms.” I thought of Anne sneaking out of Michael Reeves’s office at the theater. Whatever she’d been looking for was obviously still unfound.

“This is a great way to spend a day.” Her husband’s voice was harsh and carried more than a hint of bitterness. I’d met Donald once. He was a short, trim man who divided his life between the white smock of dentistry and the blue togs of Adidas. At fifty, he was apparently a marathoner of some repute.

Anne said, “Maybe you should wait in the car.”

“Maybe I should go see my lawyer.”

“That’s up to you, Donald. All I care about is that you give up your whining.”

“Maybe I could if I could get a certain image out of my mind. You on his bed with your legs spread—”

“Goddamn you!” The slap was gunshot sharp. In the silence afterwards were unspoken rage and the rain.

Then there were tears. She mustn’t have been practiced at crying, Anne Stewart, because she more choked than sobbed.

“Can’t you at least fucking hold me?” she said after a time. Now it was her turn for bitterness. “I’m your wife.”

“You only seem to remember that when it’s convenient.”

She started choking again. Finally tears came pure. She sounded almost like a little girl. He let her cry. Maybe he thought letting her cry was good for her. Or maybe he hated her so much he couldn’t bring himself to touch her.

In the darkness, Donna’s hand found mine and squeezed. The gesture told me what she was feeling. A terrible kind of awe in the face of two human beings destroying each other.

“I’ll try this room first,” Donald Stewart said as his wife’s tears began to subside.

“Wait. I want to say something.”

“We’ve said it fucking all,” Donald said. The anger was back in his voice. There was weariness there now, too.

“I never for a moment loved him. I wasn’t unfaithful in that way.”

“No, you just let him screw your brains out.”

Pity shook him, but you knew right away it was for himself and not for any notion of them as a couple. “I wish I could get somebody to cut the thoughts I have out of my brain. I mean that, Anne. Just cut them out like a cancer so that I didn’t know that you’d slept with him and didn’t know that you wrote him those letters—”

“It hasn’t been easy for me. You’ve changed — ever since you started embezzling.” She meant to hurt him and obviously she had. He was silent.

“But why did you have you tell Reeves about it?” he said after a time, miserably.

“Let’s just see if the letters are here someplace and not talk,” Anne said. “I’m so damn tired of talking.”

They searched for half an hour and made a great deal of noise. A couple of times they called out to each other as if something important had been discovered, but in the end they didn’t seem to find anything. They finished back at the top of the stairs again.

“Great, just fucking great,” Donald said.

“Maybe we can try his apartment tonight.”

“That’s one I’ll let you handle yourself. I’m really not up for seeing the bed where you let him turn you into a whore.”

They went down the stairs and across the hardwood floor and outside, dragging their griefs along behind them.

Car doors opened and slammed. A transmission whined in reverse. The sound of the motor was lost on the vanishing point of the rain.

The weird thing was, we didn’t move. Even long after it was all right to crawl out of the closet and begin to bring proper circulation back to our legs and buttocks, we sat there and just listened to the rain.

“We shouldn’t argue,” Donna said.

“Yeah. I know.”

“After hearing them, loving somebody sounds so hopeless.”

She came into my arms. We didn’t kiss. We just held each other. “It’s so fucking scary,” she said.

“Yeah,” I said, “yeah it is.”

We never did kiss there, just held each other (I kept my eyes closed and smelled her hair and skin, the soft warmth of them) and then we went downstairs and got into our car and drove off.

As soon as I got back into town, I pulled up to an outdoor phone and called the American Security office. Just before they answered I started hacking suddenly.

“God, are you all right?” Donna asked.

I turned my back into the receiver and really blasted it down the phone lines.

“Bobby Lee?” I said between blasts.

“Are you all right, Dwyer?” Bobby Lee said.

I should tell you about her. She is an amply endowed lady who wears Merle Haggard T-shirts and a beehive hairdo you could hide microwaves inside. She buys pro wrestling magazines, and is also the receptionist where I work. She was also the receptionist at our previous place of employment, where she had another duty as well — mistress to the owner. When the man threw her out, she rediscovered the wisdom of the most fundamentalist Baptist church in the city and has since given up swearing, married men, and, alas, her tighter T-shirts. Her new man is Harold, a wholesale auto parts dealer. He’s also a born-again Republican who genuinely believes that Latin America is ours to do with as we see fit, and the bass in a barbershop quartet. Whether you choose to believe it or not, he’s also a gentle, intelligent, and warm man and I’m damn glad Bobby Lee found him, for both their sakes.

“Just picked up a cold,” I said. “I’d better talk to Kastle.”

But Bobby Lee, who still appreciated my getting her this job, said, “Let me handle it, Dwyer. I’m going to tell him you’re sick and need to be in bed for at least a day. Now you just tell Donna to fix you up some soup and head for bed. You understand me?”

I gave her another blast for good measure. “Well, if you say so.”

“Soup and bed, Dwyer, and no ifs, ands, or buts — all right?”

“All right,” I said between hacks.

After I hung up, Donna said, “Boy, I don’t know if I’ll ever believe anything you tell me after that performance.”

“I’m sure I’m going to need the day off tomorrow. We’re getting close to something.”

“Yes, but what?”

“I’m not sure. Now I’m going to call the answering service and then we’re going over to Reeves’s.”

“Why Reeves’s?”

“Because that’s who Anne and her husband had to be talking about.” I reminded her about seeing Anne come out of Reeves’s office. “Maybe we’ll turn something up. We can also ask the tenants some questions.” I searched in my pockets. Nothing. There was a clap of thunder. The rain came down even harder. I felt wet and cold. I wanted to be under a warm electric blanket. “You got two dimes?”

She looked in her purse. She had two dimes. I called my answering service. The people who had called me included my agent, my insurance man, a costume rental place I still owed twenty bucks, and a Mr. Tyrone, who said he’d meet me tonight at St. Philomena’s at 9:00 P.M. I thanked her and hung up.

“We’re going to see Wade tonight,” I said as we pulled away.

“How do you know?”

“He left word with my service.”

“You kidding? He’s crazy to leave his name.”

“He didn’t leave his name. He left the name of the man in the play. Mr. Tyrone. James Tyrone, Senior.”

It was early dusk now. Donna sounded hoarse and lost. “Everything gets so fucked up sometimes.”

We held hands for several blocks without talking. There was nothing to say.