Nerve

Seven

‘The trouble is, there’s such a shortage of jockeys just now,’ said James Axminster.

We were on our way to Sandown, discussing whom he should engage to ride for him the following week when he would be sending horses to two different places on the same day.

‘You’d almost think there was a hoodoo on the whole tribe,’ he said, expertly swinging his large car between a wobbly girl cyclist and an oncoming pantechnicon. ‘Art shot himself, Pip’s broken his leg, Grant’s had a breakdown. Two or three others are out with more ordinary things like busted collar bones, and at least four quite useful chaps took that wretched Ballerton’s misguided advice and are now churning out car bodies on assembly lines. There’s Peter Cloony... but I’ve heard he’s very unreliable and might not turn up in time; and Danny Higgs bets too much, they say, and Ingersoll doesn’t always try, so I’ve been told...’

He slowed down while a mother pushed a perambulator and three small children untidily across the road in front of us, and went on talking. ‘Every time I think I’ve found a good up-and-coming jockey I seem to hear something to his disadvantage. With you, it was that film, the one they showed on that television programme. It was shocking, wasn’t it? I watched it and thought, my God, what have I done, asking this clod to ride for me, however will I explain it away to the owners.’ He grinned. ‘I was on the point of ringing them all up and assuring them you’d not be on their horses after all. Luckily for you I remembered the way you had already ridden for me and I watched the rest of the programme first, and when it had finished I had changed my mind. I had even begun to think I had perhaps struck oil in annexing you. Nothing that has happened since,’ he glanced at me sideways, smiling, ‘has led me to alter that opinion.’

I smiled back. In the weeks since Pip broke his leg I had come to know him well, and liked him better with every day that passed. Not only was he a superb craftsman at his job and a tireless worker, but he was reliable in other ways. He was never moody: one did not have to approach him circumspectly every time to see if he were in a good or bad humour because he was always the same, neither boisterous or irritable, just reasonable and receptive. He said directly what he thought, so that one never had to search for innuendoes or suspect hidden sarcasm and it made any relationship with him stable and free from worry. He was, on the other hand, in many ways thoroughly selfish. Unless it were a strictly business matter, his own comfort and convenience came first, second and third, and he would do a favour for someone else only if it caused him absolutely no personal sacrifice of time or effort. Even this was often a blessing to his stable lads since it was typical of him, if the occasion arose, to give them a generous travelling allowance out of his own pocket to visit their homes, rather than go five miles out of his way to drop them on their doorsteps.

He had seemed from the first to be as satisfied with my company as I was with his, and had quite soon told me to drop the ‘sir’ and stick to ‘James.’ Later the same week as he drove us back from Birmingham races, we passed some brightly lit posters advertising a concert which was to be held there that evening.

‘Conductor, Sir Trelawny Finn,’ he read aloud, the enormous lettering catching his eye. ‘No relation, I suppose,’ he said jokingly.

‘Well, yes, as a matter of fact, he’s my uncle,’ I said.

There was a dead silence. Then he said, ‘And Caspar Finn?’

‘My father.’ A pause.

‘Anyone else?’

‘Dame Olivia Cottin is my mother,’ I said, matter-of-factly.

‘Good God,’ he said explosively.

I grinned.

‘You keep it very quiet,’ he said.

‘It’s really the other way round,’ I said cheerfully. ‘They like to keep me quiet. A jockey in the family is a disgrace to them, you see. It embarrasses them. They don’t like the connection to be noticed.’

‘All the same,’ he said thoughtfully, ‘it explains quite a lot about you that I had begun to wonder about. Where you got that air of confidence from... and why you’ve said so little about yourself.’

I said, smiling, ‘I’d be very glad... James... if you’d not let my parentage loose in the weighing-room, as a favour to them.’

He had said he would not, and he had kept his word, but he had accepted me more firmly as a friend from then on. So when he ran through the reported shortcomings of Peter Cloony, Danny Higgs and Tick-Tock, it was with some confidence that I said, ‘You seem to have heard a great many rumours. Do you know all these things for a fact?’

‘For a fact?’ he repeated, surprised. ‘Well, Peter Cloony definitely missed two races a few weeks back because he was late. That’s a fact.’

I told him about Peter’s atrocious luck in twice finding a vehicle stuck across the mouth of the narrow lane from his village to the main road. ‘As far as I know,’ I said, ‘he hasn’t been late since then. His reputation for lateness seems to be built mainly on those two days.’

‘I’ve heard several times that he can’t be trusted to turn up,’ said James obstinately.

‘Who from?’ I asked curiously.

‘Oh, I don’t know. Corin Kellar for one. And of course Johnson who employs him. Ballerton too, though it’s against my better judgment to pay too much attention to what he says. It’s common knowledge though.’

‘How about Danny Higgs, then?’ I said. Danny was an irrepressible cockney, tiny in size, but ferociously brave.

‘He bets too heavily,’ James said positively.

‘Who says so?’ I asked. I knew Danny broke the regulations by backing horses, but from what he said in the changing-room, it was only in amounts of five or ten pounds, which would cause few trainers to look askance at him.

‘Who says? I... er... Corin,’ he finished lamely. ‘Corin, come to think of it, has told me so several times. He says he never puts him up because of it.’

‘And Tick-Tock?’ I said. ‘Who says Ingersoll doesn’t always try?’

He didn’t answer at once. Then he said, ‘Why shouldn’t I believe what Corin says? He has no axe to grind. He’s an excellent trainer, but he depends as we all do on securing good jockeys. He certainly wouldn’t deny himself the use of people like Cloony or Higgs if he didn’t have a good reason.’

I thought for a few moments, and then said, ‘I know it’s really none of my business, but would you mind very much telling me why you dropped Grant Oldfield? He told me himself that it was something to do with a message, but he wouldn’t explain what.’ I refrained from mentioning that he had been semiconscious at the time.

‘A message? Oh yes, he passed on the message, I couldn’t have that.’

I still looked mystified. Axminster squeezed through the traffic lights on the amber and glanced sideways at me.

‘The message,’ he said impatiently, ‘you know, the news. He was passing on the news. If we had a fancied runner he would tip off a professional backer. The owner of the horse didn’t get good odds to his money because the professional was there before him and spoiled the market. Three of my owners were very angry about it — no fun for them having to take two or three to one when they had expected sixes or sevens. So Grant had to go. It was a pity; he was a strong jockey, just what I needed.’

‘How did you discover it was Grant passing on the information?’

‘Maurice Kemp-Lore found out while he was working on one of those programmes of his. Something to do with how professional backers work, I think it was, and he found out about Grant more or less by accident. He told me very apologetically, and just said it would be wiser not to let Grant know too much. But you can’t work properly with a jockey and keep secrets from him, it’s a hopeless set-up.’

‘What did Grant say when you sacked him?’ I asked.

‘He denied the whole thing very indignantly. But of course he would. No jockey would ever confess to selling information if he wanted another trainer to take him on.’

‘Did you talk to the professional backer in question?’ I asked.

‘Yes I did, as a matter of fact,’ he said. ‘I didn’t want to believe it, you see. But it was open and shut. I had to press him a bit, because it didn’t reflect well on him, but Lubbock, the professional, did admit that Grant had been tipping him off over the telephone, and that he had been paying him ever since he had started to ride for me.’

It seemed conclusive enough, but I had an elusive feeling that I had missed something, somewhere.

I changed the subject. ‘Going back to Art,’ I said, ‘why was he always having rows with Corin?’

‘I don’t really know,’ James said reflectively. ‘I heard Corin say once or twice that Art didn’t ride to orders. Perhaps it was that.’ He neatly passed two slow lorries on a roundabout, and glanced at me again. ‘What are you getting at?’

‘It seems to me sometimes that there is too much of a pattern,’ I said. ‘Too many jockeys are affected by rumours. You said yourself that there seems to be a hoodoo on the whole tribe.’

‘I didn’t mean it seriously,’ he protested. ‘You’re imagining things. And as for rumours, what rumour made Art kill himself or broke Pip’s leg, or made Grant sell information? Rumour didn’t make Cloony late either.’

‘Danny Higgs doesn’t bet heavily,’ I said, feeling I was fighting a rearguard action, ‘and Ingersoll rides as honestly as anyone.’

‘You can’t know about Higgs,’ he pointed out, ‘and Ingersoll, let me remind you, was called in before the stewards last week for easing his mount out of third place. John Ballerton owned the horse and he was very annoyed about it, he told me so himself.’

I sighed. Tick-Tock’s version was that since Corin had told him not to overwork the horse, which was not fully fit, he had decided that he ought not to drive the horse too hard just for the sake of finishing third. Better to save the horse’s energy for winning next time, he had thought, adopting a view commonly held and acted on by at least half the jockeys and trainers engaged in the sport: but owners and members of the public who had backed the horse for a place were liable to disagree. After the enquiry, changing with the wind as usual, Corin had been heard condemning Tick-Tock for his action.

‘I may be quite wrong about it all,’ I said slowly, ‘I hope so. Only...’

‘Only?’ he prompted as I paused.

‘Only,’ I finished lightly, ‘if you ever hear any rumours about me, will you remember what I think... and make utterly sure they’re true before you believe them?’

‘All right,’ he said, humouring me. ‘I think it’s nonsense, but all right, I’ll agree to that.’ He drove in silence for a while, and then said with an impatient shake of his big head, ‘No one stands to gain anything by trying to ruin jockeys. It’s nonsense. Pointless.’

‘I know,’ I said. ‘Pointless.’

We changed the subject.

Christmas came, and during the week before it, when there was no racing, I spent several days in Kensington. My parents greeted me with their usual friendly detachment and left me to my own devices. They were both preoccupied with crowded Christmas schedules, and my mother also spent each morning working at her piano on a new concerto which was to have its first performance in the New Year. She started daily at seven punctually, and played with short interruptions for coffee and thought until twelve-thirty. I awoke as so often during my life to the sound of warming up chromatics and wrist loosening arpeggios, and lay lazily in bed listening to her pick her way phrase by phrase through a dissonant modern score, repeating and repeating each section until she was satisfied she knew it, until the notes flowed easily in their intended order.

I could picture her exactly, dressed for work in a cashmere sweater and ski pants, sitting upright on her special stool, with her head thrust forward as if to hear more from the piano than the notes themselves. She was digging the bones out of the piece, and I knew better than to interrupt her. Digging the bones, the essence, the composer’s ultimate intention: and when she had these things firmly in her mind, she would begin the process of clothing them with her own interpretations, sharpening the contrasts of mood and tone, until the finished conception emerged clear and shining and memorable.

My mother might not have been a comforting refuge in my childhood nor take much loving interest in me now I was a man, but she had by her example shown me many qualities to admire and value. Professionalism, for instance; a tough-minded singleness of purpose; a refusal to be content with a low standard when a higher one could be achieved merely by working. I had become self-reliant young and thoroughly as a result of her rejection of motherhood, and because I saw the grind behind the gloss of her public performances, I grew up not expecting life’s plums to be tossed into my lap without any effort from me. What mother could teach her son more?

Joanna’s time was tangled inextricably with several performances in different places of the Christmas Oratorio. I managed to hook her only for one chilly morning’s walk in the Park, which was not a success from my point of view since Handel easily shoved me into second place for her attention. She hummed bits of the Oratorio continuously from the Albert Gate to the Serpentine, and from the Serpentine to Bayswater Road. There I put her into a taxi and gave her a Christmassy lunch at the Savoy, where she appeared to restrain herself with difficulty from bursting into full song, as the acoustics in the entrance hall appealed to her. I couldn’t decide whether or not she was being irritating on purpose, and if she was, why?

She was definitely a great deal less serene than usual, and there was a sort of brittleness in her manner which I didn’t like and couldn’t understand, until when we were half-way through some excellent mince pies it belatedly occurred to me that she might be unhappy. Unhappiness was not a state I had seen her in before, so I couldn’t be sure. I waited until the coffee came, and then said casually, ‘What’s up, Joanna?’

She looked at me, then she looked round the room, then at me again, then at her coffee.

Finally she said, ‘Brian wants me to marry him.’

It wasn’t what I expected, and it hurt. I found myself looking down at my own coffee: black and bitter, very appropriate, I thought.

‘I don’t know what to do,’ she said. ‘I was content as we were. Now I’m unsettled. Brian keeps talking about ‘living in sin’ and ‘regularising the position.’ He goes to church a lot now, and he can’t reconcile our relationship with his religion. I never thought of it as sinful, just as enjoyable and fruitful and... and comfortable. He is talking about buying a house and settling down, and sees me as the complete housewife, cleaning, mending, cooking, and so on. I’m not that sort of person. The thought appals me. If I marry him, I know I’ll be miserable...’ Her voice trailed off.

‘And if you don’t marry him?’ I asked.

‘I’ll be miserable then, too, because he refuses to go on as we are. We’re not easy together any more. We nearly have rows. He says it’s irresponsible and childish not to want to marry at my age, and I say I’ll gladly marry him if we live as we do now, with him coming and going from the studio when he likes, and me free to work and come and go as I please too. But he doesn’t want that. He wants to be respectable and conventional and... and stuffy.’ The last word came out explosively, steeped in contempt. There was a pause while she stirred her coffee vigorously. There was no sugar in it. I watched the nervous gesture, the long strong fingers with the pink varnished nails gripping the spoon too hard.

‘How much do you love him?’ I asked painfully.

‘I don’t know,’ she said unhappily. ‘I don’t know any more what love is.’ She looked straight across the little table. ‘If it means that I want to spend my life attending to his creature comforts, then I don’t love him. If it means being happy in bed, then I do.’

She saw the movement in my face, and said abruptly, ‘Oh hell... Rob, I’m sorry. It’s so long since you said anything... I thought you didn’t still...’

‘Never mind,’ I said. ‘It can’t be helped.’

‘What... what do you think I should do?’ she said after a pause, still fiddling with the coffee spoon.

‘It’s quite clear,’ I said positively, ‘that you should not marry Brian if you can’t bear the prospect of the life he intends to lead. It wouldn’t work for either of you.’

‘So?’ she said, in a small voice.

But I shook my head. The rest she would have to resolve for herself. No advice I could give her would be unbiased, and she must have known it.

She left presently to go to a rehearsal, and I paid the bill and wandered out into the festive streets. I bought some presents for my family on the way, walking slowly back to the flat. The sort of marriage which Joanna had offered Brian, and which he spurned, was what I most wanted in the world. Why, I wondered disconsolately, was life so ruddy unfair.

On Boxing Day Template won the King Chase, one of the ten top races of the year. It put him conclusively into the star class, and it didn’t do me any harm either.

The race had been televised, and afterwards, as was his custom, Maurice Kemp-Lore interviewed me as the winning jockey before the cameras. Towards the end of the brief talk he invited me to say hullo directly to Pip, who, he explained to viewers, was watching at home. I had seen Pip only a week or two earlier and had discussed big-race tactics with him, but I obligingly greeted him and said I hoped his leg was mending well. Kemp-Lore smilingly added ‘We all wish you a speedy recovery, Pip,’ and the interview was over.

On the following day the sporting press was complimentary about the race, and a number of trainers I had not yet ridden for offered me mounts. I began to feel at last as though I were being accepted as a jockey in my own right, and not principally as a substitute for Pip. It even seemed likely that when Pip returned to his job I would not fade back into the wilderness, for two of the new trainers said they would put me up on their horses as often as I was free.

I had, of course, my share of falls during this period, for however fortunate I was I couldn’t beat the law of averages: but no damage was done except for a few bruises here and there, and none of them was bad enough to stop me riding.

The worst fall from the spectators’ point of view happened one Saturday afternoon in January, when the hurdler I was riding tripped over the flight of hurdles nearest to the grandstand and flung me off on to my head. I woke up dizzily as the first-aid men lifted me into the ambulance on a stretcher, and for a moment or two could not remember where I was.

James’s face, looming over me as they carried me into the first-aid room, brought me back to earth with a click, and I asked him if his horse was all right.

‘Yes,’ he said, ‘how about you?’

‘Nothing broken,’ I assured him, having explored my limbs rather drunkenly during the short trip back in the ambulance.

‘He rolled on you,’ he said.

‘I’m not surprised.’ I grinned up at him. ‘I feel a bit squashed, come to think of it.’

I lay for a while on a bed in the first-aid room, but there was nothing wrong with me that a good sleep wouldn’t cure, and at the end of the afternoon I went back to Berkshire with James as expected.

‘Are you all right?’ he asked once, on the way.

‘Yes,’ I said cheerfully. ‘Fine.’ Actually I felt dizzy now and then, and also shivery and unsettled, but concealing one’s true state of health from trainers was an occupational habit, and I knew I would be fit again to ride on Monday.

The only person who was openly annoyed at the run of good luck I had had was John Ballerton, and I had caught him several times in the parade ring staring tight-lipped at me with a patent and most unstewardly animosity.

Since the day of our joint broadcast we had exchanged the fewest possible words, but I had heard from Corin, who repeated it to me with sly relish, the Ballerton had said loudly to him and Maurice Kemp-Lore in the members’ bar at Kempton, ‘Finn isn’t worth all the fuss that’s being made of him. He’ll come down just as quickly as he’s gone up, you’ll see. And I for one won’t weep about it.’

In view of this it was astonishing that on the day after my fall I should be offered a ride on one of his horses. At first I refused to take Corin seriously. His telephone call woke me on the Sunday morning, and I was inclined to think the concussion had returned.

‘If it were a choice between me and a sack of potatoes,’ I said sleepily, ‘he’d choose the potatoes.’

‘No, seriously Rob, he wants you to ride Shantytown at Dunstable tomorrow.’ Corin’s voice held no trace of humour. ‘I must say, I don’t really understand why, as he’s been so set against you before. But he was quite definite on the telephone, not five minutes ago. Perhaps it’s an olive branch.’

And perhaps not, I thought. My first instinct was to refuse to ride the horse, but I couldn’t think of a reasonable excuse, as Corin had found out I was free for the race before he told me whose the horse was. A point-blank excuseless refusal was, while possible, a senseless course. It would give Ballerton a genuine grievance against me, and if he sincerely wanted to smoothe over his hostility, which I doubted, I should only deepen it by spurning his offer.

Shantytown was no Template. Far, far from it. His uncertain temper and unreliable jumping were described to me in unreassuring terms by Tick-Tock on the way to Dunstable the following morning.

‘A right one,’ he said, putting his foot down on the Mini-Cooper’s accelerator. ‘A knacker’s delight. Dog-meat on the hoof.’

‘His form’s not bad,’ I protested mildly, having looked it up the previous day.

‘Hmph. Any time he’s won or been placed it’s because he’s dragged his jockey’s arms out of the sockets by a blast-off start and kept right on going. Hang on and hope, that’s how to ride him when he’s in that mood. His mouth is as hard as Gibraltar. In fact I cannot,’ finished Tick-Tock with satiric formality, ‘I cannot instantly recall any horse who is less receptive of his jockey’s ideas.’

There was no bitterness in his voice, but we were both aware that a few weeks ago riding Shantytown would have been his doubtful pleasure, not mine. Since his parade before the stewards for not pushing his horse all out into third place, he had been ignored by Corin Kellar. It was the sort of injustice typical of Corin, to sack a man who ran into trouble looking after his interests, and it had done nothing to lay the unfair rumour that Tick-Tock was a habitual non-trier.

Apart from abruptly lessening the number of races he rode in, the rumour had had little effect on Tick-Tock himself. He shrugged his shoulders, and with a determined look on his angular young face stated, ‘They’ll change their minds again in time. I’ll mash every horse I ride into a pulp. I’ll do my nut on every hopeless hack. No one henceforth will see me finish eighth when by bashing the beast I could be sixth.’

I had smiled to hear these fighting words from one whose chief asset was his lightness of touch, but was relieved too, that he was intact in spirits. No suicides, no mental breakdowns for him.

Shantytown, when it came to the race, was not what I had been led to expect. The damp raw January afternoon had drawn only a small crowd of stalwarts to watch a second-class programme at a minor meeting, and as I watched the big chestnut plod round the parade ring I thought how well he matched the circumstances. Uninspiring.

But far from pulling my arms out of their sockets, Shantytown seemed to me to be in danger of falling asleep. The start caught him flat-footed, so little interest was he taking in it, and I had to boot him into the first fence. He rose to it fairly well, but was slow in his recovery, and it was the same at every jump. It was puzzling, after what Tick-Tock had said, but horses do have their off-days for no discernible reason, and I could only suppose that this was one of them.

We trailed round the entire three miles in the rear of the field, and finished ingloriously last. All my efforts to get him to quicken up the straight met with no response. Shantytown hadn’t taken hold of his bit from the beginning and at the end he seemed to be dead beat.

A hostile reception met us on our return. John Ballerton, with whom I had exchanged coldly polite ‘Good afternoons’ in the parade ring before the race, now glowered like a July thunderstorm. Corin, standing on one leg and wearing an anxious, placatory expression, was obviously going to use me as the scapegoat for the horse’s failure, to save his face as its trainer. That was always one of the hazards to be run in riding Corin’s horses.

‘What the hell do you think you were doing?’ Ballerton said aggressively, as I slid off on to the ground and began to unbuckle the saddle girths.

‘I’m sorry, sir,’ I said. ‘He wouldn’t go any faster.’

‘Don’t talk such bloody rubbish,’ he said, ‘he always goes faster than that. I’ve never seen a more disgusting display of incompetence... you couldn’t ride in a cart with a pig net over it. If you ask me, the horse wasn’t given a chance. You missed the start and couldn’t be bothered to make it up.’

‘I did say,’ said Corin to me reproachfully, ‘not to let him run away with you, and to keep tucked in behind for the first two miles. But I do think you carried my orders a bit too far...’

‘A bit too far!’ interrupted Ballerton furiously. ‘Were you afraid to let him go, or something? If you can’t manage to ride a decent race on a horse which pulls, why the hell do you try to? Why not say straight out that you can’t? Save us all a lot of time and money.’

I said, ‘The horse didn’t pull. There was no life in him.’

‘Kellar,’ Ballerton was nearly shouting. ‘Is my horse a puller, or is he not?’

‘He is,’ said Corin, not meeting my eyes.

‘And you told me he was fit. On his toes.’

‘Yes,’ said Corin. ‘I thought he’d win.’

They looked at me accusingly. Corin must have known that the horse had run listlessly because he had seen the race with experienced eyes, but he was not going to admit it. If I had to ride often for Corin, I thought wryly, I would soon have as many rows with him as Art had had.

Ballerton narrowed his eyes and said to me, ‘I asked you to ride Shantytown against my better judgment and only because Maurice Kemp-Lore insisted I had been misjudging you and that you were really a reliable man who would ride a genuine race. Well, I’m going to tell him he is wrong. Very wrong. You’ll never ride another horse of mine, I promise you that.’

He turned on his heel and stalked off, followed by Corin. My chief feeling, as I went back to the weighing-room, was of irritation that I hadn’t relied on instinct and refused to ride for him in the first place.

By the end of the afternoon the puzzlement I had felt over Shantytown’s dead running had changed to a vague uneasiness, for neither of the other two horses I rode afterwards did anything like as well as had been expected. Both were well backed, and both finished nearly last, and although their owners were a great deal nicer about it than Ballerton had been, their disappointment was obvious.

On the following day, still at Dunstable, the run of flops continued. I had been booked for three horses, and they all ran badly. I spent the whole depressing afternoon apologetically explaining to owner after owner that I had not been able to make their horse go faster. The third horse, in fact, went so badly that I had to pull him up half way round. He was a slow jumper on the best of days, but on that particular one he took so long putting himself right and so long starting off again when he landed, that the rest of the field were a whole fence ahead by the time we had gone a mile. It was hopeless. When I reined him in he slowed from a reluctant gallop to a walk in a couple of strides, sure sign of a very tired horse. I thought as he was trained by a farmer-owner who might not know better, that he must have been given too stiff a training gallop on the previous day, but the farmer said he was sure he had not.

Runs of bad luck are commoner in racing than good ones, and the fact that six of my mounts in a row had made a showing far below their usual capabilities would not have attracted much notice had it not been for John Ballerton.

I changed into street clothes after the fifth race and strolled out of the weighing-room to find him standing close by with a small circle of cronies. All the heads turned towards me with that sideways, assessing look which meant they had been talking about me, and Ballerton said something forceful to them, of which the word ‘disgrace’ floated across clearly.

Jockeys being as accustomed as politicians to abuse I gave no sign of having heard what had obviously been intended for my ears, and walked casually off to the stands to watch the last race; but I did wonder how long and how maliciously Ballerton would hold Shantytown’s failure against me, and what effect his complaints would have on the number of horses I was asked to ride. He was not a man to keep his grudges to himself, and as a National Hunt Committee member he was not without influence either.

Up on the stands Maurice Kemp-Lore came across to talk to me. We had met briefly on racecourses several times now, and were on superficially friendly terms, but in spite of his charm, or perhaps because it sometimes seemed too polished, I felt his friendship came strictly into the professional, ‘might be useful’ category. I did not believe that he liked me for my own sake.

He smiled vividly, the charm turned on to full wattage, his slim figure radiating health and confidence and his blue eyes achieving the near impossible of twinkling on a grey January afternoon. I smiled back automatically: one couldn’t help it. All his impressive success stemmed from the instantaneous, irresistible feeling of well-being he inspired in whomever he talked to, and there was no one from the Senior Steward downwards who did not enjoy his company, even if, like me, one suspected his unfailing motive was the gathering of material for his programme.

‘What bad luck, Rob,’ he said cheerfully. ‘I hear the good word I put in for you with John Ballerton has gone awry.’

‘You can say that again,’ I agreed. ‘But thanks for trying, anyway.’

The blue eyes glimmered. ‘Anything to help,’ he said.

I could hear distinctly a faint high-pitched wheeze as he drew breath into his lungs, and I realised it was the first time I had encountered him in an asthmatic attack. I was vaguely sorry for him.

The horses for the sixth race cantered past, going down to the start.

‘Are James’s plans fixed for the Midwinter Cup?’ he asked casually, his eyes on the horses. I smiled. But he had his job to do, I supposed, and there was no harm in telling him.

‘Template runs, all being well,’ I said.

‘And you ride him?’

‘Yes,’ I agreed.

‘How is Pip getting along?’ he asked, wheezing quietly.

‘They think his leg is mending well, but he is still in plaster,’ I said. ‘It comes off next week, I believe, and he might be ready for Cheltenham, but of course he won’t be fit for the Midwinter.’

The race in question was a richly endowed new event at Ascot, introduced to provide a high spot in mid-February, and nicely timed to give three full weeks for recovery and re-tuning before the Cheltenham Gold Cup. It lay almost a month ahead, on that day at Dunstable, and I was looking forward to it particularly as it seemed possible that it would be my last chance on Template. Pip would do his very best to be fit to ride him in the Gold Cup, and so would I have done in his place.

‘What chance do you give Template in the Midwinter?’ Maurice asked, watching the start through his race glasses.

‘Oh, I hope he’ll win,’ I said, grinning. ‘You can quote me.’

‘I probably will,’ he agreed, grinning back. We watched the race together, and such was the effect of his personality that I left Dunstable quite cheerfully, the dismal two days’ results temporarily forgotten.