Point of Impact

CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN

It amazed Nick that they worked so hard when he was so willing to tell the entire truth from the start; he even waived his right to legal counsel without giving it a second thought.

“Hey, I don’t need it. You’ll see. I don’t need it.”

But they insisted on working hard; it was the Bureau way.

They had removed him to a safe house outside New Orleans, an estate out in Lafayette Parish, not far from a swamp; and there they set to their labors for close to a month. Their first go-round was the friendly approach, with his old buddy Hap Fencl and his ex-partner Mickey Sontag.

For a time it was like the good old days in the New Orleans district office bull pen on Loyola Street, the three of them just swapping yarns and laughing it up and having a great time. But underneath there was serious business, and Nick let it all come out. He told everything from his procurement of the Bureau RamDyne file (though he overplayed his pressure on Sally to spare her what trouble he could) to his abduction by Jack Payne and his henchmen, his near fake-suicide in the swamp, and the private war he’d fought with Bob Lee Swagger against the agents of RamDyne.

“You ought to see this damned guy in a fight, Hap,” he heard himself saying in awe. “This is the best gunfighter this country ever produced. He doesn’t miss, he doesn’t panic, he doesn’t quit thinking and he never gives up. He’s fantastic.”

He got to the embarrassing part, too.

“Look, I may as well be up-front with you guys. I did represent myself as a federal officer when I was officially on suspension. I did it over the phone at least two or three dozen times and in person at least three times. So are you going to bust me? Hell, I broke the New Orleans thing for you, gave you the biggest scoop you’ll ever have.”

They laughed and wrote it all down, asking gentle questions, coming back the next day with other questions.

But they wouldn’t tell him anything else, either.

“So where’s Bob? What’s become of him?”

“Nick, I think they have him in a safe house too, going through the same kind of debriefing. Truth is, I don’t really know. Would you mind if we got back to you, Nick?”

“No, sure, no problem.”

This went on for two weeks.

Then, suddenly, Hap and Mickey were gone. Instead, along came two hard-eyed guys from what Nick assumed was the crack counterintelligence squad called Cointelpro, expert interrogators. They were very, very smart, much smarter than Hap and Mickey. And, naturally, distant; not hostile so much as remote, utterly professional. They were like sharks; they ate him alive and seemed to know the material as well as he did. They pored through it – and him – for minor inconsistencies, for small glitches, as if they wanted the lint of the operation and not the truth.

But he cooperated, again offering eagerness as his only defense, holding nothing back, telling everything, everything.

“Now the bills he used to finance the operation – ”

“It wasn’t an operation. We just made it up as we went along. Anyway, he’d evidently cached quite a bit of cash from that lawsuit plus some guns in the mountains and when he got back to them before we ran into him at the health complex, he must have dug it up. He always had cash, he always paid cash.”

“You can’t trace cash, not old, small bills. He had plenty of old small bills.”

“Cash isn’t a crime. At least it didn’t used to be. What have you got him on? A few minor car theft charges for which there’s really no proof, and no prosecutor would bring to court. The rest was self-defense. He never shot a man who wasn’t trying to kill him or someone else. He was green light all the way.”

“New Orleans.”

“New Orleans! I told you, it was a professional setup! They used a different rifle to shoot a bullet that had been already fired out of his rifle. They had a great shot, Lon Scott, in the steeple. It’s possible, you know it’s possible.”

“Okay, Memphis, this isn’t the time to argue. Now could we go back to – ”

Then, finally, there were the scientific gentlemen. Nick took three polygraph tests, and volunteered to undergo both hypnosis and sodium pentothal treatment. He was probed, drugged, pricked, psyched, drained and squeezed. He got through it all with only moderate testiness: old Nick, everybody’s helper, friend to all men, duty hound, stalwart and chum.

One day, late in the process, he was told he had a visitor. Blinking, he went outside to the porch, there to discover the nervous Sally Ellion awaiting him.

“Hi! God, Sally, hi, how are you, Jesus, you’re looking great!”

And Sally was looking great.

“Hi, Nick. How are you?” She still had that soft Southern accent, as if the Mississippi itself poured through her words.

“Oh, I’m okay, you know. I’m fine. I’m sorry I haven’t called you. They’ve got me pretty busy and I don’t think they’re going to spring me soon.”

“You’re not in any trouble, are you?”

“Nah. Nah, I’m fine. I want to work with the guys and get this all straightened out. It’ll be fine, you’ll see. I’m hoping that when this is over, we can go out to dinner again. That was great fun. How are you?”

She looked terrific to him.

“I’m okay. Nick, they came to me and wanted – ”

“I know, I know. Just tell them the truth. You didn’t do anything wrong. Remember, you didn’t know I’d been suspended when you gave me that file. You’re okay, don’t worry.”

“I’m not worried about myself, Nick. I’m worried about you. He said you might have broken some laws. He was very upset about what might happen to you.”

“Um. Howard?”

“Yes. Mr. Utey.”

“Yeah, I smell him all over this thing. Don’t worry. Howard’s an old pal. He’ll look out for me. What’s going on in the outside world?”

“Oh, the television and papers have made a big thing about Bob Lee Swagger. I think the government wants to settle it quickly. Get it off the front page.”

“What have they done with Bob?”

“He’s in a holding facility in – ”

“A prison?”

“Yes. He’s got a lawyer. But there’s so much publicity that I think they’re going to do something soon.”

This shook Nick greatly.

“He shouldn’t be in a prison. He’s a hero. He did great things for – ”

But he saw a hurt look on her face and realized he’d begun to sound deranged.

“Well, anyway. Sally, I hope this hasn’t been hard on you.”

“No. It was a little scary at first, all the questions. But I think I’m out of it.”

“Great. I’ve tried to make them see it’s all my fault. I’m to blame, that’s all. I’m sure they’ll understand.”

“I’m sure they will. Nick, are you sure you’re going to call me when all this is over? I’d like to see you.”

“Sure, of course.”

“Because if you don’t, I’m going to call you.”

“I’ll call you. I swear. You know, old AB Nick. I want to hear more about the time when you ditched that quarterback. Tom, Terry -?”

“Ted.” She laughed. “God, what a horrible guy. I can’t believe I was engaged to him.”

The memory brought a smile to her face, a little one; then it was time for her to go.

They pretty much left Nick alone for a week after Sally’s visit, with only two incurious bodyguards who let him go for walks. They let him watch TV and he caught up on the events of the last month and the controversy surrounding Bob Lee Swagger, amazed to see what a huge national story it had become, with all the networks camped outside the Louisiana State Reformatory where Bob was being kept in isolation, with visits only from his lawyer, a doughty-looking, sly old boy – operative word old – named Sam Vincent. Meanwhile a grand jury investigated the matter and all the Louisiana state prosecutors were lined up, waiting their turn.

“Looks like a carnival,” Nick said, and nobody answered.

Then finally, inevitably, Howard arrived, with a sharp young man along, who had Ambitious Federal Prosecutor written all over his feral little features. And an older man, twinkly, with an almost academic air about him, as he sucked on a pipe.

“Nick, Nick, Nick,” said Howard, expansive and embracing. “Nick, I want you to meet Phil Kelso, who works on a lot of cases with us. Phil’s a damned fine prosecutor, Nick. The best.”

“Um,” said Nick.

“And this is Hugh Meachum, of the State Department. Nick, he’s here to advise us on national security implications of the situation. The Salvadorans are very interested in the way this turns out.”

Nick shot a quick look at Hugh, smelled gin, felt his blood begin to roar in his head.

“We hear you’ve been extremely cooperative,” said Kelso. “That’s wonderful. That’s a big plus on your behalf. Right now, Nick, we’re in the zone of attitude. Attitude is everything, Nick. We need great attitude from you.”

“Well, I always try and do my best,” said Nick, swallowing hard, somehow not wanting to look at Meachum.

“That’s Nick,” said Howard. “Nick tries real hard. Nick’s a worker, a plugger, a scrapper. You could see it seven years ago in Tulsa and you can see it now.”

“An extraordinary young man,” said the elderly gentleman.

“Now, Nick, guess what day this is? Can you guess?”

Howard was effusive and charismatic today; Nick only saw him like this when he wanted something big.

“No, Howard.”

“Nick, it’s the first day of the rest of your life. Nick, it’s your lucky day. You can walk out of here in an hour. In ten minutes, a free man, Nick. No questions asked. Nick, the only thing you have to do is your duty, that’s all.”

But Nick was hardly listening. He could only think of Meachum on the cover letter that sent Annex B to the general and set the whole thing in motion.

He kept trying to keep his eyes off the old man, but he could not control himself. He saw some sort of benevolence on the pink face, pleasurable anticipation that Nick was turning into such a team player, such a smashing young man.

“Nick, you can have more than your life back,” Howard was saying when Nick tuned back in. “You can have it all. You can have your career. Nick, what do you want? Do you want Cointelpro? I don’t mind telling you, you impressed Dave and Tom. They thought you were a plenty sharp operator, and they are the best, Nick. You know Cointelpro is the elite squad. You can have it. Or do you want a Hostage Rescue Unit? We could get you on HRU in Miami or Dallas, Nick, a hot city where you’d see a lot of action. Those HRU boys pick up the medals and they get on the fast track to Washington, Nick. Nick, we may be starting up a squad to extradite suspects from foreign countries. Now that’ll be fast, exciting work, and some top people are coming aboard, Nick. I think that’s what I’d pick, if I were you and had my whole career ahead of me. But it’s up to you, Nick. You can have anything. No more dumpy little Taco Circuit cities for you, Nick. No Tulsas or Buttes or Boises. You name it – San Francisco, New York and organized crime, Philadelphia, Washington, Chicago, Chicago’s a great town, Nick.”

Nick just watched Howard.

“Okay,” he finally said. “What’s the deal?”

Nick caught Kelso firing a little what-the-fuck? glance at Howard.

Howard sailed on.

“Nick, listen to me. It can play one of two ways. Only one of two ways. It’s to everybody’s benefit – yours, mine, most particularly the Bureau’s and the country’s – if it plays a certain way. Okay?”

“Sure,” said Nick. “What way?”

Now Kelso and Howard exchanged glances. They took a pause, then both looked back to Hugh, who smiled, his pale blue eyes aglitter.

Finally, Kelso spoke.

“Nick, it’s Murder One on Bob Lee Swagger. We’re going for the chair.”

“Are you all right?” Bob asked her.

“I’m fine.”

“You just answer their questions. You just tell the truth, that’s all.”

Behind the glass wall of the visiting room, he looked sallow and grim. His voice was reedy through the distorting sound of the telephone. She put her hand on the glass, aware that before her thousands of women had put their hands on the glass, and left a residue of wanting and sorrow as they peered at their men.

“Bob,” Julie said, “that’s just it. They haven’t asked me any questions. I was kidnapped. I was drugged and held at gunpoint for close to a month. I can’t get them to care about it. I even called the sheriff of Ajo County and he said, ‘Julie, there’s no proof. We have to let the federal government decide what to do.’ ”

“Julie, he gave you good advice. We don’t have a thing to worry about. This is just some sort of preliminary investigation, and they can’t have me running around. It doesn’t matter. This is the FBI. They’re going to be fair.”

“Bob, I – ”

“Once Sam gets it all explained to them, I’ll be out of here in seconds. All our troubles are over. I’m hoping we can get back to Arizona. I liked the feeling of that desert. Arkansas is getting too crowded. Think I’d like to settle down out there in the Southwest.”

“Bob, I – ”

But he winked at her, still looking imposing in prison denims. He was manacled to the chair.

“Honey,” he said. “We don’t have a thing to worry about. We can trust the U.S. government.”

Nick swallowed. He had a little difficulty understanding.

“I – I – I don’t – ”

“Nick, for one reason and one reason only. Nick, he’s guilty,” said Howard. “Nick, he took the shot that nailed Archbishop Jorge Roberto Lopez. He’s got to pay. He – ”

“No!” said Nick. “Listen, I explained that. Howard, didn’t you read the interrogation reports? It was RamDyne. RamDyne set him up, Shreck, Payne, Dobbler, Lon Scott. They set him up. Lon Scott fired the bullet. It was a bullet that had already been through Bob’s gun so it was supposed to have Bob’s rifling on it. He was shooting from the St. Louis Cathedral, he – ”

“Nick, the cathedral is fourteen hundred yards away. Fourteen hundred fifty-one yards, we measured,” said Howard. “Nobody can hit a target at fourteen hundred yards with a.308.”

“It wasn’t a.308! It was a 200-grain Sierra bullet that Bob had already fired. They loaded it into a Holland and Holland.300 Magnum case with a ton of powder, saboted it in plastic or paper, and blew it down a barrel that had been bored out to.318 or so! Check! Check with the experts! You’ll see it’s possible. Also, I bet you could find that special barrel at Lon Scott’s house. Did you think of that? Did you check that?”

“Lon Scott died in 1965; we have his death certificate. That dead man on that mountain ridge was named James Thomas Albright, born Robert Parrish Albright.”

“No, we traced it back. The real Robert Parrish Albright died in 1939, when he was a child. That was – ”

“Nick,” said Hugh Meachum calmly, “it’s not unusual for a young man who is interested in heroes to bond to an older man, particularly a man of Bob Swagger’s courage and cunning. But Nick, the bottom line is that Bob Lee Swagger took that shot. What happened later – well, maybe he was extraordinarily heroic in this war against RamDyne. Still, it was a war among gangsters. Bob took the shot, then Leon Timmons shot him. He escaped. That’s all. RamDyne no longer exists. The Agency won’t comment on any relationships it may have had with it and you’ll never get them into a court of law because of national interest. Colonel Raymond Shreck was a difficult, complex, charismatic man. Like Bob he was a great hero once; like Bob, he was seduced by the power of the guns he loved. He may have been involved in narcotics at the end of his life, as his empire collapsed and he needed to raise money to sustain his life-style.”

“He had millions – ”

“Not that we can find,” said Howard. “What we find is a disgraced war hero who had a great run with Agency contracts in the seventies who had lost his way and was facing financial ruin. That’s all. It was a narcotics war or something. The official explanation will be that he died in a hunting accident on the first day of deer season. It doesn’t concern us. What concerns us is the immediate: Bob Lee Swagger took that shot from four hundred yards at the president of the United States from the house on St. Ann Street in the Quarter outside Louis Armstrong Park. He missed and hit Archbishop Jorge Roberto Lopez, a great man who only wanted justice for the atrocities in his native country, and was mourned the world over. It’s Murder One for Swagger. It’s the chair. That’s all.”

“No,” said Nick, desperate in his urgency to explain the obvious to these idiots, “no, you see – ”

“Nick, the evidence is simply overwhelming. His rifle, identifiable fragments of his bullet, his prints, his empty shell. He was there, he had motive, he had opportunity, he had – ”

“That’s the frame-up. They framed him. The cassette. Dobbler had a cassette of atrocities. I had Annex B! I – ”

“Nick, this Dobbler’s disappeared. We’ve had a nationwide alert out for him, and we haven’t come up with anything. He probably wandered off in the deep woods and died. Nick, we can’t even prove he was in the woods with you. There’s simply no proof. Only bizarre conspiracy theories.”

“No,” said Nick, “listen, just listen. It was a frame-up and Bob burned the Annex and the tape because he didn’t want the press twisting them. He’s a goddamned hero. He took out guys who killed kids in this country’s name and now he’s hanging himself rather than – ”

“Nick, let’s get back to reality, okay?” said the prosecutor, Kelso. “We’ve got a real deal for you. It’s more than I would have offered, but your boss here and Mr. Meachum insisted. Now you listen to it. It’s very generous, very forgiving. It’s a wonderful deal.”

“Nick, Bob is gone. Bob will never see the outside world again. He knows it and his lawyer knows it. There’s nothing you can do except save yourself,” counseled Howard.

“I can’t – ”

“Earth to Nick,” said Kelso. “Bob Lee Swagger is history. He’s finished. Only a moron couldn’t get a conviction off this overwhelming body of evidence. I’ve got a forty-six-page report from the FBI ballistics lab. I’ve got his threatening letter to the president; I’ve got the late Leon Timmons’s sworn testimony that he shot Bob Lee Swagger in the attic of a house on St. Ann’s street in New Orleans after discovering him in the act of firing the shot; and I’ve got you to testify that Bob leapt out of that building, overwhelmed you, stole your gun and your car. I’ve got him. He’s gone.”

“I – ”

“Nick, damn it, listen to me,” said Howard. “It can go two ways. One way you win; one way you lose. Those are the only possibilities. In either event, Bob is lost. Are you listening?”

Nick finally nodded.

“Number one. You are called to the stand as a cooperating witness. You are, after all, the hero of the hour. You are, after all, the FBI agent who penetrated the Bob Lee Swagger conspiracy and went underground with him – ”

“I – ”

“Shut up and listen, Nick,” said Howard. “ – who went underground with him on his trek through America, under the deception that he had been killed, which we established as a fiction after the shoot-out at the Baptist church in Blue Eye. You gained his confidence and you shared his danger, as you made certain there was no larger conspiracy. It’s one of the most brilliant undercover operations the Bureau has ever brought off, by the way, Nick. It’s your triumph – and it’s mine. Credit where credit is due. The spoils go to the victor. Then, when you were certain, you called us in, and we apprehended him. As a consequence, we closed down Raymond Shreck’s narcotics smuggling ring and eliminated close to fifty Latin gunmen, veterans of the infamous ‘Panther Battalion Massacre.’ It was quite an operation, Nick. It’ll make stars out of all of us.”

Nick just looked at him.

The “stars” line, and Howard’s transparent greed hung in the air for just a second. Then the old man, Hugh Meachum, leaned forward.

“Excuse me, Howard. I wonder if I might say one thing to Nick?”

“Of course, Hugh,” said Howard.

“Now Nick,” said Hugh. “I know how complicated all this has been for you but I’m afraid there’s yet another level of complexity that I have to put before you. I know you’ll be able to handle it.”

He smiled in a grandfatherly way that made Nick almost want to punch his old teeth out.

“Nick, I know you think you’ve seen Annex B. I know what you’re thinking: that I’m involved somehow. Perhaps you think I’m the architect of all this, that I orchestrated this whole thing, the destruction of Cuembo, the murder of the archbishop, the frame-up of Bob. Nick, it’s so dangerous where you are. You’re in the famous Wildnerness of Mirrors that is counterintelligence. I’ve seen that document. A Cuban double agent tried to peddle it to the New York Times a couple of months ago. A translated version actually saw print in a Syrian newspaper. The Japanese news agency Torakata paid thirty-five thousand dollars for a copy, then never printed it. Nick, it’s a plant. Cuban military intelligence, very crafty, very clever. That’s why it’s so dangerous when young men like you wander into these regions. This poor Lanzman who tried to reach you: he may actually have believed it or he may simply have thought that you’d believe it. Nick, it’s mischief.”

Nick looked at him.

“Mister, you’re full of – ”

“Nick, if it helps, go ahead and hate me. It doesn’t matter if you hate me. It’s allowed. But Nick, let me tell you something that isn’t allowed. You actually have an opportunity to save lives. Thousands of lives. To really make a difference in the world. It’s not allowed to stay on the sidelines and watch it happen.

“Now, you know that a Salvadoran Army unit called Panther Battalion was involved in a terrible atrocity on the Sampul River. Several hundred innocent villagers, many of them women and children, were killed. I shouldn’t tell you this, but it appears there was some American involvement in the episode. Yes, your Colonel Shreck, working for General de Rujijo. Annex B had just enough truth in it to seem convincing. But the American government had nothing to do with it. And that’s why this is a precious secret, Nick. It’s precious because it’s dangerous. If the usual enemies – the press, certain members of Congress, others on the mischievous left, sympathizers, fellow travelers, the like – Nick, if they should get ahold of that information and publicize it, they could sabotage for another five years any chances at peace in that country. Nick, think of the children who’ll die if that happens. Nick, we have a peace now. We can’t risk it.” Nick swallowed, hating the confusion in his head.

“Now the second possibility is distinctly less pleasant than the first,” said Howard. “You are subpoenaed as a hostile witness, a disgraced federal officer, now on suspension awaiting termination. You are asked very strict, limited questions about your participation in the events of March 1, 1992, in New Orleans: where you were, what you saw, how you messed up. Then you are dismissed. If Bob’s lawyer tries to cross-examine you, we’ll object to every single thing that doesn’t refer to March first and we’ll be sustained. The minute after you are done testifying, you are indicted on three counts of impersonating a federal officer. Mr. Kelso himself will prosecute, and we will bring witnesses who will absolutely nail you, Nick. You’ll do at least seven years hard time. And you won’t have done Bob a damned bit of good. You will have just thrown your life away for nothing.”

Howard sat back.

Nick then said, “Is that all?”

“No, of course it’s not all,” said Kelso. “The same day you are indicted for impersonating a federal officer, Sally Ellion is indicted for espionage – delivering classified government files to a private citizen.”

“Howard, goddammit – ”

“Shut up, Nick,” said Howard.

“Nick,” said Kelso, “I’ll prosecute that one, too. It happens to be a much more serious charge than the charge against you. You’ll be out in seven years, five with good behavior. She won’t be out for twenty.”

Nick looked at the three men.

“Howard, she didn’t do anything. She didn’t do anything. You can’t do this – ”

“You’re the one that’s doing this, Nick. Just like you put Myra in a wheelchair for the rest of her life and doomed her, now you’re going to doom Sally. Is that what you want, Nick? I had a long talk with her when she confessed everything. We have it on tape before witnesses. On top of that, the silly girl thinks she’s in love with you; you’re going to pay her for her innocence by sending her up?”

“Nick, you’ve got to make a decision. You’ve got to do what’s best for you, for Sally, and for the Bureau.”

“And for your country,” said Hugh Meachum.

“And for you, isn’t that right, Howard? And you, Hugh?”

“Nick, you’d better – ”

Nick sat back, no longer listening. He wished he could shut them up, wished he knew what to do.

You have to be your own man, make your own decisions, Bob said.

He seemed to be having a little trouble breathing. Nothing was in focus.

“Nick,” said Meachum. “We have to have a commitment from you.”

Save yourself, Nick thought.

He decided to sell Bob out. He couldn’t help him. Bob was gone. It was a pity, but that’s the way it goes. Hardball world. No prisoners. That’s life.

“Think of the Bureau, Nick,” said Howard. “Think of saving the Bureau.”

Save yourself, Nick thought.

But when he opened his mouth, what came out was, “Howard, you don’t give a shit about the Bureau. You’re not the Bureau. You’re just one scuzzy little asskisser trying to make it to the top, and you’ll fuck anybody who gets in your way, the way you fucked me in Tulsa seven years ago. I didn’t put Myra in that chair, you did, because you were so fucking scared you wouldn’t shut up on the radio. And I didn’t have the guts to stop you.”

He took a deep breath.

“And I see the last thing, too, Howard, you just bet I do. You’re on Lancer Committee! Right? Yeah, it’s exactly the kind of swank connection a political suck-up like you would go for. And for years now you’ve been slip-streaming for the Agency’s use of RamDyne, and that’s how you meet a piece of smooth-talking scum like Old Hugh over here, who authorized his pal Ray Shreck to wipe out a village and then to hit the one man in the world with the guts to stand up to it. And then framed a great American hero because it was convenient, it tied up a lot of loose ends and protected his own precious ass! And if that ever gets out, you and everybody on the Lancer Committee, you’re all finished.”

Nick stared at them. He didn’t feel particularly serene but he knew what he was going to do now. He took a deep breath, smiled and then spoke his answer.

“Well, this is where it ends. This is where you’re stopped. But let me tell you something, boys. You’re going up against the best. And many’s the time slick operators have thought they had Bob Lee Swagger nailed. And just as they moved in for the kill, he blew ’em away. He’s going to do that to you, too, and I’m going to watch it happen, and then Sally and I are going to walk out of there. Howard, here’s the bad news, buddy. You’re history. You’re the fucking past. It’s payback time. You answer for Myra and you answer for Sally and you answer for Lancer and you answer for the Sampul River and whatever the hell else you’ve done. I’m going to watch it happen. Now get the fuck out of here.”

After they left, he noticed that he couldn’t stop shaking.

Two federal marshals delivered Nick’s subpoena that afternoon, requiring him to appear at the New Orleans District Federal Courthouse two days hence for the Preliminary Hearing for Case Number 44-481, the Government v. Bob Lee Swagger. A sternly worded note appended to the sheet warned him that he was subject to arrest if he failed to appear. Half an hour later, he got a call from the U.S. Attorney’s office informing him that he wasn’t to leave the city as he was about to be indicted on three charges of impersonating a federal officer, and that he’d better get himself legal representation. And before the day was out, to bring off the hat trick, he received official notification that, for failing to show up at the suspension hearing on August 8, 1992, he was formally terminated from service in the Federal Bureau of Investigation, and was under legal obligation to therefore return any and all Bureau property before next Friday or face indictment on charges of grand theft of government property.

For some reason, that was the one that hurt most. There was no return. Howard was cutting off all the exits, preventing all possibilities. Howard was tightening the screws.

Nick returned to his little house in Metairie, mowed the lawn – which needed it badly – paid what bills he could afford, contemplated his desperate financial straits – he hadn’t drawn salary for close to three months – and contemplated his woe.

There were moments at his lowest point when he felt like calling Howard. It would be so easy and it was so tempting.

“Uh, Howard, look, I think I sort of blew it a few days ago, do you think – ”

But then he thought of Howard triumphant, Howard bleating, Howard beaming, Howard’s biggest moment. No, he couldn’t do it. He simply couldn’t make himself do it.

He knew he had to do one thing, however. He had to call Sally.

“Hello.”

“Hi. It’s me.”

“Nick – ” She was crying. “Oh, Nick, they’re telling me they’re going to charge me with espionage. Oh, God, Nick, what should I do? I didn’t do anything. How can they – ”

“Honey, listen to me, they’re bluffing. They’re trying to bump me into doing something that’ll make them look good. Howard’s probably under a lot of pressure to deliver on this thing and to protect his ass, so he’s playing it hardball. But don’t worry. I swear to you, you don’t have to worry. Trust me. They haven’t got a thing.”

Even as he said it, he cursed himself for not having the guts to tell her the truth; that they had everything, and they were going to sweep Bob and himself and her and anybody who’d ever done anything for Bob Lee Swagger away.

“What should I do?” she asked.

“Nothing, for now. Let’s see what happens at that preliminary hearing tomorrow. It’s the deal where the defense can require that the government establish that it does have a reasonable case, so that a trial date can be set. Once that’s out of the way, we’ll see where we stand.”

“Nick – ”

“Honey, I know it’s hard. But it just goes on a little longer. Do you want to come to court tomorrow? I’d be happy to take you. It’s not much of a date, but – ”

“Yes. Yes, I’d like that very much.”

That night was Nick’s worst. Worst ever. Worst since the night after Myra died. He couldn’t get to sleep until nearly three, and kept thinking of poor Sally in some federal shithole for the next twenty years, of poor Bob being strapped into a chair and blitzed away, of goddamned Howard and his pet prosecutor Kelso and that hoary old fraud Meachum riding the publicity of their triumph on to better and better things.

Senator Howard D. Utey, the man who nailed Bob the Nailer!

It put Nick into dark rage and when he finally got to sleep, his memories were haunted by Howard’s laughing little face, his smug confidence. God, Howard, you’ve dogged me ever since Tulsa.

Why didn’t you shut up on that goddamned radio?

Why didn’t I hit that shot?

Poor Myra. Poor Sally. Poor women who made the mistake of falling for Nick Memphis.

The alarm went off at seven; Nick limped grimly into the bathroom and faced his own grave self, a sallow, scrawny, melancholiac. His crew cut had grown out and the pouchiness of his face had vanished. He was thin as death, and maybe just as hard.

He showered, dressed slowly, putting on a suit for the first time in months, had a cup of coffee and then went to pick up Sally. He had $11 in his pocket and $236 in his checking account and over $4,000 in bills. Today he would be indicted on three counts of a federal felony.

Again, the impulse flew at him to call Howard.

It probably wasn’t too late.

He tried to imagine life after selling out: how nice it would be.

But then he remembered the time Tommy Montoya was forcing the gun barrel of his Colt Agent toward his head and he was a second from his own death, when Bob’s shot had come from nowhere and saved him.

Howard never saved shit. Howard only took.

Hugh Meachum only took.

Okay, Bob the Nailer, thought Nick. In for a penny, in for a pound, going to heaven, going to hell, I’m along for the ride, my friend. Here’s hoping you’ve got it today.