Princeps

13

Quaeryt had barely finished dressing on Solayi morning when the bells in their quarters rang so insistently that someone had to be yanking the bell-pull with either excessive enthusiasm or great urgency.

“Who can that be?” asked Vaelora.

“It’s not good. Not on Solayi morning.” Quaeryt turned and hurried down the private staircase to the access doors. He peered through the peephole and saw a squad leader he did not recognize standing there, most likely one on duty. Still, he raised his shields before opening the door. “Yes, Squad Leader?”

“Princeps, sir, the governor requests that you join him in his study at your earliest convenience.”

“Tell him I’ll be right there. You wouldn’t know what this is about?”

“No, sir.”

Quaeryt smiled politely and tried to use his imaging ability to project friendly and open curiosity.

“He did receive an urgent dispatch, but he didn’t say what was in it, sir.”

“Thank you.”

Quaeryt took the steps back up to their quarters two at a time and strode to their dressing room.

“What is it?”

“As I said, it’s not good. Straesyr just got a dispatch, and he wants to meet in his study immediately. The regular couriers never arrive on Solayi.”

“You’ll tell me?”

“As soon as I can. Save me some breakfast.”

“I can do that.”

Quaeryt bent over and kissed her neck, then made his way back down to the second level. When he reached the governor’s chambers, Quaeryt hurried in past the empty table desk where Undercaptain Caermyt usually sat. The governor did not rise from behind his desk, but motioned to the chairs. Straesyr was wearing an old set of winter greens, suitable for the chill of the study where the stove had not been fired up.

Quaeryt sat. “What’s the problem, sir?”

“There are several.” Straesyr’s mouth curled into a smile both sardonic and rueful. “Mount Extel … it erupted last week. A quarter of Extela is covered in lava…”

Vaelora’s grandmere’s foresight flash … Quaeryt repressed a shiver.

“… Kharst is rushing troops to Ferravyl, obviously wanting to attack if Lord Bhayar removes any forces there at present. Lord Bhayar wants you and his sister to leave immediately with Third Regiment for Extela. You’re to go to Extela and take over as temporary governor. Governor Scythn was killed by the flow of hot ash that preceded the lava. So were the princeps and most of their staff. I’m to send Second Regiment-somehow-to Ferravyl within two weeks of your departure.” He handed a single sheet of paper, sealed, to Quaeryt. “This was included for you.”

Quaeryt broke the seal and read quickly.

Quaeryt-

Extela was in chaos. I have a regiment there, but they need to return to Ferravyl before your arrival. Send a courier to Commander Zhrensyl when you’re two days away. You will be governor of Montagne province, and you and Vaelora will be my personal representatives there. Don’t neglect the safety of the people, but release as many companies from your regiment as soon as you can …

There was more, but the remainder of the missive expanded on the basic responsibilities laid on Quaeryt-and Vaelora.

“He’s sent a regiment there to keep order, but we’re to replace them, and Vaelora and I are supposed to use our presence to keep order so that most of Third Regiment can leave as soon as possible.” Quaeryt paused. “You probably knew that already.”

“In general terms.”

“How soon are we leaving?”

“Mardi-if it doesn’t snow.”

“I’ll send a messenger to Raurem and tell him to deliver whatever he can tomorrow. The rest can go for Second Regiment…”

For almost a glass, the two discussed what arrangements had to be made and which of them would do what.

Then Quaeryt headed back up to Vaelora to inform her before he went to deal with everything else.

Vaelora jumped up from where she sat at the table. “What did he want?”

“To tell me that your grandmere was right. He didn’t put it-”

“She was right about what?”

“You’ll need to pack up everything that will fit on a mount and in one trunk. Mount Extel erupted…” Quaeryt went on to explain.

When he paused, Vaelora asked, “What about the people? How many people were hurt?”

“A quarter of Extela was destroyed. Hundreds, perhaps thousands, are missing. They’re likely dead, especially with the flooding.”

“Flooding? In winter? Oh … the heat melted-”

“All the snow and ice at once,” he finished.

“Those poor people…” mused Vaelora. “That was what Grandmere said would happen.”

“Was she always right?”

“That was the only vision I know of that had not come to pass when she died. I don’t know what Bhayar expects of us…”

“I don’t know what we can do, either … but your brother expects us to make things better.”

“You’ll think of something.”

“We’ll think of something. Remember … your brother insisted you come, too.” He shook his head. “On top of it all, I need to give a homily at services tonight.”

“What?” Vaelora’s voice rose just slightly.

“I promised Phargos I would give one homily-just one-before I left Tilbora.”

“Oh … dearest…” Vaelora shook her head. “Do you know what you’ll say?”

“No … but I’ll think of something.”

“I’m sure you will.” She smiled. “I’d like to hear it as well.” The smile vanished. “One trunk?”

Quaeryt shrugged. “Do you want your brother’s soldiers commenting on how you carried everything you had in a supply wagon?”

“How much are you taking?”

“I think I can fit almost everything I own in an officer’s kit bag.” Tightly.

Vaelora made a face. “I can do the same with one trunk. If I can find one.”

“If you can’t, I’ll get two kit bags for you.”

“Go!” The single word was delivered with mock gruffness. “Do what you must.”

“I need to eat something, first.”

“Oh … I forgot. There’s plenty left.”

Quaeryt ate the cold omelet and the bread, if smeared liberally with a quince jelly that was so tart it was just short of bitter. Then he headed for his study to compose messages and try to begin to do what Straesyr had delegated to him.

Amid his efforts to make the arrangements for their departure, Quaeryt did locate Phargos, several glasses later, actually in the anomen.

“The word is that you and Third Regiment will be leaving in the next day or so.”

“Mardi morning, if it’s not storming.” Quaeryt paused. “I made you a promise…”

“I hope you intend to keep it.” Phargos grinned. “I was worried about the homily for this evening anyway.”

“I will.” But you may well worry about the homily after it’s delivered.

After he left the anomen, Quaeryt returned to his various tasks, eventually getting back to his and Vaelora’s quarters in time to eat and then for the two of them to make their way to the anomen for services.

They stood near the front, but to one side through the first part of the service.

When it came time for the homily, Phargos did not step up to the pulpit, but stood in the middle of the sacristy and began to speak. “As all of you know, Princeps Quaeryt will be leaving with Third Regiment. So I thought it would be fitting for him to deliver the homily this evening.” Phargos offered a benevolent smile.

As Quaeryt turned to move to the pulpit, the first time he’d actually delivered a homily from there, he did catch the glimpse of an almost impish expression on the regimental chorister’s face. Without being excessively slow, he moved to the pulpit deliberately, then stood there for several moments before speaking, in Bovarian, as was the custom at the anomen in the Telaryn Palace.

“Under the Nameless, all evenings are reckoned as good, but, unhappily, at times, we all have our doubts about that reckoning.” After delivering that phrase as wryly as he could, he paused slightly. He could see several nods and heard a rueful chuckle before he went on. “The reason Third Regiment is leaving Tilbora early is that there is great destruction in Extela. Mount Extel erupted and destroyed much of the city. I doubt most seriously that many in Extela feel that this is a good evening. Nor would many of thoughtful mind have said that the Solayi following the fall of the last hill hold was especially good, not with all the deaths and the agonizing injuries. Yet all evenings under the Nameless are good … so it is said.

“Well … certainly being able to be alive and well enough to see the evening is better than the alternative, but is that what is meant by a good evening? Is mere survival enough to make the evening good? There’s certainly nothing I’ve read or heard that makes such a claim. Nor has the Nameless whispered in my ear and said, ‘All evenings are good because I said so.’ And, while it may be personal vanity on my part, somehow I don’t think that the Nameless would say that. I’m going to go out on a limb-or stand at the edge of a cliff, if you will, in this storm that we call life and say that what is meant by those words is something quite different from the simple meaning we hear in them.” Quaeryt paused again.

“What if … what if those words really mean that all evenings are good because we have the ability to discern between what is good and what is not? That we have the capability to choose between a course of good or a course of evil or a course somewhere in between. Now … some will say that the Nameless has the power to do anything, and question why evil things happen to good people, especially evil things not made by people. In one way or another, we choose whether to fight, as do those against whom we fight, but no one chooses to have a mountain explode and kill them or their family. Yet … let me put the question in another way. What value, what integrity, would lie in life if the Nameless mandated and ordered life in such a fashion that there were no evils … of any sort? Or even a world where evildoers were struck down by lightning or plague sent by the Nameless? Could it be that all evenings are good, because each one offers us the possibility of affirming what we are and what we can be at our best?

“If there were no evil … could there be good? And what would that good be worth? Could it be that the good of every evening is that we are granted the power to choose what course we will follow, to make of ourselves what we can…”

When he finished, he surrendered the pulpit to Phargos for the concluding hymn and benediction.

Vaelora slipped up to Quaeryt after the service, but said nothing as Phargos approached.

“I can see that you don’t mind touching the most fundamental questions,” observed the chorister. “Yet I did notice that you did not actually affirm that there is a Nameless.”

“I tried not to. I honestly don’t know if the Nameless exists. I can’t proclaim what I don’t know.”

“That’s the beauty of faith.”

“No … that is faith. Whether faith is beauty depends on whether the Nameless exists.”

Phargos shook his head. “If you were young and had not seen what you have seen, Princeps, I would say that you did not understand the need for faith. But you have seen and endured much, and you have clearly felt the agony of others. So I will say nothing except that you will either break the world or it will break you.”

“I doubt I will break the world, and it does not have to break me.”

Phargos smiled softly, sadly. “We will see, Princeps.” He turned to Vaelora. “You have graced us, Lady, and may you grace others as well.”

Vaelora inclined her head. “Thank you.”

Neither Quaeryt nor Vaelora spoke until they left the anomen and were walking across the courtyard in a blustery wind.

“You worry him,” said Vaelora.

“I doubt that I worry him. He likes me, and he’s concerned that my lack of faith in the Nameless will leave me bereft when times and life turn against me, as they likely will.” And have in the past.

“Will it?”

Quaeryt laughed briefly, almost sardonically. “To me, it is obvious that if there is a Nameless, that deity does not interfere one way or the other in the lives of men and women. Life may indeed break me. Who can say what will happen? But if broken I become, life and the deeds of men and women will break me, not a lack of faith in a deity that leaves us to our own devices.…”

Vaelora reached out and squeezed his hand, and they continued walking through the cold wind.