Aura Kyle puts her father’s best shoes in her lap. He wore these shoes when he acted as a driver for Mrs. Pfizer, which he did with greater regularity in the last years of his life. A dark walnut color, the shoes are glossy with his care — they could be mistaken for new. Someone else would gladly wear them, but Aura knows she will not give her father’s shoes to anyone. Heart hobbled at the end, her quiet father yielded of necessity and put aside his job and his uniform — the green shirt with the EBS stitching, the pin with his name, Dan Carter. Dan Carter, one of the many Carters in Hancock County, now wore clothes better suited for a salesman, though he was largely unemployed. At home and short of breath, he sat at the card table, sat for hours every afternoon making toothpick ashtrays and pencil holders. In a better world her father would have died at the card table in rolled sleeves and good shoes; instead, he died seated on a crate in the middle of the frozen lake. Ice fishing! Gone alone, he must have known what he was risking, but why had his wife let him go? Aura’s mother called the boys for a search party before she remembered he had told her his intentions, yet she had let him go knowing, as she must have known, the icy air would kill him.
The father Aura remembers sat at the kitchen table polishing his shoes — these shoes, cold and heavy in her lap. The shoe trees preserve their shape and cork the ominously stained linings. It must have hurt to wear these shoes, but anyone finding him in an accident on the road would think he was a salesman, if not a banker, when all along her father was a man who liked to fix motors and get greasy. Ed Kyle is a dirt man and Aura is wed to him and can say, not without astonishment, that she has known him for fifty years, forty-four of which they have been married.
Aura and Ed Kyle have a daughter, named Nancy, who lives with a man from Brewer. They don’t want to marry. Rick’s divorced, already has kids, doesn’t want any more. His children call Nancy Nancy. Why can’t they call Nancy something affectionate? That way, they might call Aura something; that way, she would be more to them than what she is now, which is what?
A puffball granny in a rickracked house or a crone in a perfume of soup, laundry baskets stacked in the back of the truck, full of sheets hardly slept in by folks on zigzagging routes — Rockport, Belfast, Stonington, Acadia. The ghosts of them, those guests, who crackled up the gravel drive at night, expected, waylaid strangers. Once, a small woman, not so young, drove in, high beams wheeling into the outraged woods on her noisy approach. She was traveling with a German shepherd who slept in the car. The car was the dog’s crate, she explained, early the next morning after she had walked him down the drive, along the edge of the woods. Duke or Buck, he was a savage-looking muscle with an oily coat, a prodigious defecator and marker — piss-bleached holes in the modest lawn. His owner left the car windows down. Did the big dog rove? The small woman and her dog didn’t stay long enough for Aura to find out much. The small woman, who could have used a breakfast, skipped it.
What was that all about do you suppose?
And the two fat men who sang for their breakfast? Ed said he didn’t know where to look when they started singing a medley at the table: the sentimental journey song and the other one, with the “yangy sound,” Ed calls it. “Sunshine, you are my sunshine, you make me happy. .” All and all, she and Ed have had some very nice guests. The two fat men in matching sherbet colors, lime and mango, they said, were harmonizers, barbershop type.
Aura surprises herself sometimes with what she knows. Barbershop quartets, for instance, she has never seen one but on TV.
An actress stopped once for a week engagement at the opera house. Three nights she stayed. The actress had rich friends nearby, but a B & B was as close to a home of any kind as she would ever get, which was pretty much all she said. She didn’t have time to take the boat to Rockport or hike or bike in Acadia. Lobster was all she knew of Maine. The actress was funny on TV but not in life. She was one of those who didn’t like to talk at breakfast but gestured for coffee and black toast, no butter.
That visit had made Aura sad, and a couple, earlier in the summer, crying — or the girl crying — had astonished her. Easy to be awed by extravagant suffering or bitterness — look at her own over her father and his disappointed life — but joy or the quiet delight Aura once saw in the softened face of a woman who knew she was watched even as she ate, watched and admired, to witness such affection of one for another, to see the kinder moments as she has, and Ed has, too, this was all and enough. Ed often acts surprised, not so much by her observations as by the thing itself — heart or goodness or whatever a person wants to call it. Plants, he has said, are nicer. And that’s true, but, oh, she lets herself be teased; he likes to nettle her, she knows, which is another way to love.
The breakfast that comes with a night at the Wax Hill B & B includes vegetables and fruits from the garden. Yesterday she served a couple from Minnesota grilled tomatoes topped with browned bread crumbs along with bacon and sunny-side eggs. She doesn’t squeeze oranges; she doesn’t go that far — no fresh juice, just Tropicana, but Aura’s mother! Every morning the woman found the time to give her husband and children four ounces of fresh orange juice. Sausages and powder biscuits were also a part of their diet. No wonder, her father’s heart. Aura’s parents were long married, too, and met in the same way in high school. Her mother taught sixth grade — spelling tests and prepositions, long division, Greek myths.
The Greeks, her mother told her, valued hospitality. For eating rather than feeding his guests, the one-eyed giant Polyphemus lost his eye. Pious mortals who stick to the code fare better. Like the poor old couple — what were their names? — who offered all of what they had for the comfort of gods in disguise: the best chair, their last chicken, the cask of wine now sour but the gods make it sweeter. In the end, the old couple are granted any wish — and this is the tender part of the story Aura’s mother loved and she does, too — the old couple say we have lived so long together, let neither of us ever have to live alone. Grant that we may die together. So it is that in dying they have only enough time to cry, “Farewell, dear companion,” before they turn into trees, a linden and an oak, sprung from one trunk.