Rails Under My Back

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LONG BEFORE JESUS ENTERED THE WORLD, blades of southern grass sliced up the soles of his grandmother’s feet. Her blood leaped from the danger, drew back into the farthest reaches of her heart, and the roots of her soul pulled away from the sharp earth which had nurtured her. But nothing escapes the laws of gravity. We martyr to motion. In step with the flowing sweep of her garments, an undercurrent of rhythm, she cut the final strings of attachment, her children, and on a rich spring day cut a red path to New Mexico — what business had a nigger there; New Mexicans had yet to invent the word — for a man eternally bound to a rakish fedora, his sweet face like a mask beneath it, pinstripe suit, diamond horseshoe tiepin, and two-toned patent-leather shoes. Drawn by the power of nostalgia—Hold infinity in the palm of your hand and eternity in an hour—she swept back two years later without a word about her lover, the father of R.L., her oldest child. A decade later he would be thrown through the windshield of his sparkling green (red?) Edsel (Eldorado?) — the squeal before the thud, the skid after — his decapitated body slipping the surly bonds of earth, sailing kitelike over a California highway, arcing over and beyond a thicket of treetops, to touch the face of God. Jesus was convinced that her exodus had strangled any impulse her surviving children — his mother and aunt — had to get close to her, and had ripped open his life, for an eye, like a shattered mirror, multiplies the images of its sorrow. The years only deepened the sorrow his family had in common. Even a hatred like hot ice could not halt destiny.

Jesus thought he could never recover from his grandmother’s betrayal. While his mother and aunt had long purged their thoughts and feelings of the act — it escaping through the back of their heads, into space — it continued to haunt him, a wallet photograph that he carried everywhere. He moved with a sort of amazement in the world, anger fueling the furnace of his heart. With ceremonial rigidity, each day he wore red, symbol of his unflagging fury.

He leaned over and spit. The saliva held and gleamed, suspended, rust-flecked, then curved down to the pavement. Crashed, sizzled, and cooled. A red coin. He leaned over to pick it up, but the coin refused his touch. Sirens sailed into the sky, a spiral of red sound. He drew himself erect. A strip of white asphalt stretched hot before him. He walked. Only his brain moved. Tall earth-rooted wrought-iron fences hovered before a cluster of houses. And beyond the fences, black and green rhythm of trees. Trees full of birds, plentiful as leaves. The vapor-kissed spires and steeples of North Park. The sky in fanning torches and soaring flames. And heavy white clouds hovering, flying saucers. The street opened into a broader one, the space between two massive rows of skyscrapers black with a continuous throng, two busy streams of ants. He walked with long scissors stride for Lawrence Street, where he would catch the train to South Lincoln. The cradle of the week, the sunny street filled with competitive radios, anxious engines, car horns, hawking of wares, footsteps, and conversation — disembodied voices — a kiss blown from the lips of the square, floating, rising, and hanging above it. The sidewalk steamed with city sprinklers pulsing wet rhythm. Jesus sang:

Shine went below deck, eating his peas

Til the water come up to his knees.

He felt air currents from the movement of cars, shoes, skirts. Rumble and rustle tingling the blood in his rubber-soled feet. Suits and ties and skirts and heels were beginning to change color in the spring heat. A constant weight in their faces, the suits and ties lugged briefcases, newspapers tucked under the left arm. The skirts and heels sported ankle socks and gym shoes—tennis shoes, his grandmother called them — as if they gon shoot some b-ball in the office, arc crumpled bills (fives, tens, twenties) into steel wastebaskets. Cut a V for the express train into Central, slowed somewhat by purses bulging with thick paperback novels. A flyer curved around a lamppost: MOTHERFUCK THE WAR! A hang-tailed hound jogged out of an alley — Jesus hoped he would stray within range — and past a knot of beggars hunched over in a corner doorway, rained-on ghosts.

Kind sir, could you—

Hell nawl. Jesus did not pause in his walking. Get a job.

Go to hell and take yo mamma wit you, just for company.

Jesus kept walking.

Cheap nigga.

Jesus kept walking.

Goofy-looking motherfucka.

Bitch, Jesus said, stopping, turning at the beggar, facing the spit-thickened beard. Wash the fart out yo draws. He continued on.

He hadn’t gone far when stench stopped him. Eighth and Lawrence, the subway entrance — A blind man could find it. Follow your nose—a funky mouth, with worn, broken, and dirty stairs like neglected teeth, descending to a dark throat. The subway breathed him in. He tugged at his ear, his fingers rough against the diamond there. He knew all about the purse and chain snatchers who rode the trains. Rough niggas versed in all tricks of the trade, killin, stealin, and gankin to get paid. Once, he saw a thief hack off a woman’s earlobes with a straight razor to loot her diamond earrings. The thief wiped the blood from his razor onto her blouse, slowly and smoothly, as if buttering a bread slice, and Jesus wondered if the woman screamed from the sight of blood, from the pain, or from the sensation of reaching for her lobes to discover they were no longer there.

He had heart, a lot of it — fires could not burn it, water could not drown it, winds could not bend it — and would sport his jewelry. He thought: Cutthroats. Praise them. Got to have heart to cut mine out. But ain’t nobody gon fuck wit me. Jesus Jones. They are clay. I am stone.

Two rails of level steel, the only clean things in the subway, ran from the darkness at one end of the tunnel into the darkness at the other end, ran over the piles of filth that filtered down from the street two levels above. Two rails that glittered like silver needles in the darkness, awaiting the shiny thimble of train.

A dark pulse at a distance. Jesus could feel it under his feet. He saw pale light, then deep shadow, then glistening train, train that came boring out of the tunnel, bellowing in the distance. Carrying distance to him. The doors opened quick and noisy like a switchblade. Jesus slipped inside the silver sleeve. Muscled a window seat, the window black, nothing to see, metal brightness around him. Suits and ties rested their briefcases across their laps. Skirts and heels parked with their legs crossed. Then, fresh motion. The train moved over greased tracks, a steady rumbling beneath the floor, the car shaking from side to side. The black subway tunnel was a hollow subterranean string stretching under Tar Lake and joining North Park and Central. And the car, an aquarium with passengers for fish. Better yet, a reverse aquarium, with the fish kept in and the water out.

Jesus curled up in his seat, jacket draped across his shoulders, neck, and chest, baby-snug. The car was cold, cutting to the bone. Lucky he had worn his thick socks. Still, the cold bit through; he shivered, a pinned butterfly. The train swept along the curve of a blind river (one of the city’s twelve). Long after the curve had passed from vision, it boomeranged back, remained imprinted on his inner eyes, two spinning black half-moons. He liked double-decker trains and wished this were one. Kind sticks to kind. But you almost never saw them in the city anymore. Only in the suburbs. Every summer, the family — you, your cousin Hatch, and your aunt Sheila — used to board a silver double-decker for West Memphis, where Lula Mae live, riding high above the rails, your thermos heavy with cold soda pop, and fried chicken stuffed in a greasy shoebox, the aroma strong enough to haunt future passengers for years to come, odors of food and rhythm of rails. Eat that chicken, then lie back fat in your seat, gazing out the window. High hills rolled all the way to the horizon. Scraggly trees like squirrel tails. Cows still as stones. Each rail tie demands attention. The conductor would shout out a litany of stops. And you and Hatch would get happy.

Stop all that jumpin like monkeys in the jungle, Sheila said. You know better. Show some home training. Do that again and I’ll beat the living daylights outa you right here on this train.

Lula Mae would be waiting at the station, accompanied by a redcap. A woman thick in the waist, taking up space. Tall, commanding vision from a toadstool of height. A creature of no color, so pale many believed her an albino. You were afraid of her white skin, the smell, the touch. Feared her black snakelike veins. And the figured scars on her calves. Ole cotton patch. Crazy Junebug giggled giggled at her calves. Ole cotton patch. Tar baby. Tar baby.

She saw you and kindled instantly. Over here! Waving. Go get their bags.

Yes’m. The redcap rushed forward. Loaded the suitcases onto his cart.

Give yo granny a hug. The thorny hairs on her bosom snatched you before you could comply or decline.

Lula Mae?

Yes.

Why you don’t shave them hairs?

Meanness rooted up in the black veins of her neck. Cause they only gon grow back longer.

Come switching time, she would make you go out to the yard and strip your own branch of leaves. Whip the hard branch soft against your hard-headed behind. Whip your butt and legs with the ease of a conducter waving his baton. After a thorough switching, sweat greased the creases of her face. But if she had no energy to switch, if exhaustion had sunk into her bones, she settled for a quick open hand slap across your chops. Water would dam at the back of your tongue, a multitude of days threatening to spill out. You ran out the house and escaped to the red gravel road. Found there, frogs hard and flat as soda pop cans in the desiccating sun. So you would kick them — metal sound, scraping across the sunbaked road — or, if your fingers had heart, pick them up and fling them, Frisbee fashion, bouncing and skipping like a pebble on water.

BUT JOHN GAVE IT TO ME. For my birthday.

Yeah. His daddy gave it to him. My Uncle John gave it.

I turn seven.

I don’t care if Jehovah himself give it to you, Lula Mae said. Take that scorpion outa here.

He ain’t no scorpion, Hatch said. He a chameleon, a lizard.

Houston got scorpions look jus like lizards.

This ain’t Houston.

Lula Mae drew back her hand. I don’t stand for no back talk. Sheila might, but I don’t. Now take that scorpion outa here.

You and Hatch carried Dogma the chameleon out to the red gravel road.

He get crushed, you said.

No he won’t. He a chameleon.

So?

He can change color. Red. The color of the road.

You laughed. What good that gon do him?

He be invisible. Cars can’t see him.

STOP THAT CHUNKIN! Lula Mae screamed.

Damn! Can’t have no fun!

Yeah. No fun.

Lula Mae was tight on you, shoes. Watchin you hard and hateful from her brick porch. You could see her eyes, looming, though the road was several hundred feet away. Preacher eyes trying to burn the devil out of you. The sun looks through your western window. Carries the record of human deeds to the Lord each night. Legs might escape her body — run to the yellow field across the road, high grass tall and safe, or so you thought — but nothing could escape her eyes. Even when you climbed high in a tree — a yolk sun cooking the sky, burning and blinding you, with cool air singing in the branches — her high-flying eyes would find you. Hurtful eyes that followed you everywhere, rocks in your shoe.

Stop all that runnin! Yall catch heatstroke. Her skin was transparent under the sun, revealing a red tracery of veins. She snapped open her umbrella. Held back the day with her body, scraps of sky peering in past her arms and trickles of light at her feet. She started into the road, red gravel crunching underfoot. You and Hatch followed behind her.

Why yall walkin behind me! Gon up there where I can keep an eye on you.

Small houses, kin to Lula Mae’s, lined both sides of the road and Lula Mae greeted the occupants one and the same.

How you duce?

Fine.

Alright. How you duce?

Fine.

Alright.

Entered the barbershop, a bare floor, dust and splinters, a single white cloth apron draped across a single red leather chair, and a black plastic comb submerged — pickled — in a container of green alcohol, causing you to recall Lula Mae’s false teeth at the bottom of a water-filled mason jar.

These here my grandsons. Cut them nice. Start wit the red one first.

The barber positioned you in the chair, pinned the apron behind your neck, and set to work. You sat there under the buzzing weight of the clippers, eyes peeling motion, a circle of red hair at the circular base of the barber’s chair, skin from an apple. Then the barber resuscitated the drowned comb. Grabbed a fistful of grease. Set to work. There, he said.

Look nice, Lula Mae said. Real nice.

You fidgeted in the chair to chance a glance in the mirror. Your red hair: high and crenellated, a rooster’s comb.

THE DOORS CRACKED OPEN LIKE BONES. Federal Station. First stop in Central. The car emptied. Jesus sneezed, coughed, Lula Mae’s suffocating odor on his skin. Her rhythm inside him, is what he is. Ill will persisted in his blood. Someday — the promise stagnating, unstirred — he would pay her a little visit, yes, surprise her. Surely, she would stop in the middle of whatever she was doing, caught in his thick, molten rage. What would she say? Do? Invite him to her bosom, that valley of thorns? What would he say? Say anything at all, other than to pronounce sentence? What would he do? What could satisfy him, right the ancient wrongs? A white smothering pillow? A knife clean between the ribs? A shower of stones? A quick spray of gunfire and hot bullets bubbling the flesh? Or something slow? The body straining against a thick pony-tail length of rope, the pulley creaking, and the feet and legs lowering into a leech-filled well? Today might be the day. Board a train for West Memphis. Better yet, fly down there swift as thought and serve a death sentence.

Doors shut, closing the world out. He exhaled, expelling the rage, eased back in his seat, and tried to relax. He still had a long ride ahead. A long ride. All the way to South Lincoln. Red Hook. Two hundred blocks. Four hundred. Who could say? But nothing better to do today. Might as well chill with No Face the Thief. Puff live. He even toyed with the idea of taking No Face under his wing and schooling him. Thinking this with last night in mind.

YOU CAME ALL THE WAY from Red Hook to find me? Jesus tightened his one-handed grip on the steering wheel, strangling a snake to bring it under control, let it know who’s boss.

You the man, No Face said from the back seat.

The words, like the vibration of a silver wire, sent a glow of light into Jesus’s heart. Oh yeah?

Yeah. No Face pressed his face close to the back of Jesus’s shoulder, close enough to kiss him. Jesus could smell his sewer breath and hear his heavy elastic breathing, which came and snapped back, came and snapped back. That’s what they say.

No Face pinched the Buddha’s unlit end and offered it to Jesus. Jesus took the hot end between thumb and forefinger and watched No Face in the rearview mirror. The dark magnified every detail. Jesus didn’t look anything like No Face the Thief and was proud of it. No Face resembled a baited fish someone had snatched from the line and thrown back into the water. Short dreads like dynamite fuses. Face a ravaged landscape of dark hollows, craters and caves where the flesh had collapsed in on the bone. A checker-thick black eye patch. Word, nigga poured acid into his eye to win a bet. A nappy mustache, round nose boogers. Uneven brown teeth deep in his gums, ancient ruins. He tried to move near you when he spoke. You’d move and he’d move closer. You’d move again and so would he. Jesus trained his eyes back on the road. Hungry feelers, headlights searched the night. He took a long and slow suck on the Buddha; red warmth spread through his body; the streetlights brightened, then gleamed in full glory.

That’s what they say.

Why they say that? Jesus looked at No Face, so clear a moment ago, now a small black oval on the rearview mirror. He turned his eyes back to the road. Aimed the unlit end of the Buddha at No Face’s voice. No Face took it. Jesus smelled the seashells of No Face’s armpits. Considered lowering the window to let the night in. But a frail yellow moon stuck to the windows and sealed them.

You know. No Face took a long toke, a deep sea diver sucking at the mouth of his Aqua-Lung.

Motion hummed a wave through Jesus. He and No Face floated in white space. Floated. He lowered his head, ducking danger — the car’s angled hood.

That’s what they say.

From what they say, Jesus said, you the man. Everybody knew No Face the Thief. Knew his rep. Bandit. Robbin folks wit his finger stuck inside a dirty paper bag.

Me? I’m jus a young brother strugglin in stride. No Face watched Jesus with his one bright headlight of an eye.

Where’s the Buddha? The wheel was easy in Jesus’s hands. He barely had to touch it. The bobbing headlight beams curved, pulled the car around a corner, and hit another car in the distance.

Ain’t no mo.

Jesus heard the ashtray click open, then close.

You want me to fire up another one?

Nawl. I’m straight.

Got plenty.

You the man.

I work hard.

The curb curved the car in. Eighth and Lawrence. Like to see a brother tryin to do sumpin fo himself, Jesus said. Not like these knuckleheads hangin on the corner. He pointed to one or two of them, hardly motioning, his hand still on the steering wheel.

I work hard.

I bet you do. Yo, I’ll holler at you.

Want some more of this good blow. Check me anytime. We’ll have a session.

Bet.

Anytime.

Stonewall? He didn’t have to ask.

No Face laughed a spiral up Jesus’s spine. You don’t know me from Adam. I’m from Red Hook. I represent. Red Hook. First building. Seven-oh-seven.

Bet.

No Face extended his hand over the seat cushion. Jesus shook it without turning around. Where I say?

I remember.

Can you find it?

Jesus laughed. I can find anything. The engine ignited. Sparks fired from twig to branch and made the car glow.

Jesus spoke to himself. Hope he don’t start geekin. I probably shouldn front this nigga, but you always need some sucka willin to work cheap.

THE FLASH CAUSED A NEW FLOW, waves of people crashing through the doors. Union Station. Subway, not the distance-seeking trains stories above. Downtown. The Loop. Now, the Loop-jammed train would follow Central River, the spine up Central’s back. He heard voices. Laughter. Halfway there. Halfway. 707. The first building. The first from where? He didn’t let it worry him. Can’t be too hard to find. He stretched his legs, exhaling to drag out what dragged inside, and smelled the sweet burn of pain. The residue of urban moonshine bit his stomach and pumped acid through his body. With the pain came a warmth, a shimmer, a pulse, a new brightness, haze. His sight blew a hole in itself. Shut down his eyes. Darkness.

He loved darkness. Shapes moved across the interior screens of his lids. Funny how the shut eye could fill with dark water, a well, where shadows and shapes swam, and empty circles floated like life rafts. He couldn’t quite get the effect now. So he opened his eyes to the stares of the other commuters. Gave them his hardest look. As a child (seven, he figured), he saw a motion picture about a group of blond children who channeled destructive power through their stares. (Their eyes were probably blue, but that was before Gracie and John owned a color TV, or perhaps the movie was in black and white.) For weeks, he’d stood before the mirror trying to get that glow. And now, ten years later, he still had not mastered it, but he mustered enough power to send the eyes of the other passengers running for cover. He extended his long legs and put his kicks on the seat in front of him. Darkness made deep mirrors of the windows. His reflection stared back at him. Shaved head sparkled with sun, even the veins at his temples radiant as cables. He liked it that way, bullet-smooth, streamlined, straight and accurate. Shaved it every day with a straight razor. (Looking down on the very crown of his head, one would see faint black lines, like a claw print. He wore his scars proudly.) A slit of mouth. A thin pipe of neck. Clay-colored skin. Red freckles like dried blood. The naked razors of his long thin lips. The sharp angles of his jawline. The tentative touches of a red beard. Ears that stuck out antennae-like. And the big eyes, visionary and alert.

The train broke out of the darkness, rose at the sky. Jesus saw it with his body. Through the window, sunlight struck a glancing blow against his cheek. He followed the sun into himself. The car shook from side to side as if trying to rouse him awake. He opened the suction caves of his eyes. A constant stream of images rushed past the window: the cuts and valleys of the river (another one of the city’s twelve), angles of sail jutting from water into sky, row upon row of three-story buildings — yes, he let his sight multiply — cluster upon cluster of projects, and an occasional house. A small bathtub toy of a boat puffed gray bubbles of smoke as it angled through Tar Lake — still today, motionless — pushing water before it and tugging a huge ship behind. He laid his head back on the dusty seat and felt the sun getting hot on his shoulders and neck.

A red roar. The train spit him onto the elevated platform a mile from Red Hook, the closest it could take him. With a dull gleam of clanking metal, it pulled away from the station, the wooden planks under his feet humming and vibrating. He stood on his perch and watched and waited. Double distance. Sight took solid shape reaching to his brain. The city hung enduring. Central and South Lincoln and a river stringing them together. He sought an exit. No silk thread of elevator to lower him through the web of scaffolding down to the street below. Instead, a twine of stairs, unraveling strands of metal that spiraled up from the street. He piloted these stairs, three flights.

In patient black lines and arrows, a bus sign mapped his journey. Yes, the bus could deliver him to Red Hook. But he wanted — needed — to complete the final leg of the journey on foot. It’s about heart. He walked.

Streets gaping and torn with road work. Birds still as shadows. Swift-moving clouds. A haze of sunlight. He rubbed his eyes, which burned from being closed, and cleaned dry ash from his throat. One-eyed beer bottles poked from grass, watching him. Heat radiated in a circular fashion throughout his body. He moved carefully under the shocked eye of the sun, a calf trying out new legs. Engines erupted, rousing dogs in an alley, barking in the shadows, then the sun snuck into the alley and a dog bursted bright, chasing a light-winged pigeon. Scoped Jesus with ears erect, a TV antenna. Jesus hoped the dog would stray into distance. It did not. Jesus kicked a pop can and sent it clattering. At the end of the block, a wino lay curled up in a doorway, vomit rolling like lava down his lips.

Long time since Jesus had seen vomit like that. Long time. (How many years ago? Count them.) Decatur. Great-aunt Beulah, Lula Mae’s sister, was bedridden after a heart attack. Her wasted frame barely made a ripple in the sharp-white hospital sheets (not remembered mounds of yellow flesh propped against her home pillows), plastic tubes following the lines of her throat, moving toward the curve of her slow-breathing chest, then trailing off. And John — this man he knew as his father, wild in the face, sensing the stuff in Jesus and Hatch, their young blood purring, gurgling, lifted high, struggling to be heard — John snuck Jesus and Hatch from under the hopeful eyes of the family into the morning, the sun’s bare ribs poking through the clouds, Jesus and Hatch perched in the back seat of John’s gold Park Avenue, a huge ship of a car. They went burning up the straight lines and smooth planes of the highway, John driving with perfect ease, one hand on the steering wheel, or no hands at all, using his knees (didn’t need no guardrail to keep the car on track with John squeezing the steering wheel between his knees, narrowing the highway, making it skinny) or chest (man and machine leaning as one toward Kankakee); he and Dave (his main man, running buddy, kin by marriage, adopted blood) would hold contests, one steering while blindfolded, then the other steering with his nose, teeth, or chin, or toes; and one eye on the rearview mirror, yes the rearview mirror where Jesus’s baby boots once dangled white — somebody had stolen them, along with John’s radio and the whitewall tires — and kicked to the motion and speed, dancing; and the highway unraveling like a bandage, a narrow road darkened by trees and underbrush, the car rushing and bouncing, and him swaying to the motion — the two of you stuck your hands out of the open window, feeling the air rush past — his stomach sucking in against itself. John would wheel the car off the road and into every bare field, free of cornstalks, bearing down fast on hip-hopping hares, trying to run them out onto the road, but no luck, since rabbits were spasm-quick, breaking from one clump of brush to another, running for the high grass, thickets, the trees, just escaping by the skin of their buck teeth, and John tiring of the hunt; and thirsty, charting a course — the Kankakee River following and flowing beside the road, the river in his memory flowing brown, heavy, and slow (slow cause John never speeded inside city limits), always there, always working, never tiring, like Lucifer, my uncle, so-claimed — to a liquor store, over in Kankakee cause Decatur was a dry county then, and John bought bottles and bottles of gin, bottles and bottles of tonic water, John mixing drinks for the three of them, potent drinks in plastic cups, and they drank in the dense shadows of the pear trees — fourteen trees, count em, where they felled fruit with broom handles to satisfy hunger and adventure — in Beulah’s backyard, leaves like thin fingers of cloud, a wandering smell of wetness, drinking through the afternoon and into the night, he and Hatch playing musical chairs but without music, without chairs, until Hatch babbled something about blacks in Africa being short on corn bread, and he, short on ham hocks; then it came, someone pulled the chairs from under their stomachs, it came, pink, flowing, stinking, he and Hatch taking turns, their stomachs rebelling, John laughing all the while, carrying them to the car, black John invisible in the night, diamond ring sparkling on the steering wheel. They couldn’t have been more than thirteen.

He and Hatch were close then, the very name Hatch as familiar and comforting as his own. They were related by blood, and though they differed in shade — he as yellow as sunlight on an open field, and Hatch, evening shadow — he could see in his cousin some trace of his grandmother’s appearance. Kin in will and act. Cutting the fool with John. John, bet you can’t catch us! John chased them round and round the courtyard, them running on three-, four-, five-, six-year-old legs, their screams lifting from the mouth of the copper-filled fountain. You boys scream like girls! John said, chasing them, but actually restraining himself, moving slow, cause his short bulldog legs contained a terrible momentum, the blurred speed of hot pistons. Close then. Double-teaming John on the basketball court. (John always won.) Cutting the fool in church, propelling their farts with paper fans. Or pitching and batting in the living room with a broom handle and a rolled-up pair of socks. And basketball with a bath sponge and lampshades for hoops. Standing tall in the swings, the chains tight in the tunnels of their hands, pumping their legs and knees, carrying the swings in arcs above the ground, slanting into the sky, the chains shaking and creaking. Pedaling their bikes with slim strong ankles, pedaling, fast eggbeaters, guiding the bikes zigzag through the streets, wind whistling past the ears, drawing back on the handlebars, like cowboys pulling back on reins, balancing their bikes, and the front wheel rising for the wheelie, a cobra raised and ready to strike, and the two of you rode the snake for a half block or more. And in quieter moments, doctoring the broken wings of dragonflies with Band-Aids or cutting the lights from fireflies with a Popsicle stick and saving the sparkling treasure in a mason jar. Driving down to Decatur, the speed of flight, fields of cornstalks bent like singers over microphones, the sun sinking into the fields like spilled wine, and the headlights stabbing through the darkness, and scattered trailers like discarded metal cartridges, where John bought Buddha—weed, he called it — from white trash.

Your seventh birthday John stormed out the front door, you and Hatch two in kind, seated in a high-backed chair, clutching the armrests, Dogma the chameleon — confused about color — caged in plastic across your shared laps, and Gracie — the woman you know as mother, the woman who grunted you into this world — holding her massive Bible at her side, weight that anchored her, kept her from being swept away.

Every hair on your head is counted, she said. Each strand has a name.

Well, John said. You ain’t got to worry. I ain’t coming back. He let the door close.

Without hesitation Gracie turned from the shut door and slipped into the spell of habit. Bathe, put on her perfumed gown, rub Vaseline under her nose, grease the skin above her upper lip, lotion her body for the motions of love, cook John’s favorite meal, salmon or trout, place the food beneath two glowing steel dishes for warmth, then retire — her small hesitant walk, steps of a little bird — to her bedroom rocking chair before an open window overlooking Tar Lake, her Bible open on her lap, and patient as a fisherman, waiting for her John to arrive with his Cadillac ways. Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. Rocking robin, rocking robin, beak-hungry for the spermal worm. Come moonlight, John bounds through the door, and a burning awakens her, wine color brightens her black berry face. John leaves quiet as dew the next morning, and she returns to her rocking chair.

JESUS HEARD A SOUND, corn popping over an open fire. Hooded niggas circled a corner, drinking from a swollen paper bag.

What up, homes?

What up. He measured his words. He didn’t look into the cave of the hood.

Want some? A hand extended the paper bag out to him.

No, thanks.

Yo, g. You kinda tall, ain’t you?

You shoot hoop?

Yo, black. Kinda red, ain’t you?

Funny-lookin muddafudda.

Blood-colored.

Three quick full steps took him beyond the voices’ range. A can rolled down the gutter, its source of locomotion invisible. Red Hook shoved his head back — as if tilted for a barber’s razor, straining the neck. Red Hook. Twelve buildings, each twenty-six stories high, a red path of brick thrusting skyward, poking the clouds, bleeding them. Each building a planet in configuration with the next, a galaxy of colors. Sharp structural edges challenged anyone who entered. Word, heard stories about project niggas throwing bikes on unsuspecting passersby. And sure-eyed snipers who could catch you in the open chances of their sight. Can’t miss me. A tall nigga like me stand out. And red too.

Jesus spit, saw the thought rise and fall. Above him, birds cried. He lifted his face to the sky — black specks of birds high above the buildings, their cries changing in pitch as they shifted in direction — and let it crush him. The sun was almost blinding. Thick clouds of black smoke, a ship’s smokestack puffing up from the buildings. Word, used to be able to drop yo garbage in the incinerator. Every floor had one. Til people started stuffing their babies down wit the garbage. The shiny brick more like tile. A scorched dog black-snarled from the wall. In a rainbow of colors, weighted words screamed. Too much of it, lines and colors running together, a mess of messages. Inside a sickle, a half-moon, letters darkened and deformed, scrawled in a giant’s hand: BIRDLEG WE REMEMBER.

Birdleg? Jesus inhaled the word into his lungs. Fact? Fable? Ghost? Memory was so deep as to silence his footsteps. Somewhere here was an honoring presence. Jesus felt it at his back. Shit, Red Hook! The jets! You can get caught in the middle of something. Rival crews. But he refused to allow this possibility to slow him. If it’s gon happen, it’s gon happen. His shadow swooped high and huge above him.

He entered a vestibule the size of a bathroom. Felt it, more than saw it. A cramped doghouse of shadows. Every vestibule inch quilted with more rainbow-strands of words. Bare shattered floors. Long rows of metallic mailboxes, most broken and open like teeth in serious need of dental work. And bottled-up summer heat. A metal stairwell rigged up and out of sight. Metal stairs? A broken escalator? Word, stairwells often carried fire throughout an entire building. Jesus knew. Stairwells are chimneys. Up ahead, the elevator caved. Word, in the jets, elevator motors were mounted on each building’s outside, victim to vandals and weather. What if the elevator stopped between floors, caught in midair, like a defective yo-yo? What if flame climbed the yo-yo string? Are elevators chimneys too? Jesus entered. A hard aroma of piss. He pushed the button for seven.

DOORS SHUT. Pulleys groan into motion. Cables whine. Tug at the muscles of his legs and belly. Rust metal walls compress on him. He extends his arms scarecrow fashion, the walls in-moving as the car rises, and water rising inside him, cold, making him swell. He shuts his eyes.

Black weight drops like an anchor and knocks him flat.

Just relax.

Put your head down.

Iron fingers mine for the diamond in his ear. Hey, he warns. Be careful. That diamond cost me … Iron fingers squeeze his throat and crush the words. He chokes. Voices spin above him. He feels caressing fingers on his back—whose? — strokes of bird feather. Easy, boy. Calm down. His hands move rakelike in Gracie’s plush living-room carpet. I said calm down. The anchor lowers. Two steel loops snap click and lock around his wrists. (He hears them, he feels them, but does not see.) Spikelike leaves rise high above him from the coffee table (ancient, he has always known it) — supported by four squat curved legs, wooden ice-cream swirls — above but close enough for him to make out small red-and-green buds. Wait, he says. I’m money. The two cops work on the pulleys of his arms — he is heavy with Porsha’s cooking and the coin of life — drawing them, lifting him high above the carpet, table legs, table, plant pot (glossy green paper), the spiked leaves — bright red on the front side, but colorless on the reverse; veined and tissue-thin, lizard skin (Dogma the chameleon) — and small red-and-green buds, small planets from his height, small planets dissolving in distance. In his fury, he melts into his deep essential life, hard and heavy, a red stone, a fossilized apple. Gravity. The cops raise their nightsticks like black trees. Don’t give us any trouble. He fights the anger shooting through his stomach. The door flies (or hands shove it) open. The two cops, Jack and Jill, thunder down three nightmare hills of stairs. A blast of winter wind, a cold wind whipped up by Tar Lake. His tongue covers, blankets his teeth against the chill.

Jack looks him in the face.

He smiles. Can’t break me. Smiles. Gravity. Or frowns. His face is so cold he isn’t sure. His red eyes shove two fossilized apples into Jack’s teeth. Jack yanks down on the cuffs. Get in. He ducks his head under the siren roof and squeezes into the low ride. The engine squeals into life like a slaughtered pig. A thin rapid shimmer of exhaust and the cool wind of motion. Sweat cools out of him. His wrists itch raw with the rub of the handcuffs. He gazes through the wedges of mesh partition that separates him from Jack and Jill. Studies the back of their two capped heads. Then he sees a face in the rearview mirror. Bitten by sin, Gracie said. Bitten by sin. Two wild eyes burning in the darkness. Yet, man is born into trouble, as the sparks fly upward. The car takes a heavy curve. He shuts his eyes. Circular momentum.

He flutters up through the roof into the domed siren, red light spiraling through his veins. Springs out into wet darkness. Flares, flame to sky. Shines. Settles.

A particle of light enters his cell. Spreads like spilled ink on paper. He feels a flutter in his spine, his back, his shoulder blades. Peels away from the floor and starts to rise. White. Cold. Weightless.

Distance steadily shortens between himself and the light’s point of origin. He discovers that he is actually part of the light, caught, a red worm on a bright line.

THE SKY MOVED IN WINDOWS. Windows without screens. Lean forward and look out and feel you are peeking over a mountain’s edge. Jesus was thankful they were shut on this hot day. He stood very still. Here, one might stand forever and watch the world go by. Cars zooming across the highway. Birds circling above boats bobbing on the river (one of twelve). And the river itself reaching away into the horizon’s gaze.

I said Buildin One.

No, you didn’t. You said first building.

Same thing.

No. Big difference. Jesus turned and surveyed the cramped, narrow room. Ancient walls that had seen no paint for decades. Mushroom-shaped water stains. Exposed heating pipes dripping like a runny nose. He suddenly felt he was submerged, in a submarine.

Make yourself comfortable. No Face was kicked back against the couch, his feet on the coffee table, his shoe heels run-over, completely flat. His one eye followed Jesus’s every move like a surveillance camera. He was as tall as Jesus — Jesus hadn’t noticed this the night before — but all muscle, the legs and arms of his red jumpsuit swelling like pressurized pipes. He had groomed the previous night’s mustache into a fine streak of soot.

Jesus flopped down on the love seat.

Where you park?

I didn’t.

What?

I took the train.

You ain’t drive?

Jesus looked at him, hard.

Yeah, No Face said. What am I thinking about? Fine car like that. Round here.

A single stream of sunlight, bothered by flecks of dust, flooded the room. Spread a bright patch like a tablecloth in the middle of the floor. Jesus squinted at the stark whiteness. Shadows spotted the walls.

Nice earring.

Jesus fingered his diamond stud.

Where you cop?

Downtown. At the Underground.

My nigga. No cheap stuff.

Word. You’ll get one too. Look in the Cracker Jack box. Save your prizes.

What?

A woman entered the room from a box-sized kitchen. Like his cousin Porsha in age — late twenties — but not in appearance. Black and skinny. Legs thin as wineglass stems. I can’t dick nothing skinny. Ah, No Face’s mamma. A legend. Word had it, she once coldcocked a Disciple with her Bible and saved No Face from getting smoked.

This is Jesus.

The woman looked at him.

Boy, where yo manners? Lula Mae said. Can’t you speak? Cat got yo tongue?

No, ma’m.

Lower yo eyes. Don’t look at me like that. I’ll slap that frown off yo face. Gracie may stand fo some sass but I won’t.

We bout to handle our business, No Face said. Take them over to Mamma Henry or Mamma Carrie. No Face talked with a nervous, jerky flow of words. Take yoself too.

She looked at him for a moment. Soon as I get them ready.

Well, don’t take all damn day. Stay in the kitchen til yall ready. Me and Jesus need some privacy.

She sailed out of the room and, once in the kitchen, shuffled across the linoleum in red cloth slippers, moving cautiously as if she didn’t know her way around.

Who those mammas you mentioned?

Just these two old bitches that babysit them crumb snatchers sometimes.

Jesus could see No Face’s mother through the kitchen door, washing the face of a little boy. Several breadboxes lined up like shoes along the counter.

Yeah, these BDs ran a train on her daughter and threw her off the roof.

Jesus looked at No Face.

Mamma Henry. Threw her daughter off Buildin Three. I sexed with her.

Who, Mamma Henry?

No Face looked at Jesus. Funny. Real funny. It’s all good though. No Face grinned.

Jesus watched the woman. Where yo daddy?

Something flitted across No Face’s mouth, jaws. He handlin his business.

In the kitchen, the mother extended a white plastic teacup to the boy. Go see if Mr. Lipton can put me a lil dish soap in this cup.

The boy headed out the door without a word.

Damn, that’s how yall do it in the jets? Give and borrow soap?

It’s cool. See—

Yall that po?

No Face’s one eye widened, shocked, trying to see if Jesus had truly insulted him. You don’t know me from Adam.

Yall some real country niggas — Jesus shook his head. Country. Thinking: Country like Lula Mae, who always buy that thick nasty syrup. Mole asses. He and Hatch wouldn’t touch it. Too thick. Mud. So Lula Mae would give Jesus a coffee cup. Go ask Miss Bee for some syrup. Say please. And he’d go get a cup of thin buttery Log Cabin syrup and share it with Hatch.

A knock on the door. The mother hurried from the kitchen to answer it. A little girl, about six or seven. My mamma, she say can you give her some sugar.

I’ll bring some. I’m fin to come see her.

Who that? Jesus said.

My sister.

Yo sister?

My play sister.

The mother stepped back into the room, one hand on the shoulder of each child. She looked at Jesus. Looked at No Face, expectant.

Go now, No Face said. Later, I make you straight.

She opened the door with no change of expression.

Nice mamma you got, Jesus said.

No Face looked at him, face working, as if trying to decipher Jesus’s statement.

The doings of No Face’s life circulated all over the city like the sewers. Everybody knew how No Face the Thief ran with a Stonewall unit, Keylo and Freeze, way way on the wild west side of South Lincoln. A coupla ole niggas — well, not real ole, late twenties — two jacks who always kept an inch beyond reach of the law’s long arms. When they got high or bored, they would flip on him, take turns beating his ass, further damage to his already ruinous anatomy.

Where yo play daddy?

No Face looked at Jesus. He at work.

What bout yo smoked-out sister who suck dicks?

Ain’t my sister. A slender thread of something in his voice.

I heard—

I don’t care what you heard.

Jesus saw something in No Face’s one good eye.

I ain’t got no sister like that. You don’t know me from Adam.

Whatever. Anyway, a blow job don’t mean blow.

No Face tried to adjust his eye patch, fingers thick with anger. Tell you who my daddy is. My real daddy.

Who?

No Face was blank.

Where yo real daddy?

I already told you.

Tell me again.

Where yours?

Nigga, I ain’t the one who frontin.

Who say I’m frontin?

Then what you doin hangin out in Stonewall?

Another stretch of silence. Aw, man. You don’t know me from Adam. Those my peeps. Where you come from?

From out my mamma’s ass.

What?

A round smelly hole.

No Face chuckled. You got to be somebody. Ain’t nobody born naked. People.

People? We all People round here.

Jesus watched No Face hard. Nigga, you ain’t no—

Why you always be wearin red? Who you represent?

Myself.

Yourself?

Jesus nodded.

It’s like this. If you stand for something, you should show it.

Jesus said nothing.

You got to represent something.

The words sounded across the entire length of Jesus’s mind. Jesus red-rolled up one sleeve and revealed two lines of scars running up his forearm.

No Face cleared his throat with a scratch of sound. How’d you—

A Roman shanked me.

Man! No Face’s eyes traveled the length of the scar. Look like a railroad.

Check it. Jesus nodded. See, you up here doin all this frontin at Stonewall, but I learned from the source.

What source?

You know.

Tell me about it.

Jesus thought hard and fast, brain working. Bright wings fluttered in his dark mind. Birdleg, he said. I used to roll with Birdleg.

Birdleg?

That’s right.

Who—

Birdleg.

No Face thought a moment. Jesus’s bald head gleamed in the room like a bright egg. What he learn you?

Listen and learn. Jesus repeated the words from memory. Learn to listen. More will be revealed in the end.

What?

Birdleg. The source.

Then, you got to represent something.

I told you — Jesus rolled down his sleeve and covered the scars — myself.

You selfish.

It ain’t like that.

How it like then?

See—

Even T-Bone represent.

That crippled motherfucka, Jesus said. He pictured T-Bone. Wide bodybuilder torso and slim ballerina legs, riding a wheelchair like a Cadillac in Union Station, patrolling the platform, digging in the scene, racing the subway trains. Word, everybody knew T-Bone. Kickin up dust in his wheelchair, crippled but still kickin it.

Yeah, but he got more heart than some niggas wit three good legs. He ain’t sorry bout what happened to him. I was there when it happened, No Face said, proudly, chest puffed out. See, it’s like this. We had jus jacked that Jew, Fineberg.

You was in on that?

Yeah.

Jesus looked at him. I see. He tryin to bullshit the bullshitter. And once I caught one this big — Jesus held a fabled fish in his parted hands.

No, straight up. You don’t know me from Adam. We had just changed that Jew, Goldberg—

Thought you said Fineberg?

Naw. You said that.

Nigga—

Like I said, we change that Goldfine Jew, then we get on the train and this crazy white man, this other Jew-lookin muddafudda, pull out his gat and start shootin at us. Jus like that. So I pull out my shit. I’m like — No Face rises to demonstrate — Boom boom boom. No mercy. And—

Nigga, you weren’t even there.

No Face retakes his seat. How you know?

I know.

See, that how I lost my eye. I had the long demonstration like this. No Face took a sniper’s pose. Then I went Boom boom boom and hot oil popped in my eye. No Face raised the patch and used two fingers to open the eye socket like a clam.

Jesus peered into the gray-pink insides. Nigga, that’s disgustin. Why don’t you get a glass eye or somephun.

No Face laughed. Stick yo finger in.

Make a nigga wanna throw up.

Go head. Stick yo finger in.

Jesus shook his head.

See, I’m down fo the hood.

Nigga, the only hood you down fo is the one I’m gon put over yo ugly face.

See, you don’t know me from Adam. No Face closed his cavernous socket. I put in work. When I see a number three, my enemy. That’s it. Devastation take over.

Nigga, stop dreamin.

But I don’t use no street sweeper, mowin fools down on the run. No innocent bystanders and all that. See, me, I’m like this. If I want somebody, I park in fronta they house, camp out all night, drink me a little Everclear, smoke me some Buddha and jus wait fo em. Soon as they leave they house, I be like bam! Peel they cap. Staple a navel if I jus wanna fuck em up fo life. You know, make em carry one of those plastic pee bags. Make em wear diapers.

Like that, huh? A mission.

Hard-core. No Face patted his heart.

Then how come you ain’t got no rep?

He looked at Jesus for a long moment. You don’t know me from Adam. I got a rep. You jus ain’t heard about it.

Yeah. I heard you a busterpunklyinmotherfucka.

Now why you come at me like that?

Jus stop frontin. I got proof. Real proof.

Man, you don’t know me from Adam. I got proof too. I—

Jus fire up the Buddha.

No Face grinned at the words. Aw ight. Stroked his bare chin. You already sampled my fine products.

I can tell you something. Jesus thought about it. He approached the words slowly. I got plenty enemies. Last Christmas. No, last Thanksgiving. No, Christmas. Yeah, Christmas. My family — But he didn’t say any more.

No Face sucked his teeth. Can’t trust nobody these days.

Jesus said nothing.

Can’t get no respect.

Jesus nodded.

Tell me about it.

PORSHA MOVES like a mule. Slow and strong. A young, shapely woman in a tight black dress, bright red belt boasting her slim waist. She drapes a white cloth shroudlike over Gracie’s long supper table. Sets the table. Lace doilies, cloth napkins (folded and ironed), silver utensils, gold-edged plates, and glass goblets. She positions two crystal decanters of dark dinner wine — Mogen David by the looks of it, tasty Jew wine that Sheila, her mother, my aunt, had stolen from the Shipco liquor cabinet or that Gracie, her aunt, my mother, had lifted from the Sterns — at each strategic end of the table. And two pitchers of minty eggnog. Balances steaming serving dishes on her raised palms. Carefully sets them down. Everything where it should be. The table creaks, sags from the weight.

Yall come eat.

The family blasts into the dining room like an express train. Porsha directs them: Mamma, you sit here next to Dad. Aunt Gracie, you sit over there next to John.

Jesus grins it over, grins cause Sheila and Gracie are sisters, but you must keep them apart. Can’t stand each other. Always been that way, always will be.

And you boys sit down there.

Boy? Hatch says. Who you callin a boy?

Yeah, Jesus says. We men.

Seventeen ain’t grown, Porsha says.

Don’t start, Sheila says.

Dressed to the nines, as always, John removes his glasses, sets them next to his plate. He whispers something to Lucifer—my uncle—who nods in silent agreement. Two brothers, their hair spotted gray, strewn with ashes.

Aunt Gracie, why don’t you say grace?

Okay. You must realize that in the last days the times will be full of danger. Men will become utterly self-centered. They will be utterly lacking in gratitude. For everyone who asks receives, and everyone who searches finds, and for everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.

Prayers circulate around the table. Sheila says, Let the peace of Christ control in your heart and show thanks. Porsha says her say. In connection with everything give thanks. Lucifer, John, Hatch, and Jesus mumble in unison, Christ wept.

Let’s eat!

Jesus tears into his food, though the sleeves of his thick winter coat slow him somewhat. He watches the others as he eats, prickly aware of himself.

I was jus remembering something, Sheila says over the clatter of dishes. When Porsha was little, she couldn get enough of Jesus and Hatch. Feed them. Bathe them. Take them anywhere they wanna go. I tell you. Sheila smiles and shakes her head in memory and delight. She used to drape their wet diapers across the radiator. And bring them fresh cookies from school.

Oh, Mamma, Porsha says. Why you have to bring that up?

Cause I—

Sheila, ain’t you got this boy tied to yo apron strings?

John, I don’t see nothing on my apron.

Look again, cause the way I remember it, when Hatch there was a baby, he was always ridin yo hip.

As tired as I was. How he gon ride my hip?

You go to the grocery store and he ridin yo hip.

John.

You go to the Laundromat and he ridin yo hip.

Please.

Well, he rode it. Yeah, while you cleaned up yo house.

Dr. Shipco, Lucifer says, told me himself that Hatch rode her hip while she cleaned his house.

Dinner over, the family retires to the living room with two fifths of Crown Royal. The women take glasses and a bottle and retire to one corner. The men take the other bottle and another corner.

Give them boys a drink, John says.

Just one, Sheila says. One glass apiece.

What about Porsha? Hatch says. How come she can drink?

Porsha grown and livin in her own house, Sheila says.

But I’m livin in my own house, you say.

You ain’t grown, though.

Don’t worry, John whispers to Hatch. Got something for you. He slips Hatch a shapely paper bag. Don’t let the women see that.

Time passes.

Lucifer and John grow louder with each successive tip of the Crown Royal bottle.

Liquor-possessed words slip from John’s slack mouth. So me and some of the fellas at the dispatch tryin to start our own company.

Yeah.

We got the cabs. Most of the guys own theirs.

Still ain’t gon buy yours?

John laughs, a laugh that begins little on his lips but expands to swell his stomach and chest.

Still ain’t … Lucifer kills the words, staring at the laughing John with his heavy, stone-cold eyes, then uplifting the bottle and the weight dropping from the eyes, the mouth slacking into a smile, adding his laugh to the other. Jesus sees recognition in Lucifer’s face, his own features and nothing else.

Brother. John shakes one bottle then the other. We empty.

Can’t have that, Lucifer says.

Be back in a flash. John’s slow fingers fit his spectacles onto his face, the sidepieces creating viselike pressure at his temples, pressure that scrunches up his face, features distorted, pained. He quits the house for two fresh bottles of Crown Royal.

Boy, you sho is tall. Smile gone, Lucifer speaks with his torso craned forward, the widow’s peak at his forehead like a scorpion’s tail. Jesus knows what is coming. The liquor helps bring Lucifer’s true feelings to the surface. Where you get all that height? Lucifer says. And that red hair? Can’t be from John. No. Can’t be from my brother.

Come on, Hatch says. He tugs at Jesus’s elbow. Hot, Jesus refuses to move, soldered in place. Come on. Hatch tugs.

Jesus and Hatch move to the bamboo patio with the big movie screen of a window overlooking shrubs, kept green and square by any wino willin to do the job for the buck or two John paid. Green but hidden today behind curtains of slanting rain.

Where you get that jacket? Hatch says. It’s the hype.

Arms out, Jesus twirls like a ballerina so that Hatch may admire it. Red down (goose feathers that flutter when he walks) with a black leather circle centered in the back. From Jew Town.

The hype. I gotta get me one.

Cool. We should go down there. I’ll take you to the store.

They slide their food-heavy bodies onto the oak rocking chair, feeling the baked ham and turkey, the candied yams, buttered corn, the collard greens and string beans, apple and peach cobbler settle into their bellies. Hatch pulls a brown paper bag from his blazer pocket, unwraps it, a brick of Night Train, the lil somephun that John had promised, that John had sneaked in under his jacket. Hatch crumples the paper, returns it to his pocket. Breaks the cap and offers Jesus the first taste. Jesus tilts the bottle twice, taking two huge swallows, a musical gurgle of liquor in his throat. The wine’s heat spreads fanwise out from his stomach, filling his entire body. He passes Hatch the bottle. Hatch hits it, eyes closed. Passes it back to Jesus. So it goes. They share the wine while their legs pump the rocking chair in motion. The liquid spills forward in the upturned bottle. Jesus gulps. Hatch gulps. Gracie’s plants lean into the absent daylight. They drink in silence, only the rhythm of the rocking chair and their breathing indicating that they are not asleep. Drink, until the empty bottle glints beyond their reach.

Guess they think we sposed to sit there and watch them drink.

One drink.

Yeah.

One.

One.

Won’t even let us drink like a man.

Check it.

I mean she let Porsha … Jesus’s mouth seems swollen, the words too fat to escape through his lips. He reaches up to examine them. Fingers tell him what no mirror can reveal.

Hatch brings the empty bottle to his lips. Damn!

Jesus recognizes in the gentle, absentminded movements of his hand something like a familiar melody. You remember?

Remember? Remember what?

Jesus shakes his head. Hard falling rain turns him to the window. Later. I’m out.

Where you going?

Business.

Business?

Peace. His legs carry him quietly out the back door, away from the loud adult voices in the front room. He stares down the deserted street back of the house. Somewhere in the distance, the thick-throated whistle of a freight train. Wherever he turns, he breathes water, drinks air. He throws his head back into steaming rain. Wind-whipped water pokes needles into his face. Yellow streetlights pop on.

He jets to his red Jaguar. Melts into it. Sits a moment, his clothes slippery, puddling on the red leather seat. Beyond the glassed-and-metaled outsides, the rain falls light now, spaced, fine and fresh. He teases the engine into life, and it purrs like a zoo cat house. The liquid world dissolves under the wipers’ squeaky swath. Forms again, dissolves. He eases the car into the street. Works up speed. Streetlamps run in two straight lines. The g ride runs silk patterns in the rain. A rooster tail of water arcs behind.

The rain shuts off. He kills the wipers. The world looms close. A star-blanched night. The heavens wheel and march overhead. The road flies past in the cold glitter of the moon.

He poplocks out of the g ride into a wet, cold, shining world. The street shimmers and swims beneath the streetlamps. The rain has washed the air clean. He inhales deeply, savoring the taste. Pure breath.

Inside the store, he shakes off rain like a bird. His hands blunder upon the counter, shedding coins. He tries to pick them up, but they run and jump from his fingers. He feels the counter edge against his stomach. His hands return the last coins to his pocket.

The slant-eyed slope — gooks, John called them, gooks — opens his mouth in disbelief. Toothless. His gums loom red. A flame opens in Jesus’s stomach. Swells through his blood and makes all his muscles loose and warm. Something kicks him in the back of the head. The slope’s face spills into red dots.

YOU LOOK LIGHT, Jesus said. He surveyed the apartment. I’m gon help you change the weight of your pockets.

What you mean?

Change yo cents to centuries.

Huh?

Damn you stupid.

No Face looked blank, an empty gun.

We can hang.

No Face raised his head. Thought you said you don’t represent?

I don’t.

Then—

We can hang.

No Face fed on silence. Really? The eye watched Jesus in disbelief.

Yeah.

You jus sayin that.

Really.

Really?

Yeah.

And we can hang?

Yeah.

Really?

Straight up.

On the for real?

For real.

In one movement, No Face bounded out of his seat and dropped down like a shoe salesman before Jesus’s feet. Thank you.

Hey!

Thank you. His tongue dripped hot saliva on Jesus’s canvas kicks.

Just relax, Jesus said, feeling saliva seep through shoes, socks, between his toes.

Thank you.

Hey!

Thank you. No Face sat there panting at Jesus’s feet.

Hey! Stop actin like a lil bitch.

Still on his knees, No Face raised his head, eye and patch studying Jesus’s face. When we roll?

I should kick yo teeth out, Jesus said.

Sorry.

Damn.

When we roll?

We don’t, Jesus said.

What?

I’m at another level.

Tell me about it.

What’s to tell. It’s a twenty-four-seven thing.

What?

Nigga, get off yo knees.

He did.

Find a seat.

He did.

Kick back.

He did.

It’s like this. Everything you do parlays into the next day. All yo life. And that’s the jacket you got to wear. Forever.

No Face looked at him, face slack.

Forget it.

No Face watched with his single eye.

Forget it. Just relax. Kick back.

No Face put a big glass pipe on the table. Jesus couldn’t tell what it was shaped in imitation of, a trumpet, a rocket, or a dick.

Beam me up, Scotty.

Where your father? Jesus really wanted to know.

Ain’t you already asked me that?

Ask you again.

No Face looked at him. He gone to work.

Jesus took off his shoes and removed the hot, wet socks. He put the socks inside the shoes and placed them neatly in front of him.

Turn off the lights.

No Face did.

Now close the shades.

Why?

Jesus looked at him.

No Face rushed over to the shades, snapped them down one after the other. Know any stories? Word, I heard you can tell some good lies. Tell me one.

Tell you bout the time yo mamma sucked my dick.

Hey, can’t you stop talkin bout my mamma? Show me some respect.

Jesus didn’t say anything for a moment. Then he told a lie about the nigga who could catch his own farts, the only story he could remember at the moment. No Face laughed all the while, uncontrollably, twisting and shaking, slapping his knees.

Know any more?

Jesus thought about it. Should he tell one of John’s war stories? See, West-side was tired of humping. So he shot himself in the foot. One problem. The bullet ricocheted off his anklebone and hit him square in the forehead. Wait, that was one of Lucifer’s stories. The one or two he told. John told this: Water. We wanted water. Our feet was burnin after all that humpin. So we was beaucoup happy when we saw the resupply choppers flyin in. Beaucoup happy when we saw those choppers drop us down some buckets, some buckets of what we knew was some good cool water after a long thirsty hump. So we hurried up and opened one bucket and another and another. Fuck. Ice cream. Those lifers had brought us buckets of ice cream. Can you believe that? So we took off our boots and started stompin marchin in that ice cream. Humpin all over again. No.

Come on.

I said I don’t know any mo. Damn.

No Face went silent.

Jesus blew the trumpet. It hissed. Light began to glow in his chest, particles of smoke creeping outward through his bloodstream, penetrating muscles and bones, washing his stomach hollow, his whole body slipping inside it, a pit where heat and light coiled around him, a nest of snakes.

He closed his eyes.

THE AIR CONDITIONER HUMMED like a speeding train, you snug in the bed under a winter blanket, staring at the ceiling, which seemed strangely close. You heard the creaking of Lula Mae’s sleeping bones from across the hall. Smelled her odor (Ben-Gay). Took stock of the day’s wrongs. Wrongs inside of wrongs, this onion that you peeled from one layer of stink to another, from one eye-watering sight to another. Each wrong deed joined like stones on a path.

Hatch?

What?

You sleep?

Sound like I’m sleep?

Lula Mae mean.

Yeah.

Real mean.

Yeah.

Let’s fix her.

How?

We gon walk home.

Kinda far, ain’t it?

A million miles.

Oh.

We can make it.

You sure?

Positive.

Okay.

You packed your bags, you and Hatch. Moved ghost-silent through the house, sensing the presence of the attic far above — the roof slanting inward with the pitch of the rafters. You unlocked the front door — it always stuck when you tried to open it; the rusty hinges were informants — and moved out into the black reaches of night. You stood on the front porch, where a yellow light burned — a swarm of insects — and saw a world in full bloom. The sky like a dark open flower. A full-eyed moon. The sound of covert crickets. And the short, discontinuous fire of lightning bugs. When they hold they breath, Hatch said, they fire come on. When they blow it out, they fire go off. Heat. Yes, even the nights were hot in West Memphis. Dark forgot its connection to cool. You waded out into the night, waded, then dolphin-leaped the fence, a red arc of light. Damn! Hatch said. He lifted the silver cuff that latched gate to post. You waded. Hands jammed in your pockets, head thrust forward, you scowled down the empty road. Stepped onto the red noisy gravel. Luggage dragged you to the corner. Dragged too by the pulley of a fresh act.

Hatch’s eyes began to water.

Why you cryin?

He did not answer. You turned to see Lula Mae giving chase with a switch.

SUNLIGHT AROUSED JESUS from sleep. He pushed himself upright on the couch, and sat there, groggy, trying to clear his head against the growing hum of morning traffic.

Damn! His flesh luminous with heat. His feet cold. He looked down at them. No shoes. He could see No Face, fuzzy, cloudy, dim. No Face! he screamed.

No Face’s black eye patch glowed like the barrel hole of a fired gun. I be dog. We fell asleep.

Nigga, what the fuck!

Some powerful shit. No Face’s head hung suspended between his knees, a heavy balloon.

Every inch of Jesus’s skin was alive, seeing, watching himself move in a dream. Bitch, what did you put in that weed? Jesus grabbed No Face by his collar and jerked him to his feet.

Nuthin. Somebody had stuck a red moon and a black moon in his face where the eyes should be. I told you I—

You can get hurt like that, seriously hurt. Hardly getting the words out, throat clogged with hate, each word anger-clotted.

But—

Jesus shoved him back on the couch. The sunlight scorched Jesus’s socked-but-shoeless feet. Where my goddamn shoes? Once again he snatched No Face up from the couch.

No Face pointed. Red color began to bleed from his eye. He adjusted his black patch. Over there. By the couch. Jesus pushed No Face down like crumbs off of a table. Mamma musta put them over there while—

Jesus quickly shoved his warm shoes on his feet. I ain’t never heard of no Buddha making nobody sleep like that. Pass out. He checked his pockets. Found everything in order. I mean, it’s tomorrow already. I mean. He sat down on the couch.

The pipe on the coffee table had been cleaned of ashes.

I be dog.

Where’d you get that shit?

From Keylo. He musta gave me some of that crazy shit. Whacked. Nigga always be jokin around.

You lucky I don’t … Jesus rested the words.

It’s cool, No Face said. We’re cool. Hey, you wanna watch some TV?

No.

We can watch some.

Bitch, do it look like I watch TV?

No Face studied the words, magnified them under the lens of his one eye. Well, what you wanna do?

Jesus felt a hole in his stomach, growing and spreading. His hands ran an orbit around his belly. Got anything to eat?

Sure.

He followed No Face to the refrigerator. Watched him open it. Almost threw up when he saw old cooking grease inside a mason jar, brown and gray like a rotting limb.

See anything you want? If you don’t, we go down to Mamma Henry’s house. She keep our meat in her freezer. And Mamma—

I know, Jesus said. I can’t wait.

They took out some leftover meat loaf and ate it cold and fast, then drank milk, right from the gallon jug, sharing swigs until the plastic container was whistle-empty.

You can take a shower. No Face’s anxious eye watched Jesus. I got some clothes you can wear. We go shoot some hoop.

Jesus looked at him. You lucky to be alive.

No Face directed his good eye somewhere else.

Real lucky.

Look. The eye returned. I got some of my own shit.

I don’t wanna try no mo of yo shit. I mean—

You don’t know me from Adam. I told you, that wasn’t mine. Keylo gave me that. Look, I’ll take you to my kitty so we can smoke us some real—

Nawl. I don’t wanna smoke no mo.

Cool.

You lucky to be alive.

We can pick up some oysters.

What?

Oysters. Wit hot sauce.

That’s what you like?

That’s what I like.

Funny. Spokesman used to eat that.

Who?

Never mind. Jus somebody from back in the day. You don’t know him.

So why—

It’s cool. You can eat. I’ll watch.

I ain’t hungry. Let’s shoot some hoop.

Some hoop?

Yeah, you know. No Face curved his wrist in a mock shot.

Well—

What’s wrong? You don’t want to?

I don’t care. I’ll whup yo ass in a game or two.

Follow me.

They squeezed through a narrow neck of doorway, then hurried to the elevator, which began to lower like a rusty bucket. The walls came rushing in and Jesus had to fight the urge to extend his arms in defense. The elevator opened into a dark vestibule. No Face miscalculated the height of the vestibule step and tripped out into the day. Jesus blinked forth upon the sky.

Hey, boys. Give you five dollars if you can tell me what kind of bird this is. The words emerged from pitch blackness, a dark niche cut deep in the building’s brick. A face, then a body — blue overalls with dirty suspenders, parachute straps — pushed into the light, fist holding the groin. A janitor, Jesus thought. He’s a janitor, cleaning up after this nigga trash. He saw Jesus looking at him. Flicked his tongue fast and dirty.

Damn, No Face said. You see that? He a stone-cold freak.

You can get hurt that way, old man, Jesus said.

The janitor cupped his hand over his ear. What? What you say?

Hurt.

And I can get hurt getting out of the bathtub too.

Jesus turned up the heat in his eyes, red coals. The janitor winked at him. Dushan, the janitor said to No Face.

No Face did not answer.

Tell yo mamma I be up there to see her later.

Damn, Jesus said. You gon take that shit?

Aw, man, he can’t sweat me. No Face waits a beat, watching Jesus.

Nigga, he talkin bout yo mamma.

You don’t know me from Adam. He ain’t nobody. That’s Redtail.

Who?

Redtail.

What kind of name is that?

Well, his real name is Roscoe. Roscoe Lipton.

He yall janitor?

The superintendent.

A janitor.

Yeah.

Don’t see how he can be nobody’s janitor. Too fuckin ole. Nigga can hardly move.

Crazy too. Nigga be feedin rats and shit. Feedin em.

What?

Word.

Jesus shook his head.

I know. But guess what?

What?

He used to be a pilot.

What?

A pilot.

You mean an airplane?

Yeah.

Jesus tried to picture the old drunk in a cockpit. What he do, fly a bottle round his lips?

Nawl, in a war. Warplane. Flying Tiger. Hell from Heaven. He changed some enemies too.

That old drunk motherfucker?

Yeah.

He can’t change his dirty draws.

He did.

Musta been a long time ago.

Yeah. Old nigga can’t even hear.

I can tell that. So that was why he did it, covered his deaf ear and cupped his good one.

But he hear good nough to hear what he shouldn hear.

What?

He a transformer.

Jesus considered the possibility of this.

You do something, and he can’t wait to snitch. Hey, he might even snitch on you.

Jesus looked at No Face.

Round here, he gotta watch his back. I almost changed that nigga a few times myself.

I bet. He walk like you. He talk like you. He yo daddy?

No Face watched — one red eye — Jesus hard for a stocktaking moment.

They began their journey. Above the river, a gull white-winged along a wave. A hang-tailed hound sat tough beside a garbage can until No Face roused it with a speeding stone. A ragtop speeded past, but slow enough for Jesus to be momentarily blinded by a flash of hand signals.

Trey Deuces, No Face said.

Right, Jesus said.

No Face took cautious steps crossing the street, as if fording a river. He walked, Jesus beside him, for several more blocks through a fog of belching cars, dragging his feet, tripping over his shadow, slow and purposeful, the blind motion of sleep. The morning increased, the wind rose, gusts of it shaking the branches, bringing a faint snow of spring petals, flake on sifting flake. Through rectangles of glass, Jesus saw men dipping their heads in coffee cups, sitting stiff with their beers or hiding their faces behind newspapers. He and No Face rounded the corner. The sun brightened in the distance, and Stonewall glittered white. Tall rockets of buildings, ready to blast off.

Damn, we walked that far? You ain’t tell me we walkin to Stonewall?

Chill.

Nigga, you crazy.

You be aw ight.

A fenced-in basketball court loomed in the distance, thick shapes roving inside. Jetting along, Jesus and No Face found a stone bench and sat down to watch the game. Tongues circulated the circumference of the court. Homeys lined the fence, fingers poking through the chain-link holes, slurping Night Train and firing up missile-shaped joints. Floating heat. Sweat air. Grit that Jesus tasted in his cough.

Whirling colors, four men played the full-length of the court. Jesus took a good look. Two men in khaki pants and bare chests, and two in chests and blue jeans. Khaki One a tall (Jesus’s height) man with a sharp-angled haircut like a double-headed ax (V from widow’s peak to neckline). Bull-wide nose and thick worm lips. Wedges of muscle angling up from the waist and fanning out to a winged back. Big Popeye forearms. Dull white skin, as if faded from bleach. Whispered under his breath when he shot a free throw. Khaki Two a short nigga with carefully greased and patterned hair — a sculpture — and proud, bowed wishbone legs. He passed Khaki One the ball for a rim-ringing dunk. Serious hang time in the radiant haze. The opposing team took out the ball. Light-moving, the white man fell like an avalanche and smothered a shot. Drove the ball up the alley and around the other defender for the easy layup. Hoop, poles, and backboard cold-shuddered. The ball swirled around the rim before it flushed.

Good game.

Who got winners? Khaki Two curled up first one leg, then the other, checking his shoe soles. He pulled an old fighter pilot’s helmet (World War I stick-winged biplane, Snoopy and the Red Baron) over his sculpted hair.

A scuffle flared up. No Face started for the court, Jesus followed him. Like a magnet, faces drew them in.

Keylo. No Face spoke to Khaki Two. Why you give me that whacked weed?

Give you? Bitch, I ain’t give you shit. You paid me.

Jesus blinked. Focused. Keylo? So Khaki Two was Keylo, legend in the flesh. Word, drove an old red ambulance with a bed (stretcher?) in the back. His ho buggy he called it. Say he never changed the sheets.

Keylo approached, and Jesus imagined him choking No Face in the noose of his bowed legs. He smiled toothless, like a snake. Crunched his face, a single line of eyebrow above lidless rat eyes. Balled in a boxer’s crouch. Rose on his toes with a dance in his body and pimp-slapped No Face upside the head.

Damn, Keylo. Why you always fuckin around?

Cause I want to. Keylo slapped No Face again. A storm of laughter convulsed the spectators.

Damn, Keylo. No Face’s dreads rose like cobras. Quit.

Make me, bitch. Fists moving, Keylo circled No Face, dukes up, slow-moving like an old man. Circling, he fired slaps, loud as thunder in easy rain, stinging blows which rocked No Face, hard, fast-pitched blows to the soft mitt of his raised chin. No Face hung tough, refusing to go down.

Chill.

Laughter died down.

That’s right. Chill.

Jesus searched for the voice’s source. Khaki One. Sunlight streaked his greased flesh, accentuating every vein. Chill, he said, voice feverish, cloggy and hot, phlegm-filled as if from a cold.

Damn, Freeze.

Freeze. Freeze.

No Face alright, Freeze said. He hooked No Face’s head under his elbow and stroked the idiot’s bowed head. No Face grinned, tongue fish-flopping in his mouth. He alright. Freeze yanked down on No Face’s head, then released it. No Face ballooned up to his normal height. Don’t try to play him like a bitch.

I was—

Freeze cut Keylo off with a sharp glance. Shoved him into No Face. Kiss and make up.

What?

Kiss and make up. Freeze’s biceps were round and solid, train wheels. Go on. Kiss and make up.

Keylo searched the crowd, pleading eyes and mouth.

Freeze cut a grin. The crowd flew into stitches.

You see the look on his face?

Yeah.

Had that nigga goin.

Yeah.

Thought he was serious.

Bout to piss his pants.

Shit.

No Face bobbed in place, grinning, cannibal teeth, appreciative, glad that Freeze had made a fool of him. Freeze slapped him on the back. You did good, he said. He looked at Jesus, and his eyes spoke recognition. Jesus was sure of it. You did real good.

Thanks, No Face said.

Something inside told Jesus that Freeze’s compliment went beyond the battle with Keylo, addressed some secret subject.

Yo, Freeze.

The voice spun Freeze’s head.

You had yo fun. A short dude spoke, coal-black face under a red baseball cap, brim backward, manufacturer’s tag dangling from the side like a tassel on a graduate’s mortarboard. You ready to do this?

Aw ight, Country Plus, Freeze said. If you hard.

I’m always hard.

So pick yo team.

Well you know I got my nigga here. Freeze nodded at Keylo. They slapped palms and locked fingers in some private ritual.

Huh, Country Plus said. So what else is new? Ain’t yall married?

Freeze ignored the comment.

Give me MD 2020.

My nigga.

Cool, Freeze said. You can have him. Give me my man No Face. No Face swelled up with gratitude, chest out, lips inflated into a grin, one eye expanding expanding expanding, and he rose, tiptoes.

Thunderbird.

Damn, Freeze, Keylo said. You gon let this bitch play on our team?

Jesus breathed his first whiff of Keylo’s gravedigger breath.

Give a nigga a chance, Freeze said. Even a bitch. He gave Keylo a quick hug.

Come on, Country Plus said. Choose another man.

Damn, who else? Freeze studied the crowd.

Pick him. No Face pointed to Jesus.

Freeze gave Jesus a fishy-eyed look. I want him.

That doofy-lookin muddafudda, Keylo said. He and Jesus faced one another, eyes colliding.

And I’ll take Mad Dog. Okay. We set.

Jesus pondered the faulty mathematics. That’s only four. Four players, not … No Face pulled Jesus into the huddle.

Yo, g, Freeze said. What’s yo name?

Jesus.

Jesus?

Yeah.

Welcome, Jesus. I’m Freeze. Freeze extended his hand, and Jesus took it with his firmest grip.

Country Plus pulled a dime from his pocket and tossed it shimmering into the air. Call em.

Heads, Freeze said.

The coin fell to the surface of Country’s skin. He slapped his palm over it.

See, Freeze said. You already lost.

What you call?

You know.

Country removed his palm. Heads.

See.

Country Plus stared into Freeze’s face, the price tag dangling from his cap and jerking back and forth in the breeze like a hooked fish on a line. From this time forward, I will make you hear new things.

Whatever, Freeze said. You talk a good game. Let’s see if you can play.

No Face unzipped his jacket and pulled it off, removed his T-shirt, and revealed his Mr. Universe torso.

Hey, Jesus, Freeze said. That’s yo man. He pointed to Country Plus. Stick him.

Word, Jesus said. Damn, how Freeze tryin to play me? Jesus always played center, the tallest and strongest player on the court. And here Freeze was, playin him like a guard.

We skins, No Face said. Ain’t you gon take off yo shirt?

Nawl.

Why not?

Nawl.

Yo shirt gon get all funky.

I’m aw ight.

Better take out yo earring.

Nawl.

Nigga yank it off.

Nawl.

No Face, Freeze said. Take out the ball.

No Face took out the ball. MD 2020 snatched his lazy entry pass and tossed an easy layup. Good steal. Country Plus congratulated his teammate, and his team — Thunderbird and Mad Dog — celebrated their first basket. No Face looked at Freeze with a drowning man’s eyes (eye!), begging for mercy.

Country Plus threw Freeze the ball.

Wait a minute, Jesus said. It’s their ball.

Wake up! Keylo said. You in South Lincoln. Red Hook rules. Stonewall rules. Stonewall rules.

Freeze took out the ball. Fired it to Keylo, who crouched low and ran it hard on his short, baby-thick legs. Country Plus’s unit swooped down on him, a flock of small fast birds moving in streaks, sparrows in a room. Keylo froze in place. Fired the ball at Jesus, but Country Plus clawed it in midair, and in the spark of a moment swept Jesus aside like a swatted fly. Jesus gave chase with everything in his legs. Country Plus launched for the nest-high basket, his elbow catching Jesus in the throat.

Damn!

Don’t sweat it, Freeze said. He took the ball out. Fired it in to Jesus. Jesus dribbled. Green-thumbed grass poked through the concrete and snatched at the ball. Tall weeds twisted around his legs. And puddles swamped him, quicksand. With each putting down of his heels, his whole body sank further into the court. Then Country Plus liberated the ball from his paralyzed fingers. Rode an invisible rainbow to the hoop. Reaming sight. The rim vibrated colors.

Freeze looked at Jesus. Took the ball out, fired it to Jesus. Jesus barely caught it. A large fish. It slipped from his hands back into the dark court waters. Country Plus clawed it up, bearlike. Lifted for the jump shot. Jesus jumped as hard and high as he could, springs in his toes. Fake. Country Plus had never left his feet. Now he took it casually to the hoop. Jesus landed back hard on the court, waves of hard concrete pulsing from his feet and through his body, mixing with waves of laughter circulating the court.

You see that muddafudda? Way up in the air.

Yeah. A real sucker.

Freeze took out the ball.

Wait, Jesus said. You take it in. The center is supposed to—

Freeze fired the ball hard into Jesus’s defiant chest. Jesus watched him a moment, eyes working. He dribbled the ball up the court. Country Plus yanked it from his hands, a string on rolled twine. He dribbled, in front of him, behind his back, between his legs, while Jesus grabbed at the ball, again and again.

Damn, look at that mark nigga!

Gettin played like a bitch.

Country Plus blew past Jesus. Took it behind the backboard for the reverse lay-in.

In yo eye, punk.

Mark.

Trick.

Ranked and intense observers watched Jesus. No shifting, no craning among the still faces, the still eyes. Country Plus laughed in close, Jesus hearing himself, the laugh erupt from his own belly.

Be true to the game, Freeze said.

Jesus lowered his eyes. The ball went weightless in his hands, so he hugged it to prevent it from floating away. The leather skin peeled away to allow him to look directly into the ball’s hollow inside, where shapes formed then started to move. Thick sweatbands pinch head and wrists. Sleeveless T-shirts loop skinny shoulders. Jogging shorts sag like oversized diapers. Layers of brightly colored socks curve like barber-pole stripes around thin calves. Converse All Stars, Pro-Keds, and leather Pumas scuff the court with rubber music. John, Lucifer, Spokesman, Dallas, and Ernie — the Funky Five Corners — geared up for battle. Chuckers doing chumps. John with his quick little hands, hands so fast they don’t move when he passes the ball. And Lucifer, mouth open, his tongue hangin in the air, some magical carpet lifting him above the ground, the court, the basket.

And you shoulda seen that nigga shout out when he jammed the ball. Served up a facial. He’d be like, Take that, you punk ass motherfucker!

Quiet Lucifer?

Yeah. Quiet Lucifer. I dawked that in yo face!

One-word Lucifer?

One-word Lucifer. How you like that motherfucker! Feel good? Taste good? That tongue just flappin. And those big hands shakin in yo face like he jus rolled seven. Yeah, he had some big hands, but they was slow. Lucifer wasn’t no good at handling the ball. Dribblin. Catching a pass. Spokesman told John, Throw it at his face. He’ll catch it then. It worked. Same way with everything: Spokesman had an answer. Standing there, watching from the sidelines, rubbing his belly like a crystal ball. Tryin to science the game. Geometrize plays for the Funky Five Corners. This is a human behavioral laboratory. You know, white smocks and white rats. Test tubes and Bunsen burners. Ideas lead to buildings and bridges. I like to think about yall, us, the team, the Funky Five Corners, and visualize yall, us, the team, being better players through my schemes. He measure the court with a slide rule and a triangle, then write some figures down on his notepad, sketch some pictures.

Damn, nigga. What you doin?

Always tryin to science something.

You may be Einstein but you ain’t no Jew. Still black. Science or no science.

One time he took these big-ass pliers and measured every nigga’s head on the court. They let him, too, wanting to be part of the experiment, get written up. Spokesman. This other time he took this big magnet and poked it all around in the air and kept poking it. We jus shook our heads.

When he made his report he expected you to abide by it. He shook his head when you fumbled a pass. A person your age and height normally covers three and a half feet with each step, so we must conclude that you shouldn’t have taken more than ten paces. An unnecessary waste of energy. Drew his lips tight with anger when you missed a layup. Lucifer, be slow about obeying the laws of gravity. And he was always placin bets. Oh, we can’t lose. I got this all scienced out. John, if my right eye jump, we win money for sure. We won some money too. Serious money a coupla times. Lost some. Did we profit? Who can say? I guess it evened out.

YALL GON PLAY OR WHAT?

A cool breeze wafted onto the stifling court, stirring up the stench of wine and weed. Jesus breathed through his hard-winded nostrils, unsure whether it was time to breathe in or breathe out. Everything was off, out of whack. Just need some more time. Gotta learn how to fly again. He was drowning in dark waters, in spinning lights. Blood on his tongue. He surveyed the players, searching for that one face which would sanction his plight. Freeze cracked his anxious knuckles. Keylo checked his shoe soles. No Face hard-breathed. Then the sun awakened, clean and clear.

I said yall gon play or what?

Jesus saw in precise detail thick, ropelike veins stretched lengthwise in skinny arms and hands. Saw a red sleeveless T-shirt and a red baseball cap, brim backward, the price tag dangling from it. Jesus saw him. Jesus knew him. Engaged sight the pulse of his color. Red, he would get back in the game. He would — yes he, he alone, not his team — make a run.

He fired the ball to No Face, who fired it to Freeze, who fired it to Keylo, who fired it back to Jesus. Jesus held the ball above him, squeezed in one hand. He brought it upcourt, dribbled three times, blip, blip, blip, then took it up the alley, body curved, elbows high. He faked the layup, drew back for the jumper, kicking his feet ballerina-like in midair. The ball arched from his fingertips. Sunk.

Country Plus grinned. I gave you that one, he said. Felt sorry for you. He took the ball in. Lifted off his toes for the jumper. Jesus caught the ball in the palm of his hand, midflight, fly to fly strip. Swatted the ball to Freeze, who lifted for the easy basket.

You got lucky on that one, Country Plus said. He looked Jesus flush in the face.

Guess so, Jesus said.

Mad Dog fired the ball to Country Plus. Country Plus crouched low in the dribble, challenging Jesus.

Pass the ball, Country.

Nigga, stop showin out.

Jesus punched the ball from between his legs, scooped it up, and arched it into the net.

Country looked at Jesus, anger and frustration concealed like fishhooks in his eyes.

Thunderbird inbounded the ball to Mad Dog, who bounced it in MD 2020’s direction. Jesus hopped on the ball mid-air, squeexed it tight between his thighs, and rode it for a second or two like a bucking bull. Country Plus faced him, crouched, arms out, yellow sweat covering his forehead. Jesus bobbed and weaved, then broke for the basket, elbows working, tearing off a layer of Country’s flesh. Jesus soared in solar heat — he could stay up in the air long as he wanted — gave niggas plenty time to count each tread mark on his rubber soles. He looked down on the basket miles below him, and released the ball like a bomb.

Okay, okay. Don’t get happy. Game ain’t over.

Country Plus planted his feet, tent in a field. Wind, Jesus blew him flat. Jumped for the shot. The ball hit the rim. Bounced. Once. Twice. Freeze snatched the rebound. The enemy unit trapped him within a wall of raised arms. Freeze fired the ball to No Face. Perfect pass. Except No Face was three seconds behind the ball.

Bitch, Freeze said.

Damn you slow, Jesus said.

Bitch, Keylo said, you better stop fuckin up. Or I’ll wrap my dick around yo head like a turban.

No playin bitch, Jesus said. Sweat dribbled down his nose, his mouth, his chin, every inch of his skin, every cell flooded with the energy of the game, the rhythm of his breathing. He studied his heart’s double beat. Defense. That was the key. Offense through defense. Offense through defense. Fundamental. Time and distance. Count the pauses between bounces. Feel the game, deep down, somewhere behind the belly, near the lungs. Play as you breathe.

Country Plus rose like a wave for the basket, and Jesus chopped him down with one stroke.

Damn!

Jesus dunked and almost threw himself through the hoop. He landed on the court with easy footing, tiptoes, a ballerina.

That’s game.

We won.

Country Plus lay flat and still on the concrete, like something you could stick a fork into. Mad Dog extended an aiding hand. MD 2020 and Thunderbird followed his lead, but Country Plus slapped their hands away, then raised himself warily, like someone trying to stand up on a rocking boat.

Next time, Country.

Next time.

Good game.

Yeah, Country said. Good game. He studied Jesus with nonforgetting, nonforgiving eyes. Good game. Catch yall later. He turned and led his unit from the court, parading his anger and his wound.

Jesus gave Freeze a high five, palms slapping. Slapped some skin with Keylo and No Face. Memory warm like sweat on his skin, of the Funky Five Corners — John, Lucifer, Spokesman, Ernie, Dallas — celebrating a victory.

You play a strong game, Freeze said. He greeted Jesus with a quick hug.

Yeah, Keylo said. He removed his pilot’s cap, exposing a thick wave of greased hair, raised and stiff, a parrot’s comb. He turned the cap upside down and dumped out a gallon of sweat. Liked the way you conned them mark niggas, actin like you couldn play at first. He fit the pilot’s cap back snugly on his head.

You got it going on like a big fat hard-on.

Jesus said nothing. He wanted more game.

Straight up. Hard.

Ain’t no man, woman, or beast can beat me, Jesus said, words warm with his heart’s heat.

You got that right.

Word.

You the man.

Aw, Freeze, No Face said. You don’t know him from Adam. This nigga can tell some stories.

Stories? What kinda stories?

Like—

Like the time he fucked yo mamma.

No Face looked at Freeze.

Keylo twisted off the metal cap on a cloudy, missile-shaped forty-ounce bottle of malt liquor. Threw his head back and gulped down the liquid, Adam’s apple working. A big booty switched by. Some bitch got a big booty around here.

Keylo, Freeze said, you got no class.

Freeze, you know I’m a dog.

Yeah. Sniffin a bitch’s ass.

No Face burped some laughs.

Tell one of them stories.

Later for that, Jesus said.

Nawl, tell one.

You really want to hear one?

Straight up.

Word.

All ears.

Aw ight. Why not? Once upon a time, this nigga went to this bitch’s house. Her daddy come to the do. The nigga be like, I come to see your daughter Sally. The father let him in. Sally roll into the room.

Roll? Keylo hunkered down to listen.

Yeah, in a wheelchair. See, she ain’t have no legs. Got nubs up to here. Jesus put the edges of his hands at the knees.

Damn. Head bent in listening.

Check it.

And she ain’t have no arms. Nubs. Right here. Jesus put the edge of his hand at his elbow.

Shit.

What kind of bitch …

And she had this special wheelchair and all she had to do was throw her hips like this. Jesus demonstrated.

Oh, I see. One of them. Big-booty bitch.

Mad back.

Word.

Lumpin.

So the father say, Yall gon out in the backyard and talk. So the nigga and the crippled bitch go out. So he start kickin it to her. And she get hot, but she ain’t never been fucked before. How you gon fuck a bitch with nubs? So the nigga see this clothesline stretched across the backyard. He gets an idea. He grabs two clothespins, then he takes the bitch out of the chair and pins one nub arm to the line, then pins the other nub arm to the line. He props an old wood barrel under her butt. Then he bump her from the back.

Damn!

Word!

Bumped that crippled bitch!

After he nut, he zip up his pants. Then he be like, See ya. Her father come out and find her three hours later. Pinned to the clothesline.

Laughter bounces around the court. Jesus is deep into it too, rejoicing from the gut.

And he left her like that?

Word.

Cold-blooded.

Hanging on the clothesline.

Word.

Heart.

But, nigga — Keylo shoved No Face’s head back — that wasn’t no joke.

You don’t know me from Adam. I ain’t said nothing bout no joke. I said a lie.

Bitch, stop lyin. Keylo stuck a big eyedropper into the forty and suctioned up liquid into the tube. When the dropper was full, he craned back his head, poked the dropper in his mouth, and squeezed liquid from the flooded ball at the dropper’s end.

Funny story, Freeze said. He took Jesus’s shoulders into the circle of his arm. Jesus saw that his own feet were no longer touching the ground. He bobbed in the air, bobbed in the circle of Freeze’s sweat-warm arm. He could stay here, forever, and hang. Hang. Freeze released his shoulders. Anchorless now, Jesus concentrated, concentrated so as not to float away. Freeze walked a few steps, then turned to Jesus’s trailing eyes. Keylo, he said, go to the sto fo me.

Damn, Freeze. I wanna check out another one of them jokes. Lies. Stories.

Me too, No Face said.

Gon on, Jesus. Bust another one.

Yeah. Bust another one.

Stop repeatin after me, bitch.

Keylo, go to the sto fo me. Buy me a … he nodded at Keylo’s forty.

What about them stories?

Later for that.

Come on, Freeze.

Keylo.

Damn. Keylo tail-wagged off to the store — no, walking like an antelope, lifting hoof from knee.

And buy Jesus one too.

No, thanks, Jesus said. I’m straight. He fluttered his feathers.

No Face, go with him. Make sure he don’t get lost.

Aw, Freeze. But I wanna hear—

No Face.

Damn. Hey, Keylo, wait up. No Face trotted off. Jesus watched him grow smaller and disappear.

A pigeon skimmed the earth in flight, then headed toward the sky, and the sky breathed it in.

Freeze worked his arms through his T-shirt, and covered his bare chest and back. Pulled a pack of cigarettes from his back pants pocket. Shook the pack until one cigarette eased its length, extended, like a radio antenna. Want a square?

No, Jesus said. I quit smokin.

Wish I could quit. Freeze pulled the antenna from the pack, tapped it against the back of his hand, then stuck it in his mouth. Using his thumbnail, he flamed a match. Where yo daddy?

What? Jesus said.

I said, where yo daddy?

My daddy? Jesus stood in a mass of tobacco smoke.

Yeah.

Jesus breathed in the silence. You don’t know me.

Freeze watched the lit cigarette end. Where yo daddy?

Hey, you don’t know me. Why you askin bout my daddy?

We got something to settle.

You must mean somebody else. He don’t even know you.

He stole a bird from me.

Sound strikes what skin is meant to shield. Jesus wobbles. What?

He stole a bird from me.

A trapdoor shuts inside Jesus’s chest. A bird?

Yes.

My daddy? Jesus fingers his chest, points to his heart.

Yeah. His name John, ain’t it?

Nawl.

His name ain’t John?

Yeah.

John ain’t yo father?

Nawl.

Who yo father?

Jesus looked into the sky. Thinking: I get it. No Face told you. Yall running a game. He laughed.

You think that’s funny?

Jesus drank Freeze’s milk-white eyes. No.

Ain’t John yo father? John Jones?

Yeah, he my father. So, what up?

Like I said. Freeze took a drag on the cigarette. Exhaled through his nose, dragonlike. He stole a bird from me. Light lay in four colors on his face.

You serious?

Freeze said nothing.

Jesus shook his head. Fingered the words in his mind, measured them, searched for color and sense. When did he steal it?

Freeze smoked the square down to the butt. Does it matter? He crushed the butt under his heel.

John know you?

Know me good enough to steal from me. Know me good enough to steal from me then run off and hide like a lil bitch.

Jesus let truth move inside him, let himself move around inside it.

So now you know.

Yes.

And you believe?

Yes.

Good. So then you know. Know what I need you to do. So then you know that I need you to—

I know, Jesus said. I know.

You know?

I know. And I will.

You will?

Yes. Yes I will. Yes, I’ll do it.

You can always choose—

Wait, Jesus said. He halted Freeze’s words with his palms. Pushed them back. Wait. Feet carried him away. He didn’t want to hear any more. No reason to. No reason, will, or desire. He walked, putting time and distance between himself and Freeze’s request, command, mission. Maybe Freeze did know John. Maybe. And maybe John had stolen from him. No surprise there. John was a thief. Water-slick. Easy in, easy out. And John was forever desperate, light, seeking to add some weight to his pockets. But would he accept any color or shape of pay? God marked every sparrow, Gracie said. Every sparrow. Gravity, Jesus carried the thought inside. Raised it. High. Descended down the spit-mottled steps of the subway.