Sacrilege

Chapter 14

The fall knocked the breath out of me for a moment and as I hit the ground I heard a sharp crack, accompanied by a pain in my side; I hoped it was the wooden casket I was carrying that had broken and not my ribs. As my face smacked into wet grass, my only confused thought was that Langworth must have recovered quicker than I could have imagined and had some other secret exit from the crypt that had allowed him to attack us on the way home. But the man now pinning me to the ground was too solid to be the treasurer, the arm that now tightened under my chin too meaty.

“Let’s see who we have here then, sneaking around in the dead of night,” said Tom Garth’s voice.

I tried to lift my head and protest but he was holding me too tight and when I tried to speak no sound came. I was afraid he might choke me by accident, not knowing his own strength—a fitting retribution, I could not help thinking, after what I had done to Langworth—but just as I was beginning to see flashing lights before my eyes I heard Sophia say, calmly, “Let him go.”

Tom released his grip on my neck and lifted his weight from my torso; I gulped air desperately and tried to twist my head to see what gave her the confidence to command such a large man with such apparent coolness. In the dark and the mist I could only make out that she was holding a hand out towards his throat.

“All right—put the knife away,” he grumbled, moving off me entirely.

I sat up and almost laughed. Was Sophia brandishing the little knife I had told her was good only for peeling fruit? If so, I had to admire her spirit. Presumably Tom could only feel the edge of the blade on his skin; if the light had been better, he might have seen how ineffectual her weapon would be. Quickly I checked inside my doublet to see that the casket was still safe, then struggled to my feet, drew my own knife, and held it out, at the same time lifting back my hood.

“Tom. We will not harm you if you promise the same.”

“By the cross!” He sat back on his haunches and peered through the rain at me. “Master Savolino—what in the Devil’s name are you doing? And who is this?” He gestured at Sophia, who stepped away, pulling her cloak closer around her face. Fortunately there was not light enough for him to see her clearly; he jumped to his own conclusions and gave a low laugh. “A whore, is it? Well, you would not be the first of the clergy to use them, but inside the cathedral grounds? That is bold. I fear it is my duty as gatekeeper to report that.” He paused, as if weighing up his options. “Tell you what—I might be persuaded to keep my mouth shut if she would give me a little something for my trouble …”

I sighed. “Tom, you and I must talk—”

But I was cut short by Sophia, who flew at him like a wildcat, spitting and scratching, forgetting in her fury that she was supposed to be here in secret.

“Call me a whore, would you? Call me it to my face then, coward!”

Taken by surprise, Tom raised his hands to shield himself from her flailing nails. I jumped up to try and pull her off him and in the struggle her hood fell back, just as a weak flash of lightning jagged through the clouds, illuminating her face for an instant like a figure in a stained-glass window. Tom gasped in disbelief.

“By Saint Thomas! Mistress Kingsley! But you were supposed to be gone …”

“Supposed to be?” I leaned forward, my knife closer to his face, and spoke through my teeth. “You mean you wanted her to escape?”

Tom looked up at me, his face twisted in fear.

“It wasn’t me—” he began.

“Wasn’t you? Not you who took a pair of your sister’s gloves, cut your own hand to cover them in blood, and left them where they would be found the morning after you killed Sir Edward Kingsley?”

“What proof do you have?”

“Only your mother’s word.”

“My mother lost her wits years back. All Canterbury knows it.” His voice was strained.

“Oh, I think your mother is quite clearheaded in many ways, especially when it comes to her daughter’s possessions. She would recognise those gloves in an instant. And you told the constable you did not see Mistress Kingsley leave the precincts after divine service, did you not?”

“It wasn’t me who killed him!” His voice lurched up in pitch and I hissed at him to keep quiet; we were not far from some of the canons’ residences and it would only compound the night’s misfortunes if one of them should be roused by our voices and come out to investigate. “You have to believe me.” He glanced frantically from me to Sophia, the whites of his eyes gleaming in the darkness. “I can explain.”

“Let us get out of the rain, then.” I lowered the knife cautiously but he made no threatening move. I sensed that he was more afraid of me than I of him, which I must use to my advantage for as long as I could.

“There is a lean-to just around the corner by the timber yard,” he said, more quietly. “We can talk in there.”

Keeping ourselves pressed against the stone of the cathedral, we felt our way around the jutting buttresses until we reached the shelter of a small wooden hut next to the stacks of timber. A few workmen’s tools hung on nails from the central roof beam and I moved preemptively to snatch up the axe, not wishing to leave anything to chance. Tom saw and gave a bitter laugh as he seated himself on a pile of planks.

“You think I would strike you down? I could not kill a man in cold blood, master, though I have often wished I could. I’ll tell you this much—I envy whoever did kill that bastard. May God forgive me, but if I’d been a different man, I’d have loved to hear the sound of his skull smashing open.”

“And I,” Sophia said, with feeling, and in the darkness I sensed rather than saw that they looked at each other with something like understanding.

“Why should I believe you did not? When you went to such lengths to make sure his wife would be blamed?” I kept my tone deliberately hard; though I still struggled to believe that the gatekeeper really did murder Sir Edward, I had to get at the truth with the cold detachment of an inquisitor. I could not afford to let him see that I sympathised with him. Besides, I reminded myself, he would have been willing to let Sophia burn for a murder she did not commit.

“I panicked,” he said, and his voice cracked. “When they found him, I knew I would be the first suspect. I was inside the precincts that night, and everyone knew I hated him. Not without good reason,” he added. “The constable asked me a lot of questions and I answered them honestly, but he has a way of needling people and I knew he was working up to accusing me. I was afraid I would condemn myself by mistake—I had to do something to point the finger elsewhere. Then I thought that I’d seen Mistress Kingsley earlier coming in for divine service and leaving alone. So in all the confusion I slipped away home and took our Sarah’s gloves—may she rest in peace—and, as you say, I bloodied them and left them where the constable was sure to find them first thing when he came back to search further in daylight.”

I sighed. It was hard to believe that he was not sincere.

“You didn’t care that Mistress Kingsley could have been burned alive for it?”

“But it was me that told Meg, the housekeeper, that Mistress Kingsley was under suspicion,” he protested. “I hoped that would give her the chance to escape, and so I thought it had. I supposed everyone’s problems would have been solved.”

“Forcing an innocent woman to become a fugitive with a price on her head is hardly solving her problems,” I said.

“You say that. But I know what Sir Edward Kingsley was,” Tom said, with quiet contempt. “Going on the run might be better than living with him.”

“In a sense you are not wrong,” Sophia agreed. I shot her a look to suggest she was not helping, but it was lost in the dark.

“For God’s sake, do not tell the dean, sir,” Tom said, turning to me and clutching blindly at my cloak. I could not see his expression but I heard the urgency in his words. “I cannot afford to lose this job. My mother—well, you have seen her, I suppose. She depends on me. And suspicion will fall on me doubly.” He stopped and sucked in a ragged breath, as if he were battling a sob. “I’m handy with my fists sometimes, but I could not kill a man,” he repeated quietly. “Not even him, who did so wrong by my poor sister. I no more killed him than you killed the apothecary.”

I laid a hand on his arm.

“I believe you. It seems that we must become the keepers of one another’s secrets, Tom. Listen—I am doing my utmost to find out who did kill Sir Edward by the time the assize judge arrives. If I succeed, you will be free of suspicion and so will Mistress Kingsley. In the meantime, then, you will say nothing to anyone of her presence here. Swear it.”

“On my oath,” he said solemnly. In the silence, rain dripped steadily from the eaves of the shelter.

I glanced up at Sophia, who was no more than a shadow outlined among other shadows, her eyes and teeth pale in the dark. “We should not waste time. It will be getting light soon. One last question,” I said, standing stiffly and turning back to Tom.

“Yes?”

“If you needed someone to blame for the murder, why did you not accuse Nicholas Kingsley? You had a grudge against him too, and he came to the cathedral precincts that night, so you said?”

“So he did. I tried to keep him out—he was drunk, of course—but he swore blind his father had sent for him and he must be let in. In the end I thought he would only make a fool of himself, interrupting the dean’s supper table. As it happened, the dean’s steward would not admit him and he came back to the gatehouse barely ten minutes later, raging under his breath.”

“And had his father sent for him?”

“How should I know? I doubt it. But I knew he’d have gone back to his friends at the alehouse and any number of people would see him there so it would never stick if I’d tried to say it was him. Besides”—he sucked in another great shuddering breath—“I have seen how that goes. Someone like me, up against someone like Nick Kingsley, with all his father’s powerful friends. And I wouldn’t even have the truth on my side this time. Whereas with a woman …” He left the thought unfinished.

“Lower even than a gatekeeper,” Sophia said scornfully, looking down at him from under her hood.

There was a noise; a sudden crack that jolted us all from our thoughts and made us glance around, startled, nerves bristling. It was nothing to fear; Tom had leaned too hard against a pile of logs and his weight had caused them to shift, one falling slightly against another. But the sound had reminded us of the danger of our being caught. I reached for Sophia’s arm in the dark.

“Let us leave. Tom—I rely on your silence, as you may rely on mine.”

“You have my word, Master Savolino.”

I led Sophia through the wet grass to the shelter of the wall beside the middle gate. To our right, the ink-blue of the night sky was shading to a pale violet above the rooftops in the east; the pitch-blackness of the precincts was giving way to a haze of grey shadows. We ran across the open path to Harry’s front gate, hand in hand, cloaks pulled tight over our faces and I still clutching the box inside my clothes hard to my ribs, through the curtains of drizzle until I was able to fumble open the front door and we fell damply, breathing hard, into the entrance hall and the door was closed behind us against the night. We paused there, listening for any sound or movement, but there was only the creaking of the old timbers and the patter of the rain on the glass. Sophia lifted her hood back and looked at me frankly; in the dimness I saw the gleam of her eyes and moved towards her as if by instinct. She raised a hand and laid it for a moment flat to my cheek, then she leaned closer and our mouths met again. I pulled her to me and felt the sharp edge of the casket press into my chest beneath my doublet, sending a stab of pain through my bruised ribs.

“Come,” I whispered, and led her upstairs to the room under the eaves as quietly as I could, though I feared every tread of the stairs would wake Harry and we would be obliged to sit with him and answer his questions. My blood was feverish with hunger for her now, quickened by the wordless encouragement of her apparent desire for me.

I shut the door of my room behind us and dropped my wet cloak to the floor. The wooden casket I placed carefully on the window ledge, to be examined later; it had suffered a crack when Tom Garth threw me to the ground, but appeared otherwise undamaged. If you had told me a month ago that I would have the lost book of Hermes Trismegistus in my hands and leave it aside for a woman, I would have laughed; but Sophia had an effect on me that no woman had had for years and there were some longings that no book could satisfy.

As the sky shaded slowly into the shimmering light of a wet dawn, I slipped the rough dress from her thin shoulders and laid her down on the narrow truckle bed, tracing circles over her damp skin with my tongue while she curled her fingers into my hair and arched her back like a cat in the sun, softly moaning as I moved lower, over the sharp bones of her hips and the softness of her belly and lower still. She wanted me: I felt it in the mounting tension of her muscles and the urgent way she gripped my head as my mouth matched the rhythm of her rocking motion, until eventually she subsided in a liquid cascade of snatched gasps and shuddering sighs. She reached down and pulled me to her, covering my face in kisses and whispering my name while I wrestled, impatient and clumsy, with the ties of my breeches. And then I was inside her, moving with her, looking into those wide tawny eyes that had haunted me since Oxford, hardly daring to believe that we were here, now, joined. She kept her eyes fixed on mine as I began to move faster, more deliberately, her gaze fierce and inscrutable, so that I could not tell whether she was looking at me with love or pity. Perhaps both. As my breathing grew more ragged, she seemed to awaken from her reverie and I felt her pushing me urgently away from her. It took me a moment to understand: her fear of getting with child again. I felt a brief pang of irrational, inexplicable rejection, but in the last instant I slid away from her and spent myself into the sheet beside her, my face buried in her shoulder to muffle any involuntary sounds.

For a long while we lay without speaking, side by side; her hand continued to caress my hair, but absently, and when I glanced at her face I knew she was elsewhere, far from me, her eyes fixed on the ceiling but her gaze turned inward to her own thoughts, and a strange melancholy stole over me, a bleak fear that what we had just done marked not a beginning but an ending. Though my arm remained across her body, my fingers lightly stroking patterns along the curve of her waist, I fell asleep feeling oddly alone as the pale dawn light crept across the bare plaster of the walls.