Scandal's Daughters

Chapter 10

Anthony cradled his sleeping bride in his arms as their hired hack rattled across the border into England. There was nothing left for them in Scotland.

He had never been the sort of person who could sleep in a moving carriage, but he was not in the least surprised to see his wife succumb to her exhaustion. She had slept fitfully at best, after having realized her lifelong obsession with being reunited with her father had never been anything more than an impossible dream.

As for the confession that followed… Entering the parson’s trap with the daughter of a whore was perhaps not the most ideal of circumstances, but when had Anthony ever done the ideal thing? He could scarcely hold her accountable for something that had occurred prior to her birth.

Besides, Anthony was painfully cognizant of the fact that he was no fine catch himself. He couldn’t even be caught at all, if he didn’t find a way to triumph over the debt collectors.

He had considered the situation over and over again—some might say dwelled upon the matter to the point of nausea—and had come to the same conclusion. The only honorable way out of his scrape was to earn the owed sums himself.

The issue was how to buy more time.

He still believed London the most viable city for easy employment. And the only place he could repay his debt, since Gideon’s vice parlor lay within city borders. But, given the new information about Charlotte, ’twas no wonder she had no interest in returning to a city that constantly made her feel worthless.

How could he sit behind a writing desk somewhere while his wife was suffering elsewhere?

At least they were heading south. On the move. Not just because they’d left the debt collector’s ruffians behind, but because all of England still lay ahead. London was not the only fashionable city. They could go to Bath. Perhaps there, Charlotte wouldn’t be recognized or disparaged… And perhaps there, Anthony could scare up enough blunt to save his life—and his marriage.

He caressed the back of her hand. Now was not the moment to make her promises about the future. Neither of them was in a position to consummate a marriage whose future would come to an abrupt halt in less than a fortnight. But he had meant what he said. He would fix his mess. And once he deserved her, Charlotte would be his. Completely.

His throat went dry. What if that day never happened? What if he managed to pay off his creditors and be the best man he’d ever been in his life, and it still wasn’t enough?

In his heart of hearts, he’d always dreamed his future wife would be a paragon. Not full of herself or high in the instep, but someone who was…complete without him. Someone who chose him because she wanted him, not because she was enamored by the baubles he bestowed upon her when he was flush.

Of course, beggars could not be choosers. He had no particularly redeemable qualities, which left spoiling his loved ones when his pockets were flush his only option.

So what was he meant to do with Charlotte? What could he possibly give her?

He drummed his fingers against the carriage squab in frustration. Besides having a father, the thing she wanted most was societal approbation—and he couldn’t give it to her. No one could. She would never be accepted at high society gatherings, much less be granted an Almack’s voucher to mingle with the crème de la crème.

She could probably be accepted into the societal fast set—rakes and gamblers and courtesans—but although Charlotte could move in those circles more freely, scandalous company wasn’t what she desired. The gossiped-about set wasn’t where she wished to belong, or who she wanted to be.

But she had no other choice.

He lightly stroked her forearm. Having grown up with both parents and along the fringes of the beau monde, he could not imagine what it must be like to have been born a bastard. A man in such a position could still become a dapper dandy or a famous poet or a respected officer in the army, but what was a woman to do? Especially when her face was recognizable as the very mirror of her mother, a known courtesan.

Charlotte had never had a chance.

Anthony set his jaw. He, on the other hand, did have a chance. This was his opportunity not only to make something of himself—ideally something other than a Marshalsea prisoner—and, in doing so, give Charlotte a chance at an alternate future. A better one.

Once he paid off his debt, they could go anywhere. Perhaps move to the country, as his sister had done. Close enough to London to still remain in contact with his friends and parents, but not so close to the city that Charlotte was in danger of being recognized.

A flutter of hope stirred in his belly. For the first time, it occurred to him that perhaps he might have something to offer besides money. To Charlotte, happiness stemmed from other sources. Peace. Safety. Love. He couldn’t change society to fit her dreams, but he could give her respect and worth in the sanctity of their home. Wherever that might be.

Starting here. Starting now.

He pressed his lips to her hair. Going forward, his new goal wasn’t to collect the purses of every man at the betting table. It was to be dependable. Reliable. To be a good husband and provider. To be someone even he could be proud of.

The only question was how.