So Pretty It Hurts

Chapter 1

An old geezer of a reporter I used to work with once said that I had a rotten habit of biting off my nose to spite my face. An ex-boyfriend told me the same thing. And you know what? It’s true. There’ve been more than a few times when I’ve tossed back a gift or stormed off in a huff, and on one occasion I jumped out of a car in the rain and walked home alone, ruining the hottest shoes I ever owned. But I’ve rarely regretted it. The satisfaction I’ve felt from making the big defiant gesture—and seeing the stupefied expression on the other person’s face—has generally been worth the price.

Soaked shoes are one thing, though, and a corpse is something else entirely. During a frigid week in early December, I bit off my nose to spite my face because of something the new guy in my life, Beau Regan, did. And I ended up in a big fat mess that involved all sorts of nasty things: a suspicious death, requests for kinky sex, my ass on the line at work, and a showdown with a killer who wanted to make sure I couldn’t tell what I knew. In the end I decided I’d have to behave more rationally when my knickers were in a twist. But I’m getting ahead of myself.

The trouble started the week after Thanksgiving. Beau and I had been dating exclusively for about two and a half months, seeing each other a few times a week. Over dinner that Friday night Beau announced—out of the blue—that he needed to leave the next day for Sedona, Arizona, and would spend the next eight or so days there, shooting extra footage for his new documentary film. Apparently some people who hadn’t been available before were suddenly available now, or something or other.

But Beau’s announcement had bugged me. It turned out that he’d known for over a week that he needed to go but had only shared the news at the last possible moment. Why? I’d wondered. To me Beau had always seemed slightly mysterious and elusive, and just when I’d convinced myself that this was simply a perception created by those dark Heathcliffian eyes and longish brown hair, he was telling me that he had to head off on some vague-sounding trip, suggesting it wasn’t perception after all.

I didn’t come right out and say I was annoyed, but he could tell, I’m sure, by my attitude. Of course, that wasn’t the only reason I was testy as December rolled around. I’m a true crime writer, and in addition to my part-time gig covering celebrity crime for the Manhattan-based tabloid magazine Buzz, I’d been trying to hawk my recent book, a collection of articles I’d written called Bad Men and Wicked Women. The small publisher had put practically zilch into promotion and marketing, and my book was currently something like number 29,478 on Amazon—when I had the nerve to look. Failure always turns me into a grump.

Beau called me as soon as he arrived in Sedona, and then called or texted every day after that. Things were friendly but a little clunky. The week without him seemed to drag by, and I realized how much I had come to love his company—both in bed and out. Please, I thought. Don’t tell me I’ve fallen for someone who doesn’t want to jump in with both feet just at a point when I do.

On the Thursday morning before the Sunday Beau was due back, he sent me an unexpected text: “may finish early and b bk sat. will let u know.”

The message should have warmed the cockles of my heart—and trust me, the thought of falling onto a mattress with him one night sooner than planned made my cheeks flush. And yet as I hurried toward the subway stop at Astor Place on my way to Buzz, I could feel my overall annoyance starting to swell. It was the last line that really bugged me. will let u know. So I should just hold open my Saturday night in case he made it back to town? Maybe I was wrong, but to me that sounded like a guy who didn’t like to be pinned down himself, yet wanted to be sure I was.

I was still in a pissy mood when I arrived at Buzz. The place that morning seemed surprisingly quiet. Though the final closing day at Buzz is Monday, the phones tend to ring like mad on Thursday. That’s the day the issue hits the newsstands, and Hollywood publicists love to call and scream in defense of any clients they feel we’ve maligned. Phones weren’t ringing, and that wasn’t a good sound. At Buzz, if you’re not pissing off Hollywood publicists, you’re not doing your job.

“Oh God, Bailey, are those the new Prada riding boots?” Leo asked me as I pulled out my desk chair in the large open bullpen area. Leo’s a photo editor, but there isn’t enough room for him in the overstuffed art department, so he was bumped to a workstation right behind me and my office bff, Jessie Pendergrass, a senior staff writer. Leo spends most of his day scanning through paparazzi photos on his computer for shots of celebs looking blubbery, blotto, badly dressed, or like they’ve suddenly got a bun in the oven.

“Yeah, in my dreams,” I said.

“I thought maybe you got a big royalty check and splurged,” Leo said, rubbing his hand over his shaved head.

“No check yet, but I’m sure one is due any day now,” I replied. “Apparently I just got torpedoed by Decorative Napkin Folding for Beginners on Amazon.”

“You seem grouchy,” Jessie said. She’d just set down the phone and was scrutinizing me closely with her amber-colored eyes.

“Sorry—I’m just a little frazzled. Does anyone want coffee?”

They both declined, and I headed back to the kitchenette, where I filled up my mug. There were five or six people congregated there, arguing about the ending of a new movie; most I didn’t even recognize. Not only was the staff at Buzz huge, but because of the pressure and late hours, it turned over faster than you could say “Jen’s Latest Heartache.”

When I arrived back at my desk, Jessie wheeled her chair over to me.

“Bailey, I’ve got a brilliant idea,” she said, her eyes sparkling. “I know Beau is out of town till Sunday so I bet you don’t have anything planned for the weekend. How would you like to spend a weekend with me at a gorgeous house in the country?”

“You’ve definitely got my attention,” I said, not bothering to point out that Beau might be coming back Saturday.

“Remember that record producer I told you I met a few weeks ago—Scott Cohen? He called yesterday and asked if I wanted to come to his weekend place—along with a friend if I wanted.”

“Is it in the Hamptons?”

“No, it’s north of the city someplace. We can hike if we want or just sit by the fire and drink hot toddies. There’ll even be a masseuse on hand.”

“Wow, that sounds so much better than treating all my boots with water repellent,” I said. “But if this guy is after you, why would he want me tagging along?”

“He’s invited a whole group of people—you know, a house party. It’ll actually be less awkward for me if you come. Besides,” she added, grinning, “we can take your Jeep.”

“You sure about this?”

“Yeah, it’ll be fun. Please say yes.”

“God, I’d love to,” I said. I meant it. It did sound fun. But as I smiled back at Jessie, I could sense the bite being taken out of my nose. I’d had the chance to possibly see Beau Saturday night and had chosen not to, partly to prove that I didn’t have to just sit around waiting—and that I could have mysterious plans of my own.

I worked late that night, mostly chasing down quotes for two different items I was working on. Buzz is packed each week with stories on the hapless love lives, fashion faux pas, and generally futile weight battles of the stars, but when these same stars get into any kind of legal trouble, we cover that too, and that’s where I come in. I report on any crimes they commit or are involved in on the East Coast, and I also consult on coverage we do in L.A. Many of the reporters on staff could certainly do as good a job, but I was hired because the editor in chief at the time believed having an experienced crime writer bylining those pieces would add cachet. I wasn’t sure what good it had done in that department, but my new boss, Nash Nolan, seemed happy enough.

I finally headed home just after eight, shivering most of the way. It had been unseasonably warm the last two weeks of November, but winter had finally reared its head, and temperatures had plunged to the thirties.

My apartment—a nifty one-bedroom with a terrace on Ninth and Broadway that I’d kept after my divorce—was toasty warm at least, and after stripping off my work clothes, I made a gooey cheese omelet and began to pack for the weekend. The phrase “weekend house party” conjured up an image of people in tweeds and plaids, but based on the fact that Scott was in the music business, I decided I’d better opt for tarty over tartan. I’m five-six, fairly slender, and attractive in a kind of sporty way, so tarty is a stretch for me, but I like to give it my best shot when the moment calls for it.

The phone rang just as I was tossing the last stuff into my overnight bag. It was Beau, calling from Sedona.

“Good to hear your voice,” he said.

“Ditto,” I said. Bailey, keep it light and breezy, I told myself. “How’s the weather? It’s suddenly freezing here.”

“It’s been nice during the days—mostly in the seventies—but it gets pretty cool after dark.”

“Any UFO sightings?” I asked, referencing the fact that over the years, more than a few people had claimed to see alien spaceships buzzing around the heavens above Sedona.

He laughed. “Not so far. But every time I look up at night, I half expect to see flashing lights.”

Why are you out under a night sky anyway? I wondered, staring out at the skyline of Greenwich Village. Light, Bailey, I told myself. Keep it light.

“I guess I should be on the lookout if you start creating any weird sculptures when you get back,” I told him.

“Speaking of that, did you get my text? I’m not positive yet, but I’m pretty sure I can hop on a flight early Saturday.”

“Uh, I was actually just going to text you back,” I said. “Don’t rush back just on my account. I’m going away this weekend.”

There was a pause, not interminable but long enough for me to know I’d caught him off guard.

“Where you headed?”

“Jessie asked me to tag along to some house party she was invited to—upstate. This guy who apparently has the hots for her owns a place up there. He told her she could invite a friend if she wanted, and she knew I was just hanging out this weekend. Plus it will be less awkward for her.”

I was sooo over explaining myself. I could have retiled my bathroom in less time.

“So what’s a house party anyway? I thought that’s what real estate agents gave to court prospective buyers.”

“Um, I think that’s an open house,” I said. “I guess this guy is just having a bunch of friends up—for hiking, that sort of thing.”

Again there was a pause, this one longer.

“You still there?” I asked. What did you think, Bailey, I asked myself, that he’d been abducted by invaders from the planet Abdar?

“Yup.”

“Is something the matter?”

“No. But I just can’t help wondering if your weekend excursion is some kind of payback for my being away.”

“Payback? That sounds pretty extreme.”

“That would be my thought, too.”

“Then what would possibly motivate me to do that?”

“You were ticked about my going to Arizona.”

“I wasn’t ticked about your going,” I said, trying hard to keep my voice calm. “I was just surprised because it seemed to come out of nowhere. And honestly, there’s no payback. This just seemed really fun.”

Liar, I thought.

“Okay,” he said. “Well, if you get back early enough, maybe we can get together Sunday night.”

We muttered good-byes and hung up. I ignored the twinge of regret I was feeling over going away. It was clear that something needed to be addressed between Beau and me, but I didn’t want to deal with it at the moment.

Jessie and I had vowed to leave the city before six the next night, but in the end it was closer to seven.

“So is this some big country estate we’re headed to?” I asked after we’d finally made it through the frustrating snarl of Friday-night traffic just north of Manhattan.

“I’m not sure what the house is like, but it’s gotta be pretty big—he told me we’d each have our own room.”

“That’s probably so he can sneak into yours at night.”

“I really don’t know what he’s got in mind,” Jessie said pensively. “We had this flirty lunch and then he asked me to dinner. But there were six other people out with us that night. I really hope he’s interested—because I dig him—but a little part of me is worried that he asked me to come with a friend because he needed eye candy for other guests.”

“Jeez, it’s starting to sound like the Playboy mansion.”

“No, Scott just likes having these old-fashioned kind of house parties.”

“Who else is supposed to be there?”

“Well, you’re not going to believe this. He told me late today that the main guest is Devon Barr.”

“Devon Barr, the model?”

“Yup.”

Devon Barr had been one of the most successful American models of the past two decades, and though at thirty-four or so, her career was starting to cool a little, she still was the face of several major fashion and cosmetic companies. Part of her mystique was due, some people said, to the fact that she never gave interviews.

“Wow, that should be interesting,” I said. “Though the conversation may leave something to be desired. She looks like she has the IQ of a Louboutin shoe.”

“I know, but she apparently has a killer voice and writes her own songs. Scott is producing her first album.”

“Really?” I said. “That’s fascinating. Anyone else of interest?”

“Scott says he usually likes to put together an eclectic mix, but Devon apparently insisted on bringing her own entourage. Her manager is coming, and one of her model friends. I’m just glad you could come. Beau didn’t mind, did he?”

“He didn’t sound overjoyed. But then . . . oh God, never mind.”

“Tell me,” she urged.

“I’m just feeling a little weird about his trip to Sedona.”

“What do you mean? You don’t think . . . ?”

“That he went down there to hook up with some retiree? No, I don’t get any sense he’s cheating. I just worry that he’s not—I don’t know, not ready to fully commit, I guess. I keep sensing that he talked himself into a relationship because he’s attracted to me, and likes going to bed with me.”

“Do you feel ready?”

“For a relationship, yeah. And maybe even more at some point. I’m not staring thirty-five in the face just yet so I’m okay being single. But I care more about Beau than anyone I’ve met up until now, and in the back of my head is the thought that if I were going to get married again, I’d like it to be him.”

“This all sounds like David—remember him, the guy I told you about?” Jessie said ruefully. “He seemed to love me but then finally dumped me because he said he didn’t want to make a long-term commitment to anyone. A year later he married someone else. You know how the porn industry has fluffers, women who keep the male stars hot before they perform? I felt like I’d been a husband fluffer with this guy.”

I felt myself cringing as she spoke. Was that what I was for Beau—a husband fluffer?

We took the Taconic State Parkway north and after an hour and a half, exited onto rural roads. We stopped chatting while I focused on the GPS directions. Many of the scattered houses we passed had their doors and windows and even their roofs rimmed with Christmas lights. We found Scott’s driveway and turned onto it. Suddenly we were engulfed in darkness.

“He told me the driveway’s really more of a road,” Jessie said, “a mile and a half long.”

“Hold on,” I said, as I hit the brakes. Five or six deer bounded across the road directly in front of the Jeep, their eyes unblinking in the headlights.

“Gosh, they scared the hell out of me,” Jessie said. “Do you think there’s a lot of other animals around here? Like wolves?”

“No,” I said, laughing. “There aren’t wolves in this area. Just jaguars and cougars.”

“Very funny. Now you’ve really spooked me.”

It was kind of spooky, and I was relieved when finally a few lights twinkled through the massive fir trees. And then a few seconds later there were more lights. The house looked huge, like a cruise ship steaming across a jet-black ocean.

“Wow,” Jessie exclaimed. “Big.”

“All of this could be yours,” I said, “if you play your cards right.”

As we drew closer, we saw that it wasn’t a house at all, but rather a huge gray barn—or actually two large barns positioned parallel to each other. There was a scattering of small outbuildings just beyond.

“Not what I was expecting at all,” said Jessie. “I hope we’re not bunking down with a herd of cows.”

As we stepped out of the Jeep into the crisp, clear night, a woman came up behind us, dressed in a dark barn jacket, khaki pants, and short gum-bottomed shoe boots, the kind you see in an L.L.Bean catalogue. She was fiftyish, with cropped blond-gray hair and a doughy face. She smiled at us, but there was no crinkling by the eyes. It was the kind of expression you offered when you were forced to make nice.

“Sorry we’re so late,” Jessie announced. “We got a late start from the city. I’m Jessie, by the way. And this is Bailey.”

“Not a problem,” the woman said, revealing a huge snaggletooth. “I’m Sandy, Mr. Cohen’s housekeeper. Why don’t I show you to your rooms first, and then you can join Scott. Have you eaten dinner?”

“Not unless you count a bag of tortilla chips,” Jessie said.

“Well, there’s plenty of pork ragout left over.”

After we grabbed our duffel bags from the back of the Jeep, we followed Sandy in the direction of the smaller of the two barns, which she explained contained all the bedrooms—except Mr. Cohen’s. Although we were only two hours north of the city, we might as well have been at an Adirondack logging camp. The place was ringed entirely by thick, dark woods. I glanced up. A bright white half-moon hung in the sky, surrounded by a zillion twinkling stars and the haunting film of the Milky Way.

The silence was suddenly cut by a howling from deep within the woods. Jessie nearly jumped into my arms.

“I thought you said there were no wolves around here,” she whispered anxiously, grabbing my arm.

“That’s not a wolf. It’s a coyote. They’re pretty common in these parts. But unless you’re a chicken or a Pomeranian, you don’t have any reason to worry.”

“Yeah, I guess,” she said, glancing all around us. “I grew up in Orange County, California, and I generally don’t do woods. I didn’t think it was going to be this creepy.”

We were almost at the barn, lagging a bit behind Sandy. I could see now that the two structures were connected by a simple one-story passageway, made totally of glass. And suddenly a heavyset woman in jeans and bulky sweater came barreling down that passageway, her curly black hair bouncing with each stride and her face pinched in annoyance.

“Someone’s in a hurry,” Jessie whispered.

“Maybe she didn’t like the ragout,” I said.

Sandy had reached the door to the building and turned around, her expression slightly impatient, as if we were naughty schoolgirls who’d fallen out of line. We hurried and caught up with her. We entered a foyer with a large wooden bench and brightly colored kilim rug. The walls and floors were all made of old, pumpkin-colored barn wood. On the floor above I heard a door slam. I figured the noise came from the young woman we’d spotted barreling down the passageway.

“There are a few guest rooms down here, but you’re both upstairs,” Sandy said, nodding her head toward the stairs. “I think you’ll find it nice and private.”

What was that supposed to mean? I wondered. By the hushed way she said it, you would have thought we were here to negotiate something top-secret with Scott, like a Journey reunion album. Jessie flashed me a mock grimace.

Our rooms, side by side, were extremely spacious. Mine was filled with quirky old antiques, black-and-white-checked fabric and splashes of lemon yellow. Sandy explained that if we needed anything during our stay and she wasn’t around, we should just dial extension seven on the landlines in our rooms. She added that when we were done freshening up, we should take the glass passageway to the main barn, where everyone was gathered.

I kicked off the shoes I’d been wearing in the car and tugged on a pair of gray suede boots over my jeans. I also swapped my top for a scoop-necked gray-blue sweater that matched my eyes. I’d been growing my blondish hair out for months, and it was long enough finally for me to put up on my head. I twisted it into a sloppy knot, adding a pair of dangling silver earrings. Tarty but not too tarty, I thought. Still, I felt a tiny twinge of guilt.

Jessie opened her door just as I was about to rap on it. She had changed too, into a tight, tight orange sweater that looked great with her eyes. After making our way along the glass passageway, we stepped into a warm, double-storied entrance space aglow in honey-colored light. There were old hayrack ladders and rusty farm tools mounted on the wall. Directly in front of us was a plank-wood staircase that rose to another level. Music, conversation, and the sound of clanging dishes all emanated from above.

Just as we headed over to mount the stairs, a man, dressed in black pants and a black V-neck sweater, came bounding down them. I knew it had to be Scott Cohen, and though there was a boyish quality to his face and he wore his dark hair longish, it was clear he was a good ten years older than Jessie—about forty, it looked.

“Hey, I’m so glad you finally made it,” he exclaimed.

“Hi there,” Jessie said, and accepted a kiss on the cheek. When she introduced me, Scott reached out and shook my hand, grasping it for an extra beat, like you’d expect from a politician or car salesman. His nearly coal black eyes held mine for an extra beat, too.

“You’ve got an amazing place,” Jessie said. “What were these barns doing back in the woods?”

“I actually had them transported on flatbed trucks from Vermont.”

“You didn’t shoot that moose, did you?” Jessie asked, looking up toward a huge stuffed head hanging above the double front doors.

“Yeah, right,” Scott said. “The only thing I’ve ever shot is a recording artist who didn’t go platinum. Come up and meet everyone.”

As we reached the top of the stairs, I got a better sense of the place. To the left of the landing was a great room—a combination kitchen, dining, and living area, with two couches, a bunch of chubby armchairs, a big round dining table, and another animal head mounted on the wall, this one an elk that had probably never set hoof east of the Rockies. Sandy was fussing with some things on the kitchen counter. Six other people were bunched directly behind her at a big wooden island, some standing, some sitting on barstools.

All conversation ceased as we stepped into the room. It felt as if we’d accidentally stumbled into a play midperformance and caught the actors totally by surprise.

Scott dispelled the awkwardness by quickly introducing us to everyone present: Devon Barr’s agent, Cap Darby, a square-jawed, superconfident Clive Owen type who appeared to be in his mid- to late forties; his blond wife, Whitney, who couldn’t have been more than thirty and had a rock on her left hand the size of an iPod; Devon’s booker, Christian Hayes, a slim African American with a shaved head and cropped, curly beard; a girl named Tory Hartwick with short, jet-black hair and striking hooded eyes, who clearly was Devon’s model friend; and a tall, thin rocker type named Tommy Quinn, who had one of his bare, heavily tattooed arms draped over Tory. He must have been important, because I felt Jessie press her foot into mine when Scott introduced him.

And then there was Richard Parkin, whose name I recognized instantly. He was an award-winning journalist and author, hailing from the UK, who wrote profiles for magazines like Vanity Fair and Track, the music magazine that was part of the same media company as Buzz.

“So this is our house party,” Scott said. “Devon isn’t here at the moment. She went to her room after dinner, but she’s coming back.”

I caught Whitney shooting a look at her husband Cap, though I had no clue what it meant.

“And oh, Devon’s assistant Jane is missing too,” Scott added. “She slipped out to the deck to use the telescope.”

Jane must have been the girl Jessie and I had spotted charging down the glass passageway like a bull through the streets of Pamplona. Based on the land speed at which she’d been moving and the ticked-off expression on her face, I doubted she was out there right now studying the moons of Jupiter.

“You didn’t get lost, did you?” Christian asked us. “I accidentally ended up in the town of Traugersville, population fourteen.”

“I thought you didn’t drive, Christian?” Whitney said, revealing a strong southern accent. With her long, flowing hair, translucent blue eyes, and curvy figure she was attractive enough, but it was a standard-issue look that made her indistinguishable from millions of other women with big blond hair and hard, fake tits.

“I don’t—I used a car service,” he explained. “The driver clearly hadn’t been north of Westchester in his life, and he never took the car over fifty-nine miles an hour. I could have been in Montreal in less time.”

“How about some wine?” Scott asked us, interrupting. We both accepted a glass of red.

“Scott has quite the cellar up here,” Cap announced. “If you’re a wine lover, you’re in for a treat.”

“You just have to keep putting your hand over your glass,” Whitney said. “Or he’ll top it off endlessly.”

“Actually, I’m fine with you topping mine off,” Richard said in his posh British accent. He reached out his empty glass. From the ruddiness of his face, it appeared he might have already enjoyed several. “It’s absolutely splendid—saddlebags and a strong hint of black cherries, I’d say.”

“I thought wine was always made from grapes,” Tory said.

At first I thought she was kidding. But the look of befuddlement on her face said otherwise.

“You’re not serious, are you?” Tommy asked her, feigning horror.

A door slammed downstairs at that moment, saving all of us from any explanation on Tory’s part, and then we heard the sound of someone’s long strides across the wooden planks.

“There’s Devon,” Cap said with a hint of relief. I wondered how he knew it was she and not Jane.

We all turned expectantly, listening to the clop-clop of her boots as she mounted the stairs.

She was wearing a black pea coat over her jeans, and her long, perfectly straight blond hair, parted in the middle, was fanned out around the collar. She was tall, though not quite as tall as Tory. But then she didn’t need to be. Her face was her fortune, and it was as exquisite in person as in photos: big hazel eyes, shaped like almonds, a small, perfect nose, and a ripe mouth that was always slightly and sensuously parted, as if she were on the verge of telling someone softly that she’d like to fuck his brains out.

“Come meet our new arrivals,” Scott suggested.

She glanced toward us without really taking us in. She looked bored, as if she had just arrived at a three-day conference on treasury bonds. In her right hand she was holding both a water bottle and a nearly flattened cigarette pack, and after setting down the bottle and stuffing the cigarettes into her pocket, she shrugged off her pea coat onto an armchair.

We all stared at her wide-eyed. On top of her skintight jeans she was wearing a filmy black top with a deep plunge. Each side had shifted, and her small but perfect breasts were totally exposed.