Tokyo, 11 years ago
Sally had been sitting at the bar for over an hour when she saw the bartender’s eyes go wide with fear.
Kano had arrived.
It was the same expression Sally had noticed the other night, when Kano brutalized the young couple. Now Sally sat alone on a barstool, her black skirt hiked up as far as it would go, letting the pounding bass from the speakers override her heartbeat and protect her from what was about to happen.
She felt Kano’s hand on her back.
Swallowing bile, Sally turned and smiled, nonchalantly knocking his hand aside.
“I’m working,” she said.
For an instant, Kano’s face twisted into a mask of rage, but he quickly recovered, showing Sally a smile that was half sneer, full of bravado and male posturing.
“You’re new, heh?”
Sally smiled prettily and shrugged, turning her attention back to her drink.
Kano pressed on, his tone gaining confidence.
“You must be.”
Sally nodded absently at the bartender, saying nothing. He took her empty drink and replaced it.
Kano grabbed Sally’s arm before she could raise her drink to her lips. She noticed he’d made it a point to reach across the bar and use his maimed hand, his shirtsleeve pulling back to reveal the elaborate tattoos on his arm.
“If you’re working this bar,” said Kano, his eyes flashing with broken light, “then you’re working for me.”
Sally smiled again, not flinching under the cruel squeeze of his hand. Letting her eyes move lazily across his tattoos, she looked at him coolly. Reaching out with her free hand, she put it on Kano’s chest, her fingers outstretched. She felt him jerk involuntarily from the warmth of the gesture. She laughed lightly.
“Fine,” she said, removing her hand. “But buy me a drink first.”
Kano blinked as he released her and barked out a laugh. “You have some steel in you, baita.” He gestured at her new drink. “But you already have one!”
Sally took her drink and swallowed it in one gulp, her eyes never leaving Kano’s face. As she lowered the glass to the bar, she jerked her chin at the bartender.
Kano laughed again as he threw some money on the bar. “This will be the first time I paid for a drink in this bar,” he said smugly. He smiled at the bartender as if they were best friends. “Tequila.”
Sally nodded her approval. “A man’s drink.” She raised her glass, reflecting on the advantages of arriving early. At this point the bartender knew she was drinking cranberry juice and soda water, which looked exactly like the vodka drinks so many young girls in Tokyo favored. So while she and Kano kept asking for another drink, he was getting drunk and she was getting more sober by the minute.
Three drinks later Kano asked Sally her name.
“Miko,” she said. She bit her tongue until it bled, forcing a smile.
It was her mother’s name.
The next hour lasted forever, a purgatory of flashing lights, smoke, and the incessant throbbing of the bass in her skull. When Kano finally started to slur his words and his hand slid lazily off her thigh, Sally made her move. She leaned across the gap between the stools and put her lips close to Kano’s ear. It took all her will not to scream.
She pointed toward the ladies’ room. “When I come out,” she said sweetly, “I want you to take me home with you.” She squeezed his thigh as she stood up, then ran her hand across his cheek. Kano had a drunken, lopsided grin on his face as she turned and walked briskly across the club.
Silence.
The door to the ladies’ room was padded, and suddenly Sally found herself in a cocoon, her ears ringing, the bright fluorescent lights making her blink. Walking over to the nearest sink, she looked at herself in the mirror. The short black dress, the makeup, the silver locket around her neck. The dead, flat look in her eyes.
Sally turned away suddenly, rushing to the closest stall. She dropped to her knees and retched, the drinks from the last two hours and what little food she had eaten spilling out into the bowl in a swirl of loathing and pain. Closing her eyes, she rocked back and forth on the cold tile.
“Not much longer,” she whispered. “You can do this. You must do this.”
Coughing, she went back to the sink and washed up, forcing herself to look in the mirror one more time. Her eyes seemed to absorb all the light in the room, green dark seas with no bottom and no shore.
Kano was drunk but not drunk enough. The ride in the limo was the hardest thing Sally had ever done. She needed him sober enough to keep him interested, but that came at a price. She found the strength to smile once or twice, playfully batting his hands away, letting her fingers wrap around his leg or arm. But the ride took too long, and Sally felt part of her soul break away with every passing minute. She closed her eyes as his hands slid across her legs, bit her cheek as his coarse lips drooled their way down her neck. By the time the car stopped, the only sensation Sally had left was the taste of her own blood.
Kano was talking to her, telling her to get out of the car, but Sally couldn’t hear the words, the music from the club still with her, filling her body with a rhythmic drumbeat that kept her heart from stopping.
Sally had been to Kano’s apartment building before, when he was out making rounds. Thirty stories tall, it looked like a sewing needle thrust into the sky, its tip obscured by low clouds mixed with smog. The limo pulled into an underground garage and let them off at an elevator, then pulled away down a ramp. Her arm around Kano’s waist, Sally stepped into the elevator and held her breath.
Kano leaned close, his breath foul with cigarettes and drink.
“I’ve got something to show you upstairs.”
Sally smiled and let her eyes move down to his belt.
“I’ll bet.”
Kano blinked and gave a short laugh, his reaction time a few seconds off. “That, too,” he promised lasciviously, leaning closer. “But something else.”
“I can’t wait,” replied Sally. It was the first time all night she had told the truth.
The apartment was huge, the kitchen bigger than the room Sally shared with Jun back at school. Black leather and chrome, halogen lights. A large modern painting of a samurai warrior filled one wall, slashes of color and abstract shapes surrounding a classic image of a lone warrior with drawn sword. A large television and stereo dominated the opposite wall. The far wall was made entirely of glass.
Neo-masculine yakuza-chic, Sally thought to herself.
“It suits you,” she said, smiling.
Kano grunted absently, then led her through the open kitchen and across the living room toward the glass wall.
“Now I’ll show you something,” he said, pulling open a sliding glass door.
Sally stepped onto a curved balcony that wrapped around the apartment. By Tokyo standards, the entire place was huge, but the balcony alone was larger than many families’ apartments. There could be no doubt that Kano’s uncle paid the rent.
Kano stepped over to the railing and gestured down, reaching out with his other hand to pull Sally closer.
“Take a look,” he said, obviously pleased with himself. “Not bad, huh?”
Looking straight ahead, Sally could see the soft glow of other skyscrapers penetrating the clouds, fixed constellations for the rich and privileged to gaze upon. Looking down, a dark ring encircled the building, a wide swath of landscaping that looked black in the night. But just beyond were the streets of Tokyo, a maze of headlights, neon, and reflections in the clouds that looked like rivers of light. Sally gasped despite herself, thinking of pictures she had seen of volcanoes, rivers of molten lava coursing down the mountainside.
As she stared at the shifting lights, Sally sensed Kano move closer, his hand grabbing her ass and pressing her against the railing. “Turn around,” he commanded. “Now I’ve got something else to show you, bitch.”
Taking a deep breath, Sally felt the fires from below seeping into her. She turned slowly, her smile warm and inviting. “Now that’s no way to talk,” she chided. “Come here, I want to show you something first.” Grabbing his belt with her right hand, Sally pulled Kano closer, her left hand moving up toward her breast.
Kano’s eyes were glazed with lust and alcohol, and the smell of tequila and sweat oozed from his pores. As he pressed closer, Sally could feel him stir beneath her right hand.
Kano licked his lips, his eyes following Sally’s left hand as it swept across her body and stopped at the locket around her neck. As he watched, she deftly opened it and spread the two halves apart, revealing a photograph on each side.
“I wanted to show these to you,” said Sally. The warmth was gone from her voice, taken by the wind, burning somewhere in the streets below.
Kano’s eyes blinked as he tried to focus on the two images. A man on the left and a woman on the right, the man smiling broadly, his American features strong and friendly. The woman was Japanese and looked more serene but no less friendly, her long black hair shining even in the small photograph. Kano’s eyes narrowed as if in sudden recognition or fear. His body stiffened as he started to say something, but Sally cut him off.
“These are my parents,” she said simply. “And you killed them.”
Kano looked up at Sally and then again at the pictures, his eyes narrowing. Before he could react fully, Sally pulled at his belt, holding him close.
If you want to kill this man, you will first have to get close to him. Closer than you would like. Master Xan’s words echoed in her thoughts as Sally spoke again.
“I wanted you to see them again,” she said, her eyes locked on Kano’s. “Before you died.”
Kano’s face twisted as he tried to jerk away from Sally, his right hand up as he prepared to strike.
Kano was a bully, used to men and women shrinking from a blow before it landed. But Sally stepped forward as he stepped back, her right hand still grabbing his belt. Before he could start his punch, she slid her hand under his belt and into his pants.
As Kano clenched his fist, Sally squeezed.
Kano buckled as Sally dug her nails deep into his scrotum. He screamed as she twisted her wrist, first to the right and then the left.
Kicking wildly, he caught Sally in the right knee, causing her to lose her grip momentarily, which gave him an opening. Kano desperately backhanded her across the face, catching her in the nose and snapping her head back. As Sally fell, Kano dropped to his knees, gasping.
Sally caught herself on the railing. She tasted blood, which flowed freely from her nose, and her eyes were watering. The lights from below were a jumbled blur, and as she blinked she saw stars. She heard Kano’s feet scraping on the cement behind her, the sound punctuated by the noise of metal against metal.
Sally looked down and saw the locket clanging gently against the metal railing just as she felt Kano’s hand grab her hair from behind. Blinking the tears from her eyes, Sally stole a glance at the two smiling faces around her neck as Kano pulled her head back.
When Kano tensed his arm to bash her head against the railing, Sally closed her eyes and relaxed.
Kano’s arm thrust forward and Sally’s foot thrust down, her heel crashing onto his instep and shattering the small bones there. Kano bellowed in rage as Sally spun like a dancer to face him, her hand already a blur. She bent her fingers and struck Kano’s nose with the heel of her hand.
Blood sprayed across the balcony as Kano screamed, both hands clutching his ruined face. He fell on his back, head hitting the cement hard as Sally jumped lightly and landed next to him, her right foot coming down to press against his neck, holding him.
Kano coughed and spat, his hands flopping around the floor as if he were being electrocuted. Sally held him in place for several minutes before his eyes focused again.
“You fucking bitch!” His tongue was thick with blood, his voice ragged. Sally stood calmly over him, not even hearing the words. The music from the club had returned, coursing through her veins and pounding in her ears, turning everything else to white noise. As Kano’s lips moved, she pressed down slowly with her foot.
“You can’t kill me,” Kano coughed defiantly. “You know who my uncle is?” Kano said his uncle’s name as if it were a magic spell. “You’re fucking dead. A fucking dead whore, that’s all you are.”
Sally remained silent, her attention turning again to the locket around her neck. She looked at the gentle smiles and loving eyes, then stared silently at the blood on her hands. She adjusted her balance and eased the pressure of her foot.
Kano assumed the mention of his uncle’s name had the desired effect, and he spoke with renewed bravado.
“Now let me up and maybe I won’t have you killed,” he demanded.
Sally absently took her foot off his neck.
Kano sat up and spat. “You want to know something?” he taunted, a bloody sneer on his face. “I probably enjoyed killing your fucking parents.”
Sally’s eyes refocused. The music from the club faded and died, swept away by the night air. She could hear herself breathing. The patter of Kano’s blood as it sluiced past his ears onto the cement. Her own blood as it dripped off her chin onto her dress. The susurrus of traffic thirty stories below.
“Now help me up,” said Kano, extending his hand with the missing finger.
Sally looked at his hand and then at her own, the blood on them turning black as it dried. With her left hand, she shut the locket without looking at the pictures, hearing the soft click as the latch closed. Extending her right, she bent down and grabbed Kano’s hand in her own and pulled him to his feet.
Kano started to say something, a smug expression forming on his battered face, but Sally kept pulling him forward, accelerating his upward momentum. Bending her legs, she grabbed Kano’s belt with her left hand as she pulled his arm forward with her right, turning her body as she lifted. Before he could get his footing, Kano was already hurtling forward. Sally pushed up against his stomach and dropped her right shoulder, rocketing Kano over her head.
Kano didn’t even start to scream until he cleared the balcony, a high-pitched wail of terror cut short when he hit a flagpole ten stories down.
As Sally watched, Kano’s body spun through the clouds toward the burning lights below. A dead leaf taken by the wind. A damned soul on its way to hell.
She couldn’t hear the body hit the park below, but she watched until it disappeared into the ring of blackness. Then she stood, immobile, at the railing. It was several long minutes before she even blinked.
Holding the locket in one hand, Sally closed her eyes and willed herself to cry, but no tears came. She thought of her parents and the fading memories of a five-year-old, the life she never had and never would. She thought of Kano and realized she felt absolutely no remorse. No guilt. Nothing.
She thought of Jun and the long trip home.
Home.
Sally took one last look at the lights below, then turned and left, never looking back.