You’ve opened the book at this page. You’ve turned over two or three pages, glancing idly at the title, the name of the author, the publisher, and perhaps you’ve looked for the phrase in quotation marks that’s nearly always to be found at the beginning of novels because it looks well and the author covers himself to a certain extent by referring to someone more important than he is. In this case the phrase might have been: ‘I am one of you, a grain, one of you … Shining … Vibrating … Burning …’ I was in the Bibliothèque Nationale one day and a woman of about fifty with a rabbit’s-fur hat on came up to the table where I was sitting, held her hand out shyly, and said, ‘I’ m Maria Michal-owicz … Perhaps … These poems …’ They were very good poems, and if I’d quoted anything at all I’d have been glad to quote a line from one of them.
But to continue: you’ve opened the book. You bought it in a bookshop, or someone gave it to you as a present, perhaps a birthday present. Why this book rather than another? There are so many novels in the bookshops, so many love-stories, detective-stories, adventures, thrillers. There are so many intriguing titles, so many books that are all the rage, with pictures and conversation and psychology on every page. Sometimes they have such lovely titles—A Scent of Pines, Dum-dum Symphony, Say it with Prunes! The Praying Mantis—such lovely titles, and the names of strange, mysterious cities: Manila, Hongkong, Arequipa, Tokyo, Reykjavik, Vladivostock, and so on. And such beautiful dust-jackets: a pretty girl without any clothes on holding a revolver, or stretching out her arms to embrace you. There are so many interesting books, so much crime and violence and exoticism and eroticism. So why this book? But of course there’s always art, literature, the books you can leave lying about on your bedside table and not be ashamed of; there’s always culture. All that’s too complicated to talk about, and too dangerous as well, perhaps … Anyway, there you are with this book open in front of you, about twelve inches from your face. You’ve already flicked through the pages, glancing at a line here and there to see what it’s all about, or in the hope of finding a spicy bit. Then you probably decided to read it; that’s what people generally do with books. You made yourself as comfortable as possible and opened it. If you bought it at a railway station along with two or three newspapers, you probably gave a thought while you were choosing it to the people who’d be sitting opposite you in the compartment. It’s a shield you hold in front of you to ward off the gossip and curiosity of your neighbours. The jolting of the train makes the lines jump up and down, so it’s difficult to read. The monotonous sound of the wheels on the rails gradually penetrates and anaesthetizes you. You won’t get far. Soon you’ll shut your eyes and try to go to sleep. Or you’ll lay the book aside for your magazine, and re-read the story in pictures of the latest plane crash, or about a war in some country somewhere with an unpronounceable name. But perhaps you’re not on a train. Perhaps you’re in the passenger-lounge of an airport and have got to wait there all night for a connection. You bought the book at a kiosk and then went and sat down on the cushions of an excessively deep armchair. You’ve lit a cigarette and begun to read, while the maddening voice of the automatic girl echoes all over the airport: ‘Flight SAS 612 for Frankfurt, immediate boarding gate number 19. Vol SAS 612 pour Franc-fort, départ immédiat porte numéro 19’. Everything sparkles in the bald light falling relentlessly from the flat ceilings and reflected back from plastic, glass and metal surfaces. The hours are long and empty; unreal. Here the book is no longer just a shield. It’s also a weapon, a revolver with which you could shoot at all these spotless windows, all these bustling, distant silhouettes.
But perhaps you aren’t travelling. In that case you’re just sitting at home in your chair with a glass of something in your hand and your slippers on. You read without haste, just skipping one or two lines occasionally, rarely a whole page. You picked up two or three books at once, selecting this one at the last minute because it happened to be on top. Unless you’re on your bed. Lots of people like to read lying down. The only thing is if you stay too long in one position, leaning on your right elbow, say, you soon get cramp. But you can read in any position, even kneeling down or standing on one foot. There’s no compulsory attitude for cultivating the mind.
Or you can read on the beach. You put on dark glasses because of the sun and stretch out face downwards on the sand or the pebbles. When it gets too hot you go into the sea for a dip. In that way you can start reading again without realizing you’ve read that part before, which is never a bad thing when it comes to literature. The book is there, like an object in the midst of life, no more readable and no more lasting than everything else around you. A woman in a bikini walks by; you look at her. Then you turn back to the written word, and it’s as if the woman in the bikini had really walked right through the story. You have the word ‘table’, or ‘mirror’, but it might just as well have been ‘cloud’ or ‘tanker’. It’s precisely that which is interesting in a book — that which is noted in an infinite variety of ways in the one possible way. But what does it matter when and where you read these lines? What does it matter why you’re reading, even? It is this reason or that, and it might have been anything. Chance with its million cog-wheels never ceases its wearying grind. What does it matter that there was one to write and another to read? In the last resort, in the very last resort, they are one and the same, and they’ve always known it.