The Captive of Kensington Palace

Chapter IV VICTORIA’S VOW

So much was happening and it was infuriating to be only half aware of it. They would insist on calling her a child. There she was in her nursery, never alone, even sleeping in Mamma’s room and having Lehzen sit with her until Mamma came to bed, growing up rapidly and knowing things were happening, startling things, exciting things, and yet not being told.

Her only companion of her own age was Victoire Conroy, except when she went to Aunt Adelaide’s parties; and she missed almost all of those because they were at Bushy where something disgraceful was going on – or had gone on. Victoria could not believe that Aunt Adelaide had ever behaved disgracefully in her life, although she was doing something at Bushy of which Mamma did not approve.

First her brother Charles had displeased everybody by marrying Maria Klebelsberg which was apparently not very suitable, but because Charles was the Prince of Leiningen, and the ruler now that his father was dead – and he had died long ago when Charles was young, for how could Mamma have married the Duke of Kent if he had not? – no one could forbid him. So Charles was one who had married whom he wished.

After his marriage he had visited Feodora in her husband’s castle which sounded frightening but which Feodora was now beginning to love. He was very happy, wrote Feodora, and they had talked of their dear little sister and wished she was with them. Feodora’s secret was out. She was going to have a baby.

That was very exciting. A baby! It would be like a doll … only a living one. And Victoria would be the child’s aunt. How very strange to be an aunt!

When she went to Claremont she told Louisa Lewis all about it and they laughed together and Louisa called her Aunt Victoria. Then she was sad talking of how excited the Princess Charlotte had been when she knew she was going to have a child and how the months had led to that great tragedy … the greatest of Louisa’s life.

Uncle Leopold talked of it too and they wept together. It was his greatest tragedy; but it was very enjoyable weeping with Uncle Leopold over Charlotte. He said his dear little Victoria was his great consolation and it delighted him that she was so tender-hearted.

So waiting for Feodora’s baby was a happy time – particularly at Claremont where she and Louisa and Uncle Leopold could indulge in such tearful memories of Charlotte.

And in due course Feodora’s baby was born – a little boy who was named Charles Louis William Leopold.

‘He is named after you, dearest Uncle,’ cried Victoria. ‘That makes him doubly dear to me.’

Leopold grudgingly admitted this and was glad it endeared the child to Victoria; but it was clear that he thought Leopold should have been the child’s first name.

It was wonderful receiving letters from Feodora. They were all about the baby now. And Victoria thought it would be pleasant to send the child the mug and porringer which she had herself used as a baby.

Feodora was delighted. Her little Charles could not have had a more delightful gift, she wrote; and she was sure that when he was old enough to understand he would love his Aunt Victoria for sending it.

It was very pleasant to be an aunt. She wondered whether in the circumstances she was too old to play with dolls. She asked Lehzen this and Lehzen, rather reluctantly, agreed that this might be the case.

Victoria sat at the schoolroom table. It was time for the history lesson and Baroness Lehzen was ready to begin. The Rev. George Davys had prepared the lesson as he usually did, for it was he who decided what she should be taught; but he had left the Palace and it was Lehzen’s task to follow his instructions as far as teaching was concerned.

History! She wished it was music or dancing or riding. She smiled secretly, thinking of how alarmed her attendants were when she rode with them. She was so daring, they said; they were always terrified that she would break into a gallop and take a toss. As if she would! She was an expert rider.

‘Now,’ said Lehzen, ‘shall we begin?’

She passed the book to Victoria. It was Howlett’s Tables and contained the genealogical trees of the royal family of England. She had seen it many times.

But as Victoria opened the book a piece of paper fell out of it and on this was a further genealogical tree. She looked at it cursorily and then saw her own name. Alexandrina Victoria, the only child of Edward of Kent. She stared at it; her name was in big black letters. The implication was clear. The King’s only daughter Charlotte had died, her baby with her; Uncle Frederick Duke of York, was dead without heirs; the heir to the throne was William, Duke of Clarence, and Aunt Adelaide would be his Queen. They had no living children, although some had been born to them. Victoria had seen the lovely little statue which Aunt Adelaide kept and wept over. Victoria’s own father was dead and he had only one child – Victoria. That was why her name was in big black letters. There was Uncle William … and after him Victoria.

She looked up and found Lehzen’s eyes upon her.

‘I have not seen this paper before.’

‘No, but it is time you realised the significance of it.’

‘It means that if Uncle William died I should be the Queen.’

Lehzen nodded solemnly.

‘I knew that I was in the line of succession,’ said Victoria gravely, ‘but I did not realise until now how likely it is that I may be the Queen.’

Lehzen did not speak but continued to gaze solemnly at the child.

Then Victoria burst into tears; she was not sure why. Her feelings were prompted by apprehension, and elation, fear yet pride.

Now she knew why she was never allowed to be alone, why the rest of the family frolicked at Aunt Adelaide’s parties and she was not allowed to go. She was important … more so than the other children … because now it seemed almost certain that one day she might be a Queen.

Lehzen allowed her to weep and after a while she dried her eyes.

‘I understand now,’ she said, ‘why you have always urged me to study so hard. I am not so free as my cousins. I must learn history and English and Latin. Oh, I understand so much now.’ She put her hand into Lehzen’s. ‘I will be good,’ she said, as though she were taking an oath of allegiance.

‘My dearest Princess,’ said Lehzen with emotion, ‘when the day comes you will be a great Queen.’

Nothing could be quite the same after that. She no longer played with the dolls. She kept them, though, for she could not bear to part with them; but she stopped her childish conversations with them. She applied herself to her lessons; she was less inclined to indulge in ‘storms’; all the time she was haunted by a crown and sceptre.

She came to the conclusion that one was much happier if one were not so near the throne – like the two Georges, Cumberland and Cambridge. And yet sometimes it was very exciting to contemplate the future. She thought of Uncle King – so old and ill and who would really be rather repulsive if he were not so charming – and she thought: One is always aware that he is the King. He has royal dignity; he has never lost his regality. That was how it must be with Victoria.

‘Queen Victoria.’ She whispered the words to herself sometimes.

Then she would tell herself: But if Aunt Adelaide had a child – and why should she not because she so loved children and longed for one – Victoria would have to stand back. It was not likely but it was not impossible.

She began to dream of her accession to the throne, of the people lining the streets to see her ride to her coronation. She would look after the dear people. She would be a great Queen.

There was one thing of which she was absolutely sure: I will be good.

All through June the King’s death was awaited. He had clung to life for so long; he had been on the point of death for years and always had rallied; but there could be no doubt now.

He lay in his overheated room unconscious of what went on around him; he consumed quantities of cherry brandy; he was almost blind; he suffered from delusions and believed he had won the Battle of Waterloo. Then he would have moments of lucidity when he was his old witty charming self.

But by the beginning of June it was generally believed that the end was near.

Lady Conyngham went through drawers and cupboards; she wanted to miss nothing and now was the last chance to reap the harvest. Once the King was dead her day would be over. She loaded her bags with treasures which she would swear the King had given her, and prepared herself for hasty departure at the appropriate moment.

Cumberland waited. He now had to look to William, for William had managed so far to elude the strait-jacket – thanks to that wise little wife of his. William would be proclaimed King on George’s death and Cumberland was determined to see that he was disqualified. He was sure that would not be difficult. William had shown a most unbecoming impatience and he was over excitable.

Cumberland would get his way, he was sure of it.

But he must be prepared to clear the way to the throne.

So while the old King lay on his deathbed his end was eagerly awaited by those who gazed enviously at his crown.

Victoria in Kensington Palace was told that Uncle King was very ill and there would almost certainly soon be another Uncle King – William instead of George. And Uncle William was very old and often ill and then … Victoria.

And on June 25th King George IV died and the Duke of Clarence became William IV.