The morning looked a lot warmer than it was, and Keith hunched his shoulders against the chill wind blowing down Elizabeth Street as he headed up toward Kenmare, which would run into Delancey at the corner of Bowery. Though he was only a couple of blocks from the collection of massive gray stone buildings that housed the city's government, he might as well have disappeared into another world. Elizabeth Street was lined on both sides with buildings of no more than four or five stories, with businesses operating on the sidewalk level and laundry hanging from lines strung between fire escapes on the floors above. Half the shops were grocery stores, though the Chinese fruits and vegetables they displayed were mostly unrecognizable to him. He had to thread his way through a milling throng of people who neither smiled nor nodded, let alone made any move to give way when there wasn't enough room for two people to pass. Once, a horn blasted as he stepped into the street to avoid a pack of hard-looking teenage boys with rings in their ears, lips, and noses, only to have one of those he was avoiding grab his arm and snatch him back onto the sidewalk an instant before the cab would have run him down.
"Watch it, man-you wanna get yourself killed?" the kid asked.
"Thanks," Keith said, but found himself talking to no one; the kid and his friends were already several yards away, and it was as if he no longer existed. Turning away from them, he bumped into a burly man slinging a barrel of garbage into a truck. As oblivious to him as the kids now were, the garbage man hardly glanced at him, going on with his work as if nothing had happened.
By the middle of the next block, Keith found himself doing his best to ignore the people around him, concentrating instead on the sidewalk directly ahead. Twice he made the mistake of waiting for a light to turn green at an intersection, and was nearly trampled by the crowd that ignored it. By the third block he discovered the trick everyone else already seemed to know-if you don't look at the cabs, they won't hit you. In fact, the cabbies didn't even bother to honk or curse at him, but let him cross with the same impunity they granted the city's natives.
At the corner of Kenmare, he turned right toward Bowery and Delancey-the intersection where the accident had taken place. He wasn't sure what he'd been expecting, but the vague sense of letdown-almost of disappointment-he felt at the corner's normality told him he must have been expecting something.
The bustling Asian community of Elizabeth Street suddenly gave way to restaurant equipment stores, except for one restaurant that seemed to be left over from an era when the neighborhood had been mostly Italian. Window after window displayed commercial mixers and kitchen equipment, bar glasses and furniture, and more kinds of lighting fixtures than Keith had even thought existed. It was almost devoid of people on the sidewalk, and there were no apartments above the businesses.
No windows from which some early rising resident might have seen what had happened yesterday morning.
It was just another impersonal city intersection, the cars heading east into Delancey and toward the Williamsburg Bridge waiting impatiently as the streams of traffic on Bowery flowed north and south.
No sign of the accident at all, except for the boarded-up windows of the restaurant supply house the van had careened into after the car struck it.
No sign that someone had died here only a little more than twenty-four hours ago.
This morning, with the sun shining incongruously on the spot where the black van had burned, it seemed almost impossible that it could have happened, and he stood for a moment on the southeast corner, trying to picture the scene from early yesterday morning. The van would have been coming from the west, heading toward the bridge. The car that hit it must have been going north on Bowery, and very fast-Keith had a pretty good idea how heavy a Ford van was, but could only guess how much force it would take to smash in the door of a reinforced van and knock it all the way across the street and into the building's windows. After it hit the van, the car's momentum would have carried it farther north, though the deflection of the crash should also have sent it skidding eastward.
He crossed the street, and twenty yards to the north found a wall that looked as if a car might have rubbed against it, leaving flecks of paint on the deeply gouged surface. His fingers unconsciously tracing the marks the careening car had left, he looked back toward where the van had burned.
"Man, it was somethin‘," a slurring voice said.
Startled, Keith looked down to see a crumpled figure covered with enough ragged and filthy clothing that he was almost invisible, curled in the doorway of an empty store. He was peering blearily up at Keith through eyes so bloodshot their color was indistinguishable, and under the layer of grime that stained his skin, a vast network of ruined veins and scabrous sores spread over his features.
"Shoulda seen it, man-looked just like the fires of hell."
Keith's pulse quickened and he squatted down. "You were here yesterday morning?" he asked. "When the van burned?"
The man's lips twisted in a lopsided grimace, revealing the stumps of half a dozen broken teeth. "Where else am I gonna be?" His rheumy eyes fixed on Keith. "You got a couple'a bucks? I ain't ate in a while."
On any other day Keith would have walked away from the man, probably not even looked at him if he could have avoided it. In Bridgehampton, the man couldn't have stayed on the streets more than a few minutes before the police force-if you could really call Bill Chapin and his three deputies a force-would have hustled him onto a bus with a one-way ticket back to Manhattan. Certainly, he wouldn't have been allowed to roam the streets long enough for any of the town's wealthier citizens to have their weekend spoiled by stumbling across him.
But this wasn't an ordinary day, and Keith wasn't in the familiar confines of Bridgehampton, and instead of quickly standing up and walking away, he pulled his wallet out of his hip pocket.
It flipped open the same way it always did: to Jeff's graduation photo, taken almost a year ago.
Keith's stomach tightened as he gazed at the photograph. Taking out a five-dollar bill, he turned the wallet toward the man leaning against the building. "Did you see this person?" he asked. "Yesterday morning?"
The drunk peered at the photo. "Nah," he mumbled. "Who's that?"
"My son," Keith said. "He was-" He fell abruptly silent and flipped the wallet closed as the surrealism of the entire scene suddenly closed in on him. How had this happened? How could he explain to this man-this man whose own life had devolved down to sprawling in a doorway at ten o'clock in the morning-what he was doing here? Why would the man even listen, let alone care?
What was he even doing here?
Grasping at straws, just like Mary had said.
The drunk, his eyes glued to the five-dollar bill, said, "Onliest guy I saw was the one from the van."
Keith's pulse quickened. "The driver?"
The man shrugged. "Nah-who cares about him?" He frowned, then reached tentatively toward Keith's wallet. "Lemme see that pitcher again."
Keith reopened the wallet, but kept it just beyond the man's reach. The man leaned forward, squinting, and Keith winced as his breath-a combination of stale wine and tobacco- threatened to overwhelm him.
"I dunno," the man finally said. Keith moved the five dollar bill closer. "Maybe that coulda been him," the drunk went on. "But maybe not." Keith let him have the five. "They was over there-" He gestured vaguely in the direction of the fire hydrant. "-an‘ I was sittin' right here. An‘ I didn't get a real good look before they went down in the subway."
"The subway?" Keith echoed. "Who went into the subway?"
The man sighed as if explaining something to a child who wasn't paying proper attention. "I told you. The guy Scratch took outta the van." Something across the street seemed to catch the drunk's eye, and he struggled to his feet. "Gotta git to gittin‘," he muttered, but Keith grabbed his arm as he started away.
"Scratch? Who's Scratch?"
The man's eyes widened, then darted once more across the street. "I dunno," he mumbled. "I dunno what you're talkin‘ about." Pulling his arm loose from Keith's grip, he started shambling down the street, one hand clutching at the collar of his filthy jacket while the other hand, which held the five-dollar bill, was plunged deep into his pocket. As he shuffled toward the corner, Keith scanned the street to see what had spooked the bum.
All he saw were three homeless people-a woman and two men-moving along the sidewalk, the woman pushing a shopping cart that seemed to be stuffed with nothing more than a bundle of rags. The little group, making their way slowly along the sidewalk with their heads down, looked far more pitiable than frightening. Keith shook his head to rid himself of the pathetic image, and also because of a twinge of guilt that he was going to do nothing to ease their plight.
The subway.
The man had said "Scratch" had taken someone from the van-someone who might have been Jeff?-to the subway.
At the corner he saw the sign, and the flight of stairs leading down into the subterranean station.
He started toward it.
Al Kelly glanced back over his shoulder. The man who'd given him the five dollars was headed the other way, but across the street, Louise and Harry were still coming. Al didn't know the guy with them, but it didn't matter-he looked like trouble. Looked like he didn't belong on the surface at all, in fact. Al shuddered, just thinking about the way some people lived. Okay, so he curled up in a doorway every now and then, or slept in the park over on Chrystie Street, at least when the weather was nice. But when it was bad, he slept indoors- went to one of the shelters, even if he did have to listen to some preaching or say he was going to try to clean up and find a job. But at least he still lived like a human being instead of some kind of rodent sneaking around in the sewers.
Of course, Louise had told him it wasn't that bad, not if you knew where to go, but he didn't have any desire at all to find out if she was telling the truth. No matter what happened- no matter how bad things got-he was going to stay on the surface.
He glanced over his shoulder again. Louise and Harry and the other guy had crossed the street now, and he was pretty sure he knew exactly what they wanted.
The five bucks the tourist had given him.
Shit!
He should've been more careful, should've palmed the bill, or at least made sure no one was looking when he took it-the last thing you wanted was money in your pocket.
He turned onto Rivington Street, cut diagonally across, then ducked into Freeman Alley and headed toward the jog halfway up it. Maybe Louise and Harry wouldn't spot him, but even if they did, he might find a place to stash the money, at least until he could lose them and their friend. He quickened his pace, but the blister on the sore on his right foot was hurting real bad today, and he couldn't move quite fast enough. He was just coming up to the jog when Harry's hand closed on his shoulder and turned him around.
"Hey, Al-whatcha doin‘?"
Al's eyes darted from Harry to the other man, then back to Harry. "Nothin‘. Just lookin' for something to eat."
"Why don't ya buy something?" the other man asked. "You got the money, don't you?"
"I ain't got nothing," Al protested, but Harry's hand tightened on his shoulder.
"We saw you, Al," Harry said. "We saw you talkin‘ to that guy, and we saw him give you the money. So what were you talkin' about, Al?"
Al Kelly sighed heavily-no point trying to pretend he didn't have the money. They'd just go through his pockets, and probably beat him up for making them look for it. Pulling the five out, he handed it to Harry. "Okay, so you got it." He started to pull away, but the second man blocked his way.
"Harry asked you a question, Al. Ain't you gonna answer it?"
Al shrugged. "He was just askin‘ about somethin' I saw yesterday, that's all."
The man's eyes narrowed. "So what did you tell him?"
Al shrugged. "Nothin‘ much. Just about the guy goin' into the subway."
Harry's grip on Al's shoulder tightened, and the other man reached into his pocket. When his hand emerged a moment later, Al saw the blade of a knife.
"What did you want to do that for, Al?" Harry asked, sounding almost sad.
"What's the big deal?" Al protested. "He wasn't a cop-he was just some guy lookin‘ for his kid. I-"
But before he could say anything else, he felt a strange sensation in his belly, like somebody had punched him. He looked down, and sure enough-the other guy's fist was right up against his belly. But where was the knife?
The man jerked his arm and fist upward then, and Al Kelly knew where the knife was. It was deep in his gut, and now the blade was moving up, slashing through his flesh and organs.
A guttural sound bubbling up from his throat, Al tried to pull away, but it was far too late.
Harry held him upright as the knife slashed through his lungs and its point pierced his heart. Then, as the other man pulled the knife free of Al Kelly's lifeless body, Harry lowered it gently to the ground and propped it against a door.
A door that was painted a shade of red that almost matched the blood oozing from the wounds in Al Kelly's body.
Slipping the five-dollar bill into his own pocket, Harry and the other man quickly went back to the street where Louise was waiting for them.
Anyone looking into the alley would see nothing more than Al Kelly's feet, and assume he was just another drunk sleeping it off in solitude.
That's what they would have thought, unless they noticed he was sitting in a pool of his own blood.
Keith took the stairs down to the subway station two at a time, fishing in his pocket for money. He had no idea how much a subway token cost now-it had been twenty years since the last time he'd ridden one. He glanced around for the token booth but saw instead several machines that looked like some kind of ATM. Frowning, he went over to a machine, read the directions, pressed some buttons, then put five dollars in the slot. A few seconds later a plastic card popped out.
With the card in hand, he moved toward the turnstiles, then stopped.
What did he think he might find, out on the platform?
Did he believe Jeff might be down there waiting for him?
If it had even been Jeff that the old drunk on the sidewalk had seen. Chances are the man just made up the story, wanting the five dollars he'd been waving in front of him like a fly above a trout.
But the bum had seen someone getting out of the back of the van. And not just getting out, either-the drunk had said: "The guy Scratch took outta the van."
Not "got" out, or "let" out. "Took" out.
But after the fire, there'd been someone in the van- someone who burned to death.
Someone they'd told him was Jeff.
Or he was wrong, and the drunk was either confused or making up a story to get the money.
It all came back to the body in the Medical Examiner's office. If he was right, and the body wasn't Jeff's, then maybe the drunk was right, too. Maybe someone had let Jeff out of the van before it burned. But he had to know-had to know with absolute certainty whether the body was Jeff's or not. And now he realized there was a way-it had been staring him in the face all the time.
If they said the body was Jeff's, they would have to release it to him. He was Jeff's father, wasn't he? So when they were done with the autopsy, done with whatever examinations they were performing, they would release the body to him.
And then he could have his own tests done.
DNA tests.
Wheeling around, he went back up the stairs almost as fast as he'd gone down them, yelled at a cab that had stopped for the light at Bowery, and five minutes later was once more in the Medical Examiner's office.
"I want to claim a body," he told the woman at the reception counter. "My son's body."
Not so much as a flicker of sympathy-or even concern- passed over the woman's face. Instead she simply pulled out a form and pushed it across the counter to him.
Keith filled it out, turned it around, and pushed it back.
The woman glanced down at it, then looked up again, frowning. "You here for the Converse case?" she asked. "Jeffrey Converse?"
Keith nodded. "Is there a problem? I just want to arrange to have his body transferred to a funeral home whenever your office is done."
The woman turned to a computer terminal, tapped a few keys, and her frown deepened. "I'm afraid he's not here anymore."
"Not here?" Keith repeated, his head suddenly swimming. What was going on? How could the body not be here? But the woman on the other side of the counter was already telling him.
"It was released yesterday afternoon," she said.
"Released?" Keith echoed. "What are you talking about, released?"
The woman's eyes never left the computer terminal. "To a Mary Converse."
Keith's eyes narrowed angrily. "How could you do that? I'm his father, for Christ sake. How come nobody called me?"
The woman behind the counter shrugged helplessly. "Mrs. Converse was listed as his next of kin in all our records, sir. Either her, or a Keith Converse." She glanced at him almost disinterestedly. "I guess that would be you?"
"You guess right," Keith growled. "And you better get whoever authorized this down here right now." The woman's expression hardened, and Keith realized his mistake. "Look," he added, trying to mollify her. "I didn't really mean it the way it sounded. But he was my son! It just seems like-"
The woman softened slightly. "I'm sorry," she said, "but all the procedures were followed. If you like, I can tell you where the body was sent." Before Keith could answer, her efficient fingers tapped at the keyboard once more. "Ah, here it is." She copied down the address on a card and pushed it across the counter. "Vogler's," she said. "They're up on Sixth Street, I think. They picked up the body at-let me see-yes, here it is. Five twenty-three." She smiled brightly, as if having come up with the precise minute at which the body had left the Medical Examiner's should somehow mollify him.
Keith, though, was already out the door, and as soon as he was back on the sidewalk, he punched in Mary's number.
"What the hell are you doing?" he demanded. "You want to tell me what the hell is going on?"
Mary, understanding what must have happened, sighed heavily. "I should have called you, I suppose, but I just didn't want to get into another argument. And knowing how you feel-what you think-" She fell silent for a moment, then went on. "I decided to take care of it myself." Her voice took on the faintly superior tone that he knew meant she was about to wrap her religion around herself as a protective, and utterly impenetrable, shield. "He was my son, and no matter what he did, I have an obligation to him. There's going to be a memorial mass at St. Barnabas next week."
Keith frowned. Memorial mass? What was she talking about? If she was sure it was Jeff who had died, wasn't she going to have a funeral? But before he could ask the question, she answered it.
"I decided a funeral would just be too hard"-too hard for everyone. And now that he's gone…"
Keith's anger smoldered as her voice trailed off. But even though she wouldn't do it herself, he had no trouble finishing her thought: now that he's gone, I don't have to deal with him anymore. "Where's the body?" he demanded. "Is it still at this Vogler place?"
There was another silence, then she said, "There isn't any body, Keith," her voice breaking. "I-I had him cremated. After what happened, I just couldn't stand the thought of- well-" There was a short silence before she concluded, "It just seemed like the best thing to do, that's all."
But Keith was no longer listening.
Cremated.
The body-whoever it was-was gone, and gone with it was any possibility of proving whether it had been Jeff.
So all he had left were the words of the drunk.
And a subway station.
Wondering if he shouldn't go back home and just try to do as Mary wanted-try to accept what had happened-he started back toward the garage where he'd parked the car. But instead of going into the garage, he kept on walking.
Kept walking until he was back at the subway station on Delancey Street.