I was sweating like a pig as I trudged up the dusty path under the mid-afternoon sun. I panted hard, each breath pulling in the foul smell of human waste, sweetened occasionally by the aroma of stale food or alcohol. In England I would be described as tall, dark and thin. Here, clambering up this hill of dirt and slime, I felt like a big, white, fat, rich man.
We had left Luís’s car and driver well behind to begin the ascent of the hill. Most of the favelas are on hills, land too steep to build real houses. Makeshift dwellings crowded together on either side of the path. They were constructed from all kinds of different materials, although brick and plywood seemed to predominate. Small holes in the walls served for windows, and occasionally I heard a mysterious rustle of movement from the darkness within. Washing hanging from window ledges added splashes of colour to the red-brick or grey-plastered walls. There were children everywhere, most of the boys wearing nothing but shorts. One group was playing with a hoop; another was kicking a football, a difficult business on this slope. A two-year-old staggered in front of us crying, his hair a shock of yellow. A black woman trotted after him and picked him up.
We passed a small row of stalls selling vegetables and fruit. Behind one of them, a nut-brown man sported a yellow T-shirt proclaiming in English, Who dies with the most toys wins. Where the hell did he get that, I wondered.
A group of older kids eyed us with cold, proud eyes as we climbed past. They were passing round a bag: each one breathed deeply from it with an air of solemn concentration.
‘Are you sure it’s not dangerous here?’ I asked.
‘No,’ said Isabel, puffing a few steps ahead.
‘So it is dangerous?’
‘Yes.’
‘Oh.’
It hadn’t rained for a couple of days, but every now and then the ground underfoot changed from dust to mud. An open sewer ran along the side of the path. I tried not to think what I was stepping in.
Eventually we came to a small plateau, which supported a tiny white makeshift church, and a larger rectangular structure, decorated with brightly coloured murals. I turned and paused for breath. Beneath me was one of the most spectacular views I had ever seen. The white buildings of the city snaked between green-clad hills down to the sea glistening in the distance. I looked for the statue of Christ, visible from almost anywhere in Rio, but it was lost in a cloud that clung to the mountains behind.
‘You would think someone would pay a lot for this location,’ I said.
‘Believe me, you pay to live here. And with more than just cash.’
We approached the entrance of the building, stepping carefully through a small but well-kept garden. The splashes of red, blue, yellow and white were a welcome relief from the reddish-brown dirt.
The door opened, and a woman rushed out, hugging Isabel. There was a family resemblance, although Cordelia was heavier, older and tougher. Her face was lined, marks of both compassion and strength.
We shook hands.
‘Cordelia, this is a colleague of mine, Nick Elliot,’ Isabel said in English. ‘I’ve brought him along to show him what you do here. You don’t mind, do you?’
‘Not at all,’ said Cordelia, with a warm smile. ‘The more people who see, the better.’
Isabel glanced towards Cordelia’s stomach, and asked her something in Portuguese. Cordelia’s smile widened and Isabel gave a cry and flung her arms round her sister’s neck. They chatted excitedly for a couple of minutes, and then turned to me, both beaming.
‘I’m sorry about that, Nick,’ said Isabel.
‘That’s OK. I think I got the general idea,’ I said, smiling myself. It was impossible not to be infected with their excitement. I nodded to Cordelia. ‘Congratulations.’
‘Thank you,’ she said. ‘So has Isabel told you what we do here?’ Her English was slow and precise, her accent much more pronounced than her sister’s.
‘Not really. Something about running a shelter for street children?’
‘That’s right. It’s a place for them to come to get a proper meal, to talk to someone, to feel that they belong somewhere.’
‘Do they stay the night?’
‘We only have room for a few. Those children who are genuinely afraid for their lives.’
‘Who are they afraid of?’
‘The police, mostly. Or the death squads. Groups of men who promise the shopkeepers they will keep the children off the streets. They beat them up or kill them.’ Cordelia said this without emotion.
‘Why? What have they done?’
‘All kinds of things. Stealing, mostly. Although it doesn’t even have to be that. A nine-year-old boy called Patrício used to come here. Last month he was killed, strangled. His body was found on the beach with a note: “I killed you because you didn’t go to school and had no future.” ’
I recoiled. I looked closely at Cordelia’s face. I could hardly believe what she was saying. In a way I didn’t want to believe her. I looked for signs of exaggeration. But her face was blank. She was stating fact.
‘How do they get away with it? Don’t the police do anything?’
‘It’s the police who do most of the killing. Either in uniform or out of it.’
‘But what about ordinary people? How do they put up with it?’
‘They ignore it. They pretend it doesn’t happen. Or they even praise the police for clearing up the streets.’
I grimaced. ‘I can’t believe it.’
She shrugged. ‘Do you want to see some of the children?’
She led us into the building. It was dark, cool and clean, after the chaotic dust and heat of the favela. We walked along a long corridor, dodging children of all shapes and sizes. Paintings in bright unsteady colours covered the walls. We entered a kind of classroom where a number of children were playing, talking, or just sitting silently, staring.
‘Don’t these children have parents?’ I asked.
‘Many don’t know their fathers. They might have a dozen brothers and sisters who all live together in one of those shacks down there, in one dark room. They’re beaten and abused by stepfathers. Often the mothers spend their days in a drunken stupor. For these kids life on the street is better. They go down into the city during the day to work or beg or steal, and in the evening they stay down there if they can, or come up here.’
We came to another room where a group of boys were talking to a teacher. I wasn’t sure if it was a lesson, or just a conversation. One kid, about twelve, saw me.
‘Hey, meester,’ he said. ‘You got a dollar?’
I looked quickly at Cordelia, who gave a tiny shake of her head. ‘No, sorry,’ I said.
‘What your name?’
The boy had a big smile, but his eyes were hard. They rested on me for a couple of seconds, and then darted about the room, as if he was expecting danger to appear at any moment from a window or a corner. Sores ran up the side of his left leg. His chin was lifted aggressively towards me.
‘Nick,’ I replied. ‘What’s yours?’
‘Euclides. You have a gun, meester?’
‘No.’
‘I have a gun,’ and with that he burst into a cackle of laughter. The other kids joined in.
We left the room. ‘Was that true?’ I asked Cordelia.
‘We don’t allow guns or knives here. Euclides is hiding here, he says the police are going to kill him. He says he stole a chicken. But now we don’t think that’s true. Suzane, there, thinks that he might have shot someone, for money.’
‘A twelve-year-old hit-man?’
‘That’s right.’
‘So what are you going to do?’
‘We’ll keep him here. These children need to know that we will shelter them whatever they have done, otherwise they won’t trust us. Anyway, the police will get him one day. I’d like to pretend that these children are all angels, but they are not. What we are trying to do here is break a circle of brutality.’
Cordelia sighed, for the first time letting the emotion show. ‘Do you know what Euclides wants to be when he grows up?’
I shook my head.
‘A policeman.’
By the time we reached the car, I was hot, sweaty, dirty and tired. I was also profoundly dispirited. I felt sick.
‘You know your favela deal isn’t going to change that,’ I said. ‘A few roads and a lick of paint won’t help those kids.’
Isabel sighed. ‘I know. But it’s a start. And we have to start somewhere.’ She looked back up the hillside through the smoked windows of the car. ‘Deep inside the soul of this country, there is a disease. It’s some kind of brutality. It’s like a virus. It replicates itself through generations, from child to drug dealer to policeman to child. Cordelia deals with its symptoms. I’d like to think that something like the Favela Bairro project deals with its causes. But after seeing kids like Euclides I just feel like giving up. Sometimes I wonder why I shouldn’t just ignore the problem like everyone else. But we have to try. We absolutely have to try.’
I recalled the tough little boy with the big smile, and tried to imagine what adulthood would hold for him. If he ever made it that far.
‘Euclides is a funny name for a kid, isn’t it, anyway?’
‘Brazilians can be very imaginative in naming their children,’ Isabel replied, ‘especially in the favelas. Cordelia looks after a skinny five-year-old called Marcos Aurélio.’
I smiled briefly at this, but only briefly. The favela had depressed and angered me. How could something like that exist in a supposedly civilized country like Brazil? How could so many fabulously wealthy people live so close to such poverty? You couldn’t really blame the Brazilians — indeed many, like Cordelia and Isabel, were doing their best. Yet I was still angry with them, and angry with myself as well for accepting what I saw around me. But what could I do? What could anyone do? I longed for the simple answers of my more naïve past.
We drove on out of the favela, and into a green suburb of white houses hiding behind high walls and electronically laden iron gates.
‘I admire your sister,’ I said.
‘I admire her. And I love her. But I think she’s stupid. Stupid!’
I glanced over to Isabel. Her cheeks were flushed. ‘I know she’s doing good, a lot of good. But she’s going to end up dead. God, I hope she gives it up when she has the baby.’
‘Do you think one of the kids will kill her?’
‘No, not them. She’s a sitting target to be kidnapped. That’s a popular sport here in Rio. And you heard all that stuff about the police and the death squads. How do you think they feel about their victims escaping? Cordelia’s had death threats. They’ve tried to burn down the shelter.’
‘But she won’t give up,’ I said. I’d seen the determination in Cordelia’s eyes.
‘No,’ said Isabel. ‘She says that they wouldn’t dare do anything to her. Because of who our father is, and the high media profile she has, it would be counterproductive for the death squads to do anything. It would start a public outcry against them.’
‘Do you think she’s right?’
A tear glistened in the corner of Isabel’s eye. ‘I pray she is. But one day some off-duty policeman is going to decide that enough is enough.’
‘Can’t your father stop her?’
‘No one can stop her. Not him, not her husband. Don’t get me wrong. If she wasn’t my sister, I’d think she was doing a tremendous thing. But she is my sister...’ Isabel rubbed her eye.
‘I think I would be very proud of her if she were mine,’ I said carefully.
Isabel glanced at me for a moment, and gave me a small smile.
‘Um, Isabel?’
‘Yes?’
‘Would you have dinner with me tonight?’