The Stars My Destination ( Tiger! Tiger! )

CHAPTER SEVEN

THE SATURN WEEKENDER was built like a pleasure yacht; it was ample for four, spacious for two, but not spacious enough for Foyle and Jiz McQueei~ Foyle slept in the main cabin; Jiz kept to herself in the stateroom.

On the seventh day out, Jisbella spoke to Foyle for the second time: «Let’s get those bandages off, Ghoul.»

Foyle left the galley where he was sullenly heating coffee, and kicked back to the bathroom. He floated in after Jisbella and wedged himself into the alcove before the washbasin mirror. Jisbella braced herself on the basin, opened an ether capsule and began soaking and stripping the bandage off with hard, hating .hands. The strips of gauze peeled slowly. Foyle was in agony of suspense.

«D'you think Baker did the job?» he asked. No answer.

«Could he have missed anywhere?» The stripping continued.

«It stopped hurting two days ago.» No answer.

«For God's sake, Jiz! Is it still war between us?»

Jisbella's hands stopped. She looked at Foyle's bandaged face with hatred. «What do you think?»

«I asked you.»

«The answer is yes.» «Why?»

«You'll never understand.»

«Make me understand.» «Shut up.»

«If it's war, why'd you come with me?»

«To get what's coming to Sam and me.» «Money?»

«Shut up.»

«You didn't have to. You could have trusted me.»

«Trusted you? You?» Jisbella laughed without mirth and recommenced the peeling. Foyle struck her hands away.

«I'll do it myself.»

She lashed him across his bandaged face. «You'll do what I tell you. Be still, Ghoul!»

She continued unwinding the bandage. A strip came away revealing Foyle's eyes. They stared at Jisbella, dark and brooding. The eyelids were clean; the bridge of the nose was clean. A strip came away from Foyle's chin. It was blue-black. Foyle, watching intently in the mirror, gasped.

«He missed the chin!» he exclaimed. «Baker goofed…”

«Shut up,» Jiz answered shortly. «That's beard.»

The innermost strips came away quickly, revealing cheeks, mouth, and brow. The brow was clean. The cheeks under the eyes were clean. The rest was covered with a blue-black seven day beard.

«Shave,» Jiz commanded.

Foyle ran water, soaked his face, rubbed in shave ointment, and washed the beard off. Then he leaned close to the mirror and inspected himself, Unaware that Jisbella's head was close to his as she too stared into the mirror. Not a mark of tattooing remained. Both sighed.

«It's clean,» Foyle said. «Clean. He did the job.» Suddenly he leaned further forward and inspected himself more closely. His face looked new to him, as new as it looked to Jisbella. «I'm changed. I don't remember looking like this. Did he do surgery on me too?»

«No,» Jisbella said. «What's inside you changed it. That's the ghoul you're seeing, along with the liar and the cheat.»

«For God's sake! Lay off. Let me alone!»

«Ghoul,» Jisbella repeated, staring at Foyle's face with glowing eyes. «Liar. Cheat.»

He took her shoulders and shoved her out into the companionway. She went sailing down into the main lounge, caught a guide bar and spun herself around. «Ghoul!» she cried. «Liar! Cheat! Ghoul! Lecher! Beast!»

Foyle pursued her, seized her again and shook her violently. Her red hair burst out of the clip that gathered it at the nape of her neck and floated out like a mermaid's tresses. The burning expression on her face transformed Foyle's anger into passion. He enveloped her and buried his new face in her breast.

«Lecher,» Jiz murmured. «Animal . . .»

«Oh, Jiz . .

«The light,» Jisbella whispered. Foyle reached out blindly toward the wall switches and pressed buttons, and the Saturn Weekender drove on toward the asteroids with darkened portholes.

They floated together in the cabin, drowsing, murmuring, touching tenderly for hours.

«Poor Gully,» Jisbella whispered. «Poor darling Gully . . .»

«Not poor,» he said. «Rich . . . soon.»

«Yes, rich and empty. You've got nothing inside you, Gully dear . Nothing but hatred and revenge.»

«It's enough.»

«Enough for now. But later?»

«Later? That depends.»

«It depends on your inside, Gully; what you get hold of.»

«No. My future depends on what I get rid of.»

«Gully. . . why did you hold out on me in Gouffre Martel? Why didn't you tell me you knew there was a fortune aboard 'Nomad'?»

«I couldn't.»

«Didn't you trust me?»

«It wasn't that. I couldn't help myself. That's what's inside me . . .what I have to get rid of.»

«Control again, eh Gully? You're driven.»

«Yes, I'm driven. I can't learn control, Jiz. I want to, but I can't.»

«Do you try?»

«I do. God knows, I do. But then something happens, and…”

«And then you pounce like a tiger.»

«If I could carry you in my pocket, Jiz . . . to warn me . . . stick a pin in me…”

«Nobody can do it for you, Gully. You have to learn yourself.»

He digested that for a long moment. Then he spoke hesitantly: «Jiz . about the money . . . ?»

«To hell' with the money.» «Can I hold you to that?» «Oh, Gully.»

«Not that I. . . that I'm trying to hold out on you. If it wasn't for 'Vorga,' I'd give you all you wanted. All! I'll give you every cent left over when I'm finished. But I'm scared, Jiz. 'Vorga' is tough . . . what with Presteign and Dagenham and that lawyer, Sheffield. I've got to hold on to every cent, Jiz. I'm afraid if I let you take one credit, that could make the difference between 'Vorga' and I.»

«Me.» He waited. «Well?»

«You're all possessed,» she said wearily. «Not just a part of you, but all of you.»

«Yes, Gully. All of you. It's just your skin making love to me. The rest is feeding on 'Vorga.'»

At that moment the radar alarm in the forward control cabin burst upon them, unwelcome and warning.

«Destination zero,» Foyle muttered, no longer relaxed, once more possessed. He shot forward into the control cabin.

So he returned to the freak planetoid in the asteroid belt between Mars and Jupiter, the Sargasso planet manufactured of rock and wreckage and the spoils of space disaster salvaged by The Scientific People. He returned to the home of Joseph and his People who had tattooed NOMAD across his face and scientifically mated him to the girl named Moira.

Foyle overran the asteroid with the sudden fury of a Vandal raid. He came blasting out of space, braked with a spume of flame from the forward jets, and kicked the Weekender into a tight spin around the junkheap. They whirled around, passing the blackened ports, the big hatch from which Joseph and his Scientific People emerged to collect the drifting debris of space, the new crater Foyle had torn out of the side of the asteroid in his first plunge back to Terra. They whipped past the giant patchwork windows of the asteroid greenhouse and saw hundreds of faces peering out at them, tiny white dots mottled with tattooing.

«So I didn't murder them,» Foyle grunted. «They've pulled back into the asteroid . . . Probably living deep inside while they get the rest repaired.»

«Will you help them, Gully?»

«Why?»

«You did the damage.»

«To hell with them. I've got my own problems. But it's a relief. They won't be bothering us.»

He circled the asteroid once more and brought the Weekender down in the mouth of the new crater.

«We'll work from here,» he said. «Get into a suit, Jiz. Let's go! Let's go!»

He drove her, mad with impatience; he drove himself. They corked up in their spacesuits, left the Weekender, and went sprawling through the debris in the crater into the bleak bowels of the asteroid. It was like squirming through the crawling tunnels of giant worm-holes. Foyle switched on his micro-wave suit set and spoke to Jiz.

«Be easy to get lost in here. Stay with me. Stay close.»

«Where are we going, Gully?»

«After 'Nomad.' I remember they were cementing her into the asteroid when I left. Don't remember where. Have to find her.»

The passages were airless, and their progress was soundless, but the vibrations carried through metal and rock. They paused once for breath alongside the pitted hull of an ancient warship. As they leaned against it they felt the vibrations of signals from within, a rhythmic knocking.

Foyle smiled grimly. «That's Joseph and The Scientific People inside,» he said. «Requesting a few words. I'll give 'em an evasive answer.» He pounded twice on the hull. «And now a personal message for my wife.» His face darkened. He smote the hull angrily and turned away. «Come on. Let's go.»

But as they continued the search, the signals followed them. It became apparent that the outer periphery of the asteroid had been abandoned; the tribe had withdrawn to the center. Then, far down a shaft wrought of beaten aluminum, a hatch opened, light blazed forth, and Joseph appeared in an ancient spacesuit fashioned of glass cloth. He stood in the clumsy sack, his devil face staring, his hands clutched in supplication, his devil mouth making motions.

Foyle stared at the old man, took a step toward him, and then stopped, fists clenched, throat working as fury arose within him. And Jisabella, looking at Foyle, cried out in horror. The old tattooing had returned to his face, blood red against the pallor of the skin, scarlet instead of black, truly a tiger mask in color as well as design.

«Gully!» she cried. «My God! Your face!»

Foyle ignored her and stood glaring at Joseph while the old man made beseeching gestures, motioned to them to enter the interior of the asteroid, and then disappeared. Only then did Foyle turn to Jisbella and ask: «What? What did you say?»

Through the clear globe of the helmet she could see his face distinctly. And as the rage within Foyle died away, Jisbella saw the blood-red tattooing fade and disappear.

«Did you see that joker?» Foyle demanded. «That was Joseph. Did you see him begging and pleading after what he did to me . . . ? What did you say?»

«Your face, Gully. I know what's happened to your face.»

«What are you talking about?»

«You wanted something that would control you, Gully. Well, you've got it. Your face. It…” Jisbella began to laugh hysterically. «You'll have to learn control now, Gully. You'll never be able to give way to emotion . .any emotion . . .because…”

But he was staring past her and suddenly he shot up the aluminum shaft with a yell. He jerked to a stop before an open door and began to whoop in triumph. The door opened into a tool locker, four by four by nine. There were shelves in the locker and a jumble of old provisions and discarded containers. It was Foyle's coffin aboard the «Nomad.»

Joseph and his people had succeeded in sealing the wreck into their asteroid before the holocaust of Foyle's escape had rendered further work impossible. The interior of the ship was virtually untouched. Foyle took Jisbella's arm and dragged her on a quick tour of the ship and finally to the purser's locker where Foyle tore at the windrows of wreckage and debris until he disclosed a massive steel face, blank and impenetrable.

«We've got a choice,» he panted. «Either we tear the safe out of the hull and carry it back to Terra where we can work on it, or we open it here. I vote for here. Maybe Dagenham was lying. All depends on what tools Sam has in the Weekender anyway. Come back to the ship, Jiz.»

He never noticed her silence and preoccupation until they were back aboard the Weekender and he had finished his urgent search for tools.

«Nothing!» he exclaimed impatiently. «There isn't a hammer or a drill aboard. Nothing but gadgets for opening bottles and rations.»

Jisbella didn't answer. She never took her eyes off his face.

«Why are you staring at me like that?» Foyle demanded.

«I'm fascinated,» Jisbella answered slowly.

«By what?»

«I'm going to show you something, Gully.»

«What?»

«How much I despise you.»

Jisbella slapped him thrice. Stung by the blows, Foyle started up furiously. Jisbella picked up a hand mirror and held it before him.

«Look at yourself, Gully,» she said quietly. «Look at your face.»

He looked. He saw the old tattoo marks flaming blood-red under the skin, turning his face into a scarlet and white tiger mask. He was so chilled by the appalling spectacle that his rage died at once, and simultaneously the mask disappeared.

«My God . . .» he whispered. «Oh my God . . .»

«I had to make you lose your temper to show you,» Jisbella said.

«What's it mean, Jiz? Did Baker goof the job?»

«I don't think so. I think you've got scars under the skin, Gully. . . from the original tattooing and then from the bleaching. Needle scars. They don't show normally, but they do show, blood red, when your emotions take over and your heart begins pumping blood. . . when you're furious or frightened or passionate or possessed . . . Do you understand?»

He shook his head, still staring at his face, touching it in bewilderment. «You said you wished you could carry me in your pocket to stick pins in you when you lose control. You've got something better than that, Gully, or worse, poor darling. You've got your face.»

«No!» he said. «No!»

«You can't ever lose control, Gully. You'll never be able to drink too much, eat too much, love too much, hate too much . . . You'll have to hold yourself with an iron grip.»

«No!» he insisted desperately. «It can be fixed. Baker can do it, or somebody else. I can't walk around afraid to feel anything because it'll turn me into a freak!»

«I don't think this can be fixed, Gully.»

«Skin-graft…”

«No. The scars are too deep for graft. You'll never get rid of this stigmata, Gully. You'll have to learn to live with it.»

Foyle flung the mirror from him in sudden rage, and again the blood-red mask flared up under his skin. He lunged out of the main cabin to the main hatch where he pulled his spacesuit down and began to squirm into it.

«Gully! Where are you going? What are you going to do?»

«Get tools,» he shouted. «Tools for the safe.»

«Where?»

«In the asteroid. They've got dozens of warehouses stuffed with tools from wrecked ships. There have to be drills there, everything I need. Don't come with me. There may be trouble. How is my God damned face now? Showing it? By Christ, I hope there is trouble!»

He corked his suit and went into the asteroid. He found a hatch separating the habited core from the outer void. He banged on the door. He waited and banged again and continued the imperious summons until at last the hatch was opened. Arms reached out and yanked him in, and the hatch was closed behind him. It had no air lock.

He blinked in the light and scowled at Joseph and his innocent people gathering before him, their faces hideously decorated. And he knew that his own face must be flaming red and white for he saw Joseph start, and he saw the devil mouth shape the syllables: NOMAD.

Foyle strode through the crowd, scattering them brutally. He smashed Joseph with a backhand blow from his mailed fist. He searched through the inhabited corridors, recognizing them dimly, and he came at last to the chamber, half natural cave, half antique hull, where the tools were stored.

He rooted and ferreted, gathering up drills, diamond bits, acids, thermites, crystallants, dynamite jellies, fuses. In the gently revolving asteroid the gross weight of the equipment was reduced to less than a hundred pounds. He lumped it into a mass, roughly bound it together with cable, and started out of the store-cave.

Joseph and his Scientific People were waiting for him, like fleas waiting for a wolf. They darted at him and he battered through them, harried, delighted, savage. The armor of his spacesuit protected him from their attacks and he went down the passages searching for a hatch that would lead out into the void.

Jisbella's voice came to him, tinny on the earphones and agitated: «Gully, can you hear me? This is Jiz. Gully, listen to me.»

«Go ahead.»

«Another ship came up two minutes ago. It's drifting on the other side of the asteroid.»

«What!»

«It's marked with yellow and black colors, like a hornet.»

«Dagenham's colors!»

«Then we've been followed.»

«What else? Dagenham's probably had a fix on me ever since we busted out of Gouffre Martel. I was a fool not to think of it. We've got to work fast, Jiz. Cork up in a suit and meet me aboard 'Nomad.' The purser's room. Go, girl.»

«But Gully . . .»

«Sign off. They may be monitoring our waveband. Go!»

He drove through the asteroid, reached a barrel hatch, broke through the guard before it, smashed it open and went into the void of the outer passages. The Scientific People were too desperate getting the hatch closed to stop him. But he knew they would follow him; they were raging.

He hauled the bulk of his equipment through twists and turns to the wreck of the «Nomad.» Jisbella was waiting for him in the purser's room. She made a move to turn on her micro-wave set and Foyle stopped her. He placed his helmet against hers and shouted: «No shortwave. They'll be monitoring and they'll locate us by D/F. You can hear me like this, can't you?»

She nodded.

«All right. We've got maybe an hour before Dagenham locates us. We've got maybe an hour before Joseph and his mob come after us. We're in a hell of a jam. We've got to work fast.»

She nodded again.

«No time to open the safe and transport the bullion.»

«If it's there.»

«Dagenham's here, isn't he? That's proof it's there. We'll have to cut the whole safe out of the 'Nomad' and get it into the Weekender. Then we blast.»

«But…”

«Just listen to me and do what I say. Go back to the Weekender. Empty it out. Jettison everything we don't need . . . all supplies except emergency rations.»

«Why?»

«Because I don't know how many tons this safe weighs, and the ship may not be able to handle it when we come back to gravity. We've got to make allowances in advance. It'll mean a tough trip back but it's worth it. Strip the ship. Fast! Go, girl. Go!»

He pushed her away and without another glance in her direction, attacked the safe. It was built into the structural steel of the hull, a massive steel ball some four feet in diameter. It was welded to the strakes and ribs of the «Nomad» at twelve different spots. Foyle attacked each weld in turn with acids, drills, thermite, and refrigerants. He was operating on the theory of structural strain . . . to heat, freeze, and etch the steel until its crystalline structure was distorted and its physical strength destroyed. He was fatiguing the metal.

Jisbella returned and he realized that forty-five minutes had passed. He was dripping and shaking but the globe of the safe hung free of the hull with a dozen rough knobs protruding from its surface. Foyle motioned urgently to Jisbella and she strained her weight against the safe with him. They could not budge its mass together. As they sank back in exhaustion and despair, a quick shadow eclipsed the sunlight pouring through the rents in the «Nomad» hull. They stared up. A spaceship was circling the asteroid less than a quarter of a mile off.

Foyle placed his helmet against Jisbella's. «Dagenham,» he gasped. «Looking for us. Probably got a crew down here combing for us too. Soon as they talk to Joseph they'll be here.»

«Oh Gully.”

«We've still got a chance. Maybe they won't spot Sam's Weekender until they've made a couple of revolutions. It's hidden in that crater. Maybe we can get the safe aboard in the meantime.»

«How, Gully?»

«I don't know, damn it! I don't know.» He pounded his fists together in frustration. «I'm finished.»

«Couldn't we blast it out?»

«Blast . . . ? What, bombs instead of brains? Is this Mental McQueen speaking?»

«Listen. Blast it with something explosive. That would act like a rocket jet . . . give it a thrust.»

«Yes, I've got that. But then what? How do we get it into the ship, girl? Can't keep blasting. Haven't got time.»

«No, we bring the ship to the safe.»

«What?»

«Blast the safe straight out into space. Then bring the ship around and let the safe sail right into the main hatch. Like catching a ball in your hat. See?»

He saw. «By God, Jiz, we can do it.» Foyle leaped to the pile of equipment and began sorting out sticks of dynamite gelatine, fuses and caps.

«We'll have to use the short-wave. One of us stays with the safe; one of us pilots the ship. Man with the safe talks the man with the ship into position. Right?»

«Right. You'd better pilot, Gully. I'll do the talking.»

He nodded, fixing explosive to the face of the safe, attaching caps and fuses. Then he placed his helmet against hers. «Vacuum fuses, Jiz. Timed for two minutes. When I give the word by short-wave, just pull off the fuse i heads and get the hell out of the way. Right?»

«Right.»

«Stay with the safe. Once you've talked it into the ship, come right after it. Don't wait for anything. It's going to be close.»

He thumped her shoulder and returned to the Weekender. He left the outer hatch open, and the inner door of the airlock as well. The ship's air emptied out immediately. Airless and stripped by Jisbella, it looked dismal and forlorn.

Foyle went directly to the controls, sat down and switched on his microwave set. «Stand by,» he muttered. «I'm coming out now.»

He ignited the jets, blew the laterals for three seconds and then the forwards. The Weekender lifted easily, shaking debris from her back and sides like a whale surfacing. As she slid up and back, Foyle called: «Dynamite, Jiz! Now!»

There was no blast; there was no flash. A new crater opened in the asteroid below him and a flower of rubble sprang upward, rapidly outdistancing a dull steel ball that followed leisurely, turning in a weary spin.

«Ease off.» Jisbella's voice came cold and competent over the earphones. «You're backing too fast. And incidentally, trouble's arrived.»

He braked with the rear jets, looking down in alarm. The surface of the asteroid was covered with a swarm of hornets. They were Dagenham's crew in yellow and black banded spacesuits. They were buzzing around a single figure in white that dodged and spun and eluded them. It was Jisbella.

«Steady as you go,» Jiz said quietly, although he could hear how hard she was breathing. «Ease off a little more. . .Roll a quarter turn.»

He obeyed her almost automatically, still watching the struggle below. The flank of the Weekender cut off any view of the trajectory of the safe as it approached him, but he could still see Jisabella and Dagenham's men. She ignited her suit rocket . . . he could see the tiny spurt of flame shoot out from her back . . . and came sailing up from the surface of the asteroid. A score of flames burst out from the backs of Dagenham's men as they followed. Half a dozen dropped the pursuit of Jisbella and came up after the Weekender.

«It's going to be close, Gully,» Jisbella was gasping now, but her voice was still steady. «Dagenham's ship came down on the other side, but they've probably signaled him by now and he'll be on his way. Hold your position, Gully. About ten seconds now. . .»

The hornets closed in and engulfed the tiny white suit.

«Foyle! Can you hear me? Foyle!» Dagenham's voice came in fuzzily and finally cleared. «This is Dagenham calling on your band. Come in, Foyle!»

«Jiz! Jiz! Can you get clear of them?»

«Hold your position, Gully. . . There she goes! It's a hole in one, son!» A crushing shock racked the Weekender as the safe, moving slowly but massively, rammed into themain hatch. At the same moment the white suited figure broke out of the cluster of yellow wasps. It came rocketing up to the Weekender, hotly pursued.

«Come on, Jiz! Come on!» Foyle howled. «Come, girl! Come!»

As Jisbella disappeared from sight behind the flank of the Weekender, Foyle set controls and prepared for top acceleration.

«Foyle! Will you answer me? This is Dagenham speaking.»

«To hell with you, Dagenham,» Foyle shouted. «Give me the word when you're aboard, Jiz, and hold on.»

«I can't make it, Gully.»

«Come on, girl!»

«I can't get aboard. The safe's blocking the hatch. It's wedged in halfway..,»

«Jiz,»

«There's no way in, I tell you,» she cried in despair. «I'm blocked out.» He stared around wildly. Dagenham's men were boarding the hull of the Weekender with the menacing purpose of professional raiders. Dagenham's ship was lifting over the brief horizon of the asteroid on a dead course for him. His head began to spin.

«Foyle, you're finished. You and the girl. But I'll offer a deal. . .»

«Gully, help me. Do something, Gully. I'm lost!»

«Vorga,» he said in a strangled voice. He closed his eyes and tripped the controls. The tail jets roared. The Weekender shook and shuddered forward. It broke free of Dagenham's boarders, of Jisbella, of warnings and pleas. It pressed Foyle back into the pilot's chair with the blackout of 10 G acceleration, an acceleration that was less pressing, less painful, less treacherous than the passion that drove him.

And as he passed from sight there rose up on his face the blood-red stigmata of his possession.