The Valkyrie Song

Prologue
I

Mecklenburg

1995

Sisters, she thought, are reflections of each other.

Ute sat and watched herself in younger reflection: Margarethe. Margarethe looked weary. And sad. It hurt Ute to see her like that: when they had been small, it had been as if the energy had been divided unequally between them — Margarethe had always been the livelier, cleverer, prettier sister. It also hurt Ute to see her sister in a place like this.

‘Do you remember,’ said Margarethe, gazing at the blue-tinged window glass, ‘when we were little? Do you remember we went to the beach and looked out across the Schaalsee and you said that one day we would sail away across it? To the other part of Germany — or to Denmark or Sweden — and you told me that it wasn’t allowed? Do you remember how angry I got?’

‘Yes, Margarethe, I remember.’

‘Can I tell you a secret, Ute?’

‘Of course you can, Margarethe. That’s what sisters are for. Just like when we were little. We always told each other secrets back then. At night, with the lights out; when it was safe to whisper, and Mamma and Papa couldn’t hear us. You tell me your secret now.’

They sat at a table near the window, which looked out over the gardens. It was a bright, sunny day and the flower beds were in full bloom, but the view was tinged slightly cobalt blue by the thick glass of the window. It must be because it’s special glass, thought Ute. The kind you can’t break. At least it was better than looking through bars.

Margarethe eyed the other patients, visitors and staff suspiciously. She shut them out again, confining her universe to herself, her sister and the blue-tinged view. She leaned forward conspiratorially to speak to Ute. In that moment she became again the pretty little girl she had once been. The very pretty girl she had once been.

‘It’s a terrible secret.’

‘We all have those,’ said Ute and rested her hand on her sister’s.

‘It will take me a long time to tell you. Lots of visits. I’ve not told anyone but I have to tell someone now. Will you come back to see me and hear my story?’

‘Of course I will.’ Ute smiled sadly.

‘You remember when they took Mamma and Papa away? Do you remember how we were split up and sent to different state care homes?’

‘You know I do. How could I forget? But let’s not talk about such things now…’

‘They sent me to a special place, Ute.’ Margarethe’s voice was lowered now to a breathy whisper. ‘They said I was different. That I was special. That I could do things for them that other girls couldn’t. They told me I could become a hero. They taught me things. Terrible things. So bad that I’ve never told you about them. Never. That’s why I’m here. That’s what’s wrong with me. All of these scary, horrible things in my head…’ She frowned as if the weight of what was in her mind pained her. ‘I wouldn’t be in here now if I hadn’t been taught to do such terrible things.’

‘What things, Margarethe?’

‘I’ll tell you. I’ll tell you now. But you have to promise me that after I tell you, you will make things right for me.’

‘I promise, Margarethe. You’re my sister. I promise I’ll make things right.’