The wake-up

9

"Just give me the name," typed Thorpe. He had logged on after coming home from the party, given it one more shot. "Give me the name. We can both go to sleep."

"Not sure."

"Give me what you've got, then." It took even longer to get a response this time.

"I'm sure of the name. Not sure I should give it to you."

Thorpe stared at the screen, trying to determine the best tactic. The wrong approach would shut down this avenue for good. It had taken him four days to connect with this man, ever since Billy confirmed that the Engineer had been working for another shop. Thorpe had been passed from one contact to another, before finally reaching him tonight. His fingers hovered over the keyboard, then banged out, "I won't insult you by offering money, but I can promise you my help with any problems you might have." He changed the word problems to problem before sending the instant message.

The courtyard gate squeaked, and Thorpe got up from the computer. He heard Pam giggle as he peeked through the blinds, saw her staggering through the moonlight toward her front door. A guy with a crew cut had his arm around her, a lumbering jock in khakis and a red-and-blue-striped rugby shirt. Thorpe went back to the computer, laid the 9-mm on the table.

"Money is never an insult."

Thorpe waited.

"Still, a favor is a nice thing to be owed."

Thorpe turned at the sudden welter of voices from outside, Pam yelling, the jock barking out obscenities. He forced himself to stay seated, to give the man on the other end of the conversation time to decide. Impatience was a sign of weakness.

"So many problems in the world, Frank. It would be good to have someone to call."

Thorpe glanced toward the curtains, then back at the screen.

"Dale Bingham is the name you're looking for."

Pam started shouting again. He could hear Claire trying to smooth things over, repeating over and over that it was late, that it was after midnight. Thorpe was already out the door by the time the jock called somebody "a fucking bitch."

Lights came on in a couple of other apartments as Thorpe ambled over, deliberately slowing his pace. The three of them were clustered on the steps of apartment number 4, Pam just inside the open door, while Claire blocked the jock from following. Pam was dressed sleek and sexy, hennaed hair piled high, glitter dusted across the tops of her breasts, but Claire must have been in bed already, her hair tousled, barefoot, wearing a Raiders jersey that hung to her knees.

"Have you seen my cat?" asked Thorpe.

The jock whirled. There was a fresh scratch on his cheek, two pink parallel lines. "What's your problem?"

"Looking for my cat," said Thorpe, closer now.

"I told you I was celibate," Pam said from behind Claire. "That's the first thing I said when you asked me if I wanted a drink. I'm celibate."

"Fine, you don't have to cum." The jock tried again to get through the door, but Claire held her ground.

"I just wanted to dance-that's what I told you." Pam's mascara was smeared. "You seemed like such a nice guy, Don. That's why I let you drive me home."

"My name is Ron, you fucking bitch."

Thorpe stepped onto the porch. The air was heavy with booze. "Here, kitty, kitty."

The jock turned on Thorpe, fists balled. "Get out of here, man, or I'll kick your ass."

"I'm just looking for my cat. She's a beautiful fluffy white Persian." Thorpe smiled at him. "You probably should go home, Ron; Snowball is scared of strangers."

"I don't give a fuck about your cat, man." The jock went to push Thorpe, but Thorpe dipped his shoulder, and the guy pushed air, lurched off the porch and onto the grass. The jock quickly got to his feet, his eyes hot now. "You tripped me."

Thorpe stepped off the porch, leading the jock away. "Here, kitty. Snowball?"

"Be careful, Frank," called Claire.

The jock jabbed a forefinger at her. "You, shut up." He advanced on Thorpe.

Thorpe stood there in his baggy shorts and a T-shirt. "I'll walk you to your car, if you want, Ron. Or call you a cab."

The jock swung at Thorpe's head, but Thorpe slipped-dodged the punch and threw him off balance. Another punch, same result. Another and another, the jock slipping on the damp grass, scrambling up, breathing hard, cursing. He kept kicking and punching, but Thorpe stayed just out of reach, moving loose and easy, sometimes gently tugging at the jock's rugby shirt, sending him sprawling. After a few minutes, the jock was on his hands and knees in the grass, dripping with sweat and trying to catch his breath.

Thorpe helped him up. "I'm really tired, and it's way past my bedtime. How about we call a truce. You go back to the club and find someone who hasn't taken a vow of chastity, and I'll go make myself a cup of warm cocoa and look for my kitty cat."

The jock wiped his nose, nodded. "You're lucky I don't want to hurt an old guy."

"I appreciate that." Thorpe watched him leave, waiting until the jock had gone through the iron gate before walking back onto the porch. Miss Edwards upstairs had turned off her light, but he knew she was still watching. "You ladies all right?"

"Snowball?" Claire pinched him, laughed.

Thorpe smiled back at her. "That's a nice name for a cat. If I had a cat, I'd probably name her something like that. Or Tabby."

"I bet when Gandhi said he was celibate, nobody argued with him," said Pam.

Claire and Thorpe looked at each other.

Pam yawned. "You coming in?"

"I'm going to stay out here for a little bit," said Claire, sitting on the porch steps.

Thorpe sat beside her.

"I shouldn't have left her alone at the club," said Claire after Pam had closed the door. "It's just that I have a busy day tomorrow and-"

"It wasn't your fault."

"She's got lousy taste in men," said Claire. "Not that I should talk."

"How long has this celibacy thing been going on?"

Claire laughed. "Three days. A new record."

They sat there, not speaking now, enjoying the quiet of the surrounding apartments, aware of the odd intimacy that existed between them, an unacknowledged intimacy. A soap bubble of desire. Miss Edwards had given up and gone to bed. Just the two of them alone in the courtyard, hearing the hum of the freeway traffic in the distance. It felt like being shipwrecked on a desert island, listening to the sound of surf and not caring if they were rescued.

Claire shivered, pulled the football jersey down over her knees. "That was nice what you did. Not hitting that jerk."

"Guys like that, all meat and attitude, you hit them and they resent it. They make excuses. They say they were drunk or you sucker punched them. You're just giving them a reason to come back for more." Thorpe plucked a blade of grass, peeled it down the center. "This way, you let them tire themselves out. If you pretend not to notice, they go away with their dignity intact and they never bother you again."

"I shouldn't have been surprised by the way you handled him." Claire scratched behind her knee, and he knew the skin was baby-soft back there. "Question number sixteen."

"Okay…"

Claire nodded again. "Question sixteen of the Minnesota Multiphasic Human Relations test. 'You usually walk, A: fairly fast, with long steps; B: fairly fast, with short, quick steps; C: head up, looking the world in the face; D: slowly, head down.' You answered, 'C: head up, looking the world in the face,' which indicates that you approach situations without any preconceived notions, with creativity and openness."

"What about Ron the jock? How would he have answered the question?"

" 'A: fairly fast, with long steps.' A 'tromp right over you' guy who doesn't take no for an answer."

Thorpe smiled. "That stuff is bullshit, you know."

"I have had my doubts lately. I've been asking you questions for months now-Iowa, Stanford-Binet… Your test results are contradictory. Not inconclusive, contradictory." She was wide-awake. "Sometimes I think you do that deliberately."

"That's impossible. People with Ph.D.'s put those tests together."

She pinched him again, harder this time. "I've been taking course work in criminal profiling. The certification process is pretty rigorous, but police and federal agencies are hiring, and I could use a full-time job."

"A hundred years ago, cops used phrenology to solve crimes, convinced that the bumps on the heads of suspects could determine guilt or innocence. Profiling is in the same category. All those TV experts… the killer is a white man in his early thirties who wears boxers, not briefs… except when he isn't, and doesn't."

Claire wiggled her toes. She had long ones, too. "Maybe I should sell insurance, like you."

"You wouldn't like it."

Claire's face was close, her breath warm on his cheek. "Why haven't you ever made a move on me? I know you're attracted."

Thorpe looked back at her. "You're too smart for me. I wouldn't have a chance."

"Liar." Claire put her arm around him. "We'd have some fun."

Thorpe half-closed his eyes, enjoying her touch, almost giving in.

Claire must have sensed his hesitation. "I used to see that one girl come by late at night. Cute brunette… acted like she knew just where she was going. She seemed like the kind of girl you'd go for. I was a little jealous." She brushed her lips across his neck, and he raked his hands through her hair, the night humming now. "I kept waiting for her to show up after you got carjacked. Take care of you, maybe bring some chicken soup… at least see how you were doing. So, I guess it's over with her."

Thorpe pulled away slightly. "Yeah, it's over."

Claire stiffened. "You're still carrying a torch?"

"No… not exactly."

She watched him. "But not exactly free, either?"

He missed her touch already. "No."

"No one is totally free, Frank. You can wait around forever for the perfect moment. Sometimes you just have to take what's in front of you and enjoy it." She waited. "Not tonight, huh? You don't know what you're missing."

"No… not tonight."

"Pretty sure of yourself, thinking you're going to get asked again. Must be nice to be God's gift to women." Claire kissed him and he kissed her back, her mouth warm. "Good night, Frank," she breathed into him, getting up. Another kiss and the door closed behind her, gone before he could tell her he had changed his mind. The night was lonely without her.

Thorpe went back to his apartment. He had left the computer on, something that Warren had warned him against.

"You're up late, Frank. Or is it early where you are?"

Thorpe stared at the instant message flashing. He didn't recognize the screen name, but he knew immediately who it was.

"Don't ignore me, Frank. You had better manners that morning in the park."

Thorpe shivered. That's what happens when you get what you wish for. He typed "About time. I had about given up on you."

"Keep the faith."

"We're way past that, you and I."

"You got fired, Frank. I hope it wasn't something I did."

"How did you find me?"

"Trade secret. I took a peek at your personnel file. You've been a naughty boy, Frank. Got your fingers in the honey pot, according to what I read, but then, you should hear what they say about me. We should get together sometime. Exchange notes."

"I'm pretty busy these days."

"You're not just playing hard to get, are you, Frank?"

"I don't see what you have to offer. You had to burn down Lazurus's operation to get away. Makes you seem kind of desperate."

"Why so hostile? I've always treated you with the utmost courtesy. Is that belly wound still giving you problems? I hope you don't blame me for that."

"Of course not."

"Can you still eat everything you like? Fried foods and such? You seem like the kind of person who likes things spicy. I'd hate to think you were on some bland baby food regimen."

"I've got a healthy appetite, thanks."

"Glad to hear it. We have to take our pleasures where we find them."

"Where are you?"

"I'm here, Frank."

"You know what I mean. Can you smell the ocean from where you are?"

"I went beachcombing just this morning. The offshore swells brought in all sorts of interesting things. What about you?"

"I can smell the surf from where I'm sitting."

"We might be neighbors and not even know it. Sad, isn't it? We should get together."

"You think we have anything to talk about?"

"Absolutely."

"I'll think about it."

"Be bold, Frank."

"I have to get my beauty sleep." Thorpe logged off. His hands were shaking. He stared at his fingers until they stopped trembling, waited until they were perfectly still. It took longer than he would have liked.