Thorns

TWELVE: HELL HATH NO FURY

Burris got the bad news on his fifth day at the hospital.

He was in the garden, as usual. Aoudad came to him.

“There can’t be any skin grafts. The doctors say no. You’re full of crazy antibodies.”

“I knew that already.” Calmly.

“Even your own skin rejects your skin.”

“I scarcely blame it,” Burris said.

They walked past the saguaro. “You could wear some kind of mask. It would be a little uncomfortable, but they do a good job these days. The mask practically breathes. Porous plastic, right over your head. You’d get used to it in a week.”

“I’ll think about it,” Burris promised. He knelt beside a small barrel cactus. Convex rows of spines took a great-circle route toward the pole. Flower buds seemed to be forming. The small glowing label in the earth said Echinocactus grusonii. Burris read it aloud.

“These cacti fascinate you so much,” said Aoudad. “Why? What do they have for you?”

“Beauty.”

“These? They’re all thorns!”

“I love cacti. I wish I could live forever in a garden of cacti.” A fingertip touched a spine. “Do you know, on Manipool they have almost nothing but thorny succulents? I wouldn’t call them cacti, of course, but the general effect is the same. It’s a dry world. Pluvial belts about the poles, then mounting dryness approaching the Equator. It rains about every billion years at the Equator and somewhat more frequently in the temperate zones.”

“Homesick?”

“Hardly. But I learned the beauty of thorns there.”

“Thorns? They stick you.”

“That’s part of their beauty.”

“You sound like Chalk now,” Aoudad muttered. “Pain is instructive, he says. Pain is gam. And thorns are beautiful. Give me a rose.”

“Rose bushes are thorny, too,” Burris remarked quietly.

Aoudad looked distressed. “Tulips, then. Tulips!”

Burris said, “The thorn is merely a highly evolved form of leaf. An adaptation to a harsh environment. Cacti can’t afford to transpire the way leafy plants do. So they adapt. I’m sorry you regard such an elegant adaptation as ugly.”

“I guess I’ve never thought about it much. Look, Burris, Chalk would like you to stay here another week or two. There are some more tests.”

“But if facial surgery is impossible—”

“They want to check you out generally. With an eye toward the eventual body transplant.”

“I see.” Burris nodded briefly. He turned to the sun, letting the feeble winter beams strike his altered face. “How good it is to stand in the sunlight again! I’m grateful to you, Bart, do you know that? You dragged me out of that room. That dark night of the soul. I feel everything thawing in me now, breaking loose, moving about. Am I mixing my metaphors? You see how less rigid I am already.”

“Are you flexible enough to entertain a visitor?”

“Who?” Instantly suspicious.

“Marco Prolisse’s widow.”

“Elise? I thought she was in Rome!”

“Rome’s an hour from here. She wants very badly to see you. She says you’ve been kept from her by the authorities. I won’t force you, but I think you ought to let her see you. You could put the bandages on again, maybe.”

“No. No bandages, ever again. When will she be here?”

“She’s already here. You just say the word and I’ll produce her.”

“Bring her down, then. I’ll see her in the garden. It’s so much like Manipool here.”

Aoudad was strangely silent. At length he said, “See her in your room.”

Burris shrugged. “As you say.” He caressed the spines.

Nurses, orderlies, doctors, technicians, wheelchaired patients, all stared at him as he entered the building. Even two work-robots scanned him oddly, trying to match him against their programmed knowledge of human bodily configurations. Burris did not mind. His self-consciousness was eroding swiftly, day by day. The bandages he had worn on his first day here now seemed an absurd device. It was like going naked in public, he thought: first it seemed unthinkable, then, in time, it became tolerable, and at length customary. One had to accustom one’s self.

Yet he was uneasy as he waited for Elise Prolisse.

He was at the window, watching the courtyard garden, when the knock came. Some last-minute impulse (tact or fear?) caused him to keep his back turned as she entered. The door closed timidly. He had not seen her in five years, but he remembered her as lush, somewhat overblown, a handsome woman. His enhanced hearing told him that she had come in alone, without Aoudad. Her breathing was ragged and hoarse. He heard her lock the door.

“Minner?” she said softly. “Minner, turn around and look at me. It’s all right. I can take it.”

This was different from showing himself to nameless-hospital personnel. To his surprise, Burris found the seemingly solid serenity of the past few days dissolving swiftly. Panic clutched him. He longed to hide. But out of dismay came cruelty, an icy willingness to inflict pain. He pivoted on his heel and swung around to hurl his image into Elise Prolisse’s large dark eyes.

Give her credit: she had resilience.

“Oh,” she whispered. “Oh, Minner, it’s”—a smooth shift of gears—“not so awful. I heard it was much worse.”

“Do you think I’m handsome?”

“You don’t frighten me. I thought it might be frightening.” She came toward him. She was wearing a clinging black tunic that probably had been sprayed on. High breasts were back in vogue, and that was where Elise wore hers, sprouting almost from her collar-bones, and deeply separated. Pectoral surgery was the secret. The deep mounds of flesh were wholly concealed by the tunic, and yet what kind of concealment could a micron of spray provide? Her hips flared; her thighs were pillars. But she had lost some weight. In the recent months of stress, no doubt, sleeplessness had shaved an inch or two from those continental buttocks. She was quite close to him now. Some dizzying perfume assailed him, and with no conscious effort at all Burris desensitized himself to it.

His hand slipped between hers.

His eyes met hers. When she flinched, it was only for the briefest instant.

“Did Marco die bravely?” she asked.

“He died like a man. Like the man he was.”

“Did you see?”

“Not the last moments, no. I saw them take him away. While we waited our turns.”

“You thought you would die, too?”

“I was sure of it. I said the last words for Malcondotto. He said them for me. But I came back.”

“Minner, Minner, Minner, how terrible it must have been!” She still clasped his hand. She was stroking the fingers … stroking even that tiny prehensile worm of flesh next to his littlest finger. Burris felt the wrench of amazement as she touched the loathsome thing. Her eyes were wide, solemn, tearless. She has two children, or is it three? But still young. Still vital. He wished she would release his hand. Her nearness was disturbing. He sensed radiations of warmth from her thighs, low enough on the electromagnetic spectrum, yet detectable. He would have bit his lip to choke back tension if his lip still could fall between his teeth.

“When did you get the news about us?” he asked.

“When it came from the pickup station on Ganymede. They broke it to me very well. But I thought horrible things. I have to confess them to you. I wanted to know from God why it was that Marco had died and you had lived. I’m sorry, Minner.”

“Don’t be. If I had my choice, I’d be the dead one and he’d be alive. Marco and Malcondotto both. Believe me. I’m not simply making words, Elise. I’d trade.”

He felt like a hypocrite. Better dead than mutilated, of course! But that was not the way she would understand his words. She’d see only the noble part, the unmarried survivor wishing he could lay down his life to spare the dead husbands and fathers. What could he tell her? He had sworn off whining.

“Tell me how it was,” she said, still holding his hand, tugging him down with her to sit on the edge of the bed. “How they caught you. How they treated you. What it was like. I have to know!”

“An ordinary landing,” Burris told her. “Standard landing and contact procedures. Not a bad world; dry; give it time and it’ll be like Mars. Another two million years. Right now it’s Arizona shading into Sonora, with a good solid slash of Sahara. We met them. They met us.”

His eye-shutters clicked shut. He felt the blasting heat of the wind of Manipool. He saw the cactus shapes, snaky grayish plants twisting spikily along the sand for hundreds of yards. The vehicles of the natives came for him again.

“They were polite to us. They had been visited before, knew the whole contact routine. No space-flight themselves, but only because they weren’t interested. They spoke a few languages. Malcondotto could talk with them. The gift of tongues; he spoke a Sirian dialect, and they followed. They were cordial, distant … alien. They took us away.”

A roof over his head with creatures growing in it. Not simple low-phylum things, either. No thermoluminescent fungi. These were backboned creatures sprouting from the arched roof.

Tubs of fermenting mash with other living things growing in them. Tiny pink bifurcated things with thrashing legs. Burris said, “Strange place. But not hostile. They poked us a bit, prodded us. We talked. We carried out observations. After a while it dawned on us that we were in confinement.”

Elise’s eyes were very glossy. They pursued his lips as the words tumbled from him.

“An advanced scientific culture, beyond doubt. Almost post-scientific. Certainly post-industrial. Malcondotto thought they were using fusion power, but we were never quite sure. After the third or fourth day we had no chance to check.”

She was not interested at all, he realized suddenly. She was barely listening. Then why had she come? Why had she asked? The story that was at the core of his being should be of concern to her, and yet there she stood, frowning, big-eyeing him, unlistening. He glowered at her. The door was locked. She cannot choose but hear. And thus spake on that ancient man, the bright-eyed Mariner.

“On the sixth day they came and took Marco away.”

A ripple of alertness. A fissure in that sleek surface of sensual blandness.

“We never saw him again alive. But we sensed that they were going to do something bad to him. Marco sensed it first. He always was a bit of a pre-cog.”

“Yes. Yes, he was. A little.”

“He left. Malcondotto and I speculated. Some days passed, and they came for Malcondotto, too. Marco hadn’t returned. Malcondotto talked with them before they took him. He learned that they had performed some sort of … experiment on Marco. A failure. They buried him without showing him to us. Then they went to work on Malcondotto.”

I’ve lost her again, he realized. She just doesn’t care. A flicker of interest when I told her how Prolisse died. And then … nulla.

She cannot choose but hear.

“Days. They came for me. They showed me Malcondotto, dead. He looked … somewhat as I look now. Different. Worse. I couldn’t understand what they were saying to me. A droning buzz, a chattering rasping sound. What sound would cacti make if they could talk? They put me back and let me stew awhile. I suppose they were reviewing their first two experiments, trying to see where they had gone wrong, which organs couldn’t be fiddled with. I spent a million years waiting for them to come again. They came. They put me on a table, Elise. The rest you can see.”

“I love you,” she said.

“?”

“I want you, Minner. I’m burning.”

“It was a lonely trip home. They put me in my ship. I could still operate it, after a fashion. They rehabilitated me. I got going toward this system. The voyage was a bad one.”

“But you made it to Earth.”

How comes it, then, that thou art out of hell?

Why, this is hell, nor am I out of it.

He said, “I made it, yes. I would have seen you when I landed, Elise, but you have to understand I wasn’t a free agent. First they had me by the throat. Then they let go and I ran. You must forgive.”

“I forgive you. I love you.”

“Elise—”

She touched something at her throat. The polymerized chains of her garment gave up the ghost. Black shards of fabric lay at her ankles, and she stood bare before him.

So much flesh. Bursting with vitality. The heat of her was overpowering.

“Elise—”

“Come and touch me. With that strange body of yours. With those hands. I want to feel that curling thing you have on each hand. Stroking me.”

Her shoulders were wide. Her breasts were well anchored by those strong piers and taut cables. The hips of the Earth-mother, the thighs of a courtesan. She was terribly close to him, and he shivered in the blaze, and then she stood back to let him see her in full.

“This isn’t right, Elise.”

“But I love you! Don’t you feel the force of it?”

“Yes. Yes.”

“You’re all I have. Marco’s gone. You saw him last. You’re my link to him. And you’re so—”

You are Helen, he thought.

“—beautiful.”

“Beautiful? I am beautiful?”

Chalk had said it, Duncan the Corpulent. I daresay a lot of women would fling themselves at your feet … grotesqueness has its appeal.

“Please, Elise, cover yourself.”

Now there was fury in the soft, warm eyes. “You are not sick! You are strong enough!”

“Perhaps.”

“But you refuse me?” She pointed at his waist. “These monsters—they did not destroy you. You are still a … man.”

“Perhaps.”

“Then—”

“I’ve been through so much, Elise.”

“And I have not?”

“You’ve lost your husband. That’s as old as time. What’s happened to me is brand-new. I don’t want—”

“You are afraid?”

“No.”

“Then show me your body. Take away the robe. There is the bed!”

He hesitated. Surely she knew his guilty secret; he had coveted her for years. But one does not trifle with the wives of friends, and she was Marco’s. Now Marco was dead. Elise glared at him, half melting with desire, half frigid with anger. Helen. She is Helen.

She flung herself against him.

The fleshy mounds quivering in intimate contact, the firm belly pressing close, the hands clutching at his shoulders. She was a tall woman. He saw the flash of her teeth. Then she was kissing him, devouring his mouth despite its rigidity.

Her lips suck forth my soul: see where it flies!

His hands were on the satiny smoothness of her back. His nails indented the flesh. The little tentacles crawled in constricted circles. She forced him backward, toward the bed, the mantis-wife seizing her mate. Come, Helen, come, give me my soul again.

They toppled down together. Her black hair was pasted to her cheeks by sweat. Her breasts heaved wildly; her eyes had the gloss of jade. She clawed at his robe.

There are women who seek hunchbacks, women who seek amputees, women who seek the palsied, the lame, the decaying. Elise sought him. The hot tide of sensuality swept over him. His robe parted, and then he was bare to her.

He let her look upon him as he now was.

It was a test he prayed she would fail, but she did not fail it, for the full sight of him served only to stoke the furnace in her. He saw the flaring nostrils, the flushed skin. He was her captive, her victim.

She wins. But I will salvage something.

Turning to her, he seized her shoulders, forced her against the mattress, and covered her. This was her final triumph, woman-like, to lose in the moment of victory, to surrender at the last instant. Her thighs engulfed him. His too-smooth flesh embraced her silkiness. With a sudden great burst of demonic energy he mastered her and split her to the core.