Tower

Had planned to wait for retribution, but the shelf life was shorter than expected. Even with the echo and sway that passed for my life, I had the sense of time closing in. Could not point to anything and say why. Just heard my internal clock ticking. O’Connor and Cousin Ira had their plans, not that the rest of the universe was listening. So I changed the plates on the Buick again, and let everyone know I was off to Philly for a few days’ fun.

Fuck Philly, like I might go there for fun. For a haunting, it was a fine place. Could throw on my green coveralls as a nod to old time’s sake and stand across from the old walkup, trying to catch glimpses of Leeza’s ghost. Christ, she’d lately been coming back into my sleep. Even through all the blood and chaos, she persisted. Her presence, which had been but a buzz since Boston, had re-emerged. Hated myself for letting her back in.

With Kathleen, it had been so free, so frequent. Whatever we wanted, we got: no mind games, no mishegas, no withholding, no negotiation. We’d drink and fuck and fuck and fuck. No wonder it took her murder to make me miss her. Leeza Velez meted herself out to me in tiny rations. Being with her had felt like anything but freedom. I mean, for fuck’s sake, I’d only been inside her three times and damn me if each stroke, each kiss, each thrust didn’t feel like a prayer to an attentive god. It was to laugh, no? I may have let her spirit back in, but she was gone.

Philly it was, if only to establish an alibi. Parked the Buick downtown, rented a Toyota and checked into a motel that specialized in privacy, prostitutes, and triple-X programming. Called a bouncer I’d befriended when Leeza and I were doing our bar thing. Gave him a grand, key to the car, use of the room. When he came in, I went out. Did a reverse Beatles, leaving through the bathroom window. Caught a cab back downtown, got in the Buick, headed for Boston.

Crossing the Charles River didn’t feel a fucking thing like home. Didn’t love that dirty water, the beer or the baseball team. Just hated the Sox a little less than the Yanks. For a Mets’ fan it’s like choosing between gangrene and leprosy. They both get you, one just quicker than the next. Thinking on it, I wasn’t so sure why I’d taken on the Red Sox mantle. Funny phrase that, as Mickey Mantle was the most beloved Yankee of all. First thought it was as much to rub it in Nick’s face as to honor Kathleen. Nah, that was too easy. In my guts I think it was a warning. Like Pay attention, Nicky, I’ve changed teams. I’ve gone over to the other side.

Rudi was a slippery fuck and more clever than me by half. That argued against careful planning and surveillance. If I’d tried to follow his movements for more than a day or two, he’d sense it. You don’t get to be such a kingpin cocksucker without the feel for being watched. An amateur like me couldn’t set his ass up. He’d have one of his boys put one behind my ear and I’d never see it coming. Had to be done like a surprise party with only one guest and the guest of honor. Chances were good I would get myself killed in the process, but fuck if I wasn’t going to take Rudi with me for company.

Drove to the warehouse where we first met. Parked down the street, way down, watched the cars leave until there was just Rudi’s old Caddy keeping the cobblestones company. Hadn’t seen any cameras during my first trip and I didn’t figure Rudi was a surveillance camera type of guy. No, figured him as strictly old school, the type who liked that his rep would keep people away. Also didn’t strike me as a man who liked tapes and records. Bet you he never wrote shit down. Kept it all in his head.

Took one last look around, knelt down, stuck a blade into the front tire of Rudi’s Caddy. Strode right into the warehouse as I had that first time, quieter though. The crudely painted step van was still in the loading bay, maybe dustier, probably hadn’t moved an inch. Looked up. Saw the light on in the office.

Shouted out, “Rudi!”

Saw his face at the window, smiling. Waved me up.

We were alone in the office. Wasn’t smiling now. Smelled trouble. So I confirmed his fears to relax him.

“I’m fucked, Rudi. Didn’t know who to come to. And I figure you owe me a little something for...”

Relax he did, as long as the woes appeared to be mine. “What’s the trouble, boyo?”

“Cops. Think my best bud in New York has gone over.”

“Jaysus. Nothing worse. Did ya go to Boyle?”

“Can’t. I’m the one got my bud into the crew.”

“Fooked three ways to Sunday, ya are. But what is it ya think I can do for ya?”

“Just need a few days to figure things out. Have you got a safehouse or something, someplace I can go and get my head around it? You owe me that.”

He didn’t look pleased. Rudi wasn’t a man who liked owing people. On the other hand, you need more than fear to inspire loyalty. My sense was that he kept his word even when it killed him to do so. That was a big part of a man’s rep, his word.

“Two days,” he said. “No more.”

Smiled as if he’d commuted my sentence. “Thanks, Rudi.”

“Let’s be on our way.”

Shut the lights and locked the door behind him. Followed him to his Caddy.

“Shite!”

“What?”

“Flat tire.”

Acted twitchy, nervous. “I can’t stay out in the open like this. I’ve got my car down the block.”

Sneered at me. Could tell he thought I was a fool. Cars are easy to trace. I was more trouble than I was worth. He only knew the half of it. Walked down to the Electra.

Actually stopped and admired it. Didn’t make the connection between it and Finney’s rusted piece of shit. Got in behind the wheel. He slid in next to me. Didn’t wait or give him a lecture. Reached over and stuck a twelve inch chefs knife through his liver and pulled it across him widthwise. Yanked it out. Dark thick liquid poured out of him as he sat there frozen and in shock. Pulled away from the curb.

“You should have buried her, Rudi. You should have fucking buried her!”

Took out my shield and mashed it into his face.

In the movies, he would have smiled knowingly or laughed sardonically. In real life he coughed up blood and died. Plastic slipcovers are like a godsend. Found a spot to finish the job I started. Did what needed doing, then headed to Philly. Was back in New York a few days later when the story broke in the Boston rags

Like I said, he should have fucking buried her.